By Raphael Awen
My spiritual seeking took a major chill pill the more I realized that I am already in full possession of everything there is to attain. All that’s left is simply playing with it all, and when I get tired, I curl up under a tree and take another nap.
If this sounds different from your experience, I get it. It is very different from how I’ve lived my life on a whole bunch of levels for a long, long time, in a whole bunch of settings.
If this sounds to be to good to be true, as in ‘how can there be improvement without work?’, all I can say is that if you feel this with your heart, you can verify this to be true for yourself. You don’t actually need me to convince you of this.
Which brings up the issue of spiritual abuse and the wake of all the spiritual paths you were once a part of. Every spiritual abuse that’s ever occurred to you happened to you because you were somehow convinced that some one or something possessed something you didn’t, that ‘they’ were somehow more than you.
Don’t be too hard on yourself though, we’ve all done this, and will keep doing it till we’re done with it. We’ve all played small with our bigness out of the sheer fear of who and what we actually fully know that we really are.
You possess right now all there is to possess. You will never become more enlightened than you are. All that’s left is for you to awaken to this fact and all that remains is play.
Your total experience is real and it’s personal. It’s all loaded for meaning and purpose. Don’t believe the shit sellers who preyed on your previous ignorance. You matter. You rock. It might well be made up, of course it is! Hello…it’s all play, people.
Get it? It’s all divine and personal play, and you’re all up in it.
As your life is right now, where it’s moving, what it’s wrestling with. Epic changes. Subtle changes. Love it for the heaven that it is and is becoming. The play ground is infinite, so that basically means you’re never done, while at the same time you can never be more complete than you already are. Your mind might choke a bit on this, but your heart just basks in it.
If it all doesn’t feel like play 5 minutes from now, that’s to be expected. You’ve lived a long time in a parallel universe where almost no one is at play any more past the age of about 5.
The question we’re left with then goes something like this. What stands in the way of you returning to play, and how could you respond to that….but all inside of play?
I gotta go now, I’ve got a life to go play.
Let me know if you wanna play together sometime.
Raphael Awen is co-creator and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.
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