We are discussing a pretty typical experience that people have on a daily basis, but we are feeling it, digesting it, reflecting on it, learning from it.  Who does that when buying a vehicle?  It is usually filled with anxiety, stress, control, frustration, reservation, annoyance, and a plethora of other unfelt emotions that just get repressed and gets lodged into the emotional body.

Day 25

Christopher:  Good morning, everyone.  I am not sure who to begin with today.  A big day yesterday with the purchase of an RV.  Any reactions?

Angela:  I like it, but it totally needs to be clean.  It’s a little gross in areas.

C:  Yeah, it does need cleaning for sure.  Kathleen is excited to begin.

A:  So glad she is going to put a woman’s touch in it.

C:  You can advocate for your needs too, Angela.  You are not the only woman in the house.

A:  Awww…thank you, Christopher.  I was hoping you would say that.

C:  I have been meaning to talk to you about how you are feeling about me and Kathleen.

A:  I love it, Christopher.  I feels good to have sister-type around.

C:  I can feel that.  It is important to me that we have our time too, Angela.  We really just started to get to know each other.

A:  Yeah, I would like to keep talking with you.  And Simon.  You both mean so much to me.

C:  You mean a ton to me, Angela.  I will be looking to you for a woman’s perspective and advice.

A:  Really?  I would like that.  : )

C:  Any advice to give me now?

A:  I guess it would be to be honest with her.  No hiding this time.  She is stronger than a part of you thought she was at one point.

C:  Yes.   I am aware of that now.

A:  Also, a woman likes it when you stand your ground for what you feel in your heart even if it is not what they are feeling is true for them in the moment.

C:  That is the part I had struggled with.  So easy for a part of me to capitulate to the mom projection.

A:  You are a man now, Christopher.  A man with a huge heart and a growing spine.  Use ‘em both.

C:  Okay, Angela.  You are going to be a big part of my new life.  I can tell.

A:  I would like that, Christopher.

C:  I felt your leading edge just now.  We also have a trailing edge and I can feel yours around men in past lives.

A:  Yeah.  I would like to speak to Jillian and Kathleen about those and not talk about them here.

C:  I understand.  To be felt by another woman or women feels crucial.

A:  Thanks for understanding, Christopher.

C:  Of course, Angela.  Anything else you wanted to talk about?

A:  No not really.  I want to dance again with you.  That was fun.

C:  Yes, it was.  Simon was a little embarrassed but I could feel him get into it.

A:  Totally.  He liked it despite himself.  I’ll work on him.  ; )

C:  Lol!  I know you will.  I feel I am going to check in with him, too, this morning.

A:  Okay.  Thanks for talking with me.

C:  Thank you for your heart, Angela.  I am so honoured that you are a part of me.

A:  Swoon!

C:  Love you, Angela.

A:  I love you too, my king.

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Christopher:  Good morning, Simon.  How are you feeling about yesterday?

Simon:  I’m okay.  Glad we made it home without getting pulled over for the headlights.

C:  Yeah.  I could feel that stress in you.

S:  I appreciate you holding that and feeling me in it as you were driving.

C:  You are welcome, Simon.  These little details can create bigger problems, but nothing that we can’t deal with as they arise.

S:  I like feeling it that way.  I REALLY appreciated Wayne being there yesterday too. Wow.  I feel a little guilty saying that as if I couldn’t have trusted you to handle the details.

C:  I understand why you are so grateful.  While I we certainly could have dealt with all that ourselves, there is a comfort in having someone else to bounce ideas off of, and just have around as emotional support.

S:  Yeah.  I felt so much more at ease having both Wayne and Kathleen there.  It felt good to feel Kathleen in her vision of the inside amidst all the crap inside.  That was pretty cool she could do that.

C:  It felt important for all of us to be in agreement in our hearts.  I just got how SoulFullHeart is so unique in that every experience we have, whether spiritual or practical, are all sacred and calls us to feel ourselves in every moment, not just when we journal or have a session.

S:  You just now got that?

C:  Well, no.  I guess it just landed a little deeper as I am typing this out.  We are discussing a pretty typical experience that people have on a daily basis, but we are feeling it, digesting it, reflecting on it, learning from it.  Who does that when buying a vehicle?  It is usually filled with anxiety, stress, control, frustration, reservation, annoyance, and a plethora of other unfelt emotions that just get repressed and gets lodged into the emotional body.

S:  Are you still talking to me?

C:  I thought I was.  You didn’t have that experience?

S:  I guess I wasn’t conscious of it.  I was too busy stressing.  However, now that you are talking about it, it was different for me.  I could feel stress but that stress was being held and outed by you and therefore gave it air.  That helped me to relax which made the day go by without that pent up energy I usually get.  So, yeah, as a part I get what you are saying.  That is totally cool.

C:  I’m glad you felt that.

S:  Me too.  Is this journal worth publishing?  It doesn’t feel deep enough.

C:  They are all worth publishing, Simon.  They all have worth to me and you and that is priceless.  I don’t need anyone to “like” it.  I do.  Our SoulFullHeart family does  If it goes into someone else then that is awesome, but not required.

S:  Okay.  Good enough for me.  I guess that is still an old image thing.  Letting it go.

C:  I like it.

S:  Me too.

C:  Let’s go get something to eat, shall we?

S:  Starving.

C:  Actually, we’re thriving with love.

S:  That’s a whole new blog, let’s eat.

C:  Fair enough.

 My name is Christopher Tydeman and I’ve been embracing the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life since March, 2012. I am a SoulFullHeart facilitator-in-training, author on this blog, and I hosted the SoulFullHeart Experience Radio Show. I was invited by Jillian and Wayne Vriend, co-creators of SoulFullHeart, to begin my own 90 day outing. In the next 90 days, I will be vulnerably sharing my SoulFullHeart process publicly. It will include journaling from one or more of my parts, my daemon, the Divine Mother, or all of them in one big group love fest. You will meet Simon, who is my self-image part or prime monarch; Nathaniel, who is an aspect of my Daemon; Angela, who is my newly arising feminine part; and Peter, who is my magical child. I will not be sharing anything they do not want to share, or I may process with them until they feel comfortable. This is a healing crucible for me, but also a look into the inner world of this way of life called SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.