The Womb Is A Portal To The Experience Of Womanhood In All Lifetimes

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, all of our lifetimes of experience of being able to BE a woman or not, in every sense of the word, lives in our wombs. There’s a powerful portal within each of our wombs that connects us to these lifetimes where we may have experienced immense power, yet at a cost. This portal can also open us up to lifetimes of remembering what it was like to be a mother, mate, sister, and daughter, who was treasured and loved… or used and abused, victimized, and maybe even held captive for being female.

Such is the mix for the feminine in her depths of healing. So deep is the legacy we each carry within us of our need to heal and offer healing to others too from the depths of our femininity that has been hijacked sometimes and honoured/revered other times.

I often connect with this beautiful egg stone (in the featured photo), which my beloveds and I call the ‘Mother Stone’ at Glastonbury Abbey, ever since landing here in Avalon when we arrived 6 months ago, and I’ve been on a profound inner journey of awakening and healing (supported also by Her) that I couldn’t have done without the energies here. I feel in so many ways like a totally different woman and even a whole new sort of Priestess now than I could have felt like or truly claimed before. And, I feel how all of this journeying has come from my womb and returns back to my womb for integration.

Our wombs hold and house our truest soul and heart bigness. To clear her and activate her, means to meet with what has left her rather congested and full of frequencies she is no longer meant to hold. So vast and deep is the feminine pain heard and felt around the world for centuries, that these cries live in her too. To truly hear, feel, and transmute this pain on behalf of women everywhere is to dive into it from within, from the chalice of our own soul’s experience and need for this healing.

Join Jelelle Awen and I on Sunday March 7th at 5pm GMT for a sacred time of teaching and meditation and deep womb connection. Jelelle led a call like this recently for those of us who are deep in the SoulFullHeart process and community and we all felt this tender connection to and feeling of each other that I know is still going in… we both fully welcome you, dear soul sister, to this next sacred circle which you can donate any amount to be a part of.

You can donate to Jelelle’s PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or visit our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

More info on the event can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls ❤️🌹

Love!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Serving The Feminine, Connecting With The Inner Mother

by Kasha Rokshana

In absolute awe I am, of the depth and sacred intensity in the women I serve in sessions and the women I connect with daily in community as well. Our intensity always matches that of the passion borne inside the womb, that rumbles worlds as much as She creates them.

It’s always vulnerable to lead and be led, to hold and be held, as a feminine embodiment in this and any lifetime. The strength of our inner masculines serves to protect us and our feminine essences, as well as the parts who have felt victimized by this body, by this core of who we are as a heart and soul. Sometimes the inner ‘masculine’ is also a strong and powerful matriarch/wounded Queen/Priestess energy inside that finds it challenging to be vulnerable out of necessary self-protection. Even THIS intensity needs honouring, love, and holding; a recognition of her powerful presence while also helping her learn to feel again, as challenging as that has been for her until now.

I’ve noticed in recent sessions how this matriarch energy expresses in different ways inside of different women. Sometimes we call this the Inner Mother. In one recent session with a young woman in her mid-twenties, we felt how her Inner Mother holds frequencies of being tired and overwhelmed and also victimized by life, much like her birth mother has energized. Another young woman in her early twenties has been feeling how her Inner Mother is also an Inner Punisher who also has frequencies of a Sorceress at times.

I feel, as I serve this dynamic range in women, how much love there is available to continue holding it with an open heart and open hands too, to allow whatever needs to come up in the space to do so. These energies need and deserve to felt and heard, not diagnosed or labeled, even as mirrors are held up for them to start to see their impact on themselves and other parts, as well as relationships on the outside. This is the work of transforming the False Mother into the Sacred Feminine inside, while inviting in the Divine Mother, in whatever form and face is necessary, as the template for this process.

The deep dive inside isn’t actually possible without love and also without support of the Divine Mother, who is the ultimate model for us to feel the inner False Mother and help her heal into more of the healthy, heart-open, capable, and profoundly gifted Queen. It’s Her love that holds the space, really, for which I am but a humble vessel, supporting you to become your own. There’s really no end to this process of deepening this embodiment, no ultimate pinnacle of it, and every ounce of discovery and healing is so worth the journey of diving deep into what (and who) hasn’t felt worthy of receiving, let alone becoming, this energy of sacred feminine love within.

If you’re curious to learn more about sessions with me (I also offer free 45min intro calls if you’d like to talk with me about where we could go in sessions together), visit soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are hosting a women’s call, by donation on Zoom, on March 7th @ 5pm GMT to teach and lead a guided meditation around womb healing and activation. More info here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from sacred Avalon! ❤️🌹
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Connecting With Bird Love In Wells, UK

by Kasha Rokshana

This pigeon 😍

I’d not ever bonded with a singular pigeon before in this lifetime… Until yesterday!

So many wonderful bird magic energies in Wells, near Glastonbury. I could feel my priestess and my inner child too, in joy to be connecting with these creatures. Pigeons are so often looked down on, yet they’re just as beautiful in energy as swans if you look deeper. They sure have a rep for being ‘vermin’ when you live in the city… Yet, this is such a surface level reaction to Gaian creatures that have messages of love for us if we can just take a moment to tune in. ❤️

This pigeon in particular stayed with me for a while, even when the food I had been feeding her from my hand was gone. I’m still awakening my animal communication gifts in this lifetime, yet what I could feel from her (felt female, could just be a more feminine-feeling male for all I know!) was that she was curious about our energy as a group (she visited several of us, not just me) and she was fascinated by my third eye when she stared into it (can see that in this photo).

I could feel some sense of peace and love emanating from her. I felt that she understood in her birdy-way, the tumult rolling through humanity right now, though not necessarily why. She enjoys the visits with humans and feels she offers love to them. A messenger of the Divine Mother in her unique and simple way! 😄

Her energy and mine interacting in this photo may offer a transmission of love and connection with the Divine, with Gaia, and inspire you to connect with nature too!

From the heart of my Gaian-heart-priestess to yours…

Love,
Kasha (and bird friend) ❤️❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Oh, Divine Mother: A Prayer

by Kasha Rokshana

Oh, Divine Mother…

Land your vastness in my opening heart.

This being that aches to be as spacious as You.

This human woman who loves to serve your love to others alongside You.

This soul who has served You as a ‘goddess’ of various names and creeds.

Your compassion, unending. Your deep love, inspiring. I desire to feel that flow more and more through me, to me, and in overflow to others.Your essence lives in me as ‘woman’ and ‘priestess’ and ‘oracle’.

Your heart that is alive in all hearts brings us back to feeling… the primary function of our humanity and the seat of all access to your profound love.

Oh, Divine Mother…

As a sacred feminine expression of You, I AM.

As a healing heart and soul, I BECOME.

Thank You for your unconditional acceptance, your embrace of all beings polarized in their ways. Your way of showing me the parts we all need to feel and take ownership of, to co-create from our inner worlds, the outer world we most want to be a part of.

Amen 🌹

Love, Your sacred daughter, Kasha ❤️

Photo is me in the ‘lady chapel’ at Glastonbury Abbey… the site of the first Essene church on this sacred ground, founded by Joseph of Arimathea.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing False Mother To Let In Divine Mother: Women’s Group Call July 5

By Jelelle Awen

When I shared on social media previously about my upcoming women’s group call tomorrow where we will be feeling into healing the Motherhood wound/False Mother to let in Divine Mother, a question came up around, ‘who is the false mother?’ Exploring the answers to this question is where we will go within the call space….as it is truly unique to each woman and her Metasoul experience/lineage as well.

In general, the False Mother is any projections/archetype/’lineage’ and legacy/birth family line and other lifetimes experiences/karma that block and limit access to experiencing and letting in the energies of the Divine Mother. False Mother can show up in ‘presentations’ and packages of Divine Mother that are used in strategic and dogmatic ways, such as in religions, some spiritual practices, and even in New Age offerings. These energies can have a warrior energy to them, be seductive or overly pious, and fused to other lifetime archetypal expressions such as Priestess/Witch/Sorceress/Shaman.


False Mother usually feels impersonal, transcendent, non-relational, even punitive/punishing in frequency. False Mother can show up even in Goddess worshipping practices in which you tune into and even ‘obey’ the “Will of the Goddess.” False Mother is also something you are looking to on the ‘outside’ rather than experiencing from the inside in deepening ways.


These False Mother energies are actually usually coming from the lower 4D wounded/unhealed masculine energies and the AI Matrix. A Matrix is actually a womb yet the 3D/4D control Matrix has been about programming, conditioning and conformity and distorting light/love into a false version in order to keep many souls ‘stuck’ at a certain tier of consciousness. In a way, the Matrix has also been a False Mother to parts of us and soul aspects as well.


As the Matrix continues to collapse and the wounded masculine heals, there is more opportunity to connect with the pure and authentic energies of Divine Mother. The False Mother frequencies become revealed from within (such as those expressing in your Inner Mother), in relationships (with birth family feminine caregivers and in your Matriarchal family line), and in your Metasoul experiences.
As you identify, feel, and heal these false mother frequencies, you then experience the REAL Divine Mother of PURE unconditional love, compassion, authenticity, range of expression (from still to fiery as needed…..from deeply compassionate to unsentimental, etc.), passion, and template for embodiment within your sacred feminine human body.


You feel then the Divine Mother within YOU and come that much more into embodying Her AS you. As Divine Mother has told me so many times, “I am you and you are ME. Now, let THAT in!”


We will explore this more tomorrow in my monthly women’s group call over Zoom at 10:00am PDT through teachings/sharings with me, a guided meditation to connect to your Inner Mother/False Mother within through a bridge with Divine Mother, and personal sharings for those women who would like to. We will tune into the loving sisterhood circle created during the call to generate more of the Divine Mother energy.


You can attend and/or receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/womensgroupcalls and https://www.facebook.com/events/425536431663247/


You can purchase the recording of any of my previous women’s calls where we explored Healing the Sisterhood Wound, bridging to Divine Mother (two calls), Sacred Feminine healing, healing the inner masculine and more at the same links as above.


I also recommend my new book Free To Be 5D, where I describe much more about the False God/Mother/Light Matrix and how it expresses and the SoulFullHeart process to heal from it: soulfullheart.org/books

Dearest Daughter: A Loving Message From Divine Mother To Heal The False Mother

Dearest Daughter,

I am inviting you now

to feel your legacy, your lineage, your leanings

that lovingly bond you to ME.

Within all this potential,

all this capacity,

all this inheritence,

all this birthright

is ALL that you need to become

the embodiment of ME.

As you heal the false mother,

that you have been misled to follow

that you have been conditioned to template

that you have been required to model….

so then you can let ME into your heart,

into your soul, into your body, and into your BEing

as a nurturing, catalytic, unconditionally loving

Mother to all parts and aspects of you.

You, my daughter, have always been wanted

never actually been rejected

never truly been separated

never completely been orphaned

from the home of MY heart.

You are an expression of my likeness,

just ripe to arise

into your unique version of ME.

I am here,

in all my numerous faces and figures

holding the infinite possibilities

of your ongoing embodiment

as Infinite Love

in Sacred Womanly form.

My love awaits your reclaiming!

love,

Your Divine Mother (With Jelelle Awen)

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Join me for a special Sacred Feminine arising women’s group call event over Zoom on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT to attend live and/or receive the recording. I’ve been in surrogacy and ongoing embodiment connection with Divine Mother for over ten years and I’ll share about my process of healing from false mother and healing the motherhood wound to let in Divine Mother. I’ll also be providing a guided meditation with Divine Mother to connect with the part of you that needs the healing and create a bridge to your Divine Self as an embodiment of Divine Mother. You’ll also have space to personally share and take in sharings by other women on the call. You can attend by offering a donation of ANY amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

The false mother is the wounded feminine (usually has quite a lot of wounded masculine expression) that we’ve all experienced in some form in our daughter experience. False mother can also be a distortion presented by religions from a patriarchal lens or the Goddess paradigms that distance and don’t create an intimate and personal connection to the Divine Mother that we can then feel as an embodiment of ourselves. As we experience more of Divine Mother, we feel ourselves what has been ‘false’ and what has been true.

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Divine Feminine Bridge/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical/mental levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call and in person events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia: An Earth Day Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I sit by Your trees, Your streams, and I feel the strength in Your beauty
How You hold space for ALL, for everyone, for everything
As it moves and lives and ascends with YOU…
As you patiently wait for us to notice more
So we can take ourselves in more.
Mother Earth, Mama Gaia
I gaze at Your creatures in wonder, in communication, in awe of each move they make
And the peace they hold in their uniqueness, never faltering in self-consciousness.
I feel the density You are lifting with each breath of Your sacred lungs
Ready to help us respirate, let in, the NEW air.
I feel how much You hold so effortlessly yet with so much care and space
How even if some beings truly tried, there is no destroying You
Only destroying themselves
And even then
It’s a death and rebirth
Another sobering aspect of Your many sacred cycles
That often cannot be avoided.
Yet, even in these darkest hours
Your beauty offers grace and solace
Places to meditate
Invitations to feel and feel held in feeling
And ways to remember
That it’s all moving, circling from death back to life
As the dead and dying water and fertilize the seeds of the NEW.

For everything You hold space for
For all of Your grace and space
Thank YOU… today and every day.

Love,
Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Embracing Lillith: A Poem Of Feminine Self-Discovery

by Kalayna Solais

Easing in
To me
To Her…
The softness gathers ‘round
In flowing birthing waters
To hold and to move
To alter and to cleanse
What has been
To prepare for
What will be.

She waits in her garden
My garden within
Of inner workings
In billowing dresses
Of white satins
And lace.

She invites
And it lands deeper now
Than it ever could
When the stakes of feeling deeper
Needed more space to be felt.

With her hands
She takes mine

With her heart
She holds mine

And with Her
I stand now taller
With the grace of a thousand lifetimes
Cultivated
Both mine and never ‘mine’
Collective and personal
Feminine and Masculine.

By Her
I am supported
In all explorations
That remind me

I won’t EVER give up on love.

In the balance made
By the unknowns
Now becoming known
She awaits the phase
When our lifeblood’s
Heart muscle
Beats out the rhythm
Of new creations
From the very core
Of what has made us
Both souls and humans
With every bridge possible
In between.

Arising in Her midst
I arrive in ME
Maiden
Priestess
Magdalene
Sacred Feminine Bridge
Inviting others
Into Her dance
Of Oneness within
Extending without
Yet, always grounded
In the timelessness
Of the Higher Heart
And ever-expanding
Soul.

Embodied for now
In a dance of human-made
Female flesh
Flushed with goodness
Singing with Ascension
And breathing with the ecstasy
Of a heart healing and rediscovered
Within the softening bedrock
Of a countenance
Never really forgotten
Only set aside.

I sense the exquisite timing
Of Her rebirth
Bringing with tender lushness
The bourgeoning new Now
Of the age being born
Within the context of ever-deepening
Divinely human
Ever-galactic

Love.

A love I won’t EVER give up on.

…as if I ever even could.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.