Reclaiming The Crazy/Lost/Dark/Forgotten Parts Within You To Experience Transformation & Healing

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice, frequency of harm, and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Orphan. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Soul aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too. They are beyond shape and age and time.

Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that never seems to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’ or in ‘childhood’ or ‘many years ago’. They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is often why you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have. That is often why the suffering loops continue in relationships, in passion expression/service, in money areas, in the physical body.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain world they have known. As they feel YOU as your Divine Self embodiment come into their world with compassionate curiosity, they can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, lost or dark at all.

Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love. Transmuting for others is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth.As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones inside that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too.

As you love even the narcissist INSIDE and the punisher INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate. And you no longer draw these kinds of people and energies on the outside in relationships.

These lost ones inside you become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These ‘crazy ones’ become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity. These orphaned ones become adopted by your loving heart and claimed by your soul family.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is my 33 Day video series called Deepen to connect with some of these parts/aspects: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions are available with me over zoom or in person in Glastonbury, UK for women to feel, transmute, claim, and heal these precious parts of your self and soul as a bridge from your Divine Self for $100 USD for 90 very FULL minutes! And with other Facilitators too… More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began. 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❤ 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Open Your Heart To Your Inner World, Then Open Your Heart To The Outer World

by Kasha Rokshana

You respond differently to your outer world, the more you genuinely respond to your inner world. More compassion, more tears for what’s moving in the collective, more feeling of it through your caring heart, is what opens out…

It’s actually more challenging to ignore the cries of the world than it is to let them move through your heart, especially as you feel, hold, and eventually heal the parts of you that have not wanted to really see it or haven’t been able to see it and feel it beyond their own suffering (yet)…

If we are to truly open up the gates into the Age of Aquarius, we must choose our hearts, our connection with our own Divinity in a way that doesn’t bypass yet fully embraces the dark and the light within and respond to it in our outer world too.

For many of us, the fear-based consciousness that is peaking in our world is not ours to share in… yet, without choosing to care about it, feel how it’s churning and burning around us, we miss an opportunity to embody love and become the love ambassadors we came here to become. ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Solstice/Great Conjunction Energies Offer Rebirth Process As We Shed ‘Old’ Ways Of Living From Deep Within

by Kasha Rokshana

Energy Update: 2020 has been a birth canal. It’s felt quite tight and constrictive, even restrictive at times. It’s brought to light the huge polarities that have dwelt deep within our systems, inner and outer, and have informed the function of our daily lives…

Many souls have chosen to pass away during this time. It’s less so because of a ‘malevolent virus taking their lives’ as it has been about a soul’s deeper choice as to whether or not they want to stay in the birth canal presently on Gaia. Even the system of ‘sickness’ is one that has been with us for so long, that it can be challenging for parts of us/Metasoul aspects of ours to feel the bigger picture around what’s happening and why… Not only for the pieces that are hard to digest yet need to be realized, but the pieces that offer more air and love to let in around it all too.

All of our belief systems have been squeezed and in some ways, penetrated too. These systems have been there for centuries, planted here in our 3D Matrix by the energies of beings from Saturn, in many ways. We are still one with these beings and have been a part of the co-creation of everything that is now being pushed against. We are not ultimately victims to what’s happened to us as it really has happened WITH us, and we do get to choose the healing required inside in order to move beyond it and open up to love on a deeper level… Even with the process of feeling and healing the trauma we have walked out also being very real and takes much time and grace to flow with.

This conjunction with Saturn and Jupiter feels like it reflects to us the humility that humanity is being brought into, held in our death and rebirth by the Divine and our Divine I AM Selves. We are simultaneously seeing the restrictions placed on us by what we have believed to be true and the ‘rules’ we agree to abide by, which are showing themselves to be nothing more than the ‘great and powerful OZ’… a game of smoke and mirrors to keep us in fear, as a last gasp attempt to keep us from remembering the love that we are and are here to serve.

We are being shown with every wave of awakening and realizations, just how much healing there is to do. It’s humbling, yet so doable and deeply supported by the Divine. We are being asked to keep propelling ourselves through the birth canal and out the other side. This takes some pushing at times, yet even the pushing can be held with deep love of self and others along the way. Without learning and leading with compassion, care, and forgiveness from the inside out, we are not fully stepping into our potential to really unite within and with others and we aren’t really giving ourselves the chance to truly become different… to embody love in our Sacred Human way.

This death and rebirth is such a poignant healing opportunity if we are ready to let that in and lead all our fragmented parts and soul aspects in this process. This Great Conjunction happening on the Winter Solstice, the change of seasons into a more Yin and inward time of year in this hemisphere, brings around even more opportunity for deep inner shifts that our outer world then reflects back to us. This is a very powerful time, showing us all of our potential to do harm and also to do good… to become much better beings in this Universe, with healing and opening hearts and awakening souls integrating together inside of each of us.

Much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

12/12 – 12/21 Corridor Bringing Clarities, Next-Level Invitations/Initiations

by Kasha Rokshana

There is so much support through this 12/12 – 12/21 energetic corridor and into the new year of 2021 as well, for our deeper awakenings and initiations to take root individually and collectively. It’s already been a FULL year and now we’re being led into 2021 with fresh eyes and heart, though the rawness of what’s been moving all year is still very present.

Sudden dawnings and realizations are moving through. It’s a time of deeper awakening and the rumbles that come with that which sometimes you can’t name. You don’t know what’s shaking inside of you, but something IS…

Yesterday on 12/12 here in Glastonbury, it was a full day of hiking up to the Tor for sunrise and sunset and responding to alchemy in between. I had much time with Jelelle and could feel on both our trips to the Tor that there was something ceremonial moving through, deep inside of both of us. Such is the soul connection we have in these lands of Avalon, yet also, I got the strong sense of being initiated into a whole new level of soul bigness and claim.

So it is that we are all invited into our next levels/places, letting go and letting in as we move into them. Being initiated into deeper service if you’re ready for that, or perhaps your initiation right now is into trusting love and into feeling any fears that live in parts of you about surrendering to that process.

There’s a strong invitation from the Divine, always, to open your heart… to truly feel the grief, the mourning, the letting go as you also let in what’s arising. This could mean that you’re completing relationships or beginning new ones or completing with a geography to move on into one that better reflects your soul/heart needs, purpose and mission at this time. It’s a time of endings and beginnings, which is typical for this time of year every year, yet this year feels especially powerful in this way!

2020 has been a year where we’ve seen ‘Peak Fear’ take hold in many ways. It’s been a highly reactive year where many souls have struggled to lean into Divine love and to surrender to what is. It’s been a year of learning to trust what feels real to YOU while putting away the mainstream sources that are there to stir up the fears that were already peaking and mislead you with many spins on actual truth. It’s been a sacred year of more questions than answers, of death and rebirth, of looking intently in the mirrors placed in front of you, to meet the parts of you that have been hidden, buried, or buried themselves out of fear of being seen and known, not to mention felt, loved up, and deeply healed too.

Our deeper awakenings into rebirth and love as a Sacred Human family was not promised to be pretty or neat, though it has been deeply meaningful and continues to be. We all have choice points, graduations, and next levels to arise into. If love is leading, we will be challenged, we will grow, but we will always, ALWAYS be held.

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

You Keep Opening Up To Love: Invitation To Heal Your Inner Child And Other Parts Of You

By Jelelle Awen

You keep opening your heart to love. You do, because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like…..your heart is breaking into pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, saying, ‘This is me, all broken up. Will I ever come together again?’

These parts of you speak of hurt and loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually help them be FREE from these frozen in fear moments.

These parts of you cry with you their tears that often weren’t allowed, permitted, or felt in the moment the pain was caused and harm received by others. These parts of you…..sometimes so, so young, precious, and innocent….can then be held by your and the Divine Mother’s forgiveness and compassion. They can become pure again until the light of your loving sun.

You keep holding the space for this process….BEing with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL with ALL parts of you. You keep feeling because, on the other side of this pain, is the joy that is contained in every part of you.

On the other side of the fear, is the love that is the essence of every part of you.

On the other side of the shame, is the sense of innate goodness in every part of you.

Your Divine Self keeps finding support to trust this transmutational process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning. You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so parts of you do, your previously occupied heart now empty, vacated, and ready to be filled up again by love…

You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you and these parts do too until they become more and more whole and integrated. You keep listening as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here, waiting until you are ready to receive it.”
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Love from Avalon!
Jelelle Awen

This ground of feeling, healing, and being with parts of you and soul aspects is what we explore with much tender and deep initiation in 1:1 sessions. For more information, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

This is my Deepen meditation series that I recommend for opening up access to many parts of self and soul aspects: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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Exposing The Roots Of Sacred Union

by James Elphick

Over the last few months it has felt true to turn inward, to heal, to be more self-contained and become more familiar with the relationship between my inner masculine and feminine rather than looking for a new relationship with another on the outside.

With this exploration I have found that there isn’t just one feminine and one masculine energy, but many each holding different frequencies that influence my whole. When there is a deep feeling and intimacy with these, there is room for them to breathe and heal. The healthier aspects harmonize and there is balance. Then daily activities and all types of relationships, especially the one with myself, have an ease and a flow.

This is a lifelong work in progress!

Through the ending of my last relationship, the recent death of my friend, and also my father’s passing two weeks ago, grief is current. There seems to be a continuing initiation into grief in ever-deepening layers alongside the discovery of the universal love portal that is found deep within it.

I feel that the reason the heart breaks is so it doesn’t have to stay in a safe, formal posture. It is saying, “You are holding me too small”. The shards of protection can journey into the ethers and if the heart is felt and loved it will re-form into a softer, more expansive, more supple healthiness.

In turn this helps see a Sacred Union between Spiritualness and Humanness. The Sacred Balance of recognition of the universal law of impermanence along with the deep human feeling of never wanting relationships or lives to end, and grief when they do.

I’m learning that although our conditioning tells us that we can only relate in the physical, there can be an ethereal connection to those who I have lost in the physical this year.

This confirms to me that love never dies.

I am in community and being with SoulFullHeart feels like another Sacred Union.

This union, sometimes similar to a romantic relationship, can become a mirror and help bring up hidden parts and unconscious patterns. From the knowing that whatever is being revealed can be a portal into deeper growth and expansion there is less panic about fixing this aspect. Instead, there is a more gentle process exploring this alone through meditation, journaling, talking with the group or in individual sessions.

As familiarity with the process increases more trust is arising and an ability to “hold my process” is there.

I know that there is a tendency in me that can look for everything in someone else, but it feels I’m starting to embody the knowing that everything is in me. There is less investment in the One and rather the Whole. This has to start in Sacred Union within, then to the whole which includes community, romance, and service.

I’m looking forward to joining the group transmission on Oct 10th with Raphael and Jelelle who help template romantic Sacred Union to me and I hope that you can join too. Please see the link below ❤:

https://fb.me/e/2UdZXooYw

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events and more at soulfullheart.org

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James Elphick is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and community member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Autumn Equinox Energies Invite Balance Of ‘Old’ And ‘New’ WithIN

by Kasha Rokshana

This Equinox feels particularly powerful for bringing into balance the ways in which we look at ourselves, our parts, our Metasoul aspects. We’re being invited to bring what’s ‘passed’ with us, what’s ‘old’ with us into the NEW we’re always invited into.

It’s the journey into the new that churns up the ‘old’. It’s meant to do so, to bring us back into what’s been real for us even in our darkest of soul journeys in other lifetimes, not to simply ‘go heal it’ and ‘release’ it, yet to get to know it all intimately. To bring everything, every being we discover into love within. To bridge it/them all into what can be real for us and for them in this new now.

The Equinox is always about bringing into balance… masculine and feminine, old and new. What facilitates and holds this process is love. Love’s lens is the one in which we can see the equality of importance in all things, all aspects of ourselves, all energies we’ve had and want to have. Love IS the great equalizer, the balancer. And today we are so invited to really feel that and let that in… as we always are when our hearts open up to deeper healing and our souls choose to align with that in different phases and processes as well.

It’s easy to access these ‘old’ soul stories, patterns, and scenes here in such a magical part of the UK… Glastonbury alone has helped me personally feel some very deep pieces yet also, this visit to Avebury yesterday was profound in bringing in the ‘old’ too. I could feel still some reactions surfacing to what used to be versus what is and how the energies, though still powerful and present, need to be uncovered somehow instead of so easy to access and feel. Through feeling this mourning of what ‘was’, I can feel myself landing more in what IS and the goodness of that too… and of course, this has been true for me in many different processes I’ve had over the years!

Much love to you on this Mabon/Autumn Equinox day! ❤️🍁

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Reunification & Reconciliation Of The Inner Masculine/Feminine

This geography is bringing up so much around what I feel is a reunification of the masculine and feminine within. I have been working with the inner feminine for some time now and it is ticking up a notch and a half since I have been here.

But this ‘working’ is not just some generalized notion of ‘The Feminine’, but rather a very specific relationship with a part or aspect of me in a more intimate way. It is ‘my feminine’. I don’t mean that possessively, but rather more personally. They have a name and a frequency just like any person I may have a relationship with.

This has taken some time for my masculine parts to let in, yet has brought with it so many gifts for them. There is something to lean into and to learn from that has been a bit out of their grasp of conditioned consciousness. There is a need and desire for reconciliation and reunification on both sides.

I feel this feminine aspect really desiring this attention and cultivation. She wants to help bridge the gap with my inner masculine aspects that have some things to clear around the repression (and fear!) of her and The Feminine in general. I feel this process actually landing me in more of a union and dance of gendered poles rather than a blending of the two in some unisexual way.

I will do this through journaling, meditation, and bringing as much of them into my waking reality as I can. As this communion deepens, I feel I will be present to my own needs for romance and service as they will each bring their own gifts and passions.

I want to thank Raphael Awen for being a model and bridge to this inner love affair that offers so much for my sacred masculine embodiment that is personal to me and not some archetypal masculine that feels inauthentic to my parts. I look forward to sharing more about this ongoing healing between these very powerful energies.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Bridging The Masculine & Feminine In Avalon

In the Heart of Avalon the energy of the sacred feminine runs deep. As a man it can bring up many different feelings and reactions. For me it has been a toggle between feeling at home and feeling amiss, like I don’t quite fit in.

The dance of the masculine and feminine within comes to the surface to be felt and called into union. I feel these aspects inside of me vying for attention and healing. A priestess energy that has been with me for some time yet is ripe for more relationship in this geography.

Then there is the architecture of the wounded masculine exemplified by the church tower on top of the Tor. It activates a priest and Roman aspect that feel the uneasy feeling of walking these lands remembering the ways in which the dominating culture created a veil to the magic of the time.

The beauty of it all is that I get to bridge those two together into my heart rather than be caught in the space between. I can bring them together in sacred ceremony as I sit here wide awake in the middle of the night. I am on a different clock now and that is the timepiece of the soul

I am here to feel. Here to heal myself as well as the collective masculine so that I may serve those knights of heart that feel the same calling within despite all the din and distraction. The sacred masculine is rising and has a journey toward and with the feminine. It is here and cannot be stopped, only resisted.

I am blessed to be here. I want to share my journey and serve the wisdom and love that arises from it. I have a purpose and the Divine has a plan of which I am only partially privy to. My masculine is acclimating to that while my feminine is revelling.

In the middle is the flow of Life.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.