by Kasha Rokshana
I’ve felt invited back into my own shadowlands recently. Partly from reactions to what’s happening in the world at large, as there really is SO much happening all at once, yet also because of things shaking out for me personally. Plus, being here in Avalon, there is a lot that the Divine Heart Chakra pulse invites you to feel, explore (especially within), and reconcile with.
My shadowland explorations have me exploring my relationship to my truth, to what empowers and doesn’t diminish me as a heart/soul/woman WHILE keeping an open heart. I’ve always been a feeler, but now I’m asked to feel even deeper. And, not for my own sake alone, but for the sake of the service-of-love I’ve come here to embody and offer.
The textures that live beneath the reactions, that open the portals to the vulnerability…the fears, tears, longings, and heartaches that live in parts of me, aspects of my Metasoul, and the sacredness of feeling without mentally tracking. My masculine can have a hard time with the latter sometimes, yet my feminine, as she becomes more and more embodied, usually ‘wins’ that toggle with her heart spaciousness and gifts of self-permission to just feel without needing to ‘know’ a single thing about ‘why’.
The darkness and shadow of the outer world… well, it has its own playout, doesn’t it? Ultimately, my heart and soul trust it all, even as there are many things to feel. As an empath and healer, I feel it’s important to let the cries of the world move through, just as the cries of my inner world do. The world around me also has hurt, aches, longing, and fear. It wants so much it doesn’t feel worthy of receiving yet.
As I awaken deeper to my own shadowland and the power it holds, I awaken to the shadowland of the collective and what is being explored, consciously and unconsciously, by all. I feel the sacredness in everything that is churning and burning, even as I let the impact of it move through my own opening and healing heart. Perhaps the biggest piece that still lies in shadow, is the impact of every choice, action/inaction, and every deeper feeling tone left unfelt and instead overridden.
“The darkness still has work to do…” and it certainly IS doing the work it’s here to do. We can only surrender to that process, trust it as deeply as we can, and let it help us all heal individually and collectively.
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.