Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Beyond Any Sense Of ‘Instant Ascension’ And Into The Real Process Of It

by Kasha Rokshana

I know this isn’t a popular opinion… but the idea of the transition into 5D happening quickly, easily, in a moment of grace and glory that suddenly descends upon Gaia, is so not how it’s going to happen. And in fact, is not how it’s ALREADY happening.

It is an ongoing process and if you are not feeling ready yet to truly take that process inward AND let it move your outer life into new circumstances, more resonance with a lover and others than you can let in, then there is an ongoing invitation into this territory from the Divine with non-judgemental arms open to you and the parts of you who are reasonably terrified or apprehensive of this process.

But why is this what’s real? Don’t the Divine and our Star Family want us to ascend beyond this mess we’ve found ourselves in and want to relieve our suffering once and for all?

Well… would we actually become something NEW if that happened, or would we be leap-frogging over a very necessary process of facing our mess, coming to terms with it, and reconciling it from deep, deep, beyond-the-bowels-deep within?

No, I don’t feel we would. And I personally would not be the person I am today, living without unnecessary drama (no, seriously, I’m not kidding or paving over a single thing here) yet very deep intimacy within, with the Divine, and with others, if this had been the case.

We really need to let the bullshit of an ‘instant fix’ or ‘silver bullet solution’ go if we truly want to heal, want to evolve, and want to be closer to the Divine… which is actually the point of Ascenion, isn’t it? I don’t care how many ‘diamond light heart Jesus guru plasma blue ray’ activations you’ve either downloaded or paid thousands of dollars to receive from others. If you don’t feel your heart AND soul evolving and warming up, and your humanity and spirituality coming into true oneness and reverence, you’re not experiencing the deeper purpose of Ascension in the way I’m sure you’d like to and are instead buying into a narrative pedalled by others whose parts/soul aspects are also afraid that you might not ‘make it’ into 5D after all.

You can and you will, whether in this lifetime or another. Aspects of you are already there. I’ve felt countless times an invitation from Star Family and the Magdalenes too that we are NOT alone as we live into this transition and truly ache, crawl, and expand out into it. The key though is continuing to drop the bullshit… always.

I say this with TONS of love in my heart for you to feel however much of this reality you’re ready to feel at this time and I invite you to truly keep feeling into it, become humbled by it, and continue to work within and with others. None of us are entitled to the ultimate state of higher-dimensional living, loving, and becoming without actually doing the work to bring this reality to the fore.

And the truth is, that the work is gruelling at times yet also so bloody beautiful that I wouldn’t personally trade any moment of guttural tears and elated, orgasmic bliss coming out of process for anything that promises to be quick, painless, and easy.

I love you. I truly do. We are all one, even in any sense of lostness. You may feel like a walking hot mess but you are beautiful. And I feel how each one of us can do this, can face all of this, and keep on becoming what we came here to be.

Love,
Kasha ❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

5/5 Portal Inviting Higher Perspectives, Compassionate Self-Love, Care Towards Others

by Kasha Rokshana

This 5/5 portal day feels like a brand new day and also a BIG digestion opportunity for whatever got shaken up for you during the recent eclipse, solar flares, Beltane passage, etc. It’s been a huge wake-up call on all levels, feeling passion being ignited/re-ignited toward deeper self-care, moving out of dissonance and into more resonance, inside and out.

More truths have been popping out and yet also even more manipulations that disguise themselves as ‘truths’ have too. The solar activity has really been intended on some level to help us SEE clearer, especially through heart-based eyes, what it is that’s true for all of us personally and what needs to be let go of (or let go into).

I feel the invitation to all of us today, to enter into the bigger, broader, more 5D-based perspective on everything that we’re all moving through right now, and that perspective always reminds me of Divine love and the encouragement to feel all there is to feel.

I’m personally digesting my own desired shift to a higher gear, not only in really letting the Divine’s perspective on everything in more, yet also in my own ways of inhabiting my sacred human body-vessel and feeling even more landed in my own heart for others. Genuine care feels so good, even when it hurts to do so. It’s vulnerable yet powerful to go here, and even more vulnerable and powerful to feel where care hasn’t been felt or offered towards myself or towards others in deeper ways.

This 5/5 feels like a point of celebration, sobriety, clearing, and empowerment, all at once somehow… new perspectives are so possible and the shifts we’ve all been craving are imminent if we’re ready to stand in our truths and honour our inner work by making consciously held changes on the outside… even if/when they are very challenging at times to feel into, let alone follow through with!

As always, I feel there is SO much support that today represents and amplifies for each of us on our individual yet shared journeys… and we are invited to keep asking for the guidance, digesting it inside of ourselves, and make those choices that we could only make if we felt Divinely supported and loved.

MUCH love to you today on this powerful 5/5 day!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Beltane Energies: Transformation, Activation Of Sacred Inner/Outer Union & Passionate Divine Reunion

by Kasha Rokshana

Solar flares, Beltane fires, solar eclipse… so much activation magic, so much clearing, so much to digest! I sincerely hope that as these fires of sacred transformation from the inside out hold you today (and ongoingly) that you feel held, loved, appreciated… and above all, that you feel trust, even in those waves and moments when it feels like too much.♥️🔥

I feel dips and upturns of sacred union inside and out calling to us all today. I feel the awakenings and stirrings of the soul and heart both as they answer, react, and respond to this calling. My own sacred union wifh Gabriel has had its own challenges and deepening this whole month more or less, and it continues to open out into new territory today with passion and desire, and even fear coming up as we go.

Wherever you are with that process and with your own unfolding journey overall at this time, the Beltane fires welcome you into their embrace, whether you’re walking through them, lingering near them, or celebrating being on the other side of them. ♥️

Here is the Beltane poem I re-share every year since I wrote it a few years ago. I hope it stirs and calls on your desires for your inner and outer mateship possibilities, but also into a deep and passionate love affair with the Divine and with all of life as well. 🔥

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Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring…

There I’ll be

Standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love,
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer in all elements
of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love,
finding more treasure long buried
to show you in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you
for you.

The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer to the edges
that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved,
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…

A counterpart.

Not to bind, but to bond.

Not to cling, but to sing.

Not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations
of each new movement
here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love,
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on a new insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to long ago
and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you,
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again
here…
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn.

On this Beltane celebration day,
as I ache for you,
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much

oh, so much…

With mine.

Love,
Kasha ♥️


🎨: Sylvan Myst

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

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Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Easter Passage Energies Of Death, Grief, & Rebirth

by Kasha Rokshana

‘Easter’ Energy Update: The anxiety, the uncertainty, the doubts that surface at this time are as sacred as the moments of clarity, of surefooted-ness, and of deepening trust in the flow of what’s happening inside and out. Rebirth is sometimes glorious to be in, sometimes messy, and oftentimes not what parts of us expect.

To trust the ‘death’ processes and everything they come with is just as sacred as trusting the ‘rebirth’ that comes on the other side. We know in our souls that it’s inevitable that we WILL emerge from the darkness and the unknown and land somewhere necessary and even desirable, yet that doesn’t always help all parts of us or soul aspects to feel their trust in that in their own ways. They’ve witnessed too much of what they feel is the opposite experience and even timelines/lifetimes of persecution, of being condemned, of being alone, of being in an all-time low that seems to last forever.

The darkness has its work to do in all of this, especially as the times we’re in truly support us to feel how unsupported parts/aspects of us feel toward the Divine. The Divine doesn’t expect us to transcend any of this and instead offers us a place to land it all… every last worry, hope, doubt, fear, and desire.

I would love to say that we will absolutely land in the New/Golden Earth reality we all dream of in the next few years at least, yet the truth is, we can’t attach to that outcome and anything miraculous suddenly placing us there. Not while there are still parts within us and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes struggling to let in the possibilities, struggling to let in even feeling their mistrust, fears, anxieties, and allowing it all to move and be answered. The Golden future we all desire is a resurrection that takes root within, that flowers in resonance shared in our inner and outer worlds. Only then does it really feel possible to experience it in deeper and deeper ways, while acknowledging and flowing with the birth pangs that come with that ongoing process.

What I feel from the Divine is support to not look for a magic, silver bullet solution, but instead to feel the grief of the ideals of what was once good in our lives to whatever degree it truly was good, and to let go into this Great Unknown as we move deeper into this phase of Great Death. The tears of this process water the seeds of what’s becoming possible, even though the death sometimes feel far more real.

The darkness around the world seems to be getting darker… yet I feel a trust that everything we endure is somehow necessary for all of our individual awakenings, let alone the global one that is also ongoing. Even in that trust, however, I have to make space for my own doubts to surface that we’ll ever be truly ready in my own lifetime to embrace what could be. When I feel this, I feel grief like a lump in my throat. I feel the need to keep letting go of any pictures of what’s possible and be with what IS… the death and pain needs a lot of space to be felt, with no agenda, with no pushing to move beyond it, and no need to be ahead of it, while also trusting desires for what could be like a beacon leading me homeward.

The answers are unknown as to how this all resolved itself, yet there is an answer in the path of crying with those who cry around us, feeling love for those who are also remembering how to love themselves and others, remembering that our souls have not chosen by accident to be here now. We all have a purpose, even if it’s just to feel these waves of grief and letting go, in order to surrender deeper to what is and let in what could be along the way.

As we head rapidly towards ‘Easter weekend’ now, it’s the perfect time to feel the Death and Rebirth of our selves, parts of us, and all of humanity. It’s a powerful time to feel the Divine with us, in the forms/faces that work for each of us individually, such as Yeshua and Magdalene, who I can feel in their union holding us all so deeply.

I feel them offering, as I conclude this writing today, “May your sense of personal and global arising feel as real as the death and grief you also feel.

May your alignment with your soul’s heart deepen in surrender to the Divine that holds it all.

May your desires ripen, your heart open, and your love expand and fill every cell of your being, only to overflow in concert and transaction with those around you who also care so much.

Feel how much you are loved, even when love feels scarce.

In all of this and your sacred doubts too, the Divine is with you, always.”

Love,
Kasha

P.S. I would so love to hold 1:1 space for you, if you’re a woman, in your inner explorations of what was once true for you, what’s true now, and what you desire to be true in the future. My beloveds hold space as well in 1:1 sessions, for women with Jelelle and for men and women with Raphael and Gabriel. For more info, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

“I love you”: Message Of Encouragement From The Divine

by Kasha Rokshana

(Art by Glenyss Bourne)

In all of life’s
infinite complications…

There’s always a voice
whispering,

“I love you”…

Even if
Part of you
Isn’t able to hear it
Or
Isn’t able to let in

The voice remains,
still whispering,

“I love you”.

Then…
you realize
this voice is yours
And the Divine’s
Rolled back into One.

Even when something
So deep inside you
thought everything was over,
That the complications have ‘won’,
that it’ll never know love again…

The voice remains
and still it whispers,

“I love you”,
And as a toddler
Makes its strides with watchful eyes,
your heart knows
And remembers steadily
That somehow
This voice,
These words,
Are its true home.

And when it’s ready,
With a steadiness in tow,
It begins to whisper back,

“I love you too…”

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Ongoing Journey Of Healing Our Worthiness, Collectively & Individually

by Kasha Rokshana

In your conscious worthiness, desires and needs are answered, and the journey is embraced. ~

What a journey finding and feeling our truest sense of self-worth is!

I’ve never managed to find anywhere outside of myself, in any outward validation or through mastering the exercises in any self-help book. The only place I’ve continually found a way to answer each layer of unworthiness that is revealed inside of me is by feeling. Not through force, but by feeling. Not through a silver bullet, but through an ongoing process. This process at times is very sober yet all the time it’s alive and moving through me with so much messiness and grace, both.

Our collective worthiness has so much feeling and healing to do too… our worthiness as all of humanity, as a Sacred Human family, and as powerfully big individual souls.

It’s the unworthiness of healing our deep existential fears and separation pain from the Divine, showing up so strongly now with the power of these times we’re in with peaking and eventually collapsing Matrix-based narratives.

We are worthy of the tears and fears of all parts and soul aspects of us being heard and felt.

We are worthy of opening our hearts to the Divine and to others and feeling their hearts open too.

We are worthy of the challenges along the way of letting in this love that is always available to us. It’s the challenges, after all, that remind us that it IS the journey that hold us in all of the letting go so we can let in what we truly desire and need from the Divine and others…

…with our worthiness continually healing and growing.

The process pays off in dividends… the love received lands deeply and transforms so much from within which it couldn’t touch before. We are worthy of this and of trusting this process.

We are worthy of letting in that we are loved through it all.

It’s up to each of us how we choose to embody this process, live into this ongoing journey, and embrace that it truly IS a journey which we are all on together… one humble step inward at a time.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Are You Willing To Live, Be, Trust?: Transmission Of Support From The Magdalenes/Soul Family

by Kasha Rokshana

For all your brilliance,
Are you willing to also live it out?

For all your wittiness,
Are you willing to be in the unknown?

For all your fire,
Are you willing to soak in still waters?

For all your empathy,
Are you willing to also have compassion?

For all your mistrust,
Are you willing to feel what trust may offer?

For all your compliance,
Are you willing to dig deeper and ask ‘why’?

For all your belonging,
Are you willing to risk standing alone?

…these questions we ask without judgement
To serve and bolster your deeper awakenings,
Your Divine Self’s deeper embodiment,
And the discovery of who you are,
Who you always were,
Yet chose to forget.

Here to serve your upliftment, we are.
As we also hold you in your downtrodden states.

Here to love you, always, we are.
Even in those questioning moments
Where it feels like love cannot possibly exist.

You are embraced
Held
Loved beyond measure of fame, fortune or wisdom.

Loved even in your compliance to the structures that lay dying,

Loved even in the foggy times of unknown choices,

Loved as much in your dying times as your alive times.

With so much of your truest essence in our hearts…
Love,

Your Soul Family/The Magdalenes

(W/ Kasha Rokshana)

I feel this landing in my own heart as a way to remember compassion for myself and all souls at all times. We’re walking out what we came to walk out, and it’s truly up to all of us to choose what we are ready to embody next… with no judgement from those who came before us and support us through it all.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.