Halloween Message: Importance Of Shadow Integration For Ascension

By Jelelle Awen

“It is precisely because we resist the darkness in ourselves that we miss the depths of the loveliness, beauty, brilliance, creativity, and joy that lie at our core.” ~ Thomas Moore

Resisting anything in ourselves just leads to more pain, more resistance, and more pushing out of life and not letting it in. Resisting the darkness is understandable when we have been taught in 3D culture to fear that which we don’t understand, that which isn’t socially acceptable, that which may hurt or harm others or ourselves.

We have been taught to fear our fear and the fear of others as well. This fearing of fear JUST leads to more fear being generated. This creates a fear-fuelled energy cloud that rumbles inside of us and through all the strands of the collective emotional body web for fear-based BEings to get more energy from.

On these days of celebration of Samhain’s and All Saint’s Eve, Halloween, Dia de los Muertos, Diwali…..the shadow is actually acknowledged, recognized, and even celebrated within our cultures. The shadow sides can come out in costume; they can put on masks that are actually more authentic to their frequencies. The darkness can roam a bit without fear suppressing it. Souls that have left their human bodies and passed on can be opened up too and be felt by their loved ones without the fear of ghosts or being haunted blocking the connection.

As we BEcome more of our Higher Selves in our human body, gifts of mediumship naturally arise and we become less fearful of the spiritual realm. We see, feel, and hear Ethereal BEings such as Angels, spirit guides, spirit animals, and more. We can connect with our passed BEloveds through our common Metasoul threads and heart cords, as none of us really cease from being energized in the Now in SOME form. We can connect to other Metasoul partnerings and playouts with these SAME people, yet in different dances. Maybe, someday, we’ll be able to change or alter timelines to prevent dying and live out in Infinite Awareness with no time together IN a human body that will no longer age or get diseases.

With the veils between dimensions becoming so thin already in this now of intense phototonic light activations, it feels like there IS an opportunity to connect with spirits in a much deeper way today. To lead with your heart and your intention and ask to receive communications, being open to these contacts coming in unexpected ways, and trusting that love wants to see this happen for your own healing and theirs.

There is also more support to being open as well to how your shadow aspects might be needing you and wanting you. Your shadow often contains sources of power, soul gifts, soul purpose clarities…once the fear and resistance frequencies have been felt, cleared and healed, then these powerful soul gifts can be revealed. More of your power can be revealed and, often, more of your vulnerability as well.

All of this discovery may require negotiation with the part of you that protects and guards your shadow, what we call the Inner Protector in our SoulFullHeart process. The Protector (and also the 4D Gatekeeper) may not feel that you are truly ready to connect with your shadow and embody your soul power expression. They are in a stance of keeping you ‘safe’ rather than allowing you to risk feeling something painful and difficult (even though they will often allow and even contribute to repeating suffering loops inside you).

As your Higher Self comes into your body and your higher heart opens and expands, you become able to bring love to all the fear places inside of you. You can then also bring this love to the fear-based energies in others and serve as facilitator to this clearing of fear process in them too. This bringing love to fear then reverberates and expands throughout the entire Universe and the collective emotional body too. Bringing light to the darkness is above all about offering energies of compassion, forgiveness, understanding, and willingness to feel what is real.

Becoming a ‘warrior’ or going to battle against darkness just perpetrates the cycles of fear meeting and matching with more fear. This is often just the Protector in another form of ‘light warrior’ that is ultimately based in non-vulnerablity and resistance.

Invite parts of you to put down the swords and share with you why they are holding them, WHY they are afraid to go into the shadows with you, and you’ll open your heart up even that much wider, able to experience the love that makes up the essence of it all, including your shadow!

Here is a guided meditation with me to meet your shadow selves with MUCH love to hold the space:

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Letting Go Of Serving/Community, To Serve, Love, And Commune With Myself

by Kalayna Solais

“The energy released through the act of Confrontation is the resource from which the new self is created. To be sure, it takes great courage to look within, but the universe will not present to you what you are not ready to see… we will never be given a burden greater than our ability to carry.” — from Avalon Within by Jhenah Telyndru

Lately, I’ve been in a process of really diving deep within to confront anything and everything that has been keeping me from leading to my fullest capacity and deeply inhabiting service…. which is also everything that’s been keeping me from ME, from loving myself in a deeper and fuller way, and also loving others in the deep way they deserve without energies of comparison and intense projections of all kinds.

I’ve been having to take space from my community and them from me during this ongoing process… and that also means not facilitating or offering intro calls to others. I’ll also not be leading the SAFE calls for women with Jelelle, like the one tomorrow.

I feel surrendered and sad. Hopeful and remorseful. I’m mourning the old timelines that are collapsing but grateful that it’s time for something new to arise from the ashes. I feel the tenderness, unknown, and even insecurity that comes up in claiming this space for myself but the alchemy and opportunities in this too, to finally uproot and HEAL what’s been allowed to live inside of me for so long, well beyond this life. This is the business of deep soul shadow work and I’m grateful for the degree of trust I have around it, even though it’s so challenging sometimes to hold it all. In moments, it feels like I’m going to implode. But even then… once the waves that feel like they’re going to drown me ebb again, a grace comes through, something bigger than the ‘me’ I’ve been, holding me. And that I’m leaning into as a vital part of my own personal healing and Ascension journey that I can’t put off anymore and that needs my intense sobriety and focus.

I highly recommend having a free 30-45min intro call with Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman… both are heart open, wonderful men that can be deeply trusted and they are so ready to show up for you and all parts/Metasoul aspects of you. 

Also, if you are a woman, I very much recommend checking out Jelelle Awen’s SAFE call tomorrow. Even if you can’t make it live, you can purchase the recording. It’s $15 CAD to attend/receive the recording. Jelelle’s energies of Divine Feminine/Mother are gentle yet catalytic and I have benefitted greatly from everything she has ever offered me in session space and beyond.  More info on the event tomorrow here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/

Much love to you and with you,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, a healing healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Moving Beyond The Stickiness Of Lower 4D Consciousness

by Kalayna Solais

4D consciousness, especially Lower 4D, is a place where parts of you or aspects of your soul dwell and fixate on something they feel isn’t working for them, usually outside of you. When they’re in this dimensional space, which is more of a frequency and consciousness moving through you instead of a literal ‘place’,  they tend to feel that they want something about themselves or life around them to change PRONTO and they don’t necessarily want to wait very long for that change to happen. There can be an urgency about it, like something needs to shift right NOW, coupled with a fear that things will NEVER change, that life as you now know it and how it’s configured (and especially the way these parts/aspects seem to be feeling about it) will never shift into what you/they really want.

In 4D consciousness, especially lower 4D, it’s easy to forget that what everything, every piece of your walking-around consciousness within you really wants is love… and that there is a piece of not feeling truly worthy of it until this unworthiness can be deeply felt and held and the process of learning to trust love again is walked out, step by step.

It can feel sometimes like you’re drowning in plasma when these energies come up, as 4D consciousness is like a thick fog at times, shrouding what’s good and trustworthy and often projecting a ton of your own shadow onto something or someone outside of you. The wrestling with life, with love, with energies, is always playing out somewhere inside.

It seems like this experience of 4D is peaking in a way right now. It’s wanting us to move beyond it, even though it can feel as sticky as flypaper with so much darkness still purging and shadows still emerging, which is actually very compelling. It has such a strong gravitational pull that is hard to extract from or bring love to at times. It has a feeling of an endless abyss or void where pain can just writhe and squirm forever. Yet, it wants us to move beyond it and take it with us somehow so we can heal it starting from our own inner draw to be in it.

Connecting with different aspects of you from other timelines/lifetimes and especially those in galactic warfare, like any Orion aspect stuck in a battle of sorts that you may have come online right now (as I’m starting to really feel inside myself) can help you understand your own pull towards this darkness and why it’s there. Any of the darker timelines your soul has experienced, including in the dark side of Hollywood (one I’m learning that my soul knows well) or the underbelly of politics in any era or phase of ‘time’, are coming to light now as they need to start being held with love and compassion. We cannot damn them, for we are damning ourselves if we do. We can only open our hearts to feel them, to let in the remorseful tears, and to let Divine love help us hold everything that is just aching to be held.

Now is the perfect time to start really feeling all of this, as the support seems to be there from the incoming energies and, like always, from the Divine. We are ALL being challenged to walk out what we teach or offer to others, to fill in any gaps of integrity with our real-life experience in every arena of healing and moving back into love in ALL ways and on ALL levels of our being. This is next-level love ambassadorship and Service of Love and we’re all invited to take our next steps inward that bring us into alignment with an ever-purifying self-love overflow that can’t help but serve and support others to cultivate the same within them.

On Saturday May 11th, Jelelle is hosting (with support from Raphael) a virtual Group Transmission over Zoom which you can attend live or receive the recording for. The theme is Unplugging From the 3D/4D Matrix which would be a huge support if you are really feeling these energies right now!

Also, we offer ongoing 1:1 sessions to support you personally, which you can find more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Walking Through The Valley Of The Shadows Of Death During Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

You are walking through a valley……crawling on your knees at times. Completely lost and feeling like a ghost at times. Totally submerged in pain and mourning at times. Ash in the Air, filling the air at times.

This is the valley of the shadow of death place that awakening brings you to, invites you to…..yet it is not a place on the outside. It is not a place to go to, yet rather, a place that you become inside for a phase in order to move beyond it.

You are being with the shadows that are inside during this phase. The shadows are echoes of fear, of wounding, of trauma. The shadows are energies from other lifetimes wanting to become visible again so you can connect and heal and integrate them into your soul expression AS a human again. The shadows are what is inside of you that has been suppressed and disowned, cast away, and rejected.

You are BEing the death that is happening inside. The death is of the false YOU, the version of you that you agreed to be until you no longer needed or wanting to be anymore. Until you started to remember that you are not that, but really SO MUCH more. The death is of the old world that used to be nourishing and no longer is. The death is the letting go of relationships that require you to shrink and to settle and to conform.

You are crossing from the old way, the conditioned way, the veiled way…and into the NEW, shedding the layers of what is not you along the way. This crossing is dangerous to the old way and pushes up fear and resistance. The crossing asks more from you at times then you imagine that you can possibly give or have….yet, somehow, there is always something there to keep you moving forward.

Even though you walk through the valley of the shadow of death, you fear no evil, because you realize that there is NOTHING evil inside of you. There is nothing truly evil as it all can be returned to love with love. You fear no evil because you are with you. You are there to be with the shadows, to be with the aspect of you that is dying, to be a guide during the crossing and the dying and the letting go.

You are supported during this inner valley walk by a growing sacred human you. This you is infused with and held by Divine love, by love from your guides/aspects that become you more and more. This you can hold and respond and love all that comes up inside of you as sacred, meaningful, and important. This you sees all phases (especially the death and rebirth one) as sacred, meaningful, and important.

You are walking through your valley of your shadow during the death of your false self…..responding to change with trust…..responding to death with possibilities…..responding to growth with desire……responding to fear WITH LOVE.

On the other side of this valley is the land of self love milk and Self worth honey. The riches of self love and self worth that flow like rivers from your expanding mind, your embodying soul, your opening wide heart. This land of riches is of SELF beyond self image, unaware ego, personality and persona. This land is rich with the sunshine of your higher consciousness coming in and BEcoming you. It is rich with intimacies with others that are nourishing, catalytic, and based in mutual love and respect.

It is rich with a sense of being with Divine Source and also from Divine Source and also BEing Divine Source. This is the place you feel and remember as you cross the valley, that keeps you going, that reminds you of who you are meant to be as a sacred human.

Guided meditation to connect to your higher time/land of self love riches: https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Jelelle Awen
This writing is an excerpt from Sacred Human, Arising Wonder, my book available on the awakening/ascension process, available here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Peak Fear: The Uphill Climb Before The Surrender Into Love

by Kalayna Solais

We are living into a big crescendo right now, especially pushed up by the coming Equinox and this trinity of Supermoons. I keep being offered to call this crescendo ‘Peak Fear’ and that’s certainly what it feels like is happening. We are living into a dark time where the rumble of awakening out of 3D slumber and into lower 4D awarenesses is understandably pushing up fear.

The fear though is not so much coming from a need to fear what’s on the outside and how what’s rumbling in the collective will affect you personally. The fear is actually a reaction to what’s been in your personal shadow and is now coming up to be witnessed, felt, and ultimately loved UP. The fear of seeing timelines/lifetimes where your personal Metasoul has been involved in some of the terrible crimes that are actually quite triggering for you in this moment… yet, it’s surfacing because it’s time to not blame others for the state of the world and to begin taking responsibility, finding forgiveness and love inside so that you can feel compassion for what’s happening outside.

This is not an easy process, to really feel through these darker timelines of which your soul has been a part. Yet, we’re all invited to inhabit this sometimes daunting and heavy task with a pace we’re ready for. It feels like opting to go on journeys via Ayahuasca or Peyote or any other methods of inducing these sort of processes could add to the trauma of suddenly being thrust into these timelines of darkness, yet, if this is something you feel drawn to it may be important to go into it this way. The only piece here is to remember to hold self-love around it and to have a self-loving plan for integration and space for processing what you’ve now unearthed.

This whole process of unearthing and remembering could be much more step-by-step and self-lovingly held and paced if you choose to access your Gatekeeper first, who holds the keys to these alternate and other lifetime realities alive and well in your soul. It’s through getting to know them and negotiating with them that you can begin the descent into your inner cave, unveiling the dark and the light in your personal Metasoul. Here is a guided meditation from Jelelle to help you meet this aspect of you and to start the process of getting to know them too:

I personally have not been drawn to the intensity of plant-induced journeys and have preferred the pace of self-negotiated steps facilitated by an open-hearted other who has also been there. Yet, this is what my soul has gravitated towards with having experienced many lifetimes of these induced journeys for the sake of being an oracle, psychic, etc. and may not be what you actually need at this time.

What we’re intending to heal as a collective cannot be healed by pointing fingers. This method of shaming and blaming hasn’t worked yet in our ‘history’ to genuinely change the world we live in and how it operates. We cannot fire guns (figuratively or literally) and expect to find prolonged, sustainable peace, unless the parts of you that are attached to gunfire being the answer are deeply felt and given the love they so desperately want and need.

We cannot continue to ask world leaders to hold and give us the answers when they themselves haven’t gone inward to find what’s really going on inside of themselves or their own souls. More and more leadership is being invited out from inside of you, starting with leading your own explorations into the shadow that continues to be illuminated by what you’re hearing about, reading about, and reacting to on the outside.

The beautiful thing about all of this, is that we aren’t being asked to do it alone. We aren’t actually being asked to go deep into the desert and suffer for our ‘sins’ or find penitence and to strive for forgiveness from outside of us. We are already forgiven. We are already loved, despite it all, because we have needed to walk all of these timelines out for the sake of discovery, learning, growth, and the path back to the love we’ve come from and simply ARE. Now though… now we have the choice about what we want to do with this information and we can choose to be curious instead of fused to the same reality of Peak Fear we’ve been witnessing and perpetuating in different ways.

Much love to you as you feel into whatever your shadow is illuminating for you… I, myself, am curious too about where this exploration will take me next, for there are ALWAYS gifts to integrate from even the darkest of places we must go within and I trust deeply that I will not be the same person (in a really good way) on the other side of each journey inward.

For more info on connecting with one of us for bridging sessions and facilitation to help you become this love ambassador to your own soul, visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: 333 And Approaching Equinox Supermoon Offer Shadow Healing

By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: It is another 333 energy day today (3/12/2019….3/1+2/2+0+1+9=1+2) with its offering of joy, creativity, alignment to soul purpose and leadership expression, and personal shiftings. Three energy feels fundamentally unstable, definitely transitionary….meant to push up what it does while it does.
 
I’ve been receiving repeating number sequences constantly in the last two days, including waking up at 2:22am this morning for awhile and glancing at the clock right at 3:33 and 4:44 yesterday. These sequences always feel like codes to me….that unlock when seen and received. A nod and wink from our Higher Self too that we are on the right track and going in the direction of our soul.
 
We are still in the middle of a trinity of Supermoons with the third and final one occurring on the Equinox as well next week. The Supermoons have been providing this intense, ongoing illumination of shadow….and so often what is in shadow is not evil or dark, yet rather just needs and requires compassion and forgiveness. What is deepest in shadow is what is often the most challenging to love….yet is in the most need of it with the rewards of integrating it quite profound.
 
Respond to compassion and forgiveness toward what emerges out of shadow in yourself, others, and the collective. The most intense and previously vilified actions and people in your life are the ones who need you most to bridge to them with ambassador of love frequencies (even if you continue to not be in relationship). Many passed loved ones have been coming through in sessions lately as the veils are so much thinner right now.
 
I have especially been channeling fathers who have perpetuated abusive cycles with their daughters, including early childhood sexual abuse. These fathers now in spirit form are timidly coming forward, asking for forgiveness from them, so that they can move on and ascend. This can be a very powerful way to work with shadow as what you are able to forgive in others ripples into your own soul too and other timelines for which Metasoul aspects of yours may have been abusive toward others (for which the abusive experience this life is offering a mirror.)
 
The healing possibilities with all this 3 and Supermoon (and recent SOULar winds too) energies are HUGE right now. Traumas are being revealed through unexplainable triggering and reactions. Timelines with karmic pain still lingering are bleeding through to overlap and vibrate under your current circumstances. Parts of you from this life and other lifetimes are coming into consciousness through situations, dreamscapes, meditations.
 
These are some catalytic energies coming together. These energies are the kinds that collapse timelines quickly and introduce the NEW ones at the same time. Navigating all this with love and grace is possible as you separate from the parts of you from this life and other timelines with much love then available to offer. This separation brings in more objectivity and compassion overflow too. It allows for more Divine support to fill your heart space and feel the bigger container of LOVE holding it all.
There are many videos in my recent Deepen 33 Day series that provide a bridge to the energies within and support for your growing, objective self: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
Jelelle Awen
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
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ALL Energies Want To Return To Love Again

By Jelelle Awen

ALL energies, ALL BEings, want to return back to love again ultimately. When responded to with love and not fear; with compassion, not judgement; with curiosity, not knowing; with forgiveness; not condemnation…..ANY energy can transmute to love again as that is what it actually IS.

This message came through the other day when I was writing about how to respond to energies around and inside of you that feel dark/negative/’evil’, etc. There was quite an outpouring on FB and on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel and when I shared it on Higher Self YouTube Channel. The response was overwhelmingly one of gratitude for the new and compassionate perspective. Many souls were grateful for the reminder that ALL BEings are love in their essence, no matter how they present themselves, and just want/need love in order to return to that original state of Divine essence. I think it was a ‘breath of fresh air’ in contrast to what can be a strongly confrontative energy about ‘exposing’ these dark energies.

This is the writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/responding-to-negative-evi…/
This is the audio blog of it recorded in my voice:

I feel touched at the response and I also feel grateful for Divine Mother (esp. Mother Mary) for energizing these forgiving and compassionate tones to me, over and over again, for the parts of me that felt unforgivable, sinful, dark, evil, etc. to take in and receive and transmute into love again. As I received this from Her, it served as an activation of MY soul’s capacity to feel these ambassador of love frequencies to myself and then offer them to others too. I feel we ALL have this capacity to be an ambassador of love. It is a critical aspect of activation of our sacred human DNA as we move into embodiment of 5D frequencies inside of our bodies.

AND, it will be needed as much information continues to roll out from the lower 4D disclosure realities that have been playing out, unconscious to so many people anchored to 3D. Many souls could become polarized in hate, in fear, and in disgust/outrage over what is revealed.

Our capacity as ambassadors of love to provide the bigger picture of dualistic experiment that ALL of it has been and to compassionately understand the playouts……the ability to accept genuine remorse from those souls who need to offer it…..the lived in feeling sense that ALL of it has been chosen by each sovereign being on the soul level while feeling compassion for the suffering experienced by many…..these will be such important energies to provide others, starting from the embodiment of them from within.

There are those souls that feel a call to expose all of the lower 4D goings on…the Cabal, the Draco, the shadow that has been necessary. HOW they/you do that is so important. The energy with which they/you offer it….is it with fear or is it with love? Is it polarized (good vs. evil) or is it in recognition that we ALL come from Divine Source? Are there unintegrated shadow parts of they/you that still need love and attention?

Being aware of the energy behind the information that is offered becomes so important going forward. That which opens your heart (even if it is difficult to digest) is in the frequencies of Divine alignment. That which creates and brings up MORE fear and leads you to feel ‘against’ other energies (from others or inside yourself) is still coming from undigested fear and more polarized consciousness.

Much love to you as we navigate these shifting, dynamic times together!

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available to connect to the parts of you that most need your love and attention! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Eclipse And SOULar Winds Provide Deep Purging & Clearing

Energy Update: Many souls are STILL feeling the impact and effects of the total lunar eclipse on Sunday/Monday. This is a lingering, ongoing, powerful gateway and passageway to your NEW, higher timeline life. This lunar gateway seems to be about clearing out the denser, toxic, not-going-to-come-along, in the shadow energies that can keep you anchored to 3D timelines….so that you ultimately can arise into the NEW ones.
 
I’ve been honored to be more full lately with serving love during 1:1 sessions with women. What I am seeing during sessions is that this eclipse is bringing in purging and clearing on the emotional body level as connected to Metasoul timelines/lifetimes that hold heavier karmic, archetypal energies. Sexual abuse frequencies are being activated from this life (if you bravely signed up to experience and then transmute them) AND also from other lifetimes. Veils of amnesia are being lifted to remember these experiences, even from early childhood, so that they may be healed.
 
Betrayal themes and patterns with women, men, in romantic relationships (again from this life and other lifetimes) are also being illuminated for digesting, self love/compassion, and ultimately forgiveness on all sides at the higher self level. A clearer sense of where victimization experience needs your compassionate love is being revealed too.
 
Divine Mother doesn’t ‘judge’ if you are playing a victim of not. She offers love to what NEEDS love and this moves whatever it is into empowerment again. During intense experiences of trauma and abuse (esp as a young child), part of you IS a victim to this experience. Loving this part of you and Metasoul aspects with compassion allows them to remember their power again to CHOOSE to forgive and move beyond it. Suppressing these feelings with judgements of not wanting to be a victim doesn’t actually provide the loving healing energies most needed to move beyond it.
 
On another energy note….SOULar winds are starting to rise UP with geomagnetic storms very possible tomorrow. According to spaceweather.com, “NOAA forecasters say there is a 60% chance of G1-class geomagnetic storms on Jan. 24th when a stream of solar wind is expected to hit Earth’s magnetic field. The gaseous material is flowing ~600 km/s from a hole in the sun’s atmosphere. Arctic auroras are likely this Thursday.”
 
These SOULar winds may amplify whatever the full moon eclipse has pushed up for your digestion and illumination. Continue self love practices and connection with Divine Mother as the Sacred Masculine energies come in. Here is a guided meditation with Kalayna and I to connect with five beloved faces of Divine Mother: Mother Mary, Kuan Yin, Magdalene, Sophia, and Dark Mother https://youtu.be/buMlCNQp24c
 
Here also is a guided meditation I did on eclipse day to connect with the codes and energies of it and flow them through the body: https://youtu.be/UioyKPHYKMY
 
BE as loving as you can during these more intense energies…listening and feeling into what your body/heart/mind/soul needs. I am providing the gift of this daily video series Deepen for 33 days to illuminate your inner worlds and the support that is available there for you as you connect to the Divine within.
 
Here is a playlist to watch all the videos in the series: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
 
MUCH love to you as we ride the bliss mess waves of awakening together!
 
Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Healing The Lost, Dark, And Crazy Parts Of You With Love

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too.

They are beyond shape and age and time too. Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that never seems to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’. They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is why so often you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain path they have known. As they feel YOU come into their world with compassionate curiosity, they can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, or dark at all. Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love.

This is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth. As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too. As you love even the narcissist INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate.

These lost ones become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These crazy ones become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available with me over zoom for women to feel and heal these precious parts of your self and soul for $55 USD minimum donation for 90 very FULL minutes! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Seeing The World Through The Eyes Of Your Parts/Metasoul Aspects

Note from Jelelle Awen: This is beautiful writing from Devon, who has been in sessions with me for the last few months. She describes wonderfully what it is like to connect with different aspects of yourself (the Inner Punisher and Gatekeeper esp.) and see/feel your world through their lens. You can viscerally feel the energies of these different aspects of her through the sharing of their experience and poetry too. Go here to read more about these parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

By Devon Heart Star

As I continue the process of parts work that I have dedicated myself to, during the holiday season, it has become clear that my Inner Punisher needs the most undivided attention and love from me, right now. The Inner Punisher is often a masculine energy and working with this part is similar to Shadow Work. This is not work for the faint of heart and I often want to give up! But my Soul or Higher Self has done so much work with me and continues to support me coming more into Love, that it’s truly impossible to quit.

It’s almost like each part of me has its own pair of glasses it gets to put in front of my eyes, and that is how I experience my 3D life, from the emotional eyes of each of these parts’ feelings, depending upon who’s energy has been pushed up for the most immediate attention. Once I learn about each part and actually get to feel them, giving them space from being fused to me or taking over me, powerful relationships, love, and trust, can begin within, with each of them. And this creates the space for my 4D and 5D and beyond Self to begin to emerge or descend or ascend or settle in. It’s all a very personal experience, yet has a commonality for most people drawn to this work. Eventually, I get to know when I am wearing the glasses that my Heart/Higher Self desires to wear; those of love and vulnerability, and I can continue to practice looking at my various parts with those Heart glasses, offering them the love they are longing for from me.

Back to today’s work with my Inner Punisher, Oscar. In a moment of clarity, when he was feeling safe and loved by me, he showed himself as Oscar the Grouch. I thought it was pretty funny and spot-on, so he took the name Oscar, right about the time I was going to see The Grinch movie. Both of them are green monsters who turned their back on love because of the grief they experienced in not receiving the love they so desired as children. Oscar feels safer being able to retreat into his dark can, where he still believes he deserves to be and is safe from making others angry. When he is in full-swing mode, he is the underlying pair of glasses I don’t even know I’m wearing, the voice within that speaks to me harshly, judges myself and others harshly, at times, although that is just another reason to punish himself, and basically sabotages before we can be sabotaged by someone else.

We have another significant part who seems to offer an escape hatch for Oscar when Oscar feels like his monster-self cannot be loved and the pain of that too much to bear. My Gatekeeper, Jonathan, has had a strong place in my world since my teen years, even though most people do not experience their Gatekeeper until they first really dive deep into parts work. I didn’t know him as the Gatekeeper until parts work, but he was working with me all these years, as I traveled to other dimensions and experienced alternate realities, so to speak. The energies from this would, of course, overwhelm me, physically, but I never could seem to stop them. I am still learning about my relationship with Jonathan and about his connection to Oscar, as he offers him portals and worm holes, and massive amounts of information from other timelines when his emotions become too big for this world. Anyway, Jonathan offered up some wisdom (as he is a most excellent timeless wisdom channel) that I wanted to share:

Forgiveness is a ceremony
Not an act
Self-forgiveness is a ritual
Not just a word
Cultivating forgiveness requires darkness
Diving straight into
the darkest canyons
and depths within
It requires a strength that is so soft
it can tread across
the fires of the Heart
with a willingness to burn up in the attempt
Forgiveness is no small act
You’ll have to face parts of you
that you fear most
who will mirror your courage
in their pleading gaze
You’ll need to bring your biggest light
and that divine part of you
who has no fears
Because cultivating self-forgiveness
creates the bridge
for everyone to come home to love

Thank you, Jonathan!

Everyone can relate to experiencing the Inner Punisher energy and the deep desire to heal within. I’ve learned so much and continue this invaluable process with Jelelle Awen, co-creator of and many other amazing titles at SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. You can get one-to-one very full sessions with her or other wonderful facilitators, find out more at soulfullheartwayoflife.com
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