In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Healing The Warrior Within Group Call Recording & Completion of Free To Be 2 Series (w/recordings available!)

By Jelelle Awen

What a wonderful energy to complete our Free To Be 2 group call series on today! Our final call of the series honored the warrior within (and all the expressions of it) and invited it into more experience of Divine forgiveness/compassion to become the Ambassador.

Thank you SO MUCH to all of you who joined us for this call and for the series in whatever ways and degrees that you did. You are helping us to seed and plant SoulFullHeart into the world and the collective grids, radiating there for whomever is drawn and resonant.

BIG thank you to Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais for your contributions and sharings in every call and for holding such lovely and deep space for the Saturday follow up calls!

You can purchase ALL of the recordings in this series and in the previous ones at our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal by donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen. (please make a note of what you are donating for). We went to some powerful places during these series and laid out some foundational teachings too so I highly recommend them.

ONWARD to the next series, which starts on Wednesday July 15th through August 19th…Free To Be 5D, a group call series focused on deepening the content that is covered in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. You can purchase the book and get more information about this series at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries.

Also coming up is my Sacred Feminine Exploration women’s group call teaching about and offering a guided meditation to connect with healing the motherhood wound to let in more Divine Mother is on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT. Open to all women over 18 by donation. More information at: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

We hope to see you for the next series and future calls!

love,

Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Loving The Spiritual Warrior Into The Spiritual Ambassador

Since the Solstice/Eclipse I found myself flying high in the sky to then falling toward the ocean like Icarus in the Greek myth. An outer trigger that constellated another layer of my wounded masculine and feminine.

It illuminated the ways in which they are both still working out their relationship to each other. As my own ascension and maturation process continues, I reach more subtle areas of my wounded and shadow selves. Then the subtle becomes more obvious and like an elephant in the room.

The awareness I felt was that parts of me still look outbound for validation rather than inbound and from me and the Divine. Before this SoulFullHeart work, I would respond to this awareness by trying to ‘improve’ myself or take care of my ‘shit’. This only brought in more frequencies of self-judgement rather than self-compassion.

Through connecting to my inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects, I have become more clear about who I, Gabriel, is as the ‘eye of the storm’ sort of speak. I am becoming more clear of my Essential self, that Me that is the spark of the Divine.

As I connect to that energy more, I can start to see the architecture of my wounding more and be able to hold the parts of me in vibration and pain. I am the Ambassador of my own ascension. My trailing edge wounds are a part of who I am. I cannot go very far without them. Their ascension is my ascension.

So in I go. Feeling. Reflecting. Compassionating. Loving. Owning and Growing. This is the path of Spiritual Ambassador, not the Spiritual Warrior. Even the warrior is held in Love and not in spite. It has enumerable gifts that are the fuel of our devotion to Love for all humankind and for ourselves as human souls.

For more on this topic of 4D Warrior to 5D Ambassador I highly recommend today’s call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be bridging these energies through teaching and a guided meditation to bring in more compassion, forgiveness, and self-love. It will be available as a recording as well. To get the details go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

From Warrior To Love Ambassador Group Call June 24

by Jelelle Awen

The new hero/heroines will not be those that fight, yet rather those that can be an ambassador of love in any situation.

It is time to pick up the lantern of illumination, and put down the sword.

Time to go toward peaceful solutions, rather than to battle.

Time to raise the white flags of surrender, instead of new declarations of war.

Time to seek out ceasefires on all battlegrounds, rather than new fronts to defend.

Time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love.

Time to gather parts of you that have been polarized, and sign the inner peace treaties that lead to more self worth and love.

Time to let go of being against anything and moving into being FOR LOVE in all situations.

Time to honor the strength in vulnerability, rather than only in the capacity to fight.

Time to rest the vigilance, the guarding and the defending….and rise into trusting, allowing, and flowing.

Time to let the Divine Mother into your inner feminine/masculine’s hearts, to receive Her ready forgiveness.

Time to let the Divine Father activate the transition from wounded to sacred masculine!It is time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love…from the inside out.

~Join Raphael and I tomorrow, Wednesday June 24th at 10:00am PDT for the final group call in our Free To Be 2 series: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition where we will share about the transition from Warrior to Love Ambassador and offer a guided meditation to bridge to and feel the warrior within you AND the love ambassador energy as well. Should be powerful support in the collective for the shifting of these energies with so much going on right now. You can join live or get the recording by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Shifting From ‘Fighting’ For Your Desires/Needs Into Advocating With Self-Love

by Kalayna Solais

You’re hard-wired to seek out a life that has more ease to it, more deep fulfillment. You’re conditioned, however, to ‘fight’ for it outside of you, to ‘make’ it happen, instead of feeling and healing the fight within you, respond to life on the outside as needed, and to allow this desired life to reveal itself to you from the inside out.

Amazing things happen as the ‘warriors’ that 3D and Lower 4D consciousness have co-created within you start to heal. You start to see and experience a life with less turmoil and tension. And, you recognize that when you do feel these things in your field, you have all the power you need to choose appropriate boundaries and other shifts in your circumstances or relationships that are led by self-love.

The ‘warriors’ inside of you are the parts of you that have HAD to push away at the toxicity they were born into, in one way or another. They’ve HAD to be in their own sacred processes of awakening to the rumbles of the collective, to the systems in place that yes, need to and are collapsing, even without parts of you holding the blowtorch (though I get that in some cases, boy do they want to!). Healing the warrior energy inside of you is not about moving into passivity or transcending any difficulties you witness or experience until they go away on their own.

Actually, it’s quite an active process of feeling the inner battlegrounds and going THERE. Going into your Metasoul to feel the personal connection you hold to ‘race wars’ within other lifetimes, let alone this one. Going inward to feel what the people in power represent, how your own soul has participated willingly in the creation of the collapsing ‘Cabal’. Your sacred soul journey is playing out now and always and within is the place where you have any real jurisdiction to ‘do your part’ to change the world at large.

Any actions you need to take on the outside of you, then spring naturally from these places and parts within you that are healing. You’ll naturally feel the need for more space from others who don’t resonate with the inner work you’ve undertaken. You won’t necessarily find even a ‘battle’ in that advocation, even if there are moments of needing to push back against an energy to set a much-needed boundary. This experience is temporary though and you’ll find it comes from a new place within you and with new energy too, that isn’t looking for a battle but responding instead to dissonant energies and moving them out of your heart space and personal space with LOVE.

This process is a sacred re-wiring of your life from the inside-out. It holds the fulfillment you’re ultimately seeking and wanting and deeply desiring. It unlocks the door to you, your parts, your ever-deepening soul journey and shifts you into the space of being a Love Ambassador, a unique energy that this world, and your inner world, need now more than ever before.

Gabriel, Raphael, and I offer FREE 30-45min consultation calls if you’re interested in the SoulFullHeart Experience healing process and what I’m offering here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

MUCH love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Divine Invitation To Move From Warrior To Love Ambassador

By Jelelle Awen

The impulse to fight is so strong. Ingrained in our very and every DNA, going back to our roots and the 3D battles, galactic wars and the ancient ones too. The urge to ‘battle against’ and ‘fight for’ has been a way in 3D and 4D timelines to show your strength of character and a way to demonstrate what you love, your loyalty, and the depth of your love and passion for your country/family/king/ruler.

We have all had so many 3D and 4D timelines of fighting, battling, and BEing the warrior. Not just men, yet all of us on a Metasoul level choosing this expression in different forms and shapes. A sword, gun, whatever weapons in our hands….or using words as the weapon…or energy thrown about and at whomever we have deemed to be the enemy.

This battling is in our DNA. It is also a galactic consciousness inheritance from our Star Family in the timelines where galactic wars have been and are a reality. Our 3D culture/current timeline is all about battling…good vs evil, light vs dark. All of the biggest blockbuster movies are based on this premise with battle scenes being the climax of all of them.

Battles lead to more battles with always a cost of some kind on both sides. The biggest cost is the energy that it takes and that has to move through us in order to engage in this way. The desire to battle comes from mostly unhealed wounding/traumas in which we have been both victim and perpetrator. These unhealed wounds have a vibration/energetic frequency that expresses, then, as rage. Rage in its essence is passionate truth telling that has been suppressed to protect the more vulnerable feelings of hurt underneath.

The parts of us that can be a warrior (such as the Inner Protector and our Gatekeeper) and have had to be are becoming more weary, tired, and just done with all this battling. They are wanting to move into a new phase of ambassador where trust and forgiveness lead over mistrust and grudges. You can feel this part of you as your Inner Protector and connecting with them can help to transition them into this new phase with you. As this part of you shifts their focus from fighting, they can put their energies toward opening up Metasoul timelines/lifetimes, your soul awakening, and becoming a channel for Divine love.

The warrior archetype can be deeply expressed in your Metasoul….many lifetimes of choosing to fight for God, for country, for King, for belief systems. There is much ‘soul burn’ from these experiences as they so often led to violent death and killing/murder, the densest energy frequencies of trauma. These lifetimes can bleed through into your current experience of life, attaching to traumas this-life that are similar in tone, even if not as intense or extreme in content. There is also trauma from being on the receiving end or victim of these fighting/killing energies. And, so many of us have been on both sides of this…both victim and persecutor/perpetrator.

Connecting to your Gatekeeper as the guardian of your veil of amnesia and channel to Divine Love allows you access to these lifetimes to feel and heal the warrior/fighter within them. You offer a balm of love and forgiveness along with the Divine to them and a beautiful gift exchange occurs as you become a love ambassador to your own soul. I have experienced this myself many times and in session space and it is a beautiful working and movement that has quantum and exponential results.

We are being invited as a human species to evolve beyond our instinct and habit toward fighting. We are being invited to embody and inhabit an ambassador’s consciousness and a diplomat’s deep desire in 5D to find a peaceful middle ground of negotiation. We are being invited to become the service of love with ourselves and others as the Ascension process into Sacred Humanity continues to unfold.

The new heroes/heroines of the New Earth/Gaia reality will be those who can bring peace in any situation. It will no longer be the warriors who receive the recognition and admiration, yet those who can offer forgiveness to even the darkest-feeling energies, beings, and situations. This ability will become so important as we move deeper into collective disclosure of 3D/4D Matrix realities that will be difficult for so many souls to digest and accept. Those who can offer authentic objectivity and compassion toward all sides will be very valuable as models and templates of ‘New Gaians’.

New Earth invites us to find and discover resolutions that come from finding common grounds of ambassadorship, which are about being able to feel and be compassionate toward someone else’s perspective. Not wanting to do harm even if the means of harming could be justified by a temporary resolution of the conflict.

The Divine Mother invites us to move into our compassionate heart of neutrality toward all aspects of ourselves and toward others as the next phase of our conscious evolution as a species here.This capacity to be an ambassador of love starts from within, from one part of you to another, from one Metasoul Aspect to another, from one relationship to another.

It is a process of becoming a forgiving and compassionate energy to all of your emotions/reactions/triggers. No longer judging some as bad or ill or a disorder or sinful or needing to be fixed. No longer bypassing the most unsavory and uncomfortable ones in order to just be in bliss. Yet, instead, embracing all of your emotions as portals inviting you into a rich and deep ground of endless self discovery and growth.

It is a process of inviting all parts and Metas to put down the sword and replace it with a lantern…offering illumination out of the darkness and shadows. It is leading with curiosity to light the way rather than condemnation, which only keeps things hidden in suffering loops of shameful secrecy.

~ From Free To Be 5D, New Book by Jelelle Awen

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This is an excerpt from my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out available NOW in PDF, e-book, and print editions. You can read more with links to purchase here: soulfullheart.org/books

Join Raphael and I for the final call in our Free To Be 2 group call series on Wednesday June 24 at 10:00am PDT for teachings and a guided meditation about navigating the transition from warrior (and however that expresses within your soul) to 5D Love Ambassador or receive the recording for any donation amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen

Raphael and I will be starting a new six week group call series on July 15 called Free To Be 5D that is an accompaniment to the book as well offering teachings, personal sharings and guided meditations to create a deeper experience of the content in the book. More info at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Humanity’s Return To Innocence

by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Remembering Our Starseed Essence

By Deya Shekinah

Every week the parts and themes we are feeling and connecting with through the ‘Free To Be Two’ group calls seem to be naturally interconnected, offering me a much bigger picture of myself, the world, and the Universe. 

My Inner Teenager, Yasmin, feels so connected to the collapse of the 3D Matrix. Feeling her is helping me collapse the matrices inside at the same time as I’m witnessing them collapse on the outside. Feeling where she was ‘plugged in’ through the school systems and birth family templating is helping me unravel all the beliefs and ideas she holds about who she is meant to be. 

Last week I could feel her in the school corridors, overwhelmed and unprepared for the huge transition that it was. I could feel her innocence, as she carried my Inner Child in her arms wearing PJ’s and holding a teddy bear. She quickly learnt to ‘grow up’ and hide her Inner Child and innocence so she could ‘fit in’ and ‘survive’. This created so much depression which I can still feel here now, as hidden with her childhood innocence was also her curiosity, her creativity, her sense of purpose, and her multi-dimensional connections.

Something that feels so rich within my Inner Child is this connection to the magic, to the mysterious, and to the stars. As life got denser through living in 3D, I forgot about the magical essence of my Inner Child as she seemed to get further and further away. I am now remembering her and feeling how she has been there all along as the one who was questioning everything and longing for Home. 

She feels like my Starseed, who is revealing herself organically as Yasmin is deeply digesting her experiences this life. She feels expansive, curious, and open to all the possibilities in this Universe. She restores the magic in this existence and reminds me of the bigger picture of all that is happening in our world right now. 

Connecting with my Starseed brings me into a deep peace within, as she helps me remember I have never been alone and that those who I have longed to go home to were always here with me, inside me, every step of the way.

You can join Raphael & Jelelle Awen today for the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series, Navigating The Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition, at 10:00am PDT with teachings and a guided meditation to connect to your Star Seed within, Star Family, and galactic consciousness. You can join live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Much Love, 

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Remember, Star Seed, Where You Come From, Who You Are, and Your Star Family | Message W/Binkh

By Jelelle Awen

Remember, Star Seed, where you come from. This is not an ‘outside of you’ place, somewhere in the Cosmos or another planet or another Galaxy. Yet, rather this is a place that dwells from within you.

THIS place is your cosmic consciousness, where your humanity meets the stars in an embodied way. Your cosmic consciousness can feel and move beyond the 3D programming and conditioning that you have received all your life from the Matrix system. Your cosmic consciousness can extend beyond five sense reality filtering into multidimensional access.

Your cosmic consciousness lives in your cells already…in your DNA, in your glands, in your auric field, in your chakras, in your heart, in your mind, in your soul. It is just WAITING for activation, for connection, for bridging, and for watering.

Remember, Star Seed, who your family is. This is not the birth family that has raised you in 3D reality. Yet, rather a Star Family that KNOWS your galactic nature intimately and personally.

THIS Star Family has been in contact with you for your entire life, in ways both subtle and obvious. There is not one moment of contact in the physical to wait for, yet rather, it is happening all of the time, to whatever degree you can see and feel it.

Your Star Family Unity Consciousness lives within you already and can be activated in a more conscious way whenever you are ready. Your Star Family has never really left you, been witness on your difficult journey on the 3D Earth Plane and they are here to support your Ascension into sacred humanity in a more conscious way to you Now.

Remember, Star Seed, WHERE you really come from, WHO you really ARE, and the Star Family that you belong to. As you remember, so you become a beacon to the rest of humanity to awaken and find their way home starting from within them once again.

Love,
Binkh (Arcturian Aspect) and Jelelle Awen

Listen to the recording of Raphael Awen and I of the fourth call in our Free To Be 2: Navigating The Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition at 10:00am PDT for teachings and guided meditation to connect to your Star Seed within, Star Family, and galactic consciousness. You can join us live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

More writings on the activation of cosmic consciousness, connecting to your Star Seed, and descriptions of various Star BEings in my new book Free To Be 5D, available on ebook, print, and PDF versions: soulfullheart.org/books

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall 💕

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.