Relating And Responding To Global Death And Rebirth

My heart is still swirling from the event in Beirut a few days ago. Add to that a larger Event at hand with a pandemic of fear, hate, and rage making its way around the globe currently, it can be easy to feel an apocalypse underway. The narratives of Good vs Evil, Us vs. Them, Just vs. Unjust are all coming to a head on the world’s stage and the collective psyche.

There is no doubt in my mind and heart that a collapse and a revealing is underway. The bigger question is how are we relating to it? When events like what happened in Beirut occurred in my past, I would find myself in a sudden shock and heart pain, but then not too soon after rushing to analysis and conspiracy. There are also many who go down the despair road where the totality of the world’s ills cover them like a dark cloud. I have had those times too.

I choose to honor the deep emotional reactions to these events so that I can be with the feeling first. Let them be held by a ‘bigger’ me that is rooted in a greater context, yet doesn’t go there to bypass the feeling. There is something that gets lost in the analysis/finger-pointing and the despair. There is a personal relationship to what is happening externally as a portal to what is occurring internally.

That may seem like bypassing for many. Sticking our head in our heart is not the same as sticking it in the sand. It is about seeing where our wounding and fears lie in the soularium of our being. What timelines and aspects are triggered with all of these events and information coming at us at warp speed? When we react without first feeling the root of the reaction, we fuse to these timelines and aspects and wind up recapitulating the same scenario all over again.

For me personally, it is this feeling that we, as a collective family, may never heal into our most divinely-appointed timeline. That the fear and hate will envelope us all into a dystopian pit. Then I take that even more personally and can feel the timelines in which I have had aspects in apocalyptic/dystopic timelines. Lots of fear and trauma.

As I connect with them and get to feel what is theirs, then I can feel more of me, and what is mine. This sorting out brings a different perspective and energy from which to act. More love can enter the space and that helps to create the timeline we ultimately want, even the ‘evil-doers’, believe it or not!

We are responsible for our own apocalypse (revealing). We are responsible for which timeline comes into our reality. We get to choose how to relate and how to respond. If we don’t believe that (and I can understand why) we have given away our Divine-given power to truly create a heaven on Earth in the name of righteousness and fear.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc. 

Full Moon Illuminates The Need To Be An Ambassador Of Love To The Dark

Last night’s full moon drew me out of bed in the wee hours. It was obscured but oh so mesmerizing as always.

I was reflecting on a session I just had with someone in the afternoon, where we met an ‘entity’ that has been in her room for a few months, usually connected to in sleep. It has not been necessarily foreboding, but a bit of a trickster, yet some understandable fear from the inner child.
She was offered to have it ‘removed’ by someone, and that didn’t quite land square with her heart. Nor mine when I felt it. Many times these energies are seeking to be felt and connected with, they just don’t have a good sense of how to make that happen. Plus parts of us get fear triggers and that can distort the need as well.

We were able to feel together how this being was actually a part of another life dynamic that was connected to another Metasoul sister of hers in another timeline. He was actually seeking forgiveness and needed an ambassador of love to bridge to this timeline and her.
By looking through the lens of love and compassion, something new illuminated. Where once this foreboding figure seemed dark, somewhat scary, and mysterious, it now felt very human and very tender.

This felt to reflect so much of how parts of us see and react to the world around us. In fear, we light and dark. In love, we actually see varying shades of possibility, potential, and compassion with curiosity. We get to choose how we want to relate to that which we either don’t understand or that which we have a deep reaction to.

We are creators within the One Great Creator. Ultimately the Creator Itself experiencing Itself through our consciousness. With all the darkness coming to Light, I wanted this to be a reminder of what we can choose to see and feel about everything around us and in us. Therein lies the true north of our deepest desire to be in Love, with Love, as Love.

Full moon blessings and illumination to you.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Livestream, Aug 2nd/2020: Energy Update & Guided Meditation

by Kasha Rokshana

These Lion’s Gate energies moving through right now are powerful, bringing us downloads of the New Earth possibilities and our personal process steps for getting there. Many waves of clarity and inspiration are coming in, inviting us to our next levels, our next places inside of emotional and spiritual maturity.

Tomorrow, Aug 2nd/2020, Gabriel Heartman and I will be hosting a livestream at 10am PDT on Facebook. We’ll be digesting the incoming energies and offering an activation of the Lion’s Gate ‘Roar’ and what it wants to offer you personally through a guided meditation. We’ll support you to connect with your own Sirian/Lion(ess) aspect that is available to you now, who may have even more to offer you about your personal process at the moment from a much higher perspective and deep compassion as well.

I wrote an energy update about the Lion’s Gate energies yesterday where I share some more about what these energies are wanting to offer us here.

If you can’t attend live, you can catch the recording afterwards which we’ll post here on the blog, on our Youtube Channel, and on our Facebook feeds as well.

Much love!

Kasha Rokshana & Gabriel Heartman

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Divine Self And The Death Of Fear

Fear is a deeply sacred energy. It feels almost encoded into our being to act as veil AND and portal into our essence as Love.

Recently, I had a beautiful experience of feeling an arising, embodied relationship to The Beloved and my Divine Self. A spark of Light and Love that is increasing within. As that expands and brightens, it acts as a poultice for all that is needing attention and transmutation into that very spark.

Pockets of anxiety, doubt, and fear come bubbling to the surface, like a moth that is drawn to a flame. It recognizes the growth, the warmth, and thus the ability to hold and receive love. At the root, Fear seems to be the change agent, not the anchor it once was.

Fear can be expressed in so many ways, both inbound and outbound. We live among a highly energized fear bubble. It is highly compressed and dynamic. With that energy afloat in the collective it can be hard to not pick up on it in our own emotional body.

This is where connecting with what we call the Divine Self comes into service. As I call to mine and connect with it/him, I can feel what my personal fear is about and how, or if, it is connected to the collective in any way. A sorting out process. I can feel how much the fear is centered around Death itself.

And by that I just don’t mean physical death, but that is a big one right now. It is also the death of a system of beliefs, assurances, and patterns that parts of us have grown attached to. They almost feel like us and so the death of them feels existential.

As we continue to be invited to more inner Utopia and less outer Dystopia, we need something to ‘hang our hats’ on while the collapse and shift is underway. The Divine Self is the enduring self. It is the Alpha and Omega. It is the net by which we collect all of the things that are essential and release those that are not.

The Divine Self is the aspect of us that can hold the parts that are fused to fear and create a bridge back to Itself. A feedback loop that doesn’t judge when the fear returns. Just offers more compassion and celebration, as that is just another opportunity to open to more Grace and closer to The Beloved.

Fear is no longer resisted or covered over. It is honored, felt deeply, and transmuted back to Love through the Divine Self. This is the ultimate alchemy of the sacred human. Let’s expand that together and see where it takes us, as one and as all.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Go With Reverence

by Kalayna Solais

Wherever you go, go with reverence.
Whoever you meet, meet with reverence.
Whatever you celebrate, celebrate with reverence.
Whatever you consume, consume with reverence.
Whenever you go inward, go inward with reverence.

Reverence is the answer.
For with it, there is sacredness in all things and beings.

And at the end of the day, perhaps this is the biggest bridge back to Love Consciousness, into the peace of New Earth, into the Heaven-within of 5D.

Love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❤

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The EnLIGHTENment Of The Heart

This morning I was feeling what Enlightenment means to me. In the past, I felt it as a goal or achievement. A state free from the suffering I was in. I focused on the Mind as the causation of my depression and anxiety. I meditated daily, went for long hikes in nature, and read many books.

Yet, in the formidable background, there was a voice that wouldn’t go away. An ache that made me feel everything I was ‘doing’ was a cover-up. A smoke-screen from really doing the one thing I was avoiding, and that was ‘feeling’. All the books, hikes, and words could not subvert the feeling.

After going into the emotional body for the past 8 years (not everyday, mind you), I have realized Enlightenment to mean something else at the moment. For me the key word is ‘Lighten’. To make, or be, less heavy. That is rooted in the Heart.

The Heart holds the Akashic Record of our wounded and sacred humanity. We can use the Mind to take us to the places we got hurt, got rejected, experienced the trauma of ‘not-love’. It is there we can offer the salve of Love to help heal, release, and transmute the pain, the experience of separation back into the Lightness of Being.

…The Lightness Of Being. Yeah. That is what Enlightenment means to me at the moment. The freedom to Be. To Express. To Create. To Partake and Enjoy. It is from this enLIGHTENed place that I can best feel and serve the ‘cries of the world’. The Darkness that needs us to be grounded in this Lightness of Being so we don’t go down with it, but lift it up and out of the Shadow, both individually and collectively.

I am now more free to explore more of my mental and spiritual enlightenment without it bypassing the emotional body. As long as I am human there is more ‘work’ to do, but now it is rooted in more joy and essence. That is what I have really been seeking this life. Maybe that is what you have been really seeking as well.

If so, please feel into a free Consultation Call to see how this process may resonate with you. I would be honored to serve and explore this emotional and spiritual enlightenment process with you. Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

There is also the next Free To Be Group Call Series beginning this Wednesday, July 15 with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. Check out soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries for more info as well.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Be Still And Be Love

by Kalayna Solais

Be still for a moment. Just a moment. Just this next space of breath.

Empty out for a min. For 30sec, even, if you can. Your mind can count the seconds if it needs to, there’s no harm there.

There’s an offer in your heart that is waiting for you to hear it, see it, feel it.

There’s a stillness in your core of your being. In that same vessel that carries you daily. In the essence of your essence. And it doesn’t have to be ‘hard’ to feel it. Letting it in is letting yourself in.

The love you are is the love you transact.

And the love you are is waiting for you to remember that no other labels or identifiers other than being it, being this LOVE, are important or even necessary…

At least for this next moment of stillness.

You are the bright, bright love and light of the Divine. And the Divine is you. And the Divine is all of us, with nobody and no part of you excluded.

Love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Healing The Warrior Within Group Call Recording & Completion of Free To Be 2 Series (w/recordings available!)

By Jelelle Awen

What a wonderful energy to complete our Free To Be 2 group call series on today! Our final call of the series honored the warrior within (and all the expressions of it) and invited it into more experience of Divine forgiveness/compassion to become the Ambassador.

Thank you SO MUCH to all of you who joined us for this call and for the series in whatever ways and degrees that you did. You are helping us to seed and plant SoulFullHeart into the world and the collective grids, radiating there for whomever is drawn and resonant.

BIG thank you to Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais for your contributions and sharings in every call and for holding such lovely and deep space for the Saturday follow up calls!

You can purchase ALL of the recordings in this series and in the previous ones at our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal by donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen. (please make a note of what you are donating for). We went to some powerful places during these series and laid out some foundational teachings too so I highly recommend them.

ONWARD to the next series, which starts on Wednesday July 15th through August 19th…Free To Be 5D, a group call series focused on deepening the content that is covered in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. You can purchase the book and get more information about this series at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries.

Also coming up is my Sacred Feminine Exploration women’s group call teaching about and offering a guided meditation to connect with healing the motherhood wound to let in more Divine Mother is on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT. Open to all women over 18 by donation. More information at: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

We hope to see you for the next series and future calls!

love,

Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.