A Man’s Greatest Gift…His Heart

A man’s heart is his greatest gift
And his greatest fear
He can stand in the fires of hell
With his courage and conviction
Or seek cover and asylum in his shadow

A man’s heart can be a paradox and a parable
Of the journey back to himself through the womb
There is a Killer and a Lover
A Fighter and an Ambassador
A Scientist and Poet

It is a journey that is lined with mirrors
He may choose not to look at
If he wants to maintain all that he has constructed,
Assumed and convinced of.

But if he chooses to look
To feel all that he has been afraid to see
He actually stares into his own death
His loss of control
That can only be replaced by surrender

Surrender to the burning of feeling
Of bringing himself back to life
Through this death
The death of loneliness
Of suffering
Of protecting
Of hiding

This man now stands naked
An emperor without clothes
To be seen as he is
In his humble vulnerability

This is where he rises anew
In Heart
As Soul
Surrounded…by Love
By Divinity
By Intimacy

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Your Heart Is An Ambassador: My First Experience In An Arcturian Healing Circle Three Years Ago

By Jelelle Awen

Three years ago is when writing really starting pouring out of me to share publicly. I wrote nearly daily writings as clarities about and experiences of the Ascension and galactic awakening process flowed through at a constant rate. I can definitely feel how I was being upgraded to move into teacher/healer mode that has been steady in spaceholding and sharing since then.

The writing below is a tender one for me…an experience within an Arcturian Healing Circle (which I highly recommend.) And again the realization that our human hearts are the ambassadors to the other realms and dimensions, both inside and out. And the healing of which, along with our emotional body trauma from this-life and other lifetimes, is so important to our ongoing Ascension!

All of my writings during the next year of prolific sharing are available complied in my two books Sacred Human, Arising Wonder and Bliss Mess, which you can purchase here as PDF, ebook and in print: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

I also talk about the powerful 12/12 through SOULstice gateway that we also currently in now….opportunities for big galactic and Christ Consciousness (and Magdalene) upgrades!

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(originally written on December 19, 2016)

I am in a circle with them, these tall beings from the stars with bluish-white tinted skin that reminds me somehow of my Dolphin spirit animal friends. I am in that floating space of in-between physical body, astral body, and crystalline/light body. I cannot any longer call them “alien” as they are not, as I can feel now how I am from them.

My emotional body contained tender wounds of hurt and fear from remembering that I had been abducted many times during my childhood. I have been healing these fears through experiencing the LOVE that exists in our connection and that these were visits to help me be on Gaia and in denser frequencies. These visits also were led by another species of star beings called Grays, who are polarized to denser frequencies of fear and without much compassion.

These are Arcturians, a benevolent and loving species, who feel like they are my star family. I am sinking into their experience of the absolute peace that comes from no sense of separation between one being to the next, even as they are still individual sparks of Divine consciousness. Having led and participated in many human healing circles, I understand the flow of energy that moves when given a circular structure.

Yet, with them, these beings from the stars, it is amplified by thousands. The energy is not from outside of us, not outside of them, yet IS them. They have physical form and long flowing gowns, yet, do not at the same time. Their vibrational frequency is so high that every cell of their ‘bodies’ seems to dance in light, be in light, and IS light.

Tears are leaking from my eyes as the Love comes to me in light waves and IS me and IS them. Tears without running noses, just leaking, tears without pain. These are tears of joy, of reunion, of the soul, of Remembering what I AM and what we all ARE and that there is no THEY, only WE. We are merging, me in my enlightening human form and them in their Arcturian ones.

Binkh stands to my right and, yet, also in the same moment I feel her merge with me. She is my star being guide yet, also, she is a fragment of the same soul (which I call Metasoul). We are more than sisters, we are the SAME. As WE become one, I feel the muscles in my mouth try to form smiles as she plays with my mouth from the inside. It is awkward as she is not used to smiling and being expressive like we are. I feel her tenderly touch and BE the tears running down my face.

As much as I ache to BE like them again, to BE in such PEACE as they are, to be in such Oneness feelings as they just ARE…I can also feel their delight and reverence in me, in my humanness, in my tears. I feel Binkh’s desire to smile, to laugh with joy, to cry tears of wonder, to be overcome with emotion, to be swept away. Emotions have been our blessing and curse, both.

I understand at an even deeper level in this moment why so much of my focus of the last ten ‘years’ has been to heal my emotional body and allow the spiritual growth to flow from that. Spiritual growth is inevitable as the soul signs up for it, yet emotional body growth, emotional ego maturation, emotional healing is our new ground as a species….a crucial ground that without being tended to can leave our hearts out of the picture. The wounded aspects of us hold our heart frequencies hostage and we have to free them up by deep feeling led by self care and LOVE. And, in my sense of it, we need others to hold a loving space at times and in phases for us to go into the heart healing inside of us.

My heart is what they are drawn to as I am drawn to the expansiveness of their consciousness. As we are merging and becoming ONE, a new energy is being created. Perhaps a new consciousness or a new species, a new expression of the Divine. They are showing me that it is our heart, our emotionality, that is arising and desired by species in many other worlds and galaxies. Our HEART is a beacon.

This makes me feel that it is not about us becoming them or us needing to leave behind all that makes us human in order to become star beings, as some people offer related to ascension. Most of us have spent most of our existences as star beings. It feels like it might be about truly claiming the sacredness of our humanity, our capacity to feel, and to bring that so preciously ‘along with us’ as we ascend and experience higher and higher dimensions of consciousness.

Our hearts can get us in ‘trouble’, yes, especially when they are troubled and weighed down with past hurts and wounds. As they are cleared and healed of these frequencies that block our love flow, our expansive heart-based consciousness can lead the way.

The heart is our ambassador to other realms and dimensions – both inside and outside. It is the gateway to other Universes – both within and with-out. Healing our hearts is the first focus, and the spirit and soul follow. It is this that they honored in me and that which I honor in you and together WE can dance in heart frequencies and soar into love’s limitless skies together.

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

ALL That We Experience As Life Is Given And Held By Love For Love

By Jelelle Awen

ALL that we experience in life is given in love, held by love, for love…..a powerful mantra to take in and live by. Feel the parts of you (such as the Inner Protector and Inner Punisher) that feel life is against them and you could offer these messages to them from your Higher Self/5D sacred human self:

Life is not ‘doing anything’ to you, yet rather is WITH you in this experience of growth. You are not cursed. You have not been abandoned by the Divine. You are not being ‘tested’ to earn the Divine’s graces and love.

ALL of it that you’ve experienced is a gift for your growth. Your Higher Self (the source of your individuated soul or also what we call the Metasoul) has orchestrated and planned with MUCH love what you will experience here in 3D.

Choosing to be here now, during this time of transition and shiftings, to 4D and beyond IN the human body is a brave choice. To contribute to the Ascension movement at this time is not a sentence or punishment, yet rather a sign of the strength of your soul and proof of your BIGNESS.

Gaia is not a prison planet, in the sense that you have no choice in being here and no escape……in the sense that other fear-based BEings have captured you and you are ‘stuck’ in the matrix that was necessarily created for the experiment into duality and polarity to succeed. It is actually an honor to be incarnated on Gaia at this time of such great transition and many souls were eager to experience the quantum growth and completion of soul cycles/patterns that is now possible.

This has ALL been in collaboration on the higher levels. Higher vibrational frequencies of love and Oneness have been purposely suppressed; contrary feeling senses of fear have been amped up and polarized. This was chosen not to enslave you, yet rather so that you may come to remember again that you have ALWAYS been free.

Your Higher Self has given you much support to be here in this challenging experiment and experience. This support is WITHIN you. This support is available through soul family bonds. This support is available through your Star Family. This support becomes accessible as you awaken to your Metasoul expressions and many timelines for which your Higher Self has projected out. Meeting with, reconciling karma, sharing gifts together with these other lifetime selves (not ‘past lives’ as they are in the Now)…this brings you into MORE sense of wholeness again and unification.

This grows your 5D sacred human self that is embodying and integrating these higher frequencies as you are unanchoring from 3D realities by healing the woundings and traumas parts of your fragmented 3D self have experienced during it. As you heal these traumas, you no longer draw traumatic life situations to push up and trigger your undigested feelings.

There can be the end of experiencing spiritual battles going on for your soul or ‘good against evil’ or ‘light against the dark’ or vice versa. All such battles cease to be in your reality when you LOVE the energies inside yourself and your Metasoul that are polarized to each other. When you love the dark, the Reptilian, the narcissist, the abuser/predator, whatever is seen and been in shadow, then it can transmute to light and its TRUE essence as love. Battling anything on the outside stems from unreconciled violence inside and a lack of trust that it ALL comes from love ultimately and will return there.

You can invite the dark to transmute to love WITH love….this invitation leads to reconciliation, to integration, to transformation. Battling (inside or out) doesn’t transmute back to love as someone always loses in some form…..even as they ‘gain’ in a higher sense from the experience, yet there is a cost of harm being done or experienced.

ALL that we experience in life is given in love, held by love, for love….and so it can be as parts of you experience and trust this more and more from within you!

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with me for women to bridge with MUCH love to the places/parts/energies inside where polarities and inner wars exist. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Saying Hello To The Feminine Within

The one thing that feels universal about our humanity is our relationship to our masculinity and femininity. In my past and current processes I have been in an exploration of this very thing within myself. It has been one of the most illuminating parts of my journey. It has not been all of it, but has been a good portion of it. 

When I am out in the world I feel the ebbs and flows of these energies moving within and outside of me. Merging, conflicting, dancing, resisting, and hiding. Really fascinating! As humans I don’t think we can ignore this polarity that is staring at us right in the face. It has so much influence on how we relate, create, love, and hate. 

I have come in closer intimacy with the complexity and simplicity of this dynamic within me. As a man that was always in some confusion about my own masculinity I am coming to terms with what that means for me personally as I become more familiar with my feminines. Yes, plural. 

We so easily just want to make it one thing, like ‘my feminine side’. Very general and obtuse. But what if was more specific and acute. What then? What comes up to feel something inside that has its own perspective and needs? Its own voice and passion? 

The same could be said about our own Inner Child. Tapping into their voice, their needs, their passion. Now a step further. What about an Inner Feminine Child? This just goes on and on! My point is that we are much more than ‘this’ and ‘that’. We are composition of so much more than we have allowed ourselves to be open to. Of course this goes into our celestial beings as well! 

As a man, this journey is one that feels pretty important and alive. It is a journey that can help to rumble the foundations of the patriarchy by our own willingness to face what we have kept in our shadow. Our relationship to the feminine parts and aspects of us that have been sequestered for a very long time. 

Let us be like the prince that woke up Snow White and see what she has to offer us in our heart, our intuition, our sexuality, and our masculinity. She is ready to be connected to and yet fears being rejected once again. Let us feel what we fear the most about her so we can begin to heal this global dynamic once and for all.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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A Gathering Of Clarity As The Equinox Approaches

Today we are all getting ready for our Autumn Equinox Gathering here in Victoria, BC with 4 of our facilitants coming to join us in an intimate communal experience. Lots of excitement brewing as well as nerves for those on their way. One of our incoming souls crafted the word ‘nervocited’ to express the feeling. It has officially been adopted in our SFH lexicon. 😊

I took out our dogs this morning to be great with a most amazing and sensual sunset. It had ‘clarity’ written all over it. For me that felt significant as I am coming out of a very thick process with my Gatekeeper. I can feel him ‘cautiously optimistic’ about our deepening connection and future. 

One thing thing I do feel clear in me is that I want to keep up with this inner arising sense of self-love and desire to keep my heart open to my shadow and its core issues. There is a humility that has come over a part of me and it is helping to be as present to each moment as possible until it is clear that I am not. Then I go back in again and take Love with me wherever it needs to go. 

The clarity is that I am here to Love, be loved, and to serve that Love to whomever or whatever the Divine sees fit for me to serve and Love. Right now that is both an inner and outer service to self and other. 

I am blessed. 

I am grateful. 

I am loved. 

I am becoming. 

I am here, now. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Today I Choose To Rise

Today

Today I choose differently

I choose to give back all that I have held

In the name of my unworth

I choose to give in to all that I am being invited to feel

In the name of my freedom from the Darkness

I choose to serve the Dark but not Be it

In the name of my arising leadership and purpose

I choose to no longer fear real love

But to open my heart to the One that is meant to spark its fire

Today I rise

I rise to the possibilities and the destinies

The clarities and vulnerabilities

Today I rise knowing that there is always more on its way

But this time I will be ready

To face it all with Love and the need to say No More

To the things that no longer serve me

Today I choose to rise

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

 

Mother Aphrodite Message Of The Catalytic Healing Power Of Falling IN Love

by Kalayna Solais

“Falling in love IS serving love.

It’s inhabiting its textures, its fragrance, letting it rumble through the chakras, feeling it raise questions about your next life steps, such as they are.

Falling in love can happen in any moment.

On the inside with parts of you. On the outside with a beloved soulmate or a friend or even with a complete stranger just because you feel their uniqueness in your bones.

Falling in love happens with nature, with the energy of the planet on which you live, with the forces of life and abundance and eternal movement with the galaxy surrounding you and the multi-verse you reside in at a larger scale.

All of this serves LIFE to happen in enriching ways that open up to MORE love… and that… that is serving love in a grand form that brings it inward, moves it in a flow that floods the heart of you and reaches toward the heart of others. It brings love to this planet, lets it download through the conduit that IS your soul and why you are here at this time.

And, with that, love cannot help but impact the world you live in in GOOD ways and boost the ongoing Ascension process of all that lives within you and everyone ‘outside’ of you.”

~ Mother (Goddess) Aphrodite

 

This message came to me yesterday as I connected with Mother Aphrodite (as I am feeling to call Her) in meditation yesterday. She is yet another face of the Divine Mother that we can connect with whenever we desire to. In fact, She does love to respond to our heart’s desires, as that is part of Her purpose and the archetype she IS.

I have been connecting with Her through and with a new Metasoul sister connection that I’ve made recently, who was a courtesan at the Temple of Aphrodite, offering her body in service to men who desired transcendence and also a connection with the Divine Feminine that they could not access themselves. Connecting with this ‘sister’, named Lysandra, has bridged me to this powerful and tender energy of Aphrodite, who feels very catalytic and who also seems to encourage us to go INTO love, not shy away from it, even if that means that the intimacy brings us to some messy places where we are in a soup of triggers and reactions or even ecstasy. I feel Mother Aphrodite in a more ascended form than She has been depicted in ‘Ancient Greek’ texts and so on. She even appeared quite blond to me instead of the usual red or strawberry blond hair colour that you most often see.

This message came as encouragement to continue to fall in love… whatever that means in any moment. It was an invitation to keep the heart open, to stay in curiosity, to hold patience for others as you bridge them to love too, and to trust that if you do feel genuine love flow between you and another being, human or otherwise, there is something more to surrender to in that experience… especially whatever this connection seems to be bringing up inside of you to be held and felt. I would not have access to this energy of Mother Aphrodite or this new Metasoul sister connection had I not been in a process of opening up my heart wider to others and feeling the kickback and defences of parts of me in doing so.

Mother Aphrodite is a bridge to both the glory and the gory when it comes to the passage and flow of love. She is a Divine poultice who it feels like can hold both the balm that love can offer and the catalytic craziness in moments that love can offer too as it stirs up so much inside of us, so much that we couldn’t have felt or healed without it being brought to the surface. Of course, there is also much She offers us in sexuality and sexual healing, honouring the pleasures of the body yet holding boundaries as necessary too to truly honour where you ARE right now and what feels good to explore and what doesn’t. This is something that has often been distorted about the energy She brings with Her and it feels like She would love to see this shift in the collective consciousness!

Much love to you and with you as you feel your own journey and recognition of the catalytic nature of love, especially ‘falling in love’, and the deep healing it can and wants to offer! ❤

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Art by Emily Balivet

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Current Activations Help Us See, Feel, Heal Our Deep 3D/4D Matrix Conditioning

by Kalayna Solais

We have grown up in a 3D society that encourages us to stay feeling full, ‘fat’ and flat.

Over-stimulated and underfelt are the many parts of us who continue to show up in life and relationships to ingest and then digest experiences, trauma, and what we’ve been told is ‘food’ too.

We’ve been taught that compassion is only a sidedish to being empathic rather than the main course if we’re encouraged to be empathic at all growing up or to ask for others to feel us… which happens in 4D consciousness too, where being an ’empath’ is often worn as a millstone around our necks instead of deeply inhabited and responded to.

Feeling ourselves in a heart-open way, let alone feeling others, is not encouraged and is instead told to be buried and covered over by the heavy cement of our education systems, our food industries, mainstream ‘medicine’, our consumption of ‘entertainment’ and even ‘spirituality’ itself.

Parts of us have taken on the role of shaming and shunning what is new and different, what isn’t mainstream, as it blooms inside of us and around us. This is typically an Inner Punisher part, yet other parts of you can be wrapped in this too and Metasoul aspects who are afraid to feel themselves, to digest the trauma of their timelines. In this way, this very much applies to 4D consciousness as well as 3D, as there are still matrices in place, rules to follow, ideas that are more acceptable than others, and ultimately still some expectations of how it all should be and look like.

Trauma should be ‘gotten rid of as quickly as possible’ instead of steadily and heartfully investigated and loved…. this is a popular one in 4D and a meme that relates to all of this deeply seated conditioning inside. This has been detrimental to our growth and our possibilities for deepening self-love and respect as well, as parts of us then go back into hiding where they continue to feel unfelt, unheard, and ultimately unloved…

To unseat these pieces, we have to take the space to feel ourselves with deep honesty… this is the hard part, as we haven’t been shown how to do this. You may struggle with taking time for yourself due to a busy lifestyle that you’ve needed for a phase or a relationship that feels rumbly enough already. I myself have been in a phase of more busyness than normal with exploring different ‘jobs’ and a new social world too. This is what’s reflecting all of these pieces to me and is something I’m going into in my soul… what have been the over-attachments in ME that have kept parts of me reeling and spinning in conditioning that simply doesn’t fit them anymore? What timelines are my Metasoul aspects still living in that are being reflected now, where they have perpetuated this conditioning in their own ways or been victims to it?

There’s so much to glean from all of this inner exploration with parts of you and in your soul too, should the timing feel right to really go into it and INvestigate it all… you can find out more about ‘parts’ and ‘Metasoul aspects’ here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I really feel we are ALL being encouraged to SEE all of this as well as to feel it. To let the light activations coming in help it all become illuminated for us and with us, to collaborate with us individually on new ways to approach life and love… especially our sense of self-love, from which all capacity to love others stems. We CAN learn to love and appreciate the conditioning we’ve signed up for while also moving through it into something new.

Much love to you, wherever you are on your own journey with this and so much more… 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen on September 14th for a 4D Matrix Healing Group Transmission! More details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing The Violence Inside To Become A Beacon Of Peace

By Jelelle Awen

Fear can live in your bones, in your DNA, in parts of you vibrating at trauma frequencies in your emotional body. Fear can live in your Metasoul in many timelines, in your aspects that are warriors, victims, and the range in-between.

This fear comes out in ALL kinds of ways and expressions.

It comes out in tensions, panics, and anxieties. It projects and closes down/blocks open-hearted experience and transaction with others. It brings your frequency lower. Parts of you may shiver and quiver with it, sinking to a place where things seem untrustworthy, hurtful and harmful, non-vulnerable, dark and shadowy.

We are ancient with fear, beyond time ingrained and trained. We are gestating embryos in our mother’s womb swimming in fear fluids. The 3D matrix has been built and run on fear fuel, fed and maintained by violence – both within and outward – violence is the lowest vibrational frequency of fear.

So many eat fear every day through animals that have been killed. Violence has become entertainment, so many souls on an IV drip of violence coming in, numbing them or eliciting outrage at the INjustice, which is just more violence in a shifted form.

Lifting UP beyond violence begins from within. It starts with becoming aware of the battles within, the harm done from one part of you to another…a Punisher Part of you beating up younger parts of you until shame floods your BEing with the suffering patterns and loops this creates.

Loving the Inner Punisher energy and learning WHY it is like this….you weep, then, at how this punishing-shame frequency is just learned and necessary and not really who you ARE. You feel how it has served to make you small, to help you fit in, to keep you ‘capped’ and plugged into 3D life. You are ready to be lifted out of it to transmute the punishment to discernment and intuition with love. To heal the shame into innocence again.

As this inner violence heals, you can come, more and more, from non-violent frequencies in response to others. You become less tolerant to violence in any form…..even sensitive to the subtle frequencies found in comparison, contention, and judgements made with love withheld.

You lift UP, then, as you stop eating, watching, BEing violence and become MORE love. You shift your focus from violence outside of you and discover, find, and feel where it lives inside.

You become, then, a beacon of peace.

BEcoming a beacon of peace is the openness to feel the violence, the battles, the clashes inside.

BEcoming a beacon of peace is more space being cleared in your emotional body to make room for your higher heart, your angelic heart, your Christ Consciousness heart, your Mother Mary heart….made of Infinite Kindness, Infinite Peace…..with no longer any need for fear!

BEcoming a beacon of peace is unplugging from the 3D matrix that has fed you fear your whole existence and experiencing what it is be truly free of it.

You ARE a beacon of peace….as you become it from the inside out!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Inner Punisher: https://youtu.be/SXlufQ_WBUU

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Exploring ‘Dissonance’ To Land In More ‘Resonance’ From The Inside Out

By Kalayna Solais

‘Dimensional Dissonance’ is a very real thing… it’s the feeling of not being able to quite be who you are in your heart and soul when you’re on an awakening journey and you’ve found yourself surrounded by others who aren’t there yet. It’s quite the opposite of being in ‘Dimensional Resonance’ which you can experience with soul family/tribe as you’re all working within in similar ways and with processes that are are connected and parallel.

The intimacy that’s possible with resonance is simply not as possible with dissonance… the sense of knowing and being known, seeing and being seen, and the give and take of deep relationships where in one moment you are taking the space because you need to be felt and in others you are offering the space to feel your beloveds, are all pieces that can happen with resonant soul and heart relationships. The sense of having to ‘work’ to make things ‘ok’ isn’t there any longer because it doesn’t need to be.

You and your closest beloveds live in the same ‘dimension’, let alone reality. While with those who you don’t share this with, it can feel like you’re coming from another country, speaking a foreign language, and the efforts to bridge across these dimensional border lines may be fluid in moments and challenging in others to the point where it stops being self-loving and your authentic compassionDiss for others is more difficult to access too.

I’ve been in a sort of 3D ‘experiment’ for a few weeks now. This has meant inhabiting other sorts of 3D jobs more ‘in-person’ based than online based. I’ve been teaching ESL online for several years now and that was fine while living abroad but now that I’m back in my home country and feeling a new solidity within my heart and soul and personal process, I’ve felt the call and guidance to reach out and see what connections can be made with others through more ‘social’ work experiences. It’s been a journey of feeling what my own personal ‘bridge-builder’ inside of me can look and feel like.

This has been quite humbling, to say the least. I am not doing this to be evangelistic in any way about the work I do and offer, but instead to be invitational through the vulnerability of sharing pieces of what my own process is right now and seeing in which ways it feels ok to be ‘me’ even with those I’m just meeting for the first time. This is essentially how I would be with anyone I’m close to, so why compartmentalize, especially when I would rather that others get to know the real me and that I might get to know them in a real way too.

Sometimes the ‘dimensional dissonance’ level is more intense than at other times, yet the opportunities I’m getting to ultimately feel myself, my parts, and my own process through this whole phase are what make it all worth it. This, it feels like, is the gift of it all… that even though trying to bridge into the thickness and density of 3D consciousness can be so very challenging and in some ways deeply tiring too, it’s another mirror to look into and another opportunity to open my heart as much as possible, expanding into the compassion I’m capable of, even though parts of me also feel frustrated at times.

As real as the dissonance around us sometimes is, the more of that we can feel lives inside of us between parts of us, the more inner resonance there will eventually be and the more resonance we inevitably draw and appreciate too on the outside. Inner resonance cannot be taken away from us, yet we do need it to be supported by our relationships and living situation too. Being able to come home to myself, to digest my experiences with those I’m closest to, has become even more critical for me and I feel it’s becoming more critical for others too. Why settle for dissonance when the resonance you want even MORE is available to you at any time, especially as you make space for it within. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.