Today I Choose To Rise

Today

Today I choose differently

I choose to give back all that I have held

In the name of my unworth

I choose to give in to all that I am being invited to feel

In the name of my freedom from the Darkness

I choose to serve the Dark but not Be it

In the name of my arising leadership and purpose

I choose to no longer fear real love

But to open my heart to the One that is meant to spark its fire

Today I rise

I rise to the possibilities and the destinies

The clarities and vulnerabilities

Today I rise knowing that there is always more on its way

But this time I will be ready

To face it all with Love and the need to say No More

To the things that no longer serve me

Today I choose to rise

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Mother Aphrodite Message Of The Catalytic Healing Power Of Falling IN Love

by Kalayna Solais

“Falling in love IS serving love.

It’s inhabiting its textures, its fragrance, letting it rumble through the chakras, feeling it raise questions about your next life steps, such as they are.

Falling in love can happen in any moment.

On the inside with parts of you. On the outside with a beloved soulmate or a friend or even with a complete stranger just because you feel their uniqueness in your bones.

Falling in love happens with nature, with the energy of the planet on which you live, with the forces of life and abundance and eternal movement with the galaxy surrounding you and the multi-verse you reside in at a larger scale.

All of this serves LIFE to happen in enriching ways that open up to MORE love… and that… that is serving love in a grand form that brings it inward, moves it in a flow that floods the heart of you and reaches toward the heart of others. It brings love to this planet, lets it download through the conduit that IS your soul and why you are here at this time.

And, with that, love cannot help but impact the world you live in in GOOD ways and boost the ongoing Ascension process of all that lives within you and everyone ‘outside’ of you.”

~ Mother (Goddess) Aphrodite

 

This message came to me yesterday as I connected with Mother Aphrodite (as I am feeling to call Her) in meditation yesterday. She is yet another face of the Divine Mother that we can connect with whenever we desire to. In fact, She does love to respond to our heart’s desires, as that is part of Her purpose and the archetype she IS.

I have been connecting with Her through and with a new Metasoul sister connection that I’ve made recently, who was a courtesan at the Temple of Aphrodite, offering her body in service to men who desired transcendence and also a connection with the Divine Feminine that they could not access themselves. Connecting with this ‘sister’, named Lysandra, has bridged me to this powerful and tender energy of Aphrodite, who feels very catalytic and who also seems to encourage us to go INTO love, not shy away from it, even if that means that the intimacy brings us to some messy places where we are in a soup of triggers and reactions or even ecstasy. I feel Mother Aphrodite in a more ascended form than She has been depicted in ‘Ancient Greek’ texts and so on. She even appeared quite blond to me instead of the usual red or strawberry blond hair colour that you most often see.

This message came as encouragement to continue to fall in love… whatever that means in any moment. It was an invitation to keep the heart open, to stay in curiosity, to hold patience for others as you bridge them to love too, and to trust that if you do feel genuine love flow between you and another being, human or otherwise, there is something more to surrender to in that experience… especially whatever this connection seems to be bringing up inside of you to be held and felt. I would not have access to this energy of Mother Aphrodite or this new Metasoul sister connection had I not been in a process of opening up my heart wider to others and feeling the kickback and defences of parts of me in doing so.

Mother Aphrodite is a bridge to both the glory and the gory when it comes to the passage and flow of love. She is a Divine poultice who it feels like can hold both the balm that love can offer and the catalytic craziness in moments that love can offer too as it stirs up so much inside of us, so much that we couldn’t have felt or healed without it being brought to the surface. Of course, there is also much She offers us in sexuality and sexual healing, honouring the pleasures of the body yet holding boundaries as necessary too to truly honour where you ARE right now and what feels good to explore and what doesn’t. This is something that has often been distorted about the energy She brings with Her and it feels like She would love to see this shift in the collective consciousness!

Much love to you and with you as you feel your own journey and recognition of the catalytic nature of love, especially ‘falling in love’, and the deep healing it can and wants to offer! ❤

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Art by Emily Balivet

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Current Activations Help Us See, Feel, Heal Our Deep 3D/4D Matrix Conditioning

by Kalayna Solais

We have grown up in a 3D society that encourages us to stay feeling full, ‘fat’ and flat.

Over-stimulated and underfelt are the many parts of us who continue to show up in life and relationships to ingest and then digest experiences, trauma, and what we’ve been told is ‘food’ too.

We’ve been taught that compassion is only a sidedish to being empathic rather than the main course if we’re encouraged to be empathic at all growing up or to ask for others to feel us… which happens in 4D consciousness too, where being an ’empath’ is often worn as a millstone around our necks instead of deeply inhabited and responded to.

Feeling ourselves in a heart-open way, let alone feeling others, is not encouraged and is instead told to be buried and covered over by the heavy cement of our education systems, our food industries, mainstream ‘medicine’, our consumption of ‘entertainment’ and even ‘spirituality’ itself.

Parts of us have taken on the role of shaming and shunning what is new and different, what isn’t mainstream, as it blooms inside of us and around us. This is typically an Inner Punisher part, yet other parts of you can be wrapped in this too and Metasoul aspects who are afraid to feel themselves, to digest the trauma of their timelines. In this way, this very much applies to 4D consciousness as well as 3D, as there are still matrices in place, rules to follow, ideas that are more acceptable than others, and ultimately still some expectations of how it all should be and look like.

Trauma should be ‘gotten rid of as quickly as possible’ instead of steadily and heartfully investigated and loved…. this is a popular one in 4D and a meme that relates to all of this deeply seated conditioning inside. This has been detrimental to our growth and our possibilities for deepening self-love and respect as well, as parts of us then go back into hiding where they continue to feel unfelt, unheard, and ultimately unloved…

To unseat these pieces, we have to take the space to feel ourselves with deep honesty… this is the hard part, as we haven’t been shown how to do this. You may struggle with taking time for yourself due to a busy lifestyle that you’ve needed for a phase or a relationship that feels rumbly enough already. I myself have been in a phase of more busyness than normal with exploring different ‘jobs’ and a new social world too. This is what’s reflecting all of these pieces to me and is something I’m going into in my soul… what have been the over-attachments in ME that have kept parts of me reeling and spinning in conditioning that simply doesn’t fit them anymore? What timelines are my Metasoul aspects still living in that are being reflected now, where they have perpetuated this conditioning in their own ways or been victims to it?

There’s so much to glean from all of this inner exploration with parts of you and in your soul too, should the timing feel right to really go into it and INvestigate it all… you can find out more about ‘parts’ and ‘Metasoul aspects’ here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I really feel we are ALL being encouraged to SEE all of this as well as to feel it. To let the light activations coming in help it all become illuminated for us and with us, to collaborate with us individually on new ways to approach life and love… especially our sense of self-love, from which all capacity to love others stems. We CAN learn to love and appreciate the conditioning we’ve signed up for while also moving through it into something new.

Much love to you, wherever you are on your own journey with this and so much more… 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen on September 14th for a 4D Matrix Healing Group Transmission! More details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing The Violence Inside To Become A Beacon Of Peace

By Jelelle Awen

Fear can live in your bones, in your DNA, in parts of you vibrating at trauma frequencies in your emotional body. Fear can live in your Metasoul in many timelines, in your aspects that are warriors, victims, and the range in-between.

This fear comes out in ALL kinds of ways and expressions.

It comes out in tensions, panics, and anxieties. It projects and closes down/blocks open-hearted experience and transaction with others. It brings your frequency lower. Parts of you may shiver and quiver with it, sinking to a place where things seem untrustworthy, hurtful and harmful, non-vulnerable, dark and shadowy.

We are ancient with fear, beyond time ingrained and trained. We are gestating embryos in our mother’s womb swimming in fear fluids. The 3D matrix has been built and run on fear fuel, fed and maintained by violence – both within and outward – violence is the lowest vibrational frequency of fear.

So many eat fear every day through animals that have been killed. Violence has become entertainment, so many souls on an IV drip of violence coming in, numbing them or eliciting outrage at the INjustice, which is just more violence in a shifted form.

Lifting UP beyond violence begins from within. It starts with becoming aware of the battles within, the harm done from one part of you to another…a Punisher Part of you beating up younger parts of you until shame floods your BEing with the suffering patterns and loops this creates.

Loving the Inner Punisher energy and learning WHY it is like this….you weep, then, at how this punishing-shame frequency is just learned and necessary and not really who you ARE. You feel how it has served to make you small, to help you fit in, to keep you ‘capped’ and plugged into 3D life. You are ready to be lifted out of it to transmute the punishment to discernment and intuition with love. To heal the shame into innocence again.

As this inner violence heals, you can come, more and more, from non-violent frequencies in response to others. You become less tolerant to violence in any form…..even sensitive to the subtle frequencies found in comparison, contention, and judgements made with love withheld.

You lift UP, then, as you stop eating, watching, BEing violence and become MORE love. You shift your focus from violence outside of you and discover, find, and feel where it lives inside.

You become, then, a beacon of peace.

BEcoming a beacon of peace is the openness to feel the violence, the battles, the clashes inside.

BEcoming a beacon of peace is more space being cleared in your emotional body to make room for your higher heart, your angelic heart, your Christ Consciousness heart, your Mother Mary heart….made of Infinite Kindness, Infinite Peace…..with no longer any need for fear!

BEcoming a beacon of peace is unplugging from the 3D matrix that has fed you fear your whole existence and experiencing what it is be truly free of it.

You ARE a beacon of peace….as you become it from the inside out!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is a guided meditation to meet your Inner Punisher: https://youtu.be/SXlufQ_WBUU

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Exploring ‘Dissonance’ To Land In More ‘Resonance’ From The Inside Out

By Kalayna Solais

‘Dimensional Dissonance’ is a very real thing… it’s the feeling of not being able to quite be who you are in your heart and soul when you’re on an awakening journey and you’ve found yourself surrounded by others who aren’t there yet. It’s quite the opposite of being in ‘Dimensional Resonance’ which you can experience with soul family/tribe as you’re all working within in similar ways and with processes that are are connected and parallel.

The intimacy that’s possible with resonance is simply not as possible with dissonance… the sense of knowing and being known, seeing and being seen, and the give and take of deep relationships where in one moment you are taking the space because you need to be felt and in others you are offering the space to feel your beloveds, are all pieces that can happen with resonant soul and heart relationships. The sense of having to ‘work’ to make things ‘ok’ isn’t there any longer because it doesn’t need to be.

You and your closest beloveds live in the same ‘dimension’, let alone reality. While with those who you don’t share this with, it can feel like you’re coming from another country, speaking a foreign language, and the efforts to bridge across these dimensional border lines may be fluid in moments and challenging in others to the point where it stops being self-loving and your authentic compassionDiss for others is more difficult to access too.

I’ve been in a sort of 3D ‘experiment’ for a few weeks now. This has meant inhabiting other sorts of 3D jobs more ‘in-person’ based than online based. I’ve been teaching ESL online for several years now and that was fine while living abroad but now that I’m back in my home country and feeling a new solidity within my heart and soul and personal process, I’ve felt the call and guidance to reach out and see what connections can be made with others through more ‘social’ work experiences. It’s been a journey of feeling what my own personal ‘bridge-builder’ inside of me can look and feel like.

This has been quite humbling, to say the least. I am not doing this to be evangelistic in any way about the work I do and offer, but instead to be invitational through the vulnerability of sharing pieces of what my own process is right now and seeing in which ways it feels ok to be ‘me’ even with those I’m just meeting for the first time. This is essentially how I would be with anyone I’m close to, so why compartmentalize, especially when I would rather that others get to know the real me and that I might get to know them in a real way too.

Sometimes the ‘dimensional dissonance’ level is more intense than at other times, yet the opportunities I’m getting to ultimately feel myself, my parts, and my own process through this whole phase are what make it all worth it. This, it feels like, is the gift of it all… that even though trying to bridge into the thickness and density of 3D consciousness can be so very challenging and in some ways deeply tiring too, it’s another mirror to look into and another opportunity to open my heart as much as possible, expanding into the compassion I’m capable of, even though parts of me also feel frustrated at times.

As real as the dissonance around us sometimes is, the more of that we can feel lives inside of us between parts of us, the more inner resonance there will eventually be and the more resonance we inevitably draw and appreciate too on the outside. Inner resonance cannot be taken away from us, yet we do need it to be supported by our relationships and living situation too. Being able to come home to myself, to digest my experiences with those I’m closest to, has become even more critical for me and I feel it’s becoming more critical for others too. Why settle for dissonance when the resonance you want even MORE is available to you at any time, especially as you make space for it within. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Flow Of Joy

By Raphael Awen

Joy isn’t a state of being as much as it is a state of flow.

Flow is about what you are letting in and what you are letting out of your life.

Increased joy will mean a sped up sense of how fast you are able to be with the hello’s and goodbye’s in your life, whether that be to people, places, things, foods, etc. – life as you know it.

Being with all this means holding space for the parts of you that have very understandable reactions to the changes. They want changes just as much as you, but they each have different valid concerns about the how and what and why, as well as the timing of those changes.

It’s up to you to show up as an ambassador to these distinct parts of yourself with an open heart ready and willing to feel through their eyes, hear with their ears, and be changed in the process.

This is the process of returning to the flow state of joy.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: SOULar Codes Invite You To Process Lower 4D Timelines To Anchor Into 5D Love

by Kalayna Solais

This is a photo I took of the sun yesterday! Wow!! Lots of codes downloading that want us all to really feel ourselves, really feel the parts/Metasoul aspects that struggle and react to the process of re-anchoring into higher timelines and more self-loving and compassionate frequencies.

It was nice on a high energy day yesterday to “log-off” and unplug for a while! When I came back online to check up on everything yesterday evening, it felt like so much intensity was moving through, almost more than usual in some ways. I highly recommend that if you are feeling especially reactive that you unplug for a while. Even in service of love there is a need to sometimes take a step back and not be on the “frontlines” (not always an easy one to learn or follow through with, I know).

This could be the peak (or one of the peaks) we are feeling in the 3D and lower 4D rumble… Where there is much to react to at every turn yet always an invitation to respond with LOVE and genuine compassion instead. Especially when it feels almost impossible to do so. If this is difficult at this time, the reactions need to be pulled back inward and parts of you felt in their pain and the chaos of their personal worlds.

It feels especially important right now to feel battle timelines in your Metasoul. To meet the Warriors and soldiers where they ARE and to be with what is moving through them instead of placing it all outside of you in YOUR life as you know it right now. This is key to anchoring more into 5D frequencies of peace and a flow of love and compassion that is genuine and integrative.

Personally, I’m feeling much more freed up from my own lower 4D process these past weeks. The energies of the Metasoul timelines I accessed and felt through are shifting more into hope, freedom, love, understanding, compassion… especially for themselves and what they’ve “done”, or in some cases, “not done”.

There are numerous timelines we all need to feel regarding these energies that keep us anchored ultimately into lower frequencies that can make us quite sick in body, heart, mind, and especially soul. They anchor us into hopelessness, fear, feeling like there is always something to push against, feeling as everything and everyone is ultimately against us, and in many cases this may have been true for a phase of your life, yet if it is STILL true, then why are you staying in these circumstances?

The answer to that question may seem complicated to parts of you, yet fear is the one that seems to anchor us all the most into feeling as if these frequencies are realer than the love that wants to come in and light us up, help us move through and heal each of these timelines, and help those Metasoul aspects of us from those timelines move into a new frequency where they can find the healing they need and yes, DESERVE.

This and other meditations from Jelelle may be helpful for you to begin your deep-dive into YOU, to discover what Metasoul aspect(s) could be pulsing through your life and your BEing at this time:

Much love as you navigate your own version of letting in and integrating these codes coming through. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

May 9 SOULar Flare Providing 5D Sacred Human Violetprint Codes: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (May 6, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

The incoming SOULar flares have been stirring up much energy and activating our Sacred Human violetprints. This week’s featured article by Jelelle Awen offers that along with these activations we are experiencing further unplugging from the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix:

“This sunspot and intensity of flare activity IS unusual and rare right now. They are also picking up NEW and unidentified sounds from the sun when they listen to the sound waves produced during these flares. This is a transmission of Ascension codes coming through to activate our light bodies, our galactic consciousness, and to help us unanchor of 3D/Lower 4D control matrix systems.”

Tomorrow May 11th at 10am PDT, Jelelle will be hosting an online transmission for unplugging from the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix and there’s still time to register! The fee is a minimum donation of $11 USD. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your 3D self consciousness to tune into how the unplugging process is progressing. And she provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

Jelelle will be hosting another online group transmission later in the month as well. The focus of this group on May 22, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to assist you in the ongoing activation of galactic activation codes. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper, energy field, and download whatever codes are ‘waiting’ for you there. She provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

You can visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more info and how to donate to join in.

On Sunday May 19th at 10am PDT, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais will lead you in a powerful, high-vibrational guided meditation to connect to your Inner Masculine and Inner Feminine aspects of you as well as meet your Inner Protector in person in Victoria, BC. Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality. More info on soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Two new video recordings are here for you this week! The first is a recording of a live stream from Raphael and Jelelle Awen on May 5th, where they share some thoughts and teachings about the 5/5 gateway and what it offers of fifth dimensional consciousness reality. They talk about the process of unanchoring from 3D and lower 4D consciousness, especially in relationships, through connecting with parts of your 3D self and aspects from other timelines/lifetimes.

The second is a promo from Jelelle, talking briefly about the two upcoming group transmission online events.

There are several new articles and audio blogs for you this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, and Raianna Shai. They include energy updates, digestions of the recent purging of Lower 4D energies, and digestions of personal process and ways to relate to yourself and your parts through your own deep healing process.

Jelelle is now offering Ascension Energy Healing Sessions. They are one-on-one over Zoom offers an self empowering experience of your energy system upgrading and activating into the next level of your Ascension. Coming from the truly unique SoulFullHeart Way Of Life perspective, Jelelle Awen provides a bridge to your Gatekeeper, an aspect of your Metasoul that guards over your energy system, overall soul awakening this life and your veil of amnesia….along with access to other lifetimes/timelines.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

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Check out the latest Museletter here.

The Great 4D Reconciliation: The Orion Healing

There is a library of stories and information held in our DNA. There are more mental sections and more emotional ones. The power of this information is inextricably connected to the emotional state that it is currently in. So while one may understand so much physically or metaphysically, its use is affected by the emotional health of one that wields it.

I have been connecting with an Orion aspect of mine the past few days, and this very idea is what is coming to the surface of his awareness and digestion of such a violent and volatile existence. This connection has been more about his story. Wanting to get to the heart of the information. His said his species has been born and raised in Disregard. He noted that it wasn’t specific, just a general feeling of this nature. He could attach an object to it but the theme remained the same.

There is a high level of technological understanding, yet it sits in the heart of this disregard. The combination has resulted in aeons of violence unlike anything we have seen here on Earth. As we are a soup of this galactic DNA, we humans have this inside of us as well. It can conflict with our other stories from other star family lineages. This is what can produce some of what feels like we are insane at times in my opinion.

We may all have varying degrees of these aspects. Just looking at the political environment of our civilization you can see how this story line is trying to reconcile itself on our planet. It is a lower 4th dimensional loop that this energy finds itself in, like a dog chasing it tail. The polarities are stark and dark at times. The relationship to self, between male and female, and others of different racial, religious, and sexual orientations seem to be a part of this drama. It is where we get the fear that we may destroy ourselves and the planet.

Tapping into this consciousness as an aspect of yourself, helps to bring the energy into a different location outside the body and into the higher heart. Whatever the reactions are that feel intense, rageful, fearful, and/or uncaring can be heard within its story. A relationship to it can occur and the ambassordship of healing can begin. Orion is just one of those that we can connect to to help begin this Great Reconciliation within ourselves and our greater human family.

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To help create a bridge to this lower 4D energy and help it unanchor from its intensity and heaviness, join Jelelle and Raphael Awen for a healing transmission over Zoom this Saturday. More info here-> https://www.facebook.com/events/2283954645187399/

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

 

Moving Beyond The Stickiness Of Lower 4D Consciousness

by Kalayna Solais

4D consciousness, especially Lower 4D, is a place where parts of you or aspects of your soul dwell and fixate on something they feel isn’t working for them, usually outside of you. When they’re in this dimensional space, which is more of a frequency and consciousness moving through you instead of a literal ‘place’,  they tend to feel that they want something about themselves or life around them to change PRONTO and they don’t necessarily want to wait very long for that change to happen. There can be an urgency about it, like something needs to shift right NOW, coupled with a fear that things will NEVER change, that life as you now know it and how it’s configured (and especially the way these parts/aspects seem to be feeling about it) will never shift into what you/they really want.

In 4D consciousness, especially lower 4D, it’s easy to forget that what everything, every piece of your walking-around consciousness within you really wants is love… and that there is a piece of not feeling truly worthy of it until this unworthiness can be deeply felt and held and the process of learning to trust love again is walked out, step by step.

It can feel sometimes like you’re drowning in plasma when these energies come up, as 4D consciousness is like a thick fog at times, shrouding what’s good and trustworthy and often projecting a ton of your own shadow onto something or someone outside of you. The wrestling with life, with love, with energies, is always playing out somewhere inside.

It seems like this experience of 4D is peaking in a way right now. It’s wanting us to move beyond it, even though it can feel as sticky as flypaper with so much darkness still purging and shadows still emerging, which is actually very compelling. It has such a strong gravitational pull that is hard to extract from or bring love to at times. It has a feeling of an endless abyss or void where pain can just writhe and squirm forever. Yet, it wants us to move beyond it and take it with us somehow so we can heal it starting from our own inner draw to be in it.

Connecting with different aspects of you from other timelines/lifetimes and especially those in galactic warfare, like any Orion aspect stuck in a battle of sorts that you may have come online right now (as I’m starting to really feel inside myself) can help you understand your own pull towards this darkness and why it’s there. Any of the darker timelines your soul has experienced, including in the dark side of Hollywood (one I’m learning that my soul knows well) or the underbelly of politics in any era or phase of ‘time’, are coming to light now as they need to start being held with love and compassion. We cannot damn them, for we are damning ourselves if we do. We can only open our hearts to feel them, to let in the remorseful tears, and to let Divine love help us hold everything that is just aching to be held.

Now is the perfect time to start really feeling all of this, as the support seems to be there from the incoming energies and, like always, from the Divine. We are ALL being challenged to walk out what we teach or offer to others, to fill in any gaps of integrity with our real-life experience in every arena of healing and moving back into love in ALL ways and on ALL levels of our being. This is next-level love ambassadorship and Service of Love and we’re all invited to take our next steps inward that bring us into alignment with an ever-purifying self-love overflow that can’t help but serve and support others to cultivate the same within them.

On Saturday May 11th, Jelelle is hosting (with support from Raphael) a virtual Group Transmission over Zoom which you can attend live or receive the recording for. The theme is Unplugging From the 3D/4D Matrix which would be a huge support if you are really feeling these energies right now!

Also, we offer ongoing 1:1 sessions to support you personally, which you can find more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.