The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting Your Shadowland Do Its Work

by Kasha Rokshana

I’ve felt invited back into my own shadowlands recently. Partly from reactions to what’s happening in the world at large, as there really is SO much happening all at once, yet also because of things shaking out for me personally. Plus, being here in Avalon, there is a lot that the Divine Heart Chakra pulse invites you to feel, explore (especially within), and reconcile with.

My shadowland explorations have me exploring my relationship to my truth, to what empowers and doesn’t diminish me as a heart/soul/woman WHILE keeping an open heart. I’ve always been a feeler, but now I’m asked to feel even deeper. And, not for my own sake alone, but for the sake of the service-of-love I’ve come here to embody and offer.

The textures that live beneath the reactions, that open the portals to the vulnerability…the fears, tears, longings, and heartaches that live in parts of me, aspects of my Metasoul, and the sacredness of feeling without mentally tracking. My masculine can have a hard time with the latter sometimes, yet my feminine, as she becomes more and more embodied, usually ‘wins’ that toggle with her heart spaciousness and gifts of self-permission to just feel without needing to ‘know’ a single thing about ‘why’.

The darkness and shadow of the outer world… well, it has its own playout, doesn’t it? Ultimately, my heart and soul trust it all, even as there are many things to feel. As an empath and healer, I feel it’s important to let the cries of the world move through, just as the cries of my inner world do. The world around me also has hurt, aches, longing, and fear. It wants so much it doesn’t feel worthy of receiving yet.

As I awaken deeper to my own shadowland and the power it holds, I awaken to the shadowland of the collective and what is being explored, consciously and unconsciously, by all. I feel the sacredness in everything that is churning and burning, even as I let the impact of it move through my own opening and healing heart. Perhaps the biggest piece that still lies in shadow, is the impact of every choice, action/inaction, and every deeper feeling tone left unfelt and instead overridden.

“The darkness still has work to do…” and it certainly IS doing the work it’s here to do. We can only surrender to that process, trust it as deeply as we can, and let it help us all heal individually and collectively.

Love,
Kasha ❤

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Way Of The Love Ambassador: Moving Beyond ‘Fighting’ And Pointing Fingers

by Kasha Rokshana

It takes more strength to keep from fighting than it does to fight.

To fight back, to scream out our truths until they even seem heard, to poke and prod at those that parts of us don’t agree with or that we feel hard done by… Whenever ‘peace’ seems to come from these actions, it does not sustain. It does not truly land or teach or shift anything at the core/heart of what has been brought out to be seen.

We must find another way. Often that other way has NOT been taught. It is a middle ground that does not ‘roll over’, nor does it impose shame or blame on self or others.

It’s a middle ground that can only be discovered when you visit the shadowland battlegrounds within. Feeling what the soul is still fighting for or against. Feeling the parts that are still in conflict with mom or dad or authority. Feeling yourself so you can actually feel others and where they are coming from. Actually being able to bring empathy as a way to move through what’s present rather than shut down and shut out the other…

This is the stuff that the New Earth, the Golden Earth that wants to birth through and with us is made of. And… It comes from feeling. Making space for feeling. Feeling how parts of us don’t want to feel and why. Feeling our numbness, even, and why it’s been there, what it’s been protecting that is far more vulnerable.

We are being invited to see and feel through the eyes and heart of love. Love does not negate or diminish the darkness present, but liases with it, finds a way to make room for it to have it’s say, rather than fully become it in order to get a point across.

Such is the birth of the Love Ambassador within us all.

I feel all of this ongoingly moving through me, especially as a sacred feminine woman/healer/teacher, as I find my own way into my truth and into ways to share it that don’t point fingers but instead bravely bring love into every single situation, conflict, and moment of needing to look into sometimes a very challenging mirror.

I feel us all on our sacred journeys and finding our way through what has never really worked for us into what now can work WITH us… With love holding space for it all. ❤️🕊

Love,
Kasha 🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space, 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same… 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Open Your Heart To Your Inner World, Then Open Your Heart To The Outer World

by Kasha Rokshana

You respond differently to your outer world, the more you genuinely respond to your inner world. More compassion, more tears for what’s moving in the collective, more feeling of it through your caring heart, is what opens out…

It’s actually more challenging to ignore the cries of the world than it is to let them move through your heart, especially as you feel, hold, and eventually heal the parts of you that have not wanted to really see it or haven’t been able to see it and feel it beyond their own suffering (yet)…

If we are to truly open up the gates into the Age of Aquarius, we must choose our hearts, our connection with our own Divinity in a way that doesn’t bypass yet fully embraces the dark and the light within and respond to it in our outer world too.

For many of us, the fear-based consciousness that is peaking in our world is not ours to share in… yet, without choosing to care about it, feel how it’s churning and burning around us, we miss an opportunity to embody love and become the love ambassadors we came here to become. ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

12/12 – 12/21 Corridor Bringing Clarities, Next-Level Invitations/Initiations

by Kasha Rokshana

There is so much support through this 12/12 – 12/21 energetic corridor and into the new year of 2021 as well, for our deeper awakenings and initiations to take root individually and collectively. It’s already been a FULL year and now we’re being led into 2021 with fresh eyes and heart, though the rawness of what’s been moving all year is still very present.

Sudden dawnings and realizations are moving through. It’s a time of deeper awakening and the rumbles that come with that which sometimes you can’t name. You don’t know what’s shaking inside of you, but something IS…

Yesterday on 12/12 here in Glastonbury, it was a full day of hiking up to the Tor for sunrise and sunset and responding to alchemy in between. I had much time with Jelelle and could feel on both our trips to the Tor that there was something ceremonial moving through, deep inside of both of us. Such is the soul connection we have in these lands of Avalon, yet also, I got the strong sense of being initiated into a whole new level of soul bigness and claim.

So it is that we are all invited into our next levels/places, letting go and letting in as we move into them. Being initiated into deeper service if you’re ready for that, or perhaps your initiation right now is into trusting love and into feeling any fears that live in parts of you about surrendering to that process.

There’s a strong invitation from the Divine, always, to open your heart… to truly feel the grief, the mourning, the letting go as you also let in what’s arising. This could mean that you’re completing relationships or beginning new ones or completing with a geography to move on into one that better reflects your soul/heart needs, purpose and mission at this time. It’s a time of endings and beginnings, which is typical for this time of year every year, yet this year feels especially powerful in this way!

2020 has been a year where we’ve seen ‘Peak Fear’ take hold in many ways. It’s been a highly reactive year where many souls have struggled to lean into Divine love and to surrender to what is. It’s been a year of learning to trust what feels real to YOU while putting away the mainstream sources that are there to stir up the fears that were already peaking and mislead you with many spins on actual truth. It’s been a sacred year of more questions than answers, of death and rebirth, of looking intently in the mirrors placed in front of you, to meet the parts of you that have been hidden, buried, or buried themselves out of fear of being seen and known, not to mention felt, loved up, and deeply healed too.

Our deeper awakenings into rebirth and love as a Sacred Human family was not promised to be pretty or neat, though it has been deeply meaningful and continues to be. We all have choice points, graduations, and next levels to arise into. If love is leading, we will be challenged, we will grow, but we will always, ALWAYS be held.

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Starling Murmurations Unity Transmission

by Kasha Rokshana

I had the honour of more communion with birds yesterday evening, when I headed off to the Avalon Marshes to take in the murmurations of the starlings and enjoy the company of other beautiful bird friends. The transmissions were deep and are still landing in me this morning…

Before the starlings appeared, there was a sweet robin in a nearby tree that caught my attention, or rather, blatantly asked for it.

This little robin hopped to an even closer branch when it saw that I was giving it attention and offering an exchange of love. I did my best robin impressions (never done that before) back to this little one, mimicking its sounds. It seemed to like my efforts though I imagine I was off-key!

He/she showed me pictures of the starlings coming into the sky and I felt him ask me if I was there to see them. “Many humans come to watch”, he said. “I like to come and see the humans. This is when they pay attention to us”.

When the starlings entered, I felt immediately their unity consciousness codes that they offer. They aren’t here by any coincidence and we aren’t captivated by them by accident or as an ornithological hobby… I felt that each bird has its own consciousness yet they find deep unity and when they move as one, they create such beautiful shapes that are truly other-dimensional. They model a very high frequency of unity that IS possible for humanity… Yet I really got last night how this destination is still perhaps a ways off, as unity at the moment seems to still come around in opposition to this or that, rather than just being unified in love and moving with love because that’s what our consciousness level and maturity as a species is ready and able to do…

When the starlings came to rest in nearby reeds, their sounds which were a bit of a cacophony to human ears had also a deep transmission to it. I found myself sitting down and closing my eyes, almost in spite of myself, and going very still just to let in and listen. As the bird-watchers dispersed after the ‘show’ was over, I felt like the message was really just beginning to land. They offered their demo of what unity can look and feel like, and now they were sending out a frequency in star/light language of their own.

I felt how these birds are NOT 3D birds. They come from an even higher frequency and dimension than that and I feel like that’s why we are so taken by them, even in spite of ourselves. Their evening symphony as they rested after their flight was like a ‘party’ amongst themselves and also a transmission that I still feel is going in!

We ARE capable of stepping up into our next level as Sacred Humans. We have an awful lot still to feel and heal, yet, the process is underway, even in all its messiness at times, as be the support from Gaia is always available. All creatures want to be let in, want to exchange love with us and offer us many codes and messages along the way. ❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.