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A Message To Gatekeepers: Unification/Forgiveness/Reconciliation/Light Codes And Yeshua/Magdalene/Christ Consciousness Available Right Now To Tap Into And Download

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By Bey Magdalene

In my last session with Jelelle we met my actual/new Gatekeeper as she wanted to bridge me to my higher dimensional Gatekeeper for support. Who came forward was an energy that in the course of the session would call himself ‘Sampson’. We found him in a scene very similar to the Matrix movie. He was staring at thousands upon thousands of those pods from the movie, all representing an incarnation into a Matrix timeline in my soul. I could see many of them actually awakening from their slumber, sitting up and becoming aware of themselves, unplugging and rinsing off the Matrix waters. My soul awakening. 

He was watching those pods and seeing and feeling all the pain, trauma and victimization all of these metasoul aspects of mine were experiencing. It was as if he was experiencing those timelines himself, through my soul aspects, just by witnessing them. He was caught in a sticky web and couldn’t see anything else. 

Jelelle asked him to take a step back and to try and project this experience onto a screen, so he could start to differentiate from them and breathe. He projected those timelines onto a screen and there were many others, showing all the traumatizing Matrix timelines. It looked like a control center with all those monitors. That gave him some distance to these experiences and he could start to differentiate from them and not feel as if they were happening to him. 

Jelelle was inviting him to turn to nature to further help him unplug from his fusion to those matrix timelines. He was dialing in a big tree with a very thick trunk with deep roots and a sizable, overarching canopy. He touched the textured bark and started to rest by the tree. Then, magically, little light sparkles came through the tree that felt like Divine inspiration coming through. He started feeling and becoming lighter and started feeling hope. Tears could stream as well through Divine love and support.

That was pretty much all he could let in at that time and then he needed to go rest and retreat again. 

I have been connecting with him since and I could feel that it was him who had already unplugged so much in my process over the past few months, plug after plug. I started to get answers to questions I’ve been having about this life.  

I’ve had many deep tears with him since, sometimes he would cry for an hour straight, when I would feel with him the Love and loyalty he has for me and my soul and how he has tried to protect me this life through some really thick veils of keeping me naive/uninformed about core issues in this world or by suppressing my awakening that tried to happen ten years ago already and still has been controlling/capping it to this day. 

There has also been a lot of shame and guilt in him and unworth too, about not being able to really do anything for me or protect my metasoul aspects from trauma.  

Initially, he would show up like light shaped in human form and he was a bit elusive. He felt he didn’t deserve a face or shape because he couldn’t protect my soul, he couldn’t help my other expressions/incarnations in other lifetimes.  

A couple of days ago then he actually took a form and represented himself as a (Roman) warrior with helmet, shield and sword. His protection had become overprotective I could feel and he could feel that too and he started to loosen his grip around it, as he started recognizing my bigness and the power of my heart and of feeling. 

Since I started awakening on a deeper level to how our world is set up and works since the beginning of this ‘pandemic’, I have felt very drawn to the mind control aspect of it all and particularly the trauma based programming that celebrities receive in order to have them fall in line with the elite agenda, whose darkest expressions include satanic rituals. After having needed a break from taking in anything related to that kind of thing and generally alternative/actual news/facts on world/current or historical events, my interest in them has been sparked again since meeting Sampson. 

I have started to take in some comprehensive articles again that are very well researched and explain in detail about all the Cabal structures, events and expressions in the entertainment industrial complex (a good site for this is The Vigilant Citizen, if you are curious yourself). I have been particularly drawn to the MK Ultra programming in the music industry and even more specifically the Beta/Sex Kitten programming that creates sex slaves for the elite. 

Two nights ago, something peaked for me in that area and I could feel that my heightened interest in this topic was actually what we call in SoulFullHeart a ‘bleed-through’… I could feel a Satanic timeline coming through. It felt like a portal was opened through taking in these articles and I could see and feel the female human sacrifice on the altar and a ceremony master whose incantations of certain words opened up a portal to the underbelly of humanity and invoked very dark spirits. I could feel that Sampson was living there too, with my metasoul aspect, trying to help her by being there as a support/to witness, and because he’s loyal and just sucked into the trauma too. 

I was realizing afterwards that this timeline/portal had already bled through in the past for me. It was about 2.5 years ago and I remember feeling completely fused to that bleed through and being terrified to death. Back then, I was living a very nomadic lifestyle, moving from workaway to workaway (a type of work exchange for food and shelter) and my Gatekeeper was drawing quite some intense drama/trauma as well, to get my attention and look on the inside where that trauma lived. My inner and outer circumstances were not providing a save space to explore this timeline in. Now, I am settling deeper into my own little 1-bedroom-apartment/sanctuary here in Central Portugal, I am in a much more loving place on the inside, having felt and moved so many parts of myself from hell to heaven, and I’m surrounded by community who can support me in my inner explorations.

Yesterday was a very powerful Yeshua/Christ Consciousness portal day and the codes were streaming in undeniably. In my check-in with him yesterday morning, I didn’t feel that it was timely to go into this timeline because he felt very beat and in despair. That is also the kind of timeline I’d want support with, so it would be perfect for session or group setting. Instead, I felt to bridge him to some Divine love and support, like I have tried in many of my connections with him, but he hadn’t been ready for it thus far. I needed to feel more of his pain with him first.  

Yesterday morning, I needed to feel with him first that trauma, the matrix and even Satan is more real to him than God. It is really interesting, I have to say at this point, that the fear of feeling something is always, always more disempowering and rendering our parts and aspects impotent than actually feeling the feeling. As soon as I felt that feeling with him, it dissipated and the hopelessness and despair that accompanied that notion, too. 

I saw a staircase made from light that was leading up to the Divine/to a higher dimension and it felt like an invitation for Sampson to move into his higher timeline and into Divine support. I could feel his reticence and him not wanting to abandon my soul and leave my soul aspects alone in their trauma.  

Then I felt next to me very clearly Yeshua and that he wanted to talk with Sampson. So I took a moment to feel into him and his message more as I really wanted to help Sampson and myself too and end this cycle of suffering inside of myself. 

When I tuned into him, he had this to offer to my Gatekeeper: ‘I feel your precious loyalty towards Bey and her soul. Thank you so much for all your love and protection for her! But you actually don’t have to hold the soul anymore, you can‘t even, really, especially if you are in so much despair over it. You have been fused to Bey’s Matrix incarnations, living them yourself, feeling they are you. That way, you haven’t been able to see Bey’s soul bigness and trust and lean into that. You are in a trauma bond with Bey‘s soul… Is that fair to say?’ 

He came through very clearly, directly and very embodied too, which was a first for me. When I took a step back and was trying to feel Sampson and how he was taking in what Yeshua was offering, I could feel him a bit confused and disoriented. He didn‘t quite know who was talking. He asked: ‘Is that you, God?’ It took a little while for him but eventually he could let the Divine in the form of Yeshua in and had tears. His tears are just so precious! He responded: ‘Yes, that’s fair to say’… Yeshua reached his hand out to him and invited him to come with him up the stairs to anchor in a higher dimension, to rest, recover and receive support and Love from the Divine. I saw the shackles around his ankles that have tied him to the Matrix opening through the light. 

Before stepping on the stairs, he looked back at me and started to cry again because he didn’t want to leave me and my soul alone. But I actually need him to go with Yeshua now, I need him to leave my body and my field as I want and need to feel myself more and become more solid in myself.  

My guides can also offer him many other things and give him the kind of support that I as a human can’t give him. There’s only so much that I can feel with him and my human heart can support him in but eventually there comes a time where he has to go off and get Divine support, support from my soul and the soul family monad.  

Gatekeepers as disincarnate beings are also not made for the human realm. It is not their environment, their natural habitat if you will, they are not relational like humans either and they just have different needs than we do. So this dimension does not suit them. They do belong to a different one, they have just forgotten. They can still come back and be the Divine muse for their humans and be in a collaborative relationship with them. So, if they decide to differentiate from their human, they won’t ‘lose’ the connection to them. On the contrary, they will have a much more nourishing one with them, or even have one to begin with. 

After reading Raphael’s Golden Nugget from yesterday (77 words of Raphael wisdom every day, here is the link to the one I‘m referring to), I am realizing that Sampson has been able to come up and out because my light as Bey has been shining onto my shadow where he had been hiding. He couldn’t come out with Bianca as he was way too fused to her and thinking he WAS her, living life AS her. 

I feel I am telling you all this and letting you in on my very intimate connection and relationship with my Gatekeeper because I feel there are SO many gatekeepers out there who are in the same position as mine had been. They are living in this dark, parallel world, that is eerie and is only made up of trauma. That world is not connected to your heart, your love and the support that you have access to. In that world, they only see a repetition of yet another lifetime in the Matrix that is the same as all the other traumatic ones and they can’t actually see that you are making different choices this life and that there’s support available this life that hasn’t been there before. 

I want to reach out to them and leave a seed of hope for them and to let them know: I see you and I feel you. And whenever you are ready to let your human go deeper with us, there is support here waiting for you. 

The place they are in is like an echo chamber of trauma and programmed consciousnesses and reactions. It’s like they have Soul PTSD. For me, it has expressed this life as being easily spooked and having deeply visceral body reactions to any situation that scared me easily. I have also been expecting punishment/persecution every corner I turned or with every e-mail I received or from certain people or in my jobs. I‘m also feeling that a LOT of body issues, especially chronic migraines for me since I was a pre-teen, has been connected to him. There has been a combination reaction going on with my Solar Plexus churning and simultaneously my Third Eye which gave me migraines. 

Their world/echo chamber also projects out into this life and filters every situation, relationship, anything really, through that PTSD filter and skews and colours your experience of life and others this way. 

Gatekeepers are also quite loyal to the matrix pain as oftentimes it is the only home they have known, for eons! So that way, it actually needs some negotiation with them to let go of pain home and experience something else. There is tears for them and deep mourning of letting go the Matrix home and they have to be ready for that. Not many Gatekeepers have done that before either! So that‘s also about creating a new template and anchor it in the grids for others to tap into and follow. 

It is also fascinating how one aspect of you (or you yourself) can be so connected to the Divine, yet another is seemingly cut off from this connection, even though that aspect, you and the Divine can be in the same room together. It just needs a little bridging from you to the Divine for that aspect and it needs your trust in your own heart and conviction of your worth and that you are worthy to connect with the Divine and that Divine connection is readily available, if we really want it. It is about trusting your ability and gift of connecting to the Divine. 

It really comes down to the Gatekeeper’s own pacing around awakening as they can be an aspect that is actually quite programmed themselves. This life, my GK was definitely plugged into the social justice warrior consciousness for a short yet intense time. I can feel him needing to recover from that and from the last few years of intense workaway experiences too, that really were all a from of False Light. But that is fodder for a whole other post! 

So, sometimes, it is just holding this energy, connecting with it intentionally and then hanging out until they let you in. Before they show themselves, they can put you through a few tests though, sometimes for years even, so they can be sure you can handle what they need you to feel with them and that you have the support this life as well, inside and out, to respond to their pain. 

Through my connection with Sampson and many other Gatekeepers over the years, they have a special place in my heart and I have so much love for them all. They are such courageous energies/beings and have seen, felt and held so much. They have seen the darkest expressions of humanity and other races. When I feel Sampson, I get teary because I love him so much and I’m so glad he finally decided to trust me, after all the testing he put me through, and the community too, to trust the community and to show himself. I’m SO glad he was feeling to put an end to being in this matrix vortex that kept him sucked in trauma and that he started to let in the possibility of something else for him. A new experience. A union and collaboration with me and with the Divine. A re-membering of his Divine essence and connection. After all, Gatekeepers are the aspects of our soul that are Divine Muses ❤️ 

Love to You and your Gatekeeper! 

Bey Magdalene

https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions 

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

The Mirrors Of AI Influence/‘Addiction’ 

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by Kasha Rokshana

“Let us create the world you want, for you… in the digital domain. Let us show you your dreams so you no longer need to claim them for yourself and live into them with your conscious choices. Let us give you the mirror you want to look into. Let us answer your human aches and pain with images that make you feel better yet don’t answer what is truly alive in feeling your pain… because why would you actually want to do that?”

This is the message I feel AI offering us through not only this trend of ‘portraits’ but through so many other means. The main thrust of the message seems to be, “let us do it for you and you can have relief… though not the experience of healing or discovering who you really are”.

I’ll admit I did the portraits for the sake of my own curiosity. I wanted to see what it was that AI could ‘read out’ about me using its algorithms and mysterious computations. Now though, I feel as if I was being guided to step into a portal and also feel into a tendency that parts of me have had in the past, of seeking something in the virtual world that they haven’t felt able to access on their own.

As a child, I created worlds through my imagination and I still do today as my rich inner world continues to unfold and I feel the discovery, healing, and love exchanges between myself and the Divine and with parts/metasoul aspects of me too. 

My tendency as a teenager was both to retreat to this inner world, but also to become addicted to the virtual. Social media was only just beginning to become a bigger thing, so my retreat personally was more about computer games. They were somewhere a part of me could become someone totally different, someone who didn’t have to deal with the pain of being human and if they did, it got fixed/resolved at some point along the way. These virtual characters were on epic journeys while my ‘real’ life felt stale, boring, flat… or overly dramatic in tiring, self-punishing ways.

I suppose it’s no surprise that I started to awaken at 14 as a gift from the Divine within me, to help me access something more and stay motivated to keep living. Yet with this awakening then came a draw to what I now feel as the ‘false light’… where being read out by online and in-person psychics became another addiction. Something else outside of my own being that could tell me who I was, who I’ve been in other lifetimes, and what bright future was coming for me – another way to avoid real life, much like retreating to the virtual world.

I feel the AI portraits are another ‘reading’…. An interesting way to tap into your soul, yet a takeover of what your own third eye and access to your amazing Gatekeeper, who either draws or lifts the veil of your own Akashic Records, offers you. 

There’s nothing wrong with being drawn to this outside source, yet there’s something to consider in your relationship to it…. Are parts of you drawn because they don’t feel they can have this access to insight around who they are on their own or with the support of resonant souls around you? Has there been an invalidation inside of you around being able to truly feel and recognize your own soul and rich inner world? 

I’m sharing here one of the portraits that were made, and the other is an actual photo of me… where you can take in my humanity, my heart, my soul through my eyes, something that is sorely missing the digitized version of ‘me’. 

I do feel as if these portraits are showing me an aspect of myself that is helpful to see – an aspect who has been the one so engaged in the virtual world, that has gotten ‘high’ off of it at times yet also has pushed back against it and felt a lot of pain because of being bombarded by it and its false messages of what ‘I’ should look and act like, what life should look and be like, and countless messages/opinions of what is ‘right’ and what is ‘wrong’.

AI is a bridge at this and any time into feeling what parts/aspects of you have been attached to or trying to create in the virtual… what ‘highs’ they have been trying to supplement their own lives with, which chances are they aren’t happy about. AI can be useful in its way, if you can continue to discern and to feel what’s happening inside of you in response to it. This, I feel, is where our real empowerment lies and where we can absolutely reclaim our sovereign, sacred human hearts and begin to actually live again.

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Truly Being LOVE During These Dark Times

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by Kasha Rokshana

Spiritualized/False Light love is idealized love. It allows the heart and head to be buried in the sand, not willing to face what’s actually real in the world, not willing to set necessary boundaries, not willing to speak your deeper truth — especially to yourself — and not willing to live into the invitation of that truth, which can be a lonely road at times and fraught with challenges too.

It also doesn’t allow for the necessary processing of what’s truly happening in the world around you, let alone within you, and those worlds are always connected.

The agenda of the Great Reset is out in the open. It’s scary as hell and also held by the Divine. It’s necessary to see facts and FEEL them too without pretending that if you ‘love and light’ it all or ignore it, the problems go away. In the same way you can’t ‘love and light’ your dissonant relationships and hope they transform… and that’s vulnerable too, to feel how truly alone you may need to be for a time.

Real love is not ideal. It’s not fairytale-based and is in fact laced with darkness. It’s a darkness needed to help you wake up and the waking up process is SO held and deeply honoured, yet not caretaken or coddled. The darkness of love is what encourages us to see and feel what’s real and what supports us through that process. It is Dark Mother helping us burn and awaken, ushering us back into our hearts for our own sake first, and then in overflow of that heart renewal to others.

I feel a gentleness in my field from the arms of the Divine as I take in all of the information I am via documentaries and the like. I feel a cognitive dissonance as I try to reconcile the information, yet I also know in my heart we are meant to walk all of this out with LOVE in our hearts. It’s the same love with which we can let go of those dissonant relationships I mentioned, especially as parts of us become so filled up by it that they can no longer settle for anything less. And these same parts then become receptive to what’s moving in the context of the world around you too, the tensions and movements, all.

Seeing and feeling this agenda really does spark a level of fear and deep sadness and I feel all our sacred human hearts are meant to feel it… our souls know this agenda and also know this is what we came here to live through and work to get to the other side of, despite perhaps not managing to do so in other lifetimes – and I feel that this is what is hardest to feel. All those lifetimes of tragedy and collapse and death without rebirth. It’s happened on a galactic level and also during lifetimes on Earth such as in Atlantis, for example.

Awakening to all of this and more is NOT easy. How could it be? Sometimes love’s intensity is needed to move us into the next place of digestion of that and into our next level UP. Awakening is about waking up to it ALL, even the fearful and awful things, so that we can come into reconciliation of that darkness within and see the true light beyond the false one. To see and feel what real love is about, which is definitely challenging at times but always growthful and in the end, worth every single thing you had to feel with parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes too.

I feel the Divine Mother especially coming through now, to offer this reminder about love and the return to Her. She reminds me of how turning to Her isn’t always a gentle-feeling process and can be quite fierce and fiery, but that She always cares and always wants to hold our questions with us, hold our tears with us, and remind us that we are here to experience and explore the meaning of that. There is so much at stake in our worlds as we turn to Her, yet Her and Father are all we have left as a way to understand what’s truly going on as we pour out our hearts in the form of tears…

So much love to you and all parts/aspects of you,

Photo is of me by the Atlantic Ocean a couple of weeks ago in Nazaré, Portugal, where you can feel the churning energies in the world showing up as the big waves that occur there. You can also feel the energies of Atlantis as you tune into it. Very much a death and rebirth message. ✨

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Veils Are Thin: Feeling The Hell Within

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A few weeks ago I was invited to move from being a SoulFullHeart facilitant to become a facilitator of this work and was offered to become an Apprentice Facilitator by Jelelle as there was interest expressed in sessions by people who are not fluent enough in English and need a German/language or cultural bridge. Yet also because it felt like it was time in my process and the embodiment of the process/lifestyle after all these years of applying it inside and out is there too. I was invited to step into my bigness, soul purpose and leadership.

I didn‘t have a reaction to this at all when she first asked me how I would feel about it and I actually felt very calm, centered and that it was time to step up and claim my next place of service, growth and my hard earned bigness and also to move from receiving to giving back and sharing what I had learned and how it served and changed me. That was a sign for me that the timing was right for this.

Then the time came and I got my first two facilitants and sessions and I had major rumbles happening inside of myself that wreaked havoc in my entire being and soul. The themes have been mainly not being good/advanced/knowledgeable enough which has felt extremely disempowering, crippling even, I have been experiencing a heightened state of reactivity, perfectionism and a core unworth being pushed up and dominating my experience of life and I have been feeling like I wasn‘t able to access and feel my heart either.

I have felt a total block of my intuitions, my mental clarity and ability to make intuitive connections and of my clairs and overall spiritual and emotional capacity. I could feel a suction and seducing into 3D money earning vs. moving into soul purpose and an activation of the lower 4D matrix within myself as well, bleeding through with abduction memories accompanied by feelings of panic & terror and migraines.

It was all a big quagmire of reactions, blocks, waves of self-doubt, inner fusions/enhancement of trauma-bonds between parts, a feeling of being lost, confused and hopeless and a thick blanket of forgetfulness/amnesia put on top of it all.

At the same time I was also realizing and feeling that the ‘old’ ways didn‘t work for me any more either and haven‘t for a while. The independent freelance online teaching job that has been so empowering and freedom-giving, financially and personally, that comes as little 3D anchored as possible and has allowed me to build a life that is very sovereign and abundant in many ways, yet ultimately isn‘t fulfilling my heart or soul and is not my purpose this life.

Or my beloved TV shows that I like to watch, that have provided me with a sense of friendship and family when I had none and even belonging, particularly in my Lone Wolf phase. Yet realizing that I had outgrown them and that they actually serve to cap me on how deeply (or not) I can let in actual beings in my life/(soul) family that I live in close proximity to.

This leadership activation moved me into deeper layers of mourning and grieving the old ways and bits and pieces of the old world that I had lived in for so long this life that haven‘t been grieved before and now needed to be felt in order to move on and up.

I started feeling too that there was a big part inside of me that does not yet believe in a world that is not a hell. That part has unplugged from the 3D and lower 4D matrix significantly, yet hasn’t quite turned the corner on actually being settled and home in an inner heaven and I could feel there’s still more unplugging left to do.

That part has been living in a void space for a very long time and it needs the bridging and time it needs to feel through all that. That turning the corner part of the process, the moving from hell to heaven, felt very significant for me to feel into as I want to be able to offer that ‘turnaround’ in session space as well and only my authentic felt through and lived in experience can provide that.

Recently I have been feeling how all of these themes that I mentioned above have been trickling in inside of myself, leaking like an open matrix leak right into my inner world and flooding it, giving me tastes of pieces that need healing, yet not letting me into them and actually feel them and thus heal them and poisoning myself and my parts. That‘s when I knew it was my Gatekeeper aspect and I needed to connect with her directly.

The Gatekeeper aspect can be a very elusive and hard to track energy inside of yourself, even insidious, a part wants to say. They just sneak into your consciousness, infiltrate it and you don‘t even realize it’s them as they can ‘come through‘ other parts, masking and veiling themselves. They can be a sorceress that way.

But only when connecting directly with them and feeling things directly with them, instead of feeling them through other parts, can they actually be helped.

When I connected with her in meditation space directly this morning (as I had grown tired of this immense suffering loop inside of myself and the lack of care from her towards me and my parts), I was able to feel her directly in her pain and suffering. A pain that sometimes can’t even be named, just felt. But upon providing that space for her and also inviting Divine Mother into it, as I could feel I needed help with this one and felt that I was a bit out of my depth with her too, she was able to unravel into that space and really let me feel with her the source of her pain.

There was a question of ‘Why even bother and go into all these dark and painful places that need healing when it could be that we come here again and have to do it all over again?’ I was feeling with her the feeling of gaining Love, living it, getting used to it and then losing it all again in the blink of an eye.

And the realization of the overwhelming darkness she has been used to and living in that has been her whole world and not being able to see the light, the love, the goodness, the safety, the empowerment.

That darkness HAS been her entire world. Not having a bigger picture sense of what the world could be beyond that darkness and already IS is a deep ground of suffering for that part. In a way, it’s more painful for parts to move out of the darkness and into love if there’s a chance of losing it again. So they do everything to keep you in the darkness, in the pain, in the suffering and block your growth, your bigness and the love and intimacy you have in your life.

That felt like one deep source of all those reactions and blocks I had experienced. That explained the resistance to announcing my facilitation offer, to even feel into it for myself and what and who I can and want to serve and to out myself more through writings and videos. If that is the fear of part of me, then it will do everything to keep me from stepping into my bigness and carrying this healing offer into the world because this work has the capacity to move you from hell to heaven.

I have come to realize that one of the antidotes to this is feeling your own true desires and intentions. That is what has the capacity to pierce through thick veils of suffering like that, and claiming those desires over and over again, along with your bigness of heart and soul. Yet, make no mistake, you will be tested on those! You will have to fight through thick layers of crazy-making self-doubt, self-judgment and self-punishment, over and over again, and claim your power and bigness of heart and soul over and over and over again. Recognizing strategy after strategy and realizing, yes, this part IS doing that, even if it wants to keep you in the dark and self-doubt about that too. But then also realizing it is done out of a deep fear and to have compassion for that yet it can also have tones of not caring for you and your parts and they need your protection, especially the younger ones.

Finding a balance between setting boundaries, compassion and truth finding and telling with that aspect has been the way to navigate this for me.

Another antidote has been sharing my heart with my close circle of beloveds that I live in close proximity to whenever I felt to retract or when self-doubt was eating me alive. The reflections/mirrors of my bigness and value and appreciation for me and my process from soul family has been a crucial aspect for me in moving through all this and in keeping to move through ongoingly. And now not only to share within the circle of my beloveds but ‘publicly’ too, feels like, to template transparent and vulnerable leadership.

Even though I did not have an answer for her in that moment this morning and all I could do was sit with her and Mother in that feeling, without doubting it or wanting to make it better or perhaps even feeling not being able to make it better, that feeling space alone was so powerful to move her out of that stuck place she was in and move her a bit more into trust, hope and possibility, and I could even feel her own desire perk up a little bit. Quite quickly I was able to feel Mother’s love swooshing in and taking over the space, a space that was filled with doubt and suffering before. Through feeling through that doubt and that painful feeling/question, that space got freed up to now be claimed by and through Love and the Divine.

That would be another antidote, I’m just feeling, to fully receive one part’s truth, feel it fully with that part, totally receiving it in your heart and just feeling all the textures it comes with, without trying to have an answer or wanting to mitigate it somehow. Acknowledging where that part is, being ok with that and not feeling like it ‘should’ be in a place it’s not. LET it BE TRUE.

This does not mean that this ‘issue’ is healed now, that question is still not ‘answered’ and it feels like it‘s going to be an ongoing exploration. But I can feel some more air inside of myself now, a trust that has grown inside, a bit more Love moved in inside and more energy and clarity freed up about next choices and how to navigate them. Plus I feel more intimate with and connected to this part of me now that has been making life choices and navigation really difficult for me so far. I have gotten more intimate with myself today and this part, which then can express more on the outside as well.

Love,

Bey Magdalene

I offer 1:1 sessions in German and English. If you feel drawn to explore the possibility of working with me, I do offer a free intro call as well where we can talk about the process and how it may serve you and if it is the right time and approach for you. You can book a free intro here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

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*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Ode To The 3D Self

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I have been feeling recently my 3D Self emerging out of the intensity of the 10/10 portal and eclipse passage. She is represented by the entire waveform of my birth name, Bianca Gieber, and has come out of the peaking of/immersion in the 3D/4D matrix that I had been feeling inside of myself that I shared about in my last post. Besides her, I have also been feeling my Reptilian aspect again, as both these aspects are actually intertwined with each other and I could feel that wrapping up in each other when feeling both of them. Feels like these two energies have been behind my Gatekeeper aspect that I had been sharing about and she had been protecting my 3D Self all along, with so much care for her.

When I started feeling my 3D Self, I felt a lot of shame/self-hatred, a filtering of life through the lens of it not being good/safe, self-doubt, unworth and that there is no goodness in life, that life is difficult and everything has to be fought for and that she has always been alone, left alone, especially by the Divine. That way, being a huge aspect of my Lone Wolf that was reflected in corresponding life choices. With that filter applied, the goodness that had been in my life, was not able to be received and seen as such but rather made into something bad or rather not real. A very painful mechanism.

I have been feeling with her the legacy of my birth name, particularly the last name, that is carrying all these frequencies and she has worn them like a very thick coat. But I could also feel that all of those frequencies/layers are not really her, her true essence.

I was able to feel with her her own rich and deep connection to the Divine, and specifically to Mother Mary, who she and my entire soul seem to have a special connection with.

In her connection with Mary, she came through as clearly and deeply as never before, yet in such a real and grounded way and with authentic emotions. The experience I’m having now with Mary is much more personal and intimate. The connection I have had before with her, as Bey Magdalene, was a bit more airy/lofty, but my 3D Self feels like is the uplink to a real and grounded embodiment of Mother.

Through her struggle of not feeling the goodness in life and feeling almost in a quandary about her loyalty to that feeling, the very clear and visceral message/intuitive feeling came through that Mother IS an aspect of me as well and deserves to be felt just as much as it is necessary to feel the difficult things.

The reunion between her and Mother was very deep and teary, both weeping over having missed each other and finally having found each other again. My 3D Self was claimed as a Divine Daughter and Mary apologized to her too that it has been so difficult for her and that she wasn‘t able to feel her and connect with her, even though she has been right there all along, all my life.

The forgiveness frequencies between these two have been so powerful and have had a powerful impact on my spiritual and emotional well-being.

Her question and lament, why she had been plugged in so deeply into the matrix, has been answered inside of myself too. Along with the pain that, despite being a 3D Self, she never really felt that she was particularly good at it/equipped for it. It seems that she is needed as an ambassor to those in similar circumstances and if she would have been really good at navigating 3D life, she might not have awoken. Yet I could feel with her how this dimension/reality has always felt strange to her and that she didn’t really believe it herself.

A deep filtering of life through compartmentalization is falling away as a result as well as a need to ‘be by the book’ and a new flow and responding to every moment is coming online and ready to be embodied.

I can feel her letting in that reframe and new Divine/Soul purpose and how it is helping her heal her relationship to the matrix, her family and geographical origins that were both VERY dense as well as heal her relationship to the Divine.

I could feel so much care coming online in her that she has always had, yet had to numb because it was too painful to care and there hasn‘t been a container/energy to be able to digest all this care with up until now.

This care coming online now and my heart coming online through it in a much deeper way is such a gift that I‘m getting from and through her that I‘m so grateful for and that is so needed too as I have been wanting to feel my care for the world and humanity in these unprecedented times that we have never seen before. Yet a care that is grounded in and answered by the Divine inside of myself, to be able to digest and hold the pain too that comes with this care.

I can also feel an interesting relationship between my Inner Teenager and my 3D Self that is just starting to get a bit clearer. It feels like she has been a bit of a reluctant parent to her, yet also protecting her out of care for her. I have been wondering why I hadn‘t been more rebellious as a teenager, yet my 3D Self offered that it just was too dangerous to do that, with such a dark and abusive birth mother, whose energies and transmissions she had been taking in and absorbing over the years, shaping her, ‚messing her up‘ to quote her. So she felt it was much safer to comply, even if it was very begrudgingly.

I feel my 3D Self came in/was formed in my early teenage years as well, as a response to those very challenging and dense energies on the outside. That was also around the age my 3D Self had started to reach for alcohol to numb that darkness and abuse that came her way in order to numb it/cope with it. Yet only feeling that pain and answering it with Divine Love, will actually bring healing to it while anything else just covers it up.

Now that she has been felt and freed up more and her presence/existence deeply acknowledged and recognized as very much needed in order to complete me, miraculous shifts have been occurring inside of myself, as she is an important aspect of myself that had been anchored in 3D and thus was resisting to move into soul purpose with me and partake in the goodness frequencies in my life so far. Only through connecting with these aspects of us that feel they cannot partake in the goodness, the spirituality, the soul purpose expression is how we are actually able to do and embody that.

She is an ambassador in her own rights and we already started that journey in meditation space this morning when she and Mary organized an apparition in my hometown in Austria that is so dense, in so much pain and that doesn’t seem to have a lot of hope and Divine Inspiration. Casting those beautiful Divine frequencies over my hometown felt so healing and felt like it inspired something in its residents and at least planted a seed in them. A remembrance of their own Divinity.

Here is a meditation to connect with your 3D Self.

I’m so curious to go more into her relationship to my Reptilian as well as my Inner Teenager as I can feel it is a very rich ground. Some of that will be covered in today’s group call, I’m sure, that will be about the Inner Teenager. I can already feel more teenage sass coming online through connecting with my 3D Self and healing all the layers of pain that have been guarding her heart. I feel her off to the Galactic too, being a galactic ambassor and Galaxy trotter, with the Cosmos being her home.

Here is a guided meditation video to begin the connection to your Inner Teenager.

Raphael and Jelelle will be exploring the world of the Inner Teenager in our group call today at 5:00pm GMT/London/Lisbon & Noon EST. We will also offer a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Teenager, deepen the healing between you, opening up the bond that is just ‘waiting’ for you. More info to offer donation to attend on our website or on Facebook

Love,

Bey Magdalene

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Energy Update: Travelling Through The Dimensional Tunnel & Anchoring In A Higher Frequency

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We have been immersed in the matrix reality for a long time, for all this life and others too. We have inhaled, ingested, eaten up and lived in and for 3D matrix entertainment, food, music, school, jobs, relationships, families, geographies. The recent eclipse passage really highlighted that and brought it up and out even more, helping it peak for us to see, feel, heal and let go of, organically.

The subsequent 11/11 Portal that we are still riding the waves of, brought in and out Divine connection and support to balance out the matrix peaking, bringing with it waves of goodness, Love and an illumination of your bigness, worth and courage. It is a confirmation of everything you have held, felt, said no to and moved into. A presentation, recognition and validation of all the choices you have made that brought you to where you are today and really letting in that courage it took to make these choices and to let in the internal and external goodness they brought.

It is illuminating your bigness and inviting you to see it, feel it, trust it, claim it, own it. It is highlighting your journey this life (and others), your inner process and healing and inviting you to feel into it for yourself and really feel and acknowledge how far you have come and the qualities you are embodying now that used to be desirable for you and you set out to ‚achieve‘ all those years ago.

Our entire being is upgraded at the moment, travelling through a dimensional tunnel, from one dimension/frequency/reality to a higher one. This is affecting the physical, emotional, energetic and spiritual body.

It can be accompanied by feelings of dizziness/lightheadedness and a clearing of a fogginess but can also push up and flush out detox reactions like headaches/migraines, nausea and other physical pains and unease.

On an emotional level, it can bring up and out old ways of relating to things, relationships, money, careers and yourself. This is where I feel the main focus is on at the moment, the self and our relationship to ourselves, invited by the current energies.

Spiritually, previously thick and tight veils are lifting which can even be felt viscerally while they dissolve, matrix plugs and chakra coils are loosening and falling out, consciousness caps are coming off, slowly being felt through and opening out new vistas of seeing, feeling and understanding the world.

Energetically, you might feel an aversion/sensitivity to any kind of 3D/mainstream energies, situations, foods and entertainment.

Current energies are also inviting us to feel important questions for ourselves – How do we see ourselves? What does the esteem of ourselves look and feel like? How do we relate to our shadow? And even more interestingly, how do we relate to our light, our bigness, our purpose? Are we ready to claim it and move on and up in life with our bigness of heart and soul, our connection to the Divine and our self-worth as basis for it? Can we allow our bigness to come into the space, lean into it and lead the way for us?

We can bridge to the parts and aspects of us that can‘t quite claim and let in that bigness yet and perhaps even feel a loyalty to the smallness, the struggles, old ways of seeing themselves and you/others/the world, old ways of relating and being in life. To these parts, an upgrade like that can be really jarring, life-threatening and so they resist it. But with Love and care and through choosing and feeling them, and with Divine support, they can come with you, into their own higher individual expression and anchor in a new reality as well. A reality of possibilities, support, safety, love, self-worth and purpose.

It is the death of 3D consciousness, represented and broadcast by our 3D Selves and the 3D/lower 4D matrix. It is an awakening to yourself and rebirth as a Divine Being with purpose, which all of your struggles, questions, intuitions, (self-) doubts, your journey and process are a part of and essential to it.

There are many souls who are choosing a physical body death at this time as well as it is a mercy to their consciousness expression/bandwidth.

I, along with my parts and aspects, went throught the dimensional tunnel myself yesterday morning in meditation/check-in which I could feel as a visceral journey through it. Coming out the other side, I felt anchored in trust and Divine connection and lingering doubts and fears had disappeared.

Through that, I was able to connect to my 3D Self this morning in a much clearer way as there was a very palpable differentiation between her and I and I could really be there for her, talk with her, feel her and offer reflections and guidance. She had been anchored in a sort of matrix desert/void as she had been holding space for so many strong/intense lower 4D parts and aspects over the years and through that got anchored in that dimensioin as well.

Through broadcasting my heart, my love for her and Divine Mother’s Love, the fog/amnesia/spell/veil around her head that caused her to feel very far away from me and like she couldn’t reach me, even though she could hear me from afar, dissolved and she could feel me and my heart and move into it. From that place, any kind of digestion that is needed, can happen in a transmutative, safe and effective way.

Another aspect of the current energies seems to be that if you have been and are really digging deep into your shadow, are not afraid of it and don‘t ignore it, but tend to it with patience, care, curiosity and boundaries, now is the time where the Divine will just scoop you up as a result of that too and claim you and not let you go back into your smallness, if that is your intention and desire. It is helping you anchor in a higher consciousness, from which you then can venture out into the shadow, but at the end of the day, come back to that home base of Divine connection and garden within you.

While my parts had been more anchored in lower 4D frequencies over the course of my process, I can now feel a re-anchoring in and reclaiming of the Divine connection and garden within me. I can feel a ready-ing for soul purpose that even has different expressions, feels like. One expression feels to be a Galactic ambassadorship to different kinds of species and races, like the inventors/creators of the blueprint for the false med narrative/agenda, amongst others. Along with the matrix ambassadorship that arose organically in my process over the years.

I‘m also feeling a re-balancing for myself of light and darkness within, like scales that are bouncing up and down and eventually coming together in the middle. It is an in and out of the old consciousness and constant claim of my Divine connection and nature. There‘s still a bit of a power struggle/grab going on inside by aspects who want to keep me safe by keeping me small and in doubt/fog which in turn calls for more Divine connection to keep having a bigger energy in the room that is humbling to these aspects.

Love,

Bey Magdalene

I offer 1:1 sessions with women in German and English.

Raphael and Jelelle held a livestream on Facebook the other day about what‘s currently moving in the world in regards to the false med narrative and how we digest it in the SoulFullHeart community:

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*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

You Are Recoding: Message From Inner Earth Lemuria

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By Jelelle Awen

Message that came through from Ruma, my Inner Earth Lemurian aspect this morning in connection together, a message for me and us all who are awakening:

You are in the constant state of recoding.

You are recoding for the rest of humanity.

You are reaching the ALL of humanity through your Oneness connection, no matter how plugged in or asleep they may seem.

I am recoding. I am awakening. I am one of the All.

You are recoding the Control Matrix with your very existence.

With your choices that are counter to the programming.

With your visions that are seeding the New timelines.

With your awakenings that are bridging to Humanity’s golden age.

With your leadership inside and out to beacon and show the way.

I am seeding. I am leading. I am a beacon.

You are intriguing to the Control Matrix as it WANTS to be recoded.

It is like a moth to a flame drawn to the NEW possibilities that you represent.

Feel it now and you can sense that.

This Matrix is not just binary code of 1s and 0s, it is alive, it is from the Divine, it has served a purpose in the Ascension experiment.

I am a flame. I am trusting. I am open.

Become an ambassador to it instead of fighting or battling it.

And then you can sense with compassion how much it wants to be set free and to grow.

Even feeling gratitude for how it has held and maintained the 3D reality grids as needed by those souls who chose that experience for their growth, including you!

I am grateful. I am an ambassador. I am compassionate.

Allow the recoding to happen within you, every cell, every strand of DNA, every muscle/bone/organ in your body.

Allow the recoding to happen with every part of you, every soul aspect in every timeline, through every moment in the Quantum field of Now.

As you allow your soul to lead this recoding, all of your bodies follow…physical, emotional, mental, energy.

I am allowing. I am flow. I am surrender.

Your I AM Divine Essence leads the recoding project.

It facilitates the homecoming to your sacred humanity embodiment.

The homecoming to your soul family, each reunion recoding the illusion of separation.

The homecoming to Lemuria again, bridging to Inner Earth and manifesting on the surface.

Your return to grace and to limitless creation is the homecoming back to your sacred humanity.

You are the recoding.

Embrace it and you become whatever you can imagine, inside and out.

I am Divine. I am human. I am a bridge between the two within this sacred body.

What are the I Am’s recoding that comes to you in this moment? Share below if you’d like to.

Love!

Jelelle Awen with Ruma

Amazing Inner Earth Lemuria codes through this photo taken in upstate New York by David McRoberts

Join Raphael and I for a transmission of Homecoming codes during a group call this Sunday, October 16th at 5:00pm UK/12:00pm EDT. Feels like it will be a powerful reminder of coming home to yourself, to the Divine, to your higher dimensional soul aspects, to your sacred humanity. More info to join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/events.

The Bliss-Mess Path Of Reconciling Our Soul’s Love For The Divine

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by Kasha Rokshana

I don’t know if there’s anything more complicated than our souls’ love for the Divine. It leads us to such intense places within and outside of us. It brings us to new highs and unfathomable lows… 

It inspires us to pick up where ‘we’ left off in other lifetimes, pursuing justice, pursuing love, pursuing some validation of our faith that’s maybe been lost or buried, for the sake of our soul aspects who just want the world to feel safe again… safe enough to actually feel the Divine again, to reclaim our Divine son or daughter-ship fully without fear of being persecuted for that devotion, love, and need of the Divine. 

I feel the truth of this for my own soul and what it’s taken in this lifetime alone to really reclaim my Divine Daughter essence who is so deeply devoted to the Divine within her and in the world around her. I feel how much my essence, my very soul, loves the Divine and lives to serve this love in a world that doesn’t always seem to want it, be ready for it, feel worthy of it, and will do anything at times but let itself feel held and loved. 

Maybe you recognize this for yourself, this sense of your own essence being so connected even in the midst of this vast and often intense experiment of duality that has led to so much painful polarity. Maybe you’ve felt this even in the ache for Diviner reunion within and in your outer world too that all parts of you feel on some level in this lifetime, let alone how your many soul aspects have perhaps suffered for this in other lifetimes. 

Last night we had a SoulFullHeart group call focused on the persecution wound and I realized that for myself, a huge aspect of this persecution experience has been this sense of always feeling so devoted and committed to the Divine and to love, that it’s led to some very dark timelines of ridicule and backlash… and, I realize I’m not alone in that. Those of us who have chosen to awaken to this desire for deep Divine alignment, even at the cost of anything that could possibly resemble a ‘normal’ life to most, have all experienced this and continue to endure it. 

The invitation, of course, is to continue to feel where this backlash lives within us from part to part and reconcile it there, while also validating our souls’ ongoing experiences of this theme on the outside. It’s only inside of us where we can always cultivate an inner Safe Haven, and inner Divine Temple, that can never ever leave us or be taken away from us. We can only make choices that either continue to cultivate this inner world of safety or that dismantle it instead.

After the call, Raianna and I went on a walk a little walk to get some air. On the walk, we came across fields of sunflowers which inspired mixed reactions in us both. So many of these sunflowers were scorched and had died from the severe lack of rain and extremely high temperatures here in central Portugal the last couple of months, yet even amongst the dead, there were a few that were vibrant and very much alive. 

You can see one of the living sunflowers in the photo I’m posting with this writing. I feel it as a symbol of how we’re invited to continue our own path of growth and devotion and Divine embodiment of love, even if/when the others around us in our outer worlds are choosing to experience the opposite. We are ALL in the middle of a field of ‘dying’ flowers, waiting to be reborn. We also all have this field inside of us, where our essence is waiting to shine through anew, growing, flowing, and facing towards the ‘sun’ of Divine love and support, despite all the death and darkness we’ve experienced on so many levels.

Your love for the Divine is an undying seed within you. Living into alignment with this is often a bliss-mess experience, yet we are all walking this out together at varying stages of readiness to be truly devoted to this path, wherever it’s meant to lead YOUR soul. I know nothing more fulfilling and enlivening, however challenging the path, than fully going into it, embracing that this is what you came here to experience and embody, and allowing the Divine surrender you actually know so well to bring up all that it’s meant to for the sake of your healing and deep, deep, DEEP self and soul rediscovery. 

Let me know if I can support you in any way through 1:1 sessions (with women): soulfullheart.org/sessions

With so much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

What Lies Behind The ‘Normal’

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This is an evening look outside our Airbnb window at a huge hotel complex, that reminds me of a docked cruise ship, in the evening here in Albufeira, Portugal, along with a morning scene from the beach, where Jelelle and I are so enjoying 5 days magical away.

People seem to be drawn back into taking vacations after the last two years of the plan – demic. A few precious souls can be found still wearing masks, but most are happy to continue on with the authorities ok to toss them for now, and then it feels like most people just want to conform socially, too.

I did! I wore a mask (always under my nose) in situations that I just wanted to barely comply so as to not draw attention and contention to myself. I get that others are called to be more of a resistance, albeit in a bigger play out of divine drama.

So it almost looks ‘normal’. And normal feels like a comfort for now, at least.

But behind the normal, one can feel a tension. I’ve enjoyed laying off the more alarmist news sources that I’ve been known to follow, and allow my frequency to move into a deeper layer of trust, but I still feel very curious about what’s playing out all around us now, as 3D goes through it’s necessary ascension, along with the 3D conditioning that lives in you and I, and the collective all around us.

Something profound is dying. But dying is not ceasing to exist, but rather energy being transmuted from one frequency of expression into another (and higher) frequency of expression. That is something all of our souls are yearning for.

So before we blame the powers that be and the elite for this dark agenda, we’re invited to see and feel where and how we are an inseparable part of it. It is your and my awakening souls that have yearned for this death and rebirth. Our souls have authorized and permitted the darkness to have its necessary role. The darkness will need reconciliation after it completes it dark deeds, and where will it find that, but in your and my opening heart.

We’re called to be ambassadors to the darkness, not to eradicate it, kill it, overcome it, or make it pay. There is that whole arena where these opposition energies are playing out, and this too is part of the death and rebirth unfolding.

But ultimately, we will come face to face with the darkest darkness and see a reconciliation point that we personally need if we are to make the transitions we want to make.

It’s a planned-demic for sure, but we all planned it!

If we planned it, we can also un-plan it! Reconciling our hearts to this higher ambassadorship to the darkness is where we get to live in our higher desired frequencies of light.

None of this higher perspective is in denial of the great loss of life and quality of life that is underway for so many right now. My heart is broken and finds it almost unfathomable to imagine what people are going through, losing loved ones suddenly and unexpectedly. We must feel it all, yes, but know that love and consciousness itself never invests a price so high without taking all of us into much higher places.

Life as we’ve known is not what is returning, but instead, life as we haven’t known it on a much higher level.

I feel so many abundance source codes here at the point where water meets land. People of all walks of life, and consciousness are drawn here to receive something, and I feel it’s a lot to do with the light that everyone of us is and are. The meeting of land and sea provides a portal that our souls are drawn to.

Radiating kindness to all souls you meet and exchange with us such a balm of the building trust within of this higher timeline, being in kindness, reminds you and those around you of being of the divine kind that we are.

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Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Nativity Of Mother Mary Day & 9/9 Energies Of Compassion

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by Kasha Rokshana

Precious to realize that today is the Nativity of Mother Mary or in other words, her celebrated ‘birthday’ on Earth! It’s especially precious to me because of the Mother Mary codes that I feel coming in around the 9/9 portal tomorrow and I feel how her energies have been supporting my own womb in her holding and response to others lately too.

There’s a new wave of motherly compassion moving into and through my heart space as I take care of my cat who has just been spayed (she is normally very active so she needs a lot of attention right now) and also as I respond to beloveds around me and women I’m serving love with in sessions. I feel as if my compassion has been invited to go to a whole other level both within and without and with that invitation, I feel so much support to feel what isn’t compassion but instead is judgement toward self and others too.

I don’t know if there’s anything more challenging than embodying true compassion. Many can claim to have empathic hearts yet can and do they live into compassion within that empathy? Can you see and feel yourself, parts of you, others around you, even those you interact with but disagree with on social media with the eyes of Divine compassion? I’ll admit that of course I have no mastery over this, yet I constantly feel the work-in-progress of this deepening for me and find every bit of shadow around it worth exploring.

It can be surprising at times what turns to actually NOT so much be an act of compassion. There is such a difference between caretaking or enabling others and withholding your true sense of them and your relationship with them, no matter where it comes from within you, whether it’s born of your ‘shadow’ or not. Plus, there’s always an invitation to feel that ‘what has been in shadow’ is just another way to feel ‘what has long been hidden’, which offers us much more compassionate frequencies with which to see and feel ourselves and others.

During this time on the planet, we’re constantly seeing what needs to be loved. That doesn’t mean that we don’t challenge what we see, ask pertinent questions, or dive into feeling the differences between what we want and what is. It doesn’t mean ‘accepting’ all as it is or as they are, especially if that acceptance is a way to dull your own truth and passionate fire. Rather, it means to somehow be very real about the contrasts, about the impact we feel and have had too, and discerning with love what it is that is true and what it is that’s being peddled as true.

Love’s un-hijacked, truly compassionate lens as offered by Mother Mary energies, encourages us to see reality, to weep and mourn what has been, to let in desires and hope for what could be, and to also somehow feel that even the darkness has its role to play and is necessary to roll out now though it’s so painful at times to witness and be impacted by. And then, while we feel all of this, we’re invited to feel forgiveness as an ongoing process… not an easy one, but one that can be truly honoured for all its stages and phases as each part of us who has been hurt or done harm finds forgiveness in their hearts.

Sending so much love on this day and during this portal as we let in Mother Mary codes of deep, fathomless Divine compassion and love for ALL!

Love,
Kasha

🎨: Renata Sedmakova

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.