I am emerging now, out of a sacred space. A space of self love and self care. A space where my primary focus was on my own needs. A space I have been in for almost a week, altered from the usual and brought into something new.
I found this space not from deep meditation practice, but rather through body illness, body detoxification, and body realignment. It might seem strange to offer that being ill provided a sacred space, but it did, as I surrendered to what it was bringing to me. Even as I certainly had moments of discomfort and pain, I could feel a trust that it was all part of a bigger process. It was preparing me for what is coming next both in my own life, in SoulFullHeart, and in the world.
As I sip on a potent concoction of herbal extracts given to me by our new herbologist, I feel the love of the plants that are moving through my blood stream, bringing vitality, immunityβ¦..life. I am newly focused now again on my nutritional health, taking it to an even higher level of self care and loveβ¦.without self judgment or regiment or vigilance. Just tuning into what feels good, what is good, what is alive. That has been another gift of not being well as I could listen to what my body was telling me about eating foods (such as wheat and sugar) that lower my vibrational frequency.
This was a minor illness, easily cured, yet it brought the gifts of a need for a self containment after months of time spent in serving love to others, sharing my energy and writings, etc. My desire now is to continue this self care containment space without the need for illness. I feel a sense of increasing my practices of meditation, multidimensional travel, creativity through projects and to hold a protective container around my energy and what energies I take in.
I have connected the illness too with a choice I made to move on from holding individual facilitation space for others and to focus on creative projects such as a book about the SoulFullHeart process, a documentary, etc. that I have been working on for awhile or been wanting to manifest. This was a tender decision, after many years of working with people. I am now shifting to supporting Raphael, Leena, and Sequoia in their facilitation and serve others through group circles and webinars in the future. I could feel how for the part of me that has primarily been a facilitator, this is a big adjustment that will take time and love with me to digest.
My experience brings up for me a reminder of how important self care and self love are for all of us. Sometimes it takes an illness or emergency for us to actually go in and be in stillness, to rest, to breathe, to turn inward. Life can bring us this, yet, also, we can bring ourselves to life with an intention to give ourselves the love that we have been giving others and to connect with ourselves and parts of us in much deeper and meaningful ways.
Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and writer of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.Β
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