The Covid Generation

What must it be like to be a child/teenager/young adult in this maddening world we are staring at? There is a whole generation of youth that are being altered, or altared, by the force of our own collective insanity. 

It deeply disturbs and angers me that the external symbol of our own inner innocence is at the dictate of a collective adulthood that has made such a mess of this planet. I know there are so many parents that are beside themselves with frustration, rage, and disbelief that any of this is happening all in the perverted notion of ‘protecting’ them. 

They are a casualty of a war that has been waging for a long time. A disintegrity gap more than a generational gap. If we were more attuned to our own innocence and well-being, we as adults would find that our humanity is inextricably linked to theirs. Just as we have cut ourself off from Nature, we have cut ourselves off from our Youth. 

I have not been the parent/guardian of a school-aged child for some time now as mine is finding her way in her mid-20s. Yet, I feel regardless of our parental experiences and circumstances we are all a part of that collective guardianship and leadership. We have to step up and wake up to the ways in which we as adults have both fought for and failed the upcoming leaders of this civilization. 

What kind of world we wish to live in is inherent in how we treat and lead ourselves and thus our youth. It is about connecting to the child/teenager within to sense how they would feel about living in today’s world. What would they want/need us to be and do to bring about the kind of works they would want to live in that is not rooted in the prefabricated world of media, politics, and technology? 

I would love to hear what life has been like for your children as they have navigated this past year and a half. It would be a way for me and those that read it to connect to this vulnerable and precious part of our human family. Thanks in advance for sharing whatever you feel to. I will do my best to respond to all those that share. 

Much love to all as we keep making our way back to the Love we are all born from.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Clarity Tunnel Of The Summer SOULstice

We have been heading into a clarity stream since the Spring Equinox. You may have been experiencing some deep purges and movements lately that are making way for a more defined and refined awareness of who you are and what you are meant to do Here Now.

This Solar energy is narrowing like a funnel into a very specific frequency. When that occurs, Shift Happens. It is very much a death and rebirth time. That which you may have considered as ‘the way things are’ are being shaken up and reconsidered. Relationships, geography, politics, travel, perspectives, and normalcy are all coming into a reboot and reconfiguration.

Divine Masculine solar energy is stirring shit up and clearing it up. No longer can you afford to stay stuck in old patterns, both internal and external. There is an energy stream that is calling to each of us to trust and surrender to. It is asking us to let go of what was in order to let in what IS, whatever the means to you in your deepest truth and guidance.

This may activate differently in different people with different perspectives. This will create a coming together and a moving apart both. It is like a spiritual enzyme that catalyses this reconfiguration. It starts inside of you and then makes its way to the outside through choice and serendipitous circumstance.

How we navigate this energetic ‘slip-and-slide’ is mitigated by feeling all the parts of us in both excitement and in reaction. Feel the polarities and dissonances that still exist within. Holding and bridging to these parts of you with a Divine Self ‘I’ is what brings the choice points into view and into clarity.

What is it YOU truly feel you are being guided to embody and serve in this volatile time we live in?

What are you realizing you may need to let go of in order to make that happen?

What are the fears and doubts? What parts of you hold those?

There is self-loving way to navigate all of that. One step at a time even as it may seem like there is an urgency. While there is an urgency that exists, haste makes suffering. It comes from fear and not from Love. While these Solar energies are high, they are also coming from a grounded and compassionate need for change and growth. Not always easy and usually very challenging, but not insane.

I am finding another layer of clarity myself in what I am here to Be and Do on this planet at this time. More of that to come. Today I felt to share my personal perspective on the coming SOULstice and how it may be effecting, altering, or clarifying your course.

If you are needing support and guidance during these times please don’t hesitate to reach out. My beloved Kasha and I offer free Intro calls for those that are curious how SoulFullHeart may help. You can DM me or visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

May this SOULstice bring you closer to what it is you are truly meant to be serving in this world today, as well as the healing you may need to get there.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

From Stone Circle To Crop Circle: Messages & Seeds Of Divine trust & Ongoing Support

by Kasha Rokshana

On Monday, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and I set out for our second visit to Avebury Henge, the largest ancient stone circle in the EU, which we had been planning for a while. We had planned an overnight trip together so that we could take our time at Avebury and then see what arose for the next day. None of us were very clear on what we wanted to do or were being guided to see, we just felt that Avebury had more magic to offer us since our very first trip there at the beginning of our time in the UK.

Avebury

Well, it turned out to be a major gateway into the new for us… the deepening invitation into Divine alignment and trust as we make our way into our next phase in Portugal. It was sweet, tender, comforting, and grounding to touch the stones… not so activating as it was the very first time we visited. We are more calibrated to these lands now, it seems, and we’ve definitely gotten the soul discoveries, awakenings, and healing experiences that we came here for and to serve love from.

On Tuesday we were on our way to what we thought would be our next destination visiting Uffington and the White Horse etched into the hill there… but then came an intuition from Jelelle to check out Crop Circle Connector. We had been hoping and praying that since we were staying where crop circles usually show up this time of year, we would be able to go to one while in the area… well, as soon as I checked online, there was a crop circle waiting for us about 34min from where we were! It felt surreal at first, yet the reality of the adventure, the brand new experience, set in quickly and everything inside of me felt excited and ready.

Shaw Hill Crop Circle – the one we visited

Finding the coordinates for the circle took a bit of effort, and when I did finally find them, there was a tiny ache of doubt in my heart that they would work out in the end. Even though they seemed ‘verified’, there was a small fear that for us, for some reason, they wouldn’t work, and the magical experience that we all wanted to claim wouldn’t come true.

Well, that’s sort of been my experience of life lately, even though I’ve had such deep trust in the Divine and in life that has truly led me through many challenges and into very new experiences, synchronicities, and a magical rediscovery of my very own soul. So much tension has had to move through my physical body, manifesting in pain that had me in tears. Completely locked up were my muscles, fascia, joints. I’ve very consciously been holding this process of moving from tension into trust… a trust that has to go deeper than ever, as the unknowns of living in the growing intensity of peaking global fear and reactivity as the Matrix continues its collapse needs to be navigated.

I felt my Star Seed all lit up though as we entered the field, and I knew she knew that our connection to Star/Inner Earth Mu family would lead us to it, even when doubts would creep in.

I eventually started walking directly behind Raphael who I could feel had a strong intuition he was following on where to go. I could feel my god-baby self toddling along behind his, ready to discover magic. Sure enough and soon enough, we arrived… and that feeling was like a WOOSH of energy passing over the body! Relief, validation, and a reminder that trust and intuition are key, all waved through and over me at once.

The gently lain crop looked like ocean waves and rivulets rolling through in perfect harmony. They were bent but not broken. An outer will had been applied to them, but they had collaborated and not fought against it. Harmony, yes, that’s a great way to describe their energy.

When we entered the centre point, there was a toroidal, spiraling pattern created by the gently bent crop. It culminated in the absolute centre where the energy was strongest. We all paused to sit in a circle around it and feel what we were being offered in the moment. My Inner Earth Lemurian aspect, Myren, came forward with a message to share about the sweetness and innocence of desire for magic and the trust that actually can feel quite natural. Trusting the guidance while also taking care of yourself, feeling yourself, along the way.

Crop Circle glow!

I felt her and my Star Family, especially the Pleaidians who it feels like helped create this circle, validating the experience of doubt and tension along this ongoing journey of unplugging from the Matrix we were born into and are meant to help collapse with love. I felt them honouring the leap-of-faith that is required to remain here on this planet while also reaching for the higher-dimensional experiences we also need to continually let in. I felt how much love and support we are all being offered, always, and how they leave these works of art as a transmission and reminder of that ongoing support.

It’s comforting to feel that, isn’t it?

I feel all of this and so much more still integrating from the experience… the codes offered by such a creation are both subtle and obvious, as they go into us on so many levels at once! It feels as if they offer us all such personal messages that we need to hear and feel, yet also they offer such global and collective ones that can be interpreted in many different ways.

We have access to such healing and love, and we have only to ask for the support to help us let it in as it seeds something new from deep within us that can only grow, bloom, and spread with proper care.

Love to you, with you, always…
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Amassador’s Journey And The Lover’s Quest

Lately I have been going over some prior work we all did around 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness and how they relate to different areas of life. I felt like I was seeing it with new eyes and a renewed interest and passion to bring it back into my own personal awareness as well as use it as a map for those that I work with. 

As with all maps, they don’t represent the territory but they do offer a context for understanding and a check for resonance. My mental body and more masculine parts love maps, yet it is my heart and my feminine that love the story and the experience that the journey provides. With a new global backdrop in place since this was created, I find it valuable to address as a way through these volatile times. 

Our 3D consciousness is more rooted in the machine of the Matrix itself. It has its values and its levers and pulleys to make it ‘work’ in a certain way. It has its own boundaries and rules that it lives by. It is dependent on the basic senses and on reason and logic. It is not sentimental yet has function. It is what we were born into as the overall collective agreement. 

However, we were not just born into a heartless machine. There has always been a 4D consciousness that pervades the fabric of 3D. It has shown up in religion, spirituality, political movements, art, music, and philosophy. It seeks to question and even undermine the 3D machine. It has its prophets and its warriors, as well as its light and its dark. 

To me 4D has been a bit of a quagmire and a catalyst for change. I have felt it has a bridge between worlds. A purgatory in a way. In this sea of quest and questioning, there can be the experience of profound awakening as well as suffering when caught in its swirl. It is where I feel the bulk of the world finds itself, struggling to find a sense of peace and clarity. 

This is the territory where you hear about the ‘bifurcation’. It is where one feels themselves, along with others, in a dimension that is different from those they have been around for years. There is a lot of pain and reaction here. The pandemic and its Matrix response has illuminated a lot in the relationships between people, friends, and family. 

This is where the ‘warriors’ and the ‘logicians’ find their niche. Spirituality is divided into camps as well. It can feel as if there is a ‘Balkanization’ happening in this dimension. Tribes searching for like-minds, like-hearts, and like-souls. It is where confusion comes to look for clarity and gets stuck in its web. 

I have spent much time in this dimension and have learned many lessons and found many gifts. The same holds for 3D as well. There is nothing inherently ‘bad’ about them. It is how parts of us have related to them that has created the suffering. They are experiential learning grounds that we can choose to learn from and apply into something new. 

This next frontier of 5D is one that I am looking to embody and inhabit in a more consistent way. This may be judged as bypassing, and that is okay. I have been dedicated to going into my shadow and my emotional body for some time. I know what I have been through and what I have yet to learn. It is not about ignoring the ills and pains of the world, but rather embodying the Light and the Love that exists in the Universe and beaconing and serving it to those that are drawn to it. Not just to make a dollar but to make a difference. 

It is about being an ambassador to the very Matrix we are all trying to be free of. By being in battle with it we continue to be entangled in it. I fully believe it wants out of this dance just as much as we do. It seeks to be seen and felt just as we do. It has had a role and a reason. From a more 5D place we may see that more clearly with more compassion and understanding. This to me is what shifts our waking reality. Our choice to stay anchored in Love and to give fear its rightful place as a guide and not a dictator. 

This is the Ambassador’s Journey. The Lover’s Quest. The need to embody grace and courage is on high for each of us. It is a process and an initiation. I am being invited to become that more and more each day. I believe the world needs more of us. The map is easy. The territory is the hard part but doable with support. I will continue to write more about this to serve and to call to those that it aligns with. 

May your heart and soul guide you to the shores of what is most real and desired to help illuminate the Golden Earth within.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Process Of Shifting Dimensions And Transitioning Into The New

Moving into The New can feel like trying to breathe underwater to a part of us. The Old is conditioned and even comfortable to these parts. To truly move into a new dimension of Being takes courage, trust, and faith.
Conscious shifts are empowering as well as frightening to the part of us so identified with what has always been ‘true’. We have to work to allow the New True to take root and bloom.

I feel my consciousness on the verge of more expansion and my heart on the precipice of more vulnerability. These go hand in hand. There is a continuing journey of unplugging from the False Matrix and leaning into the womb and bosom of the Mother and the inspiration and guidance of the true Father.

As I connect more to Inner Earth Lemurian consciousness and support, I feel the difficulty it is for our more 3D/4D aspects to let go of all they have known in their worlds. It is like telling them to just breathe underwater without learning how to do so.

Yet, this ‘learning’ is not so much mental as it is emotional for them. There is fear and doubt there that needs tending to. It needs our ongoing attention and holding, not unlike being a death and birth doula. The ultimate doula is the Divine Itself and our Divine Self offshoot. It also includes those aspects of our ‘future’ or Now selves such as Inner Earth and Galactic aspects that we are intimately connected to.

The ‘pandemic’ has highlighted so much for so many of us around the need to keep rising and keep expanding beyond the dystopian novel being written. It has really made the nest prickly for us to find our wings…and our ability to breathe underwater.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Words No Longer Enough As Our Throat Chakras Upgrade

By Kasha Rokshana

In this 5 month… I feel so much stirring in communication, in the 5th/Throat Chakra.

Communication through words is becoming more challenging and this feels necessary as the mind lets in that there’s far more going on than maybe you’ve realized or than is actually being talked about openly. It’s also becoming challenging as the world awakens, to cover up the true intention and energy behind the words being offered. “Finding the right words” was never really that easy to begin with, as words are really so limiting, and yet it’s become even more challenging as there is so much emotion and reaction moving through the planet, that our words alone are no longer enough to quell or heal or answer any of it.

I feel the stirring of this question as I feel all of this today;

What would happen if we all were silent for a day?

If the world could only hum its presence and the media could use no words?

What would happen if, instead of conversing and convincing, we chose instead to pause, to remain silent together?

To take the space to FEEL together?

To actually feel fears and the parts of us that hold them, and not act or react on behalf of them… to feel the heartbreak of a thousand lifetimes on this planet and others, witnessing the same growth edges, choice points, and soul turns that haven’t been truly made… yet.

All of the din of influencing and being influenced, of facts and figures, of debates and arguments, of words of love that don’t match the energy and true intention of the ones speaking them… mutes the heart, dulls intuition, dims the soul, and leads instead with a wordy brilliance learned through survival and often a need for manipulation too.

If you chose to be silent for one full day, your heart may begin to open more and your world may start to change from the inside out. If the whole world went silent for one full day, it just might begin to see itself differently, it just might begin to open up to the bigger picture of what its going through, and it just might start to heal, with ownership, all that it’s been a part of co-creating which we are individually responsible for as well.

The Divine hand, even as it stirs all it does on our journey of Ascension, offers us that we will always be felt, whether we are feeling or not. We will always be held, whether parts of us feel they can lean in or not.

And we will always be heard… whether we are silent or not.

Our communication/5th Chakra upgrades this month and beyond may feel like a downgrade in moments… yet being rendered silent for the sake of pure feeling to live in us again, is actually a way to heal even deeper than we’ve ever imagined before. All times in which I’ve experienced this and held space for others in this, magic happens and a door opens within when feeling is not explained but felt instead, and the Divine is let in through your broken-open heart.

Love, Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

From Self-Created Smallness To Embodying Your Vastness

The pain can come from being small. From learning to act small and conform to the smallness around you. The suffering comes from their projection of smallness onto you and the acceptance of this that then becomes your reality….and theirs too. It is a co-created agreement to be and remain in smallness.

The smallness is the 3D agreement of filtering. It makes up the veil of amnesia and the belief in it keeps the veil in place. The pain comes from the long term fusion to this sense of smallness as the truth of who you are. It comes from the forgetting of the truth of your VASTNESS.

Parts of you form to support this smallness picture. These parts of you repeat the message of it over and over in self punishing tones and voices. The unworthiness message battles your body, your emotions, your spirituality, your choices….whatever can be picked on or is vulnerable to attack.

This punishing frequency forms layers of protection and guardedness over your innocence. Your innocence becomes covered over with shame and feelings of wrongness. Your trust in life and yourself gets layered over with distrust. Your sense of goodness about yourself becomes buried over with unworthiness and self hate.

These parts of you feel then that they ARE unworthy, are shameful, are wrong by their very nature. So much suffering in this usually unconscious looping of the punisher part and the corresponding reactions of shame in the younger parts of you. This is a well oiled and fuelled system inside designed to keep you small, created to cap your growth, and reinforced to maintain itself. It is designed to keep you protected, even if it is limiting.

There is not some evil force of aliens or demons or negative entities or abusive spiritual teacher that keep this personal hell in manifest form from within you. This is not being done to you BY others, even as it can very much feel that way. The others in your life that reflect and reinforce this smallness picture are there only to offer you a reflection of this inner polarized state for it continue to come into your awareness….over and over again if necessary until you wake to it as being sourced from INSIDE of you.

This is a self created smallness that your soul chose for good reason….until it is the time and phase to complete it. Only you can realize when that time is and only you can end it.

You end it by bringing love to all the parts of you that have felt so unworthy, including the parts of you that punish, judge, attack, and shame you and others. You separate from these parts in order to have a relationship with them and not just become them in their routinized reactions.

This creates an increasing sense of your goodness, of your worthiness and….of your vastness. This inner ambassadorship to all frequencies inside of your BEing connects you to the truth of your bigness again. To your innate goodness again. To your innocence again.

Who ARE you? You ARE Infinite Love in human form….arising into your bigness expression for the service of and because of love. Any picture less than that is ripe to be loved into this infinite love realized manifestation state again.

Welcome back to the VASTNESS of you….love can show the way!! ~

Message from the Divine, Star Family Guides/Aspects, Angelic Aspects, ALL of your parts that ache for something NEW that is based in love……..

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Jelelle Awen is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Surrendering To Our Sovereign Relationship To Love

The words ‘sovereignty‘ and ‘surrender‘ can be quite the portals for the masculine in us all. They are especially highlighted in relationships of all kinds. In the ongoing journey of healing my intimacy wounds, I have come to these gateways many times. Who is this ‘me’ in the we of intimate relationship? How do I maintain my own truth, needs, and desires without feeling like I am acquiescing or submitting to someone else’s truth, needs, and desires?

Before I left California 8 years ago, I lived a life that would be defined as ‘sovereign’. I was not in many relationships after my divorce, and when I was, sovereignty was a big trigger as well as commitment. Inside there was a part of me that wanted his cake and eat it too. That old wounded masculine conditioned standard. Intimacy was more about sex and having a good time rather than getting to the bare bones of my heart-truth and my deeper needs as human man.

Then I found myself in a sacred, conscious romance as well as sacred, conscious community. Those flared up that ‘sovereignty gene’ I want to call it. That switch that says, “Oh, woah! Wait! Time-out. What is going on here? I am I giving away something that I cherish for the sake of something that I am not familiar with?”. The question was, what was it that a part of me cherished and what was it not familiar with?

At the core, I found that a part of me cherished non-vulnerability and wasn’t familiar with vulnerability. Even deeper, I realized it was an existential fear of Love that was at the root of it all. When I felt the ‘me’ that was independent, sovereign, and non-vulnerable, I found a man that was lost, unhappy, and alone. Only he wasn’t able to admit that at the time. With anyone.

As men (or the masculine in women), we can so very much defend our sovereignty at the cost of real Love. That somehow Love and Sovereignty are separate and adversarial. I feel our relationship to our mothers as a pivotal piece to this equation. They represent that from which we were born from. We received love in one form or another and then we needed to break away from that to find our individuation. Our authentic manhood that needed to push away, but more healthfully could have been initiated into it by a more conscious mother and father energy.

If we did not have that, and I would say most if not all of us did, then we are continually in this push-pull relationship to Other. To Love. To Intimacy. Surrender becomes more ‘submission’ than an opening into vulnerability which is all done with our sovereignty intact. We actually can never lose our sovereignty. We are born free, yet have been convinced we are in chains. When you see those chains are really about our fear of Love and our deep separation wound, you start to unhook those chains one by one.

This is a deep soul choice to heal this wound. It is not an easy one. It brings up a lot to witness and feel. A lot to be sober about in our shadow. Yet, it also brings in a new sense of freedom. A freedom to Be. To express. To surrender into without losing ourselves, but rather re-membering ourselves. It offers Love beyond what we had been conditioned and wounded into believing is love. This is the sovereign journey back into true surrender and true power. The power of conscious Love.



Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call this Saturday at 5pm BST via Zoom. We will be talking about these topics as well as offering a guided meditation and sharing space. You can go to soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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