Choosing Resonance & Soul Family Through Choosing Yourself

by Kasha Rokshana

United in vision, resonant in desires, collaborative in lifestyle, catalytic in relationship, loving over all…

This is what it means to be with true soul family in my experience of it, where nothing real is transcended and is deeply felt instead, the intensity of offering mirrors to each other is not abusive, and the LOVE holding us in a sacred bubble while we deepen our purity within and together is palpable.

So many holiday seasons did I spend in disconnect with those around me, namely birth family. There were joys and there was abundance, more so than for many others, but the tensions were never addressed or deeply felt, just allowed to grow into a huge SNAP and subsequent unleashing onto one another. Fur flew, our mouths breathing fire in unfair judgments while chaos ensued, yet not ever resolve. I don’t remember much resolution in the space, only someone giving in sooner or later and often out of fear of truly leaving the picture and choosing aloneness for a phase.

I was especially fiery at times, parts/aspects of me furious that family members weren’t also awakening, that they weren’t really listening, and that I was still being treated like the ‘kid’ of the family on top of it all. The holidays were a mix, especially beyond 14 years old when my spirituality was evolving beyond the Catholic sphere and indoctrination of my childhood and I was also learning so much about myself. My awakening was both inward and outward and it was a lot to try and reconcile.

It has taken some time to be able to let in the soul family connections and intimacy that I have now, as over the last decade since meeting Raphael and Jelelle, I’ve had to feel parts of me who projected so easily onto them and other soul family members the same reality I was born into. These projections were necessary though. We can’t feel the pain that’s surfacing when parts of us project if we don’t, in a way, allow space for it to happen.

This process also created a way to feel the stark contrast between what I was born into and what my soul was choosing now… a much more sovereign journey, an empowerment from the heart, and a willingness to feel what’s at stake in these deeper intimacies in my life at all times… that they are a lot to lose and indeed I’ve had to let go of them a few times to sort out so much inside. I did this willingly in order to come back into the room with much more appreciation, more maturity and readiness, and deeper surrender to the love between us as well which is always purifying itself and each of us too.

This holiday season especially feels like a poignant one as dissonances become amplified and thus, so does the fighting, the trying to be heard, the needing to be right, and the desires to ultimately be with those who resonate, which can be quite painful as that ache intensifies.

I feel you, those of you who are on the brink of making a choice… to stay with birth family or even to stay alone as the Lone Wolf inside you may prefer, or to choose to pursue the journey of drawing soul family resonance and intimacy. It’s really the same journey if you’ve been in a dissonant romance as well yet ache to be with the man/woman that would truly be in your frequency bandwidth… and it’s all so challenging, especially this time of year too, for many.

My soul family of SoulFullHeart, along with our many parts and soul aspects we’ve met over the years, are here as but one option of where this desire for resonance and unity may take you. The doorway is 1:1 sessions yet also by-donation group calls on Zoom. If you’re curious to find out more, visit soulfullheart.org – our online expression of who we are and what we’re here to offer and become more and more every day.

Raphael and Jelelle will be offering a group call next Sunday, Dec 11, that will focus on the Christ Magdalene portal of 12/12. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events 🌹

From my ever-awakening heart to yours,
Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Inner Daughter Process Of Feeling Claimed & Loved

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, we all want to be chosen, claimed, initiated, and above all, deeply loved.

Even if parts of us feel scorned and in pain and claim this is NOT the case… underneath the denial of these desires is the ache for more than what they’ve been given and for an answer to all they’ve felt unworthy of receiving, let alone dreaming of.

As women, we don’t just experience these desires in our ache for a masculine mate to meet us there. We also feel these desires in our ache to be claimed by our caregivers, authority figures, and most importantly, our mothers and fathers. 

Many of us did experience some kind of claim by our parents or guardians, yet it was so often mixed in with their own pain living in parts of them, of not being met in their own desires to be claimed by those who parented them. Or it was altogether an experience of being left abused, confused, neglected.

We weren’t shown that our aches could be met, or taught how to answer them within ourselves, or especially taught that these aches are really about a desire to return to a feeling of being claimed deeply by the Divine, as the sacred daughters we are… which our souls SO remember the experience of. 

Such sacred daughters are we in fact, that we have nothing to prove to earn this claiming. We have nothing to change about ourselves to be embraced by our Divine Parents. We have mirrors to look into, but with support and care, and those parts of us who have denied themselves access to true love can be felt as this process is offered us by our Divine Parents. 

Yet… our birth parents have often had no way to show us this, to overflow from their own realizations and embodiment of this truth. Instead, they overflow to us their embodied self-criticisms, their sense of unworthiness, their fears, and their longings that have never truly been answered.

Divine Mother especially has been so important for me to bring my parts to who have felt these missing pieces, these pains of not being truly claimed as a feminine daughter. Under Her loving gaze and in Her loving arms I feel the puzzle come together, the cob-webbed corners of my soul and gifts swept up and rediscovered in due time, the nectar of nourishment that only She can provide, even during the darkest times. 

Sometimes, She presses into my wounded places, bringing waves of intense inner processing with parts and soul aspects as I venture back into my shadowland to retrieve another long lost diamond. At other times, the intensity is dialed down and the love waves and balms are much easier to feel and let in. The Kundalini rushes up from the base of my spine and I feel at home in myself, in my feminine body, all in Her midst. I feel inspired, enlivened, and whole. I feel more solid in my reasons for being here, no matter the adversity, and I feel supported to keep FEELING it ALL.

Divine Father has been so vital to my sacred daughter inside as well, in order to feel a template of mateship claim on top of being claimed as a daughter. His arms have held my heart and my parts through so many difficult phases and His hands have guided me through some intense periods of awakening. His support of my feminine spine has been just as important as Mother’s, as has his watering of my feminine heart.

My Inner Daughter process has been vast, deep, and involved the necessary movement out of relationship with my own birth parents and family. It’s been necessary to let go of other forms of the ‘false mother and father’ as well and to get very real about what is most nourishing for this essence within me and what simply isn’t. This is one of the most challenging truths to realize and reconcile with, as it can be a lonely road. Yet the void is filled up by the Divine when and if you and you parts feel ready to let in that energy and level of claim. 

✨Join me and Jelelle Awen as we explore the Inner Daughter connection and deepening process in a group call for women this coming Sunday, Nov 27 at 5pm WEST (Lisbon/London), 12pm EST. ✨

You can find more info here. It’s by donation to join us or receive the recording and you can donate via our shop or PayPal.

Looking forward to having you there with us if you do feel to join and explore this precious process for yourself.

Love,

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Quest Into The Dark

A part of us has created a safe space, a known space, even if what is known is suffering. The light and warmth of this space keeps him there. Anchored to the perimeter of its glow. Yet, from time to time, or maybe all the time, a voice calls out from the darkness, from the Shadow. 

It may start off small but then grows in intensity. How that shows up for each of us is different. It may be a physical message, a mental chatter, or an emotional surge. Whatever the case, it is calling to us to enter the forgotten, the repressed, and the hidden. 

The Quest into our shadowlands is our quest for the Holy Grail of our Truth, Authenticity, and Vulnerability. It is a different kind of lightless fire that forges something long cast aside. Something we had only dreamed of or desired while staring into the fire of our comfort or suffering. 

There is a whole world in that darkness. A world we are being called to light the flames of once again. A world that holds us responsible for its tending and expansion. A new order that is created by facing our fears, our needs, our pain, and our passion. 

Along the way, we confront and meet the parts and aspects of us that have been living in these hinterlands, not so far from the edge of our campfire. As we meet and hold space for their healing and integration, we are ready for whatever comes next in the time and pace it is meant to. We are not hunting in the shadow, we are calling out to it with care and curiosity. If we are on the offense, they will be on the defense. 

With each new connection and healing a bond is formed inside that had been severed. An extension of the old fire is created and the expansion of the inner kingdom is claimed. We become ambassadors to our Shadow and the Darkness within, then the benevolent king of their new world that is encased in the SoulFire. 

The journey begins by our desire, need, and call to be the most authentic and divinely aligned version of ourselves. Only then will we experience true sovereignty of this human incarnation. We chose this, so let’s claim it. Shadow and All.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/soulfire for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Allowing the Waves of Grief

By Raianna Shai

Grief is a much bigger part of our lives and our emotional bodies than I think we realize. We don’t just grieve passed loved ones or the end of relationships. We grieve old versions of ourselves, nostalgic places, past habits, other lifetimes, the state of the world – really anything that is coming to an end. It’s also one of the most complicated and pushed away emotions we can have as humans.

It’s deep, existential, nonlinear and shows up when we least expect it. Everyone I know who has experienced the deepest versions of grief have described it as coming in waves. It crashes over you and suddenly you feel like you’re drowning. One day you’re the happiest you’ve been in a long time and the next you’re weighed down with an intense heaviness.

I know that grief is not exactly easy to feel but I also know what happens when it’s left unfelt. It harms us in our physically bodies through different aches and illnesses, it causes us to push down any emotion that comes up in fear that it will uncap all of the unfelt grief we’ve left bottled up and it can keep us from connecting to the deeper parts of ourselves that are beyond the grief.

Grief is deep but it does have another side. It is tender, real and honest. It shows us what we really care about and where our deepest fears and desires lie. It shows us so much truth and if truly allowed to come to the surface when it needs to – it can help us love deeper, trust more easily and stay current with every new emotion.

This has been the biggest emotion that I’ve felt this last month and though it’s been painful, it’s also taught me so much about myself and all the varied and important parts of me. It’s shown me that I can feel 50 emotions in one breath, 100 thoughts in each tear that falls from my eyes, a depth so vast it feels like I’ll never feel anything else.

And then I do. I keep moving, keep feeling, keep letting myself dive into this well of despair and come back out feeling even closer to these parts inside of me. Letting go of every hope and dream I’ve had and making way for new ones. In allowing these feelings to surface, I’m telling these parts of me that they are valid, real and loved. And that is where the healing really happens.

Pictured is me feeling real grief during a recent group circle with SoulFullHeart. The community support and love was huge for allowing myself to go to these depths

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Courageous Journey Back To The Heart

Our Hearts and Souls want to come Home.
Home to our truth
Home to our passion
Home to our gifts
Home to our Love


They want to come Home
Into embodiment
Into alignment
Into expression
Into Union


Our Hearts and Souls have been out on a mission.
A mission of the experience of separation
A mission of forgetting in order to remember
A mission of hiding, seeking, and finding
A mission of contraction and expansion


It is time to bring those fractured and
forgotten selves Home.
Those parts left in trauma and woundedness
Those aspects left in soul loops
Those wisdoms we have collected along the way
Those elements that make up our Essence


We don’t need to ‘go home’
We want to Come Home
The home on the inside
Home to the Eternal
Home to the Primal
Home to the Human
Home to the Divine Within


The journey Home is a journey back to You
Who you really are beyond the conditioning
Beyond the trauma
Beyond the fear
Beyond the suffering


The journey back to Love
Back to surrender
Back to Creation
Back to true freedom


It is not an easy journey
For we have lots to feel and heal
Lots to take responsibility for
And lots to forgive
These are our steps back Home
The Home of the Heart and of the Soul
Inside this human body.

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Painting by Autumn Skye ART
*I edited the original for this post. I invite you to visit her page for the full version. It has more to say about the masculine journey back Home.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Loving Your Feminine Body With Mary Magdalene: Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series (Video) | Kasha Rokshana

Bombarded with messages, even within spirituality today, about what our bodies ‘should’ look like, parts of us can be left so confused and in such suffering over our physical bodies. Add into the mix the natural changes our bodies go through physically, even in different phases of our awakening and Ascension journeys which are very personal to each of us, and we have the potential to feel more pain than pleasure, let alone actually honouring our body-vessels.

In this video by SoulFullHeart women’s Facilitator/Teacher, Kasha Rokshana, you’re invited to feel into your relationship with your own body and how parts of you have related to it as well. With the support of Mary Magdalene as a sacred feminine guide and teacher, you will be invited into a guided meditation/transmission experience of feeling her love and encouragement in your on ongoing process. Kasha also shares about her own process with what we call ‘Love Body’ in SoulFullHeart, which is the inhabitation of and love for your body as you feel parts of you who may judge it.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Welcoming In Your Sacred Inner Homecoming

by Kasha Rokshana

Through being born into this Matrix, we are taught to be concerned, always, with the opinions that surround us. We end up scattered, shattered, divided inside. This division has created ‘parts’ that formed in response to this mandate to always look outside of us for answers, for the modeling of ‘best behaviours’, for learning how to be compliant or even how to rebel properly, and certainly for any sense of ‘home’, belonging, or reconnection with the Divine. 

It has been such a huge part of my personal process over this last decade to truly bring ALL of that back inward, to follow the threads of pain that have led to parts of me, and to then untangle those threads from other parts and find integration over time. These pain threads have been complex, not straight forward, and also have been co-created and maintained by outer relationships, jobs, etc. They have also been tugged on and at times entangled with the threads within others and their own parts, making the sorting out a process of what’s mine and what’s someone else’s quite messy in moments. 

The only way I’ve been able to deeply address and heal the pain and parts has been by bringing them back inward, to my own heart, to the home/nest I’ve been creating and cultivating there for so long, which now also overflows to others in 1:1 sessions as I hold space for other women’s own parts to come forward and their own inner ‘homes’ to be created.

There is always an invitation to create this inner heart and soul home inside of you and so much support being offered for that from the Divine within you, from your Metasoul aspects, from Star Family, even from all the beings in your inner world also known as ‘parts of you’ – though many of them may have a really hard time letting in that this home within is even possible at first, as they’ve had to have so much outer focus for so long. 

The codes of Homecoming that are steaming in these days are an opportunity to re-code what it means to truly take care of yourself, your body, your emotional and spiritual realities, and not only within you… they are also supporting you to draw to you those resonant relationships you’ve maybe only dreamed of, or only experienced virtually so far. If there’s a resistance or reluctance in your heart toward truly embracing your beloved online relationships in the physical, there are very likely some parts of you that feel afraid perhaps of the cost to your life as you’ve known it… for nothing ever changes us like letting love in, especially love for ourselves and especially, also, saying ‘yes’ to love’s flow as it moves between us and others in ways unpredictable. 

My beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading a group call this coming Sunday, Oct 16th, that will be focused on these Homecoming Codes – letting them in, feeling what they mean for you personally, and connecting to your inner ‘home’ in a deepening way. The call will be by donation as always, and held over Zoom. If you’d like more info, visit soulfullheart.org/events

So much love to you and with you as you feel into these Homecoming Codes and what they mean to you at this time!

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Healing Of The ‘Matrix Masculine’

This past Equinox gathering of hearts and souls pushed up a lot for me that has roots deep in my soul. I also felt how it was connected to the collective as well. When that happens it can be a lot to sort and move through. Yet, this is why I am here. This is why my soul has guided me to be a part of an intimate community so that I can feel and heal what needs feeling and healing on a personal level, which in turn makes waves in the quantum world. 

After the completion of my sacred union relationship with Kasha, I found myself in a ‘doing’ mode that seemed to put a wall around my deeper grief. I have had tender moments of loss and remorse, but it was made clear that a part of me had a strategy to ‘avoid the void’ of the deeper grief that lives inside. There is a great separation wound that exists inside that I have skirted the edges of, thinking I have met it fully, when in fact I have been swimming in the shallow end of the pool to some degree. 

This is not a prescription for me to dive into the deep end willy-nilly, but rather to be aware of the territory and let it arise in its due course. My soul will know when I am ready. Alongside the Sacred Grief, there was also another layer of inadequacy and unworth that came into my field with the acknowledged strategy of avoidance. This is tricky as I felt it in an inner masculine aspect of myself that I have worked with for a long time. He represents so much of my own personal masculine as well as a connection to what I have felt as the ‘Matrix Masculine’. 

This aspect was born/constructed from the womb of the False Mother/Father matrix we are all a part of to some degree or another. He has been wrapped up in it like a fly caught in a spider’s web. At times, he is motivated to fight against it, find freedom from it, or learn to master it. Either way there is still a relationship to it that is at odds. The history of being stuck in this loop has created a deep seed of suffering, grief, shame, and feeling lost. He has been separated from his own feminine counterpart on the inside which exacerbates the condition. 

I was shown this disconnect from my own inner feminine part as well as from my own Divine Essence or Self. It was an illumination of the wounding within the Holy Trinity of Self-to-Self, Self-to-Other, and Self-to-Divine. This masculine part of me, named Marcus, is at the hub of this. He represents so much of my power, truth, and vision. He also represents the pain, the pressure, and the punishment. 

Beside the disconnect from my inner feminine there is also one with my inner child and him. He has forgotten the art of play and the presence of innocent joy that it brings. The reconnection of all three feels like another Holy Trinity of masculine, feminine, and innocence. When we as men can have contact with all three in a sacred dance and flow, we have found ourselves on a new strata of personal experience of the world we live in. 

This compartmentalization happened for protective reasons as well as wounded ones. It is now bringing these aspects of me back into the same room and starting the healing and reunion process. I also feel a need for my beloved wounded masculine to be seen and felt as the Divine Son that he is rather than the Lost Son. That is an ongoing process that will take time as reintegration and ascension does. 

On the integrated side of the journey, it opens up more of my divine masculine heart to be in love with myself and those close to me. It opens up my trust and leadership as well as my creativity and play. It offers me a new timeline of what it means to be a human man merging again with Spirit and Source. With the Shadow and the Light. 

Thanks for taking this all in as I hope it gives a doorway into this process for others that feel a resonance with what I continue to work with inside of myself as a man in a very intimate community and healing process.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Safe Haven Within: Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series (Video)

In an outer world that can feel so unsafe with all that’s shaking out in the Matrix, in personal relationships, and even in spiritual circles/communities, the place you have the opportunity to cultivate true safety is within your inner world. From that place inside, you can find the clarity and guidance necessary in order to make the choices for cultivating an outer reality and relationships that better match those frequencies.

In this video from the Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator/Teacher, Kasha Rokshana, leads you in a guided meditation to feel this inner ‘Safe Haven’ where you and your parts/aspects can find rest and recovery, but most importantly, a place of safety where they and you can feel held by the Divine and within your sacred womb. 

This video is a part of an ongoing series of guided meditations which you can do in any order you feel. Here is the full playlist.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

What Lies Behind The ‘Normal’

This is an evening look outside our Airbnb window at a huge hotel complex, that reminds me of a docked cruise ship, in the evening here in Albufeira, Portugal, along with a morning scene from the beach, where Jelelle and I are so enjoying 5 days magical away.

People seem to be drawn back into taking vacations after the last two years of the plan – demic. A few precious souls can be found still wearing masks, but most are happy to continue on with the authorities ok to toss them for now, and then it feels like most people just want to conform socially, too.

I did! I wore a mask (always under my nose) in situations that I just wanted to barely comply so as to not draw attention and contention to myself. I get that others are called to be more of a resistance, albeit in a bigger play out of divine drama.

So it almost looks ‘normal’. And normal feels like a comfort for now, at least.

But behind the normal, one can feel a tension. I’ve enjoyed laying off the more alarmist news sources that I’ve been known to follow, and allow my frequency to move into a deeper layer of trust, but I still feel very curious about what’s playing out all around us now, as 3D goes through it’s necessary ascension, along with the 3D conditioning that lives in you and I, and the collective all around us.

Something profound is dying. But dying is not ceasing to exist, but rather energy being transmuted from one frequency of expression into another (and higher) frequency of expression. That is something all of our souls are yearning for.

So before we blame the powers that be and the elite for this dark agenda, we’re invited to see and feel where and how we are an inseparable part of it. It is your and my awakening souls that have yearned for this death and rebirth. Our souls have authorized and permitted the darkness to have its necessary role. The darkness will need reconciliation after it completes it dark deeds, and where will it find that, but in your and my opening heart.

We’re called to be ambassadors to the darkness, not to eradicate it, kill it, overcome it, or make it pay. There is that whole arena where these opposition energies are playing out, and this too is part of the death and rebirth unfolding.

But ultimately, we will come face to face with the darkest darkness and see a reconciliation point that we personally need if we are to make the transitions we want to make.

It’s a planned-demic for sure, but we all planned it!

If we planned it, we can also un-plan it! Reconciling our hearts to this higher ambassadorship to the darkness is where we get to live in our higher desired frequencies of light.

None of this higher perspective is in denial of the great loss of life and quality of life that is underway for so many right now. My heart is broken and finds it almost unfathomable to imagine what people are going through, losing loved ones suddenly and unexpectedly. We must feel it all, yes, but know that love and consciousness itself never invests a price so high without taking all of us into much higher places.

Life as we’ve known is not what is returning, but instead, life as we haven’t known it on a much higher level.

I feel so many abundance source codes here at the point where water meets land. People of all walks of life, and consciousness are drawn here to receive something, and I feel it’s a lot to do with the light that everyone of us is and are. The meeting of land and sea provides a portal that our souls are drawn to.

Radiating kindness to all souls you meet and exchange with us such a balm of the building trust within of this higher timeline, being in kindness, reminds you and those around you of being of the divine kind that we are.

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Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org