Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Nature’s Constant Support Of Us & Our Healing, Especially During These Escalated Times

by Kasha Rokshana

Nothing transforms you so effortlessly as nature/mama Gaia does… We’ve returned to Porto for about a week before heading back to camp full time and I feel like something core within me is shifting that I’ve been working to shift for years now, especially as I humbly walk out this transition.

I think what I was always craving was a return to nature in a deeper way, which is a return to my own nature. A way to feel what is natural for me and what has had to be ‘put on’. I’ve looked at so many layers of self-image and wanting to be ‘this’ or ‘that’ and especially seen/received as ‘this’ or ‘that’ over the last few years.

True confession… Aspects/parts of me have never really fully gotten over that and there’s still more work to do around it, yet I feel even more trust that the work continues even without me consciously realizing it. This is especially true as I continue to immerse in nature and respond to/template from her…

Nature lays naked before you and upgrades as she upturns. She turns herself inside out, moving her healing along in ways both attractive and unsightly, yet always with some underlying grace, pace, and love flow.
Nature moves onward, always. She is always changing. She is always moving with the times and not against them, though she will push back too if she has to. It’s up to you if you choose to roll along with her or continue to try and master or dominate her, just as parts of you have tried to do with themselves.

These last 9 days of being deeply immersed in nature with my beloved and my nearest and dearest companions, has awakened a ‘wild child’ within and also a deep, core sense of well-being in this intense world. Something is emerging that is much more aligned with nature and the natural self.

This is the place I want to serve from, from the true heart of my raw and earthy Priestess, emotional human woman, and sacred feminine embodiment in everything that means.

Because now more than ever, we need leaders who are willing to look into mirrors, find their hearts, be willing to be wrong, stand for the love and deep evolution/Ascension of humanity, and hang onto context so that we all have something to lean on.

I cannot stress enough the power of having your feet in a flowing river and putting your head under a (small) waterfall; the power of having dirt under your fingernails from raking and clearing your campsite, the insects that visit and others that seem to ‘invade’; the rawness that gets to emerge from you as you come to embrace and explore it all.

The bigness of the ‘you’ that emerges from these experiences that is indeed big enough to hold and respond to it all, to yourself, to those who are ready to hear and learn from you, and to those who are there to share life and love with you in an intimate and healing way… Is worth every moment of discovery and uncovering.
Nature is calling out your true nature and instinctual self too. Gaia is with us all in all of our processing, pain, and movements. She is holding our hearts and our hands yet can only meet us where we are ready to meet Her… Where we are ready to truly meet ourselves.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Trusting Where Your Personal Truth & Guidance Is Leading You

by Kasha Rokshana

The journey back to instinct and intuition is messy at best. It means going against the grain of your culture, being told things on the outside and then having to discern, constantly, whether it’s actually true or not.
There’s a very real tension in that process and it’s worth every moment for the maturity it offers as you move through it.

This whole process of coming to Portugal and starting to find out ways to bridge our inner sanctuaries to the manifestation/draw of an outer one, has been messy but instinctual. It’s called both Gabriel and I to a LOT of trust and to feel where the issues still lie in aspects of us who have a hard time trusting.

And the journey of trusting and intuiting continues as we still hold more questions than answers but are learning to somehow live into that flow.

We not only arrived here unscathed (despite all tensions we had to feel along the way) but we also feel the deep warmth of this country opening its arms to us. I’m even feeling this morning the Divine Mother/Father frequencies of this land and what lies beneath the 3D ‘history’ of it. I feel the embrace that comforts and challenges too as we get used to living in a different culture and country yet again with a different spoken language and also a different heart and soul language in some ways. I feel humbled by the process it’s been to even get here (mostly internally, as the external did have a grace and flow to it actually) and the process that we are stepping into to be here physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I feel that since the Solstice, we’ve all been invited to make a choice. A choice to commit to something that we instinctually and intuitively feel we need to make. We have the right to make a call on what we feel we need most, for that reflects what our souls have signed up to do and be here at this time. When all outside sources tell us to go one way, we really should consider all ways and feel what it is that is right for us and our path. The Solstice invited us to feel a renewed conviction around our own choices and to bravely step into them. The energies have been so supportive of that and we are very grateful for the learning experience this has been…

I feel all of this with all my heart this morning. I feel how sobering and yet alive it is to truly live into what you feel aligned with, no matter what ‘truth’ you feel to subscribe to. For us, we feel it’s a growing necessity to make sure you are living where you feel you want and NEED to be, to have a supportive sanctuary inside and out that can help you through these times that are only growing in intensity.
Sidebar: it feels SO good to be able to relax enough into myself after the journey here that I can feel enough context to write like this again!

Thank you for following along with our own journey and I do hope it inspires your own somehow, whatever you feel committed to choosing and however things play out for you as you go.

We’ll both be back with more alchemy around the work/process we embody and offer very soon as we get more settled. We will keep you posted on that as it flows!

So much love,
Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Amassador’s Journey And The Lover’s Quest

Lately I have been going over some prior work we all did around 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness and how they relate to different areas of life. I felt like I was seeing it with new eyes and a renewed interest and passion to bring it back into my own personal awareness as well as use it as a map for those that I work with. 

As with all maps, they don’t represent the territory but they do offer a context for understanding and a check for resonance. My mental body and more masculine parts love maps, yet it is my heart and my feminine that love the story and the experience that the journey provides. With a new global backdrop in place since this was created, I find it valuable to address as a way through these volatile times. 

Our 3D consciousness is more rooted in the machine of the Matrix itself. It has its values and its levers and pulleys to make it ‘work’ in a certain way. It has its own boundaries and rules that it lives by. It is dependent on the basic senses and on reason and logic. It is not sentimental yet has function. It is what we were born into as the overall collective agreement. 

However, we were not just born into a heartless machine. There has always been a 4D consciousness that pervades the fabric of 3D. It has shown up in religion, spirituality, political movements, art, music, and philosophy. It seeks to question and even undermine the 3D machine. It has its prophets and its warriors, as well as its light and its dark. 

To me 4D has been a bit of a quagmire and a catalyst for change. I have felt it has a bridge between worlds. A purgatory in a way. In this sea of quest and questioning, there can be the experience of profound awakening as well as suffering when caught in its swirl. It is where I feel the bulk of the world finds itself, struggling to find a sense of peace and clarity. 

This is the territory where you hear about the ‘bifurcation’. It is where one feels themselves, along with others, in a dimension that is different from those they have been around for years. There is a lot of pain and reaction here. The pandemic and its Matrix response has illuminated a lot in the relationships between people, friends, and family. 

This is where the ‘warriors’ and the ‘logicians’ find their niche. Spirituality is divided into camps as well. It can feel as if there is a ‘Balkanization’ happening in this dimension. Tribes searching for like-minds, like-hearts, and like-souls. It is where confusion comes to look for clarity and gets stuck in its web. 

I have spent much time in this dimension and have learned many lessons and found many gifts. The same holds for 3D as well. There is nothing inherently ‘bad’ about them. It is how parts of us have related to them that has created the suffering. They are experiential learning grounds that we can choose to learn from and apply into something new. 

This next frontier of 5D is one that I am looking to embody and inhabit in a more consistent way. This may be judged as bypassing, and that is okay. I have been dedicated to going into my shadow and my emotional body for some time. I know what I have been through and what I have yet to learn. It is not about ignoring the ills and pains of the world, but rather embodying the Light and the Love that exists in the Universe and beaconing and serving it to those that are drawn to it. Not just to make a dollar but to make a difference. 

It is about being an ambassador to the very Matrix we are all trying to be free of. By being in battle with it we continue to be entangled in it. I fully believe it wants out of this dance just as much as we do. It seeks to be seen and felt just as we do. It has had a role and a reason. From a more 5D place we may see that more clearly with more compassion and understanding. This to me is what shifts our waking reality. Our choice to stay anchored in Love and to give fear its rightful place as a guide and not a dictator. 

This is the Ambassador’s Journey. The Lover’s Quest. The need to embody grace and courage is on high for each of us. It is a process and an initiation. I am being invited to become that more and more each day. I believe the world needs more of us. The map is easy. The territory is the hard part but doable with support. I will continue to write more about this to serve and to call to those that it aligns with. 

May your heart and soul guide you to the shores of what is most real and desired to help illuminate the Golden Earth within.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Intimacy As A Spiritual Path

Intimacy is our next frontier. At least it has been mine for the last 10 years. Intimacy with Self, the Divine, and Other. As I continue up this ascension path, I have realized how non-intimate I have been most of my life. When you start to really get to the nuts and bolts, it is quite stark how this is true for all of us.

It is vulnerable to be intimate. To see and be seen in all our textures both ‘good’ and not-so-good. When I lived on my own and in a community of One, I could avoid at lot of things and I was blind to a lot of things as well. It was up to me to challenge myself. That is a good thing too, but when it comes organically you really see yourself (or selves) in more authentic ways.

Kasha and I have found ourselves in a very tiny place before we move on to Portugal in July with our soul fam. It has brought up a lot to be with in our union. Edges and irritations that are possible to avoid when in a larger area. This is a birth canal for us. It can be a deepening or completing when you get real at each moment.

The lack of space brings us in closer contact with our inner truths and needs. Do these align, or do they separate? This is true in all moments in conscious, sacred union. Through this I get to see myself more authentically as well as my own relationship to the Divine. Without that we would be navigating this thing like a boat at sea without a rudder or sails.

Intimacy with all three brings us to new dimensions of our humanity and our spirituality. Our Humanality. In years past I would have sought more solitude, but now I feel different. I need Others. I need my beloved community. I need Kasha. I need the Beloved. I need intimacy. They are the portals into New Earth. Into a new me.

This is not an easy path. I have lot more to learn, discover, and embody. I am grateful for that, for her, for community, for Love. I realize that intimacy IS a spiritual path. It is an initiation to our Humanality. I am here to walk that path as well as serve that path. I am a student and teacher of the path of sacred intimacy. I am both surprised and honored by that. This is my journey and curriculum.

For those that are seeking more intimacy in your life’s journey please reach out. We are all here to support you along the way. I do offer a free 45-minute intro call to see how we may do that.

Here’s to your sacred intimate ascension journey.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Leaving The Titanic To New Earth Arks

We have been living on a Titanic of sorts. The institutions of inhuman industry and sycophantic politics are eating away at itself. The holes in the ship are getting bigger and it is clear the emperors and empresses are punch drunk on their own promotions to global malpractice managers.

So while these unfortunate examples of human leadership continue to rearrange the furniture on the decks of a sinking ship, we all have the choice to get the hell off this damn thing and rebuild with what has been good about it.

We have the opportunity to harness the power of the internet to connect with those that resonate. We can use our dying fiat currency to build and invest in New Earth communities that are detached from the old system of economy of scale and into an abundance of heart and soul.
There are technologies that can be harnessed that lead us out of our dependency on death and soot.

Yet, we have an inner journey to take to get there. The Titanic that we have subscribed to is still embedded in us. The shame, the guilt, the fear, the battling, the looking-away from what is really happening. The reality that we are not all going to choose to leave this sinking ship.

The global situation is an initiator in this way. We are all being invited to get to the thick of what and who we really are and what we want the Now and the future to look and feel like. Who and what do we really connect with? Who is our true community of New Earth comprised of?

This is what I find myself focusing on now. Being a part of an ark. A community of others that go into the depth of experience, of heart presence, and of soul embodiment to seed this New Earth vision into reality. This is not easy in the pull of the sinking ship, but it is possible with intention, initiation, courage, passion, and surrender.

I will be focusing my writing on this unplugging, self-loving, replugging, and vulnerable and courageous shedding of the old to find ourselves in a new world of profound and sacred resonance with Love and our true humanity, as well as the path I have chosen to get myself there via this SoulFullHeart way of life.

Stay tuned and stay focused on this inner and outer stewardship.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

New Earth Needs Us To Choose It

I drew a boundary with my birth family and past friends about 9 years ago. I had chosen to ‘cross over’ in 2012 when that bridge opened up. There was nothing as divisive as Covid back then other than the politics of the day, which was still fairly polarizing.

Yet, I needed to fully step into this dimension I currently find myself with those that were doing, or had done, the same. My soul needed me to let go of the matrix I was born into and be reborn into something new. I couldn’t take the old with me unless they felt to ascend as well.

It was an expedited process, but one that needed to happen in order to fully be the Being, leader, and man I was called to be. No more smallness. No more suffering. No more lack of real Love. Sometimes growth and ascension come at a cost to parts of us so embedded in a deep-seeded need for what was thought of as ‘caring’.

The thing is is that I DID care. I cared about those that were closest to me at the time. I wanted something MORE for them. But I quickly realized that it was not their soul calling. It was not their path. I couldn’t make them come with me. I couldn’t ‘convince’ them or tug on them. This kind of journey can only be made by a soul choice.

Fast forward 9 years and we find ourselves in much more polarized and fearful times. Families and friends are at a crossroads together. Many are set in stone, many are arguing and battling, others are deeply confused and uncertain. This global situation is offering each of us a portal into our souls. Our deepest need and highest vision.

This may mean parting ways with those that you were once close to. Ones you feel you shouldn’t leave behind. There is a lot of Metasoul timeline bleed-through that is happening now and that has a big influence on our going-on places. There is also our unplugging from a matrix that we have become so intimately bought into that it is hard to unplug from. It is pervasive and intoxicating in its fear and its ability to seduce, distract, and numb.

These are not easy times for many. There are those of us that are being called to unplug, replug, and envision something new from the inside out. We are being called to join together in this vision, this healing, and this parting of the old. We are the seeds of New Earth, not the reformers of the past.

Difficult choices will be asked of us. We are being initiated each day into the New. Into our New Earth emissary and ambassador of Love to the matrix that we all co-created. What we choose today has an impact on tomorrow. The question is what does that ‘tomorrow’ look and feel like to you?

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Unplugging And Healing The Black Widow Program And Aspect Within

A week from Sunday, Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call about the subject of Sovereignty and Surrender, joined by our brother in heart, James Elphick. We will be diving into a topic that feels to have a lot of vibration for us men (as well as the masculine in women).

I have been in process of feeling a deeper layer of my mother wounding that is connected to a shadow feminine matrix programming called Black Widow. This is the name I received from this part/aspect of me I have been connecting with around this energy. She first showed up as a black widow spider to illuminate the nature of this woundedness and the programming itself. Then she morphed into a dominatrix with whip, heels, and all.

After some time of connecting with her and feeling who she really is underneath that all, I could feel something lighten and begin to get more clarity about this energy that may live in a lot of us men. This energy that uses guilt, shame, judgment, sexuality, comfort, and fear to keep us locked in a lower frequency, a state of suffering, a lulled state of disempowerment, or inner and outer judgment/punishment.

It is an inner battle of wanting to free ourselves from this web she weaves that I feel we as men are really trying to feel sovereign from. When we are engaged with other women in intimacy, this can really flare up. It triggers this need to be independent yet also the need to be connected in one form or another. There is a part of us that is in a push and a pull toward this energy and it is hard to feel fully empowered and vulnerable at the same time.

When she has this wounded Inner Mother energy, our Inner Teenager can feel the need to push back and seek independence. If she comes as Punishing energy, we may feel defensiveness and another need to push back. When it comes in as Fear, we may go to fight or flight. When she comes with sexuality we lose ourselves in our need for validation.

This Black Widow program/wounding has lost her connection to Innocence and to her own worth. She guards as well as feeds off this energy. Possessing it for herself out of need, not really out of some negative agenda, though it certainly feels that way at first. When I connect more with her with Love, the more she goes into her pain and her fear. Here is where healing and true sovereignty begin.

I can start to feel when this energy frequency of doubt, judgement, anxiety, or fear come in and I go to her. I feel her afraid to lose touch with me. I recognized those feelings were a tactic to keep my younger parts close to her. I am now going to her and bring her with me into the New. Into the Light from the dark crevice I first met her in.

In her more healed essence, she is our creativity and our sensuality. She is a face of our sacred feminine and our intuition. She is our truth and our discernment. She is our surrendered sovereignty into Divine Trust. She is our entrance into the exit of the Matrix itself. She knows the way. She knows how it works and operates. With that we can start to unplug (a sovereign choice) and surrender into the the New Earth world that is awaiting our creative power to encode New Earth inside and then on the outside.

If you are feeling a resonance or a curiosity about this programming/wounded inner mother energy and how it has influenced your feeling of your personal empowerment, sovereignty, and maybe a fear of surrendering into vulnerability, please join Raphael, James, and myself on this upcoming men’s group call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information. We would love to have you and feel what is moving for you in this area.

I also offer a free 45-minute consult/information call for both men and women that are wanting to feel more about how the SoulFullHeart process and space-holding may support this deeper dive into your wounding and unplugging. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

I will be writing more about this topic in relation to romance, intimacy, and community in the following week so please stay tuned. Sending much love to all during these very intense, yet activating times.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/