The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Intimacy As A Spiritual Path

Intimacy is our next frontier. At least it has been mine for the last 10 years. Intimacy with Self, the Divine, and Other. As I continue up this ascension path, I have realized how non-intimate I have been most of my life. When you start to really get to the nuts and bolts, it is quite stark how this is true for all of us.

It is vulnerable to be intimate. To see and be seen in all our textures both ‘good’ and not-so-good. When I lived on my own and in a community of One, I could avoid at lot of things and I was blind to a lot of things as well. It was up to me to challenge myself. That is a good thing too, but when it comes organically you really see yourself (or selves) in more authentic ways.

Kasha and I have found ourselves in a very tiny place before we move on to Portugal in July with our soul fam. It has brought up a lot to be with in our union. Edges and irritations that are possible to avoid when in a larger area. This is a birth canal for us. It can be a deepening or completing when you get real at each moment.

The lack of space brings us in closer contact with our inner truths and needs. Do these align, or do they separate? This is true in all moments in conscious, sacred union. Through this I get to see myself more authentically as well as my own relationship to the Divine. Without that we would be navigating this thing like a boat at sea without a rudder or sails.

Intimacy with all three brings us to new dimensions of our humanity and our spirituality. Our Humanality. In years past I would have sought more solitude, but now I feel different. I need Others. I need my beloved community. I need Kasha. I need the Beloved. I need intimacy. They are the portals into New Earth. Into a new me.

This is not an easy path. I have lot more to learn, discover, and embody. I am grateful for that, for her, for community, for Love. I realize that intimacy IS a spiritual path. It is an initiation to our Humanality. I am here to walk that path as well as serve that path. I am a student and teacher of the path of sacred intimacy. I am both surprised and honored by that. This is my journey and curriculum.

For those that are seeking more intimacy in your life’s journey please reach out. We are all here to support you along the way. I do offer a free 45-minute intro call to see how we may do that.

Here’s to your sacred intimate ascension journey.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Leaving The Titanic To New Earth Arks

We have been living on a Titanic of sorts. The institutions of inhuman industry and sycophantic politics are eating away at itself. The holes in the ship are getting bigger and it is clear the emperors and empresses are punch drunk on their own promotions to global malpractice managers.

So while these unfortunate examples of human leadership continue to rearrange the furniture on the decks of a sinking ship, we all have the choice to get the hell off this damn thing and rebuild with what has been good about it.

We have the opportunity to harness the power of the internet to connect with those that resonate. We can use our dying fiat currency to build and invest in New Earth communities that are detached from the old system of economy of scale and into an abundance of heart and soul.
There are technologies that can be harnessed that lead us out of our dependency on death and soot.

Yet, we have an inner journey to take to get there. The Titanic that we have subscribed to is still embedded in us. The shame, the guilt, the fear, the battling, the looking-away from what is really happening. The reality that we are not all going to choose to leave this sinking ship.

The global situation is an initiator in this way. We are all being invited to get to the thick of what and who we really are and what we want the Now and the future to look and feel like. Who and what do we really connect with? Who is our true community of New Earth comprised of?

This is what I find myself focusing on now. Being a part of an ark. A community of others that go into the depth of experience, of heart presence, and of soul embodiment to seed this New Earth vision into reality. This is not easy in the pull of the sinking ship, but it is possible with intention, initiation, courage, passion, and surrender.

I will be focusing my writing on this unplugging, self-loving, replugging, and vulnerable and courageous shedding of the old to find ourselves in a new world of profound and sacred resonance with Love and our true humanity, as well as the path I have chosen to get myself there via this SoulFullHeart way of life.

Stay tuned and stay focused on this inner and outer stewardship.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

New Earth Needs Us To Choose It

I drew a boundary with my birth family and past friends about 9 years ago. I had chosen to ‘cross over’ in 2012 when that bridge opened up. There was nothing as divisive as Covid back then other than the politics of the day, which was still fairly polarizing.

Yet, I needed to fully step into this dimension I currently find myself with those that were doing, or had done, the same. My soul needed me to let go of the matrix I was born into and be reborn into something new. I couldn’t take the old with me unless they felt to ascend as well.

It was an expedited process, but one that needed to happen in order to fully be the Being, leader, and man I was called to be. No more smallness. No more suffering. No more lack of real Love. Sometimes growth and ascension come at a cost to parts of us so embedded in a deep-seeded need for what was thought of as ‘caring’.

The thing is is that I DID care. I cared about those that were closest to me at the time. I wanted something MORE for them. But I quickly realized that it was not their soul calling. It was not their path. I couldn’t make them come with me. I couldn’t ‘convince’ them or tug on them. This kind of journey can only be made by a soul choice.

Fast forward 9 years and we find ourselves in much more polarized and fearful times. Families and friends are at a crossroads together. Many are set in stone, many are arguing and battling, others are deeply confused and uncertain. This global situation is offering each of us a portal into our souls. Our deepest need and highest vision.

This may mean parting ways with those that you were once close to. Ones you feel you shouldn’t leave behind. There is a lot of Metasoul timeline bleed-through that is happening now and that has a big influence on our going-on places. There is also our unplugging from a matrix that we have become so intimately bought into that it is hard to unplug from. It is pervasive and intoxicating in its fear and its ability to seduce, distract, and numb.

These are not easy times for many. There are those of us that are being called to unplug, replug, and envision something new from the inside out. We are being called to join together in this vision, this healing, and this parting of the old. We are the seeds of New Earth, not the reformers of the past.

Difficult choices will be asked of us. We are being initiated each day into the New. Into our New Earth emissary and ambassador of Love to the matrix that we all co-created. What we choose today has an impact on tomorrow. The question is what does that ‘tomorrow’ look and feel like to you?

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Unplugging And Healing The Black Widow Program And Aspect Within

A week from Sunday, Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call about the subject of Sovereignty and Surrender, joined by our brother in heart, James Elphick. We will be diving into a topic that feels to have a lot of vibration for us men (as well as the masculine in women).

I have been in process of feeling a deeper layer of my mother wounding that is connected to a shadow feminine matrix programming called Black Widow. This is the name I received from this part/aspect of me I have been connecting with around this energy. She first showed up as a black widow spider to illuminate the nature of this woundedness and the programming itself. Then she morphed into a dominatrix with whip, heels, and all.

After some time of connecting with her and feeling who she really is underneath that all, I could feel something lighten and begin to get more clarity about this energy that may live in a lot of us men. This energy that uses guilt, shame, judgment, sexuality, comfort, and fear to keep us locked in a lower frequency, a state of suffering, a lulled state of disempowerment, or inner and outer judgment/punishment.

It is an inner battle of wanting to free ourselves from this web she weaves that I feel we as men are really trying to feel sovereign from. When we are engaged with other women in intimacy, this can really flare up. It triggers this need to be independent yet also the need to be connected in one form or another. There is a part of us that is in a push and a pull toward this energy and it is hard to feel fully empowered and vulnerable at the same time.

When she has this wounded Inner Mother energy, our Inner Teenager can feel the need to push back and seek independence. If she comes as Punishing energy, we may feel defensiveness and another need to push back. When it comes in as Fear, we may go to fight or flight. When she comes with sexuality we lose ourselves in our need for validation.

This Black Widow program/wounding has lost her connection to Innocence and to her own worth. She guards as well as feeds off this energy. Possessing it for herself out of need, not really out of some negative agenda, though it certainly feels that way at first. When I connect more with her with Love, the more she goes into her pain and her fear. Here is where healing and true sovereignty begin.

I can start to feel when this energy frequency of doubt, judgement, anxiety, or fear come in and I go to her. I feel her afraid to lose touch with me. I recognized those feelings were a tactic to keep my younger parts close to her. I am now going to her and bring her with me into the New. Into the Light from the dark crevice I first met her in.

In her more healed essence, she is our creativity and our sensuality. She is a face of our sacred feminine and our intuition. She is our truth and our discernment. She is our surrendered sovereignty into Divine Trust. She is our entrance into the exit of the Matrix itself. She knows the way. She knows how it works and operates. With that we can start to unplug (a sovereign choice) and surrender into the the New Earth world that is awaiting our creative power to encode New Earth inside and then on the outside.

If you are feeling a resonance or a curiosity about this programming/wounded inner mother energy and how it has influenced your feeling of your personal empowerment, sovereignty, and maybe a fear of surrendering into vulnerability, please join Raphael, James, and myself on this upcoming men’s group call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information. We would love to have you and feel what is moving for you in this area.

I also offer a free 45-minute consult/information call for both men and women that are wanting to feel more about how the SoulFullHeart process and space-holding may support this deeper dive into your wounding and unplugging. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

I will be writing more about this topic in relation to romance, intimacy, and community in the following week so please stay tuned. Sending much love to all during these very intense, yet activating times.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are Your Own Sovereign

By  Raphael Awen

You are your own sovereign.

There’s no one above you. Your power is yours by right of being. It cannot be taken away. It cannot be transferred to another by force or by gift.

But there’s also no one below you. You don’t have power ‘over’ any-one or any-thing. All the ones and things around you are equally sovereign, by right of their being.

So what’s the value in sovereignty then, if I can’t feel powerful, and command or demand over something?

The value is found in the shared experience. We are all equal sovereigns, lords of our own kingdoms and queendoms. The only company that we could ever truly enjoy is with our own kind – Kings and Queens.

Only those who possess this kind of sovereignty can experience true surrender. True surrender is an even deeper sharing in this profound kind of knowing that my power is mine, and only I can lay it down and pick it up at will, when and as I choose.

Surrender is a most powerful expression of our power.

True surrender is not the same thing at all as what we’ve called ‘giving away your power’. Your ownership of your power cannot be signed over to another. It can only be denied or disowned by you as long as you are unaware of your power.

But you are re-membering now. The dis-membering that preceded this remembrance was all about a full circle learning curve to come to terms with the infinite power you hold, and always did.

How does this remembrance that’s happening now want to express in your life as you know it right now?

What choices are before you asking for your most honest truth? Who and what in your life needs to be informed of that truth? What manner will you assume as you share that truth that isn’t about the old grounds of power or dominance over others, making them feel small and controlled?

Now, you are in true humble worthiness surrender territory. You’ve surrendered your choices and truth declaration to the world around you, and you’re ready to accept their truth declaration and choices in return, that may well be to your loss, the loss of something you’ve worked hard up till now to not lose.

They may not want to or be ready to take the journey you are taking. Their time and manner of remembrance may not be in sync with yours. You are choosing to let go a kind of false power over them of pretending to be in resonance with them when in fact, the ground underneath your relationship has been getting smaller and smaller of late, leading to this choice point that arises now in your shared story together.

You acknowledge your oneness with them and your utter  inseparability with them by breaking off contact with them as you know and feel that nothing real can be lost.

Here we see and feel the shared sovereignty reality. We wondered how there could be a room full of Kings and Queens without any subjects to make it all real. Now we see and feel that we are all subjects of the Kings and Queens that surround us on all sides. You are a complete sovereign in relationship with complete and total sovereigns.

You surrender to that with the ownership of your sovereignty, as you hold it in love, in surrender, in deep humility, in the willingness to let go of what no longer serves you or them.

When you find yourself feeling dominated or lorded over by any kind of power, be it social pressure, 3D governmental power structures or people in authority, spiritual teachers, or your boss at work, you are being invited to feel the power of your choice that can never be taken from you.

Even if you end up in prison, feeling most of your freedoms taken from you, you are invited to feel the power over your own being that is yours and yours alone. This power doesn’t need security fences or noisy alarm systems to protect it, for it cannot be taken away or lost. When you know this in life, you know it in any and all circumstances, and it radiates to everyone around you boldly, even to your jailers if that is the circumstance you find yourself in.

The entire world awaits this awakening in you. Jailers, kings, queens, philosophers and ploughmen, each must play their part in their own awakening, spurred on by your awakening.

There’s only one of us ultimately, so there cannot be anyone above or below. This one of us needs to remember its own power simultaneously through your and my individual remembrance of it. None of us get to be fully home until all of us are fully home, again because there is only one of us.

You get to be a forerunner in all of this if you’d like to be, a shower of the way. It will however call for the ongoing surrender of many things, things you once held onto dearly and even fiercely in the process of learning what power and sovereignty is not.

This is what makes it real, what makes it royal, is that you as a King and as a Queen give up false power to truly serve the loyal subjects that surround you towards the awakening to their own sovereignty.

Anyone who tries to suppress the power of those around them will forever be surrounded by stunted beings, reflecting to them their own seemingly inescapable smallness of being.

Anyone who champions the power of the individual around them, will forever be surrounded by testaments of their own true power and sovereignty.

This is the story, the drama that is unfolding on the stage before us now. You and I are the actors, the playwrights, the audience, the investors putting in the capital, and the janitor who must clean up after the show.

This is the dharma in our drama right now. You are the examplar and the sampler. This is the greatest story ever told.

Much love,

Raphael Awen

I’d like to invite any man here to the men’s group call that I’m leading with Gabriel Gabriel Amara and joined by James Elphick on this subject ‘Sovereignty and Surrender’ on zoom on Saturday, April 24th at 5pm BST (London time, 9am Pacific and Noon Eastern). We ask for a donation of any amount to join in or to receive the recording. During the 2 hour call, we will share teaching together, lead a guided meditation to connect with your true sovereignty and surrender, as well as have space on the call for men who’d like to share or receive reflection.

You can send a donation over PayPal here: https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen

Or make your donation to join in through our shop here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

And I will forward the Zoom link from there when I see your donation.

All the details to join in are here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

Jelelle and I are also hosting a group call the week before the men’s call mentioned above on Sunday, April 18th called ‘Digesting the covid narrative’. That’s this coming Sunday, and I’d love to have you join in to that also if you feel called.

Details for the above group call with Jelelle Awen and I are here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

We are leading like minds and hearts into their own power while being in deepening proximity and connection and nourishment.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 11

Blessed Easter weekend to you!

Today we shared our latest Avalon Update, featuring a piece by Jelelle Awen in which she talks about the ‘hijacked’ womb that has been influenced by what she refers to the “Ursula Consciounsness” or a false feminine/wounded matriarchal overlay.

As sensitive empaths and star seeds, there is a tendency to take this Ursula energy within us and try to transmute it to love again. There is often a soul contract/agreement as well with family members that we will serve this role within the family line, bringing light to the darkness of the ancestral wounding. However, this unconscious taking in and ‘holding’ within our wombs of this toxic energy has a cost to us, creating cycles of physical chronic illnesses (including PMS and menopausal symptoms), codependency/abuse in relationships, suppressed sexuality/sexual desire, avoidance of relationships and ‘lone wolf’, disempowerment in expression of soul gifts/struggles with manifestation/alchemy, and more.

Jelelle and Kasha Rokshana also talk about their upcoming Women’s Call on the same topic happening tomorrow at 5pm London time. More info in the update.

There are many new writings to take in from Gabriel, Kasha, and Raphael. New upcoming events are listed as well.

To take in the full Avalon Update, go here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

You Are Invited! Men’s Group Calls Each Month

By  Raphael Awen

Quick video invitation to join myself, Aurius Amara and James Elphick this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London time) for our Men’s group call on the topic of ‘Adequacy, Power and Vulnerability’.

We ask for a donation of any amount to set your intention and exchange with us. Read on/listen in to get the tone and see where to sign up. We very much welcome your curiosity and hope you join us.

How do you as a man relate to your sense of power in the world?

How does that make you feel either adequate or inadequate?

Where would vulnerability factor into the expression of your power and sense of adequacy?

As men, we can be quick to embrace anything that affords us a sense of adequacy and power, and slow to let go of anything that feels like it will lessen that comfort zone. Even what we reach towards in spiritual or community settings can be so tailored to this need to buffer this feeling of ‘getting ahead’ in this way.

But where do we find the pause button long enough to explore the more vulnerable questions about whether a choice or endeavour or relationship is really what we most deeply want? How do we know if we are choosing our growth vs. our comfort zone?

‘What is it that you really want?’ is maybe the most profound question that you as a man need to ask yourself, as well as the most sorting question that can be asked when it comes to relationships. Your wanter is already leading and guiding the way, what’s left is become familiar with your wanter – the part of you currently leading your wants and wishes.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer a way to get to know and feel the parts of you that are oriented to life in this way without judging them in any way. Here begins an exit off the treadmill of ‘shoulds’ where even the prescription to be more real or more vulnerable can be related to as a higher form of attaining adequacy or power.

These are the questions we will explore together, offer teaching, and transparent personal reflections about our journey in this men’s group call on Saturday, March 27th hosted by SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Masculine bridges Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara. We will also be joined by James Elphick, who is an active member of the Soulfullheart community. The three of us currently live in close proximity and shared purpose in Glastonbury, England, also known as Avalon, the heart chakra of Gaia.

During the call, we will also enter a time of guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, the part of you that has the most domain when it comes to your adequacy, power and vulnerability. Just meeting this part of you, getting a feeling sense of them for the first time or the hundredth time is what opens out the deep heart and soul places that you have been wanting to venture into. In other words, the key to your dreams is not more will power, or more adequacy, but instead you showing up to get to know these parts of you who feel so much about your life, your dreams, your regrets, etc. As this happens more and more, your life gets to enter new configurations in all areas of your life, because it’s shifting on the inside.

The call will be at 5pm/17:00 GMT (London, UK timezone/12 Noon EST/9:00am PST) and hosted over Zoom. The call will be 2 hours in duration.

You can join us live (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the group live, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to all men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can make a donation for it here through Paypal: paypal.me/raphaelawen

We will send you the zoom link via email.

Please make a note in the Paypal transaction that you are purchasing the March 27th Men’s Group Call and check that your email on Paypal is current, as this is the email we will send the zoom link to unless you request it sent to another email.

The call will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions.

Here is a timezone converter (call is at 5:00pm GMT London, London time): https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

For more info or to share with a friend:

– Here is the Facebook Event Listing: https://www.facebook.com/events/427115595032366

https://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

Very warmly,

Raphael Awen, Aurius Amara and James Elphick

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

One Year Later: Freeing Yourself From The Psychodemic

One year ago we all found ourselves walking through the threshold of a New World Order. An Order rooted in fear, facts, and fallacy. It was our global 9/11 moment and it has forever changed the way we experience the world we live in and those we relate to. We have become Alice in Wonderland wondering when the hell things will ‘get back to normal’.

I don’t believe there can ever be a going back. The collective psyche has been altered. Forget about your DNA, which is still being worked on depending who is doing the ‘working’, but the soul of our humanity is being altered. This has not all been for naught, however. There has been a lot that has become clear for many as this whole grand experiment/experience has awakened a population to what is real and what is not for each of us.

Science Fiction is coming alive before our very eyes. It clearly was never ‘fiction’ but a precursor to what was to come. It has become more of Science Friction. The use of science, ‘facts’, and fear as a weapon against ourselves and each other. We have been in a pinball game or roller coaster of emotion for some time now and it is becoming normalized. Life has become a dystopian novel trying to find its way into our consciousness. The question is will we let it?

As much as we may have a compulsion to go ‘out there’ to and solve the global psychodemic, it feels even more imperative to go inward. Like Neo running into Agent Smith at the end of the Matrix movie, we are being called to find the matrix tyrant within us. Who is this shady creature from the Black Lagoon of our Shadow and Control Center. The Wizard of our Oz. As so many wise and ascended masters have told us, as above, so below. What is outside, is inside.

This ‘creature’ is not a boogyperson. It is a engrained, conditioned, and legacy aspect of us from a bygone era. It is our connection to the System that we were born and raised in. It is being fed a consistent diet of bullshit that it has learned to accept as real food. Just like Neo was hooked up to the multitude of tubes when he woke up in that egg-like container. To meet this aspect of you is to meet yourself, but in this poorly-written and poorly-directed Epic of Gilgamesh we are calling ‘reality’.

I invite you to find and meet this aspect of you. It needs your sacred heart. Your soul spark. Your Divine Self to come and save it. YOU don’t need saving! This part of you does. There is NOTHING out there can can do the saving, the living, the liberating. It’s all you, my friend. This aspect of you has been judged, out of fear and control, to be a dark entity. Not so. The tag was put on it so you wouldn’t find him/her/it so that you could actually free yourself from the spiderweb that has been crafted for eons.

This aspect may not be found easily, or may even resist out of fear. The timing will present itself if you can consistently go into your heart and connect with Love. It is Love that lights the tunnels and caves of this Dark World. It is Love that holds the keys to the locked doors. It is Love that can hold the space for the fear, the hate, the unworth. It is Love that exists within you that is your saviour. It is your shamanic medicine against tyranny, injustice, and control.

I will work on a guided meditation to meet this aspect of you caught in the grids, the web, the inner caves of the matrix. This is where true freedom lives. The crossroad of the heart and soul, using the mind to create what wants to be made real or real-ized. You don’t need a degree to get there. Just a desire for a New World Order within rooted in Love and not Fear.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and space-holder.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.