By Jelelle Awen
Mother’s day….this one can be sticky, as relationships with mothers are. Sticky as in connecting into a sense of duty and obligation, a 3D conditioning picture that activates the 3D self inside you to ‘show up for mom’, often at the expense of what you authentically want. And even if you want to celebrate your birth mother today, the questions you could ask are, “What is my emotional truth about my relationship with my mother?” “What do I (and parts of me) really FEEL about being with her?” “Is it a part of me which is ‘doing’ the role of son or daughter?” “Does my spirituality and my truths about reality get put aside when I spend time with my mom and how does this make me feel?”
Even if you consciously feel that your relationship with your mother is a good and healthy one, I offer that unless you BOTH have done personal healing work plus awakening soul frequencies to connect around, healing the karmic frequencies of your soul legacy together…..it is a bond that is mostly based on lower frequencies, codependence, usually buried deep in the subconscious and emotional body. To be REAL about this relationship and how it has impacted you is the start of awakening beyond it.
For women who are desiring to embody their sacred femininity, deconditioning from the templating of their birth mothers is KEY to the process. Deconditioning looks like feeling inside yourself how her templating around what it means to be a woman (which she inherited from HER mother and so on) LIVES inside of you and influences you. Also, feeling the ‘ideas’ that she has modeled to you or said to you or energized to you about femininity. Connecting to your inner mother as a part of you can be VERY illuminating as well, as you separate her frequencies so your more authentic essence can arise.
For men, the way that they currently relate to women and within relationships can hugely be connected to their relationships with their birth mother. This can play out in parts that are pushing away from ‘the source that they came out of’ and esp. if they have an overly dominating or invasive mother. OR a part playing the role of ‘good son’ or ‘dutiful son’.
On Mother’s Day, I feel appreciation for the crucible of growth and reflection of my shadow side (and some leading edge sides although not much) that my birth mother offered to me. It has been my healthiest and highest choice not to be in relationship with her for several years as we went on different paths around emotional body healing and soul awakening (which I chose deeply, following my soul purpose here.) I feel love for her on the soul level and can connect there with her higher self in moments even as we are not in relationship here.
I feel appreciation mostly though for myself and my commitment to HEAL what was wounded and harmed (all my choice on a soul level) by the dysfunction and toxicity represented in this relationship. I became mother to all parts of me who so needed nurturing and support and comfort and so was able to hold space for my own healing. I held my inner child especially around this, until her wounded and hurt frequencies transmuted into magical 4D and eventually 5D crystal light energies.
My gratitude and appreciation also goes toward the Divine Mother and all the frequencies for which She offers Her heart and comfort to heal these woundings within us around these relationships. It has been the Divine Feminine that has provided and templated for me what it means to be a sacred feminine woman here during this intense time of transition and invitation into our sacred humanity. And it is to Her for which my deepest sense of daughter extends.
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.