Your Truth Leads You To What Is Honest

Telling our truth and being honest with ourselves can sometimes be two different things. 

Our truth can come from multiple sources, or parts, within us. They may be aligned or in conflict. Truth has power behind it. It can have a force that cleans house and resets the furniture. It has its own volition that is meant to offer a portal into who we really are, even if it seems contradictory. 

When we get honest with ourselves, something else happens altogether. We are seeing ourselves fully. We get to a core place that has a sobriety and a wider/deeper look into our hearts and souls. The pain, the selfishness, the judgement, the fear. When we get honest, not just truthful, we have dug in deeper to pull out something more lasting, more embodied. 

Honesty makes us transparent and responsible for our truth. When I felt to purge my FU’s two days ago, what was I honestly doing? Was I just dumping my stuff or was I genuinely feeling guided to share my humanity? Was a part of me looking for an argument to test the waters of this new ground inside of myself or was there just a desire to be more real with myself and others? 

I feel there is a bit of truth in all of it. That is my honesty. Looking and feeling my truths holistically. It gives me doorways into myself and also the pulse of those that responded. I definitely noticed that women mostly responded. That could reflect my own inner feminine looking for my masculine to arise more in the space. It felt like the masculine in the collective feminine was asking for men to do the same. Just get real, bro! 

What is real for me is such a varied and dynamic thing. Right now I feel softer than I did yesterday, but the caldron of truth still burns. It is meant to integrate into me so I can be more honest. How that comes out will shift and change over time as I feel the deeper layers under the anger and feel the part of me that has been suppressed. 

This is not necessarily new territory for me, but mostly another layer of growth that is looking to express and serve those that it is meant to serve. It is one that I feel we can all relate to, whether we feel ourselves to be easily honest or if it is difficult. What I want to explore next is the ENERGY by which we share our truths. That frequency does illuminate a lot about how we honestly feel underneath the words themselves.  

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Inner Feminine Guided Meditation/Intro To Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

This is a brief video that I recorded this morning to offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner feminine. This is a taste of what will be a deeper exploration into the sacred feminine during my Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, September 29 at 10:00am PDT. Women over 18 can attend this call live or receive the recording.

The exploration of the sacred feminine is very often feeling the layers of the false, the wounded, and the inherited that have covered over the authentic essence of her. This meditation offers a locating of what energy your inner feminine is most presenting as right now….whether wounded inner child, angry inner teenager, etc. or if she is quite protected by your Inner Protector too. This serves as a good prep to the deeper waters that we will explore during the call.

More information about joining us for a $15 CAD energy exchange via our website shop or paypal here: https://www.facebook.com/events/93396…

or here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.co…

I also offer many guided meditations to connect with parts of yourself in this 33 Day video series called Deepen: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

The time for the arising of the Sacred Feminine is NOW…leading to a deeper embodiment of the Divine Mother within us all to offer profound healing and balancing to the Sacred Masculine.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

On ‘Mary Magdalene Day’: A Celebration Of Her Love & Frequencies

Art by Tanya Torres: https://www.artbytanyatorres.com/single-post/2016/08/01/The-Mary-Magdalene-Celebration-Dancing-With-the-Magdalene

By Kalayna Solais

She is the sound of drums in the dance of ritual.

She is the beating heart of a woman falling in love.

She is the robes and cloak and flowing silks of the softening feminine,

Strong yet soft in frequency and determined to offer healing and love to others

As she continues to love and heal herself.

She is the red of garden roses, the pink of blushing female cheeks, the connection of hotness between lovers exploring their hearts, souls, and bodies in committed connection and Sacred Union dance.

She is the rhythm of the heart that sings within me

That reminds me to be embodied and embracing

Of everything that makes me uniquely ME.

She is Mary Magdalene. Magdalena. Mary of Magdala. Beloved ‘Maggie’.

For me, She is the ongoing inspiration for service and the beacon of what’s possible to BEcome as a fully human woman, especially a human woman with a mate within and without, offering healing and love to others alongside him and sometimes on Her own too.

With me, She dances in moonlight and firelight, honouring the gift of living on Gaia, growing in breadth and depth as I do in this lifetime and others.

She offers me and others sisterhood in a healing form that goes beyond competition and toxicity, that promises the possibility of vulnerable connection and where that can take all of us in new waves of intimacy, deepening love, and appreciation of each other’s gifts.

Today and all days I honour Her in Her unique form and face of the Divine Mother/Feminine. Today I am reminded that She is here with me, guiding me, offering love exchange with Her as I learn to see myself in Her and Her in me. As I heal any unworthiness that keeps Her from entering more fully into my body and heart.

And together today we share these words to bring the energy home to YOU, to invite you into deeper feeling and connection with Her, as Her arms are always open and Her music is always playing… waiting to be danced to… whether you are a man or a woman.

With much love today and all days, and a hope that today you find space to dance in your goodness and celebration in the goodness of the love that surrounds and flows within you,

Kalayna & Maggie ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Velveteen Rabbit Within Us All

Digesting a lot in the aftermath of completion. My heart and consciousness still calibrating to a new reality post-marriage. There are ghost-like sensations throughout the day, things that I would normally have responded to are no longer there. It is a bit of a emotive and cognitive dissonance yet that is the very thing that lands me back into me.

Me.

Who is that even? I am beginning to become aware of who I was and which parts of me were in response to all of the relationship dynamics. I do feel a core self that has been there but the degree to which “he” showed up is still in question. That is the current process. Taking stock of where “I” was and who this “I” even is.

It is not so much existential or judgmental as it is curious with compassion. That is what allows the shadow to come out and be seen and felt. Just hanging outside the cave entrance and letting it know that I am here to be a friend and a caring advocate. Not a punisher or a hunter looking for extradition.

When we go through emotional times like this it can be so easy for a part of us to go into “fix it” mode or into the blame/shame game. Instead there is an opportunity here for us to get to some tender and profound understandings of what make us who we ARE and who we want to be going forward. This makes all our experiences sacred and meaningful. We get to come in contact with aspects of ourselves that are deep need of love and forgiveness.

Through this experience I will find something that may not look “good” or feel good, but if my Higher Heart is leading the way I can guarantee I will find something that will be real and that is what any of us can hope to aspire to. Just ask the Velveteen Rabbit.

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Healing Inner Conflict Into Our Embodied Truth And Service Of Love

Over the past few months, I have felt myself in a very awkward space between two of the most influential people in my healing journey. There have been times when parts of me could feel this tug to ‘side’ one way or another.

As a young boy, my parents were in a state of bitter contention at the end of their marriage. I felt the split inside of me to care-take both of them but for different reasons. This conflict found its way inside at an early and impressionable age. What was ‘right’ was more important than what was ‘true’. This theme also plays out in many soul timelines that are looking for connection and resolution.

As I felt this arise in myself once more, I could feel the ways in which this tug was always inside of me regarding my truth and needs. This is the ongoing work for me. It has been a challenge for parts of me this life to be in a seat of self-loving power, personal clarity, and expression. I could not have felt this without this relational experience.

We think we have ‘cleared’ or ‘released’ something inside of us when in reality it is always another turn in the spiral of healing. The energy is less and less but the theme will arise when it needs to in order to feel and heal it again. Each time arising anew and changed. I feel another layer of who I am as I continue to express more of my needs and truths.

This is ongoing. I feel more there to explore, examine, and offer love to. I used to feel that this was a disqualifier for me as a healer and leader. Now I am learning to accept that this is my personal certification process. I can only serve that which I have chosen to witness and heal within myself.

This arena of truth is a big top world, and it has much to teach us about who we are as men, women, humans, and BEings. It is the poultice of our soul.

Join me for my ongoing video series that I began yesterday as I will talk about this and other topics related specifically for men, but intended for all. Thank you as always for your taking in of my journey and how it may serve your own.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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April Energies Invite You To Come Home To Yourself

Coming home to ourselves is the greatest work we can be doing at any given moment.

In recent sessions that I have had there has been an underlying theme of this very thing. So much of what we ache for or about on the outside is really about what is missing on the inside. A need of being seen and validated by another, a fear or anxiety about financial needs, or a deep feeling of loneliness, depression, or anger.

If you can begin to explore that nothing on the outside can ever make you feel anything that wasn’t already there on the inside, then you have just offered yourself, and your inner parts, the gift of empowerment.

In the process of inner work, using the imagination and memories helps to locate where these core needs and fears are stemming from. This can be a very natural process when the curiosity and desire to sort and heal these are aligned. It is one felt step at a time.

Inside lay the wounded, the hurt, the afraid, the pissed off, the rejected, as well as the joy, the passion, the vision, and the love. They all have their roles and needs. They all have their ascension journeys. Their deaths and rebirths. There you face all the things you really need for your growth and validation. They get to be offered a home in you.

No mantra, book, or medication can take you there quite like opening the portals to your heart and soul with self-loving compassion. It is a process I inhabit everyday with different layers of depth and discovery. Let these current energies support you in that coming home journey as well as those that have been there too. I open my heart space in the self-led exploration and embodiment of your deepest desires and gifts.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Crucibles And Gifts Of Sacred Union

by Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

It’s in what we see in each other’s eyes. It’s alive in the touches of mutual nourishment and softness. It’s present in the sometimes fervent moments of conflict or advocating for each other or ourselves. We see each other as each other and yet as very different beings too, each with their own path and their own healing crucibles, riding alongside this mutually claimed healing crucible of being in Sacred Union… which we claim for its depth not its length.

A ‘successful marriage’, to us, means a commitment of heart, soul and body that has found all the depth it can in this current lifetime and phase too. It’s not about staying together ‘forever’. It’s about being in this exploration of a deeper bond with each other while feeling all it pushes up and yet helps heal too inside of each of us as individuals.

This is not a perfect process. We engaged in romance on a few occasions so that we could see deeper into ourselves at each turn. The blind spots, the shadow, is revealed in the dance of intimacy. At times they moved us to new places and new ground between each other, and at others they took us to a completion that sent us on a more singular quest of self-understanding and growth. Each one leading us to new awareness and new desires…..sometimes for others and eventually back again.

In this current revolution of our Usness (the bond that lives between each of our sovereign beings), we have chosen to go deeper into this soul pairing. We have felt parts of ourselves that relate to each other’s parts in different ways. Many of our differences and conflicts arise from the meeting of these parts and Metasoul aspects. This is the quantum healing that is possible inside of this kind of conscious union. We are not together to ‘ride it out’, but to go deeper into our growth and soul edges. We both have masculine and feminine parts relating to each other, soul contracts to feel and resolve, lifetimes of joy and pain to integrate together. We have felt our kings and queens, soldiers and maidens, priests and priestesses, and galactic counterparts.

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Gabriel: The journey of Sacred Union with Other begins with Self. What we feel and see about ourselves is reflected in those we relate to, especially those we are most intimate with. The ache for Other that may reside within is in large part an ache for Self. As a part of this journey with my beloved wife Kalayna, it was a process of falling in love with me. My parts. My parts loving themselves and being loved by me. One big Me love fest. It is that love of self and selves that beacons and draws that which is alive on the inside.

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Kalayna: When I look at Gabriel, most of the time I can see him on all of these different levels and layers of who he is. Yet, he arises as a mystery to me. Also, there are moments and days where the soul isn’t seen right away, where he is a body in a space shared with my own. These moments though, I’m grateful and happy to say, are few, because of the degree of mutual respect and reverence we have for each other that still continues to deepen.

At the end of the day, I’m grateful for every moment spent with him and every moment that this relationship has helped reflect to me my next places to go inside, even if this is the last day we have together in this romantic bond. I feel my parts pinging off of and interacting with different parts of him in this this-life dance we share. I also feel, especially during love making and moments of deepening together, the other-life dances our souls share, sometimes unbeknownst to us yet ever present somehow. I desire for more depth with him, to venture off into many sunsets with this man, riding this horse called “Sacred Union”, trusting the unfolding of the path we share.

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Gabriel: We know each other well in some respects, but are a complete mystery in another. Kalayna has continued to arise as a woman and blossoming feminine leader whose scent gets sweeter and succulent each time. Her passion and shadow reflect mine. She activates and triggers what needs to as part of my own growth and response to my own leadership. This has happened both in and out of romance, but this Sacred Union calls something forward that is part of each other’s crucible of Love’s ambassadorship. It is us and more than us at the same time.

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Kalayna: Love is always here with all of us, inextricably part of us yet also making up our whole being. We cannot be ‘left’ or ‘abandoned’ by it, though the imprint of feeling this way in the trauma of separation from Divine love especially has made it feel to parts of us like sometimes love really does ‘leave’. In past relationships, even in past phases of romance with Gabriel, I’ve felt parts of me cling to him as to a liferaft. I still feel where I need to go with parts of me in their sometimes over-attachment to him and the comfort and natural solace he brings to the relationship, in order to help them find that more with me than with him. This feels so important for any and all relationships in my life actually, and is what the main process is sometimes for me… to keep bringing it all back to me, back inward, to find, cultivate, and nourish the ultimate source of comfort and love there and with the Divine as well.

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Gabriel: There have been times of complete overwhelm and resistance and other times of ecstasy and bliss. The in-between is what we navigate daily, surfing the realness of heart even if it risks an ‘end’. In reality, there is no end, but rather a moving on place. This is the crucible of my process as a man to be as vulnerable and real as I can and to feel and love the shadows that arise from such a difficult place for a part of me. This is the Real Deal. It is the Big Time. We both signed up for one of the most catalytic experiences in life. True conscious Sacred Union. I am excited and scared as hell at the same time. Who we will be and become are unknown and yet ready to be born. I couldn’t imagine doing it with anyone other than Kalayna.

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Old ideas and conditioning that say that romance is really supposed to offer a ground of having someone to come home to who will love you unconditionally are still very much alive in our culture and embedded in our hearts and souls too from many different lifetimes of feeling abandoned especially by romantic love. The new sense of Sacred Union though, feels so different… it feels as if it wants to come from the transaction ground between two lovers who are in a mutual healing and maturation space, meaning that this cling to each other for reasons of quelling wounding for a while wants to move into something new, some new ground of relating that is based much more on health rather than dis-ease within. This is the sense of Sacred Union that we commit to with each other now… and we cannot know how deep this will go or how long it will last. Yet, to treasure what we have right now in this moment, even in this moment of writing this piece together, feels important and desired.

Much love to YOU and with YOU as you continue to explore your own journey of these Sacred Union grounds within… and possibly with an Other too, either in this moment or another moment to come. ❤

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.



The Rise And Balance Of the Mental Body During The Equinox

I think therefore I am.

This was an invitation to go beyond what we “knew” about the world around us and dive into the world that resides within us. A philosopher’s creed. There was so much to think about in regards to the nature of existence and our place within it as humans. This heightened sense of cognition and curiosity led to so many discoveries in the mathematics of life. Pythagoras finding God in geometry. The inevitable rise of knowledge leading to power.

A mental grid blanket formed over the heart. Efficiency, productivity, invention, and progress became the engine of modern civilized industrialization. The masculine drive lost touch with its counterpart of intuition, cooperation, trust, kindness, and decency. It is not they do not exist, but they do struggle to find balance and a place at the table of humanity.

Even religion and spirituality can have its mental overlays that keep it “out there” rather than right “in here”. In the heart. In the now. It is not an attack on the mind, but rather a much needed and desired relationship to it. The unbalanced and unfelt masculine has been at war with itself and the world around it.

There is a sacred energetic poultice that is occurring here on Gaia during this Equinox. This mentalized and scared sacred part of ourselves is coming to the surface to be loved. To be felt in its protection, in its need for control, and its fear. This part has a lot of discernment and can be very unsentimental which is needed in certain situations. But it can be at the sacrifice of something quite innocent and tender inside of us.

This “mental body” has a name and a story. It has a deep purpose as a guide and a manifestor. It can be an Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Matriarch/Patriarch. Yet, when left unfelt it can create blocks to our emotional and spiritual bodies.

Raphael Awen and I will be discussing this (with both heart and mind) in our next Sacred Masculine video. We will seek to connect to this part of us to feel what it has to say about all the doing and thinking that has kept many of us from truly feeling and experiencing the kind of joy and expanded consciousness that is right there waiting for us to embody and experience beyond the mind.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Sacred Romance; Sacred Ceremony

Wow.

What a magical day it was yesterday. The weather could not have been more ideal (well, maybe a tad warmer, but not complaining!). Jelelle and my daughter Raianna wove a stunning tapestry of love for the ceremony with decor and an altar in honor of our Usness. Jelelle’s holding of the space was truly beyond words. Her words invited depth and spirit and could feel the multitude of being and lifetimes in the room with us.

Kalayna was just stunning in her dress and radiated and glowed with the love she came into this world with. I felt rather dapper in my thrift store finds (in full disclosure). We carried the love to the ocean where we felt The Divine grace us with jubilance and fanfare. Raphael spoke eloquently of feeling the mourning as well as the celebration which lets in the poignancy of the sacred moment. We commit ourselves not to its length but to its depth.

We were joined by a new friend to our intimate circle, Annie, as a heart and soul presence that so sweetly took in and reflected our love. Raianna brought us to tears with her words and guitar playing.

We are so blessed with everyone’s love and well-wishes in this new phase in our growth and service of love. We look forward to serving its overflow to the individual and the collective.

Much love back at you all,

Gabriel & Kalayna Solais (pronounced So-lay-is)

It is pronounced Solish in Irish/Scottish but we felt to be phonetic as it is easier. It means light and soul.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Dare To Lead With Love: A Message From Archangel Michael

Son Day. Sacred Masculine activation and Divine Father connection day. I felt an invitation from Archangel Michael this morning to step into a deeper relationship and partnership with him. An invitation for all of us, both man and woman, to feel him differently. He wants us to feel and see him as a bridge and ambassador to the Father Divine. He wants us to lay down our swords and shields so that we can feel the masculine in a whole new way. To remember it back into our hearts.

He says:

“The war is over. There was never really one to begin with. It has always been, and ever will be, within. A need to reconcile the separation from Mother/Father/Source/Love. I cannot, nor will not, protect you from your own shadow. I can support you, guide you, and co-create with you, but I cannot stand in the way of what it is that you were meant to experience by your soul’s choosing.

The masculine is in need of a reboot and a reframe. A return to His nature as a magistrate of the Will of Love to replace the Rule of Law. To embody and integrate the Yin to His Yang. To heal His own relationship to the Feminine and The World. A new archetype is ready to emerge from this courageous journey of vulnerable surrender mixed with impassioned action. A steward of conscious embodied evolution rather than a warrior for peace and justice. For in any war there is no peace and no justice only more separation.

True change begins with your own reflection. See it in its entirety. Feel where Love has been kept at bay by your own understandable protection. You are a leader, my brother. You are an agent of change by the very light you shine to yourself and then to others. Dare to be kind. Dare to be decent. Dare to be truthful with an open heart. Dare to make mistakes yet not be ‘wrong’. Dare to believe that Love will hold it all. I will be there with you every step…if you dare.”

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AA Michael painting by Christie Martin

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.