Balancing Light Activations With Love For Ongoing Digestion And Integration

By Jelelle Awen

You may be seeking MORE light, more activations, more awakening and altering experiences from and with others. For moments, these activations feel GOOD. These activations remind you of your soul essence AS light. 

These experiences jolt and bolt. They vibrate and activate. Their energy is of the churning and burning kind. 

There can be a kind of ‘mode’ in this activation seeking. The mode looks like finding the next thing to join and belong to. The next thing to ‘take’ that will heighten and lift. The next thing that will spark the fire that will light up existence to feel more worthwhile. It is like the thrill seeker wanting ever greater heights to fling themselves off of. 

The afterglow of these profound activations can be temporary. They last as long as the retreat/seminary/workshop/session lasts. They are somehow ‘outside of your life’; they are also, somehow, outside of your body. And, usually, outside of your heart. 

So often there is cost to your well BEing afterwards. There can be intense symptoms felt in the body of this over saturation of activations. There can be undigested traumas that have been pushed up from the lifetimes where this light was called in and then used in an abusive way toward others or yourself. There can be acute frustration for parts of you about WHY the suffering and pain continues in your life even after intense activating experiences…….as if they are in the aftermath of these experiences, rather than being healed and transmuted by them. 

The NEW and NEXT invitation for our Ascension into our sacred humanity is for the focus to be on the digestion of all these activations, not just the seeking out for more of them. It is for us to be aware of how important the INtegration of these light codes IS to our ongoing sense of well being.

Integration happens as LOVE comes in. Love allows for the light to digest into every cell. Love allows for the light to integrate into daily life. Love makes the space for the feeling and healing of the traumas previously in the shadows that also get pushed up by so much light. 

Love comes from the heart and womb of the Feminine and the embracing energy of the Divine Mother. Love is provided by Her compassion, her forgiveness, her NURTURING, her acceptance of wherever you are in your awakening process and journey.

Embodiment (or ‘in-the-body-meant’ as I recently saw it wonderfully called) is about the balance of the light and of the feminine. The balance creates a fireplace so that there isn’t harm as the fire of light sparks up, yet provides place for it to bake into MORE revelations of love. This balance becomes possible as the Protector/Gatekeeper aspects of your soul can be negotiated with to allow more love to come into your BEing. 

Your Gatekeeper aspect may have learned to distrust love in favor of the light even as they resist the light too in some ways. The Gatekeeper may feel that love has been scarce, whereas light has been more bountiful. The feelings of this part of you can often connect very directly to the wound of your mother experience from this life and other lifetimes as well. They connect to the original pain of separation from the Divine during this life and other lifetime incarnations and, therefore, feelings of being ‘kicked out of’ and dispelled from the Divine Feminine womb space.

I wrote more here about healing from the original separation wound from the Divine to return to wholeness: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/06/27/healing-from-divine-separation-3d-experience-to-return-to-wholeness/

You may recognize and resonate with what I am offering here as an up/down indigestion experience that you are repeating for yourself in your awakening journey. To cultivate a space from within that can hold and digest and integrate the light WITH love is what we are being invited to BEcome. A balance of the Divine Feminine and Divine masculine aspects of your being that doesn’t sacrifice your well being for enlightenment (even and esp. to serve others).

The Divine wants us to experience this balance, where joy/magic/alchemy are sustaining in EVERY moment for us. And, we are experiencing the increasing sense that we ARE the light of love finding its way home inside every cell of our very human bodies.

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper aspect, who allows access to other lifetime/timelines and also seems to regulate flow of light/love into your BEing: 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Photo by Artem Kovalev on Unsplash

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Love Transmission From Divine Mother On ‘The Day Of The Mother’

by Kalayna Solais

From the beloved Divine Mother on this ‘Mother’s Day’… or what I feel to call, ‘the Day of the Mother’. ❤️

She offers, in all of Her heart for us, the following… as a way to feel Her ongoing INvitation to us and all parts of us…

~

“I am proud of your integrity.
Your desire for more of it.
Your journey to deepening and refining it.
Your search for what’s true… about you, about others, about the world around you.

I am proud to watch your journey.
Sometimes as a silent witness, sometimes with cascading sounds, deep cries, or buoyant laughter.
I am proud when you feel proud and when you feel the ways you don’t feel proud too.
I am proud of your courage to be here now, even when your courage feels null to parts of you and they aren’t sure how to carry on.
I am proud when you do carry on and I’m proud when you don’t.

I hold a flag and a candle for you in all weather, in all circumstances, believing in the you I see and feel and know beyond a shadow of doubt.
The you that may take you decades, many timelines to unravel and uncover, many dedicated hours of inner work and self-discovery.
The capricious and ever-shifting emotional landscape of your being that is on its own sacred journey through the woods of reactions, pain, and heartbreak… I am proud, unendingly, of that too.

The energy and frequency of my love is not one always easily let in, yet it flows to you and all parts of you,
to all warring and battling energies inside of you and your soul,
to the collective you are part of that is coming apart so it can come back together in a way more loving and empowered.
I bring you all of the seeds and blooms of new life within and outside of you
and it is, always, your choice if you plant them, water them, and love them.

I am, at all times, witness, Mother, Sister, and divine beacon of what is possible for you to BEcome.
I am you as you are me, in expression of your personal truths and evolving being-ness.
And I am completely, utterly, in love flow
with you and as you.

Much love to YOU
Today… and always.”

~ Divine Mother

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Her Essence Cannot Be Burned: A Poem From Divine Mother, For Notre Dame

By Kalayna Solais

She does not live in our buildings.

She lives in our hearts

Our souls

And our bodies.

 

Our precious inner artistry

Cannot be lost

With the destruction

Of a symbol.

 

Our opportunities

To anchor into Her love

Will keep popping,

Cropping up

And inviting us inward…

Calling us YIN-ward.

 

Her essence

Cannot be burned.

It lives

despite all efforts

That rail against the dawning

Of the Feminine Day

And wail

That She has forgotten us.

 

Her arms, outstretched

Remind us to trust

Her heart, open

Reminds us to open our own

Even and especially

When it feels most challenging

To do so.

 

With the love of Our Mother

We align with Her

We remember Her

And we fall upon Her

To collaborate with Us

As we birth the New

Pressing through the birth canal

Of our highest and deepest hearts.

 

Much love,

Kalayna Solais

And Divine Mother ❤️❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

For The Love Of Andara Crystals

By Jelelle Awen

I’m in love already with my new crystal friend!! Finally got an Andara crystal after hearing them call to me for over two years! This one came to me at what feels like the perfect time to receive Her Divine Feminine consciousness support. She was named the Heart Of Magdalene Andara by the supplier so that too feels perfect too.

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Magdalene is a beloved guide for me right now as I move into an Lillith type phase of solo independence and service (and Lillith is a guide/aspect too right now rumbling through with fierce intensity at times!) This Andara also feels like the perfect companion to journey to Avalon in the next few months with me.

If you don’t know about Andaras, you might find yourself called to get one or they call you really feels like. There are some ‘fakes’ out there so trust your intuition on it. I got mine here and was so happy to see it wrapped to wear around the neck as I prefer to be activated that way: https://andarawakening.com/collections/andara-jewelry

Here is more about them and their unique monoatomic qualities: https://lifestreasureskauai.com/monatomic-andara-crystals-updated/

I’ll keep you updated on the activations and integrations I receive from Her!

Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Seeing, Feeling, Healing The ‘Past’: Mother Mary Transmission

By Kalayna Colibri

This came through this morning as I connected with Mother Mary… a face of the Divine Mother that is key to helping us become love ambassadors to all parts of us and all beings around us. I felt this for myself, as a way to forgive what has been and move forward into more of what and who I want to be, and I felt to share it, because Mary offers so many beautiful frequencies of love and forgiveness that are so so needed now and always. ❤️

“To you, and all parts and Metasoul Aspects of you:

Starting from a young age in this very lifetime, you’ve only ever done the best you could with what you’ve been consciously and unconsciously taught by birth family, close friends, your pursuit of love and intimacy, and your pursuit of spiritual fulfillment, too.

You’ve been invited to fire-walk through the shadows, the challenging phases of figuring out what was theirs and what is actually yours in your heart and soul and BEing… a necessary and sacred process of death and rebirth, and sometimes a very painful one.

You are forgiven for all expressions of not-love you’ve had to walk out towards yourself and others in this process… beyond ‘forgiven’ actually, as you are infinitely and intimately loved by the Divine that holds you and is within you.

You’ve needed to push, to grapple, to tumble and fall. You’ve needed these messy times of awakening and realizing what you want and don’t want, sometimes without much explanation… sometimes hurting or maybe harming others in the process of feeling and finding your boundaries, or even in the holding on to relationships that are no longer resonant.

You’ve led yourself to this very place you are in now, and if this is not a place of deep fulfillment, you’re invited to feel this, to feel the discomfort, to feel the loneliness, to let all of this alchemize your next steps inward and outward. You’re invited, always, into your next steps, which are always leading you home: to the heart and soul that holds you, and the love that is always surrounding you.

Your next choices are arising now… they are small or they are big, yet the impact is the same. You can choose to feel and be felt, to arise and become real, and you can choose to feel and heal the past so you can live in your new present… the one that will always arise as you do, as you pursue it from inside, as you feel the seeds of what you most truly want being planted in the nourishing soil of feeling and healing.

With much love for you, your journey, and everything inside of you…

Mother Mary ~ “

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Silent Meditation – DAY 32: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/ Jelelle Awen (VIDEO)

DAY THIRTY-TWO: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Silent Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day thirty-two of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I hold space for you to explore your inner worlds in silence. In the silence, we connect in a space beyond words where Unity Consciousness lives and telepathy transacts. During this silent space, you are invited to journey ‘along’ with me as I take you to the settings and places that we have explored during the series. The precious parts, Metasoul aspects, Star Family BEings that you’ve connected with during the series are invited to join us. Divine Mother and Divine Father hold the space with MUCH love for this exploration, wherever it takes you.

You are welcome to play music if you’d like although the silence can be a wonderful space holder. There is some background noise from the street near our house and even a small harbor plane flying over. These are the ‘noises’ of everyday life that invite us to focus beyond when we are meditating.

The one thing that came through very clearly during this meditation was the repeated refrain of “You are Love”…..over and over. I hope you can hear it, feel it, and BElieve it as you BEcome it!

Thank you for joining me on this thirty-second day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch all the videos in the series here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Sacred Feminine Healing W/Divine Mother Guided Meditation – DAY 28: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/ Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri (VIDEO)

DAY TWENTY-EIGHT: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Sacred Feminine Healing W/Divine Mother Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri

This is day twenty-eight of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about sacred feminine healing for women. As I’ve been offering in this video series, there are key areas of self exploration that can lead to the arising of your sacred femininity. We talk about how individuation from your birth mother templating and working with your Inner Mother is a key aspect of this. Another important self love exploration is with your sacred sexuality, your Yoni space, and clearing of sexual trauma and abuse frequencies from this life and other lives.

Discovering what the feminine is in authentic expression is also about feeling into what isn’t feminine, yet rather wounded masculine expression. This comes forward through expression of usually masculine parts such as the Inner Protector, Gatekeeper, Inner Punisher, who heal into healthy masculine frequencies of guidance, right action, discernment, ability to set boundaries etc. The healing of your wounded feminine in forms such as your Inner Child and Inner Teenager is also an important aspect of moving into wholeness of integrated feminine expression.

In the meditation today, Kalayna leads us into an exploration of a sacred feminine healing circle through experience of Divine Mother frequencies. Kuan Yin, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Sophia, and Dark Mother join you to connect their healing frequencies with yours. Your wounded feminine parts and masculine Protectors also come into the circle to receive Divine Feminine love.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-eighth day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch all the videos in the series here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

 

 

Energy Update: Prep For Super Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse Invites Shadow Integration

Energy update: Preparation energies for the Supermoon total lunar eclipse on Sunday evening, January 20th into January 21st. These total lunar eclipses can be QUITE powerful….sometimes in subtle ways, working on the subconscious and emotional body more than in an overt way.
 
In a total lunar eclipse, Gaia blocks the sun’s light from reaching the moon. The sun casts the moon’s shadow onto the moon’s surface and this is what we see from Gaia as a total eclipse. This will be a supermoon, so the moon will be in its closest proximity to us and VERY visible for those in North and South America, Europe and western Africa. Central and eastern Africa and Asia will see a partial eclipse of the Moon.
 
The Divine Feminine energies during these days leading up to the eclipse are most like the Dark Mother – great catalyst, midwife of birth-death-rebirth cycles….helping us to rise like a phoenix from the ashes after a series of small, controlled burns. She holds the space for this with almost an unsentimental frequency to allow us to truly move into our OWN power as sacred humans.
 
This feels like the Divine Feminine energies coming in to create a womb space. The sacred masculine SOULar activations that we’ve been experiencing strongly in waves for the last two years especially ‘rest’ during this time. The womb space is for the birthing of whatever has previously been in shadow to come into illumination. It’s really an honoring of shadow and all of the gifts that come from the brave exploration of it and moving beyond fear into love.
 
On a body level, you may be feeling the rumblings and even pains in your sacral/womb space and solar plexus area for women, as if pregnant or preparing to give birth. Hormonal levels can be amplified with moon cycle symptoms increasing too. Men go through their own hormonal cycles too and may be feeling the impacts of this lunar cycle.
 
This is a powerful passage to connect with what feels like deeper places of trauma from this life and other timelines and the parts and Metasoul aspects that hold them. The veils are thin; the stage is ‘set’; the energies are supportive and Divine Mother is here to help in ALL Her forms.
 
My daily video series is over halfway through yet you can dip into and experience any of the videos/guided meditations that call to you. It’s a good time to go within and explore whatever needs your attention and love. Here is the playlist of them all so far: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
 
I’m going to release a Supermoon Total Lunar Eclipse guided meditation on Sunday to connect with the eclipse codes and bring them into your body/soul field, chakras, etc.
 
MUCH love to you during this passage of self exploration and rebirth,
Jelelle Awen
 
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with Jelelle for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Returning To Divine Mother: A Poem

By Kalayna Colibri

To truly let Her in… you become the poet and the dancer of heart and the deep journeyer of soul.

To truly let Her in… the sword is dropped as you surrender to the embrace of a love and acceptance you’ve forgotten you were worthy of.

To truly let Her move you… means burning away that which doesn’t align as you surrender to the fire of boundary-setting (with care) and the illumination of that which has been in shadow.

This is what it means to be with the Divine Mother in all of her forms and faces… and to begin to understand that you are part of that too.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Christ/Magdalene Light Streams In To Begin This ‘Christmas Season’

by Kalayna Colibri
Today… today it feels like Christ Consciousness is coming in to be held and to hold us too. It’s the ‘official’ kick-off of the Christmas season here in North America, so there’s that, yet increasingly as we approach 12/12 and perhaps especially with all of the ‘current events’ ongoing, Christ Consciousness is coming through with a palpable Divine Father/Masculine energy.
 
Today may be a hyper shopping day for some, which promises a gateway to much debt as many choose to invest their energy and resources into making purchases to perhaps try and please the unpleasable, both inside and out. Yet, almost as if to try and help us learn to hold and BE with these emotional highs and lows instead of spending scads of money and emotional energy to placate something, there’s all this warm, golden Christ energy coming through to hold us and remind us that we ARE more than this by birthright and soul-right.
 
The Divine feels us in this emotionally and spiritually-charged time we call the ‘Christmas Season’ and offers space for parts of us to land and lean more into the glow of the Christ Consciousness light waves coming in what look and feel like golden and red glittering bands of light. This is the Christ/Magdalene love coming in to encourage us to feel all there is to feel and move even more towards a unified inner community as well as resonant soul family/community. There is SO much light streaming in that it can’t help but bring UP what isn’t love inside of you and the ache for MORE of what you most authentically WANT in your heart and soul.
 
It is a powerful choice to go inward and feel during this time instead of looking outward for quelling what is becoming harder and harder to quell or quiet down inside. To explore the parts of you hurting and reacting during this time, to help them and to be with them as the most important ‘family’ you could ever work to love and hold dear. It is equally powerful to vulnerably reach out for help and to courageously show up to support others in their healing too. This is an aspect of Christ Consciousness that begins, as always, from within… and we are invited as this ‘Christmas season’ (which is really ‘Christ-Consciousness Season’) begins, to truly land in our hearts in a new and renewed way, whatever that means for us in any given moment.
 
Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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