Category: For Men

Recollecting And Reconciling Our Forgotten Sacred Brotherhood

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In this clarion SoulFire call to serve and gather men together in sacred brotherhood, I have had to feel my own resistance to my relationship with men both in this life and in my Metasoul.

This life has been more of a Beta version of my masculine that has led those relationships, resonating with other Beta versions in those I was closest to. Our Nice Guys would come together in solidarity rather than the Real Guy. Our repressed rage would come out in relation to sports, politics, or our significant others, but they would rarely, if ever, come out toward each other.

It was like we were tip-toeing around a volcano or walking on thin ice, being subconscious to this resistance to get more intimate or deeper with each other. We could feel the love and care for each other, but it was expressed in a muted fashion. A solid handshake with the other arm slapped around the back in a masculine embrace that was temporal and shallow, yet aching for something more underneath.

That ‘more’ feels like a reconciliation. A remembrance of what we have been through in other lifetimes that have been challenging, disturbing, and heart-breaking. We don’t just come together by chance. We come together to heal the ‘past’ and remember our connection. We find each other to remind ourselves that we are human and not fucking robots doing the bidding of our matrix masters anymore.

The Brotherhood is collective, but it is also closely intimate. There are bands of brothers that have been through the muck together time after time, life after life. This is the Soul Brotherhood rooted in the Heart. They fashion a sacred geometry together that holds the flame of the greater Soul Community/Tribe/Family that include the Sacred Sisterhood, their counterpart mates and kindred sisters.

This is what I feel I am here to remember and re-collect. To remember the pain of loss. The pain of death. The ache of the grief of our separation. The unity that we shared, that we held, that we honored and cherished so sacredly and have since packed away in our shadow for it is a lot to feel.

It is to shine that Light of remembrance as a beacon to draw back the Brotherhood. To heal the separation between us and remember our Glory once again. Our Divinely appointed gift as men to fashion a reality that is centered in the Heart and bonded with the Feminine. A reality that holds us each as sovereign and in union both. They cannot be separate.

But first, the Remembrance. The tucked away memory of what has happened to cause this diaspora. This closing of the heart between us. The battles, the war, the exploration, the conjuring, and the revolutions that never quite lived into Evolution. I will go into that for my own healing as well as for the healing of the Brotherhood itself. This is the promise of The SoulFire.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Men Of The SoulFire: The Power In Your Choosing

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By  Raphael Awen

Men Of The Soulfire.

You often begin a journey having more clarity about something that is no longer you, than you have of a knowing of what exactly IS you, of what it is that you actually want.

You’re outgrowing a container. It’s becoming increasingly uncomfortable.

Following this guidance of completing, letting go, admitting to yourself and in turn your world around you, what it is that you no longer wish to be a part of, you are eventually led to more understanding and participation of just what it is that you truly want and need.

The word ‘eventually’ is key here, because as you come to these negative realizations and admissions, both negating and validating the things that once served you, but are now completing, making real their completions, EVENTS synchronize with your choices and assist in the completion.

You activate the super intelligence that undergirds all things to engage with you to a higher interactive degree.

It’s very often a close relationship that’s ending, or a career, or a geography, or maybe a number of more subtle things cumulating and culminating inside of you.

Life awaits patiently your leadership of simple admission. The container shifting begins here.

Yet life also marches on even as it extends patience to you. Opportunity after opportunity can be refused, leaving you with backed up energy moving inside of you, creating dis-ease in the body, heart and soul.

Something has to give and something will give, again, ’eventually’.

Your power comes into play here as a key player in these events. Avoidance inevitably accumulates suffering, whereas embracement of change leads to empowerment.

Empowered Men are of a different heart and soul caliber because they intuitively know and feel that their lives are the ground of their true growth. They know their responses are like swordsmanship, cutting away what no longer serves, clearing away and making room for what wants to come, but doing no harm in the process.

One such grand culmination occurred for me in 2005. The height of the drama was a rather quiet, but utterly life changing admission to my world around me, at the age of 44 that I no longer held Jesus as my personal saviour, leaving behind a life spent in Christianity. This resulted in the dissolution of my total social world, including a 23 year marriage; relationship with daughters, and extended family.

Many other choice points have come and gone since and continue to come.

I’ve gone on to find my calling and joy in assisting other men in leading their sacred choices and lives, and then in turn providing a nexus point of community and shared experience with these men.

Men of the Soulfire.

I would like to offer myself and Gabriel Amara as a resource for engagement. Follow us here. Ask either of us for a free intro into 1:1 SoulFullHeart Soulfire Sessions for Men. More here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Find out more about SoulFire on our brand new web page: http://soulfullheart.org/soulfire

And there’s an upcoming Men’s Group Call over zoom on Sunday, November 27 at 5 pm London Time (a ways away, but I want to invite you early) about ‘Sovereignty In Community’. Details to come soon.

Thank you for being here.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The Rising Tide Of Our Healing And Ascension

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I have been finding amazing paintings and pictures that represent the inner state and healing journey for myself and other men that resonate. This one particularly struck my attention. A deluge scene of a man trying to save his father at the behest of his wife and child.

There are numerous interpretations to be had. There may be initial emotional reactions especially from the feminine perspective. I had them too. There is an uncomfortable feeling here. It evokes something shadow inside of us and hard to look at.

It was posited that the father represents the man’s past, and the child and woman as his present and future. One being reached for and the other ignored. I also took this to an inner dynamic of the man struggling to let go of something old and dying within him. A consciousness, a world view, or a suffering. The seeds of his Kingdom lie right beside him yet out of view.

The child representing his youth, his innocence, his purity, and potential. The women his inner feminine, Queen, heart, and intuition. She holds on for dear life while making sure the child is within reach. It evokes a sadness, a pain, a grief, a shame, and an anger. What are we losing when we struggle to let go of that which no longer serves our growth and divine calling?

As a man, I am curious what this stirs in you. I am feeling it call to parts of me that can be found in both men and the child. The past, the present, and the future. I feel the separation from my own feminine even as I have begun to reconnect with her more consistently. While she may appear to be looking to be saved, I feel her more needing to be seen and felt as an integral aspect of our being.

As far as the deluge itself, I feel it represents the ongoing ascension that we are all a part of. It is the waters of Truth, Light, and Love that are streaming into us personally and collectively. It is the flood that dares to bring us to our most sacred and the most scared.

There is a deep reconciliation here. A mirror and an opportunity for something new inside each of us. We are being called to embody all of our selves into wholeness. Bringing them back onto the banks of our kingdom. We are in a choice point of moving on and moving up, or choosing what is already dying.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Our Perfect Imperfections

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I remember when I was a kid being asked what my favorite number was and I just blurted out, “Ten!”. I think I might have been ten years old at the time. That was either a sign of self-focus or I just really liked the number 10! While growing up I did have this need for things I did to be perfect to whatever degree perfect was to a part of me. Whether it was perfect scores on tests or doing some art, perfection was a pervasive overlord in my life.

Somehow ‘perfect’ was a way to avoid failure or need for improvement. The antidote to an inner criticism of myself and, in the Shadow, the criticism of others. So much need in my subconscious and soul at the time to bear witness to, or to be, Perfection. I feel it was both nature and nature. I came into this world with it and was supported in its cultivation through my conditioning.

It came out as wanting to be the perfect student, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect son, the perfect husband. I found myself in a prison made by the Tyranny of Perfection. Being perfect was to be seen as Good or Righteous in the eyes of God in my Metasoul that I had come to realize during my early inner healing journey. It was quite the burden to bear as a young boy and my poor parents were at a loss to know how to deal with it. What resulted would be punishment for ‘unacceptable’ behavior.

When we come to Earth, we may view our caregivers as representatives of the Divine Perfection from which we are sourced. When they prove to be otherwise at a very early age, a Holy Shit moment may occur and we realize we are not in Heaven anymore only to don a new set of eyes from which to view the world with some deeper existential questions. ‘If they aren’t perfect and I come from perfection, where does that leave me? Where the hell am I? How do I navigate this place?”.

A protection forms that can also be comprised of a punishing layer whose intention it is to protect, but not necessarily in the most loving or effective way. It is trying to form a self that is acceptable to this imperfect world out seeking the perfection from which it came. A bit of a hot mess scenario but here we are! It is what we came here to work and to shift for ourselves and for the collective for we are inextricably connected.

Coming to terms with our imperfections, our ‘faults’, and our ‘missing of the mark’, are all portals back to the perfection from which we were sourced from and continue to be held by. We can all look forward to a higher timeline that may be different than the one we live in now, either inside or out. That is a deeply inherited part of our nature. We want and need bigger, better, and brighter. We don’t need to build any of those back, we just need to love our way back.

Today, let’s love the parts or aspects of us that feel imperfect, unworthy, or not ‘good’ enough to have, or be, it all. That is not to say it is okay to stay there, but it is okay to feel that way as long as we are feeling it and loving it and not just setting it aside when it comes up. It has been an ongoing process for me to keep loving and moving these parts of me into a position of feeling perfectly imperfect. That all the ‘dings and dents’ are a part of the larger tapestry that make me who I am. They are the fruits of what have healed and the seeds of what have yet to be watered.

Ten is a powerful number. It can be a reminder, a goal, or a tyrant, all depending from which direction you are looking at it. Today, it can just be a number and you can just be human. It’s okay. It’s all perfect. It’s all Love even when it doesn’t feel that way.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Healing Of The ‘Matrix Masculine’

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This past Equinox gathering of hearts and souls pushed up a lot for me that has roots deep in my soul. I also felt how it was connected to the collective as well. When that happens it can be a lot to sort and move through. Yet, this is why I am here. This is why my soul has guided me to be a part of an intimate community so that I can feel and heal what needs feeling and healing on a personal level, which in turn makes waves in the quantum world. 

After the completion of my sacred union relationship with Kasha, I found myself in a ‘doing’ mode that seemed to put a wall around my deeper grief. I have had tender moments of loss and remorse, but it was made clear that a part of me had a strategy to ‘avoid the void’ of the deeper grief that lives inside. There is a great separation wound that exists inside that I have skirted the edges of, thinking I have met it fully, when in fact I have been swimming in the shallow end of the pool to some degree. 

This is not a prescription for me to dive into the deep end willy-nilly, but rather to be aware of the territory and let it arise in its due course. My soul will know when I am ready. Alongside the Sacred Grief, there was also another layer of inadequacy and unworth that came into my field with the acknowledged strategy of avoidance. This is tricky as I felt it in an inner masculine aspect of myself that I have worked with for a long time. He represents so much of my own personal masculine as well as a connection to what I have felt as the ‘Matrix Masculine’. 

This aspect was born/constructed from the womb of the False Mother/Father matrix we are all a part of to some degree or another. He has been wrapped up in it like a fly caught in a spider’s web. At times, he is motivated to fight against it, find freedom from it, or learn to master it. Either way there is still a relationship to it that is at odds. The history of being stuck in this loop has created a deep seed of suffering, grief, shame, and feeling lost. He has been separated from his own feminine counterpart on the inside which exacerbates the condition. 

I was shown this disconnect from my own inner feminine part as well as from my own Divine Essence or Self. It was an illumination of the wounding within the Holy Trinity of Self-to-Self, Self-to-Other, and Self-to-Divine. This masculine part of me, named Marcus, is at the hub of this. He represents so much of my power, truth, and vision. He also represents the pain, the pressure, and the punishment. 

Beside the disconnect from my inner feminine there is also one with my inner child and him. He has forgotten the art of play and the presence of innocent joy that it brings. The reconnection of all three feels like another Holy Trinity of masculine, feminine, and innocence. When we as men can have contact with all three in a sacred dance and flow, we have found ourselves on a new strata of personal experience of the world we live in. 

This compartmentalization happened for protective reasons as well as wounded ones. It is now bringing these aspects of me back into the same room and starting the healing and reunion process. I also feel a need for my beloved wounded masculine to be seen and felt as the Divine Son that he is rather than the Lost Son. That is an ongoing process that will take time as reintegration and ascension does. 

On the integrated side of the journey, it opens up more of my divine masculine heart to be in love with myself and those close to me. It opens up my trust and leadership as well as my creativity and play. It offers me a new timeline of what it means to be a human man merging again with Spirit and Source. With the Shadow and the Light. 

Thanks for taking this all in as I hope it gives a doorway into this process for others that feel a resonance with what I continue to work with inside of myself as a man in a very intimate community and healing process.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Entering The Portal Of Our Growth & Embodiment

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I’m getting a personal and private download about you as a masculine being in your life as you know it right now. (It also happens to apply to all men, but I invite you to see if fits for you personally…)

There is before you, percolating, bouncing, calling for your attention – in the circum-stances of your life, standing in circumference around you – a portal. In the drama playing out in your life right now, there is what amounts to either a big block or a big portal, depending on how you relate to it.

Like a henge of standing stones, you may know and sense something profound was intended in these constructs of these circumstances, yet, it’s unknown and mysterious at the same time as to why they are here and where they might take you, depending on how you respond to them.

This portal is an offer to go to your next places of soul growth, human embodiment, and healing of wounds. This portal also wants to yield to you the soul gifts that were intended for you. Gifts that you’ll never know unless you consciously receive them.

These circumstances can either close in on you to shut you down, or they can be embraced, negotiated with, owned, and entered into, to allow yourself to be taken into your next soul growth and human embodiment, bringing both endings and beginnings.

The circumstances are so tailor made for you, and are so ready to shape-shift as you relate with them, rather than avoid them.

A difficult and humbling piece in all of this is that we never get free of these growth portals, in the sense that a current part of you may feel bothered by the challenge before you. The courage and humility you respond with now won’t actually be any different than the courage and humility that will be called upon years from now. It becomes easier and more natural for sure, but not something we get beyond in this life.

So a question arises, that deserves your heart attention; do you still want to continue on an awakening journey if the challenges cease? What if the challenges actually increase instead? I know, that’s not very good marketing, to kill the false hopes, but I feel how you’ve been fed and are now fed-up with false hopes and the emotional charades of a false-light spirituality.

Something more is wanting arise in your heart, soul and body. Something more is wanting to radiate out from you. Something more is wanting to be shared and partaken of together in community of soul family and awakening brotherhood.

Regardless of the shit flying overhead, you have a choice and choices to make.

How you respond to that choice is what allows you to sanely navigate the storm without regrets in the end, and even to endure deep loss with self love and love for all others involved. You can even make a wrong choice and it will be transmuted into the right choice in the end if it’s made from this kind of heart opening and humility.

There is a real hopeful outcome to embrace, but it’s not exactly relief in the way parts of us have related to just wanting relief. Real relief brings new growth and new challenges. In some ways, the storm picks up. That can’t be denied.

Maybe the deeper relief a part of you is hoping for in the relief of circumstances is the soul relief in finally stepping into, and no longer avoiding your larger soul choices? That would be a profound relief, but on a whole other level.

You can show up to feel each part of you and their reactions to the polarity in the circumstances at hand. That’s why it’s a pretzel, because parts of us are attached to opposite outcomes or desires. And before we use that word ‘attachment’ in a negative way, let’s feel how boring and empty of a human being you’d be without any ‘attachments’, and how useless to others around you, except possibly is dressing up that old false god of being ‘so spiritual’.

Forget about friendship or romance. Forget about being alive, really. Without any attachments, I can’t locate you, or actually have a relationship with you. You’re not actually here.

Don’t ‘zero-point’ out your humanity in your embrace of your divinity. They both want to fire at the 100% mark. That’s 200%! Arithmetically, that’s 200 parts per 100…, huh, that’s makes no sense! Exactly. It’s better experienced than explained. There is no separation actually between your humanity and your divinity unless you create one for yourself. (Which we all did, and do, so no judgment there) 💚

Love to you as you sit in the center of your standing stone henge of circum-stances and embrace and transmute what lies before you – whole universes of magic await you.

Back story to this photo:

This photo was from this early morning here at the Golden Beach, Albufeira where Jelelle and I feel so grateful to have the opportunity to take in the sun codes here, spending a few days, on the 2 year anniversary of our departure from Canada!

How we frame what we are surrounded by composes what we see and that then in turn effects our next choices.

Beauty can so be overwhelming to us, leaving us disempowered, separated from the beauty, reminded of what we don’t have, can’t have and won’t have…, unless we change the frame around how we are seeing and feeling the beauty around us.

What if the beauty is a mirror? For men, I’d ask you, what frames of beauty do you struggle to take in?

Does it show up in pornography? Is it in over energizing achievements that once nourished you, but no longer do? Is it in the pretense of spiritual achievements or status that leave you separated from actually partaking of meaningful personal enduring relationships? Is it in amassing money, but feeling more and more personally bankrupt as you do so? What if all these things of beauty are holding not just a message for you, but also a means to change your life?

What if the darkening skies above you of addiction, in whatever form you are facing it, are actually this sacred portal, awaiting your awakening choice to enter into to see what wants to come next for you?

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Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

A Man’s Heart Is His Greatest Gift

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A man’s heart is his greatest gift
And his greatest fear
He can stand in the fires of hell
With his courage and conviction
Or seek cover and asylum in his shadow

A man’s heart can be a paradox and a parable
Of the journey back to himself through the womb
There is a Warrior and a Lover
A King and an Ambassador
A Scientist and Poet

It is a journey that is lined with mirrors
He may choose not to look at
If he wants to maintain
All that he has constructed,
Assumed and been convinced of.

But if he chooses to look
To feel all that he has been afraid to see
He actually stares into his own death
His loss of control
That can only be replaced by surrender

Surrender to the burning of feeling
Of bringing himself back to life
Through this death
The death of loneliness
Of suffering
Of protecting
Of hiding

This man now stands naked
An emperor without clothes
To be seen as he is
In his humble vulnerability

This is where he rises anew
In Heart
As Soul
Surrounded…
By Love
By Divinity
By Intimacy

~Poem from a book I am writing titled The Quest about my personal masculine healing journey

Art by Katia Honour

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Re-homing, Re-wilding, Re-integrating

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This past week I have been living in an area of land just outside a village near my soul family of feminines. They live in an apartment together I have been calling the Magdalene House. So, not quite wild camping by definition, but not campground, on-grid camping either. A bit in between. A balance between the domestic and the wild.

Since my recent completion with Kasha, I have felt a need to ‘re-home’ myself more than rewild myself. I do feel a draw to get more wild by going deeper into nature but for now, practically speaking, I need a balance for many reasons. So this itches a scratch and a need.

I have felt a split inside myself between polar parts and aspects such as the domestic/wild, the practical/spiritual, the masculine/feminine, and the calm/passionte. It is interesting when I look at those in this moment and I organize them by what came first and then second I get this polarity:

The domestic, practical, calm masculine vs. the wild, spiritual, passionate feminine.

Now there are other ways to organize this list but this one in particular symbolizes something for me personally. It represents an archetypal pattern inside of myself that has played out externally but is occurring inside of me from self to self.

I feel this re-homing period is about creating a space between these parts, aspects and energies to find a safe haven to come and be felt, seen, heard, and hopefully back into union. Being a part of a sacred union off and on, I have tended to focus on the bond rather than my own unification. I have had a history of care-taking that I am in still in a process around to shift into care-giving.

True care-giving is holding a line of goodness and honesty within oneself to bring an overflow of care, compassion, and challenge if needed. If this is not being felt and intergrated internally, it just doesn’t happen on the outside. It turns into obligation, compliance, and the dreaded care-taking that really does no one any good. It may solve a short-term uncomfortability, but does not address core need and growth.

So this care-giving goes internal now. It goes into feeling and bridging these aspects inside of myself through journaling, inner dialogue, and meditation. It is feeling myself and parts in their needs, truth, and desires in each moment. Any dissonce in my field felt as a portal to this reunification inside.

It is like a zipper. I am sitting staring at one in my tent. These parts and aspects need me to zip myself up into a cohesion. A unified field of masculine/feminine, practical/spiritual, domestic/wild, and calm/passionate. I, as Gabriel, am the piece of metal that bring them together and bond them in union to form a more solid pillar of Self, both divine and human. More real and raw. More me, less other.

This has been an ongoing journey for me that has just taken the time it has and the path it has. Any self-judgements just set me back again. Yet, if they come, I will it with them, honor them, and heal them with Love. I desire that my own journey around this re-homing be an inspiration or a guide for anyone else experiencing the same, especially for men. I know there is lot for us to heal and show up for in this ongoing ascension process that just keeps getting more activated by the arising Divine Feminine.

I am having some more ideas about the different types of masculine energies that live within myself and the collective that I will be sharing soon that may be a marker for other men who may feel the same. It is becoming a deep passion of mine to serve other men on this quest for Self, Love, and Purpose while re-homing themsleves.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Sirian Gateway, The Feminine Rising, & The End Of A Great Cycle

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Cycles are ending and beginning. Small ones and big ones. Many of which are happening at this grand juncture of time. A coalescence of all that began a decade ago for many, including myself. I had chosen to feel and heal all that had been haunting me in my emotional and spiritual bodies. Haunting in a suffering sense as well as a calling and longing for something ‘brand new’ from my 3D perspective at the time.

Yet, it was never really new, I was just longing for Me. Longing for my needs, my truth, my gifts, my creativity, my power, and my service for and with the Divine. I know that is a lot of ‘my’s but it needed to be. Parts of me needed the permission to want something more for themselves than what they had created even as good as it was from a particular vantage point.

I am still unfolding this Me into the world. This unfettered power of realness, desire, and purpose. Just like the proverbial Russian doll. Or the ever-peeling onion. One cycle, one gateway, one portal at a time. This particular junction has been a doozy for me personally, and I know for many of you as well. So much is getting shaken and stirred that it has been hard at times to know which way is up or where the North Star is. Of course it is always within, but when we get knocked sideways we may get our bearings off-kilter.

It has been about riding the waves in whatever fashion they come without judgement or expectation. The Divine Feminine is rising, is becoming more embodied, and that is creating ripples and waves in the Masculine. My masculine has been on the edge at times and it has been a little crazy-making to be honest. A vibration that is poulticing out so much in the shadow and all that has been suppressed.

If there is any ounce of control or fear, this energy WILL find it and seek its reconciliation back to a state of Grace and Love. It is not forcing, it is just a reality of what IS. We cannot hide from ourselves and our rightful gifts and service any more. We are being asked to embody our deepest selves with compassion and passion both. There is only one world that we wish to be in and that is in the world of realness and love. Real Love. That feels like what is at the root of this Lion’s Gate passage.

I will be exploring and writing more about my own masculine experience of this ongoing Divine Feminine rising and how we as men may be responding to it either consciously or unconsciously. That feels like my greatest service to myself and to others who resonate. We are getting shaken and stirred and we are all relating to it differently. I hope that it will be a service to women as well who find themselves in connection to men who may be struggling. May it provide a perspective and an understanding from my own personal heart and soul lens.

Sending you so much love as we navigate and support each other through this very turbulent yet alive time in our history.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Being Spiritually Practical

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Am I being spiritually practical or practically spiritual?

That is the question I have been asking myself lately as I am navigating another life change at the moment. The Sirian Gateway is stirring the pot again and that has left some practical things to consider while at the same time letting them unfold.

When I have been met by big life changes, parts of me can get swirled up in a lather. I drew the picture below many years ago when another life change happened. It was quite the cacophony of energy that got kicked up. When there is no differentiation of particular parts it is all felt as a giant storm at times. Yet, there are individual aspects that are floating around in there getting battered and bruised.

I have felt my more ‘practical’ parts or aspects come to take over the situation like a tactical team of experts that come repelling from the skies to manage it all. I am grateful for that team. I need them. Yet, I realize how much in my past I have fused to that energy at the cost of my emotional and spiritual bodies. One big brain walking around until it exploded or passed out.

When I was in my 20s I had hallucinogenic drugs for the first time and they tore down the more mental and practical veil I had clung to like a safety net or security blanket. I realized I had a ton of fear and anxiety that I was managing with the mental and the practical. I was also preventing Love from entering my inner house at the same time to help heal that well of fear and anxiety.

Fast forward 30 years and I don’t feel the same depths of that fear and anxiety as much, but it is still there waiting for me to continue to meet it and Love it. I still feel my tactical practical team coming in, but I am wanting to take a breather to feel what has seemed to get set aside in those moments. Is there something deeper to feel here? Can I take a moment to take stock of this big change happening before me? What is mystical and emotional amongst it all?

This has just been one of my personal tendencies this life. I don’t want to judge it or make it wrong. I just want to recognize it, sense its gifts, as well as its burdens. For carrying the practical can be a burden to parts of us. As a man, this may come at the cost of my inner child and inner feminine. Two aspects that are intrinsically connected to my Heart and Spirit.

I am still walking and waking out of the matrix. It has been ingrained and conditioned in me for a lifetime and beyond. It is true for many of us, especially the masculine. It takes the time it takes to keep untangling and unfurling our wings. The courage we can receive from our Sirian guides and aspects can be a big part of this ongoing process that continues well beyond any Gateway. It is internal and eternal.

I am looking forward to connecting to these energies more this Monday when Raphael and Jelelle Awen host their Lion’s Gate Activation group call. Even if you can’t make it I highly recommend getting that recording for the recoding. More info on our events page here: www.soulfullheart.org/events.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.