Claiming Your Heaven Within: Message From Anna, Grandmother of Jesus

By Jelelle Awen

I feel Anna, grandmother of Yeshua and Master Essene/Magdalene/Avalon/Isis priestess, wanting to share a message with you as we continue to traverse through this 11:11 powerful manifestation portal that is bringing in powerful New Earth frequencies with it. I have been connecting with her in her final resting place at the Chalice Well gardens here in Glastonbury. This has been a sacred process that has brought many tears yet a deeper integration of my soul family lineage as well….

“Thank you, beloved souls, for taking in my message to you!
This is what comes through the Divine’s heart to be expressed to you through mine:


Heaven is not outside of you.

Heaven is not available only when you leave your body and your current lifetime.

The most golden heaven of Earth experiences lives within you.

The heaven of your potential and your capacity.

The heaven of your DNA that is waking up.

The heaven of your sacred humanity that is ready to rise.

This heaven is available in every Now.

As you feel it from within, you can become it.

As you let go of what is not a reflection of this heavenly essence.

As you no longer hold on to ANYTHING that doesn’t feel like this heaven to you.

As you no longer settle or shrink below this heavenly frequency.

As you no longer choose suffering in any form.

As you no longer participate in the Matrix system of enslavement.

As you no longer compensate for karma from other lifetimes.

As you instead LET IN LOVE in all the ways it wants to come to you…

This heaven waits for your claiming within you.

It is time to make this claim of heaven within in every moment by choosing love over fear;

By choosing goodness over suffering;

By choosing light over darkness;

By choosing soul family over being alone;

By choosing to FEEL all that suffers in fear and darkness within you,

By offering a lifeline of Divine love to these places, aspects and parts,

By releasing the karmic binds and contracts that keep them stuck,

you are claiming the healing that wants and needs to happen.

You are claiming the healing that opens up heaven within

with every tear you are willing to shed

and every shadow you are willing to illuminate

and every pain you are so bravely willing to feel.

I hold you with so much love in my heart as does the Divine Mother and Divine Father

as you look no longer upward for Heaven, yet courageously turn inward and discover it THERE.

Ask to experience your Heaven within AND whatever needs your love and attention that may block this experience…and it will be so,

love from my beloved Avalon,

Grandmother Anna with Jelelle Awen

Anna wants to invite you as well to our monthly women’s group transmission call next Sunday, November 29th at 5:00pm GMT/noon EST which feels like it will be a powerful one! Anna and other Magdalenes with Kasha and I will offer a bridge to Magdalene Consciousness. You can offer a donation of any amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More information at https://www.facebook.com/events/357124312188561 or soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books at soulfullheart.org

Connecting With Bird Love In Wells, UK

by Kasha Rokshana

This pigeon 😍

I’d not ever bonded with a singular pigeon before in this lifetime… Until yesterday!

So many wonderful bird magic energies in Wells, near Glastonbury. I could feel my priestess and my inner child too, in joy to be connecting with these creatures. Pigeons are so often looked down on, yet they’re just as beautiful in energy as swans if you look deeper. They sure have a rep for being ‘vermin’ when you live in the city… Yet, this is such a surface level reaction to Gaian creatures that have messages of love for us if we can just take a moment to tune in. ❤️

This pigeon in particular stayed with me for a while, even when the food I had been feeding her from my hand was gone. I’m still awakening my animal communication gifts in this lifetime, yet what I could feel from her (felt female, could just be a more feminine-feeling male for all I know!) was that she was curious about our energy as a group (she visited several of us, not just me) and she was fascinated by my third eye when she stared into it (can see that in this photo).

I could feel some sense of peace and love emanating from her. I felt that she understood in her birdy-way, the tumult rolling through humanity right now, though not necessarily why. She enjoys the visits with humans and feels she offers love to them. A messenger of the Divine Mother in her unique and simple way! 😄

Her energy and mine interacting in this photo may offer a transmission of love and connection with the Divine, with Gaia, and inspire you to connect with nature too!

From the heart of my Gaian-heart-priestess to yours…

Love,
Kasha (and bird friend) ❤️❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Divine Mother Connection Women’s Group Call w/ Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

The magical energies of Avalon (Glastonbury, UK in the physical) stir the heart’s openings and soul longings of women for the Divine Mother, hugely supported and activated by the Divine Feminine frequencies long cultivated here in these lands.

SoulFullHeart Teachers/ Facilitators/Divine Feminine bridges Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana co-host this group call for women over Zoom to provide a transmission of codes from their physical location in the heart of Glastonbury/Avalon to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment through connection with the Divine Mother. The focus of this group on Sunday, October 25, 2020 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/1:00pm EST/10:00am PST) will be creating a bridge of connection to the Divine Mother forms and frequencies that most resonate for your soul.

We will talk about the challenge and opportunity it can be to feel Divine Mother in a supportive and intimate way that allows you to relate with Her, integrate Her with your Divine Self and your everyday life, and heal the karma trauma that may be within religious/Goddess worshipping lifetimes, in addition to healing birth mother wounding/templating. Creating a bridge from the heart of your Divine Self to the parts/soul aspects who have connection to Divine Mother allows for more activation AND more healing too.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call and with energies of the sisterhood of Avalon and different forms of the Divine Mother. You will also connect with the part of you/soul aspect that comes through to receive these loving energies. We will also tap into and transmit from the powerful Mary ley line/energy flow that runs through the house where we are staying, the Tor, the Abbey & Mother Stone, and other sacred sites here in Glastonbury.

You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.
This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the October 25th women’s group and check that your email is current.

Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions. This is a series that has several calls from the past, although you do not need to listen to all of them to receive benefits from this one. You can purchase the recording of the other women’s groups call and group call transmissions/group call series with Raphael and Jelelle here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Here is a timezone converter (call is at 5:00pm GMT London, England time): https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

Contact us here on FB or at soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information. More information at soulfullheart.org.

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Testimonials from previous women’s calls –
“Deepest gratitude for the gifts shared in our Women’s Call today! This call is now part of a growing experience of togetherness and sisterhood – TO BE TAKEN IN MANY TIMES, ANYTIME. If you did not have a chance to participate, I would strongly recommend that you take in the recording – As all that we experience, the energy of this one is alive! Incredibly rich to all my parts! Much gratitude for the beautiful shift that it allowed for me today! Namaste!” Isabela Gasparini, group participant
“I feel so much gratitude and Love. These calls are so healing and revealing so much as is this whole process. So glad I am here. I wanted to express deep appreciation for the shares too”. Deya, Group participant
“Such a wonderful call and I feel so grateful to have finally been able to attend one of these women’s calls! The meditation and teaching was so moving and epic, each face of mother feeling so important for each aspect of me and my life. The sharings were beautiful and vulnerable as well, so real in what was true for each person’s process. Can’t wait for the next one!” Raianna Shai, Group participant

Entering The Season Of Mother Mary

by Kasha Rokshana

The Fall season softens something in my heart. It’s the season I associate with Mother Mary. Hers is a tender invitation to go inward and feel, fast if you feel like (in whatever ways that means for you), and just soften the edges around the parts of you that get understandably protective at times.

Mother Mary’s energies of deep compassion are an invitation to ‘come as you are’. This means feeling all you’re feeling in this and any moment, without concern about self-image, feeling any unworthiness that arises in Her presence, in the midst of letting in Her exquisite love.

Parts of me can have edgier moments sometimes, even after years of inner work. Sometimes it’s a Metasoul sister of mine in another timeline who is struggling with grief and reaction. Sometimes it’s a part of me who is scared to lose control and let go, whatever that means to them in any given moment. Sometimes it’s simply that I need to go inward and just be. Mother Mary’s energies, being so non-confrontive yet very powerful in their space-holding nonetheless, support this softening process for me as I open my heart to feel myself.

And when I open my heart to myself in this way, something magical happens… I can open my heart more to others, feel their side of things easier, and let in compassion for what they must be wrestling through at times too.

I think it’s more than appropriate to bring up Mother Mary’s example during such a time on this planet as this. There’s a lot to tune into, to allow into the heart space, to help the anguish be felt deeper and move too into another form when that becomes possible.

I’m honoured to be walking on grounds where she walked in her lifetime. To feel my soul’s connection to her powerful Magdalene lineage. To feel how humbling it is that I’m very much in my own journey of embodying this deeper in this lifetime. To be offering these energies from this place in particular feels powerful. She shines like a beacon for all who are ready to let in what’s possible in their own heart-healing efforts and desires, and is also a beacon of what’s possible relationally, between every being on this planet.

Much love during this continued Equinox passage unfolding…❤️🍁🕊

Featured Art: Virgin Mary in Prayer by Rebecca Mike

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Oh, Divine Mother: A Prayer

by Kasha Rokshana

Oh, Divine Mother…

Land your vastness in my opening heart.

This being that aches to be as spacious as You.

This human woman who loves to serve your love to others alongside You.

This soul who has served You as a ‘goddess’ of various names and creeds.

Your compassion, unending. Your deep love, inspiring. I desire to feel that flow more and more through me, to me, and in overflow to others.Your essence lives in me as ‘woman’ and ‘priestess’ and ‘oracle’.

Your heart that is alive in all hearts brings us back to feeling… the primary function of our humanity and the seat of all access to your profound love.

Oh, Divine Mother…

As a sacred feminine expression of You, I AM.

As a healing heart and soul, I BECOME.

Thank You for your unconditional acceptance, your embrace of all beings polarized in their ways. Your way of showing me the parts we all need to feel and take ownership of, to co-create from our inner worlds, the outer world we most want to be a part of.

Amen 🌹

Love, Your sacred daughter, Kasha ❤️

Photo is me in the ‘lady chapel’ at Glastonbury Abbey… the site of the first Essene church on this sacred ground, founded by Joseph of Arimathea.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Dearest Daughter: A Loving Message From Divine Mother To Heal The False Mother

Dearest Daughter,

I am inviting you now

to feel your legacy, your lineage, your leanings

that lovingly bond you to ME.

Within all this potential,

all this capacity,

all this inheritence,

all this birthright

is ALL that you need to become

the embodiment of ME.

As you heal the false mother,

that you have been misled to follow

that you have been conditioned to template

that you have been required to model….

so then you can let ME into your heart,

into your soul, into your body, and into your BEing

as a nurturing, catalytic, unconditionally loving

Mother to all parts and aspects of you.

You, my daughter, have always been wanted

never actually been rejected

never truly been separated

never completely been orphaned

from the home of MY heart.

You are an expression of my likeness,

just ripe to arise

into your unique version of ME.

I am here,

in all my numerous faces and figures

holding the infinite possibilities

of your ongoing embodiment

as Infinite Love

in Sacred Womanly form.

My love awaits your reclaiming!

love,

Your Divine Mother (With Jelelle Awen)

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Join me for a special Sacred Feminine arising women’s group call event over Zoom on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT to attend live and/or receive the recording. I’ve been in surrogacy and ongoing embodiment connection with Divine Mother for over ten years and I’ll share about my process of healing from false mother and healing the motherhood wound to let in Divine Mother. I’ll also be providing a guided meditation with Divine Mother to connect with the part of you that needs the healing and create a bridge to your Divine Self as an embodiment of Divine Mother. You’ll also have space to personally share and take in sharings by other women on the call. You can attend by offering a donation of ANY amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

The false mother is the wounded feminine (usually has quite a lot of wounded masculine expression) that we’ve all experienced in some form in our daughter experience. False mother can also be a distortion presented by religions from a patriarchal lens or the Goddess paradigms that distance and don’t create an intimate and personal connection to the Divine Mother that we can then feel as an embodiment of ourselves. As we experience more of Divine Mother, we feel ourselves what has been ‘false’ and what has been true.

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Divine Feminine Bridge/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical/mental levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call and in person events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Welcoming Everything In Closer, Sacred Union Within

By Deya Shekinah

This past month has been a deep dive with my Inner Teenager, Yasmin. We have been digesting so much together and navigating many timelines collapsing and arising. 

It has been a very tender time of feeling the reality of her experiences in this life, especially how she has been in relationship with others. Yasmin has always been such an open book, I have felt in this time of less sharing how her openness hasn’t always come from a place of self love. I’ve been feeling how she has shared such deeply intimate details of her life with others, with anyone really, because she so deeply longed to be felt, seen and heard… something she didn’t receive much of.

As we digested together, I have been writing but when it has come to sharing publicly, I am becoming more sensitive to her vulnerability. I am learning that instead of sharing, I can let her land more inside of me, letting her feelings be felt and validated by me, by Jelelle Awen and by those closest to me, who I feel safe with. Rather than trying to understand, I am learning to listen. To listen to her stories, the ones she has buried deep down and disconnected from. Feeling all the things she could not feel in other times of her life because she wasn’t safe to.

I am realizing all she has ever truly wanted was to be welcomed in all that she is and all that she feels, rather than only being desired, wanted or welcomed in certain energies of who she is. Her tears were so close this morning. I feel how other parts of me have learnt to try to fix her or push aspects of her emotional reality away. I feel how she also experienced this in all of her relationships to varying degrees.

As I moved and danced, I welcomed all of her in closer than ever before, all her tears, all her longing. She felt unsure at first, as tears have always been hard for her to feel without someone else holding space. As her tears were always hidden and not welcomed, it has taken me a long time to realize that they can be. As I grow through this process as a space holder, I am able to offer her a new narrative around tears and sadness, as I see more and  more how her longings and tears are the doorway to our desires for life.

She cried. She let go into me, resting more into the pain in her heart. It felt beautiful. It feels like the beginning of a new relationship, except this one is just with me. I want all of her because I know how much she has held alone, how much wisdom she holds because of that. I feel how deeply she loves when she is welcomed in all of who she is, and how the pain of not being welcomed has broken her heart open to life.

I sense some deeper layers of heartbreak arising, feeling the pain of relationships that didn’t work out and the times it has felt to her that people wanted her but only certain parts of her. The feeling of not being wanted in her fullness touches these tender tears. There is a growing sense of gratitude to those people who weren’t ready for all of her. I am a stronger woman because of it, who feels love for and loved by every aspect that makes up this expression of me. I no longer have to be more than or less than. I can be me, this beautiful bliss mess embodied as a woman. Trusting that as I love myself and see myself more and more, I will attract others who can only show up for the same.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc