To The Great Mother On Mother’s Day

To the Great Mother of All,

As your Divine son, I feel how much I have needed to push away
As well as needed your reassurance.
I have longed for your embrace and your grace
I have denied your Love yet ached for it too.

It can be confusing for parts of me to let you in
To let you ‘win’.
To surrender into your open arms
And to be challenged by your open heart

You have been there always in my darkest days
And my brightest nights
You have sent me messengers and teachers
Ambassadors and beloveds

You have never grasped for me or tugged on me
You have been a silent cheerleader
And a fierce catalyzer
With the knowing that it was always for my highest Good

Thank you for never giving up on me when I was ready to give up
For never doubting me when I felt doubtful
For always seeing me when I couldn’t see myself
For always holding me when I felt I was falling apart.

I will forever be in gratitude to you
You will never let me rest when it is time to run
You will never let me run when it is time to rest
I wish to gather your sons and kings of heart
Back to the power and grace of your womb, dear Mother.

I am blessed to be in your service and in your sacred heart.
You told me once, “Your steps will never be longer than your stride.”
I trust that more than ever and thanks to you my strides are getting longer and stronger.

Love to you Dear Mother of All on this Mother’s Day. 🌹❤

Your Divine Son,
Gabriel

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 1, 2021

The energies of the past two weeks have been bringing up more to feel for all of us individually and the opportunities to awaken and to continue unplugging from the Matrix have been plenty. In today’s issue, we have a featured article that sends an invitation from Divine Mother to all who are ready to deepen in relationship with Her at this time. She offers both a balm and a reality check around what you most need in this and any moment.

Jelelle and Kasha are co-hosting a women’s call focused on healing the ‘mother wound’ to let in Divine Mother on Sunday May 2nd at 5pm BST. You can find more information in this Museletter and also via soulfullheart.org/events.

There are many energy updates and current events digestions as well for you to take in as a support for you at this time.

You can check out the Museletter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Post Supermoon: Invitation From Divine Mother Into Deeper Connection With Her

By Kasha Rokshana

Feeling Divine Mother strongly this morning, especially as we exit the full/super moon (and its mixed energies). Feeling Her vast and deep heart that is always active and present, Her embrace, Her stillness even when She must stir up storms within and without.

Feeling how She invites all of us into deeper trust in Her… in Her shadows and light, in all purposes She holds beyond what we can comprehend in every moment. She is always gently yet also firmly encouraging us to go inward and move forward, with a profound love that many of us have no reference point for from this lifetime or many others.

It’s Her realness I’m leaning into this morning, as I feel my own vulnerable fears and tears that live in parts of me and Metasoul aspects at times… the feelings of going forward with a momentum fueled by so much Divine trust, while also letting in the heartbreak of letting go of a world we all once knew, that I have had my own attachments to, that is all now burning up and crumbling into Divine ashes. It’s not enough to trust the Divine without also feeling the pain that comes up in our hearts… the pain of our inner world letting go to let in, but also the pain of the much larger world that is also crying out for Her love and, as we are all Divine ourselves, for our love too.

I’ve felt over and over again the leaps of faith that the Divine invites me into and the arms them outstretched to catch me as I also catch myself. I feel how this is the invitation to the whole world… to let burn what needs to burn, to let play out what needs to play out, even as we also need to speak out when we feel to… to cry the tears that need to be shed… to let go, even of what or who was once considered beloved if the resonance is not deepening.

I feel Her encouragement, now more than ever, to let go of any ‘false gods’ which include ‘false mothers’ and ‘mother-figures’… authorities that once felt trustworthy, birth parents that you have now outgrown in consciousness, friendships that serve your smallness and not your bigness.

All of this, as She is well aware, needs time and space to process and yet, there is a cost that can accumulate as you waver in your resolve while parts of you who are afraid to let go of what is known, continue to lead your life’s decisions and indecisions.

Mother has so much patience for it all, yet will also offer us a prickly nest as needed… to help us fly, at last. To help us truly see and take ownership of our own journeys, no matter what the hills and valleys are that we may face on the way.

Join Jelelle Awen and I this Sunday, May 2nd @5pm BST for a women’s group call focused on healing the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother. We have both had such deep journeys in our own processes around this and look forward to helping you activate, deepen, or reboot your own connection to Divine Mother in whatever face, form, or energy you need Her to show up with the most right now.

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or PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

When The Light Enters

by Kasha Rokshana

Daylight breaks on sleeping limbs
And soul heartbeats that slumbered
Until they felt the sun…

Heavy clouds part, clearing the din
Of unknown, yet felt, soul themes
Here to be reconciled…

Healing begins
When the parting clouds
That once covered
The heart of trauma
Ask for the light to enter
And illuminate the new way…
The way something within
Has wanted to claim,
Yet hadn’t found the courage for.

We all have these clouds,
And also
This light that shines through an inner,
Very personal Sun.

We all have these moments
Where daytime opens up
And supports the resting
Of the long, Dark Night
And the recollection of why,
How,
And what for.

Each process of in and out
Held so solemnly,
So brightly,
Within the arms of Divine love…
The support of Divine parentage
Inviting always forward,
Encouraging next steps of healing
And THEN…
Of Ascension.

Perhaps all you’ve sought,
Dear soul with fragments, parts, and pain…
Is another way to feel the solace of a world
Resolving inside,
Inviting new growth edges
That call a You forward
As yet unknown.

And so it IS…
The break of day
The coming of Spring
The dawning of your Love Light
Unto and through your inner world
Always affecting and impacting,
Always calling out
For the more you are,
The love you came here to BE,
And the wealth of everything within.

Be well,
Yet even better,
Be love…
In the sincerest way
You’ve yet remembered HOW…
Today, in this moment,
And always. ❤️

Love ~ Divine Mother (with Kasha) 🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Spring Message From A Bird’s Egg

The symbol of the ‘egg’ can be explored so deeply and it’s actually quite an important metaphor for our ongoing growth and awakening phases, individually and collectively.

We each come from an egg inside our birth mother. We are encased in the ‘egg’ of our bodies after we are born. Our souls, it can be said, are always leaving and entering their next ‘eggs’ where we bake and gestate before we awaken some more. We are in a perpetual state of death and rebirth in this way, or maybe ‘birth and rebirth’ is another way to say it, yet embracing that ‘death’ is a part of all of our journeys, in many different ways, is important.

After all, you have to ‘die’ in a way to being in one life phase before you can enter another. It’s part of the cycle of living, learning, and relearning.

Mary Magdalene, in my etheric connection to her as a Divine Feminine guide, has been showing me many synchronicities around the egg she is often pictured with. It’s a symbol of the rebirth of Spring, both in our inner and outer worlds. We go back inward to emerge outward in whatever ‘seasons’ of the heart and soul encompass us in any given phase of our lives.

The other day while at the Glastonbury Abbey, I was drawn to walk along a path where I don’t usually walk, and there amongst the light-hearted daffodils was part of a cracked-open, bird’s egg shell. It felt tiny and fragile as I picked it up, yet the strength of the little baby bird that emerged from it could be felt too. It can’t emerge in any timing but its own, for if that happens, it perishes.

The mama bird can’t make it come out of the shell and experience the big, big world any sooner. Instead, she has to surrender to the cycle of life and allow her baby to come through and out of the egg when it’s truly ready. Its survival and ability to thrive too depends on its own built-up strength, its nourishment received while in the egg, and its overall destiny too — none of which can actually be controlled, but all of which has to arise on its own.

Every phase of being back in an ‘egg’ for us as sacred human souls in near-constant rebirth (especially these days) is about building up our strength and resolve to emerge. The Divine can’t make this happen for us. We can receive guidance, yet our emergence is up to us.

This cracked-open eggshell I found reminded me that it’s our core innocence and healing purity of heart and soul, along with our untethered desire to emerge and awaken, that moves us onward and also upward as we ascend and grow. If we can hold this desire to keep moving through — busting through at times- eggshell after eggshell, while blessing the experience and feeling grateful for it ALL, we ARE going to not only ‘survive’, but also find our deepest destiny on our journey back to love and leading with love to help bring us all back home.

I was so touched to be holding this egg…I felt it on a deeply personal level as I move more into my inner Queen/High ‘Heart’ Priestess power in this and other lifetimes. I also felt like this tender holding of this eggshell, which I’ve now made a place for on my altar at home, is the same preciousness the Divine feels for all of us and our parts/Metasoul aspects now and always. Preciousness that doesn’t caretake or enable parts of us to keep going toward harmful patterns, yet holds us each accountable and invites us, always, to feel, hold, and really own our preciousness and the deep strength and profound power of it.

Much love, from my ever-emerging heart and soul to yours!

Kasha


Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Serving The Feminine, Connecting With The Inner Mother

by Kasha Rokshana

In absolute awe I am, of the depth and sacred intensity in the women I serve in sessions and the women I connect with daily in community as well. Our intensity always matches that of the passion borne inside the womb, that rumbles worlds as much as She creates them.

It’s always vulnerable to lead and be led, to hold and be held, as a feminine embodiment in this and any lifetime. The strength of our inner masculines serves to protect us and our feminine essences, as well as the parts who have felt victimized by this body, by this core of who we are as a heart and soul. Sometimes the inner ‘masculine’ is also a strong and powerful matriarch/wounded Queen/Priestess energy inside that finds it challenging to be vulnerable out of necessary self-protection. Even THIS intensity needs honouring, love, and holding; a recognition of her powerful presence while also helping her learn to feel again, as challenging as that has been for her until now.

I’ve noticed in recent sessions how this matriarch energy expresses in different ways inside of different women. Sometimes we call this the Inner Mother. In one recent session with a young woman in her mid-twenties, we felt how her Inner Mother holds frequencies of being tired and overwhelmed and also victimized by life, much like her birth mother has energized. Another young woman in her early twenties has been feeling how her Inner Mother is also an Inner Punisher who also has frequencies of a Sorceress at times.

I feel, as I serve this dynamic range in women, how much love there is available to continue holding it with an open heart and open hands too, to allow whatever needs to come up in the space to do so. These energies need and deserve to felt and heard, not diagnosed or labeled, even as mirrors are held up for them to start to see their impact on themselves and other parts, as well as relationships on the outside. This is the work of transforming the False Mother into the Sacred Feminine inside, while inviting in the Divine Mother, in whatever form and face is necessary, as the template for this process.

The deep dive inside isn’t actually possible without love and also without support of the Divine Mother, who is the ultimate model for us to feel the inner False Mother and help her heal into more of the healthy, heart-open, capable, and profoundly gifted Queen. It’s Her love that holds the space, really, for which I am but a humble vessel, supporting you to become your own. There’s really no end to this process of deepening this embodiment, no ultimate pinnacle of it, and every ounce of discovery and healing is so worth the journey of diving deep into what (and who) hasn’t felt worthy of receiving, let alone becoming, this energy of sacred feminine love within.

If you’re curious to learn more about sessions with me (I also offer free 45min intro calls if you’d like to talk with me about where we could go in sessions together), visit soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are hosting a women’s call, by donation on Zoom, on March 7th @ 5pm GMT to teach and lead a guided meditation around womb healing and activation. More info here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from sacred Avalon! ❤️🌹
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Imbolc Codes Offering A Bridge To Inner Realms & Womb Space

By Jelelle Awen

Blessings during this sacred passage of Imbolc!

We are honoring today the beginnings of Spring and also of being in the halfway, which can feel like a void space to many of us….like a pregnant pause before the next is revealed. We are between the Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox….with the Divine Feminine face and form known as Brigid holding the space to feel this with us.

The energies of Brigid to me when I connect to Her are always about bridging…..the higher realms to the inner ones; the shifting seasons to each other; the deaths to the rebirths; the passages of the past to the ones upcoming. She offers this in ever transmuting ways, yet her fire element is honored on this day as a powerful alchemical force of transformation as you surrender to it.

I also feel Brigid offering a bridge to our wombs and second/third chakras on this day as Imbolc means, “In the belly”. Connecting with our womb space for women offers so much…..a transmission of stillness, depth, power, creativity, and aliveness. We can connect here to future birthings and water the seeds of them.

I experienced these transforming and bridging energies last night during our AMAZING monthly women’s group call in which we journeyed into the tender realm of the inner masculine and inner feminine dance within us. Twenty women joined Kasha and I live for this experience, with others signing up to receive the recording later on. Kasha and I shared about our personal journeys into this exploration through the SoulFullHeart process and also offered teachings around how we have seen and experienced the inner masculine and inner feminine show up for this often very polarized relationship within (due in large part to the templating we received on the outside of relationships.)

We also went into a meditative journey to invite your inner masculine and inner feminine to attend a Ball with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene in which they were the honored guests….bridging a unity consciousness frequency to them to whatever degree they could experience that. There were then many beautiful and vulnerable sharings from four women on the call for us all to learn from and take in!

We also have a lively conversation going on as follow up in our private women’s group on our SoulFullHeart Portal if you’d like to join us there: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

You can purchase the recording of the call for women by offering a donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen or via the shop at soulfullheart.org/shop and we will email it to you.

Our next group call will be on Sunday, February 14th, Valentine’s Day at 5:00pm GMT….a transmission of Sacred Union codes with me and my newly reconciled beloved Taliesin! More info on that coming soon….

Love and blessings on Imbolc from Avalon!
We are getting together as a community to honor this day, whatever wants to be shared of our inner processes, and to move into the New!

More information about 1:1 sessions, future group call events, writings/books at soulfullheart.org.

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space, 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same… 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.