This beautiful artwork is by Mara Berendt Friedman
So much effort and money spent on creating femininity on the outside…. so many messages of what to wear, how to look, how this is all going to make us feel if we do it properly, use the right products, stay with the trends. A grab bag of potential personal styles, looks to pull from, ways to feel more “feminine”, and yet… did we? In the deeper sense of what it means to be a woman, did/does this make us feel more whole?
We stitch and pull at body parts, pin back our hair, shave or wax parts of our bodies where hair grows naturally. We do this to feel more attractive. We often have no other sense of attractiveness living inside of us… until we do. Then we may enter phases of rebellion, pushing back against all of this. Or our daughters do. This is another necessary phase of the yin rediscovery, just as necessary as the stitching and pulling. It’s a journey back to who we are in our essence, putting on layers only to peel them back again, go back in again, find that stillness we’ve always had somewhere inside the inside of us, where our truest sacred femininity dwells, cradled in a nest of fire, water, earth and air.
It’s a call we feel in different life chapters, floating in and out of our consciousness. We heal from being in the shadow of our mothers and sisters. We heal from being in front of the media and mirrors. We begin to actually love what and who we are, finding the bristles and thorns we’ve been avoiding and loving them too, eventually… the process is a process inside of a process, and it’s all worth it to find that Queen who is spineful yet not spiteful. Who is still and yet moves with deliberate grace, despite the necessary mess of finding more to heal inside.
She is here, she is there, inside and beside you, waiting to be rebirthed into a reality that is becoming firmer and friendlier for her to float in and out of. She is there and she has no sword. She is a naked Queen, in all of her curves and natural essential ISness. She IS. As you and I ARE, man or woman. And there is SO MUCH love for every leg and every river of this journey back inward.
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.