By Jelelle Awen
I’ll admit that I feel tired in this moment. I feel tired from this transition into the new for which it seems in moments SO many souls are still in the old. I feel tired from creating bubbles ‘around me’ in so many moments and ways as I try to bring my high vibe frequency to environments and others that block, distract, and resist them. I feel a tiredness from almost 15 years of seeing, being, and feeling reality so differently from mainstream consciousness, especially from the parts perspective which many souls cannot seem to let in or accept even as it offers SO MUCH healing and transformation. I am sharing this tiredness with you in this moment as I imagine you can resonate with this feeling on some level and I do feel it is being pushed UP in those of us in the lead here so that we can feel it and just BE with it.
For those of us who have chosen this transition, time in this now, and especially to lead and show the way through it….. there is an inherent weariness in the momentum it takes, the inner push that still has trust and grace…the ENERGY we need to tap into in order to lead AGAINST so much opposition without going to battle. Rather than pushing against or fighting or contending, it is so NEW to be inviting with love and to be vulnerable in that invitation…..over and over and over again and feeling it land in some hearts and not others….mostly NOT others, yet the numbers are growing slowly it seems.
It is easy to go to battle actually as this we have known as a species and is our comfortable legacy unfortunately of this current timeline. It is easier to go to rage, to tap into the OUTrage in the collective consciousness and push it out at others, compare and contrast to others, put others down, and judge without love too…I feel many doing this, even and especially those in the current lead. Or to go to the mind and to analyze and dismiss or transcend feelings and being vulnerable and just focus on the cosmic aspects of ascension. Ah, yet, it is so understandable and I feel vast compassion for us from the Universe, our higher self, guides/aspects, star BEings as we sort this all through!
Over and over, I’ve received the message from these ‘higher’ sources….. “We are so in awe of you and your species and what you are doing and being right now! This is SO challenging what you are bringing and showing and feeling in the face of so much oppositional energy. There is so much to heal, so much to face, so much to BE with. Your tears and your fears are sacred and precious and we ADMIRE them greatly! Do not feel less than us or compare to us. We are here to inspire you, yes, and serve you to arise. Yet, we are LEARNING from you with great curiosity in our hearts around how you will walk this out. And, we are here always for you when you need us!”
Sharing this message with you in this moment is providing a rush of love inside of me and the tiredness inside and the parts of me that are tired. I feel more rest coming in as I DO feel the support that is there for me and for us all. I feel the trust that lives inside of me from so long being challenged and challenging myself and getting the response of love every time.
I choose love. I choose love in this now. I choose to share and BE even as I am real about what is going for me in my emotional body and soul in the moment. I choose the HONOR of leading myself in this way and for those souls who feel a resonance with this and me, I feel grateful for your coming along on this journey with me. I choose my heart and the healing and feeling of it above all else as its energy is what leads into the unknown and holds the other frequencies that need its attention and care.
I feel the energies that are here to support this choosing of love and have been ramping up for many years, especially in the last months. The choice of love is becoming more visceral, acute, and real for so many more and I feel the possibilities that this opens up every day!
I choose love…..how about you?
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.