Energy Clearing Crystal Sound Bowl Transmission (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Some spontaneous crystal sound bowl healing sounds for you! The bowls have been super helpful during my days of fasting (12 days now with only juice/water and now moving into some dry fasting) when I need to tune into higher frequencies for my chakras and light body! Also helpful, especially during those times of low energy dips, has been epsom/himalayan salt baths, pranayama/deep breathing, sun gazing/bathing, light yoga stretching, meditation and prayer with Divine Mother.

Overall, it has been a joyous process that feels Divinely held! I’ll share more in depth about my fasting/transitioning to living mostly on prana process for those who are curious and resonant coming up eventually. I wrote more about it here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

I have been in such a deep inward focused surrogacy with Divine Mother during this time, receiving stillness and yin recodings from her on all levels to support this shift! And galactic support, soul aspect support, and my beloved soul family support too!

It’s a supportive time too as we go through the Pleiadian/Star Seed Activation portal these next few days. You can feel them so HERE and ready to help us upgrade and connect to our soul purpose here during this last 3D timeline on the Earth plane!

You don’t need to be a Pleiadian star seed to feel this portal! Whatever ways you are meant to receive the galactic upgrades will come through. Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your Star Seed/Star Family https://youtu.be/LrKnyFKk1xM

Enjoy the bowls and wherever they take you!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Prana/Light

By Jelelle Awen

Binkh, my Arcturian aspect, came forward at my request today because I am wanting to upgrade my body, cells, DNA, digestive system, endrocine system, etc. to ultimately make the switch over from needing physical food to living on prana/light energy. I’ve now started an extended juice ‘fast’ (day one!) which is really about engaging the light body’s innate ability to live on prana.

This morning I was inspired to listen to my own guided meditation video to connect with Arcturian energies and an Arcturian Healing Chamber. It felt very supportive, touching, and also activating as I connected with Binkh and drifted in the healing chamber for awhile. I could feel the necessary karmic densities I have been exploring and clearing for awhile, ready to move now into integration and release.

The meditation is here if you’d like to engage in it:

I’ve done 30+day fasts with no food and water/juice in the past and particularly felt a significant switch over with Binkh one time who rewired my digestive system to run on light and not physical food. For the last year or so, it has felt like I am saying goodbye to physical food and eating what I enjoy, yet still vegan, mostly no sugar, no gluten, organic etc. There were still parts of me attached to some social aspects of eating and related to being a mother as well.

It now feels like time to transition again as my body is putting on weight, storing fat, because my sense is that it really doesn’t need the food I’ve been eating. I also feel this is contributing to my ‘aging process’ experience and more intense perimenopausal symptoms. Plus, I am having bloating and indigestion with everything that I eat now no matter how healthy or light it is. My soul/Divine Self is offering that it is time, also easier with all of these abundant sun codes coming in too (which are a ‘food’ of their own, along with Gaia/nature codes, sound healing, sacred sexuality, etc.)

The first stage of this extended fast/transition in my experience is always a detox of any processed foods, toxins, densities that have been digested. This is the only time I’ve experienced ‘hunger’ which is usually more about indigestion and difficulty processing the food as it is moving out than it is real hunger.

The next stage is a deeper detox as the cells clear, autophagy and ketosis kick in. These are more the usual fasting phases. Deeper emotional attachments to eating and food can come up at this stage too, to be felt and held. There can be feelings of deprivation or forcing too, although it is then good to just go back to eating something to ease this if it is very strong, negotiating with parts/soul aspects as needed. This is not about forcing anything or ‘will powering’ your way through it.

The next stage is when the soul starts kicking in. I’ve received major downloads and upgrades of support at this stage from metasoul aspects of mine who also lived on light to some degree/did extended fasting for spiritual/religious reasons. Also, support from Binkh and galactic aspects who have never eaten physical food. The overall feeling is increasing energy levels, increasing soul clarities, less sleep needed, and less thoughts/needs for food.

The next stage (which I would like to experience) is the true detachment from food, where it truly is a choice and an option. Many of those who don’t eat and live on prana for many years may choose to still have a bite or two occasionally. Yet is the freedom of choice and my body running completely on light that is most desirous to me.

I do feel that living on light is eventually inevitable in humanity’s ascension with many phases that we would go through before then. Starvation is a very convincing Matrix programming that keeps so many souls trapped. Our ‘food’ now is hardly food, with so many toxins, chemicals and processing going on…not to mention the killing frequencies of eating animals.

I’ll share more as I go on my transition journey as people are usually curious about it. I have noticed that not many awakened souls have fasted, even for a day or longer, and that feels to me like it represents the deep conditioning/programming that we have about the necessity of physical food and a fear to let it go, even for a short while. I do highly recommend fasting, esp now during this eclipse window, as many benefits/gifts come from it.

Our Divine Self and souls remember many lifetimes esp in Lemuria where there was little food consumed and only the most fresh fruits/vegetables. Tapping into our soul’s memory beyond the matrix programming is a huge support!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I am so open to mentoring/coaching on this as well if you’d like to explore it in a session with me and feel/see your relationship with your light body/3D body/parts and aspects etc., esp if you have ongoing suffering/struggles around body image, eating, etc. more info at soulfullheart.org

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The No Man’s Land Of Our Collective Grief

By  Raphael Awen

If we take a step outside of this most challenging polarity moving through us right now as a species, we see where there’s something none of us really comfortable feeling.

If the anti injection people are correct, then there’s a wave of destruction and fear that is already here and scaling up at a pace we can only guess at.

If the pro experimental injection people are correct, then our sovereignty and autonomy is best left in the hands of a governing body who are better equipped to lead our lives.

Either way, we are giving up something of such huge proportions. I don’t think there’s a single one of us yet who’s felt the deepening scale of this.

Raging at it, or turning over and accepting it feel like two polarized ways of starting to work through it, but there’s still a huge no man’s land that I haven’t seen anyone step into.

In that no man’s land is something to feel.

Trying to describe it almost does it a disservice, for it can only really be felt, not described. But it has something to do with mourning and grief on a scale we haven’t known in this life.

Life as you and I knew it is changing rapidly, daily and minute by minute. Something big is dying and not returning, regardless of which side of the issue(s) you find yourself on.

People on both sides of the polarity believe they have spared themselves from some personal suffering. ‘According to their beliefs’, as Yeshua would say, ‘so be it unto them’. Beliefs are such strong personal reality creators, but they only go so far.

There’s a shared reality that whether it’s recognized or not, is happening. That reality is the shared boat we are sailing in. The hole in your end of the boat IS actually an issue to me. There’s only one boat, even as we are afforded individual bubbles within that boat, but OUR boat is sinking.

We all chose to be a part of this transition, and to give up a quality of an old life to be a part of anchoring in a new life. Whether you are injection injured, (and my heart breaks for you if you are) or out promoting getting the next booster, we are going somewhere.

There’s somewhere we won’t be returning to.

That change calls into question every plan, every intention, every purpose, every sense of meaning. All of it is up for continual revision as we sort through what can and does feel crazy making and disorienting.

Nothing makes sense in the old way. In the interim, we’re all grasping for the new way that isn’t quite here yet.

I don’t know any other way to be with it, other than to feel this surrender to what is, open my heart to being further activated into this care for myself and our beautiful collective that would choose such transition through such confusion as a planetary group soul’s higher choice and service to the divine’s unfolding of itself through us.

WE chose this. WE created it. The polarity is of OUR creation. When you accept that, you get baptized into being a YOU in service of the WE.

You get to care. You get to feel. You get to mourn. You get to weep the tears others aren’t ready yet to weep. You even get to thrive in love as you take part in honoring the death all around.

You get to be in the real moment that is here now.

And in that moment we see that the deeper our polarities, the deeper our shared reality.

Raphael

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Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

By  Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

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Big heartfelt acknowledgement and thank YOU to Gabriel Amara for leading this charge with me while we surrender to divine timing for more men in the room.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Bearing The Burden Of Love’s Unsolvable Mystery

By  Raphael Awen

💚 Realizing that all of your awakening is only ever but a measure is humbling. Then realizing that infinity bears no measure is more humbling still. 🏄🏻‍♂️

We are all in the awakening and we are all in the slumber. Love is playing with us, dancing with us, wanting to come to know itself through us, knowing that it never will and never wants to because of its own infinity. It just does what it does for the joy, reverence awe and wonder of it all.

Love invites you to meet with it there, in the unknown, in the surrender, where every mistake is an infinite success, where every pain is the source of unspeakable healing.

You bear the burden of love’s unsolvable mystery.

You can’t be solved or fixed because even your belief that you needed fixing is all a part of this mystery of being.

This being that you are; infinite, pretending with your measuring tape; omniscient, pretending to be missing a memo; omnipresent, pretending to be in one place at one time; omnipotent, pretending to be lacking something, ALL is love at play.

You have lots of awakening to do, but not for the attainment of it, for it literally gets you nowhere.

But when you get there, you won’t ever want to go back, and you won’t want to stop dancing with this love moving through you.

Xo,

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Feeling The Portal Of Aging W/Grace Rather Than Fighting It

By Jelelle Awen

I had one of those beautiful, expansive and celebratory days with Raphael yesterday beginning with making love in the morning, a long, much needed walk in the gorgeous mountain valleys near us, and celebrating the passionate expression weave that came through in our Beltane livestream. It was an opening out after both of us going inward to feel despair and heaviness of a mostly karmic sort together as I shared about recently. It felt like an exhale too after so much being activated by the recent energies coming through in the solar flares, eclipse, and more.

This goodness seemed to push up some more ‘oil’ to feel, as it so often does for all of us. I was feeling today with a new inner mother part of me named Hera (yes after the wife of Zeus) about the aging process for women and all that it brings up in terms of self consciousness, insecurity, feeling like you don’t matter or ‘count’ or are invisible somehow, and ‘fighting’ aging rather than embracing it.

My birth mother would ‘battle’ these signs of aging with everything she had and would be encouraging me to do the same if we were still in relationship together (which we haven’t been by my soul’s choice for over ten years now.) She would probably be encouraging me to use the ‘tools’ now at our disposal such as fillers, plastic surgery, hormone replacement therapy, and more. So I feel this emptiness in any template for aging gracefully and naturally, in the culture and in my own experience.

I have always been more the holistic and natural sort of soul. With my medicine woman and priestess roots being so strong in my soul, there is a sense of connection to the natural and the pure as being the most beautiful and resistance to anything inorganic, chemical, and invasive. Even with this strong soul grounding, I could feel in this part of me how the programming and conditioning to feel unworthiness as you age is ingrained at a cellular level.

This is becoming more heightened in me as I turn 50 next month. To my soul consciousness age really means very little and my soul ‘eyes’ do not even see it or notice it, especially in others! Yet, to my conditioning and to this part of me, there is a meaning in moving out of my 40s. And the physical signs of aging are being noticed more too now as my metabolism slows and I gain a bit of weight even while I continue to eat quite light, do yoga and other exercise. Also, I am experiencing more gray hairs, wrinkles, more sagging skin and the period cycles with hormonal dips that are becoming more intense yet also more sporadic as I move into the deeper stages of perimenopause.

I started to feel as I let Hera cry it out with me this morning that Divine Mother wants to wrap us both up with love in response to this. I could see/feel Mother Mary coming forward and just holding us both with so much sense of our beauty and grace. It started to go in and I am also blessed to be able to share all of this vulnerably with my beloved, my daughter, and my precious community and be felt by them in it too.

The aging process and our relationship to it really has been so hijacked by the matrix to idealize young beauty and suppress the wise woman beauty and wisdom from coming through. I can feel what a powerful ‘force’ this wise woman is and how much she is missing from our culture. There will be lots of interesting things to feel and teach about this feels like as I continue to experience it myself.

And I feel this is true for men as well who may not have as much judgement on them physically as they age, yet have their own internal pressure built up around their competency, adequacy, relevancy, performance, potency (esp sexually) etc. And relationships/sacred unions aging together too is an interesting ground as well as Raphael and I shift into a deeper ‘hotness’ expression of sexuality that is more and more soul based even as it grounds in the physical. Rather than going flat or dead, we seem to be moving into more depth of intimacy together.

Mostly, I am FEELING this aging process as a portal to experience my soul and Divine feminine self within my body. Not to fight it, yet rather to embrace it…..allowing the full range of feelings that come up around it along with continuing to take care and love my body in the ways that I know work for it. And I want to help heal this fight against aging collectively and to offer a new template in the mother/daughter templating relationship too around it.

We will be doing a group call about the aging with grace process for our online community portal members on Sunday, May 22nd with more info about that coming up soon. You are welcome to join us there to connect, share comments, read the many personal/vulnerable sharing there and also to join in our group call. Membership details at: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

I also am very open and desirous to feel into and process this with other older women going through this, as I have in session space in the past as well. It is a mutual discovery even as I can feel the Divine Mother channeling my heart in nourishing ways for us both. More info about 1:1 sessions with me at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, if you’d like to meet your Inner Mother (or Inner Father) you can find guided meditation videos to do that here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Love in tenderness as we all experience the process of aging together,

Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

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Energy Update: Fear/Trauma Cellular Clearings w/Ongoing Solar Flares, Planetary Alignment & Upcoming Eclipse

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: Major cellular clearings this week of fear, trauma, programming, conditioning, and separation wounding going on with these ongoing solar flares, planetary alignment and the upcoming eclipse! This is a messy, sometimes scary, crazy making, and DEEP activation time for many of us.

The VERY large sunspot complex that is now Earth facing erupted twice in quick succession today April 25th, producing an overlapping pair of M1-class solar flares, according to spaceweather.com. Solar flares bring in a sudden, high frequency of plasma/photonic light/radiation at once along with sacred masculine activations….and there have been dozens of them (including a few of the most powerful X class flares) recently.

Raphael and I offered this recorded livestream sharing more about solar flares and the sacred activations/effects they offer:

The planetary alignment of Saturn, Mars, Venus, Jupiter and the moon (along with the upcoming conjunction of Venus and Jupiter coming on Saturday) offers visual alignment to feel what has been out of alignment. Each planetary body has a consciousness frequency that we can tune into in certain ways to receive the messages/insights/upgrades from as well while connecting to these energies within us.

We’ll be sharing more about the upcoming partial solar eclipse and what it offers us with Raphael and I doing a livestream on my Jelelle Awen facebook feed about it on the eclipse day Saturday, April 30th at 5pm GMT/noon EST and you are welcome to join us for that to leave comments and ask questions.

Many of you have been sharing about feeling an increasing intensity in emotional and physical reactions especially during this last week with all this cosmic activity. You are NOT alone in this experience even if those around you aren’t as conscious about being impacted by them. These are powerful energies coming into our inner and outer atmospheres, inviting us to move into more alignment of our Divine Self, Divine Union, and Sacred Union.

I feel that this it is not about being victim to these energies and a quick ‘oh that’s why I feel this way’ response or ‘blaming them’ for what we are going through. Yet rather to USE the reactions that come up in response to these energies to learn more about yourself, feel it, and even understand WHY it is coming up in the way it is. They offer another portal of growth if we move out of resisting them and into embracing them.

When I felt a particular strong wave of fear and anxiety moving through at 3am recently, I felt an immediate bubble of Divine love surround me to hold it. I let it move through me and connected with the part of me feeling it (as I am practiced to do for all these years). This part of me needed some immediate reassurance and comfort, letting the Divine ‘help’ her in that moment.

Yet, I also recognized later that a bubble of karmic fear/distrust was moving out of the ground of my relationship with Raphael to allow more masculine leadership/passion expression from him. Trusting this expression (which came out very powerfully in his post yesterday) is the ground of our growth together as we come into more union around our leadership passion expression AND our passion for each other, which has often been separate/polarized in many lifetimes. There is much more to share about this later from our ongoing deepening with each other in brand new ways for our souls in this life!

Allow your Divine Self to respond to whatever you are feeling and your soul can then expand your awareness, lift veils, and guide you to the specific connections/bridges needed within you. This opens up more trust, joy, and movement out of the fear and into love again. The defensive/egoic parts of us often want to hide, bypass, avoid, or transcend the ‘mess’ in favor of the bliss. Or to look for easy answers and solutions for why it is going on. OR to continue rounds of suffering around it all, keeping us alone, isolated, cut off, and in flatness.

We can now be a bigger presence in the room with these scared yet sacred protective energies with us, bridging to a Divine support that can comfort and activate us.

Love to you as go through this bliss mess ride,

Jelelle Awen

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