Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Social/Spiritual Divorce

The current social bifurcation happening is like a global messy divorce. A spiritual Brexit. We all have had emotional investments in each other’s worlds and that brings up a lot of grief, fear, and anger.

When it feels like the ‘other side’ is getting more of the assets, then there is a push back and a need to fight for what is rightfully ours. In this case, it just happens to be what we have called our freedoms.

Our freedom to speak with feeling and reason. Our freedom to move. Our freedom to connect. Our freedom to breathe the air Gaia gifted us with to survive and thrive. Our freedom to our own healthy choices.

When these freedoms that we took as inalienable are systematically withdrawn and politicized, we are forced into a choice point. We cannot sit ideally by anymore. The question is what is that action? What is the feeling?

That can lead to a lot of rumble inside. It can lead to social friction and loss. It can lead to moral high ground and righteousness. It can lead to civil disobedience or internal confusion. No matter what we are all being faced with choices. Those choices draw lines. Those lines create worlds apart.

So now it is like we are living in the same house with the kids during these proceedings. What world are we going to create going forward for us and them? How do we navigate this divorce and still maintain Love and sanity?

I feel these are deeper questions for each of us to be answering at the core of our heart and soul. What is it that you really need and want from the inside out? What is your sacred purpose in this ongoing, unfolding drama?

This doesn’t have to be a question to suffer over. Just one to explore. One to feel through one day at a time with compassion and with passion both.

Divorces are change. They are a sign of growing and birthing. They are a death and an illumination. This is a time for each of us to truly see and feel ourselves in ways we may have never known.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Mining For Love Coin

“Those who have the gold, make the rules.” I heard this a lot growing up. It was just one of those hard realities that I was told I had to accept (according to my early influencers) in order to have the life I wanted. The question was, whose life was it that I was wanting?

Later, I realized I wanted the Philosopher’s Gold. That prized possession of sacred understanding that could lead me out of the doldrums of my inner struggle for outer need. If I could find that ‘answer’, then that would be worth more than all of the physical gold in the world.

Yet, the quest for that Holy Grail of Knowing was like a dog chasing its tail. Then, there was just Feeling. Going to the heart of the matter, not the mind over matter. It was in this place that I came upon a world full of hidden treasure that had currency. It had a stored wealth that led to more health. More power of Presence and of choice. I got to choose my reality by simply feeling my reality in all its shades and hues.

In all that is currently happening, the most valuable and sustainable wealth is not gold, bitcoin, information, or righteousness. It is the brave, real, and healing heart. It is the way we see and feel ourselves outside the deluge of dissonance. It is about connecting to the Lover’s Gold. The raw material of our humanity and our spirituality.

While the physical, material economy is being shaken up like an Etch-A-Sketch, our emotional economy is searching for a stable place to invest its reality into that which is not dependent on external forces, but rather inner guidance and Divine holding. It seeks a Sacred Trust Fund to deposit all its fears, its doubts, its rage, and its power.

This is what many of us are being guided to focus on. Mining for Lovecoin. That self-generated and soul-seeded gift embedded at the core of our birthright. We are born with the power to create, to destroy, and to Be this very brave and powerful kind of Love. What we see and feel in front of us is what leads us to that very gateway of vulnerable transformation, conscious responsibility, and a transparent exchange of our gifts with the world.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Shakti Fierce Feminine Energies Provoked By Full Moon

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: The full moon wakes something up from within us. It has a broadcast frequency of the Matrix to some degree, so long ‘hijacked’ by those forces. Yet, also, there are the ways that we have related with the moon in so many lifetimes of worship and ceremony that somehow calls on us to allow the lunar energies to hold space for us. For those of us with many lifetimes of being a Priestess, the moon has long been our companion for magics safer done in the dark.

As we deepen into Autumn and approach Samhain/Halloween soon, the veils thin always at this time of year between dimensions. I am reminded of the Day of the Dead/Dia de los Muertos celebrations when we lived in Mexico. The entire culture embraces and acknowledges the thinness of the veils between the living and the dead during this time. Spirit would be invited to have a more solid place at the ‘table’ of the living led by the heart’s reminiscing memories and the soul’s enduring connections that go beyond physical body death.

There is a provoking of energies to come out from the shadows during this time…that we have put there because they are not ‘safe’, or deemed appropriate or have been suppressed for many lifetimes. The energy of the Fierce Feminine and Her Shakti rumbles are coming through. Sometimes it is a fury that allows her to express herself, a self advocacy that makes other parts of us very uncomfortable. Shakti is not polite, controllable, or predictable. She destroys even as She gives life.

It is this alchemical feminine that has so long been neutered in our Matrix-controlled patriarchal culture. It has been hijacked as well, making those of us who have the self permission and qualification (after MUCH healing work) to express it feel like we have ‘temper problems’ or are ‘losing it’ when it comes through. What we are losing when Shakti comes through are the control mechanisms and implants and conditionings that program us to feel that it is NOT ok to be powerful, to be wild, and to be truthful….especially if it shakes up others, even if it hurts others too, even if they judge us as a result and reject us. And there is an equivalent in men that feels like it is even more resistant to this fierce feminine coming through as so much harm has been inflicted by the wounded misuse of these energies by the patriarchy.

This energy is not about abusing in the toxic way that the hijacked feminine can…which I have come to call “Ursula”, named for the Evil Sea Witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is a hijacked construction of the Matrix that has made evil and wrong feminine magic and sorcery. Ursula is bitter, manipulative, competitive, and without any vulnerability at all. She is also undeniably powerful. Yet, she uses her power not to empower herself and others ultimately, but rather to take, own, and possess.

I share more about Ursula consciousness here and there is a link to purchase a women’s group meditation call to unplug your womb from the matrix: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/unplugging-from-the…/

I have experienced through our SoulFullHeart process of connecting to ALL energies/parts/aspects within that unplugging from the Matrix Ursula allows for the healing of the inner one. She is then free to access the Universal life (and death) forces of the Divine such as Shakti and also Kundalini.

The energies right now are confronting these places within us that hold our power. Lifetimes/Timelines can come through now for us to feel how being persecuted leads to being afraid to express them. This fear of powerful expression is occurring even now in our lifetime with the V. narrative and an agenda of censorship, restrictions, and control of free speech/free movement/free living. The Cabal Matrix patriarchy is tightening the reigns on the Fierce Feminine, along with the Compassionate Feminine….as both energies threaten the Cabal’s dominance because they are key to ushering in the death of the Matrix to allow the birth of New Earth.

Feel the flows of these intense energies, allowing them to take you where they may. Divine Mother has a face and form that can ‘match’ these places within you and never make them wrong. Go through the portals that they offer, bringing light of non-self judgement to the shadows, so that much may revealed during this magical time of self discovery.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Guided Meditation For Relaxation & Physical/Emotional Healing W/Mother Mary (Music) | Jelelle Awen

This guided meditation with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator/Facilitator Jelelle Awen offers a bridge to soothing and relaxing, yet very catalytic and powerful, healing energies during a time when they are very much needed. During this meditation, you access a high frequency of Infinitely abundant White Light from Divine Source through your Crown Chakra.

This energy is for the clearing and healing of physical body pain, ailments and diseases as needed, including a boosting of your immune system, internal organs, and every living cell. You also connect in this meditation to your emotional body and offer soothing white light and Divine love to any reactions, tensions, resistances or charged emotions that you may be experiencing.

Jelelle also offers a bridge to any part of you that comes forward into your awareness that needs your love and attention, especially your Inner Child. Divine Mother shows up in the form of Mother Mary, who offers comforting and soothing reminders of your essence as Divine love. You repeat powerful “I am” mantras for a higher frequency Ascension recoding. The music then continues for some more time to allow a deeper immersion into the experience.

You may get quite sleepy, relaxed, drifty and even fall asleep during this meditation, so it is best to be in a comfortable position with your eyes closed while listening to it. We recommend listening with headphones. Remember that whatever happens during it within you is perfect.

The music gratefully used in this video is from a channel with the best sleep music that we have found on YouTube, the Nu Meditation Music Channel. This music has supportive ocean wave sounds and binaural beats as well to drop you into a Theta/Delta brainwave space for ultimate relaxation: https://youtu.be/ISgfqlMwSrk

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

Information about free intro calls over Zoom with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kasha Rokshana for women or Gabriel Amara for men and women and 1:1 sessions with Raphael Awen, Gabriel, and Kasha at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

“Miss Without Possession, Hold Without Grasp” | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Authentic and higher dimensional Divine Mother and Father energies can “miss without possession, hold without grasp, and claim without ownership.”

This message came through during a recent session where I felt Mother Mary/Divine Mother offering this in contrast to what most of us have experienced as parenting and co-dependence in relationships. This was our role models in 3D of relationships from our parents…and also programmed to us by the Matrix.

The distinctions of these frequencies (missing versus possessing; claiming versus owning) become real to us as we experience them from the inside FIRST. From one part of us to another, we feel and heal the polarized and fearful dynamics that lead to grabbing, clinging, and controlling. Our inner masculine and feminine can find a balance, a celebration of differences, a common ground.

To move out of False God experiences of projected, fear and trauma based relationship with the Divine and others is a very challenging, long-term, process. There are SO MANY layers here from this life and other lifetimes within the Matrix to move through, connect with, process, and heal. We need to be willing to go into our deepest shadows, lift the protective veils, move through our most stubborn resistance, feel our most acute pains. Letting go in order to let in more love can be the most difficult aspect of the journey. We need a lot of resonant support and LOVE for this process….from the Divine, from our Divine/Higher Self, and from others.

The SoulFullHeart process and way that we have lived our life in community and been in relationships for over ten years is the WAY we offer to navigate this ‘cleaning up’ within and with others. You increasingly experience a healthier ground of relating to yourself, to your soul aspects, to your beloveds, and to the Divine that can commit, can be intimate and vulnerable, can let their love IN while being real about the resistances, shadows, and fears that come up in response to that.

You can experience the SoulFullHeart frequency through many videos, group calls (next one is happening on 11/7 with recordings available of previous ones), and books…especially my recent one Free To Be 5D which is an overview of the process. 1:1 sessions with a SFH Facilitator offer the deepest ground of initiation into this way of experiencing yourself, your life and others. More information at soulfullheart.org.

Here is my recent guided meditation to music offering a high frequency of healing and relaxation on physical and emotional levels w/Mother Mary:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

The Sacred ‘Pregnancy’ Of Humanity During This 10/10 Passage

by Kasha Rokshana

I feel the ‘pregnancy’ of this time we’re living in. So much urgency to respond to as things shift and change from one moment to the next and there’s an apt restlessness in that experience too. You might also feel a push-pull within as parts of you sway and toggle between feeling like they are truly ready to move on from the ‘old, known normal’ and also like they want to cling to every last bit of it that they can. Every aspect of life as we’ve known it has been shaken up in the last couple of years and like expectant mothers and fathers, we know intuitively and logically that life can never go back to the way it was in humanity’s ‘youth’, before the added sense of responsibility for our own collective and individual shadows entered the birth canal.

I feel this year’s 10/10 passage as a Divine opportunity to respond to what’s real and to lean into guidance and Divine love too. It’s a gift… as even the hardest times are. We aren’t being caretaken or coddled by the Divine on our growth journey right now, though at the same time, we’re also being gently cradled as we experience the grief, tears, mourning, purging, in our letting go of a reality that was once precious to some parts of us… and resented too, by others. In humanity’s young-ness on a consciousness and galactic level, we were afforded certain ‘passes’ for a time. We were given the grace to ‘grow-up’ on our own accord and make choices that have now led to our Great Learning/Awakening. But now… now we’re in the pressure cooker of our own evolutionary story and being asked to truly take it seriously.

The truth always remains that Divine Love is holding us through it all. Even during these times where we may feel energies/lifetimes in our souls crying out and feeling anything BUT connected to this reality. The Divine is as ‘pregnant’ as we are, holding our hands and hearts in Its own. We are the parents, the stewards of what’s next and what’s new and as-yet unknown, just as we are also being parented and stewarded. This collaboration with the Divine is as sacred as sacred can be, and an invitation to feel our rebirth is being invested in at all times.

Though the dark and darker agendas keep coming to light, we are being empowered to look at them with the divinely discerning eyes, to let in all the textures of reactions and response to the truth of what’s emerging. We, as sacred humans, are not all ‘one-note’ after all, and this emotional range, our capacity to empathize and to care deeply about ourselves and others, is being called upon to help leverage and launch ourselves into the newly arising chapter that can only come out of the ashes, the incredibly humbling learning and re-learning experience that ‘life’ has been and continues to be for us ALL here on Gaia.

Divine love supports us all, surrounds us all, holds us all now and always. Letting in your own Divine connection however you feel to and can, is, as always, so vital to what’s real now and what is becoming real for all of us as walk out this 10/10 passage.

Join Raphael and Jelelle for a by-donation Zoom group meditation call this coming Sunday on 10/10, focused on Divine Love and deepening your own Divine connection. More info here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Death Of Our Formal Normal

The Rome and Titanic of our former collective institutions, the ones we collectively agree upon to keep them afloat, are all under fire and sinking. Government, health care, education, finance, real estate, defense, economics, supply-chain…the list goes on.

There is an ongoing hospice going on and there are different reactions to it. It is like the stages of grief- denial, anger, negotiation, depression, and acceptance. Where each of us is at means different ways in which we are relating to the current situation. The soul knows what’s up. Our emotional consciousness is just trying to catch up to it all!

This can bring a lot of suffering as well as some feelings of empowerment. Different parts of us come forward to manage the situation the best they know how. The deeper question is what does your soul feel is its truth? Not THE truth, but IT’S truth. It’s genuine sense of what lies underneath all this rumble and rubble.

This may not even apply to the global situation, but rather your own personal and local circumstance. Whatever it is that most impacts your ability to feel the Divine and your own soul. To feel the Eternal Love that holds the space for the drama AND the joy. I am more and more feeling like an outside observer while also feeling the impacts in my Higher Heart on the collective soul.

I am reminded that we are awakening. This process is not a painless one. It is wrought with turbulence and challenges. These are the fodder for our own liberation. They are the initiations that we all signed up for to help steward Gaia back into Her glory state. To re-member ourselves back to our original sacred humanity.

It takes a lot of patience, courage, compassion, and self-focus. It takes support and letting go of all that does not serve that vision. While the external may be in its death throes, your internal is its birth pangs, as long as you give yourself the environment it needs to flourish.
You are held. You are supported. You are the light of what comes next.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Illumination And Integration Of The Shadow

Our shadow can only be repressed for so long. It is a lot work to keep it in place. Eventually, it does find its way to its rightful place within our daily lives. It gets tired of being repressed and ignored. It runs out of gas in finding ways to express that are not vulnerable and relational.

This is true for our personal shadows as well as the Collective Shadow that is coming into plain sight with each passing day. We are being invited, if not prodded, to reconcile and reunite with this sequestered part of our consciousness and emotional/spiritual body. I know this is true for me, and has been for all of my healing journey.

It is a process like any other. It ebbs and flows. Floods and recedes. It is an essential part of each of our maturation and evolutionary cycles. There is no real management that can ease its way onto the scene other than a sacred trust that whatever comes out will be met with a deep compassion and forgiveness for all its edges and darkness.

It desperately seeks to come out and be a part of our lives. It houses our power and our creativity. It is the gateway to our authenticity and our reality. We are just living a half-life in its stead. When it is time for integration, it will be clear. Gaia’s ascension requires it as a passport to the New, no longer avoided but met with need and desire, hand in hand.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.