Shadow Work That Isn’t ‘Work’ Or A Battle

By Jelelle Awen

So much is said in spiritual circles about ‘shadow work’ and ‘shadow integration’…there is even some offer of how to do that, yet most of it feels quite vague, insistent, urgent, and even critical if it isn’t done somehow. My sense is that shadow work is not ‘work’ at all….yet rather is naturally occurring as we surrender to the Ascension process. It just organically happens within us and in the collective as more love comes on the scene. The Ascension process itself and the cosmic/galactic/Divine energies that support it induce and invite whatever is in shadow previously to reveal itself.

There is also a sense sometimes that ‘shadow’ equals bad, evil, dark or monstrous. This can be a fear projection and also protection from parts of us to divert from going into what has ACTUALLY been placed in shadow or simply what has been veiled to us. I have found so many times in deeper explorations with people during sessions that what is in their shadow (or just ‘off their radar’) is often the most precious parts of themselves such as the Inner Child or the Divine Orphan or the Star Seed Child, who has been tucked away into ‘dungeons’ and other such 4D spaces for safe keeping.

Many times what is in shadow is actually your BIGNESS as well and your power, as it was deemed too scary or not supported or just downright dangerous or life threatening to come out for some usually very good reasons, such as causing harm to others in previous lifetimes or due to being persecuted for sharing it. Soul gifts are also placed in shadow, where they wait until the proper timing and initiation for them to be shared and expressed.

There is ALWAYS a good reason that something has been placed in the shadows. To discover what that reason is requires negotiation directly with the part or soul aspect that put it there, WHY they did, and to feel the ‘shadow’ part/aspect directly as well with tons of love and compassion to digest their reality. This is the journey that we go on in SoulFullHeart…to access the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper or other aspect that has parked whatever it is and whoever it is in the shadows, under the veils, and often tightly under guard. We don’t just barrel ‘in there’ to retrieve or rescue or just do a one-time regression. Your Divine Self leads this relationship building exploration with patience and gentleness over time so that any parts of you that are afraid of what has been put in shadow or are protective or ‘fused to it’ are able to be held and supported.

Yes, it is organic for the shadow to be revealed during Ascension, yet how you ARE in that process makes all the difference to being integrated into your Divine Self expression in an empowered and embodied way. There is much support, especially from the Divine Feminine, for us to approach our own heart and souls healing this way instead of doing any kind of battling with it or to become some kind of shadow warrior. Battling always leads to more battling, with a cost on both sides. Courage to go into these previously veiled places now can come from our hearts rather from our swords.

We can become love ambassadors to ANYTHING within us and, as we do, true and last transmutation can happen from something being in the shadows to suddenly thriving in the light of our Divine Self love.

Love from Avalon (with its strong activations of heart chakra LOVE to transmute anything!)

Jelelle Awen

More information about shadow revelation and shadow integration 1:1 sessions and group calls (including a women’s call this Sunday to reveal your inner sacred union ‘in the shadows’!) at soulfullheart.org

And by far my most popular guided meditation to meet your shadow: https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE

Energy Update: Kundalini Surges As Timelines Collapse & Arise

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: I have wanted to offer a full energy update sooner yet there is so much moving that it has been challenging to ‘find time’ to share even as there is lots of time and no such thing as time! lol Perhaps that best sums up all that is shifting right now as timelines collapse, veils thin, linear time dissolves…..WHILE, at the same ‘time’, new realities and possibilities on infinite levels are being born and arising!

There are surges of Kundalini energies available now to bring up the column of your spine….lighting up especially your heart, sacral, and solar plexus chakras. Empowerment. Kundalini is connected to the Divine Union frequencies of our I AM, especially to the powerful feminine as she rises out of suppression and darkness and hiding. Yet Kundalini is also sourced in and provided by the Reptilian Self aspect that vibrates in 4D and has often been ‘with us’ our whole lives as witness to our journeys. Once we become aware of that connection, we can access more of our alchemy, service, power, and more.

I share more about the Reptilian Self in this video and guided meditation to meet yours: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

I have seen in sessions that the Reptilian selves are being freed up from their enslavement in the Matrix system as well, which allows them to reunite with their families again. This is such a tender movement and really opens up an ambassadorship to them rather than the polarized ‘us against them’ reality. They are liberated with the Matrix AI signal collapse on the 4D level and more humans waking up. This collapse hasn’t fully shown itself in 3D yet as it seems like a dark night with the U.S. presidential inauguration tomorrow….yet as I’ve been sharing my sense for awhile, there is no ‘there there’ and it is mostly an empty show.

I have been guided so many times to just ‘be in the NOW and let in the NEW’….which is often only possible as we LET GO of the old, LET GO of attachments and expectations….. and let the mourning and grief move through us. I feel the collective going through this; our Reptilian selves going through this; our parts going through this; and our parallel selves in other timelines created by making different life choices going through this process too.

Connection within feels so important right now to navigate the shifts. With parts of yourself for which a rich inner family bond can develop. With soul family in the physical and in the higher realms for which reunion and support can deepen. With the Divine, especially Her feminine essence, for which guidance and clarity can flow.

We are at a tipping point into the New for which the kundalini energies serve to push us through, like the painful yet necessary contractions that happen during ANY birth. There are many BEings supporting us through this birth of sacred humanity and our RISE into New Earth and 5D in the physical.

We are rising!!

Much love to you from Avalon!!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions to support, activate, and bridge for your Ascension process at soulfullheart.org/sessions

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 6

With the new lockdown and travel ban, we decided it was best and also very necessary to stay here in Avalon to ‘weather the storm’ that is not only happening here in the UK, but everywhere. It’s from this place of feeling our own rumbles in our community, ourselves, and as part of the global human family, that we offer this new Avalon Update.

Jelelle Awen has officially released the audiobook version of her latest book, ‘Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out’ on iTunes and Audible! We highly recommend taking in this version of her book that is read in her voice, as the transmission of her words and the embodiment of this process she outlines and talks about in the book are that much more powerfully felt.

There are also a few new videos and updates from us through writing. If you’d like to feel what we’ve been offering about this ‘new year’ called ‘2021’ and our digestions of the energies moving through, we have many sharings about that in this Update.

Gabriel and Kasha are once again offering FREE 45min intro calls to anyone interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life and how it may serve you during this phase of your healing and Ascension. There is more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

You can read the latest Update here.

Time To Rise! 1:1 Sacred Feminine Initiation Sessions For Women W/Jelelle Awen

I am feeling lately that the sessions I am doing with women are really even more like initiations than ever before. Initiations into the depths of the emotional body and all that it offers when no longer suppressed. Initiations into the soul field beyond the veil and the integration, soul gifts, and karmic healing it allows. Initiations into the heart of the Divine Feminine in whatever ways She shows up to respond to that soul’s needs and desires.

As I am being initiated right now into deeper embodiment of my Divine Feminine essence on so many levels through these death and rebirth grounds I am moving through in completion of my beloved relationship, so I can offer the space for you to experience this for yourself in whatever ways come through. As my heart breaks open and new joy and love floods in, I feel even more sensitive and empathic to where the places of pain and fear are in others that just need a loving bridge to them.

As I surrender to the growth that comes from letting something go, I can be a template for how you may need to go into that initiation for yourself in your life and the gifts that it brings. It is a poignant and potent combination; an alchemy that flows between us that allows for a truly self-led and soul-led bigness to grow.

Just this last week in sessions, I have celebrated a big life change movement for a long-term facilitant/client into her much deserved higher timeline; plunged into the depths of the inner feminine polarized dynamics of the fierce feminine/inner child/inner mother to bring in a template of a unified feminine; supported a loving mother to connect to her Inner Punisher and offer them compassion; processed deep sexual and physical abuse trauma with the parts that experienced it so they could move into healing and love; connected with a Reptilian Self with timely and interesting new downloads about unplugging from the Matrix; connected to a twin flame consciousness potential mate to open up the heart readiness for it; created a bridge to beings in other dimensions that had been ‘attacking’ and opened up the inner child’s gifts as love ambassador toward them; and much more! And this was just in the last week!

I feel so blessed that I get to do this on a daily basis, that I am trusted to go into this sacred and very vulnerable grounds with women, and that I am seen as a resource to them as a guide, teacher, and perpetual student of this process myself. I feel so grateful that I can earn a livelihood in fair exchange to support myself through sharing my soul gifts, especially in my new phase of being single. I feel honored to serve the Divine Mother through this specific expression of love that I feel offers such direct, immediate, and catalytic access to the places that need love and healing.

I still have a few openings coming up the rest of this month if you’d like to experience a 1:1 initiatory session with me for women for $100 USD/$130 CAD/77 pounds for 90 minutes over Zoom. Sessions with me are best served to women who are over 30, have previously done a depth of emotional and spiritual healing work, and are open to going into their emotional bodies and shadows to really FEEL themselves without bypassing anything. You can pre pay for one at soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal at paypal.me/jelelleawen

More information about sessions with me and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators including Kasha Rokshana who also meets with women and especially young women and she also offers a free 30-45 minute intro call with her at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Here is a video that I did recently describing what happens in sessions: https://youtu.be/D0bkr16aNjE

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

Free To Be 5D Audio Book Read By Jelelle Awen Now Available

By Jelelle Awen

I’m excited to announce that the audio book version of my latest book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out is now available on Audible/Amazon and on iTunes! It is over 14+ hours of me sharing about the Ascension process from my unique and cutting edge SoulFullHeart perspective.

It took a couple of months to record it…sitting and reading out loud for a couple of hours at a time before my voice would get tired, sequestered in my makeshift soundproof audio booth created out of my closet in the heat of summer! I had a goal to record it before we left Canada for the UK at the end of August and I did it! It has taken the months since then to get the sound engineering on it professionally done and formatted to pass their quality control standards. Yet, finally it is available now!

I had immediate requests from people when I released this book in print and ebook editions back in July to provide an audio version of it as they wanted to drive while listening, lay in the bath while listening, just listen when they wanted to and take it in like a meditation. I do feel that my voice has a certain way of transmitting what I am teaching about that reading it as written words just doesn’t come through in the same way. I felt activated myself many times while recording it, the concepts coming alive for me again as they moved through my throat chakra.

It’s actually been out for a couple of weeks on Audible and I got this sweet comment on my IG about it, “I’m almost at the end of the book and I love it. Thank you for all your effort and time you put into it including your soul. I can’t wait to listen to it again.”

Special thanks to Gabriel Heartman for his tech assistance, research, and coordination with the sound engineer!

I do hope you enjoy it and please leave a review if you feel drawn to!

It is available here on Amazon (free as an Audible member and $24.95 USD if not) https://www.amazon.com/Free-Be-5D…/dp/B08QZY69GV and on iTunes at $17 USD https://books.apple.com/…/free-to-be-5d…/id1547632484

This is also a short documentary we filmed offering more sense of the motivation and inspiration behind the book, including interviews with me, Raphael, and Kasha: https://youtu.be/9m6fJl2HwLk

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

All links to purchase as PDF, ebook, print and audio book at soulfullheart.org/books

Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

1:11 Codes Offer New Dawn During Darkest Hour

By Jelelle Awen

Blessings and love to you on this 1:11 portal day! These 1:11 codes feel to me like they are inviting us into deeper Divine and sacred union within. The inner masculine and feminine are waiting to be reunited again…the inner queen and king coming into their reign together!

These 1:11 codes are really just LOVE coming from our soul and Higher/Divine Self and Star/Soul family. This love is inviting us to let go of beliefs/agreements/karmic compensations/fears that block or limit this deeper embodiment of Divine union within.

With this deeper union and healing of polarities on so many levels, the veils lift and we can see/feel/be with the dark, shadow, edges, fear and pain that was previously being engaged in the tense friction and charge of duality. This seems to last as long as we need it to until we are complete with it. Having chosen the duality experience, we also choose when to move out of it and how/when/why that will happen.

This is happening on deeply personal levels, as I am experiencing right now myself in the completion of my relationship, yet also for the collective as the Matrix disclosure process really heats up. These control measures/restrictions/censorship/vax is all an aspect of the veil lifting on what was previously a hidden agenda.

How far into duality does it need to go? How restrictive does it need to get before the vast majority finally says, ‘no’ and declares their sovereignty and moves into the New Earth timeline? This we will find out….even as those of us already awakened have said our no’s and our yes’s to our own souls.

It does feel like the ‘darkest hour before Dawn’ in a sense….yet this is when the heart can break open, the soul can more deeply awaken, and normal can no longer be sustained. I feel the 1:11 codes hold that possibility beyond the darkness…and give us tastes of the New dawn. This NEW dawn is our sacred humanity arising finally to reclaim what was always ours. We gave it away as part of a very long Divinely held experiment that is finally coming to its completion.

I feel so much support from Divine Mother…and great waves of compassion coming to me from Her as needed, in sessions, and for all who ask for it. I kept seeing Her pouring 1:11 codes from her heart chakra to yours and mine and ours….in whatever form you see and feel that. Kasha saw them as rose petals when I shared that with her….I saw and felt them as the peachy and pink tones of yesterday’s soft sunrise here in Avalon.

Tune in for a moment to Her energy in whatever ways you do and she’ll gift you with these codes pouring out from Her heart chakra to yours as well.

Her compassion is the balm that soothes the heart, lights up the soul, and shines the way forward into sacred humanity’s New dawn finally arising!

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions for women with me and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group events, our online community, books, etc. at soulfullheart.org

Reclaiming The Crazy/Lost/Dark/Forgotten Parts Within You To Experience Transformation & Healing

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice, frequency of harm, and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Orphan. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Soul aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too. They are beyond shape and age and time.

Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that never seems to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’ or in ‘childhood’ or ‘many years ago’. They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is often why you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have. That is often why the suffering loops continue in relationships, in passion expression/service, in money areas, in the physical body.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain world they have known. As they feel YOU as your Divine Self embodiment come into their world with compassionate curiosity, they can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, lost or dark at all.

Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love. Transmuting for others is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth.As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones inside that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too.

As you love even the narcissist INSIDE and the punisher INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate. And you no longer draw these kinds of people and energies on the outside in relationships.

These lost ones inside you become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These ‘crazy ones’ become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity. These orphaned ones become adopted by your loving heart and claimed by your soul family.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is my 33 Day video series called Deepen to connect with some of these parts/aspects: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions are available with me over zoom or in person in Glastonbury, UK for women to feel, transmute, claim, and heal these precious parts of your self and soul as a bridge from your Divine Self for $100 USD for 90 very FULL minutes! And with other Facilitators too… More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

As You Enter 2021…

As we enter ‘2021’…

May your heart space clear… letting go to let in.

May your soul come alive… remembering the love that it is and always was.

May your feminine/masculine heart shine brightly… with gentleness, empowerment, and deepening purity.

May your healing process deepen in ways unexpected.

May your trust in the unknown of what’s to come offer your parts a place to rest.

May you remember what it’s like to nestle into the heart of the Divine… that heart of which you are inextricably a part.

And… may you allow IN the reality that you are powerful beyond measure…

That it’s OK to be ‘in process’ and not have everything figured out…

And that even when the challenges you face are big and the ‘monsters’ that parts of you fear come to visit… They want love just as much as you do.

May 2021 truly become the birthing room of so much deep change in every human heart… with much less fear, much more love, and a greater sense of each personal process of making that great shift INside.

Much love and Happy New Year!

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.