From Self-Created Smallness To Embodying Your Vastness

The pain can come from being small. From learning to act small and conform to the smallness around you. The suffering comes from their projection of smallness onto you and the acceptance of this that then becomes your reality….and theirs too. It is a co-created agreement to be and remain in smallness.

The smallness is the 3D agreement of filtering. It makes up the veil of amnesia and the belief in it keeps the veil in place. The pain comes from the long term fusion to this sense of smallness as the truth of who you are. It comes from the forgetting of the truth of your VASTNESS.

Parts of you form to support this smallness picture. These parts of you repeat the message of it over and over in self punishing tones and voices. The unworthiness message battles your body, your emotions, your spirituality, your choices….whatever can be picked on or is vulnerable to attack.

This punishing frequency forms layers of protection and guardedness over your innocence. Your innocence becomes covered over with shame and feelings of wrongness. Your trust in life and yourself gets layered over with distrust. Your sense of goodness about yourself becomes buried over with unworthiness and self hate.

These parts of you feel then that they ARE unworthy, are shameful, are wrong by their very nature. So much suffering in this usually unconscious looping of the punisher part and the corresponding reactions of shame in the younger parts of you. This is a well oiled and fuelled system inside designed to keep you small, created to cap your growth, and reinforced to maintain itself. It is designed to keep you protected, even if it is limiting.

There is not some evil force of aliens or demons or negative entities or abusive spiritual teacher that keep this personal hell in manifest form from within you. This is not being done to you BY others, even as it can very much feel that way. The others in your life that reflect and reinforce this smallness picture are there only to offer you a reflection of this inner polarized state for it continue to come into your awareness….over and over again if necessary until you wake to it as being sourced from INSIDE of you.

This is a self created smallness that your soul chose for good reason….until it is the time and phase to complete it. Only you can realize when that time is and only you can end it.

You end it by bringing love to all the parts of you that have felt so unworthy, including the parts of you that punish, judge, attack, and shame you and others. You separate from these parts in order to have a relationship with them and not just become them in their routinized reactions.

This creates an increasing sense of your goodness, of your worthiness and….of your vastness. This inner ambassadorship to all frequencies inside of your BEing connects you to the truth of your bigness again. To your innate goodness again. To your innocence again.

Who ARE you? You ARE Infinite Love in human form….arising into your bigness expression for the service of and because of love. Any picture less than that is ripe to be loved into this infinite love realized manifestation state again.

Welcome back to the VASTNESS of you….love can show the way!! ~

Message from the Divine, Star Family Guides/Aspects, Angelic Aspects, ALL of your parts that ache for something NEW that is based in love……..

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Jelelle Awen is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Moving Through The Lunar False Mother Matrix Energies

By Jelelle Awen

The Supermoon energies are FINALLY easing up a bit feels like. These energies have been intense…bringing many of us into catalytic initiations, timeline collapses, relationship challenges/completions, and more. Everything has been heightened and amplified by these frequencies, every reaction and trigger and response….as if you can’t take a breath or slow the ride…yet need to surrender to wherever it wants to take you.

These energies (and those of Ascension ongoingly) have seemed to want us to get REAL with ourselves and with others. Popping whatever inauthenticity is there, moving us into being genuine, not back pressuring our truth to caretake others (I am still working that one for sure), bringing up sudden and sometimes painful confrontations…all necessary for each to find their own way as efficiently as possible while this great bifurcation happens as we move from 3D to 4D to 5D.

There are the genuine lunar energies of Divine Feminine illumination that are accessible, yet, also, these energies have been hijacked in many ways by the Matrix AI system for a long time since the fall of Atlantis/Lemuria. The moon worshipping/Goddess spirituality practices from other lifetimes/timelines didn’t get this bigger picture that we have now, not realizing they were living inside of a Matrix system. This is part of the False Mother Matrix that is quite insidious and entangled in often deeply personal ways within us and in our collective too.

The immediate choice points of requiring high frequencies of resonance in our lives on ALL levels are happening now. Infiltration by the Matrix energies is becoming much more obvious now as the veil lifts around it, it goes into its death throes and last grasps. You can more clearly see someone’s or something’s previously hidden motives or agendas or Matrix influenced realities/perception filters. These are being revealed so that they can see them too for possible healing and reconciliation.

Divine surrender and landing in forgiveness within the heart of Divine Mother has been my safe shelter during this current storm over and over again. She waits for you too, with open arms and heart…as you extract and unplug from the False Mother matrix (which includes the hijacked moon energies) to let her in more and more.

The reminder of returning to love is always there within the true Divine Mother’s heart…..to receive ready forgiveness, and to embody our sacred humanity again. She will also challenge us when we are being false or not real with ourselves, even if it causes us temporary pain or discomfort. She does not coddle or caretake us so that we avoid the necessary initiations that we need to go through, even as she provides GREAT compassion for us all along the way.

We are invited to RISE even as we need to move through some necessary ups and downs as we go, stumbles and falls, before we DO.

We are in the process of reclaiming our sacred humanity. Reclaiming our wombs and haras. Reclaiming our moon. Reclaiming love…which has been holding all of us all along.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

In our next women’s group meditation call, Kasha and I will explore and offer a guided meditation to heal the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother on this Sunday at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EST. Feels like it will offer a significant unplugging process from the False Mother Matrix. You can join us by donation with more info at soulfullheart.org/events or https://www.facebook.com/events/452075722533275

Art by Freydon Rassouli

The Stanton Drew Standing Stones & New Earth/New Lemuria Codes

by Jelelle Awen

It is truly an honor to go to these sacred sites here in this magical Somerset region of the UK, to feel the soul frequencies that are activated by the geography, and the unique opportunity that it brings up as a portal to more Divine Self embodiment. Yesterday, we went to visit Staton Drew stone circle…the 3rd largest stone circle in the UK…dated to 4,500 years ago yet of course it could be much older when you go beyond 3D archaeological timeframes.


The stones were immediately greeting and ‘chatting’ at us, like they did at the Avebury stone circle (which we will return to soon.) The stones here seem to form a communication network grid for inner Earth and for galactic communication, linked to North America through the root system of the old trees there (such as the Redwoods, Douglas Firs, and the Cedars) and energetic vortexes such as Sedona and Mt. Shasta.

There are still 26 stones at Staton Drew in various stages of being intact, some chipped away at or knocked down by farmers over the years. I am noticing that there is a definitive masculine or feminine tonal frequency to each stone….the ones you want to cuddle and hug are usually feminine providing support and grounding. The ones that you lay palms on or want to climb are often masculine, with strong activations.


The biggest treasure at Stanton Drew is the still-intact smaller circle of about a dozen stones, which we were all drawn to sit in the middle of together. We sat in meditation and could immediately feel the connection to Inner Earth and the Lemurians living beneath it. The inner earth Lemurians are those who survived the fall/floods/earthquakes and went into Inner Earth to create 5D communities there. They have provided us on the surface with superfood seeds, quartz and andara crystals, various other technologies and more to be released when we are ready. Raphael and I have connected with them before and their template of what how we could live in sustainable, high frequency community on the surface is very inspiring.

We channeled their personal and community messages to us through some Lemurian ambassadors and then passed out for awhile laying in the sun. It was quite activating and rejuvenating! I look forward to going back there again to hear/feel/see whatever is ripe to come up.


The 800 year old St. Mary’s Christian Church we visited afterwards was not quite as clean energectically, yet it was still amazing to feel a church that old still intact and hosting Sunday services.

Love from Avalon (and surrounding areas),

Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Signs Of Soul Aspects/Other Lifetimes Bleeding Through To Your Current Reality

By Jelelle Awen

The veils are thinning and lifting BIG time in response to these ongoing, strong cosmic energies. These are the veils of amnesia that we chose, each of us, to place over our access to remembering and connecting to all of the timeline expressions of our Higher Self. These veils were always meant to be temporary, until our individual choice in this timeline to dissolve them. There is not a punishment in this being veiled, yet rather a complete dedication from our soul to really experience and immerse in the 3D experience.


The picture that I have been offered is that from your Metasoul source, there are many fractals or fragments projected out into many different timelines, eras, and dimensions. We each have our own individual Metasoul source (so this is a reality ‘underneath’ the Soul Family Monad/Oversoul groups) and do not share them with another soul. These fractal projections off of the same Metasoul is what we call, ‘Metasoul aspects or Metasoul Brothers and Sisters.’ These are what have been commonly called, ‘past lives.’


However, there is not anything ‘past’ about these aspects as time is not actually linear in the way it has been presented to us in 3D reality. All of your Metasoul aspects are alive and active in the Now, which means that they are currently experiencing all the intensities of whatever timeline they are in.


With the veils thinning so much on your consciousness, these Metasoul timelines are no longer patiently waiting for you to go see a past-life regression therapist or to just engage with them once in a while for remembering. The scenes and themes and often intense emotions from these timelines are coming through in the Now and basically demanding to be seen/felt, and connected with.


These timelines are overlaying onto your current reality and can amplify whatever is going on there. This can be intense! These timeline bleed-throughs can activate undigested emotional wounds and traumas in your 3D Self. These 3D wounded experiences are actually Metasoul recapitulations and patterns that were chosen to be triggered so that they could be felt and healed.


What I have been noticing in recent sessions with women is that with all of the chakra vortex activations through solar energies, they are more able to see, hear, and feel these other timelines. They are experiencing this as sometimes disturbing, intense, and very uncomfortable body pain, emotional pain, and relationship pain/difficulties. They aren’t recognizing or connecting these pains to a Metasoul timeline, so they often suffer in these states without understanding what is going on.


In session space, we are able to bridge to these timelines together and connect with the Metasoul Sister or Brother who needs them, starting with a connection to their Gatekeeper (who has access to all the lifetimes). This is the beginning of a connection between them that eventually leads to a soul gift exchange and quantum healing of karma, as I have experienced myself over and over again. You can actually change and collapse the timelines of your Metasoul through loving intervention and ‘rescue’ of your Metasoul aspects when needed. This is quantum healing that also impacts the collective experience of these timelines. More about 1:1 sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator here: soulfullheart.org/sessions


Here are some signs that a Metasoul Aspect timeline is bleeding through to your current reality:


– Intense dreams that feel very real and like they are happening in the Now. This can be the experience of nightmares that are actually scenes fixed or stuck in your Metasoul due to undigested trauma.


– Seeing scenes of intense circumstances that overlay onto your reality, such as being hanged, persecuted, desire for suicide (or actually committing it.) This may feel more like you are watching a movie rather than actually feeling like something you have experienced.


– Being drawn to particular timelines in a strong way, such as studying intensely about Ancient Greece, Ancient Egypt, Atlantis, etc. Or being deeply interested in learning about different Star BEings and galactic energies. Synchronicities may connect you to this particular timeline as well, such as meeting people who are also drawn to them, seeing random images that pop up on the internet connected to them and receiving names for parts of yourself or soul aspects with origins and connections to these timelines.


– Big waves of emotional reactions and triggers that you wouldn’t normally react to so strongly. The tendency can be to want to shut down these emotions or raise your frequency above them, yet, actually, these emotions are a portal that can be felt and digested if you connect to your Metasoul Aspect who is experiencing them.


– Frequent or chronic body pain, especially in the muscles and joints, that isn’t relieved by traditional or even alternative means. This is increasing as our bodies go through the transformational process from carbon to becoming crystalline. Yet, also, intense body pain can be a manifestation of unfelt Metasoul overlays into your energy field and body, especially your Reptilian Self. Traumatic experiences in other timelines (such as being hanged or burned at the stake) can actually manifest as body pain this life. The more traumatic the experience is on the Metasoul Aspect’s body, the more possible this is.


– Activation of childhood memories of abuse and feeling like you are there again. The Metasoul trauma amplifies any unfelt and undigested trauma in your 3D-based parts too. Parts of you can loop in these traumatic scenes so you may be reliving them again in this way.


– Visiting a physical geography or sacred site where a you have another lifetime and seeing/feeling/sensing this other lifetime overlaid onto the present. Being drawn to particular places (especially common sacred sites) very often activates Metasoul aspects yet being able to feel and digest them can be challenging.

– Experiencing ‘attacks’ by negative or fear-based entities or beings on a regular or accelerating basis. Discovery of implants in your energy field and chakras. This experience of attacks can actually be a sign that Metasoul Aspects (particularly your Reptilian Self) is reaching out for you and wants to connect. It can be a scary experience when it happens, so most people resist it and become very fearful and want to ‘battle’ and protect themselves. Ambassadorship to these energies reveals that they are wanting to be felt, loved, and seen yet need a bridge to be able to do so.


All of this activation and lifting of the veil is happening to accelerate the process of feeling and transmuting karma trauma. This is a very self-loving decision and choice by your Metasoul to have this process consciously awaken to you and with you in this Now. The opportunities for truly healing karma are huge right now, which is an essential aspect of the Ascension process. Navigating this opportunity through connection with your Metasoul Aspects directly and the timelines that they are living in allows for an expedited, often miraculous level of transformation! And, it just seems to keep getting more ripe, clear, and ready for transmuting.


~ This is partly an excerpt from my book “Free To Be 5D”, and there is much more in it about the Metasoul aspects reality, both in 4D and 5D energies, which you can purchase in PDF, ebook, print and audio with links at soulfullheart.org/books


Love from Avalon (a place where LOTS of Metasoul activation occurs!),

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Amara/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

You Are Seeding Light In The Darkness: Message From The Magdalenes/The Divine

By Jelelle Awen

“You are seeding light IN the darkness.

As this is your soul purpose here, you need to be in the darkness at times in order to do and BE this. You need to experience the darkness and the suffering it can cause and STILL find light again. You need to experience pain and traumas and STILL heal your heart and soul, in order to offer this possibility to others as well.

Recognizing the darkness and how it manifests is key here at this time when it is so pervasive, so programmed, and has been ‘in control’ for so long. Seeing how darkness offers temptations through various ‘drugs’ that lead to addictions; how darkness can offer diversions and distractions in so many forms; how darkness can offer poisons for the body and claim they are medications and ‘food’; how darkness can turn beloveds ‘against’ each other; how darkness wants to possess and own, etc.

Yet, always, the darkness is seeking for the light, its opposite…it wants to return home to the light for which it was cast out.

This is why it is being shown in the more obvious ways that it is now. This is why everyone is now being exposed to it, being impacted by it, needing to make daily life choice decisions in reference to it. Not because the darkness is THE TRUTH of reality, not because there is no hope for the light, not because the darkness will ultimately ‘win’. Yet because it is FINALLY time for the darkness to heal from fear to love.

The only way it can heal is to be exposed, to be seen….and to be loved, to be forgiven, and to be offered UP to the light. This seeding of light in the darkness always begins from within you. Rather than focus so much on what is happening of this process on the outside, turn inward and you will find the truth of your own progress around this.

Find with loving curiosity where darkness still has ‘work to do’ and why. Discover where you are still unconsciously being plugged into the darkness matrix through toxicity, suffering, fear, and distrust. Connect to the aspects of darkness within you and in your soul who most need your love in order to move into the light. Become your Divine Self that can hold the space for this exploration with love and compassion.You are here to seed light in the darkness.

Turn love’s light to yourself in this way and it will beacon out to others to embrace this journey within themselves as well.

We are here to support you always. Especially when you need a reminder of WHY you are here to do this. And of what is possible as the light becomes the consciousness for which ALL of Gaia is anchored once again. Returning to wholeness.

Returning to Oneness. Returning to Love.”

Love,The Magdalenes & The Divine……w/Jelelle Awen

We offer 1:1 sessions to explore into your inner darkness at the personal and soul level in a safe container and with a process that allows for deeper integration and embodiment….more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Join Raphael and I for our next group meditation call One Year Later – Navigating The Covid Narrative on Sunday, April 18th at 5:00pm BST by donation. More info at soulfullheart.org/events

Significant Soul Turns Out Of Suffering & Into Love

By Jelelle Awen

So many of us are going through very important ‘soul turns’ right now, as I have come to call them. A soul turn is a significant shifting in one lifetime of your soul’s patterned learning trajectory that has been in place for many, many lifetimes. This lifetime is one for which so many have chosen to be here on the Earth Plane during this time of Ascension for the opportunity to experience soul turn shifts for ourselves and complete cycles of incarnational suffering.

A soul turn is moving beyond previously unconscious karmic binds, ties, and contracts. It is letting in resonant love as the main form of growth rather than from experiencing traumas in order to grow. It is shifting from going through suffering in order to wake up… to feeling and healing all the cycles of shame/punishment/judgement suffering cycles within you and in your soul that then leads to awakening.

It is shifting from drawing repeated traumas in order to see/feel them to TRULY transmuting these traumas into love again so you no longer need them. It is experiencing bonds with others that are based in love and not shared trauma.

Lifetime after lifetime, our soul chooses the situations, set ups, narratives, and companion souls to play the ‘roles’ of both support and shadow that will offer the most growth and learning for us. We take this on for the Divine, for our soul families, for Unity Consciousness, and for the ALL. We represent both the experience of and recovery from sacred wounds such as those held in the collective…the Fall of Lemuria, Atlantis, Avalon…the Matrix imprisonment experiment, the hijacking of our sacred feminine expressions and the Divine Mother experience, the distortion of the sacred masculine into patriarchy and more.

As we become conscious of the trauma patterns from this life and feel the parts of us that hold them, we are able to truly become free beyond them. The traumas no longer act as magnets in our emotional bodies and soul fields drawing MORE traumas to us for us to see and feel. Trauma, suffering, and pain is always a portal to self discovery and remembering…until we no longer need it to be.

It is now possible to become fully conscious of our soul’s experience and lift the veils that have previously been in place around this. We can now turn our soul away from suffering and toward love. Our Divine Self is able to defuse from the punishing/protective/wounded/defended parts of us and say ‘no’ to any situation, circumstances, and pattern that repeats our suffering. Sometimes we are still veiled to a situation and need the learning experience, yet the reason for drawing it becomes conscious much more quickly and then completed.

It is time to let go of suffering patterns and move into the experience of LOVE holding your life in ALL areas of your life. You are ready now to move beyond the previous veiled limitations. You no longer need to replay traumas & draw new ones….you are ready now to transmute them all back into love & experience goodness!!

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In 1:1 sessions, we as SoulFullHeart Facilitators support you to go into these grounds within you to discover what patterns are ready to complete and be let go. We also model for you and provide a ‘dropped in’ space for you to learn how to lift your own veils, how to connect with your parts and soul gatekeeper (who opens up access to your akashic records) and access soul aspects/fragments.

Rather than do this process for you as mediums or psychics, we empower YOU to open this up for yourself. This allows for the growth and realizations to be truly embodied rather than receiving it from any ‘outside’ source. There is no other process that I know of that works at these levels of self sovereignty and self-led growth, both at the personal this-life experience and then at quantum soul level as well WHILE deepening self, sacred union, and divine intimacy possibilities within a community of resonant souls. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

I highly recommend my free 33 day video series Deepen as a place to start diving into what we offer: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

And my recent book Free To Be 5D, available on ebook, PDF, print and audio: soulfullheart.org/books

Love from Avalon,
Jelelle Awen

Photo is of me in the ruins of the Lady Chapel at Glastonbury Abbey, a place of powerful energies supporting me to make repeated soul turn choices from suffering to love!

Trusting The Ascension Process As Humanity Shifts Out Of 3D And Into Lower 4D/Dark Night

By Jelelle Awen

“Be in the world, not of the world, yet care FOR the world,” ~ Yeshua

So many times I have been offered this as a guiding light through this current c narrative and false medicine storm that humanity is experiencing. Being in the world is honoring that we have chosen on a soul level to BE here on this Earth Plane during this transition from 3D Matrix reality moving into 4D transitional/dark night phase and into 5D New Earth. Not being of the world is acknowledging that we are no longer in the mainstream consciousness flow or in resonance with it. We are no longer of it, even as we were ALL raised in it, by it, and of it. And many awakening souls still have many friends/family who are still of it Caring for the world though….ALL of it and ALL souls in it, is the piece that feels like it offers the next level of compassion and love ambassadorship.

As you tune into the Divine Mother and your Christ essence, your heart breaks open to feel the cries of the world, the cries of the womb/hara, the cries of the children. As you feel these cries, you DO care, even for those who judge you as crazy or push you away. You care even if you move out of saving or rescuing anyone and surrender, again, to the Divine holding of it ALL.

This is a collective dark night phase for humanity. This is the crawl and walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Dark nights are ALWAYS messy. They last as long as they need to and you can’t ‘control’ them. They are absolutely necessary for TRUE awakening to occur. Something false must die in order for the new to be born.

It does feel to me that 3D/third dimensional reality as we have previously known it is gone and we have actually ascended beyond it now as has Gaia. The comfort and security of 3D for parts of us, the eat/work/die familiar pattern of it has now shifted into something completely unknown to us before that is also unpredictable and volatile. It feels like we are now moving into a collective lower 4D reality as the ‘mainstream’ one….where soul awakenings can occur along with dark nights. Life as we previously knew it as ‘normal’ no longer exists, which is actually a good thing and IS Ascension…even if it feels rather like a dystopia to us; even if it isn’t how we wanted it or would prefer it to look or feel; or that it feels like it isn’t our choice or is happening ‘to’ us rather than with us.

While this is uncomfortable, it also feels like progress. To continue along in the ‘too comfortable’ 3D Matrix was to continue being suppressed, asleep, numbed, and drugged by it. This is messy now, yet it has woken up SO many souls by disrupting and interrupting their daily routines…and even lockdowns allowing for an unplugging from the daily living/doing/staying busy mill.

Even those previously awakening souls have had to question now how deeply embodied their spirituality actually IS as they lean more into it in real ways to navigate the unknown; how much they have healed in their emotional body as intense reactions come up; how much they have compartmentalized their spiritual essence away from the rest of their life as their social life becomes more difficult to navigate.

For those of us long on the awakening journey aligned with Divine Mother, we see and trust the value of these lower 4D dimensions. Yes, they contain some “hell realms” and dark energies/beings/timelines…yet the darkness needs our love, acceptance, and ambassadorship more than the 3D numb Matrix reality did. To move into 5D, we were ALWAYS going to need to go through 4D and reconcile what has lived there previously in shadow, in our subconscious, in other lifetimes. Any offerings/teachings/teachers that suggest we could have somehow avoided this are still plugged into a False God/False Light program that diverts us from actually transmuting and transforming (as it is meant to divert and distort.)

Now is the time where we have the support from Ascension energies, from the Divine, from benevolent guardian galactic beings, from guides/Metasoul aspects to TRULY transmute into our sacred human frequencies, to reactivate our DNA, to upgrade our galactic genes, to move into ‘supernatural’ gifts, to FREE up the immense powerful energies of our wombs/haras. We get to experience remembrance of bliss states and authentic joy as well come alive in us….holding the space as we courageously go into the mess over and over again for as many times as it ‘takes’ to heal.

This is what the journey to becoming free looks like….where nothing can be bypassed or wished away, yet needs to be gone through in order to reach the other side. It is this WHOLE journey that we have signed up to experience here as the growth possible from it is so appealing to many of us. It feels like there was a long sign-up line to be part of this phase of humanity’s Ascension on Earth. The best ‘show’ in the Galaxies in that way.

No longer resisting and being afraid of what lurks in the shadows allows us to embrace and understand the deep choice we made for our own growth and for humanity’s more fully.

Much Love from Avalon to you during this Dark Night to Light experience…..Avalon is anchoring in the frequencies of Divine Support to move through all the necessary phases here,

Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Ascension process, the False God/Light, the 3D and 4D Matrix in my book Free To Be 5D…available in ebook/PDF/print/audio versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

Join Kasha and I tomorrow March 7th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/12:00pm EST for a women’s group call over zoom to feel specifically into the womb hijacking by the Matrix and offer a transmission/meditation for healing and activation beyond it. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Living In Love Over Fear: Navigating The Covid Narrative

The energies of divergence are quite strong right now. It really can feel as if you are on a different planet and plane of existence from others. How we relate to fear, and specifically the fear of body death right now, are revealing our different consciousness states. The covid narrative is revealing so much about a soul’s relationship to body death and how strongly attached to safety and known they are around that (even as we have been programmed to feel it is natural for us to die at a certain age when immortality is actually our human potential and capacity).

And, also where someone is in the process of claiming their own sovereignty, truth, and relationship of trusting surrender to the Divine. The 3D projection of comforting authority figure onto governments, health authorities, etc. is a phase in a soul’s journey out of parental dependence and toward self empowering Divine self realization.

Yesterday we went to a new grocery store for us that was in the town next to Glastonbury, which has been more mellow about Covid. The fear and control were palpable as soon as we walked in the doors of this new store. Signs all over the store and messages over the loud speakers keep repeating how we must ‘keep each other safe’, keep our masks on, keep away from each other, only shop with one person (this particular store had many signs suggesting that shopping with someone else was quite irresponsible.)

Raphael and I walked around the store without masks, as we are prone to do as a reflection of how we do not live in fear, especially fear of a virus that has such a low mortality rate. And that if we did catch it, we would trust that process and the messenger/mirror/portal that the virus offered us. We also do not fear catching this from others for the same reasons. We were the ONLY ones without masks in the entire store and I could feel the fear from others as we walked down the aisles….as if deadly germs would jump on them from us. I am used to drawing some attention when I walk around but usually it is a draw to the light in my field or the joy I am putting off. I felt sadness about fear toward us and tried to radiate love at them in larger amounts to meet it.

Raphael and I were in joy, we were in love, we were kissing and hugging whenever we could and excitedly looking at the products that drew us. This radiating of love I am hopeful was able to provide a moment, however brief, of relief to those living in so much fear and tension right now. I can feel how the Covid situation has just illuminated this consciousness difference of living in fear or living in love. I don’t feel this as a judgement toward others or a superiority, yet rather symbolic of the polarization and duality that we have all shown up to be part of.

The jabs/shots are another means to separate us as those who choose them really ARE moving into an unknown and untested place of compromised immune system and even what feels like altered DNA, etc. Interestingly, the shots feel MUCH more dangerous to the human body than the virus that so many souls are afraid of. I am personally never going to get one and I would advise against any light workers/healers/awakening souls to do it, even if that means not being able to do certain things which we can then surrender into for a phase of time.

The Matrix is amping up its ultimate control program of the Great Reset, especially here in the UK. I do feel that we in SoulFullHeart we meant to be in this country during this time even as it has been challenging in moments. We are here to offer a beacon of love, of community, of depth of feeling, of trust in the Divine, and a life lived of healing fear to let in more love. I also feel we are here to bring healing energies to the grids of fear and love ambassadorship to those dark energies that have been in control for so long.

I send love to those who are using the Covid situation to mirror fears that are needing to come up. And I offer love to parts of them who need to judge those of us who are not in fear as it is the only way they know how to be. And I also choose to live in love and non-judgement, to trust love, and to be a lighthouse for others to do and be the same!

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

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What Is The False God?

“Big clearings going on of all that has been hijacked by the Matrix/False God…our wombs/haras, bodies, minds, hearts are Sacred, Whole & FREE.” This was my status update the other day which got a lively response of resonance when I shared it.


I got this question from someone after posting it, “Can you explain more about what you mean by the False God?” I felt that I would respond to them here as a post rather than just in a private message as it is a good teaching to share.


The False God is a frequency generated by the Matrix at the AI/4D level that has created a distraction, diversion, and distortion of pure Divine love and light energies. With the separation out of the Divine that was chosen BY the Divine, fear was created that has been able to be used by different forces over time to their own advantages. This fear-based reality has been created (with our choice on the higher self level) to keep humanity and Gaia corralled and feeling trapped and enslaved in lower frequencies and denser consciousness realities. Some ‘darker’ Star Beings, with some human conscious collaboration, has operated and broadcast the 4D Matrix since the Fall of Atlantis. Negative Star Beings (also called Archons by the Gnostics) have been highly influencing and programming these human collaborators known as the Elite, the Cabal, the Illuminati, etc. These forces are the ones behind the Global Reset, the darker liberal agenda, Big Pharma/Hollywood/Business, etc. and are orchestrating what we are experiencing now of violation of our liberties and rights through restrictions, lockdowns, quarantines,  inoculations, etc.


The False God programs run on submission, punisher/shame dynamics, unworthiness, and giving over our sovereignty to a power outside of ourselves. Mainstream religions operate from these polarized False God programs, while containing some true light and love energies as well. The False God face and energy is often of a punitive, competitive, and patriarchal “Him” god, shorn of the balancing Divine Mother frequencies.The False God can also feel very dark, satanic, and even ‘evil’ although it is often not that overt or obvious. The Divine Mother can be hijacked by the False God as well with ‘old school’ feminine spirituality that promotes an anti-masculine/pro-feminine agenda through Will of the Goddess worship, dark rituals, moon cycle and moon blood worship (which is a hijack of the Womb Creatix powers by the Matrix-more coming soon about that).


The False God also shows up in some “New Age” offerings in which a false light bubble fed on a steady diet of positive affirmations, shallow spirituality, false gurus/abusive leaders, etc. that doesn’t allow for a deeper drop into the true transmutational ground of Divine Self embodiment and empowerment which includes the integration, love and acceptance of our shadows and ALL parts of us. The False God also operates at the 4D karmic levels from many lifetimes of experiencing it, creating suffering loops of incarnational cycles that play out the same soul themes/patterns over and over again.


The Ascension energies that are flowing into Gaia are watering seeds planted by higher dimensional Star Beings and the Magdalenes soul family lineage is now allowing for the revelation of the False God in all of its forms. This is bringing in a clearing of the fear and pain that has manifested through the worship of it. Through that healing and clearing, the true Divine can emerge from the heart, soul, DNA, wombs/haras of each of us at Its Divine children.


Many souls are now experiencing a wake up from this False God reality and into the new grounds of experiencing the true Divine, the true Christ, the true Divine Mother…..always originating from within us. From this place, we can now experience that we ARE free, we ARE whole, and we ARE sacred. We can then move back into union from within, with each other and with the Divine AS our Beloved.


There is much more about the Matrix and the False God in my book Free To Be 5D with links to purchase ebook, PDF, print and audio book versions at soulfulllheart.org/books.

art by Anna Baibakova

Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen


Kasha and I will be teaching more about healing the matrix womb hijacking and activating our love womb in an upcoming women’s group call over zoom on Sunday, March 7th. You can join us by donation with more information at https://www.facebook.com/events/1300057440381102 and soulfullheart.org.

Let Go & Let Peace During This Dark Initiatory Time | Jelelle Awen & The Magdalenes

art by Michael Divine

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Emerging out of my honeymoon and Bridal Chamber consciousness for which I’ve been happily indulging lately with Raphael, I can feel, of course, the intensity of events and energies that are occurring in the collective, 3D, Matrix with the lockdowns, restrictions, quarantine, v*ccine agenda, etc. Especially this is in my awareness as we have beloveds coming to and looking to travel here to Glastonbury and are going through a travel gauntlet of sorts to arrive safely here in Avalon.


My Divine Feminine anchored consciousness can’t really be separated in any moment from feeling and hearing the ‘cries of the world’…it is just what happens as you let Her into your heart, body, and soul.


I feel for those of us who are so sensitive to the cries of the world, the cries of the children, the cries of the womb/women that are peaking during this Dark Night for the collective….we ARE being supported to rise above this sensitivity at times, to ‘turn down’ the dial of our empathic radar. To not get too far ‘into it’ that we become deeply overwhelmed or frustrated. We will tend to take these energies into our wombs and hearts AS IF they are are own, which they are from the Oneness and Soul Family dimensions.


Yet, also, the reminder comes often, especially from Mary Magdalene who lived through much suppression in her time from the Romans/Cabal, ‘to let go and let peace.’ She reminds us that EACH soul is on their own journey through the dark night passages that they NEED to go through and that they have signed up for. It is not for our feminine hearts to rescue or save anyone, even when the urge is strong to do so.


To respect the bigness and sovereignty of each soul is to connect to the higher realms from which they originate. It can especially help to do this with loved ones who are still anchored and plugged into the 3D Matrix, still conditioned by the mainstream everything, and still believe others more than their own intuitive guidance. Connecting to their Higher/Divine Self to compassionately understand the reasons for their consciousness choices can assist you in this. Often the greatest mercy on both sides is to let them go, to stop tugging or convincing, to stop battling or trying ‘win’ any arguments. Giving yourself the gift of resonance and support rather around you allows you to truly serve and become love.


Covid has pushed up the divisions and polarities in world views and consciousness, in humanity’s matrix reality, so that we can see where we are resonant with others and where there is dissonance. It has illuminated that many souls are still not awakened to their sovereignty yet. Many more souls can awaken though now who are on the tipping point of doing so.
The v*ccines are a form of bifurcation or ‘sorting rod’ in that way as those who choose to get them are moving into an unknown place of altered DNA and RNA (some of them) and last gasp Matrix programming entering into their every cell. This is their choice to do so and, again, we cannot rescue them from it. The true impact/side effects of them is not known and won’t be for many years yet the ‘energy’ of them doesn’t feel good or healthy for the body ultimately, especially the immune system. Those souls who are awakened to a place to see the control agenda in the v*ccine and the very real harm to their light bodies and consciousness are easily and already aware of what it harmful about it.


The current energies are supporting us to ‘rise above’ whatever we need to in order to truly become ambassadors of love, primarily to ourselves and any parts of us that need it. This is a painful time of difficult choices at times, yet it is held in much Divine love for ALL of us. The divisions are being highlighted, yet Unity is the ultimate truth.

These current challenges are a form of initiation for each of us and for humanity. How we respond to them, how we process them, how we navigate them offers us an opportunity to heal on many levels.

The Magdalenes are here to help us water the seeds of Ascension they planted in other timelines/lifetimes. Ask for Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, Mother Mary, Joseph, whomever you feel drawn to, for assistance and guidance during your personal walking out of this tumultuous time and they will BE there for you. Magdalene/Christ consciousness has been seeded in many and, although distorted by the Matrix in the form of mainstream religion, still retains its purity in those souls who respond to it and awaken to it.


Raphael and I offered a guided meditation from the Bridal Chamber yesterday to connect with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene energies as a bridge to experiencing the Divine AS your beloved:

Much love from the heart chakra of Gaia…which is breaking it feels like in order to more fully OPEN,

Jelelle Awen & the Magdalenes
More Info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, writings/books at soulfullheart.org. I offer much more in my Free To Be 5D book about the Ascension process, now available in audio, print, ebook, and PDF editions, with links at soulfullheart.org/books.