Celebrating Thanks-Giving In Resonant Energies

By Jelelle Awen
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A thanks-giving to remember, to savor, and to still be letting in today. We gathered together to celebrate Canadian Thanksgiving yesterday….really just another reason to connect with each other when we’ve all been pretty full with serving, jobs, life, etc recently. Raianna’s boyfriend Nic joined us, adding to the love vibe, and helping us ‘see’ the blessings of our community and the closeness we share the five of us that we are able to experience with more and more souls lately.
 
We enjoyed a fully vegan, gluten free, sugar free meal made with lots of love….allowing for easier digestion and nourishment! Rather than the often usual birth family angst that happens on major holidays, there was no drama, conflict, or unspoken dynamics. This is community connection FREE of resentment or bitterness that comes from things going unspoken. This is community based on resonance rather than unowned dissonance. Amazing how much more goodness you can let in when the energies are resonant, loving, and supportive!
 
As we’ve cultivated this inside ourselves, with parts of ourselves and each other over the years…so we can experience this on a moment by moment basis MOST moments. During our circle sharings about what we were grateful and appreciative for….this was the most common thing shared by each of us. Grateful for ourselves, for our parts (both young and old, feminine and masculine, just emerging and very well known)….grateful for each other and the Divine. Grateful for those souls who are joining us in session space and came to our recent gatherings. Grateful for love!
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
As a ‘gift’ to you, we are now offering a free 30-45 minute intro call over zoom with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, or Kalayna Solais. Experience the love for yourself and see where it takes you! More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
 
And if you’d like to join us around this table, our next four day SoulFullHeart Gathering is happening around the Winter Solstice here in Victoria, Canada from December 18-21. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1654802484653131/
or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings
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10/10 Portal & Light Body Activation Group Transmission Call On 10/12

By Jelelle Awen

A GOOD time to gather together as this powerful 10/10 gateway opens and extends until 11/11…..Raphael Awen and I are hosting our monthly group transmission over Zoom to bring you into our high vibrational space/home this Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver Canada time). We’ll be teaching and sharing about the 10/10 gateway, what we are experiencing of it, and also our ongoing Light Body Activation process that has included much cellular clearing, fasting/living on more prana, sound healing, sacred sexuality exchange (which can be with self and with a sacred partner), etc.

I will be playing my 432HZ tuned crystal bowls for a bit as well, which provide an atunement and clearing for each chakra in the body. AND Raphael and I will be co-leading a guided meditation together as well for you to ‘meet’ your 5D Light Body and feel where you are at in the process of becoming it more.

You can experience this for an energy exchange of $15 CAD ($11 USD)! You can also receive the recording afterwards and all of the benefits if you can’t make it live with us.

You can purchase it here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/group-transmission-1

Or via paypal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/

Love,
Jelelle and Raphael

 

Energy Update: Odd & Strange Energies As Bridge To 10/10 Gateway

By Jelelle Awen

 Energy UPdate: Strange energies….odd, as we head into the 10/10 gateway already that extends into 11/11. These odd energies seem to be pushing up the uneasy feelings and sometimes even unsettled situations that trigger them. Maybe they are just an echo or residue of these experiences from the past not the ‘real deal’ traumas or situations that cause trauma. Maybe they are just the memories of trauma that live in our every cells, waiting to be ‘kicked up’ when we are ready to heal and feel them.

The 10/10 gateway is a bridge to 2020 and Next Level living and experiencing of ourselves on all levels that this ‘clearer vision’ year offers us. As we move into these kind of bridges, there is the increasing feeling sense of where we are now, who we are now, what our lives are now……AND increasing feeling of where we are going, who we will become, what our lives will BE then.

Being on bridges is an uneasy sensation….precarious in the sense that you could fall at any moment into sometimes an unknown abyss below. They signify movement from one reality to another one. From one dimension to another. Sometimes, you are ‘stuck’ on the bridge for awhile as you make deeper choices about what to do next, whether to go forward or whether to go ‘back’. 

Sometimes fear locks you down and you can’t take another step forward toward your higher timeline on the other side. Parts of you that guard and protect (such as your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) are too concerned about your safety to show you the way. They aren’t quite ready yet to offer the handrails that you need to cross this bridge as they aren’t sure that you’ll be able to handle it. Negotiation with your Gatekeeper can help you to navigate the transition, providing a lift UP and a way through when you need it. This allows your soul to ‘take over’ beyond your 3D self.

As you process these odd transitional energies, you may notice your body becoming more sensitive to everything as well. More sensitive to foods, to energies for which the foods are prepared and places where the food is eaten. More sensitive to whether heart frequencies are present in sexuality and where desire is coming from. More sensitive to digestion and the process of it. 

Our light bodies are the vehicles that move us across these bridges. Our light bodies travel to these multidimensional realities where we can receive downloads and activations and gift exchanges with Metasoul fragments/aspects that we most need right now. Our light bodies need the ‘right’ fuel, the right vibrations and the right love to move into this higher frequency out of 3D density.

Raphael and I are offering a group transmission on Saturday October 12 at 10:00 am PDT to activate, support, and help with the transition of your light body with guided meditation, teachings, and powerful sound healing. We’ll talk more about the 10/10 gateway as well and what it is offering to us. You can join us live to get in on the discussion and share if you want….or we can send you the recording for $15 CAD/$11 USD. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/

And you can purchase here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/group-transmission-1

Or via paypal for $15 CAD/$11 USD here: paypal.me/jelelleawen 

The oddness will pass as it always does. On the other side of these necessary bridges is the new land of Infinite Love experience in the human body within community. On the other side of the bridge is YOU as a sacred human…..arising wonder.

Here is a guided meditation as a bridge to your higher timeline: https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Love,

Jelelle Awen 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

It’s Ok Not To Be OK: Feelings As A Portal To Your Multidimensional Self

By Jelelle Awen

It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.

Why do we need to receive this self permission to feel? The 3D world operates on the suppression of vulnerable feeling. Analyzing feelings rather than actually dropping into the emotive ground of them. Numbing and drugging our feelings with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc….relating to our emotions as if we need to go into battle with them. As if they are diseases and illnesses that need a cure. As if they are evidence of our brokenness.

Your feelings offer a story, an important telling of what parts of you have experienced in 3D reality and what may remain emotionally undigested. They tell a soul story too…often from other lifetimes even, BIG emotional charge there sometimes, that is waiting for bridging and to be felt and held and responded to.

Your feelings provide a portal to deeper understanding of yourself in this life..and in other lifetimes too. They are a portal to your multidimensional experience of reality in so many timelines going on all at ONCE.

There is so much social lack of acceptance around feeling ourselves and being REAL about what our feelings are. Even in spirituality, there can be so much focus on the light and the positive that transparency and integrity (that come from being REAL about what you are feeling) get lost and covered over. Abuses of self and others occur then in ‘spiritual circles’ with emotionally immature teachers perpetuating toxic cycles from using spiritual frequencies to cover over their own woundings.

It’s OK not to be OK…..if you had been told this, offered this in childhood rather than the 3D message of “Get over it. Don’t be so sensitive. Stop crying”…you could have naturally learned how to hold space for your feelings and the parts of you that feel them. Instead, parts of you learn to protect and defend your feelings. To turn the judgement of your feelings inward and develop a punishing energy (an Inner Punisher) that carries the message inside of your unworthiness.

Then, you are called eventually to become the loving and accepting parental energy (fuelled by the Divine) that you probably did not have. Your pain calls you to this. Your pain offers where there still remain places inside that need your love.

The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.

Trusting the flows AND the ebbs, the natural cycles of closings and openings. Trusting and being curious about the reasons that your tears exist, the reasons that your pains exist, and the mirror they are offering you OF you. The Divine, especially Divine feminine frequencies, WANTS you to feel yourself and all that calls your heart to respond to it. Divine love supports this process of not being OK, being real about it, and the dive in exploration of it too.

The Divine wants the pains of the 3D experiment to be felt and moved as more of Its essence can be let in…..which is actually YOUR essence as Infinite Love returning to you as a felt reality the more and more you are willing to feel what is real.

Here is a guided meditation to transmute traumas by feeling them with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with SoulFullHeart Facilitators RaphaelGabriel and Kalayna : soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/

Or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Star Seed Activations As We Move Into 10/10 Gateway

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Star Seed activations and upgrades are happening in response to these increasing surges of energy that we experienced especially in September and now ongoingly into October. We had some strong SOULar storms in September which can increase polarities in Gaia’s atmosphere and ours too….allowing us to see, feel, and heal the polarizations that have played out from being in 3D reality versus the more porous frequencies our soul is used to as a Star Seed. 10/10 through 11/11 offers a gateway/portal opening to these galactic frequencies too.

The upgrades recently are connected to our upper or Ascension chakras, specifically the Stellar Gateway or Personal Sun (as I call it), Soul Star, and Causal (back of head). These are chakras that fewer souls are aware of beyond the main seven. These chakras are like the branches of our energetic tree, with the seven main ones forming the trunk, and the root base chakra system extending down to Gaia.

This upgrading causes the head and neck pains as the Causal Chakra (which is where our Reptilian Brain Stem dissolves to be upgraded into our galactic/sacred human one). These are similar to sleepy DNA strands that are now coming awake and into our awareness. Connecting with these consciously, cleaning and activating them, allows for light languages access, communion with your star family, and very importantly healing of Star Seed abandonment wounding so that you can receive the supportive gifts of your star family. Connecting with them allows for a lifting of the veil so you can remember your galactic nature.

Here is a guided meditation that I did to activate these chakra vortexes: https://youtu.be/6cv-bzIAY8E

I feel that we are ALL Star Seeds as humans here on Gaia….our DNA is a galactic soup of genes from many species from many planets formed together over millions of years. Revealing this mainstream will be an aspect of disclosure once it is felt ‘safe’ in terms of collective reaction. We are ALL hybrids in this way with some of us having more distinctive star being DNA/genes from others. Those of us with more star BEing DNA are being woken up ‘early’ to lead the way and help others adjust to the galactic awakening that NEEDS to happen as an important aspect of the Ascension process.

I am working a lot with the Star Seed child aspect within me and in sessions over the last year, which is the more porous expression of the more 3D-based Inner Child. I have identified this part as holding the energy of feeling abandoned by star family, like they don’t ‘belong’ here on Gaia and with their birth families. They very often struggle to fit in with others at school and don’t like the constraints of 3D school systems. They can draw bullying from others, more 3D-based children as a reflection of their abandonment wounding, which just amplifies their feelings of not belonging.

The Star Seed child aspect can range in ages in every moment….from very young to older. The amount of visitations with Star BEings that you signed up for (especially as a child and if you are a Galactic Ambassador) can lead sometimes to more trauma and even terror for the inner child related to connecting with star family.

If you have experienced unexplainable fear of the dark, full blown panic attacks/acute anxiety in your life, etc. this is most likely connected to visitation experiences during a child that you didn’t know how to digest afterwards. Connecting with your Star Seed child aspect can help them to digest these traumas (esp the abandonment one) and hugely help to transform the panic and anxiety into trust, and depression and even suicidal thoughts/feelings into creative flow/soul gift expression and genuine joy in being alive. Feeling and healing your Star Seed child can also activate their Crystal Child frequency, which steers and powers your Merkabah or light body vehicle.

The draw and pull to meet and connect with your Star Family is most likely increasing for you lately, as it is meant to. They will meet you ‘in the middle’ in whatever ways they can….showing up as animal guides and Angels is a common way. They will visit you most often in dreams and in meditative states as there is no real need for visits in the physical anymore as our and Gaia’s frequency rises. Most of them vibrate too high for our density here anyway to appear in the physical.

We SO need the support of our star families as we move forward in this Ascension process. They provide the bigger picture for us, Divine love frequencies of trust and surrender, and connect us to our roots and coming home feelings. They can merge with us and give us tastes of Unity Consciousness. They actually help us BE HERE MORE in embodiment too as we accept ALL aspects of our multidimensional consciousness rather than reject any of it!

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your star seed: https://youtu.be/p3_E642aYyQ

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Powerful September Codes Ready To Be Let IN

By Jelelle Awen

As this powerful energy month of September comes to a completion, there may be much to digest and integrate into your physical/emotional/mental/spiritual/energy bodies. The 9/9/9 portal gateway provided more access to the 4D matrix and karmic healing through lifting of the collective and personal veils. We also experienced the palindrome (same backwards as forwards) codes for over a week, a Harvest Full Moon on Friday the 13th, September 11th collective disclosure/digestion, and the Equinox gateway.

September is always a strong geomagnetic month due to cracks in Gaia’s magnetic field during Equinox that cause fissures that allow solar winds to pour through….leading to some really beautiful Aurora codes. Today, September 27, we are in the beginning of another G1 to G2 strength geomagnetic storm now with solar wind speeds already up beyond 500 km/sec. As always with geomagnetic storms, you may be experiencing disrupted sleep patterns, vision/clarities coming through, light headedness, etc. Grounding in nature and in meditative space can help with navigating these higher geomagnetics, as can sound healing.

We also had a Gaia/Schumman spike last week that went up to 99HZ for several hours with some fluctuations upwards in little pockets since then. You can read all my energy updates for September here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

After doing remote/virtual work primarily with women over the last three years, it was amazing to get the opportunity to do emotional/physical/energy work with some of them this weekend at our Equinox Gathering. Being in the physical, I was able to stand in their auric fields, in their chakra vortices, and really feel/see what was going on with them related to these Ascension energies coming in and the deep emotional/soul work we’ve been doing together through the SoulFullHeart process. I negotiated with the Protectors/Gatekeepers that I have come to know in sessions to collaborate on what was needed now for digestion on an energetic/physical level. Even as SO much can move in the virtual (since we ARE energy after all), there is nothing quite like being in physical proximity to offer exponential healing.

What I noticed during my energy work with them was that there were ‘codes’ floating around in their crown chakra vortex, which extends far out beyond the top of the head to include the Personal Sun chakra (about two feet above your head), the Soul Star Chakra (about one foot), and the Causal Chakra (back of the head.) These codes were there ‘waiting’ to be downloaded and let in, very often to clear blockages and any disease/illness in the physical body. They were also there to support ongoing detox and activation of their light bodies. I was guided by their Star Family/guides to bring the codes ‘in’ to their crown for integration by doing a sweeping motion through their crown vortex, gathering them up, and offering them back to them.

Whatever codes you are most needing right now are very personal to you. They appear in whatever shapes, forms, colors, words, sounds, images that most work for you and your DNA/cellular/energy systems. For some people, codes float around in the field in the form of sacred geometry. For others they look like streams of numeric code like in the Matrix movie. Identifying what your codes are and what is ready to brought in (with help from your Protector/Gatekeeper and Star Family) can be very helpful to the activation of your higher timeline and embodiment of your Higher Self.

My sense is that there were many codes offered in the last two months….during the powerful geomagnetics and portals of September and the Lion’s Gateway of August. These codes seemed to offer a range of upgrades related to deeper embodiment of our sacred femininity and sacred masculinity (and healing of the wounded expressions of these); activation of our galactic DNA and healing of our Star Seed child; and clarities/visions plus experiences of our Higher Timeline self and life.

This is a guided meditation with me to help with bringing in the codes that are available to you. I will also be offering one soon specifically for this purpose: https://youtu.be/59PdVsp0TGw

As we move now into October, we can allow the codes offered in September to light us up, to inform us, and to support us. We can bring more consciously into our awareness all the support systems that are available to us….both in physical space holders, soul family, soul mates, and in etheric connections with Metasoul aspects, guides, Star Family and the Divine. As we become more and more conscious of what is being offered to us, we can let in the opportunity that is available in this NOW to truly become divinity in our human bodies.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Join me for a women’s call over zoom on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT for two hours. We will explore sacred feminine arising through teaching, transmission, and guided meditation….plus group sharing. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email – https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/…/sacred…

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the September 29 women’s group and that your email is current.

Here is more info:
https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

 

Taken by Alan Dyer on September 8, 2019 @ Yellowknife, NWT

 

 

Experiencing Soul Resonant Community During Our Equinox Gathering

By Jelelle Awen

Feeling so full in the moment, still digesting SO much goodness, love and connection that happened during these six days of connection with the beautiful and brave souls who joined us during our first Equinox gathering here in Victoria, BC. Being in so much in-person heart space and in-the-moment service after three years of offering mostly virtually was so fulfilling!

I felt so lit up to be able to offer our unique ‘brand’ of SoulFullHeart energy healing in person to support the work we had been doing in 1:1 online sessions. Our energy work combines some reiki, pranic healing, ascension energy healing/light body upgrades/code retrieval, parts work/metasoul timeline connection, and MUCH more. I call it ‘reiki on love steroids’.

I will be sharing more about the transformations that occurred for ALL of us during these blessed and magical days as they continue to digest for me. The fears that transmuted to love, the old patterns that found new grounds, the connections within community that were nourishing rather than damaging. All of this sets a new template within each of us that goes out to the collective and brings in a template for New Lemuria in the Now.

It was so meaningful for all five of us living in SoulFullHeart community with each other for so long now to share with others the blessings of living in authenticity, emotional realness, compassionate truth telling, self awareness, and surrender to the Divine. We were backed up and NEEDED to share with others the gifts of living this way in order to embody it more for ourselves too.

Each soul that joined in our circle added their own unique flavor, tone, and energy to the lovely mix that we created each day through personal process in group circle, sound healing, and energy healing. Our SoulFullHeart field trip to Salt Spring Island was a magical exploration with a circle and altar space, taking in the Lemurian and Faerie codes, working with the five elements, and shopping at the market.

I just feel so honored that these amazing souls would come here to stay in our home, trusting the energy they have previously experienced in sessions to create a meaningful and worthwhile experience for themselves. The Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers in us all increasingly grew in trust as their fears and resistances, their protections of the precious little ones inside, any projections lifted and eased as love flowed instead of fear.

I feel grateful to the Divine for holding the space for us to come together….and personally holding me too as I worked with and connected with a new aspect of myself and she grew in trust inside of my own heart and in connection with others as the days went on.

We would SO love you to join us for our next gathering at the winter SOULstice in December if you feel called to come! We’ll be connecting to the magical energies of solstice, Christ Consciousness, Christmas, and winter. There is more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1654802484653131/

And for women who would like a taste of a SoulFullHeart group online over zoom, I am hosting my first SAFE (sacred arising feminine exploration group) on Sunday September 29 at 10:00am PDT. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

 

And you can take in all of our event listings here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Love,
Jelelle Awen

To The Inner Child/Orphan Inside

By Jelelle Awen

To the little one inside,

The lost one that wants to be found,

The sad one that wants to be happy,

The hurt one that wants to forgive,

The earth bound one that wants to be in the stars,

The sensitive one that feels EVERYONE and EVERYTHING around them,

The overwhelmed one surrounded by energies they don’t understand,

The merging one that doesn’t understand boundaries,

The receptive one that accepts whatever truth offered to them.

To this precious one inside of you….

You are feeling their fears, easing their anxieties, and becoming a reassuring presence that they’ve always wanted.

You are shining the light on all the monsters under the bed to reveal the friends waiting there in the shadows.

You are offering the softest embraces, the kindest words, and the deepest unconditional love.

To the orphan inside of you…

You are becoming a healthy, consistent, and supportive parent.

You are healing from the wounded mother/father energies that were passed down to you through your family line. 

You are becoming the comforting authority that they most deserve and desire.

You are offering a home inside of your own heart where they can finally feel claimed.

 ~

This is inspired by the beautiful and vulnerable inner children receiving love, attention and care (sometimes for the first time) that I’ve been blessed to provide a bridge to connect with in sessions, here during our Equinox gathering/retreat that is going on now, and inside of myself.

Another aspect of my inner orphan child is coming up for attention and love during the gathering in response to the goodness of serving more in the physical with a group of ten souls moving into deeper healing waters. She is tucking more into my heart each day as she feels the resonance in others who have the same lost children inside of them that are now receiving love. I am so glad to feel her, to discover another layer of her in myself, and to love her. I feel the trust, softness, and preciousness she holds and that I then get to express with others.

As we feel the innocent and tender energies that the inner Protector, the Inner Mother/Father, the Inner Punisher are all guarding and protecting…..as they can interface more with our reality and with others, these parts of us can heal and integrate. They become our crystal children….free, magical, curious, and deeply compassionate. They sit in the seat of our higher heart and power our merkabahs.

As they find a home inside of us that they have never known, they become a bridge to our star family ‘home’ frequencies that we’ve been missing and longing for. Their bravery is able to lead us forward on many multidimensional journeys and discoveries!

Here is guided meditation to connect to your inner child:

https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Join me for a women’s group on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT over zoom where we will explore sacred arising feminine energies which definitely include healing of our inner wounded daughters and relationship with our inner mothers too. You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email – https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-calls-jelelle-awen

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link via email.

 

 

Surrogacy W/Kuan Yin Offers Compassion, Forgiveness, And Stillness

By Jelelle Awen

For the last month, I have been experiencing a surrogacy with Kuan Yin (or Quan Yin), an aspect of the Divine Mother that holds a non-dualistic space and bodhisattva energy. A surrogacy with the Divine Mother is a visceral, daily connection space for a phase of time where you are letting in the specific tones that She is offering through whatever ‘form’ of Her that you will be most responsive to in the moment.
 
Kuan Yin is a beloved teacher for me, yet She is also a mirror for me. Her repeated mantra to me is often, “I am you and you are me.” This is an invitation to move beyond comparison, beyond feeling that I am ‘less’ than Her, beyond separation and into Unity. It also serves as a reminder that I am a Divine Spark in human form (as we ALL are.)
 
This latest round of surrogacy began as I started fasting and wanted to bring more prana/chi/life force energy into my body. I showed up in Kuan Yin’s etheric space, which is a beautiful oriental garden temple in the mountains of Japan. Kuan Yin connected me to a helpful mantra of “OM” (on the inhale) and “Ma” (on the exhale), which allows my mind and body to fill up with prana and then release it into my own energy field and the space around me. Om Ma is letting in the Divine in its Universal Form and exhaling Divine Mother’s expression.
 
I have also been connecting with a Metasoul aspect of mine named Lau, who is a disciple of Kuan Yin’s. As I have calibrated to the soft, gentle, delicate, and still nature of both Kuan Yin and Lau, tears have come up in moments. The tears have been about a mourning for a soft and compassionate feminine energy that I did not have or know with my own birth mother. There has also been hurt coming up for Lau in her relationship with her mother in her timeline that mirrors mine around not being seen for my soul gifts, my Divine presence, or my essence by my birth mother nor any of these gifts watered or initiated in me by her.
 
What I experienced of the feminine (as true for so many of us) was a matriarchal energy from my birth family line that had tones of control, manipulation, fear, and anxiety in it. There was little stillness, little love transacting, yet rather much frenetic energy that ‘filled the space’ and left no room for the authentic feminine to arise.
 
Over many years of processing this reality with parts of myself and having a very necessary phase of no contact with my birth mother, much of this wounding has healed. A healing that has been deep enough to allow a genuine flow of love and compassion from my heart to other women, especially those I serve in session space.
 
Yet, also this love transacts between me and my own daughter Raianna Shai at a rich and meaningful way, free from the angst, competition and controlling energies that I experienced as a daughter. When I started my healing journey many years ago, I knew that I could not authentically serve the arising of the sacred feminine in others nor be the kind of mother I wanted to be if I did not focus deeply and with complete intention on healing the difficult and painful experience I had myself this life and other lifetimes with the wounded feminine.
 
Kuan Yin’s energy offers a template for a feminine that is still, that is oriented first to BEing, that can feel the cries of the world without becoming them. I am so grateful for the Divine Mother and the many faces of Her that have been such a loving balm to all the parts of me that have needed them. And, it is Her energy that overflows to others in service of love so often when parts of them most need to feel forgiving, nurturing, and non-judgemental energies.
 
Kuan Yin reminds us that we are deeply loved for our essence….always and in all ways. We are Her and She is us.

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Here is a guided meditation to connect with Kuan Yin and other faces of Divine Mother with Kalayna and me: 

 

I am also offering a new women’s group starting on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT over zoom for women over 18. I am honored to dive into the depths of sacred arising feminine exploration based on my experiences in my own process and serving other women for over 15 years. I am sure that Kuan Yin and other faces of Divine Mother will be joining us to hold the space for this sacred work! There is more information here if you’d like to join me live or to receive the recording for a $15 CAD donation: https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

or here; https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womengroupcalls

 Love, Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

The Bliss Mess/Push Pull Moments Of Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

Push and pull….wanting to love and then resisting love. Wanting to change and then resisting change. Opening UP WIDE and then closing in again. These bliss moments are of heart doors swinging open and your heart pouring out to touch ALL of life. These mess moments are the heart doors shutting and your heart retracting again in pain.

These bliss mess moments of push and pull ARE your awakening process of heart and soul. Why would it be JUST bliss when this is not what you have known here in 3D living? Why would it be JUST about the highs when this has not been the reality you’ve experienced here? And, what is really learned from only UPs with no downs?

It is during the climbs and the crawls for which you learn the most about the substance for which you are made….in contrast to that which you are NOT. 3D reality doesn’t honor the climb, the process, the journey….yet wants the results and the gifts immediately. It wants the quick fixes rather than the long term gains that come from unfolding process.

A patience for the process allows that with UPs there will come downs too and wants BOTH. Your soul can hold space for the part of you formed in 3D life to learn, to sort it out, to open up and then close down. Your soul has access to Infinite Patience in this process and understands that it ‘takes the time that it takes’ to heal and clear the ground of your deepest densities.

These deepest densities are valued by your soul, not seen as ‘lesser’ at all, but rather a precious aspect of your journey here with Gaia. Not judged by the soul, yet rather held with curiousity and much love so that the required densities, traumas, and toxicities needed to fit into a dualistic 3D world can be let go.

The soul helps your 3D self unanchor from what it has needed to become attached to. Your higher heart allows this process to be held with much love rather than inner battle and resistance loops that lead to suffering.

With a consistent heart and soul response from you to the deepest densities of your 3D self, it can let go of the push-pull it has known so often in your life and begin to let in LOVE more and more with less and less contraction away.

Here is a transmute any trauma with a loving response and energy teaching and guided meditation with me: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

This writing is an excerpt from my book Bliss Mess: The Wonders and Challenges of Ascension, which you can purchase here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.