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The Healing Of The ‘Matrix Masculine’

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This past Equinox gathering of hearts and souls pushed up a lot for me that has roots deep in my soul. I also felt how it was connected to the collective as well. When that happens it can be a lot to sort and move through. Yet, this is why I am here. This is why my soul has guided me to be a part of an intimate community so that I can feel and heal what needs feeling and healing on a personal level, which in turn makes waves in the quantum world. 

After the completion of my sacred union relationship with Kasha, I found myself in a ‘doing’ mode that seemed to put a wall around my deeper grief. I have had tender moments of loss and remorse, but it was made clear that a part of me had a strategy to ‘avoid the void’ of the deeper grief that lives inside. There is a great separation wound that exists inside that I have skirted the edges of, thinking I have met it fully, when in fact I have been swimming in the shallow end of the pool to some degree. 

This is not a prescription for me to dive into the deep end willy-nilly, but rather to be aware of the territory and let it arise in its due course. My soul will know when I am ready. Alongside the Sacred Grief, there was also another layer of inadequacy and unworth that came into my field with the acknowledged strategy of avoidance. This is tricky as I felt it in an inner masculine aspect of myself that I have worked with for a long time. He represents so much of my own personal masculine as well as a connection to what I have felt as the ‘Matrix Masculine’. 

This aspect was born/constructed from the womb of the False Mother/Father matrix we are all a part of to some degree or another. He has been wrapped up in it like a fly caught in a spider’s web. At times, he is motivated to fight against it, find freedom from it, or learn to master it. Either way there is still a relationship to it that is at odds. The history of being stuck in this loop has created a deep seed of suffering, grief, shame, and feeling lost. He has been separated from his own feminine counterpart on the inside which exacerbates the condition. 

I was shown this disconnect from my own inner feminine part as well as from my own Divine Essence or Self. It was an illumination of the wounding within the Holy Trinity of Self-to-Self, Self-to-Other, and Self-to-Divine. This masculine part of me, named Marcus, is at the hub of this. He represents so much of my power, truth, and vision. He also represents the pain, the pressure, and the punishment. 

Beside the disconnect from my inner feminine there is also one with my inner child and him. He has forgotten the art of play and the presence of innocent joy that it brings. The reconnection of all three feels like another Holy Trinity of masculine, feminine, and innocence. When we as men can have contact with all three in a sacred dance and flow, we have found ourselves on a new strata of personal experience of the world we live in. 

This compartmentalization happened for protective reasons as well as wounded ones. It is now bringing these aspects of me back into the same room and starting the healing and reunion process. I also feel a need for my beloved wounded masculine to be seen and felt as the Divine Son that he is rather than the Lost Son. That is an ongoing process that will take time as reintegration and ascension does. 

On the integrated side of the journey, it opens up more of my divine masculine heart to be in love with myself and those close to me. It opens up my trust and leadership as well as my creativity and play. It offers me a new timeline of what it means to be a human man merging again with Spirit and Source. With the Shadow and the Light. 

Thanks for taking this all in as I hope it gives a doorway into this process for others that feel a resonance with what I continue to work with inside of myself as a man in a very intimate community and healing process.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We Choose Our Own ‘New Normal’

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I have been taking time to continue my ongoing soul awakening during this Deepen video series, hosted by Jelelle and Raphael Awen, and I have been really sensing how we are all on this journey in our own way. Each of us is called to something unique and inspired that has greater meaning than just ‘getting back to normal’.

This IS our normal now until we all choose something different from the inside out. There are two realities going on at the same time, one based in reason and intuition and the other in psychological warfare. It is this ongoing state of War that has kept us in a prison for millennia. Any attempt at fighting the war keeps us enmeshed in its frequency and gravitational pull. If we are free from our cells are we free from the prison itself?

As I have been exploring more of my soul history through conscious connection with the aspect we call the Gatekeeper, we are both learning how each of us is on a path of this awakening, healing, unplugging, and remembrance. I see how these aspects of us have been in their own form of virtual reality, a hijacked and inverted reality created by forces of our own devices for a Divine purpose we have yet to fully understand and reconcile.

As the heat of totalitarian, psychological warfare continues to turn up, we are all being called to some form of action whether it is inward or outward. I am in the Inward Conscious Community camp. It is here that I feel my purpose is rooted. I go in to find all the places my soul is in the clutches of the Program and feeling where it has played itself out in multiple timelines in multiple lives. It is an organic process that is given life and reflection by those that I am in community with.

It is about feeling, forgiving, and releasing. It is about integration and reconciliation. It is about sharing and ambassadorship. It is bringing in more of Christ Light into embodiment and into consciousness for All. This is what I have called to do for myself and offer support for others to do the same. It is about creating a new community of consciousness that is no longer attached to, yet still a part of, the Old.

Something is dying. We can all feel it. We all know it on some level. Some are meant to aid in its death and others in its rebirth. That rebirth is seeded from the Love that is cultivated and embodied from within.

Gabriel Amara
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For more about the SoulFullHeart process and paradigm I invite you to check out the ongoing Deepen 2022 series. You can find more info and the videos here at our website: https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

The Geometry Of The Heart And Soul

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There is always a greater geometry we are all individually and collectively a part of. Fear and Love are anchor points in that Sacred Geometry. It is not just about patterns, but also about choice. We are creating geometry with every choice we make. It is always shifting and reshaping.

Our choices are rooted in the Sacred Dyad of Love and Fear. Or it may be Logic and Intuition. There are many combinations and permutations within these. They all serve a function and a purpose.

The question for each of us is, what is our inner geometry creating on the outside. Is it conscious or unconscious? Love-centered or fear-based? What planet do we really want to live on in any given moment? What dimension do we choose to inhabit and embody each day?

There are so many people with their take, their understanding, and their solutions. I am no different. I have a perspective, a path, and a purpose. So do you. We are playing with our own geometry on the soul plane to see where we match up, where we connect or disconnect.

There is this assumption that we are all meant to become some unified front against tyranny. The reality is that the world is so damn big with so many consciousnesses that it is like trying to move the Titanic around on a dime! That is a lot of energy I have learned I just don’t have.

So I go within. I purify. I clarify. I sanctify this vessel, this heart, and this soul I have been gifted with. I assist others in doing the same. I am co-leading myself, along with my beloved soul family, into the New. A new timeline that does not belong to the one ‘out there’ yet is still connected to me as we are still a part of the greater geometry.

I choose to hold the center of New Earth (New Lemuria) within. Hold it like a sacred geometric fire and beacon for those it is meant to guide and support. We are all finding our ways back to the Sacred Center within and then see how it all maps itself out.

In the meantime, Love is wanting to serve and be deepened. To help others reshape and reform their own inner geometry by connecting to their inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects. That is my purpose and path. I am blessed and honored to be that in this Now.

Where will your geometry lead you?

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Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a Men’s Group Call on the Punisher/Shame Dynamic this Saturday at 5pm London time. For more information visit soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

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Connect With Your Emotional Body Guided Meditation Video – Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

 

Connect With Your Emotional Body Guided Meditation – Video Three Deepen 2020

In this third video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I talk about the importance of connecting with your emotional body through accessing parts of yourself and digesting emotional traumas with them in a feeling-based way (not through mental analysis or bypassing with spiritual frequencies). I talk about how we are conditioned and trained to overly focus on the development of our mental bodies (and even our physical bodies and spiritual bodies) over our emotional body, which is often trailing behind in maturity, health and porosity/lightness. And that much of what we feel as ’emotions’ is actually reactions and off gassing from undigested traumas in our emotional bodies.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Yeshua join us as Divine feminine and masculine energies that are very emotional body and heart-based in frequency and can hold space for emotional digestion. Your Inner Protector is invited as well and we journey to connect with your emotional body, as represented in visualization as a river. You are invited to see and feel how your emotional body river is right now and to wade into it…bringing healing energies with you.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Seeing, Feeling, Healing The ‘Past’: Mother Mary Transmission

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By Kalayna Colibri

This came through this morning as I connected with Mother Mary… a face of the Divine Mother that is key to helping us become love ambassadors to all parts of us and all beings around us. I felt this for myself, as a way to forgive what has been and move forward into more of what and who I want to be, and I felt to share it, because Mary offers so many beautiful frequencies of love and forgiveness that are so so needed now and always. ❤️

“To you, and all parts and Metasoul Aspects of you:

Starting from a young age in this very lifetime, you’ve only ever done the best you could with what you’ve been consciously and unconsciously taught by birth family, close friends, your pursuit of love and intimacy, and your pursuit of spiritual fulfillment, too.

You’ve been invited to fire-walk through the shadows, the challenging phases of figuring out what was theirs and what is actually yours in your heart and soul and BEing… a necessary and sacred process of death and rebirth, and sometimes a very painful one.

You are forgiven for all expressions of not-love you’ve had to walk out towards yourself and others in this process… beyond ‘forgiven’ actually, as you are infinitely and intimately loved by the Divine that holds you and is within you.

You’ve needed to push, to grapple, to tumble and fall. You’ve needed these messy times of awakening and realizing what you want and don’t want, sometimes without much explanation… sometimes hurting or maybe harming others in the process of feeling and finding your boundaries, or even in the holding on to relationships that are no longer resonant.

You’ve led yourself to this very place you are in now, and if this is not a place of deep fulfillment, you’re invited to feel this, to feel the discomfort, to feel the loneliness, to let all of this alchemize your next steps inward and outward. You’re invited, always, into your next steps, which are always leading you home: to the heart and soul that holds you, and the love that is always surrounding you.

Your next choices are arising now… they are small or they are big, yet the impact is the same. You can choose to feel and be felt, to arise and become real, and you can choose to feel and heal the past so you can live in your new present… the one that will always arise as you do, as you pursue it from inside, as you feel the seeds of what you most truly want being planted in the nourishing soil of feeling and healing.

With much love for you, your journey, and everything inside of you…

Mother Mary ~ “

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling In Every Moment Changes Your Life

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By Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes there’s more to feel than there is to ‘do’. Actions born of your deepest feeling spaces are the ones most connected to your heart, parts, and self-care. They happen while you take yourself with you in all ways.

It feels so natural to me now to be in any situation in my life and be feeling my parts or Metasoul aspects while doing so. I love taking them all with me. It doesn’t feel crazy or weird to me anymore and it doesn’t feel overwhelming either. In fact, learning to feel myself in this way has helped so much with the overwhelm I used to feel in my daily life.

If you’re someone who identifies with anxiety or depression or anything like it, imagine a reality where you can feel these things as parts of you that need your love and attention. Imagine being in a social situation and feeling the activation of the social anxiety a part of you has, but not feeling like this anxiety IS you and instead is something you understand and are learning to love deeply. What if this anxiety comes because you’ve needed it, parts of you have needed it, as a reason to pull out of less-than-nourishing relationships, even for a brief time to collect yourself?

Having a deep consciousness and awareness of your emotional reality on a soul and heart level opens up whole new worlds of understanding your reality, why you’ve drawn what you’ve drawn, and how to start shifting it into health, balance, and more love within and outside of you too.

There’s an invitation and opportunity to dig in instead of accept what has always felt to simply be ‘true’ about you… and to give something brand new the chance to be birthed. Life and this ongoing Ascension process do not want the ailments, pain, and difficulty to endure or remain. Yet, it’s up to your sovereign choice whether or not you are ready to face and heal the trauma by feeling it deeply and giving it air and room to become something different.

My beloveds and I offer powerful and affordable space-holding if you’d like support to go into this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Catching Up With The 11:11:11 Codes

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By Jelelle Awen

Is your body finally ‘catching up’ with ALL the codes that are coming in and the surge of energies that seems to have occurred around the 11:11:11 portal? It is challenging for the physical body, being necessarily such a dense vehicle needed all your life for 3D navigation here.

You could think about it like an outdated (but beloved) computer that is ‘in the shop’ receiving a NEW operating system and exterior too. Being in the shop is all that sleeping and sleepiness; all that feeling of drowsy and groggy; and, in some cases, ‘illness’ and physical pains too.

This ascension process is a MEGA upheaval of all our 3D aspects have known of reality IN the body and in our emotional bodies too. This is a MAJOR renovation projection happening on all levels with Gaia leading the way here. Being able to be with the parts of us that are in resistance to fear of this process allows for a more trusting and surrendered navigation of it. And, more capacity to let go of what needs to be during this time of transition.

The next ‘body’ you may notice getting cleansed, detoxing, and purification is your emotional body, which is also happening on the collective level too. This may come out in sudden emotional ‘outbursts’ (which are really INbursts, meant to take you withIN); being really quite ‘triggered’ by others (which, again, represent YOU and parts of you); conflicts and clashes; and just swells of emotions that seem to come from ‘deep down.’

I feel that the capacity to digest these emotional body purges is usually at a more immature level in many souls. We just aren’t educated, prepared, templated, or trained in how to BE emotionally mature with our feelings. The role modeling we received from our caregivers around how to BE (or not BE) with emotions sets a big template here inside of each of us. How emotionally mature were they with their feelings? Did they allow them to be with vulnerable and transparent expression (and healing) of them?

This isn’t to shame or blame caregivers; it is to understand what and why 3D-based parts of you developed as they did in relationship to your feelings. Maybe you are actually more your Inner Teenager frequencies when it comes to emotional processing that leads to choice points and decision making? Or maybe your Inner Protector, whose main ‘goal’ is to protect and guard and keep safe?

More about various parts and Metasoul aspects Here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I’ve been offered much loving compassion from guides and Star BEings toward this emotional immaturity in us as a human collective. They admire our hearts and our capacity to FEEL. They admire our tears and our spontaneous expression of them. And, they have offered (over and over) that the cutting edge of our next consciousness evolution is around the maturation of our emotional bodies WITH the integration of our spiritual and soul frequencies. This is an important aspect of what these current codes/information/downloads in the 11:11:11 portal (through 12/12 feels like as the main surge) are offering us.

I feel so much LOVE holding this process with us and, as I said, so much admiration for us too. So much support as well in our Metasouls and with Guides and with the Divine for what we are going through, feeling, and healing in this now on ALL body levels!

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Yummy digestion and ‘food’ for the ascending bodies in sun codes, especially during sun rise and sunset…these were from early this morning while waking around the gorge waterway here in a geography connected to New Lemuria…..Victoria, British Columbia

Jelelle Awen
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Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Are You Embodying The Codes Coming In?

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By Jelelle Awen

Those 11:11:11 portal codes (STRONG ones at that) may be ‘waiting’ in your soul field. They have come flooding in from the Great Cosmic Sun, supported by SOULar winds and geostorms, for the last week now. Yet, these codes/downloads/activations may be ‘hanging out’ in your aura, waiting for the activation and conscious connection to your ascension chakras. These chakras allow for the simulation and integration of the 11:11:11 codes. They seem to be especially key when it comes to embodiment of these codes into your body.

Here is a guided meditation with me to connect with your ascension chakras allowing more sense of what is waiting for you to download: https://youtu.be/TPs95U0T5Mw

It becomes in this stage of ascension so much about embodiment. Embodiment is the bringing of these high vibrational frequencies of light that are continually flooding into our atmospheres and Gaia’s too INTO your body, INTO your every living cell. This leads to the activation of your light body ~ your fifth dimensionally (and higher) anchored vehicle of travel beyond 3D constraints and conditions.

When people mention embodiment of your light body, it can feel conceptual and theoretical more than tangible. It SOUNDS good, but what does it actually mean for and to you? Sometimes feeling what it feels like when deeper embodiment isn’t happening or is blocked can help. This blocking can lead to feeling floaty, dizzy, just ‘not here’….basically not feeling grounded enough to the physical on a daily basis. Responding to practical life (when it is needed) can become very challenging. Physical disease and illness is a sign of lack of deeper embodiment. Addictions and ‘deathstyles’ (as I call them) are a block to embodiment as well. Light body looks like a healthy, vital body or what you could call a ‘love body’.
Embodiment is also about a deeper grounding of these light codes into your emotional body. The emotional body can be overlooked when it actually is critical to embodiment and not connecting to it can lead to a big anchoring to 3D energies through undigested trauma frequencies. This can lead to acute anxiety, resistance, and fear related to the ascension process and just being in life. The more porous and current your emotional body is the more you can emotionally let in higher frequencies as they come in. The more you can emotionally digest them and any reactions that surface UP. Being current with your emotional body pivots on digestion of traumas….both from this-life and other timelines/lifetimes too.

Bypassing your emotional body and emotional trauma by using higher vibrational frequencies just doesn’t ‘work’ for long. The trauma always find a way to express itself….often through dysfunction relationships, abuse cycles, money issues, health issues, etc. Experiencing transcendent frequencies while being grounded in your heart AND body is the opportunity offered by this new phase of ascension.

Deeper embodiment of your light body and your emotional body and higher self in your body……comes from the openness to FEEL anything that blocks the letting in of love (which is ultimately what these codes ARE.) This letting in of love is so important to the arisement of your sacred humanity!

Jelelle Awen

Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We offer through our SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 sessions a way to digest traumas through connecting with the parts of you that hold them and are ‘stuck’ in them. We connect with parts from this-life (such as Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Punisher). We also open up a bridge for you to feel aspects from other timelines (commonly called ‘past lives’). More info above.

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

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The Alchemy & Illumination Of Our Reactivity

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by Kalayna Colibri

It’s natural and human to have reactions. In this collective we’re part of today, with so much going on and being uncovered, having reactions is part of the gig of being here and expectedly so.

I could feel a message wanting to come through this morning about how we’re invited to BE with our reactivity. I felt the analogy of chemical reactions being offered… How they are wanted and provoked because they show the change of one substance into another, how they bring about healing in different contexts too. I like this analogy when it comes to feeling our own reactivity and how much we need it. Reactions tell us so much about ourselves and our souls, what pain lies beneath the surface, and invites us to see the beauty of our messes, inside and out, while we work to heal the wounds bringing around the reactions in the first place.

We’re here to react and feel our reactions. Reactivity is needed, as it tells us where to dig. The metal detector sounds an alarm when it senses metal on a sandy beach. We get to feel how this is related to our own mining for the parts of us that need us inside. Life is really one big ‘metal detector’ in that way, isn’t it? We’re being given tons of data in the form of reflections from our relationships, jobs, even our spiritual paths, that shows us where we next need to dig if we can find it within to go there. Our reactivity also tells us there’s something going on in this world at large or even just our inner worlds or social worlds that isn’t OK anymore and encourages us to set boundaries wherever needed. Feeling outrage is a kind of reaction. Wanting to fight or go to war or even just shut down altogether are other kinds. Parts of us might feel these ways and understandably so, especially as we move through this phase of 4D awakening rumbles and shakes and into the next of really letting in New Earth/5D frequencies as our daily reality.

What it feels like we’re witnessing and part of right now, is a megalithic vat of intense chemical and alchemical reactions, all happening as part of the sacred process of change and evolution. Denying our parts the right to have their reactions denies them the possibility of feeling what’s underneath them and healing what we’ve come here to heal. Being illuminated for us now too, is the difference between reactivity and actual feeling, which is key to this process of healing. Instead of choosing to fight or lash-out because that’s the impulse in the moment, we’re invited to feel this energy as coming from a part of us that is afraid of being vulnerable and feeling what he/she actually needs from us or from others or both. The outrage against the world or your relationships may be what’s needed for a phase, yet we’re invited to move out of these cycles of reaction through feeling the pain beneath it and aching it out in the arms of Divine love and self love.

Our reactions and the reactions vibrating in the collective are opportunities to feel where love is being resisted and yet where it most wants to flow. It is up to us all individually how we choose to download and interpret this data coming in and how we’d like to BE with it as it digests and the dust being kicked up by it settles onto the newly emerging ground of expanding love consciousness and ability to let real love in.

Much love! ❤

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If you’re feeling awareness emerge for you of your reactivity and your curious how this applies to your parts and your Metasoul, my beloveds offer exquisite and illuminating space holding sessions that are also very affordable. For more information, you can visit this page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

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By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.