By Jelelle Awen
It’s interesting how abundance can work in your life. How it can seem to sneak in at times, as if on a slow drip line that builds up over time. Or, it can gush in on a wave that invites you to ride it, glide it, surf it, and, ultimately, surrender to it.
And, abundance can take so many forms….whatever your energy is going toward, whatever your desire is wanting to draw, whatever you are most needing. The main sense that something is coming from abundance, though, is that it is being offered to you from and with LOVE.
This Lion/Lionness gateway and the upcoming partial SOULar eclipse tomorrow invite you and parts of you to feel into your relationship to abundance as these energies offer a bounty of NEXT level light and love. To feel what receiving this love abundance means to you….what is resisted and what is embraced.
During this Cosmic Christmas gateway, I am experiencing many gifts of abundance…..community intimacy as the five of us spent a few days together eating/talking/shopping and living, increasing service draw and resonance through SoulFullHeart, and, also, a new place to live for the next several weeks. For two years, Raphael and I have lived in a very simple, older, Mexican apartment. It is in a wonderful location, close to the ocean/shops/restaurants with an ocean view. Yet, it has bars on the windows (as is typically here for security), no ability to be truly sound proof, is falling apart in many ways, etc. And, it has been all we could comfortably afford while transitioning our money earning the last few years from a 3D-based painting contracting business to SoulFullHeart & transitionary and flexible teaching English online. And before this place, we lived on a remote, off-grid ranch for close to two years and in an RV before that.
We humbly surrendered to living in this simple place WHILE we dreamt of physical abundance and beauty. Day after day, we would both energize this during our meditations and talks together….WHILE discovering appreciation for the simplicity that we’d been given and understanding the deconstruction that was going on. We came to feel how the generation of abundance needed to happen from WITHIN primarily, from one part of us to another. To strip away the entitlement, the expectation, the normalization, the focus on materialism that happens in 3D life in order to get to the arising gratitude and appreciation that comes when you have let go of everything and are truly in receiving mode.
Then, just last week, we drew an opportunity to stay in a beautiful apartment that is literally just 100 steps from our old one. Yet, it is VERY much a different timeline, with panoramic ocean views, beautiful surfaces, and a very attentive landlord. Going back and forth between the two living spaces has felt like traveling between two timelines…..the old is collapsing as the new is being built and lived in.
I have had some process around this transition, including feeling my masculine aspect named Julian who tenderly felt like he had ‘failed’ me by living in such simplicity and ‘squalor’ (his word) for the last five years. And this part of me feels afraid of our new transitory lifestyle, where we feel to respond to service and offer retreats/group circles in different locations around the world in the next year. I felt his tears, shared them with our community during Lion’s Gate, and then felt his heart open and expand to become in collaboration with me to manifest and activate the next and the next. I invited him to feel how all the internal work we had done was NOW showing up on the outside too and, therefore, we could trust that it would most likely sustain.
Whatever YOUR abundance manifestation looks like, it is ultimately less about how it shows up externally as it is about how it FEELS on the inside for you. Abundance within feels like much less polarization between parts of you and much more unification. It feels like goodness, joy, and acceptance/embracement of the moments and movements that are less than that. Ultimately, though, and most importantly…it feels like LOVE.
1:1 bridging sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator to feel into your relationship with abundance and whatever else wants to arise and be felt. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
Join us for an abundance of love, process, and transformation during a five day retreat here in Puerto Vallarta – November 8 through 12! More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/611981952495560/
Photos are of our views from our new apartment and recent sunset codes in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico