The Arising Sacred Masculine Within A Sacred Feminine Offering

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This is what is means to be in SoulFullHeart community.  I am inspired, awed, and amazed at what I get to be a part of.  What I have chosen to surround myself with in order to heal, grow, and create.  I see the world through a lens that is so unlike anything out there and is constantly shifting and evolving.  I get to see myself in a way that is unlike what I have seen or felt myself to be in the old dimension of consciousness.  There is not a day that goes by that some thing alive is happening to others that sparks a corroborating energy in me. It is community on HIGH and is just keeps its dedication to more, to real, and to love.  To More Real Love.

But this Love is not just bliss and sparklers.  It is about feeling the edges and depths of what is next up on the healing docket.  This is not shadow hunting but a real time bubbling up of emotion that is not supported to be repressed, but lovingly guided to arise in its own time.  As one person is feeling something there is an effect among the group as we are all connected.  As my good friend Raphael is moving through arising layers of suppressed truth-telling, it begins to activate mine.  This one entry way then opens itself up to a greater QUESTion of what it means to be masculine in a very feminine offering. It brings up some angst and curiosity along the way.  It rumbles and shakes something in to uncertainty, of which the unhealed masculine is not native to.  It has chosen certainty in the name of control.

But underneath that maintenance lies a caged animal.  A fire that is wanting to make shit happen and blow things up in an attempt to get to a bedrock of something real.  There is a violence in that when not tempered by the feminine within and without.  Hence being in community with the sacred feminine is what brings a clarity to it as well as the hashing out.  I had personally sent my animal into a quarantine when my daughter was a young age so as to not have that energy in my field as a father.  Before that I had a very huge temper and was pissed off a lot.  As a child it was an embarrassment to my family when it came up in very immature ways.  It was a soul angst and a learned behavior from my father, who had the legacy of it from his father.

The essence of this energy is passion and truth-telling.  It is about alchemizing and manifesting.  It is about being in union with the feminine to light up the Love Shack we call Gaia.  But the suppression is wounded and angry.  I chose to find a more Zen part of me to assuage the energy so that I could be more acceptable to another part of me seeking something nice and normal.  Well, as this part of Raphael has been done with this dynamic, I feel it rumbling this part of me too. It exists in many men I believe as well.  I know there are many that are more outed than others, but I feel this reverberates through all masculine hearts, both in men and women.  What we experience in community is also happening in the collective heart of humanity.

So this is a post about the arising sacred masculine, that is in a continuing birthing state in us all.  It is a journey from an old way of doing life to a new way of being in life.  It does scare some parts of me as the unleashing of the animal within does bring an concern of what will come out, but this is all held in a heart that has been working the shadow for the sake of love, so what does come out will be felt in its entirety and hold itself accountable.  It will not harm but it may just hurt.  Hurt is mendable with an sincere and open heart.  This is the reminder I give to this part of me.

This is also about community and relationship where all of this gets to be played out and realized in its fullest breadth.  I get to engage in romance that brings out different tones that go deeper that just soul friendship, as powerful as that is.  I feel like I am showcasing what it means to be in this SoulFullHeart community.  It is what is possible for all humanity.  There is a huge desire among us all for more hearts and souls to add to this incredible wealth of healing and loving.  It is why we continue to write and offer to others. We want more tribe members that just feel what it is that is possible even if there is uncertainty on what it all means.  Others are doing the same taking their questions and fears with them.  We want the passion of others who want to serve it to the world first from within and then out.

In this new era of letting in more of what I want, I want to serve this love to you.  I want to invite you experience what I experience everyday because it is out of this world…literally! I want others to reflect to me and inspire me to be more than a part of me thought I could ever be.  New hearts bring new vision that we didn’t otherwise see or feel before.  We get to play in a safe container that allows for real growth and real love, even if it may not feel that way to parts of us.  The vulnerability of that is the safety.

Okay, so that is what was in my heart today.  It is what comes through being in this incredible union of heart and souls.  It is the energy of the eclipse making its way through my veins and into my heart.  I claim me as I claim you to be a part of this epic ride called SoulFullHeart.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Eclipse Energies Bring A Renewed Sense Of The Sacred Masculine Dance

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The Eclipse energies are bringing out something NEW in the masculine. It is trying to birth a new sense of what the ‘sacred masculine’ is, which has felt elusive and puzzling, not to mention hard to define. Any definitions we’ve tried to say are ‘it’ have tended to fall short most of the time, for it is still being rediscovered, along with the sacred feminine. It calls for men who are able to embody its messiness of heart and truth on this path of rediscovery. It calls for women to feel it within themselves as a counterpart to the budding inner feminine. The wounded masculine is alive within us all to some degree, until it has really been felt for the protection it has wanted and needed to offer and the tiredness it is feeling more and more as it realizes it IS wounded and does need our love and healing…

This healing can and does happen, the more we hold the desire for it too. It is so much of what needs to be felt and healed in our world as we ‘kNOw’ it today. It is expressed in the ways we claim to ‘know’ what we cannot in many ways, mental approaches to spirituality that do not ask us to embody it and feel it deeply inside of our hearts as arising sacred humans, and it is our okayness and also thirst for war and battles in any way, shape or form. It is expressed too, through our outrage, through our self-image creation and maintenance, through our push-aways from our hearts and the hearts of others, through the walls parts of us have built around us, wanting to contain and protect was is precious within, wanting to keep itself from being felt for what it truly is.

We see and feel it in our leaders and our leadership inside of us too. We feel it in our sexuality, our desires for dominance (though as woman, perhaps this is more subtle or takes a different form than it does for men), our pushing and action-based lives we’ve led. It is something that shows up often in our daily lives, especially when we have not begun to really see it and feel it.

Perhaps this current Eclipse will help bring in more illumination of this inside of you and inside of others. I am feeling it for myself today and these words are what I want to offer the masculine inside of me, inside of you, and inside of all men…

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To the renewing, emerging, strengthening Sacred Masculine, within AND outside of me…

I invite you into a dance. A dance less structured than a waltz, and as passionate as a tango. I want to fill my dance card with the names of men (and eventually, only ONE man) who feel the pull, the desire, for themselves, for me, for us. I want unchoreographed, spontaneous steps, sometimes in alignment with each other, at other times not. I want the mess of the self-discovery that has us at times wondering how on Earth we’re going to navigate this one, though we both have the gumption, the desire, the courage to keep going inside as the only option.

I want something I can grab a hold of, without tugging or being tugged on. Something that is concrete yet has breathing and fluidity and room for what IS along with what could be and what we both want, starting with what we want inside of ourselves.

The games of old, those ones we never wanted to play anyway, they are being asked to crumble inside of us. They are being set to fall away in avalanches of pure love and sacred union codes coming in, that so do not resonate or match the currently embraced picture of romantic relationship, which is steeped in much emotional and spiritual immaturity and unrealness.

I want to let it all, all we’ve thought we ‘knew’, fly away with the wind in poignant moments of sorting through this from that within each of us and within ‘us’ too. I want to unlearn and relearn it all with you. I want to feel it all bubbling up and bursting within me and within us, and play it all like notes and chords on piano keys, bringing it all to the fore of our relationship ground, that place where it’s safe to do so and yet the precipice of where it could all fall apart (and in phases, needs to) is always there too.

I see you, I feel you, I know you… I trust the heart that is arising and reconciling inside of you, sometimes with contention and male ‘UMPH’. Ugh. YES. The line of abuse cannot be reached by a heart that is working towards its purity and holds deep reverence, respect, love, care, for itself and me too.

I want any resistance that’s here within you, within me, to BE pushed up, to be felt, to be held, to be loved, to be ultimately moved. I do not want the resistance to become the relationship, the reason to slow it all down. I want our parts to know, feel, understand that you are there for them, for your own, that I am there for them, for my own.

I want the genuine, the real, the incredibly HOT sacred masculine that arises from deep within the shadows and caves of the real, the soulful, the heartful, that doesn’t caretake, the penetrates in all the ways it needs to, that mates and creates and brings its truth, even if its truth isn’t polished or perfect or even UNDERSTOOD fully. I want the shit storms. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer

I want the ‘shit storms’. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer healing, to LOVE, to have her stillness that is born from an elegant blossom grown in mud and fun too. I want those portals the masculine and feminine are meant to create together, to bring out from each other, to step into in love that is made in the physical and other levels too. And you’ll know if you can do this, by your reaction to these words, that yes, I do feel are coming from a masculine AND a feminine inside of me too. Somehow, I trust that if you’re meant to, you’ll get this. Your maturity will resonate with it and your heart and soul that desire to FEEL and to HEAL and to make genuine, heart open love that travels to the Cosmos and back again with a woman is what you’ll feel now.

This is not coming from a woman who has solely been burned, been victimized, been abused, though of course that lies in this woman’s heart and body’s history with men who haven’t embodied the sacred masculine before or really even tried (save one, who to this day I still heal with consistently and we help each other move a lot, even just as dear friends). My stories of these experiences are not an attachment, though they also live in my Metasoul as well as my emotional and physical bodies. Nothing inside of me is asking you to heal it for me. Nothing inside of me needs you to be something you’re not, for what you ARE, IS the journey for me and for you.

I feel ready. I feel ready to take on something new. I feel ready for what can only move and heal in monogamous, romantic relationship. I feel a new relationship arising to my own inner masculine that wants to become more of the sacred masculine too, and at the same time, I feel my feminity wanting to arise more and more, to be in the space with me more, to feel safer there than she ever has. To share this with a man, who is also feeling inside of himself a feminine counterpart that wants to arise and heal and be, along with a masculine that wants to do the driving, to lead himself to more healing on a REAL level, to be in deep sacred union mateship with a woman that he sees and feels as body, heart, AND soul and wants to claim with all of his being as she claims him with all of hers, THIS is the dream, this is the desire that is bursting from me today. And this is the ongoing invitation, perhaps right now more than ever before with these Solar Eclipse energies coming in and illuminating, shifting, driving us to more and more healing on levels that maybe we could not have imagined before.

My inner masculine and feminine, who are trying to reconcile something with each other in this moment, it feels like, thank you for taking this in right now. They thank you for welcoming their passion, their unknown about themselves that they are looking to discover, their desire to feel it all. Thank you… and I welcome you into this powerful sense of passionate discovery and rediscovery for yourself too.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solar Eclipse Offers Illumination Of Emotional Body Shadow, Unification

By Jelelle Awen
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The shadow of the moon crossing the sun and blocking the light…..for brief moments, day becomes night and alters our experience of reality. The total solar eclipse on Monday August 21st, 2017 offers this opportunity from the cosmos to feel and see life differently within our INNER cosmos and emotional bodies. The eclipse energies project the sense of specialness, of a grand event that can unite us ALL in our common experience and sharing of it. Souls at all different phases of awakening and consciousness are moved to witness this event for the chance to feel into these energies, whether subconscious or conscious.

In the U.S., which has struggled in the transition from 3D to 4D with ‘race wars’ as the seemingly primary outward expression of the wounded separation from within, the eclipse is bringing people together regardless of race or nationality. That it is visible as a total eclipse across the U.S. is an invitation of unification in a ‘country’ that is hurting, lashing, growing, rebirthing, and, in this struggle, actually leading the healing of the false self/ego moving into 5D sacred humanity. The U.S., on an emotional body level, has felt most like a teenager to me…rebellious, curious, finding its leadership and power, struggling, thriving, feeling unworthy, feeling arrogant, WANTing. This teenager wants to mature ultimately, to ‘grow up’, and to unify without devaluing individual expression as ‘one nation with the Divine.’ This is a tall order and an example of the challenges that we face inside too as we bridge the gap from our divinity/soul expression to our emotional body/maturity.

In those brief moments of the eclipse, many ‘American’ eyes and hearts will be fixed UPward in curiosity and wonder. In those moments, a specialness will pervade and invade all who are witnesses to the galactic show in the sky. ‘Ordinary’ 3D life will suspend and alter and perhaps something in the soul will want to turn inward too. Perhaps SOMETHING in the soul will be inspired to feel the magic that is within and the possibilities of NEW in every moment and let go of the angsts and rage that project outward and harm.

During a total solar eclipse like this, shadows within are given ‘permission’ to BE as they momentarily obscure our light and are then integrated back in again. The shadow becomes as beautiful and illuminating as the brightness. In many ways, the shadow brings relief, especially if the light has been used to avoid or bypass deeper feeling realities. These August energies seem to be inviting us to feel and BE with the shadows within…the versions of our 3D self that we may have put aside to bring our soul energies in or the parts of us that we might try to suppress such as the Inner Child or Inner Teenager or Inner Punisher…….as I described in this writing where I share my personal experience of this process: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/18/being-with-and-integrating-lower-and-shadow-aspects-of-yourself-during-ascension/

With the lunar eclipse earlier this month, there was a sense of a ‘pause with an edge’ as the edginess was an invitation for new clarities to come in around service of love and purpose here. In the emotional body, this may have brought up frustrations for you and more sense of what doesn’t work for you anymore as you move into the NEW. This seems to especially be true within relationships, where the grounds of connection are rumbled and shifted so you can feel what is real and deepen…..or complete and move on. I wrote about this lunar eclipse energies here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/07/tempering-august-eclipse-energies-a-pause-with-an-edge/

The Lion/Lioness/Sirian gateway and portal openings also occurring this month provide renewed frequencies of abundance and unity, especially related to self healing and within sacred union. These energies and ultimately conscious connection with our Sirian Metasoul soul aspects offer expanded perspectives and clearer commitment to service of love missions. They provide infusions of heart open courage to take the next necessary steps….feeling your needs and desires in a deeper way. I wrote about the codes that became available here, along with a message from Archangel Metatron about them: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/08/08/lions-gate-offering-unity-abundance-activation-with-archangel-metatron/

ALL of this cosmic energetic activity in ONE month offers that the process of ascension is being accelerated and fast tracked. This also includes the process of more intense push up of shadow energies to be felt and healed from the collective emotional body. Stronger personal boundaries may be necessary to navigate these shifts as parts of people that are in fear lash out in discomfort, need to stay small, and project unfelt rage and hurt onto others. This is a ‘messy’ time of bittersweet feelings, where the NEW is palatable in so many moments from within us with sometimes seemingly little evidence of it in the mainstream world or ‘out there’.

BEing real about how parts of us are feeling as we navigate this transition of collective awakening is so important, staying connected to our own emotional bodies and allowing what has been suppressed to come out allows more self love to flow within us. This self love flow brings us back home to ourselves, to places of trust and surrender within us, to our ‘home’ from within. Connection with our guides/aspects and especially Star BEings can bring in the bigger picture and sense of the larger movements that are going on to support this shift into 5D New Gaia. Feeling this galactic support can help hold the personal process and the shifting/sorting that it is and continues to BE!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Let In Your Wonder, Find Your Creativity

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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Wonder… that feeling place from an essence within us that we can’t uncover until parts of us feel that our life is worth ‘wondering’ about. It IS a place where creativity flows from, the creation of new life chapters, artistic works, and growth phases for ourselves. It is the ISpiration we’ve been waiting for, even while parts of us have told themselves they can’t have it and that it’s impossible to feel this way about life. This is the flow that draws us to another, draws us to nature, draws us back inward to ourselves with deep love and curiosity.

Wonder doesn’t ‘know’ much. It doesn’t even pretend to. It feels and asks questions and sometimes is only in the moment with complete, speechless awe. It is both a full canvass of experience and an empty canvass too. It is a way to project what we want to see and also to see what we could never have expected.

Maybe today is a day to rediscover your wonder, your creativity, your zest for creating and establishing something NEW in your life that is more in line with what you most deeply want, even if it seems there are infinite steps to get there – what if the true journey of getting ‘there’ really lies in fully being ‘here’ first?

I wrote the following words recently, to help express my own creative flow I was feeling and where it seemed to be coming from. It does feel like we all have access to a flow this strong more and more, as we come more into ourselves, our hearts and our souls as Ascension keeps calling us all forth to be IN this flow more. It’s a desirable and empowered place and my heart wants everyone to start feeling it for themselves too!

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This stream of creation breaks into a run with timings unforeseen and a flow un-ebbed.

There is no prediction for the next piece. It only mounts itself upon the canvass of true love, waiting for the painter to employ its spark of something-ness…

It’s not a time for restless non-creation, but restful creative action and inaction both. A time for baking and making ideas into one creative form or another, though these forms are not pre-formed, only discovered as we go, flow, move onward.

It is an itch that pauses for a moment of brief regard and then beckons you in and onward for more experience of it, sometimes when it hasn’t even been noted as something worked hard for.

A force unforced, it weaves itself in with us and our lives, asking us for more response, more discovery, more wonder, so we can keep creating from this flow a new us, new relationships, a new way to be in and with life that parts of us have never imagined before…

And then…

Only more love and passion can come and live within us and only more wonder and creativity can come with and from the same. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Importance Of BEing With And Integrating ‘Lower’ And Shadow Aspects Of Yourself During Ascension

By Jelelle Awen

 

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“I’m not sure that I fit in your world. I am too ‘low’. I am at times too ‘negative’. I still have pains from the past and wounds too. I still ache in deep places. I struggle to forgive at times. I struggle to feel compassion for myself and for others. I chase ghosts and shadows too. How can I find a place in your bright world? It feels like sunshine after so much darkness to me. I really need the love but I don’t know if I am worthy of it. I don’t know if I fit in.” These words are from the aching hearts of the parts of us that suffer, live in shadow, have journeyed so far and so long in this 3D experiment. They are wanting to be in the ‘world’ of our growing and awakening 4D/5D self, yet feel a deep unworthiness around how they can possibly fit into this high vibration. Inner Punisher energies inside just ‘reinforce’ this message and waves of shame shut down and suppress the desires for love.

I heard and felt this in myself the last couple of days as I am BEing with a part of me that has taken in much, been through much, many death and rebirths as my soul/higher self continues to come into my body through the awakening process. Many tears came up as I felt this energy inside myself. This part has textures of my 4D self…..this part of me is named Jillian, which is my birth name and the name I choose to go by when I began my awakening journey through parts work in earnest about 15 years ago. I was called Jill before then, who I now feel was more my 3D self. These distinctions of 3D from 4D matter much less than just BEing open to feeling all there is to feel with these aspects of ourselves.

Jillian ‘came up’ strongly yesterday in response to conflict energies flushing out between Raphael and I as we move into a deeper co-leadership phase together offering our service of love through SoulFullHeart and as we are also feeling a geographic shift from Mexico to the United States as a community. We are being called to deeper, wider, bigger service together and this new ground and call is bringing up ‘older’ frequencies in our relationship for us to feel. Raphael and I have been together for nine years…..years marked by much change, transition, letting go, healing of gender wounding, and awakening. Our process together (held by a deep love and respect for each other) is to feel where parts of us have fixed into ‘work arounds’ with each other rather than arising into the new. This is can be challenging to navigate together and parts work is a huge heart line, life line for us, along with the loving support of our community and our Metasoul aspects/guides.

We feel a part often comes up as it is ‘triggered’ or ‘constellated’ (as Carl Jung called it) by an outside source or mirror (especially in romantic relationship.) When I felt ‘old’ reactivity come up in me with Raphael, I went in and felt Jillian, who I had not connected with consciously in a while. The frequencies of Jelelle/soul self coming into my body have been the strongest energy over the last year and I have made much space for this integration of them into my BEing in order to step more fully into my service of love here. Inviting Jillian back into my space did not mean that I was ‘going backwards’ or suddenly ‘falling behind’, yet rather that there was enough love and light in my heart and soul to hold her and make space for her now.

In my experience, no aspects of us can really be suppressed or avoided. If they need us, their energies will flood our field when our emotional bodies are triggered to release them and push them up. If we are open to feeling and BEing with these energies and NOT suppress them or transcend them with bliss/higher frequencies (which is very tempting to do), then we get the gift of integration. THIS integration is what I feel is the ultimate reason and purpose of ascension…to become sacred human, to bring our humanity and the most trailing edge expressions of it into the love light of our Divinity.

In SoulFullHeart, we support you in this up and down integration/bridging through sessions, group calls, retreats, community, and a process that we have spent many years living out as our daily reality. This integration process is very challenging at times and it feels to me nearly impossible to do by yourself. More information here about what we offer if you are drawn to go on this journey with us at your side and you at ours:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Ascension is not just about upward movements…..not about a grand sweeping ‘moment’ of deliverance where ALL we experience from then on is bliss. It is an integration of the tough and the painful with the healed…… the difficult and the barely recovered from with the moved beyond. It is the going down in order to let in more UP. The loving of what we have been with ALL of our hearts in order to invite it into something new and beyond. Bridging to our emotional body WITH our soul frequencies and receiving of the gifts of our heart in the process of this. Making room for these parts of ourselves in our ‘higher’ world brings us in touch with the core of our humanity, which is what we came here with Gaia to experience in this now of ascension where we experience more and more our essence as Infinite Love in sacred human form!

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Raphael and I are hosting a group call on Sunday, August 27th about sacred union where we will share more about our experience together of parts work/differentiation inside and with each other:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Life As Our Personal Creation

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By Raphael Awen

Your life as you know it today, and even as you don’t know it, has been imagined into being.

Nothing comes into being that hasn’t first been seen and imagined by a consciousness that holds the desire and intention for the created thing.

It feels strange to our normal waking consciousness to see this as true when we feel our lives and our circumstances to be a mixture of fate, good or bad luck, missed opportunities, and ‘if only’s’, etc.

But when we take into account our very real subconscious reality, that parts of us, exist outside of our normal waking consciousness; everything changes! Here we come to see and know that aspects of our very selves, not god, not fate, not circumstance, are what has created our life as we know it. Here we come to discover that parts of ourselves had very good and understandable reasons for creating the dimensions of our lives that we, as a conscious self, didn’t like at all.

AND, on top of all this wild ride, is your life as you DON’T yet know it, that already exists in your soul template, in no-time reality, that wants and waits to manifest here in the time dimension more and more as it is allowed into being.

This dimension is also off of most people’s conscious reality and radar, and THIS forgetting, is also by design and creation of the powerful subconscious aspects of their being that prefer to hold the soul consciousness aspect of being for them. As above, so below.

In other words, all of us have one great big coping mechanism for being such big souls expressing in human form. These coping mechanisms, held by aspects of ourselves, can be negotiated with and even come to be known and loved in a magical process of curious self discovery as you expand out more and more into deeper and fuller aspects of the infinite love that you are.

This so raises the quest and questions that are aching to come onto our daily radar more and more.

The very intimate circumstances of your life, relationships, limitations, resources, are ALL aspects of your own creation…awaiting recreation into the domain of loving conscious imagination that is willing to feel all there is to feel.

If these words resonate for you, know then that they contain YOUR truth, and your truth and my truth are finding resonance together. How cool! You are onto your own soul path taking you to new places no matter how stuck you may feel in a present life-as-you-know-it-reality.

Simply admitting your own truth to yourself is that powerful of a transformational reality bridging separate universes of reality into new timelines.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Embracing Descension As Part Of Ascension

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By Raphael Awen

All this talk about ascension and nothing about descension…

My path this week took me into several 3D expressions, one of which was working some marathon hours for an online gig that paid really well, after hardly ‘working’ for like 3 years. Another of which was getting a personal cell phone up and running after doing without one for years, and getting tripped up on some of the functionality. Another of which was researching how to get access back into the US after being refused entry to open up possibilities of future green card status. What a PILE of 3D realities all combined into 1 week!

I so felt a frequency lowering energy with some questions inside about why am I feeling so dense and so obsessed about all this? Where is my bigger trust? Etc.

When I came up for air to breathe and feel last night and this morning, I so feel a larger support team around me and a larger trust place that is right here. The ‘problems’ are yet to resolve, but they feel more like opportunities than setbacks.

A big piece in all of this is feeling the me who lived in these frequencies full time not that many years ago and loving that me. This is the descension we are being invited into in our ascension process. The universe doesn’t want to just take your higher frequency you into a new place, but rather all of you. This includes the you who can’t quite trust like the rest of you can. This includes the you who holds any self judgments and self criticism. This includes the you who has come to be so well adapted to living in the 3D matrix of reality that now struggles to let in a new and foreign reality.

Embracing a path of ascension IS embracing a path of descension at the same time. They are one and the same. Ascension is not an escape, but a rescaping and inscaping of the full landscape of our being into the all we desire to become. The frequency lowering experiences as well as all the we created in the third dimension all wants to integrate into what is arising now. It’s all sacred.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Embracing Our Multi-dimensionality

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By Raphael Awen

When we put a cap on what we think we know, we reveal ourselves to be the fools that we are.

For we have been fooled, mesmerized by the one dimension at hand to the exclusion of the infinite other dimensions that are.

Herein lies our ennui, or complete lack of awe, wonder and reverence. Truly, in a single dimensional world, there is little to revere for creatures as multidimensional as us.

Our human expression in the 3d reality is real, but only as far as one reality among many, many more.

Doesn’t this want to make you cry for how we have been hoodwinked as long as we have? Doesn’t this want to make you cry for the masses that are not yet ready to see and feel this?

Before I get too depressed about this state of affairs, I hear my guides saying that this was the way it needed to be. There is all the time in the world actually for as long as we need to be mesmerized by a single dimensional ‘reality’. This can’t help but run out of gas for us in time, and when we do awaken, we will awaken fully, having invested so fully, that we are ready to divest and let in our next ‘realities’.

I am at present being introduced to a metasoul aspect of mine from Sirius, named Ceylon, a counterpart mate to Jelelle’s metasoul aspect named Sela, both of whom feel feline, a lion and lioness. They both embody an attainment of being that feels so much ahead of my experience this life, that now wants to integrate with my conscious ‘reality’.

As I write these words publicly, I feel a hesitation from a part of me to sound this ‘out there’. This so highlights our hesitation to go to any of our multidimensional capacities…in that we fear no longer belonging to the world around us that we made our beloved home in for as long as we have.

Of course we fear that! Did you think embracing our multidimensionality would be a walk in the park? It’s not so much a spiritual attainment of some guru like status at all. We’ve made it out to be that in order to obscure our real fear…our fear of no longer belonging.

We all have a bunch of strange experiences to have and then to find others to share them with. Choosing to embrace all of our selves, whether a metasoul aspect, or really getting intimate with an inner emotional aspect of ourselves will have repercussions in our social world, beginning of course with our most intimates.

Here we come to see how deeply all of us are en-cult-urated and how those pointing fingers and crying ‘cult’ are the ones deepest in their own cult. We get to be multi-cult-ural!

I’m liking my cult, and I’m admitting it’s a cult (just not a harmful one), what about you and your cult?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Straddling The Old And The New

 

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By Raphael Awen

When you consider how we are energy and then consider the fact that energy never dies, but only changes, and let the feeling vibration of this picture seep more and more into conscious awareness, this alone changes life as you know it.

There still is the inertia of life as you’ve known it, as you created it from the perception that didn’t include seeing yourself as energy that cannot die, but this inertia is losing steam.

For the present then, you are in both the old and the new. Parts of you will be aching to be more fully in the new while other parts of you will be wondering who’s tearing down their precious house. This polarity inside isn’t the problem however, as many would suggest it to be, but rather it is the denial of this polarity that creates high levels of stress. Feeling the part of you who so wants full steam ahead AND feeling the part of you who doesn’t want to change a thing, thank you very much, is critical to finding the movement that your higher self/authentic self has on the board for your time in the timezone.

In SoulFullHeart, we intentionally get to know these distinct parts of ourselves by giving them a name, journaling (with pen and paper) with them in back and forth dialogue and feeling them throughout the day in synchronistic flow of circumstance that mirrors the intention. It is in the magic of feeling our selves, our distinct parts of our makeup that magically moves us into new timelines that our soul has for us.

Desire is energy. Imagination is energy. Despair is energy. It’s all energy. Where does the energy you are want to move you today amidst all of the other energies in your field?

If you are anything, you are one big opportunity out waiting to happen. No failure or negativity is outside or opposed to this grand opportunity. You get to be as fully you as you are ready for, more and more and more. With no cap on the more.

That’s daunting isn’t it, that there’s no end to this? It kind of takes the pressure off in one way, feeling how you will never be ‘done’. In a very real way, you are already done and are just playing with manifesting your doneness in this dimension at hand. It’s all play, and it’s all for the funnest fun and learning our way to more reverence and awe.

I’m in! And you?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Letting Go Of The Old To Make Room For The New

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By Raphael Awen

Making the heart space to draw and let in something deeply desired usually requires letting go of something that a part of us often isn’t anywhere close to being done with.

We can’t draw a heart mate for instance while we stay energetically or physically connected with a stand in mate.

This often leaves people in despair as their desire energy seems to be neutralized by an opposite energy leaving them in a stasis, which is actually exactly what is being manifested. It’s not that their ‘manifester is broken’ as much as it is that their manifester is manifesting according to the unresolved polarity inside.

This is quite something to behold to see how life and the universe is working on a perfect powerful quantum level exactly as it was designed to, even if it isn’t where we’d consciously like it to be. On the level of taking into account all of our wishes held by our subconscious; the subpersonal beings who live within (the real emotive ground), the manifestation of ‘no manifestation’ is actually a perfect manifestation.

Getting to know and feel the parts of us who have an attachment to the lesser thing is the bedrock beginning ground of true authentic movement that isn’t based in a forced kind of self-help ra-ra energy. Like any valid parenting kind of relationship, it needs to begin with getting to know and feel instead of imposing rules, obligations or manipulative strategies.

This is a powerful resolve to just acknowledge and admit the polarity inside of ourselves, and a deep coming back to self love and reconciliation. Then we can feel into what’s next.

For such powerful times as the lions gate portal that many are feeling, these choice points of inner work offer a deep facilitation of being able to flow with the transformational energies that are so heightened right now.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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