Honouring Your Own Unique And Very Personal Journey Of Ascension

By Kalayna Solais

Feeling behind. Feeling as if we are risking being ‘left behind’ if we aren’t able to tune into what everyone else that shares awareness of Ascension is tuning into and feeling personally. Fearing that we aren’t going to be enough to ‘ascend’ or to be ‘chosen’ TO ascend, perhaps.

These are feelings that I think so many of us can resonate with on some level. These fears feel existential and like they live in our Metasoul aspects in other timelines who HAVE been ‘left behind’ by others and on a deeper level still, there’s more to feel about ‘abandonment’ by the Divine too… maybe also in this life parts of you have trauma from the ‘competition’ conditioning, from growing up in a culture where you are always striving to be THE best, not YOUR best or even just where you are at and having that be ok. There are so many layers to this and for me, I’m still discovering many of them personally and how deep they go.

I’m a part of a highly catalytic process and soul family community that we always say is on a ‘moving conveyor’. The more work you do within you, the more your outer world changes and the more shifts you feel invited to take of your own volition too. The more parts of you that you feel in their traumas and begin to have a relationship with, the more you realize the changes you need to make in your life in ALL areas of your life.

This means that at any time, one of us could decide unilaterally that there is something we need to address, move on from or move toward, and that could be a big thing or a small thing. There are always next and next and next steps too as the inner awakening and openings deepen. There are new discoveries and new strata of consciousness that begin to open up and out. New relationships are drawn. New alchemy on all levels. All of these are sacred journey markers that are very individual and a result of the individual journey. It look and feel like pure ‘magic’ and it really is, but it’s also worked very hard for.

When you have conditioning in your soul’s timelines and the heart of your parts from this lifetime that there is something always to envy in others for the sake of feeling badly or ‘not good enough’ inside of yourself, this isn’t that easy to digest all the time. Jealousy can be kicked up. A feeling that you must be lacking something or have something ‘wrong with you’ if you aren’t experiencing what they are experiencing. This is one of the major reasons why I needed the break I did…. so that this comparison dance and suffering loop could be deeply felt into by me, so that I could arise for myself with more respect and self-love. This could only happen if I got big enough for my most intense and self-punishing parts/aspects to lean into me. This was the crux of my process at times in relationship to the lives of others around me too… feeling parts of me envying their skills (that they’ve worked hard for), their fitness level, their relationships, etc. This has gone on and on for me for as long as I can remember… and only now is this starting to shift into new ground.

Why is it SO hard to just BE with our own journey? Why do we look to others for templating but then resent them for it at times?

These questions feel complicated and like the answers lie within every individual. I think it’s so hard to remember that we are ultimately here to experience Ascension in a PERSONAL way, though we are returning to oneness too. I’m discovering, especially as I feel a relationship beginning with a Reptilian aspect of me, just how deep this ‘programming’ of avoiding the individuation process of our healing and Ascension actually goes and why it can feel a bit scary.

I had a yoga teacher once, many years ago now, who offered something during class that made us all laugh but it was actually quite poignant. She was showing us the many stages of one particular posture. When she got to the most advanced one, she said,

“See? There’s NOTHING there! There’s no need to rush yourself into this ‘advanced’ place when you have so much to discover along the way”.

That really impacted me at that time and it remains with me today because I think I was supposed to take that in deeply for my own ongoing experience of spirituality and of life itself… it really IS about the journey and not the destination. Ascension is a journey. ‘5D’ is not really a destination so much as an invitation into a new frequency in which to anchor our consciousness as much and as often as we can. Every individual’s soul expression and attainments are their own, often worked for over multiple lifetime experiences and deep inner work too. There’s nothing left to ‘envy’ if we can see it this way… but there could be a lot to be inspired by!

Plus, our own journeys, when we have the space within to honour them, are proof positive of our own inner work and also the growth and healing phases that we personally need that are a reflection of our bigness in order to be with them. Maybe there is no ‘ultimate destination’ but in fact, it all keeps deepening and expanding from here. This is such a humble way to look at and hold ourselves and this whole Ascension process on a collective level too.

I wanted to share this bit about my own journey and discoveries as an expression of my own uniqueness that I’m learning to embrace more and more. I hope that it helps you feel more love and respect for your own too… for the journey you’re on as YOU.

Much love! ❤

Kalayna


Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Navigating Relationships Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle Awen on Sunday, January 26th & Receive Recording

By Jelelle Awen

Relationships are a crucial growth ground in your awakening as you explore into-me-I-see through sacred & healthy intimacy with others. They can also offer the most challenging and painful experiences as you shift and change from the inside out and your relationships are impacted by that.

Intimacy with others is possible as we experience intimacy from within, from one part of us to another. We can then see and feel how so much of what we experience with others is a mirror of inner dynamics going on!

This is a very passionate and important topic to me and I love teaching about it and opening up inner spaces for women to explore it with depth, realness, and emotional digestion, plus growing soul clarities for what they most want and deserve in relationships too! It is probably the most pressing area of life for which women seek support and help with navigating it as there can be much to feel and see on the this-life and other lifetime levels!

Join me for my monthly women’s group call this Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT (or receive the recording) as we dive into the terrain of navigating relationships during awakening into your sacred femininity. I’ll share my personal experiences of 12+ years in sacred union relationship and experience of deep resonant friendship in soul family bonds, plus the challenges I went through in previous relationships! I’ll also talk about how/why/when to set boundaries or let go & why it can be challenging, harm/abuse patterns & how they also exist inside, narcissist/empath relationships, birth family boundaries, and more!

I will also guide you in a meditative space with Magdalene and Mother Mary in which you will connect to the current relationships in your life and how parts of you feel about them, especially your Inner Protector and Inner Teenager. You will also tune into what your deepest heart desires are to experience in relationships.

More info here! https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/5-sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-call-jelelle-awen

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the January 26 women’s group and check that your email is current.

We recommend watching and engaging in this video with teachings and a guided meditation with Jelelle about 3D/4D/5D relationships: https://youtu.be/Xm_oHafTnq8

Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions. This is a series that is offered once a month with Jelelle, although you do not need to attend all of them to receive benefits from them.

You can purchase the recording of the other women’s groups here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-calls-jelelle-awen

More info here about future women’s group calls with Jelelle: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womengroupcalls

Jelelle is also available for powerful, personalized 1:1 sessions with her for women for 90 minutes over Zoom. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Contact us here on FB or at soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information.

“Deepest gratitude for the gifts shared in our Women’s Call today! This call is now part of a growing experience of togetherness and sisterhood – TO BE TAKEN IN MANY TIMES, ANYTIME. If you did not have a chance to participate, I would strongly recommend that you take in the recording – As all that we experience, the energy of this one is alive! Incredibly rich to all my parts! Much gratitude for the beautiful shift that it allowed for me today! Namaste!” Isabela Gasparini, group participant

“I feel so much gratitude and Love. These calls are so healing and revealing so much as is this whole process. So glad I am here. I wanted to express deep appreciation for the shares too”. Deva, Group participant

“Such a wonderful call and I feel so grateful to have finally been able to attend one of these women’s calls! The meditation and teaching was so moving and epic, each face of mother feeling so important for each aspect of me and my life. The sharings were beautiful and vulnerable as well, so real in what was true for each person’s process. Can’t wait for the next one!” Raianna Shai, Group participant

Casket To Cradle/Death & Rebirth Guided Meditation Video Four Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

 

In this fourth video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) talk about the death/rebirth cycle that we are constantly going through in awakening…the ‘death’ of 3D conditioning and the layers of protection created from it and the ‘birth’ of our awakening, 4D/5D self with parts of us integrating into it as they heal. I share about how you might be experiencing this death/rebirth cycle in your life, on a spectrum from subtle to extreme life changes, choices, transitions, and shifts, and how tuning into Divine trust and soul context helps with it.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Dark Mother join you in a funeral service to honor and feel the part of you that wants and is ready to die, to let go, and to move on. Mother Mary then guides you to connect with the higher frequency version of yourself being born in a cradle. The meditation helps you to bridge and hold space for the death/rebirth process in a conscious way while you are connected to Divine support and trust.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Gratitude For A Decade Of Sacred Union On New Year’s Eve

By Jelelle Awen

Happy New Year’s Eve! As this decade completes and I reflect on the last ten years, what comes up in my heart is my relationship with the beautiful, genuine, enchanting man that I’ve gotten to spend it with. This relationship has provided the experience of being in an ‘usness’ yet it has also been a powerful mirror to see, feel, come to know, and express myself increasingly in my soul bigness and leading with my heart.

Raphael Awen and I married ten years ago in March, following a longing to be together that had already dissolved previous configurations in our lives that were no longer serving us. We let go of a previously beloved spiritual group and all of our social connections tied to that group and settled into a new geography together. This picture was taken on our wedding day in a studio apartment in West Vancouver, where we still didn’t even have any furniture together!

We continue every day to consciously choose this relationship as our main way to grow and learn and serve….yet it isn’t taken for granted or just assumed to be there or related to in an entitled way. It arises as we arise….inviting us into ever deeper waters of transparency together. I feel so blessed to be in this exploration with a soul who so GETS me on every level.

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Raphael….Thank you my beloved for this ongoing exploration into intimacy, vulnerability, transparency, sacred sexuality, co-leadership in service and community, parts/Metasoul integration and quantum healing, daily living as a sacred practice, embodiment of the Divine as a man and woman….and SO MUCH more. I love you and thank you for spending these last ten years with me…..here’s to many more!!

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From Raphael:

Everything for me in this past decade pales in comparison to the gift, growth, challenge, and magic of being so in life and love with you, Jelelle.

The phases we have gone through, even of ending the relationship this past year in a death and rebirth cycle, have renewed the lease on togetherness yet again.

On one hand, I have felt both stunned at the ongoing magic with no reference or experience point for it outside of myself, and no file for it, other that digesting it together, as well as allowing our ‘usness’ to inspire others. On the other hand, I’ve had to normalize the relationship to enough of a degree to be in it everyday, almost what feels like a taking it for granted. Between those two hands, I’m invited to keep feeling all there is to feel for my own growth, for our deepening service of love together and where that wishes to take me.

Thank you, Jelelle for being so fully here, in this ‘this’ together. I love you. 😍 Thank you for the honeymoon giggly anticipation of another decade together.

The Gifts And Challenges Of Soul Family

Soul family is the ultimate manifestation of our healing.

While we can feel an ache for it, there may also be parts that fear it just as much. Soul family is Love actuated and aligned. It is a fire walk and a beautifully intense journey.

As the conditioned and old ties that have bound us begin to show signs of weariness and completion, new resonance is sought and desired. There may even be a need for a solo phase to heal and realign within. There comes a time when the draw to Soul Family just becomes part of our chosen path.

I have been in this family of heart and soul for 7 years and it has been a long journey for me and my parts. I have found myself staring at the most difficult part of my growth and that is my relationship to intimacy, to transparency and to vulnerability.

This is no small feat for someone who wasn’t totally conscious of what any of that was seven ago. I just knew I needed support and guidance. Oh, and a mirror got thrown in for good measure.

I continue my healing of being in intimacy with others. It has had major challenges. Yet, my parts and I are becoming ever so much clearer that I have needed this and my soul wants me to keep moving through the tough parts.

So many projections become blatantly clear when you are in the swell of love and soul family. It is an unfortunate, yet important ground to keep working through so you can get the good stuff. The stuff you were drawn to Soul Family in the first place.

I am blessed to be a part of this with those that want to see me for who I am, not just what they think I should be, yet with their own self-loving boundaries. This is what keeps it sustainable and real. I am a better man and a better human being because of it.

So I send a deep gratitude to those that have been the biggest part of my life to date and in the future for as long as it is meant to be. Thank you and I love you, Jelelle, Raphael, and Raianna.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Tides Are Turning

The tides are turning.
What has always laid underneath
Is coming to the surface.
Coming into full view

We are each going to be presented
With a choice
A choice to feel
To take responsibility
To take action
To surrender
To forgive

We will be given access to
All that has haunted us
All that we have hidden
Or just couldn’t bear to see
As well as all that we have been
Prepared to become
To embody
To let in as our highest calling

The Light is breaching the horizon
Casting shadows
And providing illumination
How you respond to that is a choice
An epic decision for a part of you to die
In order to fly

This is the sticky, prickly
Lower 4D ground we have been walking upon
Because it is all that parts of our soul
Have ever felt they have known

But we are being shown something different
Something more alive
It is our courage to go into this ground
And bring the Light of our bigness and depth
To help set us free once and for all

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Long Goodbye

It feels like yesterday
But it was long ago
The arising reality
That it wasn’t meant to be
To be together
To be forever
Was coming into view

We tried all that we could
To patch it together
With all the strings of love
We knew how to gather
To keep it sailing
To keep the music playing

It has been a long goodbye
A road of letting go
Of all the things we collected
And held tight to along the way

Has it been the joy or the suffering
That I have clung so dear?
Sometimes I don’t know if I can tell
With a soul so used to despair
And a shadow of doubt to its repair

I have but two ways to go
The one that feels less traveled
Less likely
More forgotten
Is the one that seeks my return
Summons my courage
Calls my name

It is the journey home to my Heart
Collecting and guiding all of the lives
That have ever been alone, forgotten,
Afraid and downtrodden

It is the road paved with choice,
With trust, with desire,
And with honesty
That will lead me back to the Love
That has never left

So as I sit on the shore
Of this next unknown chapter,
I see how instead of this being
A long goodbye
It is rather an unfolding Hello.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Merry Christmas From The SoulFullHeart Family To Yours!

Merry Christmas from OUR hearts to YOURs to our extended soul family……however you are celebrating this day and in whatever ways….may love flow into and through you to reach all the parts of you that need it and out to others too.

Thank you so much for taking in and resonating with our sharings this year..it feels so good to connect in commUNITY with resonant souls and awakening hearts!

Blessed Christ Consciousness Codes to you!

We love you!
Jelelle Awen and Community

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Thank you to all who shared love with us and me in whatever ways! I love you and I’m so grateful for the expansion of my heart and soul that was afforded me in our connection. 💚xo Raphael Awen

Sending many Christ blessings and codes your way on this day. I too appreciate all that have been a part of this ride with me and all of us. May this be the beginning of more peace on Earth for us all.🙏❤️ Gabriel Heartman

I’m feeling so much love this morning for everyone’s exchange of love with us this year! I wish wonder-filled holiday to all of you and to each part of you! I hope they all have moments of joy, love and peace 🎄Raianna Shai

Christ Consciousness Wisdoms To Share On Christ-Mas

By Jelelle Awen

The following are teachings and wisdoms that I’ve received while connecting with Christ Consciousness in form of Yeshua (his more embodied form), which I experience as a fifth dimensional energy within me, within you, available to ALL. This is the energy that I feel alive in the most nourishing aspects of Christ-mas celebrations, inviting us beyond material gift giving and into the frequencies of giving and receiving love with ourselves and others, above all. This is the energy that we are birthing into BE-ing as we embrace our sacred humanity and our Christ Within – both the best of what makes us human and that which makes us a transcendent, multi-dimensional soul.

This energy transcends religions, belief systems, and shadow projections. This is the energy of Golden Earth, New Earth, and what we are moving collectively into as we ascend into higher dimensions of consciousness where we experience more sense of Oneness, peace, self love, and reverence for all life.

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An empty vessel cannot give love.
Heal your heart and its pain by feeling them.
Heal your soul and its painful legacy by feeling them.
Purify through your tears and your openness to feel it ALL.
Then, as you are this, will you be able to transact real love, human frequencies with others who are in the same process….
you will be able to let in Universal love frequencies that light up your Infinite Love essence…
and you will be able to give with a healthy heart and soul. ~ Yeshua

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Be in the world, not of the world…..yet care for the world.

You are in the world, bring your heart with you, feel your surroundings and those who call you into connection. You are in a human body, bring your health to it, feel your embodiment as sacred and the desires that flow from it. You are in a culture, bring your celebration of it, feel how it impacts you and forms you.

You are not of the world, it is not a reflection of that which you are really made and ARE. Participate in the world even while remembering that you are not just it…not your name, your occupation, your body, your income, your home, your history, your culture. Remain with some separation from it so that you can retain the essence of what you ARE as Infinite Love.

You are care for the world, bring your compassion with you, feel the tears of the world and those cries that call you to respond. Serve love as the greatest gift for yourself, others, and with the Divine God in all Its glorious forms, including YOU. Remember to respond to fear with love, not more fear, and you offer a new possibility to each moment. ~ Yeshua

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I am still digesting my connection time with Yeshua this morning during meditation. I experience him as an ascended teacher energy, a loving and provocative presence available to anyone. For me, connection with him transcends religions and belief systems into a space where just love matters.

We were floating on a golden white fluffy cloud together, sitting Indian style. It felt like we were in a higher vibration frequency, a higher dimension. I was taking in his energy, feeling the warmth and love of it moving up and down my chakras like a cascading flow.

We sat in silence for a bit and then he asked me, “What do you see?”

I looked around and the first answer that came to me was, “Nothing.” This felt strange to me because, after all, I was surrounded by beautiful clouds and sitting next to HIM.

He seemed to take that answer inside of his heart though and then asked me, “What do you feel?”

“Everything,” was my first response.

Again he seemed to take this answer in deeply.

“How can that be though?” I asked him, confused. “How can I see nothing and feel everything?”

He smiled at me in the way that sends golden waves of love straight into my heart and replied, “That’s actually the purest way for which to feel.”

As I sit here now, digesting this message, I feel that what He is offering is that we can ‘see’ so much with our minds, filtering everything, ‘busy mind’ in addition to so many people with ‘busy life’. In this state, it is so difficult to really feel anything, we are numb from over stimulus.

When we open up ourselves to seeing ‘nothing’, to just being, then we can start to feel everything in a more pure way. Our hearts can open up and feel the All That Is for which we are made. And tastes of Infinite Love too.

This is my explanation anyway….Yeshua would probably just smile and offer for me not to think about it so much, just feel it.

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Embrace that which you ARE in this moment.

Feel that which you desire to BE.

Understand that the gap between these two is an invitation.

An invitation from the Divine God, from the Divine Mother Aspect, from the Universe…..to experience your essence as Infinite Love through the form of your sacred humanity.

This invitation is open, it waits, it doesn’t push, but it does call…and it is always your sovereign choice if you will answer and how you will answer.

And if you choose not to respond to this invitation, the Divine God will go on loving you just the same and just as much. ~ Yeshua

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To look in the mirror, to really look, is to be open to seeing that which is hard to accept, difficult to love, and most in need of attention. That which lurks in the shadows of your soul, the tight corners of your heart, and the darkest regions of your mind.

Going into this darkness with full consciousness is what illuminates the soul spark that you are and reveals the Infinite Love that you are. Going into this darkness with willingness to feel it ALL reveals the Divine light that you are.

Sometimes life will bring you to this darkness and sometimes you will choose it…..whatever way you find yourself there, feel how it is the beginning of the true lifting of the veil that falseness has placed over you.

If you have not had this experience of the crucible of darkness, seek that which will guide you in it and through it rather than letting your false self cling to a light that is but an echo of the real thing. When what is false has been repeatedly burned away in a conscious process which includes the dark, you can trust the light that emerges from it as being real and a reflection of the Divine spark that you ARE. ~ Yeshua

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Everything is made of love energy. Everything. Yet, also, there is the fear of love that can have equal or greater power at times when it becomes more real than love. This fear of love manifests in many ways and expressions.

The only way that fear of love heals is with more love. It cannot be ignored, suppressed, or made to ‘go away’ because you do not want to look at it. Fear grows if it is related to with more fear. Only love has the bravery to look at the dark, to feel the fear, to be with what is real about it.

Calling it ‘love’ and not acknowledging the existence of the fear of love that is often underneath it is NOT real love. ~ Yeshua

Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Sometimes It Just Takes Time

Time
Sometimes it just takes time.
Time to let go
Time to let in
Time to feel the parts that are
Cycling in time.

It can feel as if time is like
Waves lapping up on shore
One repetition after another
Yet the ground is shifting
The earth is moving
Life is churning underneath

If time is just another expression of Love
Then we have an infinite supply
If we can’t run out of Love
Then we can’t run out of time

So while I can say “it just takes time”
I can also say “it just takes Love”.
It takes Love to let go
It takes Love to let in
It takes Love to feel your parts

To feel your anxiety
Your doubts
Your hopes
And your dreams

Be kind to yourself and your selves
Be willing to listen
To hold space
For their needs and truth

Be willing to breathe
And be willing to choose
It is all a dance and a journey
There’s no road to run out of
No time to lose
Just Love to feel
And a heart and soul to heal

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.