The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Our Soul-Self Ascension

by Kasha Rokshana

We are arising.

From the ashes of the unknown
while we cry out
in sometimes hysterical
…yet critical
meltdowns
shedding what is now old
to embrace what is new…

We are in constant
movement
into, through
and out of
phases and claims
that we need for a time
but not forever.

We will always know
without knowing
without even being fully conscious
or aware
that our soul is edging
toward another new horizon.

Oh, beloved…
I am at the feet of my newest
most sparkling self.
I am bringing my new legs
to stand again
against the warmth
of your ascending
and ever encouraging
sun.

My personal power
lays out in the grass
of the freshly lain
frontier
of a new level of Me
of growth
of a renewed connection
to You…

Oh, great gems of sapphire
crystalline gold
heart-shaped All
in this moment
I summon
all of the strength
I know
I have healed to have
to continue the motion
of my forwarding press
into the brand new
epic
wilderness
of an ever-evolving
self.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My REunion with Aurius (Formerly, ‘Gabriel’)

by Kasha Rokshana

For you, with you… Within me…

I’ve fallen asleep beside you, only to wake up without you, but then realized with inner work and great patience (that sometimes boiled with so much ache I could barely hold it), how I get to (we get to) to claim this awakening all over again…

A light has always burned for you, stayed on for you, in my heart. A beacon has always been lit in my soul, cascading across the sky of the Divine, reaching somehow for you yet letting you go too.

When you meet the King that holds the keys to your heart AND soul AND body desires, efforts to cling or tug or ‘keep him’ actually flow against the tide of drawing him deeper into you, into your field, and into your mutual connection that spans so many lifetimes… And against the moving tides of change and growth within, that sometimes need to happen solo, without him ‘in the room’.

I am loving and appreciating this beloved man who I have known for nearly 9 years, anew. I am feeling and reeling in the depths and textures of our connection in ways I wasn’t expecting. I didn’t know he was about to ‘throw his hat back in the ring’ and claim a desire for me after this time ‘apart’ romantically… But I’m sure glad he did.

This adventure with you, Aurius, is one I glow with from deep inside… I feel it in places that have been sleeping, that have needed to let go of any dream of it. Now the blood flow of passion and desire is waking up these dormant places and I love every moment of our ‘waking up next to each other’ that is happening now… ❤️

I love this service-of-love life that we live inside of ourselves… And more and more inside of this sacred USness we share.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Way Of The Love Ambassador: Moving Beyond ‘Fighting’ And Pointing Fingers

by Kasha Rokshana

It takes more strength to keep from fighting than it does to fight.

To fight back, to scream out our truths until they even seem heard, to poke and prod at those that parts of us don’t agree with or that we feel hard done by… Whenever ‘peace’ seems to come from these actions, it does not sustain. It does not truly land or teach or shift anything at the core/heart of what has been brought out to be seen.

We must find another way. Often that other way has NOT been taught. It is a middle ground that does not ‘roll over’, nor does it impose shame or blame on self or others.

It’s a middle ground that can only be discovered when you visit the shadowland battlegrounds within. Feeling what the soul is still fighting for or against. Feeling the parts that are still in conflict with mom or dad or authority. Feeling yourself so you can actually feel others and where they are coming from. Actually being able to bring empathy as a way to move through what’s present rather than shut down and shut out the other…

This is the stuff that the New Earth, the Golden Earth that wants to birth through and with us is made of. And… It comes from feeling. Making space for feeling. Feeling how parts of us don’t want to feel and why. Feeling our numbness, even, and why it’s been there, what it’s been protecting that is far more vulnerable.

We are being invited to see and feel through the eyes and heart of love. Love does not negate or diminish the darkness present, but liases with it, finds a way to make room for it to have it’s say, rather than fully become it in order to get a point across.

Such is the birth of the Love Ambassador within us all.

I feel all of this ongoingly moving through me, especially as a sacred feminine woman/healer/teacher, as I find my own way into my truth and into ways to share it that don’t point fingers but instead bravely bring love into every single situation, conflict, and moment of needing to look into sometimes a very challenging mirror.

I feel us all on our sacred journeys and finding our way through what has never really worked for us into what now can work WITH us… With love holding space for it all. ❤️🕊

Love,
Kasha 🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Knots: A Sacred Union Transmission

by Kasha Rokshana

Show me your knots, beloved.

The ones you’re still untying.

The ones sometimes buried

Beneath showing up

And being ‘enough’.

Show me the in-betweens, beloved.

The ones that slip in when least expected

In less-than-graceful moments that may last but a second.

The ones that remind of your humanity

And taste of burgeoning essence untethered.

Show me the faults, the land mines, the pot holes.

Show me the dents in the well-tailored armor,

The very same worn in those worn-out days.

I’ll show all of mine too, beloved.

My knots,

My in-betweens,

My faults, land mines, pot holes, and dents.

Even better…

Let’s reveal them together

In moments far from planned

And entirely up to fate.

Beloved… may our imperfections mix,

Our desires mingle

And our drive to become,

Heal,

And offer more

Bring out the soul stuff we crave

Held by the heart stuff we deepen

And healed within each other’s open hands.

Love,

Kasha ❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Reclaiming The Crazy/Lost/Dark/Forgotten Parts Within You To Experience Transformation & Healing

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice, frequency of harm, and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Orphan. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Soul aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too. They are beyond shape and age and time.

Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that never seems to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’ or in ‘childhood’ or ‘many years ago’. They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is often why you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have. That is often why the suffering loops continue in relationships, in passion expression/service, in money areas, in the physical body.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain world they have known. As they feel YOU as your Divine Self embodiment come into their world with compassionate curiosity, they can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, lost or dark at all.

Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love. Transmuting for others is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth.As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones inside that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too.

As you love even the narcissist INSIDE and the punisher INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate. And you no longer draw these kinds of people and energies on the outside in relationships.

These lost ones inside you become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These ‘crazy ones’ become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity. These orphaned ones become adopted by your loving heart and claimed by your soul family.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is my 33 Day video series called Deepen to connect with some of these parts/aspects: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions are available with me over zoom or in person in Glastonbury, UK for women to feel, transmute, claim, and heal these precious parts of your self and soul as a bridge from your Divine Self for $100 USD for 90 very FULL minutes! And with other Facilitators too… More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.