Allowing the Waves of Grief

By Raianna Shai

Grief is a much bigger part of our lives and our emotional bodies than I think we realize. We don’t just grieve passed loved ones or the end of relationships. We grieve old versions of ourselves, nostalgic places, past habits, other lifetimes, the state of the world – really anything that is coming to an end. It’s also one of the most complicated and pushed away emotions we can have as humans.

It’s deep, existential, nonlinear and shows up when we least expect it. Everyone I know who has experienced the deepest versions of grief have described it as coming in waves. It crashes over you and suddenly you feel like you’re drowning. One day you’re the happiest you’ve been in a long time and the next you’re weighed down with an intense heaviness.

I know that grief is not exactly easy to feel but I also know what happens when it’s left unfelt. It harms us in our physically bodies through different aches and illnesses, it causes us to push down any emotion that comes up in fear that it will uncap all of the unfelt grief we’ve left bottled up and it can keep us from connecting to the deeper parts of ourselves that are beyond the grief.

Grief is deep but it does have another side. It is tender, real and honest. It shows us what we really care about and where our deepest fears and desires lie. It shows us so much truth and if truly allowed to come to the surface when it needs to – it can help us love deeper, trust more easily and stay current with every new emotion.

This has been the biggest emotion that I’ve felt this last month and though it’s been painful, it’s also taught me so much about myself and all the varied and important parts of me. It’s shown me that I can feel 50 emotions in one breath, 100 thoughts in each tear that falls from my eyes, a depth so vast it feels like I’ll never feel anything else.

And then I do. I keep moving, keep feeling, keep letting myself dive into this well of despair and come back out feeling even closer to these parts inside of me. Letting go of every hope and dream I’ve had and making way for new ones. In allowing these feelings to surface, I’m telling these parts of me that they are valid, real and loved. And that is where the healing really happens.

Pictured is me feeling real grief during a recent group circle with SoulFullHeart. The community support and love was huge for allowing myself to go to these depths

Love,
Raianna Shai

~~~~

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 1, 2022

Blessed Autumn Equinox to you!

We just held our first official SoulFullHeart Gathering in several years over the Autumn Equinox, with beloved souls who have been in the community and/or regular sessions with us for some time. It was a true reunion of soul family and we look forward to welcoming more souls in the future as we gather together every Equinox and Solstice.

Featured this week is a touching piece by Long-term Facilitant, Community Member, and newly-minted Apprentice Facilitator, Bey Magdalene. In her writing, Bey shares about her experience during the gathering as well as a glimpse of the inner work she’s been doing that has led her to let in such a deep soul family reunion.

There are many new writings from us this week where we also share what we got from the gathering experience overall and what it meant to us personally. We also have some energy updates which you may find helpful as we all navigate the ongoing energy waves and invitations from the Divine.

Also, we’ve announced our next group call led by Raphael and Jelelle, and this month we will focus on the ‘homecoming codes’ that we could all feel during our recent gathering and would love to transmit to you as well. This group call will take place on Sunday, Oct 16th, and will be by donation, as always.

Go here if you’d like more information on any of our upcoming group calls.

Go here to find our current Museletter.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”.

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Healing Division Within To Experience Soul Family Reunion Without

by Kasha Rokshana

With so much polarity still moving in this Ascension process, gathering together as one can feel so out of reach. It can feel like there’s just no way to reconcile the differences we’re really coming to recognize between us.

It feels sometimes like there’s just so many mountains to climb in order to come back into alignment with ourselves, let alone with others. The inner polarities are just as real as the outer, if not even more real at times, with so much division happening between parts of us that are torn about next life choices and caught up in fear spirals as they imagine what could go wrong rather than lean into guidance, hope, and Divine trust.

What truly divides us as human beings on this ongoing journey we’re ALL a part of is the conflict that lives inside us which lays and maintains the foundation for outer conflict, the need to be right, the need to prove, and the push-pull relationship to life, love, and others around us. It’s the resistance to inner intimacy that creates resistance to outer intimacy… it’s the pull of how the Matrix lives inside of us, let alone how we’re impacted by it on the outside, that can create so much ongoing tension and pain.

The recent Autumn Equinox gathering that we had here in our growing community of SoulFullHeart is a powerful example of how moving through the inner polarities really does create a more intimate and flowing ground with others on the outside, with so much love and appreciation for our differences rather than a deep level of reaction. This is possible because of soothing and healing the inner edges between parts and soul aspects of us, validating their experiences instead of diminishing them, yet also challenging them to move beyond their experiences to let in something new inside and out.

This is possible because of a willingness to stay in the room with ourselves, gathering each part of us back into our hearts, reclaiming shadow and light at every turn, letting in how we impact each other in both good and uncomfortable ways and being willing to feel how all of that always stems from deep within…

Every single soul on this planet is a brave one just for being here. It takes a special brand of soul courage to take on the monumental challenge of polarized duality while on some level our souls, consciously or unconsciously, long for reunion and reconciliation back into oneness. Those who are willing to truly stay in the room with themselves, with a growing sense of undying Divine support and love to keep moving through everything there is to move through and feel, are the ones who know there’s so much more to glean from this whole Ascension process if we’re truly going to transform and evolve into the Sacred Humans we’re here to become and remember too that we always WERE.

I’m so grateful to have moved through so much inner tension and pain in order to be a part of this room I find myself in with soul family. And I’m so grateful to all the souls around me who share this journey and have experienced it so deeply themselves. Our gatherings are turning into soul family reunions in the flesh and I’m so looking forward to welcoming more souls to them in the future!

Our gatherings are an invitation to any soul who has been drawn to have 1:1 sessions with us and has been in sessions for a time. The virtual session space serves the healing of the inner pieces that need to be felt before the in-person space can open up as a possibility, but the invitation to reunite with us is always there! Now is a time of feeling this journey inside and out and making conscious choices to live in deeper resonance with self and with others, to feel empowered in that way and to live into our reasons for being here truly as one.

With much love and appreciation for your own ongoing journey of inner and outer reconciliation and healing,
Kasha

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Persecution Wound Group Call 9/11 | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

I recently had a persecution wound experience come through quite strongly related to a Cathar lifetime as I open up to the Cathar (Magdalene descendents) mass persecution/holocaust that happened to them in Southern France. I was feeling tension and that ‘something bad was going to happen’ for a day or two although nothing in my life was occurring. I was able with my Gatekeeper’s help to connect to the soul aspect who experienced being burned alive in a church with all her beloveds (including Raphael’s soul aspect) by the Catholic Church, the terror and horror of it, and also bridge to Divine love/soul family love again. She is recovering now and has many gifts to offer me as we connect more.

This way of being with persecution wound energies from this life and other lifetimes is about being relational, intimate, and also being a bridge for your soul aspect to connect with Divine support in a very specific way that goes beyond just a one time regression. And it is led by you and not others ‘reading out’ your ‘past’ lives. It is all occurring in the Now. You can shift the entire experience/choices around it as well in this lifetime with the soul aspect leading that….quantum healing possibilities.

It felt timely to focus our next monthly group call on 9/11 to healing the persecution wounds that live within ALL of our souls through our lifetimes in the Matrix, esp as those who ‘lead the way’ and awaken before the masses. Healing these wounds can open so much more trust and gift expression! Hope you can join us…

Description below:

The experience of being persecuted is one that lives within all of our soul fields and expresses in our reality in this life as well. It often vibrates underneath your sense of daily life without conscious awareness and connection to it, which just leads to more recapitulation of the same energetics over and over (even if the circumstances are very different). Persecution occurs as an acute experience of separation, rejection and punishment that creates fear and retraction knots and blocks within us, particularly related to sharing our soul gifts and outed expression of our truth/boundaries in relationships.

The persecution wounds of currently awakening souls are being activated for seeing, healing, and clearing. At first consideration, this can feel daunting, but as we bridge to these wounds we find incredible gifts in the process. As we connect to the part of us who acts as our soul’s Gatekeeper, they can open up access to the lifetimes/timelines and the soul aspects that are suffering due to these experiences. As this access occurs in an ongoing and intimate way, we are able to digest the fear and trauma that leads to suffering patterns in relationships, soul gift expressions, physical body illness/chronic pain, energy blocks, and more. As our relationship with the Divine deepens, a bridge of love to these wounded experiences occurs with more trust, balance, and creative expression.

​In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, September 11 at 5:00/17:00pm WEST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and I will offer an activation to connect with the persecution wound within your soul. We will share about our most current personal processes as individuals and as a sacred union pairbond related to the persecution wound, how we have experienced it together and as individuals. We will also share about how our SoulFullHeart process can serve to allow for more integration, digestion, and release of the persecution wounds.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to connect with your Gatekeeper, the soul aspect that knows and is connected to all your lifetime incarnations. Your Gatekeeper will then bridge to whatever persecution wound experience is ready to come through. We will offer a lot of love and bridging to the soul aspect/part of you that we will also tune into as a group to receive codes to assist humanity’s ongoing awakening process and healing of persecution wounds collectively.

Divine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher-vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of anchoring spirit into our physical bodies.

We recommend engaging in this guided meditation video to meet your Gatekeeper prior to the call: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email and what you are purchasing in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

More info at soulfullheart.org/events and soon on FB.

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into these energies!

Love,

Raphael and Jelelle

Pic is of Raphael and I standing in front of the church at Fatima…you can see the Cathar soul aspects coming through in it!

Custom-Made Spirit Animal Transmission Portraits by Kasha

Animal guides offer us so much support in our lives here on Gaia. They feel like Star Family as well as Soul Family. So often it seems to be the case with our ‘pets’ and personal animal companions that they have a deep soul connection with us from many lifetimes and aren’t with us by accident or even coincidence. Our animal companions are just as essential to our lives and our expression of service of love, as anything else we hold as important for they offer us so many reminders of unconditional Divine love, remind us how to show up for and care for something outside of ourselves, and can help us open out our soul gifts as well.

An essential aspect of our Ascension and reunion process with the Divine within and without is our connection to our Gaian animal beloveds. They represent and remind us of so much within our hearts and souls and it’s never random which animal it is that we feel most drawn to, whether it’s physically or energetically. They all give us so many gifts and messages to draw from and they also offer portals into our essence and our soul’s lifetimes too!

I began making Spirit Animal Transmission Portraits as a way to offer a portal of connection to the animal companion(s) that reflect and offer something to you at this time. I create high-resolution images that can be used virtually or printed and framed/mounted. I can create your image with any dimension you prefer and we can talk openly about all the details as well as anything you’d like changed or altered once it’s been created.

I ask for an exchange of at least €20 as a donation in exchange for your portrait, yet I’m open to receiving any amount you feel is accessible to you and is a reflection of what you feel it’s worth to you personally. I create these as a way to serve love besides the 1:1 sessions I do with women, and they are a way for me to keep transitioning from my online English teaching job and into more full-time soul purpose-based work, so your generosity will be met in kind and with a heart full of deep gratitude!

I can create a portrait for you of your spirit animal(s) or any pets you’ve had that you’d like to honour as well!

Email me if you’re interested at kasharokshana@gmail.com and we can talk some more about details as well as how you can offer your donation to receive one.

Looking forward to creating one (or several) for you or as a gift for someone special!

Love,
Kasha

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

All Seven Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (All In One Compilation Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

All Seven Chakras: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

Per request, this video is a compilation of all eight videos that I recorded in my daily Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing series last week. The 1hr 20 minute video includes a sound transmission from a 432HZ tuned bowl with a specific resonant note playing that corresponds to each chakra: the root chakra, sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, and crown.

I also offer a meditation to tune you into each chakra along with affirmations/recoding for each one. You can read about each individual chakra through the descriptions of each video on my FB feed or in the playlist at: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

In the final part of the video, we tune into all of your chakras as I’m playing all the sound bowls that activates/clears/opens all of your chakras. I particularly focused on playing the Root Chakra (E note) and Heart Chakra (F note) as the grounding into our heart space is the base from which we can most effectively open out all others.

This video would be great to play as you are falling asleep as well, just letting the codes come through as you drift into theta/delta states.

I’m grateful for the Divine inspiration that guided me to offer this series and for the inspirations that come in the future that serve love within me and with you as we embody our I AM on all levels.

More sound and voice healing transmissions to come, esp now that I have my handpan!

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate

Unbroken You: A Divine Love Transmission

by Kasha Rokshana

The shaken-up ground 

Hasn’t broken you.

It was never meant to sever you

From the heart of the Divine

And nor could anything ever do so.

The uncertainty and unknowns

Are there FOR you,

To enliven you again,

To breathe life into the embers

Of your heart’s fervent passions

Hidden below what has now become flattened

Out of fear of losing

And never finding or drawing

What it is you truly want.

Your soul is quaking with truth

While judgements of right and wrong

Are on your tongue

Having held your mind’s way 

Of filtering life’s experiences

And experiences of love too,

Preventing an openness 

That could lead to more heartbreak.

Your heart flutters with a knowing

Of what’s possible

Even when the Divine extends a hand

And asks you to trust

As you take that next leap 

beyond the known

And out of what has been for so long.

Every sacred ending is temporary.

Every blessed beginning is extraordinary.

And each are celebrations of who you were,

Who you are now,

And who you’re about to become

In the eyes and heart of the Divine

Who mourns with you,

Let’s go with you,

Breathes in and out with you

Walks with you,

Holds you,

In all of your many waves of life,

Death,

And letting in more love

Than you ever could have before…

You are finding your way into

And through

All of your quaking, shaking

Fear, longing,

And opening UP to what’s real

Along with what’s really possible,

As you reach the destination of your soul

Through the feeling textures of your heart

And reunite with resonance

And declarations of being seen, heard, and oh, so felt

Loved

And cared for…

Starting, 

And moving deeper, always, 

Within.

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Root To Crown Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Root To Crown Opening: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

As I share this final video in the series, I can feel how I have been changed by it, by showing up each day to journey into the Divine retuning/recoding of these precious energy centers. I’ve been connecting to and working with the chakras for many years now, yet I feel like they arose anew for me by feeling them/seeing them as the Divine does. So much love for both the capacity that they can express and also for the densities/blocks/plugs they may still contain!

I can feel how you may be drawn to one particular video and chakra for a time….and then moving organically onto another depending on what phase you are going through. Or perhaps listening to all of them at once, which we will offer a video soon for that.

I’m grateful for the Divine inspiration that guided me to offer this series and for the inspirations that come in the future that serve love within me and with you as we embody our I AM on all levels.

Description:

In this final video in my chakra meditation and sound healing series, we tune into all of your chakras as I’m playing my 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowls that activates/clears/opens all of your chakras. I particularly focused on playing the Root Chakra (E note) and Heart Chakra (F note) as the grounding into our heart space is the base from which we can most effectively open out all others.

The meditation that comes through me invites you to open up to each chakra and feel the blending of them as well, along with some light language coding. As you move into embodiment of your sacred humanity. Of your Divine essence. Of your Infinite Love essence.

Thank you for being and joining me on this journey. You are SO loved.

This is the eighth and final video in a series that I’ve been offering over the last week, tuning into each chakra while playing my sound bowl that activates them, channeling whatever messages come through from Divine Mother/Father through my human heart to yours.

I’ve been sharing this chakra series on FB, IG, and our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel. I’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series.

You can watch the entire series in a playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate

Root Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Root Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

Our Root Chakra at the base of our spine offers a deep connected feeling to Gaia, a sense of being grounded and totally secure. Parts of you can feel chaotic, tense, insecure, and anxious when your root chakra is blocked. The anxiety stems from a lack of trust that life is secure and all your basic survival needs will be answered, usually coming from an experience of not being cared for and connected to in childhood. This can also be existential, where your spirit and soul energy are struggling to fully come into and trust expressing through your body, resisting incarnation in some way.

In this video, I’m playing my 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowl that activates/clears/opens your Root chakra (C Note). The meditation that comes through me invites you to chord into the center of Gaia and feel ALL of your basic, survival needs being met by and with Her. And, to feel your spirit/soul in your body with peace, ease, and acceptance…trust in this incarnation in the Earth Plane Phase is held with Divine love.

And we recode together, we affirm together:

I am grounded. I am secure and connected.

This is the seventh video in a series that I am offering for the next week tuning into each chakra while playing my sound bowl that activates them, channeling whatever messages come through from Divine Mother/Father through my human heart to yours. Tomorrow I’ll be blending all of the bowls for a full chakra healing experience.

I’ve been sharing this chakra series on FB, IG, and our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel. I’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series.

You can watch the entire series in a playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate

Solar Plexus Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Solar Plexus Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

Our Solar Plexus Chakra located at our navel is the seat of our sense of personal power where healthy self confidence, empowerment, and action combined with soul guidance can be accessed. Unhealed and undigested unworthiness, shame and fear from this life and other lifetimes can block and suppressed, clog up, your Solar Plexus Chakra. This can lead to feeling sluggish, lacking energy and inability to focus.

In this video, I’m playing my 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowl that activates/clears/opens your solar plexus chakra (E Note). The meditation that comes through me invites you to open your solar plexus chakra to feel the fire in your belly, to feel humble self worth, to feel confident in expressing yourself, to set boundaries if needed. To connect and bring healing love to the inner Punisher/Shame cycle and looping that is going on within.

And we recode together, we affirm together:

I am aligned with my purpose. I am connected to my power.

This is the sixth video in a series that I am offering for the next week tuning into each chakra while playing my sound bowl that activates them, channeling whatever messages come through from Divine Mother/Father through my human heart to yours.

I’ll be sharing on FB, IG, and our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel. I’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series.

You can watch all the videos in the chakra series here on FB or here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate