Healing To Access Love Flow

Letting Love in is to let Love flow. To let Love flow is to open up to all possibility, to our vulnerability. I felt myself a bit constricted this morning after being in so much goodness. It is an interesting mechanism to keep feeling.

As I bring my awareness to the part of me that is still needing to govern the flow of Love, I feel compassion and to say ‘I Love You’ even in the constriction. In that, they loosen. My masculine and feminine. They see each other anew. Not in conflict, but in union to open the curtains more to let in and let out the flow of Divine Love that is inherent in us all. Universal and Eternal.

Feeling leads to alchemical healing. Healing opens the gates to more Love, more Truth, more Joy, more Passion, more Intimacy. The Infinite at our doorstep.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Karma As Love Discovering Itself

By Raphael Awen

When we hear about karma, we hear it through our collective conditioning and it lands in us as something akin to punishment, or the universe paying you back with like for like, to teach you a lesson, with a big finger wagging thrown in.

What if what we call karma is actually about your soul’s choice to work certain themes of realization and discovery, and thus the theme is recapitulating itself in your current timeline, wanting to bring you goodness rather than any kind of loss?

The Sanskrit origin of the word is ‘action, work, deed and fate’ telling us something about how our actions, work, and deeds are powerful creators that generate a ‘fate’ – a ‘thing spoken by the gods’. Here, the ‘god’ is you and I, and the arena of manifestation is our lives.

Our Higher Self doesn’t see difficulty in the same way we do, as only something to be avoided or overcome, but sees it as a motivator for us to realize in real time the reality of love. The divine itself needed to participate in something less than love, so it created duality as a way to discover itself, and the divine does that through you and I. Our mistakes are grand experiments of learning and feeling what the divine couldn’t feel and appreciate in the way it wanted to. Our realizations are dramatizations of love that love needed to discover itself.

When you feel that appreciation, you feel the whole point of the karma, which is all about more, not less, about gratitude, not entitlement, about love, not fear.

Jelelle Awen and I will be exploring this subject of Karma on Wednesday’s (June 16th) group call where we’ll look at the even bigger picture of your Metasoul along with your Gatekeeper and how karmic patterns can be felt and healed in a quantum way, affecting all of your timelines, including your life as currently know it.

Please join us if this calls to you. Details at soulfullheart.org/events.

Much love,
Raphael
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Letting In And Letting Go To Experience ‘Abundance’

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in what IS, the dreams that ARE coming true, the love that IS flowing now while feeling grateful for all of it; feeling desires for what could be but perhaps isn’t present in your life yet, without attachment to having or keeping; letting go of what doesn’t resonate to make room for what does, without compromise, even as there are practical and grounded choices to make too…

Dancing with abundance is so multi-layered, that the process of feeling your parts’ reactions and responses to it, is abundant in itself! It’s a letting in of dreams and desires, while feeling what still needs to clear inside of you and in your life to make room for that to come to fruition. It’s also a process of feeling yourself and your life, where you are and who you are right NOW… really seeing yourself and all that you’ve earned, worked hard for, manifested, and drawn into your life in a positive way with much gratitude, even though there are ongoing and sometimes growing needs and dreams to fulfill.

When I feel my life as it is now, I feel the abundance I’ve drawn, but what gets challenging is feeling the parts of me and Metasoul aspects who are still a bit restless. When I feel into this some more, I can see us all standing on the bridge between ‘abundance’ and ‘scarcity’, where I feel we’ve mostly been hanging out for a few years now. We now cross the bridge into ‘abundance’ more often than ever before, but the scarcity consciousness surfaces in these parts and aspects from time to time.

Old fears, old pain, old ways of seeing and being in the world come up again to be felt. I can feel now when it’s something ‘old’ and I don’t feel judgement of that, only curiosity about who it is inside of me that is carrying that energy still, and how I can help them live more in the present. My parts, I’ve realized, are integrating more these days and when they aren’t integrated, they aren’t always in ‘pain’, just needing a check-in like a dear friend who is bothered by something perhaps or just wants some love exchanged with them. All of this needs to be felt and acknowledged though so that it continues to heal. And as it continues to heal, it makes room for the experiences we all DO want that are truly new and truly abundant.

‘Abundance’ is less and less about material wealth or money, though this comes up for me as well at times. Yet, in these shifting times we’re in, ‘money’ as we’ve known it may be in its final death blows. This leaves us all with a need to feel what’s been underneath our attachment to it and how to receive/use it ‘wisely’ or ‘responsibly’. You could say this about anything you receive though, couldn’t you? Love is held as another important currency that 3D teaches us ‘to spend wisely/responsibly’ when it conditions us on how to ‘get and keep love’ and all the ways in which it tells us what we do and do not deserve to have in relationships of any kind or within ourselves, even.

When I see the ‘abundance’ in my life now… I see the love I get to have within me and exchange with others. I see how it’s been such a deep process for me over many years now of feeling where love does and doesn’t flow within me and that then informs the flow of love that I am able to experience/let in on the outside. Abundance really does start inside, just as anything you want to draw into your life… and, as always, it’s about fully having/receiving what is available to us now, even though there are genuine aches to experience or have more too.

I, for one, would love to have, experience, be IN the abundance of Sacred Union and everything that flows in every area of my life when I am in one. Yet, for now, I’m invited to feel the robust and ever-growing INNER Sacred Union, the dance that there is within me between my own Inner Masculine and Feminine. It’s yet another flow that has to start from within… and will eventually be drawn on the outside too.

Whatever your current ‘currency’ is in your life now in your life circumstances as they are, spend/receive/let go/let in with love all that IS now and all that WILL BE as you continue your own process into everything ‘abundance’ truly and deeply means to you… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Deeper Intimacy With Self Through The Explorations With Money

By Deya Shekinah

Wow, what a topic money is. I feel so many layers and parts wrapped into the explorations with money. One of the things that Jelelle Awen offered in the SoulFullHeart Free To Be Two group call about money this week, was how some can relate to money as a false god. This landed straight away as what I experienced within my family, how earning money gave meaning to life and felt like the only meaning to life as there was no spirituality or religion in my upbringing. I feel how my Inner Masculine, David, took this on and how my Inner Child, Yazzy, was stifled by this. Since she was always so multi dimensional, she didn’t believe this to be true, but as there was no one bringing any other meaning, she became capped by that.

I remembered a time when a male family member said to me that ‘money is the only thing that matters in the world’. At the time, I was blown away that anyone could believe that. As I feel it now, I feel so much density in that picture of our world, the lack of joy or spaciousness in it. As I feel David, I sense this energy within him as the conditioning he received from birth family members. 

Right now I am in a transition into a new way of being and earning money, that is bringing light to David’s relationship to money.  I hold and feel a lot of trust around money after years of transitioning and exploring money. This transition has grown into a deeper awareness and understanding of a greater meaning of life, as well as what abundance looks and feels like to me. 

I have learnt that abundance is many things. Not only money, but time, connection, vulnerability with others, space to BE. These all feel like abundance to me. I am coming to know and feel that my inner feeling of abundance is what draws abundance on the outside including financial abundance, even as that is still growing. For David, I feel him seeing this abundance coming in and seeing money coming in for offering my Soul Gifts, but he still does not FEEL abundant.

The group call has helped me feel this with him, his reality more of distrust and lack that he has been in and learnt throughout this 3D experience, sure that has been the 3D experience. One of the core beliefs I feel held in David is, ‘there is never enough money’., I see how much this creates that reality for us because he is so focused on ‘there is never enough’. He cannot appreciate or acknowledge it as it is coming in. I feel how it is the ability to be grateful for what IS, in the moment, that draws more of that thing to you, which of course is a journey, not something you can create through bypassing feeling the lack of gratitude. 

I feel how this lack of money belief is actually a cover up for lack of love, connection, communication and boundaries, it feels like. Money becomes this huge focal point when there is no other meaning to life. Money has become this huge elephant in the room, where we think about it, worry about it, are anxious about it, but we do not really honestly talk about it, at least in my experience and in this culture of my current geography. The shame, the guilt, the resentment around money is of course going to make it heavy and joyless. This feels like it creates blocks to, and a push/pull within us and our relationship to money, as well as abundance in general. 

I feel the lack of joy the Inner Masculine can hold around life in general, which then seeps into his relationship with/to everything else in life. I feel David feeling joyless, I feel him longing to experience joy as my other parts do, his sadness that he cannot seem to meet them there. Yet I feel how no one has ever asked him what he likes, what the meaning of his life is, and how he has been disempowered throughout this 3D experience too.

So now there is this new ground to walk out with him, where he is included and wanted, where he gets to feel and heal too because he is valued by me through this process. So this is where talking about money leads us, perhaps not straight away to more money, although I feel that coming in but to deeper connection, understanding and intimacy with our parts, and with each other eventually too.

You can purchase the recording of this Free To Be Two group call about money and attendance at/recordings of future group calls in this series by offering a donation of any amount. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

Love,

Deya & David

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Becoming Conscious To Our Relationship To Money As Love

The first topic in our upcoming SoulFullHeart Free To Be series (beginning tomorrow) is about money and soul purpose work. It feels like an important piece to feel through, especially during these very volatile times. 

There are so many facets to money and our relationship to it, like a multi-headed hydra. It is called a ‘necessary evil’. It is said to be the ‘root of all evil’. There is no doubt money itself has a big impact on our lives. It is the 3D currency of exchange…for now. A big topic right now is that of a UBI, or Universal Basic Income, as well as a Global Currency Reset. These things are certainly making their way through consciousness, yet they are not here in the physical quite yet. 

Instead of going into the minutiae of these specific ideas and plans, I wish to turn the spotlight inward. What is your current relationship to money? Let’s take the paper and digits out of the equation and focus on the energy and feeling. 

Money represents basic survival in its lowest common denominator. This could be held by our more 3D parts such as the inner mother/father, Inner Protector, or even the Inner Teenager if they had to be self-sufficient at an early age. All of these parts have their own concerns and needs that tend to go to a very existential place. Meeting them there helps to get to a bedrock of existence that has been projected onto money itself. 

Energetically, with that fear in our field, the ebb and flow of money itself will morph to that narrative and belief system. It will make the case for this part of you that it is scarce and difficult to attain. If you dig deeper, you may find that what these parts of you are really after is to feel loved. For what we really want is more than just to survive. It is to feel alive and it is Love that provides that, not money ultimately. 

This may be compounded by many Metasoul lifetimes that are currently living in scarcity, poverty, and/or squalor. Meeting these aspects and bringing them into a higher love frequency, held by You and your Higher Self, can help the flood of these energies into your Now. 

One way to get to some bedrock places around your relationship to money is by completing a simple sentence frame in as many different ways that come to you. They may seem varied because each part of us holds a different relationship to it. You can parse that out later but for now just write.

Money always….

Money never….

Now those are very polarized sentences but it is on purpose. It is meant to draw that out if it lives inside of you. An exercise like this really helps to separate You from your Reaction. The Reaction is a fused state of consciousness. It is really unconscious. As you take a step back you begin to actually become more conscious of it. THIS is where your power is. Not so much how you can earn more or get more but how you relate to it that really gets the wheels of manifestation greased. An interesting thing to do when you are done is to replace the word ‘money’ with ‘Love’ and see what happens. 

Love and money are strange bedfellows. They seem like they live in different universes let alone galaxies. The thing is everything lives within the domain of Love. Money, sex, violence, joy, bliss, scarcity, abundance, and, yes, evil. The quest is, can we start to unravel the story that parts of us have fused to around money and truly feel we live in Providence…the state of being provided for by The Divine. If we find ourselves gripping on money, we need to feel the part of us that does not believe that Providence exists. 

This is my journey as well. It is ongoing. I want to go on it with you. If you feel this push-pull around money and living in a world of purpose, joy, and providence then please join us on the call tomorrow. It aims to shed light on this very human story.

You can join us live for this call and/or receive the recordings if you can’t make it live by offering ANY donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. You will also then be able to attend and/or receive the recordings of the next FIVE group calls in the series! The content is laid out here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming The Peaks And Valleys Of Awakening

by Raphael Awen

You can have what you want. That’s not actually the question.

The bigger question is about being ready to have what you want.

A part of you may readily say ‘oh, believe me, I’m ready! I’m so ready, I’m getting both depressed and impatient waiting to have what I really want.’

But this is only taking into consideration one part of you. Other parts of you can be just off your radar and actively resisting you (or what we call ‘you’) as they are not interested at all in these big changes ‘you’ feel you are so ready for. This resistive part of you is not something you can control, but it is something that you are responsible for, and something that you need to become responsive to.

Then, there is also another aspect of you, that is probably also just off your radar and that is your higher self. Your higher self may have chosen a preferred path of difficulty and going without something that another part of you deeply desires in order to learn and grow through a difficulty. It wouldn’t actually be a growth crucible without this tension between what ‘you’ want and don’t want. Your higher self is also something you cannot control, but it is something you are responsible for and that you also need to become more responsive to.

You are not a victim. Your life as you know it now is shaped by you, and the life you will come to know in the future is also shaped by you.

Your life as it is right now, warts and all, is perfect in the midst of imperfection. You are perfect while growing and learning. All the angst, pain and confusion is sacred. You had so much heaven that you needed to dial up hell in order to grow. Your soul loved the heaven it knew, but it also wanted more, and it knew the path to more was though the tension of less.

Consciously letting go of reaching for peak experiences and instead welcoming your awaiting valley experiences is what your soul may be asking of you. You may have very much needed your awakening experiences that happened through the peak experiences to let you know what is possible and what awaits you. But now, your soul wants you to let go of what a part of you may be be in danger of becoming quite addicted to, in order now to more consciously connect to what you actually came here for.

Whether conscious or not, you can’t escape growth. Growth is built into the DNA of the universe that you are a part of. While you can’t escape growth, you can accept your awakening to what is, and even the need to mourn the loss of your deep night’s rest in the 3D fusion of unconsciousness.

Now, as you are awakening, you are offered a conscious choice that your path up, is a path down. The downward path is a matter of feeling all there is to feel that you were not able to feel while asleep in 3D consciousness.

This will involve feeling crappy on a regular basis for a good amount of time. If this isn’t an option for ‘you’, then you are not yet ready for this deeper more conscious path of healing, but you can be assured, all of us will be invited and re-invited to return here just as soon and we are ready to. It is what we came here for. We came here to ascend with all of us, without any ‘lesser’ parts of us left behind being punished for any insubordination, or for just not getting the program.

Time now to look at what we’ve called ‘spiritual practices’ to feel where they are actually about transcending in the name of ascending, where they are about not feeling, rather than true healing.

We all come eventually to having what we most deeply want, with the fullest and deepest bliss that we can’t quite imagine. We are living our way to being able to imagine it as we feel and heal the parts of us still in deep pain that were covered over with our positive spirituality agendas.

Time now for a negative spirituality agenda that sees it all as sacred.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Living Below Your Birthright

By Raphael Awen

Working for anything that is yours by birthright is a form of resistance to that thing, allowing a part of you to hide its resistance while appearing like it actually wants the pursued thing, usually to maintain social acceptance.

‘Working for a living’ for instance is one of the biggest examples of this and misnomers out there. Living doesn’t occur by virtue of working. Living occurs by virtue of your essence, by virtue of your being.

Your being receives life and gives back to life in a natural economy of gift exchange. If you shortchange life in this natural exchange, that is, giving something less than your best, your true gifts, what you came here to give, and settle for a ‘job that pays the bills’ instead, you can be sure that life will respond to you in kind with a reflection of your ingratitude for what you are given. This is not any kind of punishment from an angry God or angry universe, but simply an invitation into an awareness of what your own alchemy is producing. An invitation in your innate more which you already possess.

You already are a powerful alchemy that is producing exactly as it was designed to, even if you are, like me, still consciously wanting to change or alter this alchemy.

Already encoded into you is every last provision you will ever need to fulfill every last detail of what you came here to do. If you are experiencing a drama of lack moving through your story at the moment, this too, is a provision of an invitation into an initiation of this more that you already are. This is a big opportunity to feel and heal parts of you still encoded in lack, while being submerged in a super-abundant free-energy universe, inside of an even greater multiverse.

While there is nothing to work for, in this way of earning or qualifying for anything, there is however, your necessary reach for what you want and desire, as the universe cannot successfully provide anything you aren’t willing to want or choose. The circuitry cannot complete without your desire, choice, intention, and your action.

So what feels like the need to work as in earning something, is actually more about the necessary effort involved in claiming your essence. It will take ‘work’ for instance to slowly get to know and love the part of you conditioned and convinced to a ‘working for a living’ reality, to let in this new reality, but this is a self loving kind of work that is pure joy and creative play to be with. The opposite of drudgery. A gift that keeps on giving.

We all have a lot to learn in entering this new reality, but it feels so exciting to lean into it more and more. I’ll take me a big chunk of that for 2020!

You are the light of the world, even in your darkness, a city set on a hill that cannot be hidden. The universe aches for your arising.

Raphael Awen
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Photo by me taken at our favorite park close by!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

The Mutual Entanglement Of Victim And Perpetrator: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

Today’s Live: ‘The Mutual Entanglement Of Victim And Perpetrator’

In this video, I explore how we can embrace real forgiveness without paving over the part of us that does feel victimized and traumatized.

Here is the full Alive Series Playlist: https://tinyurl.com/uaghll3

Info about the free Intro call to sessions with myself: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Become a one-time or monthly donor and patron to support SoulFullHeart and our expression through videos, writings, and more! https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Tidings Of Comfort And Joy: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

💚 Tidings Of Comfort And Joy 💚

In today’s live, I share how each one of us are the promised Christ Child.

Can you feel how the Christmas Carols are actually about you?

Thank you for attending this little Christmas Party 🎄

Here is the full Alive Series Playlist: https://tinyurl.com/uaghll3

Info about the free Intro call to sessions with myself: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Become a one-time or monthly donor and patron to support SoulFullHeart and our expression through videos, writings, and more! https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Seven Ways To Digest 2019 And Prepare For 2020: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

Seven Ways To Digest 2019 And Prepare For 2020

In this video, I offer a way to digest the past year and decade as well as a way to prepare for the year and decade to come by looking at your life through seven lenses of the key areas of life. Those areas are Emotional, Spiritual, Physical, Mental, Social, Financial, and Environmental.

Here is the full Alive Series Playlist: https://tinyurl.com/uaghll3

Info about the free Intro call to sessions with myself: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Become a one-time or monthly donor and patron to support SoulFullHeart and our expression through videos, writings, and more! https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂