The Sacred Choices Before You Now.

By  Raphael Awen

Part of me is feeling glad and excited for the meltdown of life as we’ve known it playing out every day now.

Something in my heart and soul told me something was way off decades ago when I felt pushed reluctantly into adult life. The adults were sweeping shit under the rug on every hand like there was no tomorrow way back then. I tried at times to participate, but felt repeatedly called to something different, as well as just plain shit at participating or succeeding in the shitshow.

This has been one big anticipated meltdown, for such a long time. As a young man, I recall the verses from the book of Revelation about ’no man being able to buy or sell without the mark of the beast in their foreheads or wrist, with the added injunction of ‘let him who has wisdom count the number of the beast, which is 666’.

Eventually, I came to find that my beloved Christianity, that helped me awaken in many ways, was just about as in the ditch and co-opted as anything else.

‘They’ have been wanting to get this show on the road for a long time and now it is truly showtime. The acts are lined up, it’s all or nothing. There is no turning back. We are in a birth canal.

It’s not the only show however on the stage. Great darkness is always contrasted with great light while we are in this phase of contrast. Love is actually funding both sides of this apparent war between good and evil, with a grand agenda at hand.

The agenda is you and I, and everyone around us waking up to more of what we are. There isn’t actually and ultimately a ‘they’ and an ‘us’. Even the sleepwalkers and zombies surrendering to the altering of their DNA in a kind of Stockholm Syndrome response of welcoming and helping their oppressors are all part of this great staging, and are a part of love’s unfolding story.

You can however choose what polarity you’d like to be a part of and cheer on, from wherever you find yourself now, but you can’t actually separate yourself from the other side. There’s only one container, and there’s no compartments or sides.

I’d actually be quite scared right now as events reach fever pitch if I believed that good was raging a do or die battle against evil, where everything good could be lost forever. Love hasn’t actually won or lost. It never entered the battle. It only staged the battle for its own expansion of itself into the infinite awareness and abundance that it is.

It can’t stop itself. It wants more and won’t stop at anything to have this more, not at the expense of anyone or anything, but only at the aggrandizement of itself, to itself, of the ALL of which you and I ARE.

That’s the bigger picture, and It breeds a ton of relief in me. I feel sorry for those posted out on the edges of darkness or the light who believe that life and love are actually at stake. Coming to this realization is where our unity and our forgiveness can come into play. Love is willing to pick up the tab for it all.

But the shitshow is ramping up now every day, and parts of you are forced to make choices. Expecting life to remain the same might be the most debilitating influence upon your wellbeing.

You have sacred and very grounded choices to make that your soul knows well what they are. You don’t need my prescription or anyone else’s, whether you should do this or that. You know. You’ve always known.

It’s time to let go of following others’ prescriptions, unless you are part of the show that’s staging that necessary part of the contrast. You can prescribe your own medicine.

The vaxxed are fast becoming the vexed, realizing the lies they were fed and subjected to, as they come to terms with what is being proven to be lifelong alterations to their well-being. We’ve been vaxxed with so many things and realities for so long, long before the vax at hand. All of those games were necessary to precede the plot the plotters have prepared for this hour.

How much interference do you need to choose your own power? How much playing by others rules do you need to make up your own game? If you’re going to create your own game, what would you want it to be about? How much do you need to lose to take up the sacred power of your own choice, the one thing that no oppressor anywhere can take from you?

Your soul chose to be alive here in this dimension for this culmination of the times. There’s nothing more powerful than you choosing you, your truth, your prescriptions, your yes and your no. It will cost you dearly, but it will pay you back a hundredfold and more.

If there’s anything else out there that feels more appealing for you, then that’s for your soul to play out, for some good reason, and love will hold all of that too, regardless of how much I might cringe to see you walk that out. You don’t answer to me or anyone else. You answer to you.

The green light before you will lead to the next one. The red lights will also be a part of the guidance. You get to choose how proximal you want to be and for what reasons. You don’t have to convince anyone of anything either if that feels like a trap, or simply not your definition of fun. Every soul knows and is playing out their sacred script.

Everything is changing. Love has birthed all of this. It’s unstoppable. The bigger catastrophe was you and I being expelled from the Eden of the divine bliss oneness bliss that we were (and actually still are in individuated form). The ‘catastrophe’ at hand is the coming back together of what has been separated.

The darkness is willing to be passionate it, willing to look maniacal and even plain stupid in their participation. How willing are you to fly your own colors for this coming together?

I doubt there will ever be a drama this big on this planet after this one. This changes everything. It may even get a bit boring. If you want a piece of this action, then choose it, however that looks for you!

Much love to you as you walk out your sacred and profound part of this grand story.

Raphael Awen.

The pic above is from yesterday here in where we’ve been guided to, in Portugal, as part of where we are meant to be and want to be to ride out the birth canal we are all in and share.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Divine Mother’s Guidance On Being

By  Raphael Awen

Are you able to feel good about yourself before and without doing anything to feel good about yourself?

That’s the question a part of me is entertaining today.

It has always felt good to this part of me to be achieving something, moving some kind of index forward. There’s been a bunch of layers of indexes upon indexes that I’ve used in my life, a whole dashboard of levers and dials to monitor, control, respond, and ultimately, receive a reward from.

At one time, it was things like home improvement or business building. More recently, it has been more spiritually and emotionally oriented to something akin to a higher level of personal improvement, attaining a higher level of consciousness. I can see and feel however, where I’ve been still beholden to the old orientation of feeling good about myself because I did something positive.

‘It’s all still doing and achieving’ this part of me says!

Learning how to be centered, in joy, grateful, or whatever other prescription one can come up with is still a prescription, a means to improve one’s condition or fate, and thus feel better about oneself.

Problem is though, now, that efforting in order to feel better about myself is fast losing its appeal and natural seeming effortless energy, and has been for some time. It used to work quite well. It appeared it would hold me for life. It doesn’t anymore. To this part of me, it has felt like a slow and ongoing death. Now, however, it’s beginning to look and feel much more appealing.

What could an alternative look like? And how would I relate to that alternative without trying to ‘apply’ it, as another more sophisticated kind of personal improvement that promises me something, leaving me squarely in this same old predictable, safe and shrinking territory?

What would moving from a life of expectation and knowing to a life of the unexpected and living in the unknown look and feel like?

As this part of me asked Divine Mother this morning more about this ongoing dilemma, the response came back.

‘Doing and achieving was a way that you could justify receiving love in the past. It was all love, but you just couldn’t accept it without giving something in exchange to feel worthy of it. You received the love in the form of some improvement and that always felt good.

‘There was nothing wrong with that, it’s just the phase you needed to go through, complete in order to be ready to enter this next phase.

‘Life is always improving you could say, but it ‘does’ this effortlessly by allowing both death and rebirth. Life allows inbreath and outbreath, increase and decrease.

‘What is before you now is the opportunity to simply let in the love without equating it to any deserving of it, or to any earning of it. It is a graduation that you can’t graduate with, or measure, or set a timer to. It simply is because you are.

‘Receiving this love is akin to feeling worshipped. Feeling yourself receiving divine love and grace, flowing to and through your being because that is who and what you are, in your deepest essence of being. Worthy. Not because you did anything, or demonstrated anything worthy. Not an exchange. Not a transaction.

‘Your sexual fantasies have often had this dream at root of them, being worshipped in this way, where an other can convey onto you sheer joy and pleasure simply because of love and life. In this you can recognize your wiring for this kind of experience.

‘Life and love wants to dance with you, play with you, focus on you, share with you, draw you into pleasure, into its more. This is the new phase before you.

‘The old lays dying all around you. The new arises right in the midst of it all. Allow it to greet you and usher you into the life you’ve always dreamed of, and into who you always were, are and will be.

Much love,

Raphael Awen

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The pic above are part of the the view from the campsite where Jelelle and I seem to settling into for the summer, living into adventure and unknown and new things to learn and feel, along with old layers to shed as well. Our beloveds arrive later this week and next! Gabriel Amara Kasha Rokshana Bianca Gieber

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Time For Sorrow And A Time For Joy

By  Raphael Awen

A time for sorrow and a time for joy. Collectively, it feels very much like we are entering a dark night of sorrow and loss of life.

As we mourn the loss of life that we are now being faced with on an unprecedented scale from the experimental jab designed to reduce population, and come through the necessary reactions of fear and anger and waking up, we come to a threshold of sorrow and mourning.

Beautiful beings of all ages, on all continents, of all genders, full of life force are dying. Many are being permanently injured. The jabbed and the un-jabbed are being faced with affronts to their immune systems on a scale that can’t be known or measured.This means that life as we’ve known it is all up for profound reconsideration. 

Like the patient who receives a prognosis of a very short lifespan, what made sense yesterday, doesn’t make any sense now.

At first for many of us, the rumbles will be disbelief. The comfort of our familiar life and the threat of change will be like the people sailing on the Titanic. Who wants to get in a cold lifeboat at the direction of some fear monger when the ship still looks and feels so much better, and so indestructible and has the guarantee of so many experts.

Personally, having landed in Portugal this past week, having threaded a needle, arriving here without a demand to quarantine or a test, I feel my heart breathing into this grief. Reading about the injuries and deaths and the expectation of a huge rising tide of more of the same feels staggering as I ask for guidance about the set of my sails now. What matters now? What does service look and feel like now? What does a fear based self preservation response look like that seeks to minimize personal loss look like?

All of us strangely are being asked to give up aspects of life as we’ve known it, and be participants in this death. The refusal to let something die will only speed up its demise.

New life is coming and it comes through death. Mourning is what allows the reconciliation to be expedited in you and those around you.

(The picture above is taken this week from sitting on the banks of the Minho River that forms the border with Spain here in Northern Portugal. The opposite bank is Spain. The setting made for a really good place to feel what’s asking to be felt now.)

Much Love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are Your Own Sovereign

By  Raphael Awen

You are your own sovereign.

There’s no one above you. Your power is yours by right of being. It cannot be taken away. It cannot be transferred to another by force or by gift.

But there’s also no one below you. You don’t have power ‘over’ any-one or any-thing. All the ones and things around you are equally sovereign, by right of their being.

So what’s the value in sovereignty then, if I can’t feel powerful, and command or demand over something?

The value is found in the shared experience. We are all equal sovereigns, lords of our own kingdoms and queendoms. The only company that we could ever truly enjoy is with our own kind – Kings and Queens.

Only those who possess this kind of sovereignty can experience true surrender. True surrender is an even deeper sharing in this profound kind of knowing that my power is mine, and only I can lay it down and pick it up at will, when and as I choose.

Surrender is a most powerful expression of our power.

True surrender is not the same thing at all as what we’ve called ‘giving away your power’. Your ownership of your power cannot be signed over to another. It can only be denied or disowned by you as long as you are unaware of your power.

But you are re-membering now. The dis-membering that preceded this remembrance was all about a full circle learning curve to come to terms with the infinite power you hold, and always did.

How does this remembrance that’s happening now want to express in your life as you know it right now?

What choices are before you asking for your most honest truth? Who and what in your life needs to be informed of that truth? What manner will you assume as you share that truth that isn’t about the old grounds of power or dominance over others, making them feel small and controlled?

Now, you are in true humble worthiness surrender territory. You’ve surrendered your choices and truth declaration to the world around you, and you’re ready to accept their truth declaration and choices in return, that may well be to your loss, the loss of something you’ve worked hard up till now to not lose.

They may not want to or be ready to take the journey you are taking. Their time and manner of remembrance may not be in sync with yours. You are choosing to let go a kind of false power over them of pretending to be in resonance with them when in fact, the ground underneath your relationship has been getting smaller and smaller of late, leading to this choice point that arises now in your shared story together.

You acknowledge your oneness with them and your utter  inseparability with them by breaking off contact with them as you know and feel that nothing real can be lost.

Here we see and feel the shared sovereignty reality. We wondered how there could be a room full of Kings and Queens without any subjects to make it all real. Now we see and feel that we are all subjects of the Kings and Queens that surround us on all sides. You are a complete sovereign in relationship with complete and total sovereigns.

You surrender to that with the ownership of your sovereignty, as you hold it in love, in surrender, in deep humility, in the willingness to let go of what no longer serves you or them.

When you find yourself feeling dominated or lorded over by any kind of power, be it social pressure, 3D governmental power structures or people in authority, spiritual teachers, or your boss at work, you are being invited to feel the power of your choice that can never be taken from you.

Even if you end up in prison, feeling most of your freedoms taken from you, you are invited to feel the power over your own being that is yours and yours alone. This power doesn’t need security fences or noisy alarm systems to protect it, for it cannot be taken away or lost. When you know this in life, you know it in any and all circumstances, and it radiates to everyone around you boldly, even to your jailers if that is the circumstance you find yourself in.

The entire world awaits this awakening in you. Jailers, kings, queens, philosophers and ploughmen, each must play their part in their own awakening, spurred on by your awakening.

There’s only one of us ultimately, so there cannot be anyone above or below. This one of us needs to remember its own power simultaneously through your and my individual remembrance of it. None of us get to be fully home until all of us are fully home, again because there is only one of us.

You get to be a forerunner in all of this if you’d like to be, a shower of the way. It will however call for the ongoing surrender of many things, things you once held onto dearly and even fiercely in the process of learning what power and sovereignty is not.

This is what makes it real, what makes it royal, is that you as a King and as a Queen give up false power to truly serve the loyal subjects that surround you towards the awakening to their own sovereignty.

Anyone who tries to suppress the power of those around them will forever be surrounded by stunted beings, reflecting to them their own seemingly inescapable smallness of being.

Anyone who champions the power of the individual around them, will forever be surrounded by testaments of their own true power and sovereignty.

This is the story, the drama that is unfolding on the stage before us now. You and I are the actors, the playwrights, the audience, the investors putting in the capital, and the janitor who must clean up after the show.

This is the dharma in our drama right now. You are the examplar and the sampler. This is the greatest story ever told.

Much love,

Raphael Awen

I’d like to invite any man here to the men’s group call that I’m leading with Gabriel Gabriel Amara and joined by James Elphick on this subject ‘Sovereignty and Surrender’ on zoom on Saturday, April 24th at 5pm BST (London time, 9am Pacific and Noon Eastern). We ask for a donation of any amount to join in or to receive the recording. During the 2 hour call, we will share teaching together, lead a guided meditation to connect with your true sovereignty and surrender, as well as have space on the call for men who’d like to share or receive reflection.

You can send a donation over PayPal here: https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen

Or make your donation to join in through our shop here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

And I will forward the Zoom link from there when I see your donation.

All the details to join in are here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

Jelelle and I are also hosting a group call the week before the men’s call mentioned above on Sunday, April 18th called ‘Digesting the covid narrative’. That’s this coming Sunday, and I’d love to have you join in to that also if you feel called.

Details for the above group call with Jelelle Awen and I are here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

We are leading like minds and hearts into their own power while being in deepening proximity and connection and nourishment.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Can’t Schedule A Funeral And A Wedding In A Chapel On The Same Day!

By  Raphael Awen

Having fun and working at having fun are two different things.

One is play, and the other isn’t.

What if we stopped working at having fun and instead just admitted to ourselves and our world that we weren’t having fun.

Well, that would be tantamount to suicide, to letting go, to giving up.

And God forbid we should give up, because there’s always hope right?

Right?

What if the situation at hand is beyond hope, at least in the dimension that that situation exists?

That’s called death.

And no one wants to talk about that.

And that has a lot to do with our working at having fun, which by its very nature, excludes fun, though it is hung onto for its value of distraction, and staying engaged, lest we give up.

What is life and love is wanting to give up?

That’s called surrender.

But surrender feels so powerless to us, so ending and so final, so we hang onto remnants of lookalike hope and pretend fun, even as those remnants evaporate in front of us.

I do believe however that the universe is wired for fun, and it goes through phases of fun and not fun, letting in and letting out, and in this way comes to know itself in ever expanding discovery, reverence, magic, play, joy and wonder.

We are collectively and personally smack dab in a big shedding phase, a dying phase. If you’re wondering why you’re less than joyful, if not depressed, it’s because you are, but can’t admit it. Admission is that surrender.

All the good stuff hasn’t gone anywhere, but it is kind of waiting in the wings, mostly out of sight, while the death moves through. You can’t schedule a funeral and a wedding in the same chapel on the same day.

When I feel the horrors of the COVID situation and the agenda and narrative, and feel out beyond the distracting drum beats of pro-vax vs. anti-vax, there is something much more reverential going on.

Something is dying. It’s beyond any shadow of a doubt. Life is ending – a form of life; life as we’ve known it. This involves suffering and pain. Love always wants to minimize that suffering and pain, even as it accepts it as a necessary part of the journey.

It’s time to feel the loss, to grieve what’s dying all around us. I believe there will be much physical loss of life and deep losses to the quality of life for so many.

Even if you live outside of the 3D medical world reality and have a healthy immune system, which makes you a bright shining light, this light that you are is about to be called upon to shine in deeper depths of unfolding darkness.

If you actually feel, rather than just fight, or conversely play dead, this means deep sadness, mourning, grieving. Tears.

If you are willing to grieve, then you are both a death doula and a birth doula, aiding in this epic shift in consciousness that we as souls chose to be a part of in this time.

How did we get convinced that we would or could return to truly having fun without admitting that what we are in now isn’t fun?

God, please spare yourself from the horrors of the jab if you’re wavering in any way around being a part of that, but spare yourself from adding to the death at hand, and adding to the avoidance of feeling that death by beating drumbeats of war. Save yourself for the mourning and the morning after.

Love has got this all in hand, but it’s up to you to decide and choose your role to play. There’s that word again. It’s all play.

Love has put on a play. You’re invited onto the stage as an actor and into the audience as one receiving the wave form, auditing the reality into your being.

The light or the darkness you bear on this stage are equally necessary and needful to the story and its plot.

The plotters will surely need our forgiveness if they are ever to find their self forgiveness and complete their return to love journey that we are all on as one of us.

That’s the bigger deal, there’s only one of us. Regardless of how awoke you are, how much light you bear, you are part of The One and this One includes darkness and light.

That One is entering a hell portal to get to the heaven it also is, and in the process to expand it out to more than it ever was.

If you are ready to feel this, you are creating for yourself and for love, a sustainable sanctuary where you can return to love and play, come what may.

Much Love,

Raphael

Join Jelelle Awen and I for our next group meditation call ‘One Year Later – Navigating The Covid Narrative’ on Sunday, April 18th at 5:00pm BST by donation. More info at soulfullheart.org/events

We offer 1:1 sessions to explore into your calling and role at the personal and soul level in a safe container and with a process that allows for deeper integration and embodiment….more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Photo is yesterday at the Solomon Stone at Glastonbury Abbey, feeling the energies of death and rebirth.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are Invited! Men’s Group Calls Each Month

By  Raphael Awen

Quick video invitation to join myself, Aurius Amara and James Elphick this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London time) for our Men’s group call on the topic of ‘Adequacy, Power and Vulnerability’.

We ask for a donation of any amount to set your intention and exchange with us. Read on/listen in to get the tone and see where to sign up. We very much welcome your curiosity and hope you join us.

How do you as a man relate to your sense of power in the world?

How does that make you feel either adequate or inadequate?

Where would vulnerability factor into the expression of your power and sense of adequacy?

As men, we can be quick to embrace anything that affords us a sense of adequacy and power, and slow to let go of anything that feels like it will lessen that comfort zone. Even what we reach towards in spiritual or community settings can be so tailored to this need to buffer this feeling of ‘getting ahead’ in this way.

But where do we find the pause button long enough to explore the more vulnerable questions about whether a choice or endeavour or relationship is really what we most deeply want? How do we know if we are choosing our growth vs. our comfort zone?

‘What is it that you really want?’ is maybe the most profound question that you as a man need to ask yourself, as well as the most sorting question that can be asked when it comes to relationships. Your wanter is already leading and guiding the way, what’s left is become familiar with your wanter – the part of you currently leading your wants and wishes.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer a way to get to know and feel the parts of you that are oriented to life in this way without judging them in any way. Here begins an exit off the treadmill of ‘shoulds’ where even the prescription to be more real or more vulnerable can be related to as a higher form of attaining adequacy or power.

These are the questions we will explore together, offer teaching, and transparent personal reflections about our journey in this men’s group call on Saturday, March 27th hosted by SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Masculine bridges Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara. We will also be joined by James Elphick, who is an active member of the Soulfullheart community. The three of us currently live in close proximity and shared purpose in Glastonbury, England, also known as Avalon, the heart chakra of Gaia.

During the call, we will also enter a time of guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, the part of you that has the most domain when it comes to your adequacy, power and vulnerability. Just meeting this part of you, getting a feeling sense of them for the first time or the hundredth time is what opens out the deep heart and soul places that you have been wanting to venture into. In other words, the key to your dreams is not more will power, or more adequacy, but instead you showing up to get to know these parts of you who feel so much about your life, your dreams, your regrets, etc. As this happens more and more, your life gets to enter new configurations in all areas of your life, because it’s shifting on the inside.

The call will be at 5pm/17:00 GMT (London, UK timezone/12 Noon EST/9:00am PST) and hosted over Zoom. The call will be 2 hours in duration.

You can join us live (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the group live, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to all men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can make a donation for it here through Paypal: paypal.me/raphaelawen

We will send you the zoom link via email.

Please make a note in the Paypal transaction that you are purchasing the March 27th Men’s Group Call and check that your email on Paypal is current, as this is the email we will send the zoom link to unless you request it sent to another email.

The call will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions.

Here is a timezone converter (call is at 5:00pm GMT London, London time): https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

For more info or to share with a friend:

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https://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

Very warmly,

Raphael Awen, Aurius Amara and James Elphick

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

What Does Masculine Power, Adequacy And Vulnerabilty Look Like?

By  Raphael Awen

I venture to say that as a man, regardless of your age, or circumstance in life, that underlying everything you are dealing with in life are the issues of adequacy, power and vulnerability.

These are the core issues that issue from the core of a man, that make up the masculine journey.

And these core issues don’t go away as you grow or become self aware, only your relationship to them changes, and that then is what changes everything, while you continue your journey.

Without these issues, that issue from the core of the heart, there would be no masculine journey, no reason for being here. 

Surrendering to that is what makes you a man. Aligning with others who are becoming conscious of the same journey is what affords you a sense of your true value and worth as a man.

Vulnerability is admitting that short of that, you at best have a half life, and remain in a pact with your suffering.

Those kinds of admissions and surrender is what makes you a powerful being, ever arising into more.

All of your problems and issues get to now be portals into the deeper essence of your being.

Your issues have everything to do with your essence.

If what I am speaking is landing in you as true or powerful, then I offer to you that what you are feeling is your truth, your seat of being, resonating with mine. You are feeling and hearing from the seat of your own authority and sovereignty within, rather than accepting being dominated by any control or permission outside of you.

The question of the quest becomes how will you respond. What will you choose? The choices are before you.

There’s the choice to get real, the choice to get vulnerable, the choice partake of huge support all around you.

The masculine journey is ultimately a sacred one, whether you choose it or don’t, because in the long, long run, it all comes together back to love and essence. The difference is not sacred or secular, holy or unholy, conscious or unconscious, awakened or unawakened; the choice is about getting real or not.

Being real has everything to do with adequacy, power and vulnerability. And getting real will surely lead to the need to get more real – a herein lies the courage required to embrace the journey, and the gratitude of the divine for your choice, to feel and heal what the divine could not inside of itself, without you, and your ‘issues’.

I wrote all that to offer you an invite, one choice if you will, that may be the one for you and your journey as a man right now, and that is an invite to be a part of this coming Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time) Group Call For Men hosted by myself, Aurius Amara along with James Elphick. The topic is Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability.

Go here for more details and to sign up: www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We ask for a donation of any amount to attend live or to receive the recording after, to show your intention and exchange, and to honour the space shared with other like minded men.

The call will be a max of 2 hours in a very well hosted and timed zoom call with teachings and reflections from myself, Aurius and James, as well as hearing from other men on the call who choose to share. Aurius and I will also offer about a 20 minute guided meditation during the call to meet your Inner Protector, who is the part of you that holds your relationship to your power, adequacy and vulnerability.

More info also here at https://www.facebook.com/events/427115595032366 if you’d like to invite someone special.

Aurius and myself both offer 1:1 sessions with men as well if you feel drawn and more about that is here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Much Love,

Raphael

The pic above is from the Solomon Stone yesterday at The Abbey here in Glastonbury. The stone is believed to be brought here by Joseph of Arimathea in the first century and came from the ruins of Solomon’s temple. I’m there receiving the download and the seed of the sacred masculine impartation – getting ready to host you on Saturday’s call. 🙂

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Are You Up For Some Sex Talk?

By  Raphael Awen

Jelelle and I have our next group call coming up on Sunday the 14th entitled Sacred Sexuality, and I want to invite you.

Okay, that was a bit of a ploy. Pardon the grabby come on, but the purpose of this writing is to draw people who might be interested in the call, so I thought it best to be in full disclosure right from the get go.

Can I ask you, how has life been for you as a sexual being? How do you at present relate to your sexuality?

Whether your experiences have been deeply negative or out of this world positive, both are a lot to bear in this mystery of our sexuality.

That you and I came into this life with this awakening need and desire of sexuality along with its potential for both the deepest fulfillments and the deepest disappointments really points to the vulnerability of our souls choosing to be in human incarnation. 

For me, my teenage awakening into my sexuality was marked with fears and hiding that I effectively suppressed by taming it alongside a Christian dedication to God and Christian service. I embraced the no sex before marriage advice, partly out of my fear of my own sexuality and partly of wanting God’s blessing and sense of safety on something I felt to be so potentially unknown, destructive and harmful. I managed to enter my first marriage as a virgin and experienced a bandwidth of sexuality that felt right for where I was at and what I could handle. From a soul perspective, I can see where this muting of my sexuality was motivated from other timelines of sexual regrets and remorse. 

When I left Christianity, and that marriage of 23 years, I was surprised to find a very ripe and ready unexplored teenage sexual energy that was alive and well coming back into my life with me now in my mid 40’s. I knew I needed and wanted to explore and mature this sexual energy and life and the Divine opened out a couple of rich and rewarding relationships that surprised me by discovering whole new layers of the lover in me. 

This laid a whole new groundwork sexually and emotionally to be in relationship with Jelelle. I was given and continue to be given experiences that feel like such deep treasures and even trophies to me and parts of me. I’d like to support you to create your own heaven of sexuality. 

The journey of vulnerability, desire and beautiful experiences continued for me over the past 13 years together with Jelelle. Now, however, I especially feel another whole layer of sexual energy expanding out into an invitation into a much wider place that is beyond both the teenagers and the adult relationship with sexuality. 

I especially feel how the masculine’s relationship with adequacy and sexual prowess on one hand and then the strange behaviour of needing to get to orgasm, and to effectively close the sexual space are both energies that are rooted in our fears of our sexuality. We can shy away from our sexuality, or put it out there and bury it under a performance, but in both of these polarities we see and feel our uninitiated relationship with our own sexuality. 

I’m convinced now that I’m only scratching the surface of a much deeper terrain that wants to continue to reform and inform my life with this sexual energy in a way that relates to all areas of my life. Compartmentalized and contained sexuality is a safety measure that we maybe all needed while we did or do, but the invitation is for this sexual energy of mateship with all of life and love itself to overflow into this deep sexual union where there is no difference between the love of God, the love of other and the love of self. 

Every person you meet along with yourself was portaled into this world by sexual energy and they each contain vital sexual energy as a common denominator of aliveness, with shared fears, desires and for some of us trophy experiences – but all of it is wanting to take us yet much deeper into something so much more. Can I turn in my trophies and admit I want to keep going into more?

I’m horny for that more, more than just talk, but ongoing flow into the infinite more that we each are. I hope you are too. Any and all sexual traumas, desires, fears, yearnings, trophies, sorrows, are all a portal into this deep going on place in your soul’s journey this life. 

I hope you will consider joining us for the upcoming group call this Sunday at 5pm London time, that will be tailored to individuals and couples. We ask for a donation of any amount to join. Details below.  This call is also free to all members of our SoulFullHeart Portal private network which you can join for $14.99 USD per month, which also helps support our work.

Here is the link to the Facebook event if you’d like further info or to invite a friend: https://www.facebook.com/events/109338231107311

Here is the event on our website where you can reserve your spot by making a donation: https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Common Challenge For Awakening Men

By  Raphael Awen

I had the pleasure of holding space for a man yesterday in session space over zoom and we encountered something together that feels really common for awakening men.

As he described some precious and powerful awakenings with Yeshua and many new places of openings recently, I couldn’t help but feel an anxious undertone in his sharing, so I just asked if he could feel a part of him that is vigilant about keeping up with awakening, and that opened out a whole portal to go into together where we felt and saw that the efforting and vigilance about awakening was being used to avoid an inner well of ‘persistent hollowness’. We were able to see and feel the part of him who lives in this hollowness and begin to see him as the one who holds vast access to creativity, as well as the men’s version of the womb, what’s known as the Hara.

This all felt so familiar to my own process of being out of touch with my own grief over the years, and with that of course, my own depression. I didn’t have any depression as near as I could tell, for decades actually, but truth was, part of me had just done an outstanding job of keeping it buried. I was quite a stellar human then, liked by many, but the treadmill of the efforting was starting to wear the benefits thin and the costs were tabulating.

I don’t think anything would have changed for me were it not for a crisis, and in some ways, an ongoing series of manageable mini crisis’ if you will.

Together in session with this man yesterday, we began to feel the call to really begin to bridge to this part of him, curiously and with open heart, get to know his reality. Negotiate with him to return out to play, not as another item on the to do list or the to be list of awakening, but just as a natural longing and appetite to get to know.

Then we felt THAT to be the ending of the efforting, as the efforting was actually being used to keep this part’s world and reality suppressed inside, when life is actually ripening this part’s reality to the surface.

I so don’t feel I could have bridged these realities inside of myself and my own healing/awakening process without ‘parts work’ as it is known. Without parts work, we just leave the part of us to pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, without them feeling a you there to be with them, to bridge and support them in the changes they wish to make, kind of like the physically present, but all too often emotionally absent parents we experienced in growing up.

When the bridging occurs between you and a part of you, the perception of what both the problem and the solutions are also shift and change and whole new worlds emerge that were not seen before.

This is the magical portal that our wounding is, offering us sacred entry into dimensions not seen or known yet. Spiritual fixes for depression or anxiety aren’t much better than the pharmaceutical fixes are as both are about the fear and avoidance of this portal.

Being ready to enter this portal is quite organic, and you simply know when you are there. The call and question about sufficient courage is outweighed by the growing inability to hold up the old way any longer.

Whatever needs to be surrendered in order to enter the portal is kind of like shrinking your life into a 2 suitcase limit on a one way overseas airplane flight. You only have 23 kilos per bag, so the question becomes about what’s coming or not. Really, you can only take yourself, and a few most necessary items. The life you’ve created and accumulated needs to be largely or completely let go of. Socially, this is probably the hardest as our underlying and unconscious social agreements are about each of us promising to remain proximal in both geography and within a certain consciousness bandwidth with one another. You could say that we co-sign one another’s agreements to stay in resonant around remaining small, that is until we default on the agreement.

Some around us understandably get pissed, and rightfully so. We were the best exemplars to the agreement, maybe even better than the others in the picture were. And now, you’re the one pulling the pin. You also have some apologies to make, but the crazy thing is, no one wants the apologies, they want you to return, but crazier still is that you’ve already morphed beyond the place where that could even be possible. There’s nothing left but to honour that with grief and sorrow and goodbyes.

‘You’re the one who changed’ my best friend once told me while out on a hiking trail trying to bridge a conversation about the growing differences between us. He was right. Our unspoken agreement had been about remaining true to a code of values, purpose and meaning. My emerging  values, purpose and meaning we’re leaving the parameters of our agreement. My old me simply couldn’t fit in the suitcase any longer and my departure date was fast approaching.

It wasn’t but a couple years later that I sat across from this friend at breakfast, with tears, and said goodbye to him, to our friendship, as where I was going was only going to leave both of us strained in a very unreal friendship, something neither of us were really capable of.

Life, real life, always brings up new enterings and leavings in this way. All of life could be summed up as a series of beginnings and endings in this way, and the most adapted to this reality, in their ability to feel grief and sorrow are truly the happiest campers. Joy comes in the morning and through the mourning.

What is it in life that is shifting and rumbling for you? What are you being asked to grieve and let go? How could you do that in a way that doesn’t leave you more wounded, withdrawn and reserved?

Could I help you make that transition? Could I help you embrace your bigger you? Could I help you find your soul family and passion purpose calling expression?

I moved into a new and brave world as a beginner, and have made some discoveries that may one day bear my name, but for now they are just here being offered to you, as these discoveries need more bold souls to test drive the living, loving and learning. Then it can be our discovery, and not just mine.

I would so welcome hearing from you, more about me and sessions at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can email me at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. Sessions are for 90 minutes and cost $100 usd. You may also be drawn to one of the three other current SoulFullHeart facilitators, my wife, Jelelle Awen, Aurius Amara, Kasha Rokshana, whose info is also at the link above and who can be reached at the same email address above.

The pic above is from a recent group day with six of us here in Glastonbury/Avalon. We look shiny and lovely because we are most of the time, but also not without some serious mess in the playful bliss, both as couples and as a community.

Love,

Raphael 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

Our next group call:

taking place on March 14th @ 5pm GMT (London, UK) with Raphael and Jelelle, which will focus on Sacred Sexuality. More info on that call can be found here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Joys Of Not Knowing

By  Raphael Awen

Have you ever noticed that those who claim to not know how to pray offer the best prayers?

So often, it’s our experience and familiarity with something that hampers our arising and new direct interaction with that something.

How could we return to a state of not knowing in order to have a first time experience?

Even asking this question is using experience and knowing as an attempt to return to the innocence not knowing. Isn’t it maddening when the mind gets in the way, even when it’s wanting and willing to get out of the way, but just doesn’t know how?

Wait! I think we solved it, no?

You want to get out of your own way, but don’t know how. Now, you enter the womb of surrender.

You have a desire for something that you have no power or knowledge whatsoever on how you are going to achieve that something. All you have is what you don’t have.

I feel this place where my assets of past experience don’t seem to add up to anything of salvageable value towards entering a new unknown, except for the one asset of not knowing. If I don’t know, then I get to admit that, lead with that, toddle out my first steps into the new thing, laugh goodheartedly at myself along with the others I’m entertaining in the process.

I believe you also, not too far down inside, can feel the place where you don’t know what you are doing.

What if this could be admitted, owned, and cherished instead of a thing of shame and resistance and hiding? Your not knowing is the real gold you came here to share and explore.

You enter the God-zone where even God gets to not know through you.And it makes you really interesting, fun and sexy, if you ask me. Know it alls are boring and dry.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/