by Kalayna Solais
I remember when I was a child, I would watch movies with ‘bad guys’ in them and be looking constantly for signs of them turning ‘good’ or showing signs that they weren’t ALL ‘bad’. I preferred movies where the ‘villain’ found redemption and amnesty over movies where they would be killed or destroyed. As I think about this, I’m realizing how this was my Love Ambassador switching on at a young age and to this day, it’s still hard to watch anyone who has done ‘wrong’ be destroyed or killed. I think that for this life at least when it comes to finding entertainment in watching ‘evil’ get vanquished, my soul decided ‘enough is enough’ and it doesn’t entertain in the same ways that it likely did in other lifetimes.
That’s not to say that sometimes a ‘morbid curiosity’ doesn’t come over me, but that feels like my Lower 4D orientation in many Metasoul aspects in other timelines/lifetimes and also my ‘Death Doula’ coming online, who can be around death all the while knowing and trusting fully in the rebirth process that comes of it.
I suppose that’s what it could all boil down to, then… the Love Ambassador inside of each of us is also a ‘Death Doula’ who is not afraid of darkness but is instead willing to trust the process of giving it space to unfold in a HELD way. Meaning, it’s not going to overrun the light inside, but will still be given a voice and a place to be felt in the heart. Darkness needs light and light needs darkness for balance and to create an understanding and compassionate world.
There is still a very strong narrative playing out right now of light dispelling darkness. Yet, darkness cannot be destroyed. Your own darkness cannot be destroyed. It needs room to be felt and understood, a chance to make its case and be heard. Those in our world who have chosen to be Satanists are showing a polarity that exists inside of each of us. In some ways, it’s no different than judging narcissists as an empath, or even women judging men/men judging women, etc.
Something powerful happens when we choose to feel the parts of us that are afraid of these polarities and of feeling how they live inside of each of us in this life and other lifetimes. What happens is often that we realize there’s nothing to be afraid of, but a whole lot to bring love to. We realize that there’s nothing to vanquish but a lot of pain to feel. We realize that the Divine has already forgiven every single bit of harm caused to ourselves and others and that the key to letting this in isn’t contrition or punishment in any form, but instead in realizing the reasons for it all. This helps us find the remorse in our hearts and souls. This helps us find those tears of remembrance of Divine love and holding. This helps us open our hearts back up again, feeling Divine support for our explorations of these polarities and an understanding of why we’ve needed to do this.
I don’t feel like New Earth is shaping up to be a reality where all darkness is simply ‘gone from this earth’, moving on to another dimension to work out its ‘stuff’. I feel like it’s all needing a process of integration and amnesty, starting within. The movie Dark Crystal was ALWAYS onto something here… and in the book Prism of Lyra, we see this theme as well, of polarities becoming separate when they are really needing to come back together as one once again, BUT, in a NEW way that honours what both have learned on their sacred journeys of being separate from one another.
I feel this invitation every day, to feel and heal the polarities within so that I can take every single part and Metasoul aspect with me into the new. I feel this invitation always going out to the collective too, to every single soul, waiting for the moment when it can truly land. This could be a very long process, yet, my Love Ambassador trusts the playout and the timing and that this is where we’re all heading. It’s up to us how long this journey takes, but it IS moving and in another way, it’s already completed and we’re just trying to catch up to that reality!
Much love to you and every expression of your awakening Love Ambassador too. ❤
Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.