The Rearview Mirror

So this is how it goes…

You let go

and you trust

and you realize what you let go of

and what you are letting go into.

Never have I had such a trampoline inside

where I can leap and know no bounds

where the sky inside is the limitless one

and the gravity of the fall is into nothing at all.

You were a mirror of a different colour

a different density

and I expected you to work differently

…and not mostly in hindsight.

But here I go into a retrospective reflective surface

where I realize

not only could you not see me

but holy shit…

I didn’t see myself.

In a big way

I couldn’t, didn’t, wasn’t planning to.

Not while I had your eyes

your promise

your mouth, hands, lips, body, touch

and heart.

I poured water on my feathers

but the Pheonix fire didn’t cease

and my maniac heart

bent on healing

kept on beating it’s drumbeat tone with steady, thumping steps.

The thrumming goes on

even as you and I don’t

and you and I don’t

and you and I don’t either.

Love. I am your channel.

I am your healer.

I am your student.

Make and give me more me

so I may be

more of the me I couldn’t see

until I realized I am what I was missing all along.

Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.