healing negativity – Divine Self Embodiment Blog (Formerly SoulFullHeart)

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There are no two more life-changing words in the English language than I AM. They are definitive in nature. They send a frequency that either supports or changes your conscious reality. The universe responds in kind to this energy. Even in thought form, these words pack a co-creative brush stroke.

In English we say “I am afraid”. If you were to literally translate in Spanish it would be interpreted that you are the embodiment of fear. You would be looked at a little funny. But in Spanish they say (literally in English) “I have fear”. Or they use the more temporal version of “to be” to denote that you are in temporary state of a condition. I bring this up because the words that follow I AM are catalytic. When you say “I am frustrated” you are saying that you have become the energy of that state. If you rephrase that to “I feel frustrated” or even better yet “A part of me feels frustrated” you have separated your true essence from the energy you are experiencing in the moment. I don’t believe this is merely semantics. However, now that I say that, semantics have an enormous impact on our reality.

Is this just more of the positive thinking model? To some degree yes. But what I don’t want to ignore is that I have a feeling that still needs to be felt so that I can give it love to be healed. By recognizing my essence as the highest vibration of Love, then I can feel this within the parameters of my expanding heart and not just fuse to the energy that takes me down a spiral staircase of lower vibration. After the initial ground of healing the parts of us that originate this feeling, any other similar feelings can be raised by the offsetting of the power of I AM.

I have been through many moments with my parts that hold a lot of former pain. I AM at point where my vibration is on an ascending trajectory. My heart is opening, my self-love is growing, and I am serving that overflow to others. It doesn’t mean I don’t have echoes from my former wounds that are working their way from the collective or other etheric beings. The words that follow I AM are to course correct my purpose and path to my highest potential and expression. I watch my thoughts without judgement and when things start to feel less than the highest love I have felt for myself, I take time to go in and re-calibrate. To remember who and what I AM and what frequency is truly my natural state.

This is a daily practice. We have been so comfortable with the uncomfortable, so familiar with what used to be unfamiliar. It is a matter of patient persistence, this journey of ascending frequency. It is also a matter of how to bring more love into your heart and BEing. You are no longer a prisoner to your conditioning, no longer a victim to circumstance. You are an epically powerful creator. Many of us don’t have the faintest clue how true that is. I don’t feel I have grasped the enormity of it. I AM choosing to heal and feel my way there. I AM going in and seeking the guidance of those that have come before me and light the way to my Infinite Beginning. I AM an angel soul. I AM a part of a larger and magnificent galactic purpose. I AM a leader, teacher, artist, and lover. I am told I AM more than I can possibly imagine, so I trust that and keep imagining. There is no ceiling other than the one we self-lovingly create for ourselves until we are ready for more. I AM you and YOU ARE me and we shall see each other again at the height of our Glory as One in the Heart of Love. I look forward to your own creation and what we can create together. I AM ready. If you are too, I would love to serve you in your journey to all that You Are.

Sequoia Heartman is a writer, heartist, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

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The image above is one I drew many years ago while holding space for a deep despairing and existential aspect of me. I was reminded of it in my meditation this morning not just as a personal memory but as a collective representation of what ascension can feel like to many. I have been with negative thoughts and feelings most of my life. They stem from family legacy, social connections, cultural conditionings, soul wounds, and whatever shenanigans are being entered into our psychic fields by less than benevolent beings. The image of a spaghetti ball described this energy to a tee, from my perspective.

This was a pivotal reason for my desire to heal as I knew that I was more than this energy. Though I didn’t know all the science at the time, I didn’t need it to in order to realize it was altering my reality in a big way. So going in was the only way to change that course. There was a wealth of emotion to feel and bring to my inner lovelight. To be held by the Divine in grace and gratitude. As the personal historical roots of the negativity are healed and integrated, there are more layers to follow that arise when they need to in relationship to our soul’s experience. The process is the same and showers us with gifts of immense proportion, if there is surrender and movement from these aspects of us.

But there are energies that do not wish to surrender to the love we are offering. There is a collective pain body that I call the Paintrix (3D body) that has its own inertia. When we still have resonant wounds inside of us, the reaction to circumstances can feel way over the boundary of what feels like us. It feels deeper and heavier. Almost like molasses. To some of us, we may have been accustomed to or charged with transmuting this energy for a community or group in our soul history. This is not self-loving in any way. We can access the soul aspect that held this and help it let go.

It can be difficult at times to know what is ours and what is not. That is why we need a mirror to us so that we can get a better reflection in these times. It is not our responsibility to transmute these energies. I feel it puts the responsibility back on the collective and the individuals that construct it. This is a process of individuating from the 3D body. These energies can also be a part of a larger virus in the psychic field imposed by negative beings of which there is a lot of information on.

I share this today as reflection of what will be unfolding in the times to come. We need to stay vigilant with our healing and maintaining our higher frequencies. It is not just through positive mantras that can truly bring healing, but also a deep process of emotional integration, energy work, and daily connection with our Higher Self and guides. Through all of my efforts I still get entangled at times and this is on its way out the door. This is never a light topic but it leads to our eventual reclaiming of our true power, worth, and joy. It is a gift to us if we can hold it that way. Telling us which way NOT to go and steering us toward our Higher Purpose. We are here to serve you in discovering what you truly are and letting go of what you are not. I offer my personal heart to those of you who similar experiences and am here to guide you through it should you choose.