Healing Division Within To Experience Soul Family Reunion Without

by Kasha Rokshana

With so much polarity still moving in this Ascension process, gathering together as one can feel so out of reach. It can feel like there’s just no way to reconcile the differences we’re really coming to recognize between us.

It feels sometimes like there’s just so many mountains to climb in order to come back into alignment with ourselves, let alone with others. The inner polarities are just as real as the outer, if not even more real at times, with so much division happening between parts of us that are torn about next life choices and caught up in fear spirals as they imagine what could go wrong rather than lean into guidance, hope, and Divine trust.

What truly divides us as human beings on this ongoing journey we’re ALL a part of is the conflict that lives inside us which lays and maintains the foundation for outer conflict, the need to be right, the need to prove, and the push-pull relationship to life, love, and others around us. It’s the resistance to inner intimacy that creates resistance to outer intimacy… it’s the pull of how the Matrix lives inside of us, let alone how we’re impacted by it on the outside, that can create so much ongoing tension and pain.

The recent Autumn Equinox gathering that we had here in our growing community of SoulFullHeart is a powerful example of how moving through the inner polarities really does create a more intimate and flowing ground with others on the outside, with so much love and appreciation for our differences rather than a deep level of reaction. This is possible because of soothing and healing the inner edges between parts and soul aspects of us, validating their experiences instead of diminishing them, yet also challenging them to move beyond their experiences to let in something new inside and out.

This is possible because of a willingness to stay in the room with ourselves, gathering each part of us back into our hearts, reclaiming shadow and light at every turn, letting in how we impact each other in both good and uncomfortable ways and being willing to feel how all of that always stems from deep within…

Every single soul on this planet is a brave one just for being here. It takes a special brand of soul courage to take on the monumental challenge of polarized duality while on some level our souls, consciously or unconsciously, long for reunion and reconciliation back into oneness. Those who are willing to truly stay in the room with themselves, with a growing sense of undying Divine support and love to keep moving through everything there is to move through and feel, are the ones who know there’s so much more to glean from this whole Ascension process if we’re truly going to transform and evolve into the Sacred Humans we’re here to become and remember too that we always WERE.

I’m so grateful to have moved through so much inner tension and pain in order to be a part of this room I find myself in with soul family. And I’m so grateful to all the souls around me who share this journey and have experienced it so deeply themselves. Our gatherings are turning into soul family reunions in the flesh and I’m so looking forward to welcoming more souls to them in the future!

Our gatherings are an invitation to any soul who has been drawn to have 1:1 sessions with us and has been in sessions for a time. The virtual session space serves the healing of the inner pieces that need to be felt before the in-person space can open up as a possibility, but the invitation to reunite with us is always there! Now is a time of feeling this journey inside and out and making conscious choices to live in deeper resonance with self and with others, to feel empowered in that way and to live into our reasons for being here truly as one.

With much love and appreciation for your own ongoing journey of inner and outer reconciliation and healing,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Homecoming: The SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering

We just completed a 5 day gathering here in Portugal with 8 very beautiful and very unique souls. A gathering that is turning out to be a Homecoming. A Homecoming to the true self, to community of heart and soul and to the Divine.

At the pristine waters of Fraga da Pena

This Equinox portal is a significant one, I feel, bringing into balance what has seeked to come into balance for so long inside and out. I’m feeling so many significant movements and shifts inside of myself, big and small and everything in between.

I feel an expansion of heart and feeling of my and with my heart‘s true essence. The heart expanding to be able to let in the love that has been here all along but can only be felt now by the heart’s true essence. The heart expanding to be able to be more Love, share it and receive it. And just as I type this, the Youtube playlist the algorithm created for me based on my music preferences dials in ‘Song for a Pure Heart’ by Mei-lan.

I am seeing with new eyes as I have claimed my light, my true essence, my true self over and over again in the midst of darkness. Seeing the same things with different eyes makes the same things feel very different which is beautiful, exciting, new and trippy at times.

I see the Dark coming into balance with the Light, dancing, coalescing, flowing into and with each other. Both are needed and none of them can be denied any more, battled or resisted, just seen, felt, loved, claimed.

I am accessing my true desires and my Queen’s true frequencies that are just moving into the space now, effortlessly, gracefully, easily. No labour or self-discipline needed. Just an ongoing sorting out and through what and who I really am and what I’m not, what is of the matrix (in lack of a better description) is falling away.

I am witnessing a moving from detail to the bigger picture, from smallness to bigness, from Masculine to Feminine, from hell to heaven, from muddy and murky waters within to clarities and seeing clearly, from self-focus / self-centeredness / privacy to connection and sharing with others, leaving the necessary cocoon/incubator space to open up and unfold like a blossoming flower to share and receive.

Everything I have consciously felt over the last few years and looked at inside of myself, part after part, layer after layer, is coming together in my heart space, finding a home within, integrating and moving into a higher consciousness.

There is an opening up to and receiving of higher frequencies, wanting them, needing them, desiring them and feeling worthy of them, even as bits and pieces of unworth are still leaving my being.

It is a remembering of and homecoming to my true Feminine’s essence and embodying of it. Flow, sensuality, creativity and inspiration moving in.

A new maturity uncovered that isn’t really new, just had been covered over before, revealing patience, wisdom and a connection to a deep womb space and feminine presence.

Where we went together as a community in the gathering were the realest and most vulnerable places we have gone to so far and it felt like such nourishing food for me. I love every single soul for their brave, real and heart-felt contribution and presence. So much healing exchanged between all of us and quantumly. We need each other. I will be unpacking the gifts from this for days and weeks to come.

We will have our next gathering in December for the Winter solstice, as well as ongoingly every equinox/solstice, and are inviting souls who feel drawn to regular sessions with one of our facilitators. We could all feel ’empty’ seats in the room reserved for souls joining us in the very near future. If that is you, do get in touch with one of us and claim your seat ❤️

Love, Bey

Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant, Facilitator-In-Training, and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org

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Jelelle and Kasha building housing for the pixies

Homecoming Codes: Digesting The Experiences during our 5 Day Group Gathering

By Jelelle Awen

September 23 –

We are experiencing such wonderful soul family codes and healing during our five day gathering retreat here in central Portugal! So grateful for each of these souls joining us here!

Each day of intentional space together united by the SoulFullHeart process work offers new frequencies of reunion inside and out, upgrades, detox, and more. We are mostly sitting in healing circle together, doing group recoding and meditations, with social time mixed in. Each soul is getting dedicated space to share and ‘drop into’ the part/soul aspect that needs to be felt and seen by Raphael and I plus the group….which offers so much healing on personal and social levels.

Yesterday we went to the magical Inner Earth portal of Fraga Da Pena to celebrate the Equinox with Gaia, which I shared more about in a previous post. Going back now with the eight of us was a truly joyful experience of play, wonder (just LOOK at those sun codes!) and celebration. I felt our Inner Earth Lemurian family with us, enjoying the bridge to experience the surface, plus being surrounded by elementals, Pixies (who bossed us around to build a village for them out of schist stones, and more. And, our Magdalene lineage too was with us as the great reunion happening for so many souls heals the dispersement we have known for so long.

Raphael and I are feeling guided and inspired to offer these gathering events every Equinox/Solstice going forward for those in regular sessions with us who are drawn to come and get an in-person experience of deep activation, healing, reunion, and upgrades on emotional, spiritual, social/relational, mental and physical levels. Our next gathering will be for winter solstice between December 17th and the 21st with more info coming soon.

Yet, still, I am being invited now to go into the NOW and truly enjoy this current gathering, what it is seeding, and the processes it is inviting me into as well….healing old grounds of experience with others where it was painful and more difficult. Three more days to go and let’s see what happens next!

September 27-

My heart is full and my soul is full…even my body is full from the rich and nourishing time spent with the eight of us, these beautiful souls for our gathering together for five days in intentional healing space that completed last night.

The homecoming codes were SO strong! Whenever we sat in circle together, playing the bowls, and the light language song that came through me felt like a homecoming song as well (will share on video soon.) Coming home to the Inner New Earth/Lemuria/Atlantis/Avalon codes that are inside us all.

We were experiencing the homecoming together, as a group of soul family in reunion, yet, also, the homecoming beginning and deepening from within. Each part and soul aspect that got felt, seen, and space during this Gathering was able to experience a deeper homecoming within each person and with the group. Homecoming brings up grief/sorrow/sense of loss of what was missing that is now being answered. Homecoming brings up hopes and desires, tender vulnerability, social pain/rejection fears, remembrance and possibility.

This process of inner homecoming through connecting with specific parts/soul aspects through our SoulFullHeart process really is such a precious ground. I feel how the lone wolf aspects, the Inner Gatekeepers, the Inner Protectors are becoming more ready for this homecoming inside and out…and also tired of being alone and lonely, being misunderstood, or in relationships that no longer resonate.

Being in realness together, the tears and pain receiving a bridge to the light, to love, to the Divine….being in non-judgement and acceptance of that with others AND within yourself is really SO healing. I feel honored to be helping to birth and seed this possibility (which is really a memory being remembered) into consciousness.

I experienced more flow, joy and grace and just ‘showing up’ inside myself as a Facilitator/Teacher/Host where previously there was some element of protective pullout when hurts or non-resonance may happen in the group space. This time, I was able to be with parts in this, esp my inner teenager, who has offered a bridge to any woundedness in my healer and bring all my energies into the space. With this holding and Divine love bath response, I could let my Queen essence flow, my Gatekeeper be Divinely inspired, my Healer be responsive to everyone’s needs, and my visionary to roll out the dream of expanded SoulFullHeart community that I have seen/held/felt for over ten years (more to share of that later.)

Also I felt more alignment and collaborative service between Raphael and I, which was so good to feel after years of negotiating inside/out and push/pulls around it. There was seamless quality to our service and our hosting, as if he truly represented the masculine side to my feminine yet it was still in flow with me, each other. There was more telepathy between us too, responding without needing to speak.

I got to BE that dream, We got to be that dream together….even if the details of the space and status of community are at a more incubation stage in the physical.

With our intention to hold and offer these gathering events every Equinox/Solstice going forward for those in regular sessions with us, this waters the seeds to allow the synchs/connections/community resonance that blooms the vision to manifest in its full flowered expression. This may happen quickly or take many years. ‘Waiting’ for that manifestation doesn’t make the nourishment of the moment any less though, it is a lot of goodness to let in just as it is!

If you’d like to have a free intro and begin sessions as the initiatory steps toward joining us for the next gathering in December, there is more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Thank you so much to the core community here of souls who have helped keep the dream alive through their involvement, devotion, and patience for each stage! And thank you to the two new souls (this life anyway!) who bravely joined us for this seed gathering!

I am love. You are love. We are love!

I am home. You are home. We are home!

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions/free intros, online community portal, group call events, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

Experiencing Soul Resonant Community During Our Equinox Gathering: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 16, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

We have a FULL Museletter for you this week, with two weeks worth of articles, digestions and announcements! Last week we held and deeply celebrated our first ever SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering which was a heart-opening, soul-affirming, and deeply intimate experience for everyone involved!

Jelelle Awen leads this week’s Museletter with a sweet digestion of the overall Gathering experience and the many, many gifts it offered and continues to offer each of us:

“I just feel so honored that these amazing souls would come here to stay in our home, trusting the energy they have previously experienced in sessions to create a meaningful and worthwhile experience for themselves. The Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers in us all increasingly grew in trust as their fears and resistances, their protections of the precious little ones inside, any projections lifted and eased as love flowed instead of fear.”

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

Jelelle will be leading a virtual women’s group call this Sunday, September 29th over Zoom. The purpose of this call is to provide a transmission of codes to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment. You can receive these frequencies live with her (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with her what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from her.

There will be a Group Transmission led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen in October. The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12th at 10am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman in person for a FREE guided meditation and sharing circle! They will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation. Raphael and Gabriel will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Jelelle has released a brand NEW guided meditation video that is also an introduction to the women’s group call this coming Sunday. It’s called ‘Connect To Your Inner Feminine’. She says this about the video: “This is a brief video that I recorded this morning to offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner feminine. This is a taste of what will be a deeper exploration into the sacred feminine during my Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday, September 29 at 10:00am PDT. Women over 18 can attend this call live or receive the recording.”

Many new articles and a new audio blog for you this week! Jelelle Awen, Raphael, Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, share ongoing energy updates and digestions of their personal processes that are intended to inspire your own. There is new poetry,  more messages from the Divine, and much LOVE and support to download from each piece.

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Experiencing Soul Resonant Community During Our Equinox Gathering

By Jelelle Awen

Feeling so full in the moment, still digesting SO much goodness, love and connection that happened during these six days of connection with the beautiful and brave souls who joined us during our first Equinox gathering here in Victoria, BC. Being in so much in-person heart space and in-the-moment service after three years of offering mostly virtually was so fulfilling!

I felt so lit up to be able to offer our unique ‘brand’ of SoulFullHeart energy healing in person to support the work we had been doing in 1:1 online sessions. Our energy work combines some reiki, pranic healing, ascension energy healing/light body upgrades/code retrieval, parts work/metasoul timeline connection, and MUCH more. I call it ‘reiki on love steroids’.

I will be sharing more about the transformations that occurred for ALL of us during these blessed and magical days as they continue to digest for me. The fears that transmuted to love, the old patterns that found new grounds, the connections within community that were nourishing rather than damaging. All of this sets a new template within each of us that goes out to the collective and brings in a template for New Lemuria in the Now.

It was so meaningful for all five of us living in SoulFullHeart community with each other for so long now to share with others the blessings of living in authenticity, emotional realness, compassionate truth telling, self awareness, and surrender to the Divine. We were backed up and NEEDED to share with others the gifts of living this way in order to embody it more for ourselves too.

Each soul that joined in our circle added their own unique flavor, tone, and energy to the lovely mix that we created each day through personal process in group circle, sound healing, and energy healing. Our SoulFullHeart field trip to Salt Spring Island was a magical exploration with a circle and altar space, taking in the Lemurian and Faerie codes, working with the five elements, and shopping at the market.

I just feel so honored that these amazing souls would come here to stay in our home, trusting the energy they have previously experienced in sessions to create a meaningful and worthwhile experience for themselves. The Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers in us all increasingly grew in trust as their fears and resistances, their protections of the precious little ones inside, any projections lifted and eased as love flowed instead of fear.

I feel grateful to the Divine for holding the space for us to come together….and personally holding me too as I worked with and connected with a new aspect of myself and she grew in trust inside of my own heart and in connection with others as the days went on.

We would SO love you to join us for our next gathering at the winter SOULstice in December if you feel called to come! We’ll be connecting to the magical energies of solstice, Christ Consciousness, Christmas, and winter. There is more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1654802484653131/

And for women who would like a taste of a SoulFullHeart group online over zoom, I am hosting my first SAFE (sacred arising feminine exploration group) on Sunday September 29 at 10:00am PDT. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

 

And you can take in all of our event listings here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Love,
Jelelle Awen