Ascension: Bringing The Unconscious Into Consciousness

In my continuing process of growth, many times the things I need to ‘work’ on are the things that I cannot see. They are brought to me through mirrors, reflections, or circumstances that make it clear I have had a blind spot. An unconscious tendency toward ego, unworth, or any innumerable things that keep my next conscious leveling up at bay.

As I am brought to these junctions, I am beginning to realize the ground on which our unconsciousness resides is giving way. The veil that has kept it hidden is loosening and thinning. It will be an effort to keep it all in place. As that barrier begins to crumble under the weight of Love’s eminence, there arises moments that you become aware of the parts that are trying to stay in control, keep the narrative going come hell or high water.

Well, if the high water is coming and the resistance stays in place then hell it is. I once had an image of a sandcastle. It represented all that parts of me had and have built up over time that represented what I thought was real and true, only to find the tide rise and sure enough it was gone. Just…like…that. Wooosh. This could be a Dark Night experience or it can be just another round of the wheel of ascension once you get used to it.

The Reality is that we are the sand and the water playing in this epic drama of construct and deconstruct. What was unconscious comes to the surface and will knock down that castle just as the sun rises and falls. So when it does, the deeper question is how do we integrate and navigate that process so that there is less need for these moments and their reactions.

In my ongoing journey with SoulFullHeart, it is all about feeling and exploring the deeper layers inside that are in reaction, suffering, or unconscious states. This is done not just through self-reflection and exploration, but of other-reflection and deep mirroring. That is where things get to be seen that we could not see ourselves. That is not easy for parts of us, but it is catalytic and alchemical. Life can never be the same tomorrow as it was yesterday when you are on a conveyor belt of ascension. There is no attainment, just attainING and learning. An ever growing and expanding ground of consciousness.

If you are feeling the deep desire for ending suffering loops, unconscious patterns, or lone wolf isolation and are wanting to be initiated into deeper realms of your own consciousness, expression, and intimacy I highly recommend a SoulFullHeart session with myself, Jelelle, Raphael, or Kasha. I trust the call will be felt in the hearts it is meant to stir.

If you are curious about learning more and becoming more acquainted with the process and paradigm itself you are welcome to join our group portal at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co for more personal sharings, videos, articles, and online community.

The energies are here to support this new leveling up in Love, Liberation, and Leadership.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Moving Back Into 1:1 Sessions; Experiencing Grace & Support

My sessions with women that I have done over the last month here from Glastonbury have felt deeper and richer than ever before. There is an arising grace within me during the space holding, a sense of profound support and being held up by the Divine Mother/Mary energies here especially. As I fill up with these energies here in Avalon, I am able to transmit and offer these energies to the soul that I am in service with together.

After taking some months off from offering 1:1 sessions, to rest, go deeply within, focus on our group call series, and publish my book…there is a comforting familiarity yet also an arising newness in going back to 1:1 sessions now again. The ground of offering the SoulFullHeart process is so organic for me at this point, even as every single session is unique and different. The parts that come forward to be felt and connected in each session vary with each soul and yet have this consistent texture too that is beautiful to witness.

I am noticing that timelines and soul aspects/fragments are so ripe to be seen, connected with, the veil lifting, and soul gift exchange happens with them as karmic soul patterns heal and transmute. With so much collapse/transition going on in 3D, these soul frequencies can be a relief and yet also open up much deeper vistas of digestion.It is such a blessing and honor to me to hold the space for a soul’s unfolding and remembrance. It is my expression of service to the Divine Mother and I am humbly honored to BE it.

I have felt a particular call to work with the mature woman (over 30) who has been awakening for awhile, has engaged in deeper emotional healing work, may be a healer/teacher/wayshower/light worker herself, and wants to go to the ‘next level’ of embodiment of her Divine Essence in all areas of her life with the courage and desire to make life choices that support this process.

There is a sense more and more growing within too of wanting to draw our soul family to us as well, scattered as they may be across the world, which is happening at an increasing rate since coming here to Avalon. The sessions are really a doorway and initiation into that eventual community experience, a calibration and ‘practice’ for the relational realness that we exchange with each other. If you are drawn to the energy for which I/we share our writings/videos and all of us as well, perhaps it is the time for exploring and eventually reclaiming that soul family connection….starting from within and the healing of the inner family.

It feels as if so many of us have chosen this lifetime as the opportunity to complete long-standing cycles of incarnational suffering.Now is the time for the healing of fear at the deepest levels of self and soul. Now is the time to be in authentic expression of your Divine Self in all areas of life. Now is the time to complete patterns of suffering in relationships and move into resonant soul bonds. Now is the time to reclaim a frequency of purity that just needs to be uncovered.

If interested in a session with me for women for $130 CAD/$100 USD/$75 pounds for 90 minutes over zoom or here in-person in Glastonbury, contact me via soulfullhearts@gmail.com or PM here on FB. Raphael also offers sessions with men; Gabriel with men and women; and Kasha with women and we are finding an increased depth and grace arising during sessions here. There is more information at soulfullheart.org/sessions

I recommend my latest book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out as a way to connect more with the process, paradigm and way of life that we offer: soulfullheart.org/books

I also recommend my guided meditation video series Deepen as an experience of my energy and of connecting with parts/soul aspects of yourself: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Pic is me looking through a hole in one of the wonderful stone friends at Avebury Stone Circle..reminds of the journey we take together in sessions into the previously unknown places within!

The Journey Back To Love

Love can be a tough thing to let in a lot of the time. So much in the way between us and it. Trauma, wounds, pains, challenges, dependencies, contracts, fear…the list goes on. It is a journey that is not an easy one.

Love illuminates so much of what has ailed us in the Heart and Soul. We cannot bypass those wounds, we can only choose to not go there until we can no longer continue to hide without suffering. When you choose the path back to Love, Real Love, it is a soul decision to go through what appears like a hell to the part of you that has kept it all that at bay.

It is not about suiting up to withstand the pain and fear, but about arriving with the willingness to shed and reveal until you are naked at the foot of the Divine. This is the altar by which we become altered and transformed into something brand new.

It is not a plunge but a gentle process of feeling one step at a time. Any desire to ‘get rid of your shit’ is really coming from a part of you that is tired of holding it. That is understandable, yet there is another you there that can take it from this part and go through the process in a more self-loving way.

This is the journey that I have walked and continue to walk. It is ongoing but not a suffering loop. It is feeling everything that needs attention that doesn’t feel like Love toward me, anyone, or anything else. I live and offer this as my life’s Purpose and Work. If you ever feel that things are getting to be too much on the outside, or overwhelming on the inside, please feel the invitation from my heart to yours.

I have experienced many trials and shadow places within myself to understand what you are going through. I also have the capacity of compassion to hold the space even if I haven’t had similar experiences. These are trying times and sometimes we just need to be seen and felt in it all to shine the light on the next steps of release, forgiveness, and growth. Please don’t hesitate to reach out, and if there is hesitation we can feel that too.

Many blessings to you on your journey back to Love.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Full Moon Illuminates The Need To Be An Ambassador Of Love To The Dark

Last night’s full moon drew me out of bed in the wee hours. It was obscured but oh so mesmerizing as always.

I was reflecting on a session I just had with someone in the afternoon, where we met an ‘entity’ that has been in her room for a few months, usually connected to in sleep. It has not been necessarily foreboding, but a bit of a trickster, yet some understandable fear from the inner child.
She was offered to have it ‘removed’ by someone, and that didn’t quite land square with her heart. Nor mine when I felt it. Many times these energies are seeking to be felt and connected with, they just don’t have a good sense of how to make that happen. Plus parts of us get fear triggers and that can distort the need as well.

We were able to feel together how this being was actually a part of another life dynamic that was connected to another Metasoul sister of hers in another timeline. He was actually seeking forgiveness and needed an ambassador of love to bridge to this timeline and her.
By looking through the lens of love and compassion, something new illuminated. Where once this foreboding figure seemed dark, somewhat scary, and mysterious, it now felt very human and very tender.

This felt to reflect so much of how parts of us see and react to the world around us. In fear, we light and dark. In love, we actually see varying shades of possibility, potential, and compassion with curiosity. We get to choose how we want to relate to that which we either don’t understand or that which we have a deep reaction to.

We are creators within the One Great Creator. Ultimately the Creator Itself experiencing Itself through our consciousness. With all the darkness coming to Light, I wanted this to be a reminder of what we can choose to see and feel about everything around us and in us. Therein lies the true north of our deepest desire to be in Love, with Love, as Love.

Full moon blessings and illumination to you.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

New Phase, New Name: Becoming ‘Kasha’

by Kasha Rokshana

Today I’m officially stepping into my new ‘name’. This has been digesting for a while and I’ve been going into process lately with ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me to work with and feel deeply. There’s something so powerful, so meaningful, about drawing a new name to you. It’s a graduation and it’s an invitation. It’s a feeling of ‘arrival’ and yet too, it’s a portal into feeling your personal next steps in your process.

Feeling ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me has already been illuminating the patterns I’ve embodied related to service, men and romance, friendships, connections to the Divine and my own Divine Self, and really my relationship overall to the world ‘outside’ of me and my approach until recently to being with my inner world too.

‘Kasha’, interestingly, means ‘pure’, which happens to be the same meaning as my birth name in this life! This was completely synchronistic. My birth name ‘Kathleen’ and its short form ‘Katie’ both mean ‘pure’ as well. ‘Rokshana’ is a variation of ‘Roxanne’ in some languages and means ‘illumined one’ or ‘star’, yet in Farsi it means ‘light’, which I also didn’t realize until I looked it up. The synchronicity with that name is that it holds the same meaning as ‘Solais’, which was the last name Gabriel and I chose together when we were engaged. ‘Rokshana’ was offered to me in a vision as a last name before ‘Kasha’ was offered to Jelelle for me and she invited me to feel into it. The two names together mean ‘Pure Light’ and when you say them out loud, you feel the waveform and energy they hold! Woooosh!

This shift from ‘Kalayna’ is both sobering and exciting for me as Kasha. It’s a rebirth as a name change always is, yet differentiating from who I’ve been for the last few years of my life is not exactly simple, though it is very alive. Kalayna is my 4D Self in many ways and as her I walked out many stark ups and downs of awakening and death and rebirth cycles that were quite intense and dark. She has had her own experience of life and relationships and service of love that need some more digesting. I’m separating out from yet another ‘persona’ layer and it’s emotional yet exciting too.

I can already feel the NEW energies that ‘Kasha’ holds as my emerging ‘self’ and am looking forward to exploring that even deeper. As my energy as ‘Kalayna’ rests more, the integration of Kalayna’s gifts into ‘Kasha’ will be powerful. I can already feel a negotiation ground emerging and it’s sweet to let in.

Thank you for celebrating this shift with me!

Love,

Kasha ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Free To Be 5D Group Call Excerpt (VIDEO): 3D Consciousness, 3D Self, & Parts

In this video, SoulFullHeart Co-creators and Teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about 3D Consciousness, the 3D Self, and the process of differentiating from 3D Self parts of us (such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, etc.) that feel reaction, depression, hurt, pain, fear, etc.

This video features excerpts from a two-hour long group call on July 22, 2020 that was part of the Free To Be 5D series.This series is based on Chapter Three of the Free To Be 5D book by Jelelle Awen, which provides a summary about the 3D Self, how and why it forms, and deeper descriptions of the parts that make it up, such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, Inner Teenager, etc.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their parts process and experience of the meditation.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on July 22 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharing from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our group call series Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside
https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.org/freeetobe5dgroupcallseries

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit: http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings. You can donate through PayPal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or soulfullheart.org/shop.

The Light Side Of The Moon

Letting a new vibration of Joy inside of me today. For the past 8 years I have been doing deep inner work as well as resisting it on many occasions. This ebb and flow has brought me to new shores of my emotional and spiritual landscape.

I remember taking pictures like these in Mexico but there was still pain and suffering in my heart and Metasoul. I feel like I have entered the Light Side of the Moon, sort of speak. I know that there is still Shadow to attend to, but now I feel I am more rooted in the Light, in the Joy, and in the passion of purpose.

I owe this to the work I have been a part of these past years. My soul has made a pivot toward more goodness and Love. It feels lasting. I welcome the challenges to it so that I can feel how deeply rooted it is in me. I am inviting more initiations and guidance from my space-holders and mentors, Raphael and Jelelle, my soul friend Kalayna Solais, as well as Yeshua/Magdalene for my deepening sacred masculine and feminine integration.

I know now who I AM more than I ever have. Why I am here is more embodied and understood the more I have healed and integrated all that I have been through, with the help and support of my community. I wish more than anything to share that with others who are deeply drawn to this path of deep self-transmutation. I am not just a facilitator but facilitant. A teacher and a student. Always a student. Always humbled to let go and let in all that leads to my I AM.

My heart is full, open, and ready to serve when the time is right for those I am meant to. So blessed to be Here…Now with those that I am serving and learning from.

Sending Sirian Sun codes to all the parts of you that still feel lost in the dark.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❤

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❤

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall 💕

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.