The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall 💕

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Free Consultation Calls With Gabriel Heartman

So many rumblings and reactions happening right now. So much shadow coming to the surface to be met with love instead of fear. This can be a lot to hold with all of the energies swirling and popping.

In SoulFullHeart we feel all the parts of us that are in pain, reaction, and/or confusion. We feel the Metasoul aspects that may be bleeding through at this time and needing your attention and care.

This is very catalytic work that can be attested to by those that are currently in session space with us. It does require a real desire for change, not just temporal relief. Yet, there is a self-loving way to be with the change that is knocking on your door.

I, along with Raphael Awen and Kalayna Solais, offer a free consultation call to feel with you what your presenting pains/fears/frustrations are and see how the process can navigate you to deep, transformational change. Moving out of the old way of being and into a new way of seeing and feeling yourself and the world. An invitation to the community within you and our community on the outside.

There is support during these times and I would love to help feel how I, and we as a group, can support that. I have been in this process for 8 years now and I have gone from very dark days to a deep and profound connection to myself, to others, to the world, and the Divine. I want to share and serve that to others who are in the space I was back then.

“After only a short time of sharing Gabriel was able to help me identify aspects of my gatekeeper and protector that have been currently activated, and now I can build a relationship with them. Gabriel’s feedback clearly comes from deep listening, to his facilitant and to his own deepest self. I felt seen, and seen through, safely with great compassionate understanding. What I’m feeling is so special about this work is how embodied it is.”

For more about my story you can visit: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel

For more information on SoulFullHeart Consult Calls and Sessions visit:
https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

You can email me at gabriel@soulfullheart.org or PM as well.

Sending you much love and grace during these shifting and rumbling times.

Arising Anew From The Collapse Of The 3D Matrix

In the midst before me, I see a dying story. A matrix of beliefs and conditionings that we have all, to one degree or another, found ourselves playing a part of. We have written and acted in the play together, to sheer perfection.

But we have crossed certain markers in our path too many times now to begin to recognize that the house we contracted to build together is burning. It is running on the fumes of a fear of fusing to the building itself. We are not burning. The house is.

This can be a very existential experience to our 3D self as well as a very triggering remembrance to our Metasoul brothers and sisters that have experienced a collapse before. They have not been pretty, nor self-loving. But that doesn’t mean they can’t be.

Deaths are never easy and have their own energies to be with, yet if we can find that essence within us to hold the space of this transmutation then we may find ourselves like the rose among the ashes.

Connecting with your 3D & 4D selves with the aid of your 5D/Higher Self, a managed collapse is possible and also very self-loving. That is not the same as easy, just setting the suffering gauge to as minimal as possible. It is really up to you in the end.

How we leave is who we enter as.

Our fear can come with us as long as we are willing to go into it and feel it. This is the process that is supported in SoulFullHeart. It is holding the Light so that we can transform the Dark. We are both.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Offering My Services As A Facilitator (Once Again!)

I am super stoked to announce that I am officially back in the saddle as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator!

I am very honored and blessed to be offering this space again with a much different heart-set. Last fall things were taking off for me and it wound up triggering some much needed things for me to feel on my own. I needed to recalibrate to myself and to fully claim this as my life’s path and purpose.

Through the Dark Night journey, I held space for that in a way I had not really done for myself before, and honestly no one could have done it for me at that time. I clearly needed the time in the desert to get closer to God and The Divine within to take me where I was meant to go. It was there that I felt what I wanted and was being called to serve, but this time from a much more humble and embodied place.

I am so very grateful to Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, and Kalayna Solais for opening the door for me to restart my healing process (not that it was ever closed). I was deeply honored to have been invited to be a Collaborator and serve in any capacity that felt important.

The path back to facilitation was always the goal but being in the present with gratitude was my sacred journey. I can feel in all my time away that I had parts that did not feel they even wanted to be a leader, or maybe even deserved it. A lot of metasoul pieces to unravel and feel around this theme. Connecting my inner masculine with my inner feminine and with Yeshua have been a big part of this healing in him to really land in this new timeline and the gifts and desire I hold for service.

I look forward to continuing my own inner journey with Raphael as my facilitator, Jelelle as a mentor and guide, and Kalayna as a mentor and co-leader in our Saturday service of Love in our group calls. A big grateful hug to all of you for trusting me and seeing me when I couldn’t see myself. I love you.

And also a big thank you to all of you who were a part of this journey with me over Facebook during that time. Your connection meant the world to me and my parts.

So, with that said, I am open for a free Consultation Call to feel through any curiosities, interest, or desire you may have around this extremely catalytic work called SoulFullHeart. I will bridge to you what this work has meant for me and what it has to offer you should it feel like a mutual fit and support for your growth and healing.

You can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

I look forward to offering all that I have learned and earned on my journey back to loving myself, loving life, and loving you.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Path Of The Unspoken Heart: A Poem

By Kalayna Solais

Both powerful and scary
is the independent heart
That loves with everything it has
And gravitates towards
only love that flows
Not love that spits and stammers
and hammers on home
a declaration
that it in fact is superior love.
There’s no wrong in truths long hidden
Though pain emits
from the now lighted pathways
That couldn’t be felt
Or digested
Before.
Now in new light of day
New ownership beckons
Of what was left unclaimed
And in shadow.
No…
There is no ‘wrong way’ in this world
For all paths lead somewhere
And to some satisfaction.
It’s the path of into the unspoken heart, though
That calls most to my own soul
And the souls of those
Near and nearing my dimension
Held with love
And invited with care.
This is a declaration in softness
Both spoken and written
And awakened in this very heart that shares
Into the din of what cannot move
Without being invited from within.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

What Happens In A SoulFullHeart Bridging Session?

by Kalayna Solais

 

 

 

I was inspired to do this video today to offer some picture of what it’s actually like to have a SoulFullHeart session, realizing that we haven’t fully explained it really, and even then, it does shift a lot depending on the soul involved!

I go into how the spaceholding begins really with the first point of contact, when you ask for a Bridging Session. We are feeling you already from the very beginning and feeling what it is you may need bridging to inside of yourself, especially through your answers to the questions found on our Sessions page: soulfullheart.org/sessions.

From here we offer guided meditations to get you started (most likely at least one about connecting with the the Inner Protector, which I offer myself here: https://youtu.be/zg44jCiGZfs).

I explain some more as well about the actual structure of a session and how we approach the process of feeling deep trauma with parts of you.

For more information about sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions! You can also feel free to comment below and I will be happy to answer any questions you may have.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Feel Yourself To Free Yourself

I am still. I create stillness in the storm. The mental and emotive energetic swirls dance around me. I am them and not them at the same time. I cannot just be one or the other. It is what makes me human to be both. I learn from each state of action and inaction. 

Which of these swirls are mine? Which are yours? Which are theirs? Without the stillness it is hard to discern. With each breath I seek feeling. My doorway to what is real for me. This comes first. The desire. The anxiety. The fear. The doubt. The passion. The anger. The joy and the love. 

These are the Akashic records of my humanity. They are my portals to this and other lives. They are my barometers and my heart rails. I have grown to own them, to meet them, and get to the root of them. It is digging in the soil and getting dirty in the darkness. I am transported to worlds that are in turmoil and worlds that are majestic. 

Freedom is not an external combination lock. It is not the completion of an If/Then statement. No one person or action can free you from yourself. You may get relief, but you will not get You. The You that is underneath all of those wounds a part of you holds so dear. It is in those wounds that your sacred self is born and bred.

Seek the stillness. Seek the energy that make up your selves stored in your cells. This is their prison. Not the conditions and circumstances you find yourself in. You are the lock and the key. Feel yourself to free yourself. 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the next Free To Be group call this Wednesday at 10am PST. These are catalytic and self-informative experiences that help support you in your current journey during these evolving times. More info at www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe.

One to one bridging sessions into the SoulFullHeart process are available by Raphael Awen and Kalayna Solais. Go to www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘Sacred Sisterhood’ Is Emerging More As Part Of ‘New/5D Earth’ Transition

by Kalayna Solais

I wrote down some feelings of Sacred Sisterhood a few months ago when a new wave of ‘sacred sisters’ was just emerging onto my shores, in my heart and soul field, and in the flesh no less! This was not just about my growing INNER sisterhood, though that is always deepening and being felt more and more… this was about feeling the resonance of other women around my age and beyond that too, feeling us coming together more in realness, uniqueness, yet also a desire to heal and be healed and not leave any part of us or Metasoul aspect behind in the process.

I’m feeling something today about women learning to actually see each other and love each other deeply and how this seems to be happening within my beloved SoulFullHeart community and possibly elsewhere too. There is something to be said for the ‘restriction’ of not being able to go outward and do many outward things right now and feeling, then, the new portals to going inward – going YINward – that I feel is helping us all go to our next levels of feeling why we’ve had a hard time holding deeper friendships and being with other women as women. We’ve been invited to continue the journey of looking within and seeing each other as sacred mirrors of the continued inner work. We’ve been invited to feel the triggers yet actually find some stillness around them too, feeling the parts and Metasoul aspects in other timelines where they could be coming from, which then leads to a more open heart towards each other.

I hear women claiming ‘realness’ when they’re being harsh and even abusive, fusing to their Inner Punishers or other energies in their soul timelines and lashing out as a way to off-gas what actually isn’t about the other person at all. I hear women claim ‘Well, I am just direct and blunt’ when I can’t feel how this directness has heart or care in it for the other person. When I hear words like these, I can feel their Inner Matriarch who is in pain about never being met with actual realness, vulnerability, and care themselves and quite often they’ve also taken in these abusive frequencies, even from the maternal line in their birth families. Underneath this is often a pain of being the biggest soul in the room, who hasn’t ever felt truly initiated into their soul gifts or deeply seen for them either. It’s also an energy that covers over the more vulnerable energies and parts inside that just want to love and want the battles to be over so they can play and connect more with others, like with the Inner Child or even the Teenager once she has finally had some air.

In my deepening relationships with women in my life who have been very consciously working and feeling all this and more within themselves, what becomes new is the way in which it can all be shared… all the nuances of feelings and reactions. These parts don’t have to be any less ‘real’ or even more vulnerable and open than they’re ready for yet, yet they do get to be held now and seen in a new way, acknowledging that these energies they hold that often feel competitive and push away at the deeper love and intimacy that’s possible are NOT their whole story or all that they have within them.

I’ve been so pleasantly surprised (and not!) to feel how much deeper my relationships with these other women can go once we have done the work to be able to hold realness, feel reactions, share them, and also acknowledge the impact of this in every moment. The result of these exchanges is more love, not less, that gets to be shared; more seeing of each other and each other’s uniqueness and gifts; more compassion than was transactable between us before, for now we know more about each other’s backgrounds, stories, and ongoing processes.

This, to me, is a sacred template emerging for Sacred Sisterhood. It’s always in exploration. There are no rules and sometimes messes are made. Abuse is a thing of the past, though sometimes exchanges are intense if necessary. There’s a personal sense of accountability for your own energies and process and there’s a desire to be transparent and deepen the intimacy ground.

This all feels to me like the new ground going forward that’s possible in ALL relationships of all kinds if the time and space are taken to go inward, to lean into work such as this, to dig into those deeper wounds and find gold, and to begin, ultimately, to seed the ground of what New Earth/Golden Earth/5D Earth relationships get to look and feel like! There can only be BLISS as this moves and deepens our healing and the yield of 5D Earth/Sacred Human consciousness within you and in your relationships makes it all worth it. The practice ground for this is always within, yet when these sacred friendships emerge on your radar, this is a chance to really apply all you’ve realized and seek out all you’ve most wanted to experience but were afraid to ask for with another.

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Moving Back Into Being A SoulFullHeart Facilitator!

by Kalayna Solais

When I came back in the ‘SoulFullHeart door’ in January after a few months away from the community, it was on waves of newly awakened desire to BE in community, arising from the new developments and layers that had been healed within my inner world. I felt elated, relieved, SO happy to be back in sessions and to be felt in everything I had moved through and held ‘on my own’ — which was never really ‘on my own’ as I felt the Divine holding me the whole time and had so much support from everything I had cultivated within in connection to my Star Family and high-vibe Metasoul aspects in other timelines too.

I knew in my heart that this was the work I was meant to be doing, though I didn’t know yet how that would help me reconnect to the community and soul purpose work I missed so much. There was a definite void in my life and it was hard, so hard, to be with that every day, even as there were SO many new openings happening within and a solidifying sense of self that I couldn’t have found if I hadn’t been ‘away’ and holding my own process so deeply.

I knew that even though I had a passion for facilitating and heart-open space holding for others that it would likely be many months before I would find myself holding that ‘role’ again. Actually, I’ve had to learn A LOT about how this is NOT a ‘role’. It’s been very, very humbling for parts of me to realize there is NO way to ‘perform’ soul purpose, it just IS and it just FLOWS with who you are and are becoming, starting inside. There is nothing that can be fabricated or manufactured about it. No ‘image’ can be conjured. For me at least, this is what has been true as I continue to really dig deep and purify my reasons for wanting to serve love, discovering more layers as to why I’ve been so drawn to it, and to humbly accept every step of the process to embodying this!

I am deeply humbled to be stepping back into this space of being a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women once again! I truly feel both excited and sober. I get how deep the pain is for parts of you and how much longing there is to heal but also how much damage and hurt has sometimes been endured from others in the name of seeking that. I know that it takes a lot for parts of you, especially the Inner Protector, to let yourself and other parts of you be felt and held space for, to let their pain come to the surface to heal instead of just be dealt with or coped with in order to simply survive life. My desire is to help you find your own empowering and fulfilling steps into your healing that can’t really be predicted, just felt and walked out.

Feel free to send me a message if you’d like to book a session with me and/or visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions to find out more information! My personal page is also back ‘up’ again if you’d like to read more about me and take in more of my energy.

Much, much love to YOU and every part/Metasoul aspect too!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Faciltator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.