Coming ‘Home’: My Journey Away From And Back Again To Soul Family

by Kalayna Solais

I feel like I’ve arrived back ‘home’…

And in many ways, I have!

I have been on a journey inward for the last three months. I collapsed my relationship to my beloveds here in SoulFullHeart, my ‘title’ as a Facilitator/teacher of this way of life and process, and even my ‘role’ as a wife on a deeper level. I have been returning to myself. Returning ‘home’ to me so that I could feel what I truly wanted in my soul and what I was working, healing, and birthing on that level and beyond.

For me, this separation phase was never about completely severing everything that has made me ‘me’… this SoulFullHeart process has been the one thing that has ever worked for me, reaching deep into the heart and soul of my wounds and my gifts too. In fact, it was this process that held the steps into separation and the bigger context of it and held all of us through everything that came out of it and is still unfolding too.

Letting go of these souls that I have so much ‘history’ with on a heart and soul level has been one of the hardest things for me to do. What was so interesting to me though, were the many moments of dawning realizations, not just of what had to collapse between us and why in both this life and other lifetimes, but also of these newly arising senses of how to serve myself in my own unfolding process and how this was the only way to find connection with my beloveds again if that was to arise someday. This allowed me to feel so much surrender to every moment of sadness, anger, despair, joy, and connection both inner and outer and allowed me to allow in the Divine, Star Family, parts of me, and aspects of my Metasoul in other lifetimes too.

I found ways to feel my heart again, even though it was breaking. I found openings within me on the other side of many tears and sometimes rather feverish journaling and deep meditation experiences that allowed me to feel deeply loved and held by an energy both bigger than me and as big as me too. I could feel my beloveds actually living inside of me, where they would always live, no matter what happened next.

And, I trusted. Oh, how I trusted… I trusted every time I felt like trying to be social was a stretch for my parts that day and stayed home instead. I trusted every journal entry, every time I felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere, every time I was reminded to be gentle with myself because parts of me were getting too caught up in accomplishing or ‘getting over this’ already and couldn’t be gentle with themselves or each other. I trusted every feeling of being in a heavy downward shame spiral, knowing that if I could just hold it and be with it, I would find the other side of it. And sure enough, there were my guides in the form of beloved Metasoul and Divine connections, calling out to me, reminding me to lift UP and hold it all with my bigness and heart capacity, not go down with it. I realized over and over again how humbling this is to do and how no one can teach you how to do this, it has to come from your own experience.

I’m still digesting the goodness that I’ve earned now…that is really about earning the expanded capacity to transact goodness and love with others, not the goodness itself so much. I had goodness even in the separation. I just have it again in these precious relationships with those that know me better than anyone ever has and who I am getting to know and fall in LOVE with all over again.

My heart is full, happy and humbled to be ‘back’… to be in sessions again as a Facilitant and perhaps eventually a Facilitator when it’s another phase of that for me. I highly recommend meeting with Raphael or Jelelle for a session, at least one, to get a taste for yourself of what I’m sharing here. This process has a deep impact that can’t be forgotten, even if you only dive into it for a while. More information here about sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love to you, from the heart of my journey to the heart of yours!

~ Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Experiencing Soul Resonant Community During Our Equinox Gathering: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 16, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

We have a FULL Museletter for you this week, with two weeks worth of articles, digestions and announcements! Last week we held and deeply celebrated our first ever SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering which was a heart-opening, soul-affirming, and deeply intimate experience for everyone involved!

Jelelle Awen leads this week’s Museletter with a sweet digestion of the overall Gathering experience and the many, many gifts it offered and continues to offer each of us:

“I just feel so honored that these amazing souls would come here to stay in our home, trusting the energy they have previously experienced in sessions to create a meaningful and worthwhile experience for themselves. The Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers in us all increasingly grew in trust as their fears and resistances, their protections of the precious little ones inside, any projections lifted and eased as love flowed instead of fear.”

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

Jelelle will be leading a virtual women’s group call this Sunday, September 29th over Zoom. The purpose of this call is to provide a transmission of codes to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment. You can receive these frequencies live with her (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with her what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from her.

There will be a Group Transmission led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen in October. The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12th at 10am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman in person for a FREE guided meditation and sharing circle! They will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation. Raphael and Gabriel will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Jelelle has released a brand NEW guided meditation video that is also an introduction to the women’s group call this coming Sunday. It’s called ‘Connect To Your Inner Feminine’. She says this about the video: “This is a brief video that I recorded this morning to offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner feminine. This is a taste of what will be a deeper exploration into the sacred feminine during my Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday, September 29 at 10:00am PDT. Women over 18 can attend this call live or receive the recording.”

Many new articles and a new audio blog for you this week! Jelelle Awen, Raphael, Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, share ongoing energy updates and digestions of their personal processes that are intended to inspire your own. There is new poetry,  more messages from the Divine, and much LOVE and support to download from each piece.

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Realizing The Reality Of Soul Community Intimacy, Goodness, And Love

by Kalayna Colibri

I can’t think of a single thing that is sweeter than my soul family community. Intimacy in the most genuine and heartfelt sense is shared with mutual reverence and flowing love. Codependent ties or binds are felt and moved through, healed through, to let in more genuine love without any sense of duty, obligation or resentment.

If this sounds ideal to you, I totally get it.
And this reality doesn’t come without a cost, first and ongoingly.

It is a heart and soul investment. It is a money investment, too. I choose to contribute to my community financially every month through teaching English online. This helps to fund our efforts to grow our healing work, to welcome more souls into our community as resonance deepens and their own commitment to their own SoulFullHeart path deepens. Until my own soul purpose of facilitating this powerful work deepens and living into that means no more need to teach English. This is a choice that I feel and talk about and check-in with and one that I choose to renew every month because I can’t imagine doing anything else.

My own path of deepening in this community has been extensive and deep and it continues to deepen with each next ‘yes’ moment of commitment and desire to being here with me, with them. I have let go of much… I have felt through many layers of entitlement, of non-relationality, of non-vulnerability, of fear, of rejection-reactions… I continue to feel myself and my parts in every moment, to truly let in MORE love, starting from me to me, that then gets to transact with my community, my teachers, my beloveds.

Nothing ‘ideal’ or dream-worthy can come to your life and reside in your reality without being willing to awaken around every corner, to hold the dream and vision alive that what you want can and WILL come to you, as you go to it through your inward tunnel-digging and mining. This community, this healing path where there is so much nourishment and love, cannot become real until you can become real. And I feel this everytime I am gifted with the opportunity of another moment with each person around me and the resonance we share.

This writing today comes on the heels of a wonder-filled day, that happened to be a birthday celebration for a dear facilitant and soul friend. We all shared love with her and with each other, digesting all of the frustrations and openings and reactions and inner processes of this past week, which really was one of the toughest weeks we have had as a community in a long time. Yet, instead of reacting and becoming divided amongst us when the pressure was on and the chaos was high, we came closer to ourselves and then closer together, as we always seem to do. It actually strengthened our resolve and clarity and visions individually and as a community and our boundaries became stronger, too. Our boundaries that state very strongly who we are, what we are offering, and what we are worth.

All that said, there is still time to join us for our group call today, to experience our group Merkabah yourself, to dip a toe in the SoulFullHeart pool and see what it may offer you in resonance, healing, and love. It’s an $11 usd min. donation to join in, and if you can’t make it today at 11:11am CST, you can join us next month or the month after… we have many ways in which you can choose your next steps of engagement with us, including individual session space. For more information on the group call today, please go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/157662331543311/

Love to you and WITH you… 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.