Deep existential trust is coming to know and feel your well being, your wealth, your worth, that your investments are safe, that you will never and can never be outside of being held in this trust.

Wayne – Good Morning again, Yeshua. I’m curious where we might go today.

Yeshua – You know, Wayne, most days I don’t know either until we do. It takes two to channel. My sense is we’ll keep going until we feel it’s complete, for now at least.

W – I like your senses. 🙂

Y – Thank you. Any sense of where we might go today?

W – I am feeling something this morning about people taking in our words and writing deeply and them feeling despair around the gap between what we’re discussing and where they’re at.

Y – When you say that, Wayne, I get two things: one is a feeling of an old caretaking vibe in you, where you made it your job to help people like a nice Christian pastor would and then I also get your ache to have people join you in this new reality. Does that feel accurate?

W – There you go with those senses again. Yes, that pretty much captures it.

Y – Well, my ‘sense’ is this….People need their despair, often times to be left alone in it, to bake in it. Despair is what eventually moves them. Caretaking nice guys come along and seek to get ahead by helping people bleed the pressure for people of their very alchemical despair with some nice solutions. Christianity fits real well in that, so does most all of what’s called, ‘spirituality’ today. How are people to get any leverage on their soul’s life lessons when nice guys come along and offer them a little relief?

W – But how does that fit with our energy in sharing these downloads we’ve been doing together?

Y – This stuff goes to whom it’s been given to…. to those with ears ready to hear. They’ve earned their way here, over plenty more than just this life.

W – So then, how’s this not an elite and special chosen one’s game?

Y – Holding your worth, your real worth, doesn’t need any glamour or public recognition to make it real. Glamour and public recognition is usually a sign that it’s been corrupted into a self unworthiness game. Real worth just is, and real worth is imputed and conveyed upon the bearer by the one willing to pay. You paid your way into this. You earned it. You are deserving of it. It’s yours and no one can take it away.

W – If I contrast your energy just now with my question, I get how my elite question is usually a defensive part of us making a case for staying stuck because it is afraid of inhabiting our real power.

Y – The collective is full of endeared values and beliefs that are warming blankets to staying stuck. You share in the collective energy. It holds you in your despair until you are ready to launch your marked journey out of it.

W – With a rocket ship strapped to your ass, it feels like.

Y – Well, it’s back pressured, no doubt. These are soul lessons you’ve been aching to pop for a long time. It’s crazy, the pace of it, no doubt, and yet there’s grace to walk out the steps of it too. Your soul and the divine co-create this stuff while you thought you were just sleeping.

W – There’s so much autonomous power in our essence, I’m feeling. It doesn’t feel real at all to the nice guy who goes about swapping niceties, or the guy who bullshits at the bar swapping densities.

Y – And Wayne….this is the bedrock of currency in your life…deeper and deeper coming to terms with your power, coming to terms with your LIFE, coming to terms with your worth, your essence and your despair…all of it…that makes changes to what you do for money, how you draw money. Poverty and abundance are both of the heart. Both get their permission and backing from the heart. They are both a made up agreement between you and you.

W – Okay, now we’re tweaking some stuff again.

Y – What’s tweaking in you?

W – This is a whole new world, Yeshua. Most folks aren’t interested in that. They just want a fix for the one they’ve got.

Y – And, my god, don’t spend your life giving them a little pill to pop to help them manage. Affording them relief from symptoms that they are in fact choosing is interfering with their autonomy and power. Let the dead bury the dead. You go on into the life you have chosen. Live it. breathe it. Hold it like the king you are. Make no apology, Wayne. Love ‘em and leave ‘em.

W – I don’t feel you saying that lightly.

Y – And you know this if anyone does, Wayne. Truly loving and leaving someone because of shifting values is a respect for them and you that goes far deeper and takes way more heart to bear. It recognizes that your transactions and exchanges are complete on one level and now move to a different level. You can never really separate from anyone, on another level, as you are all connected, but you can and must choose how, when, and why you interact with anyone. You get to do this because of your interconnectedness with all things. Your life and relationships are a currency. It is always changing to express what is moving or current in you.

W – In fact, on a soul level, staying connected with someone when you are in fact complete with them is to actually be in a mutual harm pact with them.

Y – All wired up around unfelt existential terror that hasn’t been digested yet.

W – Sometimes, I don’t know whether to ask you to stop or keep going…

Y – I don’t need or want a moderator.

W – And I want to host the people’s interest reading this.

Y – Feel into what’s your job here, Wayne. People to whom this is given will have no problem receiving it. People to whom it is not given won’t likely have even found this writing or made their way this far. This is real currency….finding people who like the color of your cash. Your currency will not spend with everyone and it isn’t meant to. It comes from a different world. It flows among its own members.

W – And how does it effectively draw new members?

Y – It does that powerfully and effortlessly when you are ready to be you and not some half version of you, stuck between worlds, being nice, relateable and relevant.

W – Yeshua, I am so wanting this old structure in me to let go.

Y – Then get ready for the shift because LIFE is wanting to bring it to you. Your soul’s despair is moving from a phase where it was used to keep you small while that was what you needed and choose, to a phase where your despair is healing into a trust allowing you now to both experience and lead deep soul trust.

W – Wow, trust…..the stuff money and currency is made of…

Y – Deep existential trust is coming to know and feel your well being, your wealth, your worth, that your investments are safe, that you will never and can never be outside of being held in this trust.

W – Write a few checks on that account, huh?

Y – And see how they spend in heart and soul transactability in everyday interactions with people and money. Your everyday choices are always expressions of this. They have a one-to-one correlation with what’s true on your inside.

W – You know, Yeshua, I think a lot more folks might be looking for a radical new world than the one we’ve built so far. This one seems to be coming apart at the seams like there’s no tomorrow.

Y – The new world is emerging, Wayne, and you’ve just been ready to ride on the wave.

W – Thanks for helping me with your intensity around not shrinking back…

Y – You’ve come to far to go back, Wayne.

W – You’re right, I have. 🙂

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.