What’s killing so many people right now is not their dead end job, but rather their unwillingness to make a baby step of change and then find enough courage for another. And, yes, that will kill someone for sure. It’s the universe’s version of a mercy killing. Depression and anxiety, which are the bedrock of your current money systems, along with the host of other unfelt feelings that hold your relationship to money, are the result of refusal to change. It’s a built in deadness comfort. It’s moderating the degree one will be in life or not.

Yeshua – Whoa, Wayne. You’re awake today. What’s up?

Wayne – That’s what I need your help to find out. It’s not even 4 am and I can’t sleep any more.

Y – Plenty of time to sleep later. Cool. What’s rumbling through you? Tell me some, man.

W – It’s an intersection of a few things, I guess. I just sent a thank you note to a man who’s deeply into alternative currency who thanked me deeply for these dialogues. I’ve felt my words and heart go into our SoulFullHeart family and that is profound, no doubt, yet can be minimized somehow too, as it’s taken for granted as a new reality.

Y – Reality was meant to be taken for granted. 🙂

W – Until it’s not?

Y – Precisely. Because reality is never real.

W – All made up as we go.

Y – Just checking, you are awake. 🙂

W – I love that so much, Yeshua. Making up shit as we go. That’s my greatest answer to the folks who wonder if this conversation is real.

Y – Just ask them how they came to believe the conversation they are having with anyone is real.

W – I’m sure that would work with some folks and not with others.

Y – As it’s meant too. But none of it is less sacred. All of us doing journeys at different frequencies of density, deliberately forgetting so we can be re-membered into heart family, over and over again.

W – For a guy who has so much heart to share and give, you can sure be what folks would call ‘crude’ or ‘crass’ at times.

Y – That was a bit sudden to where we were just now.

W – Oh sorry, I was feeling the folks who would be tripping on what we have to offer them because it isn’t in a polite container.

Y – Now, just for the record. I don’t give a flying fuck.

W – Really?

Y – No, that’s not true. I was lying. Well, maybe not. What if both are true?

W – How so?

Y – When we conform to others’ expectations of us, we diminish our essence. Inhabiting a role though, instead of our essence is always less risky. There’s always plenty more roles to be had, but only one essence. We’re at ‘peak roles’ though now you could say, where they just don’t spend like they used to. The market is all dried up. Major death and rebirth for humanity. Where are we going with this, Wayne?

W – Not sure, sometimes I like to just let you wander and wonder and see where we end up.

Y – Oh, yeah, we were on offending some and delighting others. That’s built into the system. That’s relationality. And it happens whether you are more into your essence or a role play version of you. Roles are a deep thing actually and we never stop shedding them is my truth. And it’s only as deep heartfelt worth; worth that you know and feel comes in, that you can ever safely negotiate letting go of a role in the world. The real cool thing though is learning how to bring your delight or your offense in real time, with a real other, to find what’s real. If there’s only a pretentious ground of no conflict, all love and light shit, (fuck that makes me puke) then how the hell are we ever to get to the heaven on earth that our hearts tell us is true?

W – You’re bringing your offense right now.

Y – Totally, and if it pisses someone off royally, enough for them to confront me, then I’ve picked a really good fight. And if they will stay in the ring with me, I will open my heart humbly to the gift that they bring me. If not, I’m gonna try and pick another fight. We are dying for lack of a fight.

W – And this today is about money too?

Y – Money never lies. It tells our story. We inhabit a role for the money. That’s what commonly is called a ‘job’. Unemployment is a crisis of change whose time has simply come. Reality is meant to be a never ending ‘realization’ that what you figured was real, is opening out to new reality, throwing in complete question how you relate to both the old one and new arising one. Another security crisis.

W – Sometimes you get so metaphysical, I can’t quite track it all.

Y – Is that a compliment or a judgment?

W – Looking for a fight again, aren’t you?

Y – Wanna go a round?

W – No, I want you to say more if you will about getting out of our dead money tracks. That’s what’s killing so many people right now stuck in a dead end job.

Y – What’s killing so many people right now is not their dead end job, but rather their unwillingness to make a baby step of change and then find enough courage for another. And, yes, that will kill someone for sure. It’s the universe’s version of a mercy killing. Depression and anxiety, which are the bedrock of your current money systems, along with the host of other unfelt feelings that hold your relationship to money are the result of refusal to change. It’s a built in deadness comfort. It’s moderating the degree one will be in life or not. Being in life is change from the second you win the sperm race, man. Never ending change.

W – Crisis is only change trying to happen, I recall hearing a long ways back.

Y – Isn’t that cool when you stop and feel it? You win the sperm race and the prize is an egg that you get to penetrate, and all the rest of your sperm buddies cheer you on and then give their life for the moment, as you enter never ending change.

W – Yeah, okay, when you put it that way……

Y – Life is graphic, Wayne. It’s wet and slippery. It moves all of us. We are moving together. Money always follows the movements.

W – And I don’t need the whole outside world to change for my money reality to change. I really only need my internal money reality to change. Is that true?

Y – Because there is, at our core, no separation between any of us. When one changes, we all change. This is evidenced by our fear reaction when someone leaves the fold of normalcy. They’ve affected us at a deep level. The entire universe moves with you as you change.

W – That is so freakin’ amazing to me, Yeshua. I’m off to paint and drywall again today, something that has been around for a long time this life, but when I feel it, it’s constantly changing, and taking me somewhere new.

Y – Your days in everything are numbered.

W – ‘So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.’

Y – I still dig those Psalms too. Sometimes.

W – Yeah, I hear you. Kind of a push-pull isn’t it.

Y – Yeah, you gotta share your Jesus journey sometime soon. What was that all about?

W – I’m still figuring that out.

Y – Usually, you need to give what you have in order to get some more.

W – Now, there’s a new money concept.

Y – To get into the place where giving really is true having. Owning and possessing is all up for revamp too, you know. The moment you hang onto anything is the moment it begins to die. It’s true of a tomato, a mate, a faith or belief system, or money in the bank. Interest on money just isn’t interesting anymore, is it?

W – Interest on money just isn’t interesting…hmmm, you just don’t stop. I gotta pause you and us again today.

Y  – I wasn’t the only ampy one today.

W – Yeah, that’s true. Thank you for matching me. I needed that.

Y – Go on you, grand sperm race winner, claim your prize, live in change, live in your heart…

W – I’m gonna give it my best ‘shot!’

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.