By Jelelle Awen
I left the house yesterday after a two week seclusion in a ‘temple womb space’ here that has brought me to new depths within me and with the Divine. Raphael and I went to visit Bey where she lives in the nearby town of Coja, a sweet town near a river with cafes, park, and stores to visit. I felt guided to emerge out of the cocoon space that I have been in during these initial weeks of not taking in physical food and juice/water/dry fasting in order to transition to/calibrate to living on more and more prana/energy and less physical food.
Unlike previous extended transitions/fasts, this one has been easier from an emotional digestion place. All of my parts and soul aspects seem to be accepting and surrendering to the journey, which has taken lots of negotiation over the years as our relationship to food can be such an emotional comfort, a habit, an ingrained program, defining social connection, and much more for parts of us.
The only emotional reaction that really came up was when I went into dry fasting or not drinking anything for 12 hours. Then, I felt resistance and fear come up plus the first time of feeling truly dizzy and weak. I connected this to another lifetime and a soul aspect who had died of thirst in the desert under sad circumstances (more to feel of her in the future.)
I felt Divine Mother guide me to drink again and also go back on drinking juice the next day as well. And I felt how much I am truly holding this with Her in love and goodness for myself and my body, not in ANY energy of forcing, pushing, or will powering my way through it. A deep gratitude-based connection opened out with my body then and I could clearly hear and feel it, what it wanted, and what it was truly ready for….which has been a moment by moment feeling it out process.
Being held in self love and Divine Mother’s love is what allows the energy to flow in to supplement the food. There really does need to be a supplement that is connected to through various channels such as deep breathing, yoga, meditation, prayer….otherwise it isn’t possible for the 3D conditioning mind/body and just isn’t the time yet either. Divine timing and soul timing is a big piece of this as well.
Yesterday, I was amazed to feel these waves of goodness, joy, and magic in being outside at the park and even inside of a fairly noisy cafe. I was curious about what the people around me were eating, not desiring it myself to eat. Yet I was able to merge with their consciousness AS they ate it and feel what they did. Sadly, most people are not in reverence and joy when they eat food yet rather in an automated mode of ‘having to’ or medicating this or that emotion that they don’t want to feel.
Yet, still, I throughly enjoyed what I got to partake in this way, including gazing in awe at the gelato ice cream offerings and the Portuguese pastries too! Not with desire to eat them myself, yet to just take in the marvel of them. This was amazing and I so see how being around other people eating will not be a problem yet rather a joy (as I have heard from other people living mostly on prana as well).
I also felt much softer, receptive, and overall more feminine in my social space as well, which is made easy being with Raphael and Bey, two beings who truly let me in and see me. It was more acceptable within me to be quiet, to be still, to be in receiving mode. I love the feminine that this is bringing out even more!
There have been low energy dip moments and even moments of some muscle cramps, indigestion, detox etc. But, overall, the experience has been joyful and a wonder….a sign of it being right timing for me, at least in this moment. I even went through my period cycle last week with no PMS and way less cramps and hormonal dips, which is big for me as that was worsening in the last year.
I am not sharing all this to ‘sell’ you on anything or even to promote fasting for a phase for you, yet to offer what my experience has been so far. Your Divine Self will take in what it is meant to about it for you, be inspired or not, feel resonant or not….and see where that takes you. There are so many phases to this transition and ALL of them are sacred.
There is no goal or ‘end game’ yet rather more opening out into the Now and your own Divine essence expressing through your body vessel that is getting brighter, cleaner, and lighter.
You are welcome to ask any questions you’d like in the comments, just please no ‘kicking’ at me out of fear or suspicion, yet leading with curiosity and openness is always welcome!
I share more about this journey at: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/ascension/light-body-body-consciousness/living-on-prana/
If you’d like to talk more with me about this for yourself or other diet/body topics and themes, I offer free intros and 1:1 sessions, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.