By Jelelle Awen
Feeling raw in the moment…thought I would write when I am raw rather than when I am ‘clear’ and see what comes through. The rawness is the after effects of a deep emotional body movement yesterday. The rawness is how it feels after a purging that comes from so DEEP within that you wonder how could ALL THIS have possibly existed inside of me somewhere? It has been truly fascinating to me over the years HOW MUCH can actually be IN us, stuck in us, stored in us, and how deep and vast the emotional body and our subconscious actually ARE.
STRONG tears came through for me and I sent a lifeline request out to one of my most precious Metasoul sisters/guides to hold space with me for it. Her love, combined with my embodying higher self’s love, held the space while the pain moved through. When such strong tears come through….those body wrenching sobs, it is like when we throw up. It feels uncomfortable, uncontrollable, and we just want it ‘to be over’. We just want to be ‘on the other side’ and the mind is trying desperately to make sense of it all even as it COMPLETELY transcends the mind (as it is meant to.) We can’t contextual it, it doesn’t matter what the ‘energies in the cosmos’ or doing or not doing or what astrological sign we are moving through. The TRUTH is only in the tears and what is coming through and, in these moments, we are completely present to ourselves and this is the gift of them.
Life brought me recently the perfect situation and trigger to push this oil up, this residue of wounding from a chosen legacy of rejection by older women (starting with my birth mother) who don’t ‘see’ and also resist the LOVE that I am offering them and serving to them. This came to a head yesterday for me as I am bridging what is manifesting of my gift expressions in the virtual to the physical now. I could just be a teacher/waySHOWer, writer, facilitator remotely and virtually (so many are and this is good service)….yet I’ve known and felt for a long time that I am here to co-lead a commUNITY, to be IN relationship with many BEloveds, and to feel the specific love energy that we call SoulFullHeart to spread to many others. This invites others into my world and I am called to bridge where I am at in consciousness (which seems to be mostly anchored in 5D since the first of the year) with others. To allow the fluidity of our hearts and vulnerability to LEAD in every moment is the new paradigm leadership. I’m only qualified to lead in this New Earth energy to the degree I am willing to be vulnerable and transparent about what I am feeling.
I INVITE triggers into my life and emotional purges like this too. I WANT to feel ALL that there is to feel inside of myself. I haven’t had a big movement like this in several months as the goodness and flow of service has been my primary experience with seemingly not as much to feel on the emotional body level (after MANY years of focusing on this ground inside myself.) I felt something so GOOD about the movement and I’m sharing today because maybe it will inspire you to make SPACE for these movements in your life too. To work whatever triggers or emotional reactions life gives you and GO IN to feel whatever there is to feel with the parts of you that need that.
Our 3D culture is all about drugging and numbing these movements and our emotions. Tears are hidden and covered over. Being vulnerable is NOT acceptable and we are felt to be ‘weak’ if we are. Even in spirituality, there can be a push to bypass the ‘negative’ or darker emotions in favor of ONLY love and light and positive all the time. The problem with this is that we didn’t actually EXPERIENCE as humans here just light and love so how can approaching our own healing that way possibly heal what lives inside of us? Being open to ALL of it with love to hold it is the way I have found brings the most transformation, healing, openings, and death-rebirth DEEP transmutation. There are no rainbows without rain is the metaphor that comes to me in the moment.
I DO feel that a very important aspect of New Earth/5D reality is the complete embracement and healing of our emotional bodies, and the energies coming in seem to be supporting this exploration in a big way. We could see it as the ‘next frontier’ to our evolutionary path as moving into our sacred humanity. And this frontier is SO natural to us that once we stop resisting it, we receive the bountiful gifts that our emotionality has to offer us….and feel the beacon it is to ourselves and the entire Universe as well.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.