Let’s Try Being A Hu-Man First

When will we men stop trying to be ‘men’ and just start being more human? This does not mean to me to be more feminine (although a deep connection to the feminine is needed), but to just be a human being with aches and pains, passions and visions. Yes, we have different ways of being in the world that are in contrast to women. We have different expectations placed upon us by society in general. We have different modes of operation. We do have different experiences, clearly.

Yet, at the core we all have something that we crave and need, but somehow men have been convinced or conditioned we don’t or shouldn’t need them. Deep down I believe all men, as human beings, want and need to be seen. We want to be felt and heard if we are brave and vulnerable enough to get to the core of what we really feel.

Most of my life was spent in a tumble-dry around what it means to be a man. Then it was about being divinely or sacredly masculine. All of which led to comparison, judgment, and feelings of inadequacy. NONE of that felt good. It’s crap! Sacred crap, but still crap. I feel for men who, like me, just want to embody our own authentic sense of self in the world. We may want ‘more’ of what we categorize as masculine, but in reality we are just wanting what feels like our truest nature shorn of all the comparative bullshit.

So, we are really not lacking anything we don’t already possess in our Essence. We are all the masculine we can possibly be. We have just been wounded. Been through trauma. Been told how to be in the world. We have hidden the gold in the shit pile of cultural conditioning and shaming. It has been hammered into us to not be vulnerable. To not feel our feelings. To not express anything other than a warrior’s call to arms, or exude the goo of a spiritualized porn star.

Who is it that lies under all of that stuff? Who IS our human man? What pain does he still hold? What grief has gone untouched? What truth and passion has been cordoned off and set to the side in the name of trying to be something we’re not? Trying to just ‘get by’ and survive?

I continue to unearth that man every single day. Not usually in epic movements or illuminations, but in day-to-day feeling and expressing as well as reflections from my beloved mate, Kasha, and soul community. This is where my sacred huMANity comes to play, learn, and witness itself. I have been going back to some very painful times of my life that are serving as a springboard and a catalyst for a different me in the world rather than the ‘me’ that I feel I had been trying to be with mixed results.

These times are rooted in the teenage years and I feel they offer many of us a gateway to not just our inner health, but also our deeper relationship to magic, real spirituality, and the sacredness of our expression in the world. I will go into that deeper in future writings and videos.

For now, I just felt like connecting my man’s heart to yours, whoever you are, wherever you are. I sense there is an army of men out there who feel the same and who just want to feel and be the man that is uniquely them in all the flavors from the Shadow to the Light. I would love to connect with and serve any man who feels the call to fall into his own grace and heart-centered power.

I love you, Man.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional Body Healing For Men

I felt to digest the ongoing Deepen video series that is hosted by my mentors and beloved soul friends, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, from my own personal experience. The second video of this series is on the Emotional Body, which can be found here:
https://youtu.be/zYepOaMYNwQ

Before I started working with Jelelle and Raphael 10 years ago I would definitely say that my emotional body was in a pretzel. I tried many practices to get me to breathe, meditate, and move energy. Regardless of what I did I found that the reoccurring depression, frustration, and anxiety were not really being addressed in a fundamental way.

As a child I was very emotional both in sensitive and aggressive ways. I would cry a lot as a young boy and then I moved into anger and temper. As I got older I would use alcohol as a means to manage this emotional turmoil. I never felt very safe to address this with my parents as they too had there own emotional turmoil going on.

I eventually went to therapy briefly to get to some root of it but I was mostly given coping mechanisms and strategies. As I started my journey with sessions, I found many places inside of me where emotional energy was being stored by parts of me at different times of my life. By holding this energy as a part of me rather than an unknown influence over me, I began to have a bigger sense of where these emotions were coming from and what was triggering them.

I had always had a hard time being vulnerable. There was a deep lack of trust and safety to bring out more of the hurt as well as the rage. There was a lot competing for attention inside of me and it became overwhelming. The emotions would surge and I needed a way to deal with them. As a boy growing up I did not really have the modelling of healthy expression and acceptance for what I was really feeling.

This kept me in a fairly immature state as a man even as I had so much responsibility as a teacher and a father. I found ways to stuff things away so that I could be the Good Guy, Teacher, Father, Son, and Friend. Eventually, the dam had to break and I found myself in some deep depression and needed a way to digest all of this emotional backlog.

Since I began my inner journey, I have been able to address many of those emotional issues inside of me. I was able to connect and relate to parts of me that held so many emotional frequencies. I was able to feel their pain as well as their needs. I began to be more honest as well as create more boundaries to protect and cultivate more love for myself and these inner parts of me. This led me to many courageous choices that was previously unlike me.

I continue on that journey of increasing vulnerability, authenticity, transparency, and intimacy. I feel my river of emotion is more stable, more open to real-time fluctuations that are rooted in the moment rather than suppressed, and held in self-worth and care for others. It is an ongoing process that is now more untangling soul themes more than this-life circumstances.

If any of this resonates with you, I highly recommend you check out the video link above and take in the teaching and meditation. It may provide a going on place for you in your desire to heal the emotional vibrations and issues that may live inside of you. This is especially a difficult one for men and even the masculine in women. I hope it serves you in any way it is meant to.

Here is to the beginning of a New Year of inner health that starts in the Heart.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc

Emotional Body Awakening Guided Meditation: Video 2 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this second video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, We (SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen) talk about the importance of connecting with your emotional body through accessing parts of yourself and digesting emotional traumas with them in a feeling-based way (not through mental analysis or bypassing with spiritual frequencies).

We share about how it has been challenging to access the emotional body due to natural protections that exist within us to block us from it. Awakening your emotional body is key to embodiment of your Divine Self during this phase of Ascension and has only been possible in this current timeline. In the meditation, Divine Mother and Father join us with emotional body and heart-based frequencies that can hold space for emotional digestion. Your Inner Protector is invited as well and we journey to connect with your emotional body, as represented in visualization as a river. You are invited to see and feel how your emotional body river is right now and to wade into it…bringing healing energies with you.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

Thank you for joining us in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! To watch another video with Jelelle Awen about emotional body awakening from her Deepen 2020 series, go here: https://youtu.be/XG_hNetX3g4

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th & 30th, visit http:/www.soulfullheart.org/Deepen2022.

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and emotional body awakening, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, writings, videos, and SoulFullHeart community events, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Free To Be 5D Group Call Excerpt (VIDEO): 3D Consciousness, 3D Self, & Parts

In this video, SoulFullHeart Co-creators and Teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about 3D Consciousness, the 3D Self, and the process of differentiating from 3D Self parts of us (such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, etc.) that feel reaction, depression, hurt, pain, fear, etc.

This video features excerpts from a two-hour long group call on July 22, 2020 that was part of the Free To Be 5D series.This series is based on Chapter Three of the Free To Be 5D book by Jelelle Awen, which provides a summary about the 3D Self, how and why it forms, and deeper descriptions of the parts that make it up, such as the Inner Protector, Inner Child, Inner Teenager, etc.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their parts process and experience of the meditation.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on July 22 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharing from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our group call series Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside
https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.org/freeetobe5dgroupcallseries

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit: http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Inner Child Ambassadors Of Forgiveness For Our New Earth

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t said much yet about the current situation that we’re going through as a collective. One part of me worries about what others would think, but mostly I’ve just been enjoying the process of digesting all the odds and ends with my community. I truly believe that this is all happening for a much bigger reason than just a pandemic or a virus. We are about to enter an era that I feel in my heart will lead to an entirely new way of living. With love, peace, compassion. New money systems, new forms of true news and media, and more transparency.

But one of the biggest changes coming that touches my heart is the return of so many children that have been sold into trafficking, abused, sexually exploited, etc. There are loads of proof of these heartbreaking things happening as well as many supported theories that these children will be returned in the midst of this pandemic.

I had the most comfortable and satisfying bath today that brought my heart and mind to a new level of understanding and digestion of this reality. My sweet inner child really wanted to process with me everything we had just learned about these children. We both had tears the night before thinking about all of the harm done to them but also about how naturally forgiving children are. We both know that the return of these children would not mean revenge in their hearts, but forgiveness and moving forward.

While in my peaceful bath I imagined these children in my place, washing away the dirt, the blood, the sexual assault and abuse. I imagined them feeling free and safe for the first time in a very long time. I could feel the relief but also the built up, raw trauma. I had the idea to help them wash, as a loving and motherly figure. But my inner child stopped me, helping me realize that this is the first time they will have control over and love for their own bodies. That even a loving touch will be a triggering one for a while.

This experience reminded me of how intuitive and compassionate children truly are. I have a hard time imagining even yelling at a child, nonetheless abusing them. The beautiful thing about this though is that these same children will be the reason that we can all forgive. They will be the ambassadors to show us the way to purity of heart and raw forgiveness. Every soul has a Divine source, no matter how far into the dark they’ve gone.

Though I can’t condone killing anyone in my hearts, the souls of the abusers may have signed up to die after all of this comes to light. Others may have the opportunity to raise their frequency, especially if we are open to it. I highly recommend connecting to your inner child at this time as they are the most vulnerable and sensitive to times filled with fear and anxiety. But they’re also the part that will become the love ambassadors inside of us in order move us into this next phase of our New Earth.

Bringing Light and Love To The Shadow Inside And In Your Soul

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too.

They are beyond shape and age and time too. Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that can never seem to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’.

They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is why so often you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have.

They are sometimes soul fragments (Metasoul aspects) from other lifetimes who are in more intense circumstances than your current one. They are repeating out soul patterns of experiencing abuse, persecution, being both the victim and the perpetuator.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself and in your soul with the support of the Divine, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain path they have known. As they feel YOU come into their world with compassionate curiosity, these parts of you can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, or dark at all. Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love.

This is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth. As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too. As you love even the narcissist INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate.

These lost ones become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These crazy ones become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity. I have witness this transformation take place over and over again in myself and many others….all made possible by love being directly offered to the parts that MOST need it.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here are many guided meditation videos to assist you in connecting to these parts: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with me over zoom for women to feel and heal these precious parts of your self and soul for $100 CAD (about $77 USD) for 90 very FULL minutes! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

It’s Worth It To Keep Feeling: A Message From The Divine

by Kalayna Solais

“It will be worth it,” the Divine offers, “just keep feeling”.

We dive in. We swim in the emotional waves, exploring the caves and crevices long-hidden beneath them. Parts of us feel as if they are drowning at times in the intensity, but then the wave ebbs and they surface, breathing new air.

It’s worth it because the new air is worth it. It’s fresher, cleaner, purer than what you settled for before. It reminds you that everything you feel has magic in it and revelations too that relieve so much even if the revealing is bittersweet to taste.

Each wave of feeling has its own power and place in your heart where it wants to be held.

Not bypassed.

Not fixed, nor gotten rid of.

Just held. Honoured. Loved.

“You’re worth it all,” the Divine reminds us, “and you’ll soon have it all, sooner than you think, if you keep feeling, trusting, being, and loving everything you are”.

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Painting: Divine Love by Chanchal Ganguly

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Loving Others Is A Sacred Opportunity

by Kalayna Colibri

Loving others isn’t a mandate. It’s not something we are required to do. Nothing can magically force us to love each other… and the truth is, we actually can’t fully love each other until we have love overflowing from within.

Loving others, then, is a byproduct. It’s something we will organically feel flowing between us the more we love ourselves.

Loving ourselves is not a mandate either… but an open and constant invitation that we can choose to accept and journey into, or choose to walk away from.

There are many ways we can learn to love ourselves so we can love others deeper with more genuine appreciation and respect, even reverence. One way is to be with and love deeply ALL parts of you. There are so many in there, waking up and wanting love. They may have some funny ways of asking for love, such as through self-ridicule, criticism, depression, or anxiety… but they want love just the same.

If you can learn to love them, in everything they are, you WILL come to love yourself… and then, in this same frequency and consistency, you WILL come to love others in ways never taught or imagined before, even when the relationship ground can’t transact or find mutual nourishment and you need to love them with healthy boundaries in place.

Even though the path to deeply loving myself is challenging sometimes, I have always found it so worth it… it’s worth all that you’re asked to feel by and with love… it’s worth looking at the darker parts or the ones that can express with darkness where they don’t care or have much compassion for others or, firstly, for themselves. It’s worth it, because in my experience, the possibility of transacting and being IN deep love with others who are also on this journey is incredible. Unreal! Nourishing beyond what you’ve thought of as nourishing. Every time my heart opens more to myself, I feel it open more towards others. And that feels much better than any past efforts made to falsely love others or love them only for what I or parts of me could get from them.

Such is the depth of healing possible. Such is the way of true and real love. And these are the possibilities for deeper unity and love transaction in our Sacred Human family. ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Support To Be Your Own Healer – SoulFullHeart Bridging Sessions: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Feb 4, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week’s featured article is from SoulFullHeart Teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen. She brings in the frequencies that we offer to you in one-on-one Bridging Sessions, painting a picture of what it’s like to feel the support and self-empowerment that awakens within you as a desired result of these sessions:

“During 1:1 90 minute sessions over zoom, we set the stage for you with our experience and lived in relationship to the SoulFullHeart process. We support you to discover how it can help YOU to heal yourself. YOU connect to support systems that have always been there for you, such as Star Family and Divine guides, even if you haven’t always been conscious of them. We offer when it feels like a specific part/aspect is coming forward and then collaborate with you to discover that part and the traumatic scenes it may be stuck in/looping in OR timeline bleed through that is happening.”

Each session is 90min long and is a $55 USD minimum donation to book. More information can be found here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be facilitating an in-person group session on March 10th from 10:00am to 5:00pm PST

in Victoria for $111 CAD minimum donation. The group session offers resonant soul community, individual

process digestion space, and high vibration connections. For more info, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

The final three videos in Jelelle’s ‘Deepen’ series are available for you to take in. They include a light language activation, silent meditation, and digestions with all of the SoulFullHeart core community members of the entire series, their experience of it, and their invitations for you to feel and inhabit your next steps, which may include booking at least one 1:1 session with a Facilitator.

Many new articles for you to take in this week, including digestions of different ways in which you could experience your process of being with parts of you and the different themes that could emerge, plus a sweet engagement announcement from Gabriel and Kalayna!

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.