Painting by Art of Jaswant
“I fear the hurt. The rejection. The persecution…if I say what I really want to say. Expose what it is I really feel,” says the wounded inner sensitive parts of us.
“I fear I will harm, destroy, or wound another if I let out this energy that has all been bottled up,” says the guardian of the rage within.
“What if I am wrong, attacked, and made bad for what felt so real to me in this moment?,” says the voice of the perfection, punishment, and shame that lie inside.
“What if all that I genuinely feel inside is not acceptable or desirable to anyone and I am left all alone to live a solitary existence in the void of my heart?” says the deeper pain of our souls experience.
Even as we are held in the solace of Divine Grace and magic, we are human after all. We are more than spirit. We are skin desiring touch, we are mind searching curiosity, we are hearts aching for love. This is the 3D and 4D experience we ultimately chose to sign up for. The one that created this separation that lead us to the fear place. The fear is what we are here to feel in order to remember that we are more that it. The fear comes in many different shapes and sizes. Even the those that “Fear Nothing”, fear the Nothing. The fear of not feeling anything at all.
We are made up of fractalized energy fields that are of an unknown quantity and substance. These energy fields are our emotions, our feelings. They pack intense creative power that when left unchecked and unfelt, are creating circumstances beyond our conscious awareness. But to reduce them to energy fields, is to diminish their beauty for they are works of art when you get to know them and relate to them. I had a beautiful moment of feeling all the parts of me I have experienced over the last 5 years and it felt like a reunion. A homecoming to myself. I felt the tender textures of their wounds and vulnerabilities, and their desire to love and be loved. It was a heart opening moment to the love that exists in all of us.
If this idea of parts feels weird or you think you have no parts, I would feel that as a part of you that is protecting the going in. The actual feeling of what it is that lies in the depths of your pain body. And that is completely understandable. To feel that part helps to open the door to the expanded universe that lies inside you, that was created by you to discover and feel with the largess of heart you really forgot you had. To go into worlds you never really knew you had access too because of the conditioning and fear.
Feeling and healing that which blocks real love from entering our hearts is the root of part work. To identify and begin a relationship with the energetic pain and fear inside. To go into intimacy with it, and thus yourself. This is where it can get scary because intuitively we know what lies inside. But when held in the deepest compassion and self-love with another, the healing experience is profound and life-changing. It is one that can’t quite be expressed in words though it has been done beautifully by us as much as possible. It extends itself to our Metasoul aspects which opens up greater doors of love and consciousness.
The love that is stored within is immense in its scope and depth. We have only a faint clue of what we truly are capable of feeling and expressing. The unlocking and uncovering of that lies in the healing and feeling of the parts within. If you feel a curiosity or a resonance within you about parts, visit this page for more:
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