The Liability Of Reliability

By  Raphael Awen

We’re at a place now where honorable traits can fast become liabilities.

I had a dream last night where an old friend from my past, who, if he was known for anything, was known for his reliability, his willingness to sacrifice for others in need, his expression of care. Underneath it all, though, was a big resistance to change, and I suspect, the garden variety fears of embracing his next growth into his bigness, that we all face.

I can feel where he an I, in other lifetimes, were side by side in these kinds of changeless codes of honor, especially in service of a King. It became a deeply embedded safety and way of being in the world.

In this life, I managed to embrace deep change sooner than he, and that made for the end of our friendship, but not our larger soul connection. Who knows what lifetimes he may have done the same for me?

Isn’t this true of all of our relationships? The part about our larger soul connection?

We are all players in each others learning and growth grounds, and so much of that happens by comparison. In comparison, we get to see ourselves, feel ourselves, embrace and try on new ways of being in life, in love and in this world, and even in others beyond this one.

Staying stuck though, isn’t where our souls want us to be right now.

It’s time to embrace the changes before us. What might feel like reckless abandon to a part of us, wants to be lovingly, and step by step, negotiated inside of us; feeling each part of us and their needs and reactions to the changes before us.

The improvised beatitude for this time is ‘Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be broken’. I’d add to that, ‘Blessed too are the broken, for they are open to healing’.

So, it’s all good in the larger picture. The larger picture is a picture of love being all there is, where everything in being reconciled to itself and every part is found to be aspectual to that love. The love of all, with all, and through all.

The love you are. The love I am. The love we are.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

This photo below was taken from last week during a visit to the Coimbra University here in Portugal. The expression of the architecture, both in its achievements and its message feel to be about values from times long ago, as buildings all around in contrast are just succumbing to the relentless graffiti strewn on them by a generation in deep change, and a necessary rebellion.

Feeling these architectures though, can really be a time travel experience into our Metasoul of lives lived in these energies, lives that are actually still being played out in the now, that await our feeling reconciliation of them, into our healing and expanding hearts.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The Assignment Of Letting In Goodness

By  Raphael Awen

I love you, too! 🌹

Total day of magic and goodness, today! Almost to the point of being tired and cranky because of it. 🫤

Letting in goodness is a big assignment for us all.

Nothing is ever all perfect in a world of duality, but my life together, now 14 years with this being feels as close as it could get oftentimes.

Part of that realization was because of feeling through and being with a contraction between us the day before, that again opens out new ground together.

Thank you, Jelelle, for needing me, wanting me, and for all that you are. 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

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Beauty Beyond Measure

By  Raphael Awen

Beauty beyond compare.

It overloads our senses and we don’t know what to do with it.

Somehow beauty often triggers an impulse to do something.

But there is nothing to do with beauty really, as far as achieving the beauty is concerned, where beauty has already taken care of all of the doing.

Beauty simply wants to enter into being and it wants to do that with you. Beauty wants to experience you as you in turn experience it. Before before beauty, in a face-off kind of show-off.

We’re often stuck to show up for that, and somehow, knowing that we’re not quite getting it, we do the next best thing.

We photograph it.

Somehow, we know that there’s so much more here to feel than we can feel in the moment. Hopefully, we can capture some of that beauty, preserve it for the partaking of later. We take in what we can physically in real time, and the rest, we delay into a recording, an impression upon a light sensor, stored away in pixels of digital memory, for the later time of our choosing.

Strangely then, at that moment of our choosing, the image re-presents the beauty and re-presences the beauty, and the senses that were on overload in the real time experience can now somehow take in the light codes incrementally, and be changed by them nonetheless, …and possibly even more than the less of when the photons actually made their recording that formed the graphic image, …and the original overwhelm now gets to be transmuted into all the time and space needed to fully digest what couldn’t be earlier.

Memory is like that. The image along with the imagination is often all that’s needed to feel what couldn’t be felt while in the presence of such overwhelming beauty. Feeling unlocks the beauty. The beauty is now multiplied in the heart as it is combined with time and presence.

The beauty gets to complete the path it wanted to walk with us. It gets to transmit its message in whatever ways and times that we can receive it, coinciding with our need.

Beauty gets to let go into you and I, again and a-gain, a shared gain of multiplied experience, reverence and bounty.

What images are waiting and wanting to be replayed in your imagination, the imagium of transmutation where light codes complete their trajectory and deliver to you their payload?

Yes, you have lots of imaginating to play with don’t you?

A little back story to this photo:

Here in my sunset hour walks in our village this past week, looking left and right into the tiny lanes that usually get walked right on by, I was struck by a flower pot of gorgeous sunflowers.

But between me and it was a locked gate. I hoped to encounter the owner and be ready to utilize my few words of endearing, but well botched Portuguese to gain access to the courtyard containing the well tended golden flower.

But even at sunset on a couple occasions, there was no one to be found. Lots of people elsewhere, but none here.

I did however find my landlord, Paulo, sitting 2 doors down at the bar along with Jorge, the bar owner, and moments later, I found myself following Jorge, key to the locked gate in hand.

George looked on as I photographed. I told him I’d be ‘cinco minutos’ to which he nodded, smiled, but stayed out watching me. I fumbled with focus lock and exposure adjustments, straight on and angled views, burst mode, macro mode, etc on my new iPhone 13 camera, but surely the essence of the flower itself was muted by all these urgencies at hand.

So I too, am not much further ahead than you in the experience of this flower. I didn’t even touch it, or smell it, or just put the camera away and take it in, I realize now.

Maybe together we can decipher its codes and reveal the mystery of what it still wants to say to us?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The Window Panes Of Our Worldview

By  Raphael Awen

Out of each of the window panes of our worldview is a picture that not only are we looking at, but the picture is looking back at us.

What we interpret from what we see is what we are beholden to. What holds us has us temporarily ensnared in its grasp.

What we see stirs emotional flow and feeling, which is all a form of the divine moving through us, asking to find a home in our expanding hearts.

Moving quickly from one scene to the next, often too quickly for those sharing the same view with us, we are seen as deceived, that is beguiled by the new view. An inevitable loss occurs as we change the lenses theough which we look at, see and feel the world.

The ones we know as the companions of our company must also morph and change as each of us has our own sacred timing around how long we need be beholden to a particular view as that view asks to have its full way with us.

~ R ~

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Raphael’s Photonic Light Transmissions:

The now abandoned building with the gate out front hearkens back to an original family from here in Folques, Portugal. Matter formed from Gaia now morphing back to Gaia.

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Superpower Initiation

By  Raphael Awen

The initiation into your superpower realization of your being involves getting intimately acquainted with all the parts of you who feel not-so super powered.

When you feel into it, the stark question arises if it would even feel that great really to be a superpower while having parts of you feeling separated, alone, insecure and afraid?

What would be the point of possessing and expressing some kind of superpower while at the same time still possessing parts of you who felt completely disempowered?

It seems like the only point of that kind of a superpower would be to mask and medicate the disempowered parts, and who knows all the pain that would cause?

What fun would there be in that really?

When I feel this yearning to express my superpower, if I’m honest and transparent about it, I must admit that it’s quite a rumble inside of me and really always has been on some level. Some aspect of me wants to change the world and be world renowned for it, and then go on to change it some more. It does feel like it has an ego aspect to it, and of course it does! How could I chose and surrender to being a being in individualized expression of the All and the Oneness that we all share, without playing with my own identity.

We’ve vilified the ego as the great deterrent to our spiritual awakening, when on a deeper level, it feels to me now, that the great deterrent to our spiritual awakening, aka as becoming a superpower, is actually more about our resistance to having an ego.

We left something behind to participate in egohood. We were completely without ego, one with the divine, but there was no you or I to appreciate that. Appreciation requires otherness, comparison and something more than oneness. All oneness is aloneness.

You can only increase joy and pleasure in your life if you are in acknowledgement and reverential in some way of what doesn’t feel like joy or pleasure. Joy and pleasure, like every other thing requires what is not that thing in order to know itself, to have definition, or in other words, to have ego.

Without ego, you are just plain boring to yourself and the world. When you are nothing but ego, you are just plain annoying to the world. You, the superpower you is the bridge between these dualities, creating dance, flow and magical aliveness.

In going inward this morning, I was invited to feel into these pieces some more, to see where they wanted to take me. We all have so much potential, that all of our wrestling and wrangling with ourselves and one another can be traced back to the challenge of integrating this experience of being both infinite and finite at the same time.

~ R ~

Raphael’s Photonic Transmission: 💚

This photo was one I took this week at sunset walking through our village. There is such a strong sense of culture and history here. It would seem more than half of the structures are no longer lived in, except by creatures other than the humans who built them. This couple in this photo express the goodness of being together at all stages of love and life. The cool thing was that the man had some music device in his pocket playing while they walked, like his inner teenager had a ghetto blaster!

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The Masculine and ‘Man’ifestation

By  Raphael Awen

The masculine so wants to make something happen, often unaware that a greater happening is moving through them. Often the urge to make or to force something to happen is in resistance to this greater happening.

We’re built for happenings, for sure, but how we participate in the happenings is where it changes everything.

We ARE, before we set out to lift a finger or intend anything, one big happening. All of this powerful life force of being, long precedes any urge to create or make ourselves ‘useful’.

Out of tune and time with this worth that we are, we set out to restore a feeling of power.

You see, the thing is, you are made to feel powerful. Every cell and fiber in your being knows this.

But when the heart and mind are conditioned to feel otherwise, we’re left floating in a vacuum, and will often do almost anything to return to a feeling of power.

I woke up today with an urge to do like six things, and then part of me lamented that the doing of them might conflict with the time available, or they might not produce the anticipated reward. Then when I tune in Yeshua as a beloved guide, all of the above reminders come flooding in.

He continues, quite passionately I might add…

You are this aliveness of divinity. It moves through you, sometimes like seasons and sometimes like lightning storms. You are the mystery of the divine, divining through time and space and matter and circumstance.

As you open more and more to this wonder of what you already are, you become more and more of what you already are. You no longer need to become something to convince yourself of power, but you steward the power that has always lived in you.

You become what you already are. This is the essence of manifestation. A manifest is a description of something already in possession, like bringing things up from the hold in a ship below.

‘Man’-ifesting is expressing something that you already hold.

Tuning into this holding of who and what you already are is where the feminine principle comes in.

The feminine knows how to allow things to arise in flow. The true feminine makes things erect without doing anything, but by simply being.

However long this all takes to make this kind of switchover really doesn’t matter compared to the fulfillment of coming into this reality more and more. Granted, parts of us are understandably impatient, and so do want to ‘get on with it’ sooner than later.

Thank god for them too, or we just might never get anything done around here!

Anyways, that’s a good morning from me, and Yeshua too! I hope it finds you in a phase of stepping more and more into your essence, and embracing every part of you who feels conflict or failure in this ground of manifestation.

~ R ~

I found this scene yesterday at sunrise in our 800 year old village here in Folques, Portugal 💚

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Becoming: A Poem

by Kasha Rokshana

Maybe it’s readiness
That draws the curtains on our fate.
And maybe readiness has never been about
anything missing,
wrong,
or unmastered.

Maybe readiness has always been about
Now letting in
All the love there always is to receive,
being willing to go in
and feel
Where, how, why
Certain pockets of our being,
Certain parts within our heart,
Certain aspects of our vast soul
Put aside love as any possible answer
To any pain, ache, or desire.

Maybe…
Maybe it’s the vulnerability
Of humbly feeling unready
That brings in the openings we crave and cave into?
Perhaps it’s mostly in our humility,
Our willingness to start all over again,
Our ability to feel it all,
Where we feel our Divine calling to love
And be love
To experience deep and soulful romantic love
To draw to us our fated encounters,
Our synchronized alignments,
And our most beloved unfolding
Into everything we are
And are now ready to claim
…And be claimed by.

The Divine, the Great Love that holds us steady
through the tumult.
The energy inspiring our growing centres,
Encouraging, always, our deepening trust in all there is to endure,
Brings us homeward to ourselves
In ever-unexpected ways
Through waves of grief, fear, longing,
And yes,
Grace too.

We are everything
Rather than nothing.
We are aliveness
So much more so than deadness.
We are alchemy brewing and moving
Even in our toughest, tightest, flattest,
and most uncertain phases.

We are readying, steadying,
Living into
The greatest fates we could imagine
With every shake and quake of our hearts
And awakening of our souls
Into a new reality
Blossoming from the depths
And caverns
And crevices
Inside the inside of everything we are
Everything we ever were
And everything we are yet to embrace
In our ready, open, aligned
Becoming.

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

‘Can You Come Out To Play?’ An invitation from Marvin, Raphael’s Inner Child

By  Raphael Awen

What would it take for you to come out and play again?

I know deep down, you really want to. But something has you to itself right now.

Is it a sadness that the joys you once had so much fun with are gone now?… And you don’t know how you could ever have that much fun again?

Or is it that you can’t see who would want to be with you and have your kind of fun?

I’m not trying to figure you out. You’re way too big of a being to be figured out. I just want you to come out to play again when you are ready to.

I do feel something for you, if you’d let me share it with you?

I can feel that life as you once knew it changed somehow, and you knew some really cool joys in that old life, but that life dried up and went away. You found something really, really cool, and now it’s gone. Now, you’re sad, and that’s okay.

I think I know something else too that I’d like to share with you if you’d let me. And that is that when people lose things like you lost, they don’t actually let themselves feel what they lost and how sad they actually are. They keep their tears inside. I did that for a long time. It’s like we don’t arrange and attend the funeral. I think I know something too about why we tend to do that, that it is about how we are afraid the tears will swallow us somehow, and we will be no more.

If that’s true, then it means people do actually want to come out and play again, I mean, if they are afraid of being no more, right? Because being no more, would mean never to ever play again.

What if life is trying to bring you your next kind of play that really is your kind of funnest fun, but you aren’t sure you are ready to risk losing again?,…because you haven’t seen how losing isn’t as sad as it seems, if you let yourself be sad, then the sadness moves, and you get to come out and play again…

You didn’t have to find the play that you once loved so much. It found you, and fun is trying to find you again.

I think that’s just the way it is. People are afraid to be sad because they aren’t sure they are ready just yet for their next fun, their next play.

It’s okay if you don’t think so. That’s just the way I do. I can be sad with you, if you’d like me to…., to feel what you lost and then maybe we can share tears together, which is one kind of play I like to have whenever I need to.

I’ve lost lots of things, but I always find that new things are wanting and ready to come in.

(From the beloved younger part of me called Marvin)

Raphael Awen

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Pics below are from Jelelle and I’s recent trip to Nazaré on Portugal’s silver coast.

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The Desire For What Really Matters In The Ascending Masculine

By  Raphael Awen

I know some things about the ascending masculine, if I could call it that.

Men who feel a conscious desire to excel and grow and matter in life, in love, in their relationships.

I know these things about you, because I’ve come to know them in myself.

There’s always much more to come to know, and one of the growth points for this ascending masculine is the challenge and willingness to feel like a beginner over and over again, to admit that there’s so much that can’t be delineated, measured or accurately described with the mental body.

It can only be felt with the heart.

My heart wants to grow beyond what feels like present limitations. I want to grow in being transparent with my world, to hide my real self less and less and less. I want to radiate that presence in the physical world around me and into all the soul connections and timelines I’m a part of.

Nothing else ‘matters’, for all that matters comes from the divine ‘Ma-ter’, from where we derive our word ‘Mother’. She Ma-ter-ializes all things that matter to me. In union with divine father, we have a template for reparenting all the parts of us who long for reunion.

What is it that is calling for your heart attention and choice? Do you have a sense of what wants to be next for you? Are you willing to be transparent with yourself and your world about what’s not working, what hurts like hell and what you do know about your calling and being?

I’d love to serve you in that. I offer a free intro call as a way for you and I to connect to feel if the work I offer, along with my heart, feel like a fit for you. More info about that here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

It is so interesting to feel how the feminine has been willing to lead in this domain of really feeling and really healing. I personally know of several women who’s eyes are on the horizon for a man who’s ready to choose himself, his calling and purpose. Mateship offers a huge growth ground, especially when it’s mutually chosen for one’s deepest growth and learning. Maybe that’s a big one for you as it has been for me.

I very much welcome hearing from you and would love to host my free intro with you to help you feel if working together ongoingly feels like a fit for you. If not, no questions asked or anything further expected.

~ Raphael

I just got back today from a few days at the ocean with my beloved, Jelelle Awen.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Returning To The King Of Hearts

“Which of you to gain me tell

Will risk uncertain pains of hell?

I will not forgive you

If you will not take the chance

The sailor gave at least a try

The soldier being much too wise

Strategy was his strength

Not disaster”

~excerpt from Terrapin Station by The Grateful Dead

I remember this part of the song as if it was yesterday. It was a moment at a Dead show that had me recognize that a prominent part of me was in defense and safety mode for most of my life. I was feeling this inner urge to let my body go into a euphoric dance but was holding back. I could sense it yet still stayed within a narrow bandwidth of expression. 

When those lines came out of Jerry’s mouth and landed in my ears they went to my heart and then my soul. I had been playing the soldier. I was not the risk-taking sailor in this tale. In that moment I felt a surge of desire move through me to let go and just be me and let my body do its thing. I felt alive and in joy. 

Granted I was under an influence of chemistry, but the moment stuck with me from that time on. The soldier would take the lead over the sailor and at times they would switch. It has been an ongoing challenge for me to be more rooted in my heart, my truth, and surrender. Being in this intimate community and in a deeply intimate and sacred union relationship, this soldier has had to deconstruct and to let my sailor more into the ebb and flow of daily realness and trust. 

I won’t lie. It has been very challenging. I feel that I am being confronted with eons of strategy and protection that have kept my woundedness in a holding pattern until new light shines that it must either be felt and gone deeply into or risk losing so much potential for a love beyond what my soldier could possibly let in. This feels like a perennial masculine challenge and conundrum. The surrender into and the trust of our divine mandate to heal and recode this legacy of pain, fear, and inadequacy. 

I have felt how much has had to be constructed, maintained, and eventually popped in order to feel and see the depths of our woundedness. It is not our weakness, but our strength that resides inside of it. It houses our resilience even if it has been in suffering or in a numbed state. Having deep compassion, care, and curiosity are what help to bring out this defense and woundedness. 

It is in this loving state that the true King of Heart can emerge to guide the inner factions back home into wholeness and realness. Not some perfected image of what it means to be a man or a king, but what lies at the core of our being and our own personal truth and needs. That is where our kingdom truly lies. 

In the meantime, I sit with the soldier, the fallen angel of the Divine, and we feel together in trust and in grace that we are on our way. That we are healing, we are held, and we are more than enough in the eyes and heart of the Divine.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.