In this moment I feel you. I feel you because I have been you. There are voices, or intense energies, that just don’t seem to leave you alone. They permeate your BEing, making themselves at home with your mental body and wreaking havoc with your emotional body. You are becoming aware of so much around you. Being as sensitive as you are you pick up on it and it just finds its way INside. Sticking to the stuck places that have yet to be felt and unravel. It can be literally overwhelming. You may be even experiencing intense anxiety over what is going on inside. Wondering how you will ever get any peace of ¨mind¨. It is a daily life of maintaining your sanity in what feels like an insane world.
The thinning of the veil is elucidating your most hidden places. The ones you thought you had under control or weren’t even aware of. The contentedness is slowly losing its hold on your emotional reality. What I want to offer here is that there is a life-line. It is to actually go INsane. Which in this way means to go “into the healthy”. In our fear-sided consciousness, we have turned away from going into the deep emotional as the Holy Grail of our greatest gift to ourselves.
These energies have been called our inner Demons. They have felt like a haunting to some. An intense barrage of thought and emotion that have medicated by all sorts of prescriptions, whether drugs, or sex, or anything else that has aided as a distraction. Some may just be living with it trying to “get by” as best they can. I want to give a voice to these “demons”, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.
What is needed to navigate this seemingly intense geography is a container and a map. For many men, and of course some women, there is this uncertainty and fear of going into the deep chasms of pain. I know this one, because I have lived it. I questioned whether or not if I popped the lid open on the underworld whether would I ever make it back. I feel how in the masculine there can be a rigidity in the going in. Some pre-programmed resistance. While on the outside there is an illusion of strength, the real courage comes in feeling what hurts and appears terrifying.
Believe it or not there is a YOU there that can hold these intense energies that bring you to states of discontent and despair. You just need someone to reflect that to you so you can feel it. There is also separating this YOU from the overwhelm that occurring on the inside. In your essence as Love you cannot be these energies. You have just fused to the part of you that has identified as this. So much that it has just felt like you. I also want to offer that all this intensity is also not….all…yours. You are a sensitive angelic soul that is being birthed into your true essence as these ascension codes continue to come into our energy field. You can feel the collective ache that mirrors that which is yours, which is why it feels so HUGE to you in the moment.
I have walked through this place a few times in my process, learning the hard way sometimes that the intensities inside are there to inform us of a deeper soul ache. We are a fractal of a larger MetaSoul that contains the legacy of our journey. When you are sensitive to that it can be a lot to hold and you need to be given a way to be with it. As you grow this more solid YOU that is watered by a space-holder at first, and then by you and the Divine, you are able to hear the messages and receive the gifts of this previous hell.
You are not crazy, or going insane. You are becoming very sane. You are being gifted with your soul’s calling and the messengers of Love. You can choose what messages to take in and when, for you are the lead in this new world you will have created for yourself when you have taken the first step to go in and feel all the parts of you that have a voice, and that need you. In session space, I hold the center for you until you are able to feel it on your own. To feel the difference between what your true voice and energy is in contrast to the one that is not. In time you can hold these energies and have the map by which you can give them all the love they need and deserve. For your service they will transform from demon to angel and provide you with a portal to your beauty and power as a Sacred Human Awakening. To feel a self-love previously unfelt at anytime this life. To open up to new romance and a world of unending possibilities.
I know that may feel like it isn’t possible. Again, I remember. But with one step into trust and a desire for more than what you are feeling now, it will return itself back to you what you put in it. I know who you are and I am here to serve you the love you need to love those beautiful demons.
If you are a man feeling this space inside yourself, or know someone that does I will be hosting a group men’s call with Raphael Awen over Zoom this Saturday, May 6th. You can find out more here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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