By Sequoia Heartman
On this day 29 years ago, a very unique soul entered this world. Three and a half years ago she came like a lightning bolt into mine. Young by physical age but not by soul. A woman who has chosen a path and a lifestyle nearly unheard of in her generation. An arising queen to lead her tribe back to health and thriving aliveness.
Catalina Colibri and I attempted a few romantic incarnations, but for multiple reasons we realized our bond was better served in a sacred friendship. We are just beginning to explore what that really means. How do two people with a romantic history navigate a new relationship to what it means to love each other?
Simply said…be conscious, be vulnerable. In this new space we can process old triggers and heal them to gain a new ground of intimacy that we couldn’t seem to access as a couple. This doesn’t mean we are always going to be friends no matter what. We still have to show up for each other in a way that serves our needs, our growth, and our authenticity. There is always something at stake even in a sacred friendship.
Similar to my friendship with Jelelle, Catalina has been an advocate for my growth into my kingliness. Parts of me are challenged by her intensity and supported by her genuine love and care for me. She is one of my biggest fans. I feel her cheering me on to live in my biggest expression, even in her frustrations to my smallest reactions.
Any mate that I draw will be partly due to Catalina’s genuine advocacy. I wish for any man to be able to heal their relationship to women so they can experience the kind of friendship I do with Catalina. These relationships are rare but I know they exist. They are unique, challenging, and powerful.
A woman like Catalina provides a mirror unto ourselves as to what it means to be a deeply spiritual and emotionally authentic male human being. There were times in the past when her intensity caused parts of me to shut down and run.
Now, even though the intensity has softened (comparatively), I find it refreshing and desirable, even while I may still have some initial reactions from my parts. The intensity is real and raw. A reflection of a part of me that I have repressed.
And THAT is the gift of sacred friendship. A playground of relationality, a platonic ground of intimacy, and a mirror of what we can´t see in ourselves. On your journey to King, I advise you draw your own Catalina, a true sacred feminine advocate. My parts and I would not be the same if she weren’t in my life. My relationship to women has been truly changed forever due to her presence and advocacy.
Thank you, Catalina, from my heart and from the heart of the sacred masculine, for you being you.
You too are a Queen and Catalyst of Kings.
I love you for all you have been, all you are, and all you ever will be. Happy Birthday.
Sequoia Heartman is an apprentice teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit SoulFullHeart Way Of Life for more information. Go here to become his friend on facebook.