Be Transparent Within, Share Your Authentic Heart With The World

by Kalayna Colibri

I’m really getting into this transparent sharing piece, especially because being a “young” woman leading something new in spiritual and emotional healing has meant that parts of me have been afraid on some level to be transparent, in case it’s seen as “too weak” or “not healed enough” in order to draw those I want to serve. This applies across the board to healers of all ages though. Until you’ve done the work to feel and heal the insecurities from the inside out, they remain there inside parts of you and play out sometimes in propping yourself up or posturing.

I feel as if there is a strong invitation right now though, to “come as you are”, whether you are a self-identified/life-identified “healer” or if you are seeking help and healing yourself.

Come as you are… powerful Biblical words in one way, but also a sweet way to feel yourself, your parts, your Metasoul Aspects too.

To enter into your own inner world, stripped of defenses, takes practice. There is an Inner Protector energy that may not want the way your inner world has functioned to shift or change at all. It doesn’t want to give up the ghost on the way he/she has been holding and protecting your other parts. You can almost think of this part as your inner President/Prime Minister, lording over the inner landscapes and keeping everything in order or even disarray if that’s where your life circumstances tend to lean. To feel your Inner Protector is a powerful way to enter the gateway of your own heart and parts, as it is and as they are right now. What’s the state of your inner country, your inner king or queen-dom? You can close your eyes and powerfully feel/see this right now if you want to. It’s illuminating, no matter what.

The more you visit with this energy inside of you and show up to feel and hold it and your other parts, the more it will start to trust your growing authentic/5D Self. The Inner Protector wants to hand the reign of your inner King/Queen-dom over to you, but they need to trust that you will consistently show up first. 

Jelelle Awen has created a beautiful meditation you can try in order to meet this part of you if you’re curious to feel him/her: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA

Inner transparency and disclosure is what leads to a healthy navigation of disclosing more of the preciousness of who you are to your outer world, that so NEEDS you, by the way… this ascending world and all of the beings within it need your heart and soul to be in its powerful nakedness. There is nothing more beautiful, especially when you’ve already done this and continually do this within you too. ❤

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If you’d like support and illumination for what’s been brewing and moving inside of you and your life too, I offer 90min, 1:1 bridging sessions for young women around and under the age of 35 (for life experience reasons!). My beloveds offer bridging sessions as well: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much, much love to you on your inner journey! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

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Full Moon In Scorpio Ignites Passions, Serves Purgings

by Kalayna Colibri

WOOOSH…. felt the full moon energies all day yesterday, with an up and down experience inside of myself which was incredibly UP in passion and passion-purpose desires and then also offered purgings of emotional tensions and fears coming UP with them! This is the whole package deal of Ascension. You’re invited to a huge party with lots of lights, excitement and even pure bliss, yet with the waters of love coming in with every invitation, the oil of fears and despair held by parts and Metasoul Aspects has to come out to make room for more.

It doesn’t feel possible to me to ignite your soul purpose work without being willing to feel what it is inside of you that DOESN’T want to serve love. Even if you choose to not feel into this question now, eventually it catches up to you and often in a reticence that develops over time and somehow collapses or sabotages your service-of-love practice, whatever that is for you.

I feel that the full moon always offers you a chance to feel your passions anew. Especially if you’re meant to serve love in this timeline. The full moon in Scorpio is asking you to keep it real. It’s asking you to be real about your passion and to feel the polarity inside that isn’t interested in passion too or really doesn’t buy that you can “make it”. Scorpio as an energy can support you to feel this extreme and not run away from it. Make the investigation of this a part of your passion-purpose, not a detriment to it! I feel and see so many souls trying to dismiss these parts that just don’t want it. Yet they are the most valuable players in the game of serving love, because they are the parts of you that need to be filled up with love and appreciation again. They are also the parts that offer grounding and realness inside you. And with all of this disclosure happening on the outside right now, yes, you need realness and integrity inside of you too. Nay-saying parts can offer that to you if you can let them into your heart. On a soul level, you could be feeling legitimate anxiety over persecution timelines your soul has lived out and is still living out since time is not linear. There are also timelines of being a false King/Queen, leading without integrity and heart. These are all themes that seem to emerge as you feel more and more into your special personal brand of service of love and what that means for YOU during this often intense time of Ascension.

On the other side of feeling all of this always comes more joy, bliss and love than you have experienced before… AND much MORE energy, motivation and passion for the service of love you’re meant to lead, inhabit and offer!

A good way to be with these energies is to just keep feeling them… to be in a process like what we offer through SoulFullHeart that gives you a direct heartline to the parts and Metasoul Aspects in anguish, despair, pain… and perhaps joy too! There are many ways in which you can connect to this work, including through our free Unity Meditations, one of which is coming up this week on May 2nd: https://www.facebook.com/events/1895682390725143/ . We also offer private sessions and a program where you can enter your own self-led process using processes we send to you. There are many options for ways in which to dive into your emotional body and feel all there is to feel along the way in your own sacred and very personal journey of Ascension and healing! ❤

LOTS of love to you!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Your Soul Purpose Arises As You Arise Into It

by Kalayna Colibri

Your truest and deepest heart and soul vocation is not chosen by you or any part of you. It chooses you! It is not so much a process of grabbing at it or “going for it” as becoming it from the inside out, like a sculpture arising from clay, shaped by the hands of love.

Your soul purpose arises organically from the ashes of what you’ve let go of, the fires you’ve walked through, the choice points you’ve navigated. It aligns with your soul bigness, challenges you to continue your growth path, invites you into a deeper trust in the inevitability of your awakenings and offerings to the world around you. This happens even with parts of you that may be polarized to fear, trying to bury your emerging sense of it underneath layers and layers of self-punishment and 3D focus that serve to keep you small. The greatest and most frightening shifts in life, for parts of you, are the ones that challenge you the most to be your biggest self. Their push-pull around it is about the comfortable discomfort of the womb they’ve been waiting to birth from. You are the mother of your parts, gestating your soul expression, and life is the doula awaiting at the end of every birth canal, working to guide and hold you through what can feel like a very long and difficult journey.

Every part of you will relate to this journey of soul purpose differently. Some will shun it or disbelieve it and others will want it so badly that they may become the dominant part of you that holds your spiritual journey and discoveries, often with an agenda and also an overemphasis on “needing” certifications, recognition, etc. along with a feeling of urgency, of needing to be living it out NOW, without really feeling all of the ways in which you already ARE. If your soul purpose is to arise from the process of your life and your choices, then the grabbing and aggrandizing of it won’t bring it any closer any faster and won’t humbly let it in the process of claiming and deeply becoming it, step by step.

Your vocation may not be exactly as parts of you had imagined it to be, as the “self” you’ve been up until this moment thought it would or could be. Or maybe it is! Either way, you CAN trust that it WILL emerge and in fact already is emerging. You can trust that you are finding your way, even when it feels like a fumble in the dark and that the fog stretches for endless miles around you. You are being invited into your service-of-love self and you are popping through your next and next ceilings, being in your bliss-mess, learning how to surrender to love as the biggest facilitator of all and the greatest “boss”, trainer and teacher you’ll ever have! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Venus Emerges: A Birthday Poem For Raianna!

by Kalayna Colibri

Each timeline blossoms
in your fair hand,
while flower garlands
encircle your crown
of glowing light
and opening intuition.

Maiden and princess,
flowing Zen of love,
plenty to behold as you unfold
into your ever-growing heart
and soul bigness!

Gifts of healing touch,
energizing shifts
starting inside,
inspiring the uninspired voices
of a generation beyond
and within.

To be in this fair one’s orbit
is a planetary dance of kindess and goodness
beyond that which so many galaxies
have witnessed
in this or any
timeline or lifetime.

Grace-filled Raianna!
Thank you for being YOU,
in an ever-deepening way.
The love you give yourself
we all benefit from
and the love you give to us
to animals,
to Gaia,
is the love the hearts of all receive
who can see it and feel it
for what it truly is…
a gift beyond measure!

LOVE you!

Kalayna 

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Invites Us To Feel Our Humanity And Serve Love With It Without Martyrdom, Self-Sacrifice

by Kalayna Colibri

We are learning to serve love, serve our fellow human beings in stride with love, through our humanity. This is why it can feel so hard sometimes to be around each other’s pain, let alone our own pain. So many attempts are made to bandage the wound instead of healing it because the sight of the festering is too much for parts of us to bear and reminds us intensely of our own places we still need to go. It can be a momentous effort to actually stay in the room with ourselves, let alone each other, and to try and offer any amount of love in that context can be so challenging for parts of us that really would rather try and not go there or look here.

There can be no ‘perfect healer’, at least not in human form, as far as I can feel it… we can work to become purer and purer channels of love through continued work on ourselves, in conjunction WITH service of others, which is actually the bigger mirror for us. We can be transparent and vulnerable with each other about where we are still needing to go inside of us, what shadows seem to be peeking up, what we have gone through and are walking out for the sake of our own healing. Perhaps one of the most beautiful things about our humanity IS our messes and our courage, our insurmountable, wonderful courage to just, keep, going.

I think we have been pre-disposed to going to battle, serving ‘god and country’ because we are actually quite wired for service, period, and instinctively know this, feel this, believe this! We are meant to be in the ‘trenches’, yet not in a literal sense… we are being called to the mistaken, old, worn-out battlefields within others to apply medicine of heart and soul balms. Yet we are called to our own inner worn-out battlefields first. Peace cannot begin to move through our world without this, without our efforts to heal our own hearts and not transcend them or ask anybody else to transcend theirs either. Humanity cannot begin to mature beyond this mentality of needing to fight, needing to ‘other’, needing to find opposition in order to find itself, without looking inward on an individual basis first.

The singular agenda for humanity as a whole feels like this piece of remembering that we are of service… and what this even means. What is service without martyrdom, without self-sacrifice, without climbing up onto a soapbox to shout at the obscene and unfair crucibles of the world, without going to war or battles? What does it mean to be human and still serve love from the deepest hearth of our hearts, admitting when parts of us feel fear, shame, sadness, anger, rage and finding the vulnerability in being with that? Sometimes loving others means setting boundaries. Sometimes healing others means allowing, showing them they have the power to heal themselves, with the genuine love and support that comes from authentic soul family/tribe connections and a heart-based connection with the Divine that is not theoretical but felt and experienced.

How to serve other human beings while serving our own selves and our own humanity is an unfolding quest, actually, and an unavoidable one at that. In SoulFullHeart, we offer parts work and this is what works so deeply for us, as everyone, even and perhaps especially the people we serve, are all reflections for us to take in, of where we’ve gone inside of ourselves, what we’ve already cleared and healed, and what we have left to clear and heal, too. Yet we are also always learning more and more what works best for us, who we are meant to serve, and how. I doubt there could be any human healer on this planet who isn’t meant to feel this humility of not always kNOwing what’s best for another soul, for this is what invites us all into deeper collaboration with each other and with the Divine, who is always working through all parties involved in the healing effort, finding, rediscovering and ultimately healing Itself back to wholeness too.

This all makes serving love as a human being a trial at times and rather challenging, yet we keep going into it because we know, we trust, that LOVE is worth it, that everyone on this planet (and beyond!) is worth it… that WE are worth it. We are heading in the direction of love with every feeling space given to ourselves and others, and with every ounce of our vulnerability we bring to ourselves and the world around us. We are goodness, we are Angelic, we are the ones here to move along with Ascension and love along with Ascension. We are of service. We are beacons. We are amazing. And so it IS. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Lightworking Is Shadow-Working

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Even in the offering of our gifts as a healer, teacher, and lightworker we are not removed from the meeting and transmuting of our own shadow. The two are inextricably connected. It is from that experience that we can offer that proverbial diamond to others. Within the work itself, we are in relationship. Relationship from soul to soul, heart to heart. We live in human form with human wounds. Those wounds come into contact in every connection we make, sacred or mundane.

As we go into healing space there are times when we come across situations that trigger or challenge those parts or aspects of us that are still residing in the depth of our unconscious until such time they are meant to be constellated into our current consciousness. We are not always going to be this ideal notion of what another part of us may feel a healer should be. There are times when need to take in reflections of ourselves to get a finer detail of what is lying in our shadow.

As we enter into this sacred space with others we are also in sacred space with ourselves. We are working an aspect of our own process as we are always in one. We cannot ever be outside of it. This is the gift of service and, to other parts, the difficulty. So to claim the light is to claim the shadow. As forerunners and leaders, there are experiences that may be antithetical to love and compassion that lie in our midst that have yet to be addressed until such time they make themselves known.

It is our responsibility to continue to work our shadow as it arises. Not to hunt it down but to respond to it when it does show up. There is owning it and self-lovingly going into it. We may need to come to terms with something that is hard to feel but that is what we signed up for. That is the lightwork that happens within so we can offer a purer, deeper, and more compassionate offering to those that are seeking our particular brand of healing. It is the depth of our own self-healing that makes its way into the hearts and souls of those that we are meant to serve.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling And Healing Our Inner ‘Wounded Healer’ And Our Push-Pull In Serving Others

by Kalayna Colibri

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As we move through our own ascension processes, we may feel called to serve others in their own processes too. Actually, it feels like many of us are feeling this calling deeper and deeper and it’s becoming as loud as a roar while things ramp up in our world with collapsing systems and collapsing ways of life. As more and more of the inauthentic, power-over-others based ways of being and doing fall apart around and within us, there is a growing need to help each other sift through the rubble and find a way to keep moving forward through life and upward with ascension on all levels of our being. In addition to this desire to be a part of creating and building a new world, we feel called to be healers because somewhere inside of us, we NEED to be healers, for the sake our own growth and healing too. It becomes a crucible for healing just like any other. The more we open up to serving love with others, the deeper the invitation into our own growth as souls and sacred humans too.

A question I feel to ask today regarding this call to be a healer, is what qualifies someone to become the healer they’re meant to be? After all, for many (if not all) of us who are choosing to expand our consciousness in every moment, becoming a ‘healer’ is more or less a birthright. In my experience of it though, it’s not a role we’re entitled to, nor is it something that we can expect to just sort of ‘happen’. It seems to me that as healers, we tend to have the toughest life crucibles to walk out and also, we tend to have inside of us a deep reticence towards healing and serving others that also needs to move and heal… ‘healing the healer’ involves going deeply into this shadow of the ‘wounded healer’ and in essence our courage to go into this so feels like what qualifies us, above all else, to serve others with sobriety, deep empathic feeling, genuine compassion, and reverential awe for who they are in soul, heart and body. You won’t have authentic access to feel and hold others in this way while parts of you are still feeling very much the opposite. This could be subtle too, so this process of really going into and healing this can be tricky, making it very necessary to have help from those who have been there when venturing into this shadow territory. This is a key piece we offer in SoulFullHeart and one that we hold as critical for being able to truly embody our healership and genuinely serve love.

It doesn’t seem to ever get to the point where your energy can honestly say to others, “I’m healed so now I can serve you”. Rather, it’s more about getting to the point where you can open-heartedly claim, “I’m vulnerably working some pieces, but I am ahead of you enough on my chosen path of healing that I can serve you and help you find your way to where I am now.” It feels important to note that ‘ahead’ is not ‘above’ and if the healer you’re working with doesn’t feel like they are ahead of you and embodying something you too would like to embody, and is maybe instead posturing as if they are worth more than you are, this is a sure sign of an inauthentic claim of their healership and that they may need to check in with where their own love overflow is at.

Ultimately, what seems to ‘qualify’ us is so not certifications, though of course these initiations can help and can also lead us to the paths we are meant to be on. Instead, life is the ultimate qualifier, as well as humbled self-authority which is also necessary. Yet parts of us claiming authority on something we/they haven’t yet lived out or embodied creates a tinny tone to this claim and our draw of others to serve won’t be what we really want it to be. Push-pulls around people or humanity in general and also around living a healthy lifestyle where there is lots of space to really be with ourselves, our parts and soul aspects, and work on our own healing, are all indications of a need to go back inward to keep feeling that ‘wounded healer’ inside, which could be one or more parts of us grabbing at this role, and use our healing gifts to work with and love THEM first as our number one priority.

It’s a gift to really let ourselves, as healers, collapse into a humble need to continue healing on many levels and doing so can only benefit us and the people we’re called to serve. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.