“Miss Without Possession, Hold Without Grasp” | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Authentic and higher dimensional Divine Mother and Father energies can “miss without possession, hold without grasp, and claim without ownership.”

This message came through during a recent session where I felt Mother Mary/Divine Mother offering this in contrast to what most of us have experienced as parenting and co-dependence in relationships. This was our role models in 3D of relationships from our parents…and also programmed to us by the Matrix.

The distinctions of these frequencies (missing versus possessing; claiming versus owning) become real to us as we experience them from the inside FIRST. From one part of us to another, we feel and heal the polarized and fearful dynamics that lead to grabbing, clinging, and controlling. Our inner masculine and feminine can find a balance, a celebration of differences, a common ground.

To move out of False God experiences of projected, fear and trauma based relationship with the Divine and others is a very challenging, long-term, process. There are SO MANY layers here from this life and other lifetimes within the Matrix to move through, connect with, process, and heal. We need to be willing to go into our deepest shadows, lift the protective veils, move through our most stubborn resistance, feel our most acute pains. Letting go in order to let in more love can be the most difficult aspect of the journey. We need a lot of resonant support and LOVE for this process….from the Divine, from our Divine/Higher Self, and from others.

The SoulFullHeart process and way that we have lived our life in community and been in relationships for over ten years is the WAY we offer to navigate this ‘cleaning up’ within and with others. You increasingly experience a healthier ground of relating to yourself, to your soul aspects, to your beloveds, and to the Divine that can commit, can be intimate and vulnerable, can let their love IN while being real about the resistances, shadows, and fears that come up in response to that.

You can experience the SoulFullHeart frequency through many videos, group calls (next one is happening on 11/7 with recordings available of previous ones), and books…especially my recent one Free To Be 5D which is an overview of the process. 1:1 sessions with a SFH Facilitator offer the deepest ground of initiation into this way of experiencing yourself, your life and others. More information at soulfullheart.org.

Here is my recent guided meditation to music offering a high frequency of healing and relaxation on physical and emotional levels w/Mother Mary:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Relationships Provide The Ground For Our Learning And Growth

By  Raphael Awen

Every relationship we have and their unfolding circumstances, whether with another person, or a thing or an institution is the ground of our learning, our growth.

Relationships are our spiritual teacher, that we can either tune into to our gain or ignore to our loss.

We were born into duality, the world of good and bad, desirable and undesirable, and that is what creates experience.

Experience calls for preference and choice. Experience is also the ground of our joy and our irritation. Without experience, we wouldn’t grow, there would be no need for growth as we would be in a world of full attainment, quite possibly bored as hell at the same time.

Would pure joy be pure joy if it was the only mode you are capable of, if there was nothing to compare it to, to help define it as desirable?

The human experience is one of polarities and dualities. Many seek to avoid this by pursuing a ‘nondual awakening’ as a kind of spiritual attainment and making that a medication to help them avoid the feeling and learning that duality wants to teach them. Yes, duality was born out of non-duality, and non-duality may well be our our upstream reality and higher essence, but we chose to be here in duality, so the invitation is to be here now, where we are, receive the learnings and expansions that we could receive no other way.

We find lots of duality right inside of ourselves, one part of us posturing to be seen a certain way and dead scared of operating out of that familiar mode and another part of us desperately wanting to just drop-the-fucking-role already!

Can we embrace this duality within, and become an ambassador to each part of us and get to know them and their realities without making one right and the other wrong?

It’s about reconciling our dualities in this way, not eliminating them.

All stress can be traced to the garden variety of lying that we all participate in, needing to seen a certain way; having it together in a way that doesn’t match the actual reality within. This stress becomes more like a psychosis the longer it is ignored and not faced.

Facing it however, with choice, with love, with curiosity and an opening heart brings us into realms of experience we never thought possible. It changes everything.

Raphael Awen

(The pic above is from nearby our camp this summer in Geres, Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Sacred Growth Of Letting In & Letting Go In All Relationships

by Kalayna Solais

All we can ever feel with another being in this world is possibility, potentiality… nothing is ever a given, no matter how strong the vision of what could be or the depth of soul/heart connection that seems to just BE.


We are always sorting out and sorting through. We are taking in who we are through the reflection of another, directly or indirectly. We are choosing in every moment what resonates most for us right now, which may not resonate any longer in the next now. We are also this reflection, this point of resonance or dissonance for others, in relationship to them.


None of us are exempt from this sacred sorting out process or the growth that comes of it.
Let go, let in, let go again… be surprised, be enlivened, by new beginnings and even necessary collapses. Though there is always more to feel and be with in all of this, and many reactions pinging for parts of you, it’s all part of the process of deepening your intimacy with yourself and with others as well, whether they can continue to connect with you on the next leg of your individual journeys, or not.


Each and every time I walk this out… I’m surprised by what it opens out within me. The clarity of what I want next, the boundaries I need to hold with an open heart, are priceless to feel and honour. It’s always challenging in new ways, but feeling the trust in my own growth that I know is always available and necessary, that helps me sink and surrender into each crucible… and feel the Divine with me at all times.


Much love from my ever-growing and opening heart to yours,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The ‘Black Sheep’ Archetype

by Kalayna Solais

When you’re a child, you start to learn right away what is expected of you. You’re meeting expectations of when to start talking, walking, even behaving more maturely, whatever definition of ‘mature’ you’ve been taught. You learn, then, about what makes you feel like you’re on track with this and what doesn’t and you take in the impact of that.

As you get older and start to awaken more to your soul but also what your heart really feels and wants, the pain starts to set in… the pain of feeling like you don’t belong and maybe never have. A feeling like you simply cannot ‘win’ no matter what you do or don’t do. Parts of you form to deal with this and find a way to be in the world but you still can’t reconcile your differences; those aspects of who you are that seem to set you apart from everyone else.

In some cases, you may start becoming ‘therapized’ as the only way that your 3D-conditioned parents or authority figures feel they can ‘help’ you. You may be put on medication that numbs and dulls your natural ability to FEEL. Even the anxiety and depression you’ve experienced, which is held by parts of you that are hurting and also feeling on their radar a sense that they really aren’t safe in this conditioning and aren’t being loved the way they need and deserve to be.

You now see yourself as the ‘black sheep’ of the family but also of the culture you’ve been raised in. You may even feel this with your friends or co-workers. I know I have.

In my recent process, I was working with a part of me that always felt she was the ‘black sheep’. We had to go into a scene together where she could line-up her birth family members and feel the lingering judgements and criticisms, the messages of ‘you’ll never make it on your own’ which may not have been directly said but were energized.

Together, we could start to feel their Higher Selves in the room too, and their Higher Selves offered that this wasn’t actually about what it seemed to be about… it wasn’t about me or this part of me being a ‘failure’ (though in a 3D sense it’d be pretty easy to see it that way). It was actually about a wonder they have at the conditioning I’ve been able to say ‘no’ to, the risks I’ve said ‘yes’ to and the trust I now have more and more in my life, even the challenges that sometimes feel like mountains to climb.

In this, I found compassion for them even though I still hold a boundary.

In this, I found a way to truly see and honour myself and my own journey as well as seeing the sacredness of their own.

In this, I could feel how this theme of ‘not belonging’ and being looked down on somehow has played out in all of my relationships in one way or another, even with my soul family and my recent marriage too.

And, in this, I could feel how just about every single one of us who has been on an awakening and healing journey has felt like some form of the ‘black sheep’ and played out this theme countless times, often with angst and restlessness and even suicidal feelings.

On the other side of this process, I could bring this part of me into a new form other than the ‘black sheep’. She was able to shake off the black and the sheep suit came off too. She turned into a young lioness, full of power and presence, yet with heart and vulnerability. She is finding a new home inside of me where she can truly belong and be seen and loved for who she is, even in those times where she is being shown something not-so-easy to see or feel about herself.

You’ve been taught to look outside of you for validation and even for connection to Divine love.

You’ve been conditioned to believe that you’re always supposed to ‘achieve’ and ‘succeed’ even though the goalposts keep moving. This happens in 3D and also 4D in different spiritual groups too where your ‘black sheep’ feelings can become amplified instead of felt deeply, often in the form of ‘tough love’ which is really just outright abuse.

The feelings of not-belonging can be healed as the parts of you begin to unify, one by one, with each other and with you.

Love is the glue that brings your heart and soul back together again to wholeness within that can no longer be severed. Love is the juice that catalyzes the transformation from within. Yours is the love your lost and world-weary parts most need to feel, to remove their own sheep suits… for they were never meant to be ‘sheep’.

They were meant to be ‘lions’.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

INtimacy over INvisibility

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t written a post in a while as a lot has been shifting and growing in my world. A couple of weeks ago Kalayna and I spent a few days on Salt Spring and just this week we all spent time camping in Goldstream.

One theme that has been popping up a lot for myself as well as my entire community is intimacy in relationships. I have always had this tendency and even desire inside of me to be invisible. I was incredibly shy as a child, I never rose my hand in class, I chose to blend in for any social interaction. I had absolutely no desire to be seen or more vulnerably, to be judged by others.

It’s easy to get into a “mode” in every relationship in your life and it doesn’t take long to establish, even with new people. We find what frequency is most comfortable and what allows us to get along with this other person. What gets hard is when something gets triggered or rubs against something inside of us.

I have found that most people either push away their reactions towards others, judging them as unfair or just not worth it, or they push their reactions on others, without feeling what the impact might be or what’s going on inside of them. Both of these strategies allow us to hide, to put away the deeper and more vulnerable parts of us that go against the already agreed upon frequency that you have established in the relationship.

Parts of me fear that my truth will either end the relationship or deepen it. Both risking being seen for more than my persona. Going against the grain of what is comfortable in relationship is exactly what intimacy is all about.

You tell your truth, as messy as it gets, until one day you are transparent in every moment. Until you have no fear locking you into place and all of your words come from love for yourself and love for other. Until you trust that losing a relationship is okay and deepening a relationship is okay too. Until you are so centred inside of yourself that no level of intimacy can scare you away. Even when fear comes up there is progress and honesty about it all. That is when community can flourish and become something new and never done before.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Heart Stays Alive, Even Through Heartbreak: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Even in solemnity
the heart is alive with possibilities.

Even in darkness
the beacon of light that you are
shines through the cracks.

Even when you’ve bottomed out
new seedlings sprout
from the ground burned by life’s wildfires.

Even when your heart is broken
it still beats its melody of surrender
knowing that it cannot know
how the whole story is going to end…
only how this one chapter has seemed to.

The death of what could be, but isn’t
brings your heart to its knees in an instant
yet this is only for a moment
in the grand picture
of your sacred life’s journey.

~ Art by Julia Watkins ~

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Finding Alignment Within To Align With Other (And Life)

By Kalayna Solais

The most important and powerful alignment is the one inside of you.

Aligning and (ALLYing) with your heart, body, soul, mind. Divine Align and living into your higher timeline comes from this place, actually, and brings you closer to discovering and experiencing the bigger purpose for all you’ve been through and all of the healing work you’ve taken on and gone INward with.

I’ve been in a process with my beloved, Gabriel, in the last couple of days and it’s unfolding into an ongoing process which we both need to keep being with and being real about. We’ve been feeling misaligned and disconnected… which has been so hard and sad to really let in and feel. We’ve felt to take some space from each other, even sleeping in different spaces, in order to to go inward but also come together and digest what we’re discovering and feeling through with parts of us about our bond and how they’re really feeling about themselves and other aspects of our individual lives too.

In other words, we’ve been taking space to align more inside of us so we can see where and how we can align together. ❤️

We’re already benefitting from this process in huge ways… experiencing more love on the inside that can flow more easily on the outside with less resistance to each other. We were even able to have a fun date night last night where we could feel new grounds of joy and aliveness!

Less resistance to the love that wants to flow inside helps the love flow on the outside, which helps align you with the love you truly desire to experience in all areas of your life. This I keep learning over and over again and this, I feel, is one of the most powerful ways to feel what your next steps are on your healing and Ascension path. Where the love isn’t flowing in your life is a reflection of where the love isn’t flowing within, between parts of you and you and each other too.

Much love!

This photo is from our date last night…. in new joy waves together, starting within. ❤️🔥☺️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sacred Union W/Self & Other Group Transmission 6/8 W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

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Settling/shrinking in relationships, especially long-term romantic ones, has become the standard in 3D relationships and even those more in 4D or soul frequencies. In these relationships, the ground of transactability between each partner in the areas of soul, mind, body, and heart nourishment and resonance diminishes over time…..if it was even transacting much to begin with. The ‘honeymoon’ fades and the draw to each other along with it.

Lack of transactability is often overlooked or just ‘lived with’ as parts of you may start to feel that it is impossible to have more or BE in more. Fears of security and safety become the glue that keeps the relationship together even as underneath it, there is much unexpressed frustration, unhappiness, and discontent. Sometimes, capacity on the soul level is fixated on (like often in the Twin Flame paradigm) and the LACK of transactability ignored or bypassed, which leads to a pattern of push-pull relating, codependency, deadness/flatness, running/ghosting, etc.

The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and lasting experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is very real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.

Experiencing this kind of sacred union is not only possible, it is encoded in our genetic codes and in our DNA (as those ‘sleepy’ ones come AWAKE again….from two active DNA back to twelve again and beyond. ) This kind of sacred union is only possible with the inner work being the primary focus to heal the fears/resistances to love so that self love and worth are overflowing into the bond.

The inner work is about understanding and feeling the relationship between our inner masculine and feminine, what was templated by our parents around this, how polarized are feminine and masculine are to each other, etc. Feeling these grounds and healing them allows for the overflow into a sacred union bond.

Join me and my sacred union partner Raphael Awen on June 8th at 10:00am PDT for a transmission of sacred union codes shared from the grounds of our lived in and loved in bond. You can join us live (highly recommended) or receive the recording of the teachings/guided meditation/sharings for $11 USD/$15 CAD energy exchange here: PayPal.me/Jelelleawen

more info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2266192267032102

Love,
Jelelle Awen
To see previous group transmissions and receive the recordings, go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Painting is by Evi Maes

The Deep Human Fear Of Intimacy

by Kalayna Solais

One of the deepest fears of humanity seems to be intimacy. Relationships that deepen. These relationships are not just romantic either, though that is one of the most challenging grounds in which to work this fear. This also includes beloved friends, colleagues, the Divine… and yourself.

How intimate are you with yourself or parts of you? How intimate do you feel you are with the Divine and with others around you?

3D conditioning has created a block, a defense against intimacy. It reminds our soul too much of Oneness and our decision to separate in order to experience life here and learn through it, grow because of it, and rejoin into Oneness when it’s time to do so. It brings us back to the love we once trusted that somehow 3D life has taught us either doesn’t exist or it takes too much work to earn it.

To be intimate, starting with ourselves, is our birthright and the journey we came here to inhabit. It is the wellspring of Self Love which overflows the love that then is shared with others.

To be intimate also means being vulnerable. Being vulnerable is also scary for parts of you because of your conditioning that it somehow isn’t ok to not be ok.

And… to be vulnerable means to make space to feel and share love. It doesn’t just mean sharing your pain, it means sharing your tears of joy too, your celebration of others and yourself, your gratitude for the Divine and Its ever-loving support.

To be truly intimate with Self and others really offers us all a deepening journey of feeling every line of defense within and every case made by parts of us to keep guarding those defenses and keep them in place. To actually go inward and feel the fears is the deepest gift to offer these parts as they trust your space-holding more. They and you begin to feel naked to your own truths and bake in these opportunities for rebirth.

To begin to open your heart again after all you’ve walked out in THIS life let alone other lives, is no small feat and uncovers no small fears along the way. Yet with every tear of pain or joy or relief or anguish undoes the lock to another layer of who you’ve been and had to be until now and who parts of you have had to become in order to preserve the precious depths within you and within themselves too.

It is a deep passion of mine and my beloveds to support your unlocking and unfolding of all of these pieces… sessions with any of us are available for you and we would love to serve you:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Moving From 3D Non-Transactable Relationships To 5D Sacred Unions: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (May 20, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Relationships of all kinds are continuing to rumble and shift as every individual moves along on their own awakening and ascension path. 3D relationships, especially romantic ones, are feeling the heat of the healing heart and the call of deeper awakening. Jelelle Awen offers in this week’s featured piece that not only are 5D consciousness-based romantic bonds ideal, but they are possible and the more you continue to work with parts of you that are afraid of them and that maybe are resistant to deep and resonant romance, the closer you become to drawing the Sacred Union of your dreams:

“The 5D Sacred Unions that we are being invited to remember and inhabit AGAIN are about an overabundant, nourishing, and LASTING experience of love and resonance on ALL levels with our partners. This may sound like fantasy, yet it is VERY real and possible as we heal from within the polarized relationship templating we received from our parents, 3D culture/programming, and from our Metasoul patterns in the denser timelines.”

There are a few upcoming events taking place this join, both in-person and virtual, with more to be announced in coming weeks too!

On Sunday June 2nd @ 10am PDT and Monday June 17th @ 6pm PDT, join Gabriel and Kalayna Solais in person at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC for a guided meditation and sharing circle. The theme on June 2nd will be Sacred Connections and the theme for June 17th will be Sacred Union. You can RSVP for the address by emailing: soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

On Saturday June 8th @ 10am PDT, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-hosting the next virtual group transmission over Zoom. The focus for this group is to assist you in the ongoing integration of sacred union codes….both to solidify your sacred union within and with a partner mate. They will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Inner Masculine and Feminine, feel their relationship to each other, and also bring in/connect to your Sacred Union/Counterpart mate partner (either currently in your life or maybe not).

For more information on these events or how to register/RSVP for them, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events.

Two new videos for you to take in this week!

Gabriel Solais introduces the Inner Protector for men. In this video he describes how the Inner Protector is formed and how it keeps men from fully embodying and manifesting their deepest gifts, relationships, and higher timelines. It is about a curious connection and relationship to this part of the emotional body and not about judging or trying to fix or eliminate.

Join Gabriel and Kalayna Solais as they offer this teaching and guided meditation on connecting with your Inner Masculine/Feminine parts of you. Your Inner Masculine and Feminine aspects may have many different ways that they express through you in your life, relationships, and even your spirituality.  Connecting with these aspects is very illuminating and can help you understand why you have related to men and women the way you have, how you’ve related to your own “woman/manhood”, and why you seem to approach different aspects of life in one way versus another.

There are several new writings and audio blogs this week from Gabriel and Kalayna Solais along with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They include digestions of the ongoing transition from 3D to 5D in every way and in every aspect of your life, and offerings of ways to be with and integrate your current emotional/spiritual healing process while letting in the Divine/Galactic support you have available to you always.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

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