divine within – SoulFullHeart Experience

by Kasha Rokshana

I don’t know if there’s anything more complicated than our souls’ love for the Divine. It leads us to such intense places within and outside of us. It brings us to new highs and unfathomable lows…

It inspires us to pick up where ‘we’ left off in other lifetimes, pursuing justice, pursuing love, pursuing some validation of our faith that’s maybe been lost or buried, for the sake of our soul aspects who just want the world to feel safe again… safe enough to actually feel the Divine again, to reclaim our Divine son or daughter-ship fully without fear of being persecuted for that devotion, love, and need of the Divine.

I feel the truth of this for my own soul and what it’s taken in this lifetime alone to really reclaim my Divine Daughter essence who is so deeply devoted to the Divine within her and in the world around her. I feel how much my essence, my very soul, loves the Divine and lives to serve this love in a world that doesn’t always seem to want it, be ready for it, feel worthy of it, and will do anything at times but let itself feel held and loved.

Maybe you recognize this for yourself, this sense of your own essence being so connected even in the midst of this vast and often intense experiment of duality that has led to so much painful polarity. Maybe you’ve felt this even in the ache for Diviner reunion within and in your outer world too that all parts of you feel on some level in this lifetime, let alone how your many soul aspects have perhaps suffered for this in other lifetimes.

Last night we had a SoulFullHeart group call focused on the persecution wound and I realized that for myself, a huge aspect of this persecution experience has been this sense of always feeling so devoted and committed to the Divine and to love, that it’s led to some very dark timelines of ridicule and backlash… and, I realize I’m not alone in that. Those of us who have chosen to awaken to this desire for deep Divine alignment, even at the cost of anything that could possibly resemble a ‘normal’ life to most, have all experienced this and continue to endure it.

The invitation, of course, is to continue to feel where this backlash lives within us from part to part and reconcile it there, while also validating our souls’ ongoing experiences of this theme on the outside. It’s only inside of us where we can always cultivate an inner Safe Haven, and inner Divine Temple, that can never ever leave us or be taken away from us. We can only make choices that either continue to cultivate this inner world of safety or that dismantle it instead.

After the call, Raianna and I went on a walk a little walk to get some air. On the walk, we came across fields of sunflowers which inspired mixed reactions in us both. So many of these sunflowers were scorched and had died from the severe lack of rain and extremely high temperatures here in central Portugal the last couple of months, yet even amongst the dead, there were a few that were vibrant and very much alive.

You can see one of the living sunflowers in the photo I’m posting with this writing. I feel it as a symbol of how we’re invited to continue our own path of growth and devotion and Divine embodiment of love, even if/when the others around us in our outer worlds are choosing to experience the opposite. We are ALL in the middle of a field of ‘dying’ flowers, waiting to be reborn. We also all have this field inside of us, where our essence is waiting to shine through anew, growing, flowing, and facing towards the ‘sun’ of Divine love and support, despite all the death and darkness we’ve experienced on so many levels.

Your love for the Divine is an undying seed within you. Living into alignment with this is often a bliss-mess experience, yet we are all walking this out together at varying stages of readiness to be truly devoted to this path, wherever it’s meant to lead YOUR soul. I know nothing more fulfilling and enlivening, however challenging the path, than fully going into it, embracing that this is what you came here to experience and embody, and allowing the Divine surrender you actually know so well to bring up all that it’s meant to for the sake of your healing and deep, deep, DEEP self and soul rediscovery.

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With so much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

by Kalayna Solais

So much energy and focus has been placed on drawing THE mate… THE soul purpose… THE, well, anything you can think of that you’ve longed for your whole life or at least since you began to awaken.
But the pursuit of the Divine itself has been at the heart of it all… or perhaps, better to say, the pursuit of letting IN the Divine in a deep and unending love affair that lives deep inside of you.

This has been true for me. And only in these last few days have I really come to deeper realizations about this.

Parts of me have sought out an experience of a bond with the Divine through so much focus on drawing my next Sacred Union experience as well as a much deeper validation, you could say, of my reason for being here, for living, for serving love. I’ve visited and hung out with these darker edges of searching on the outside for what has been needed from me to me and from the Divine to me and back again.

I’ve shrunk, or parts of me have, in order to fit in with different ideas and ideals, social and romantic bonds, forgetting in moments the Divinity within and the unseverable cord to the Divine, to the Great Beloved, to Love itself, that sees everything I AM even when parts of me aren’t quite ready to yet. And… to let in that I too can have this love affair in an ever-deepening way with myself.

It doesn’t matter what I ‘know’. It never matters if I’m ‘right’. It doesn’t matter if I gain or lose 20lbs or if my hair is straight or curly. It doesn’t matter if my yoga poses are in full power, if I’m a ‘perfect’ SoulFullHeart Facilitator or a perfect spiritual student. It doesn’t matter… but my soul and heart’s relationship to the Divine within does. And this is what permeates all other things that I do, that I am, and that I am becoming.

The Divine really feels like the greatest lover we could ever conjure up in our romantic fantasies… the infinite love that sees everything we simply ARE beyond any facades, any fears, any window-dressing of self-image, and loves every inch of our bodies, every thought in our minds. It brings to us bouquets of compassionate flowers, leaving them at our heart’s doorstep every day. It’s the energy of being pursued with so much grounded and deeply loving gusto, that wants and persists in this wanting and claiming and pursuit.

This is so often sought through the false gods of relationships with false teachers, mates who cannot see us for they cannot see themselves, and even some spiritual or religious practices. This is so often not templated to us as something that is our birthright to have inside of us, from us to ourselves and our parts and back again.

We forget devotional practices so often, it seems… or what is at the core of them. We forget that in these practices of prayer, dancing, singing, meditation, we are also being responded to. We are not only worshipping and offering gratitude, we are being worshipped back. We are being loved deeply, no matter what we do or say. We are being met with equal desire for connection and alchemy. We take in nature and it takes us in. We take in love and love opens its heart to us.

As I let in the Beloved more and feel this energy live and breathe within me, I feel such a deeper sense of my authentic worth. This makes all else, all false gods parts of me have created out of a need and desire to experience God in an even more intimate way nearly fall away as I begin to truly feel how this is enough. I am enough. I AM. The Divine IS. My union with the Divine IS and always will BE.

And so it is, for you as well, for your preciousness as a heart and soul… And all beings on this planet.

❤️🙏🏻
Much love… Namaste.
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.