10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

After a quiet rest period as we immersed deeply in Gaia’s goodness, we’ve now been guided to offer our first group meditation call in four months! Raphael and I have hosted dozens of them together over the last five years, as have I done many for women with Kasha as my co-host. I have missed them and the experience of Divine community that comes together during them. The group calls offer an experience of us as a community, a visceral and very personal connection within through the guided meditation, and an opportunity to share with others as well.

We are settled here now in a beautiful, spacious house in a mountain valley in Central Portugal with strong Wifi, which also makes it much more doable than trying to manage it from the campground where we spent the summer! This feels like the perfect space now to share the strong Divine Feminine energies (particularly Mother Mary) that transmit from the grids here and the deep Gaia codes we have taken in as well. 10:10 is a powerful portal day, so we felt to offer the group call on this day to amplify the frequencies.

10:10 is a powerful portal day, so we felt to offer the group call on this day to amplify the frequencies. The 10:10 portal allows for the opening out to new beginnings (signified by the number 1) that arise out from the non-dual void space of particularly the Divine Feminine’s heart (the number 0). 10:10 provides an upgrade and reminder of the Divine support that is always available; of all that happens to you is for your highest good of growth chosen by your soul/Divine Self; and of your ultimate soul purpose as a living embodiment of Divine love in action and being.

It can be very challenging to let in Divine love, support, and purpose due to layers of false god religious/spiritual conditioning and false light matrix programming that blocks and filters it. It can push up feelings of unworthiness, guilt, resistance, and even fear to let in that the Divine truly LOVES us unconditionally without needing to qualify for it. Parts of us may not feel worthy enough to deserve it or be humbly grateful enough to receive it without entitlement or ego gratification/inflation.

A week from today, Sunday October 10th at 6:00pm WEST Portugal time/1:00pm EST/10:00am PST, Raphael and I will be co-hosting a Divine love bath experience through teachings and a guided meditation journey to your “God Room” to see what you download about your connection to Divine love. You will also have an opportunity to share with everyone on the call and take in others’ sharing as well. SoulFullHeart Teachers Gabriel and Kasha will be sharing during the call as well.

You can join us by offering whatever donation amount you feel to give at paypal.me/jelelleawen or soulfulllheart.org/shop to join us live and/or receive the recording. We will send you the zoom link to join us when we receive your donation. More info at soulfullheart.org and https://www.facebook.com/events/2992100991003079We so hope you can join us for this unique group call experience!

Here is a video where we talk about the upcoming call!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

Forgive Me, Father, As I Forgive You

By Jelelle Awen

“Forgive me, Father, as I forgive you…” This prayer came to me today as I was tuning into Divine Father frequencies in preparation for our women’s group call with Kasha this Sunday where we will share about healing the false father wound to let in Divine Father.

The religious version, “Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” is what originally came through today, feeling like a relic from many lifetimes of confessional, shame-based worship and self inquiry rooted in unworthiness.

Feeling sinful and asking a punitive Father God for forgiveness/to be deemed worthy enough for ‘Heaven’ is a program that can be challenging to deprogram from, as wired up as we are from the Matrix to believe that we are bad, wrong, and sinful. This programming actually blocks us from receiving TRUE and pure forgiveness frequencies from the Divine Father that empower us to experience Heaven within us.

As we unplug from this False Father programming, we are able to have and embody growing autonomy, self love, self worth, and our own goodness…and experience of our OWN Divinity. Yet, this programming runs deep. Beyond the religious programming, it has also been showing itself in the rampant abuses on all levels between mostly male gurus/spiritual teachers and their followers. This abuse is being exposed more, yet still so many vulnerable wounded daughters especially are drawn into the seduction of a holy father in the flesh that finally accepts, sees, and wants them (even if in very inappropriate ways at times.)

I am still digesting, even years later, my own experience of this kind of false father/teacher relationship with a former teacher of mine. I will share more about this in the women’s call… how I recovered, what I learned from it, and my process of forgiving him and myself.

While connecting with Divine Mother is very natural and fluid for me, it has been more challenging for me to commune with Divine Father. The blocks have also come from the woundings/traumas from an absentee birth father and series of mixed step-father experiences. I’ve also had some lifetimes as a nun in devotion to the Holy Father and as a devotee to male gurus/teachers that I have needed to heal and reconcile.

Letting in Divine Father has deepened for me over the years as I clear and feel these blocks/fears/resistances within parts of me and soul aspects. Divine Mother has been a bridge to this as She shows me how to love Him again and receive His love. As my Divine Daughter arises to accept love and embrace from the Divine Father, I often find there is more forgiveness to be exchanged from my heart to His and to then receive from Him.

So, today it was, “Forgive me Father as I forgive you,” and my Inner Daughter is still in process of this, for which He readily forgives….and offers His ever ongoing love to allow the healing process to deepen and continue.

Join us on Sunday, March 30th at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for the two hour women’s group call to explore the false father wound through teachings, a guided meditation journey, and sharings. You can offer whatever donation amount you would like to (usual is around $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link and the recording afterwards. More info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

The Love Language Of Divine Father: Women’s Group Call May 30th

by Kasha Rokshana

His sacred ROAR clears the room. His bright beacon of Truth shines our way through all darkness. His compassion holds us, infinitely, though we feel challenged to hold ourselves.

Divine Father is an energy that, in its purity, is MUCH different than the punitive he-god of religions. When He appears in different forms and faces, our projections place lightning bolts or swords in His hands, yet when you feel His tender heart, you realize that He could never and would never weaponize his love for all of us. 

I experience Divine Father through the energy of my heart and soul’s connection to Yeshua most often, yet sometimes I also feel Him just as Fatherly energy without form that simply does not caretake or want to coddle me. Instead, I feel how He challenges me to grow, to arise, and to lean-in to Him. 

He is much different than my experience of my birth father in this lifetime, who was seldom fully present to me, barely ever watered me as a young and budding woman, and didn’t know how to offer affection and direct love without the runaround of ‘providing’ and having that be his only ‘love language’. When my father passed away, I know he helped me see some of the patterns he passed down to me. I deeply got that he wanted me to heal from them while also overcoming them as behaviors inside myself. 

In some ways this relationship with him blocked my true relationship with the heart of Divine Father, yet also, it offered me something to differentiate it from. 

As woman, Divine Father can be especially challenging to let in and feel. It’s as challenging as letting in a true soulmate. It’s as challenging as understanding that indeed, some men are deeply GOOD, even if they choose not to caretake or coddle you. Men who are on their own paths to wanting to see and feel themselves, to recognize with humility their own imperfections and need for healing may be rare in a way yet they are emerging. They represent the love of Divine Father who also feels humility and who infinitely supports our ongoing Ascension as Sacred Humanity arising… as a humanity that is learning to love itself again just as the Divine loves us and longs to feel our love return to them as well.

The healing that is possible for men and women through genuine connection with Divine Father from within is immense… His light shines so brightly and his love even brighter. He holds with tenderness our experiences in His heart. He feels us all deeply in his infinite capacity for feeling. He is a guide, in whatever form you’re ready to let in, and He will not push or force his way into your life and your own heart… patiently, he waits for your attention, intention, and desire, with such an embrace that spans the whole world. Even your own whole world inside, as complex and complicated as it’s become.

Jelelle Awen and I will be offering a women’s group meditation call this coming Sunday May 30th at 5pm BST on Zoom, focused on healing the father wound inside to let in Divine Father. It’s by donation and you can attend live or receive the recording to take in later. 

You can find more information on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Father False Wound To Let In Divine Father Women’s Group Call May 30 | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

By Jelelle Awen

Hope you can join Kasha Rokshana and I for our last women’s group call here in Avalon before we leave for Portugal! The focus of this group in one week on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK time zone/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT) will be healing the False Father wound to open up connection more to the Divine Father.

Healing the father wound to let in Divine Father is a new ground for us to cover in a group call and was requested by recent participants. This call will complement the powerfully tender women’s call we did recently on healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. This feels like a timely place to go as the sacred masculine becomes more available within and with the Divine as the False Masculine/wounded patriarchal Matrix continues to be exposed and collapse.

For most women, our fatherly experience has been either one of domineering, judgement, outright abuse, possessiveness, etc.…..or disconnected, absent, and vacant. Our daughter inside (especially our Inner Teenager) is often left uninitiated and invalidated by an outer masculine father figure, which impacts our sense of our own worthiness, sexuality, desirability as women and our romantic relationships as parts of us may be seeking a replacement father figure or pushing away from the masculine due to our father wounding. This can leave traumas and wounds within parts of us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Father energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will also talk about how the punitive False Father God of mainstream religions and the False Teacher/Guru (with hidden abusive patterns) of many spiritualities has also been traumatizing on a soul level and left a deep void and unknown around the experience of pure frequencies of a Divine Father. We will share our personal journeys around healing the false father experiences from this life and other lifetimes in order to let in Divine Father and also be in deepening sacred union grounds with our beloved masculine partners.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call.You will connect with the part of you that has most experienced the fatherhood wound (your inner daughter or whatever soul aspect that wants to come through) and invite them to move into the higher-dimensional God chamber to experience unconditional love with Divine Father. We will be joined by various Divine Father faces/forms such as Yeshua, Joseph of Arimathea, Father Sky, etc. We will also repeat “I Am” mantras that recode the Father experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 30th women’s group and check that your email is current.​

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online communit

Bridge To New Lemuria Group Meditation Call May 16th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Rather than relating to Lemuria as an ‘ancient civilization’ that existed for millions of years a long time ago, we can connect in an intimate way to the energies of Lemuria within us and with Lemurians who live currently within Inner Earth. Lemuria or Mu (which means ‘Motherland’) provides us a template of embodied, vital, and even practical spirituality that is connected to all living beings and our home as Mother Gaia.

Inner Earth Lemurians are available as bridges for us during this intense completion of the dark night phase of humanity within the Matrix….as we emerge into the light again. Lemurians provide the codes we need to upgrade our DNA, move into our ‘super human’ gifts (such as those displayed by Avatar Lemurians such as Yeshua), expand our consciousness in all areas of life, and heal traumas on emotional/mental/physical/spiritual levels. They remind us of our capacity for updates in all areas of life…such as immortality, living on light, highly conscious relationships and community living, intentional procreation, etc.

Raphael and I are co-hosting our monthly group call for women and men over Zoom to provide a transmission of Ascension codes from here in Glastonbury/Avalon (the heart and third eye chakra of Gaia) where we have been receiving activations from the Lemurians, especially through the ancient standing stone circles here. The focus of this group next Sunday, May 16th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be opening up to connect to the Lemurians as guides, templates, and sacred initiators.

We will talk about how the Lemurians have been waiting for thousands of years for those of us on the ‘surface’ to raise into a higher consciousness so that they could emerge out of Inner Earth (where they live in 5D communities) and join us. We will share our personal journeys and experiences with them and the guidance we have received around leaving Glastonbury in July to form a NuMu sustainable community in Portugal.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative journey to Inner Earth to visit with the Lemurians and bridge to your aspect/guide/ambassador as well. Our Inner Earth Lemurian soul aspects/brothers/sisters named Ruma and Ruhaniel will join us as a template of the sacred human ascension process and providing messages/guidance to us all. We will also repeat ‘recoding’ affirmations as mantras together as a group that assist in this healing.

Here is a recent Lemurian transmission and message from Ruma and me: https://youtu.be/iaYhHu8LNkI

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the Zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 16th group and check that your email is current.

You can also join this call for free if you are a member of our online community Portal on Mighty Networks where we also provide a safe online digestion and sharing space after the call. Membership is $14.99 USD a month with info at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.coThere is more info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon and New Lemuria!

Jelelle Awen

Post Supermoon: Invitation From Divine Mother Into Deeper Connection With Her

By Kasha Rokshana

Feeling Divine Mother strongly this morning, especially as we exit the full/super moon (and its mixed energies). Feeling Her vast and deep heart that is always active and present, Her embrace, Her stillness even when She must stir up storms within and without.

Feeling how She invites all of us into deeper trust in Her… in Her shadows and light, in all purposes She holds beyond what we can comprehend in every moment. She is always gently yet also firmly encouraging us to go inward and move forward, with a profound love that many of us have no reference point for from this lifetime or many others.

It’s Her realness I’m leaning into this morning, as I feel my own vulnerable fears and tears that live in parts of me and Metasoul aspects at times… the feelings of going forward with a momentum fueled by so much Divine trust, while also letting in the heartbreak of letting go of a world we all once knew, that I have had my own attachments to, that is all now burning up and crumbling into Divine ashes. It’s not enough to trust the Divine without also feeling the pain that comes up in our hearts… the pain of our inner world letting go to let in, but also the pain of the much larger world that is also crying out for Her love and, as we are all Divine ourselves, for our love too.

I’ve felt over and over again the leaps of faith that the Divine invites me into and the arms them outstretched to catch me as I also catch myself. I feel how this is the invitation to the whole world… to let burn what needs to burn, to let play out what needs to play out, even as we also need to speak out when we feel to… to cry the tears that need to be shed… to let go, even of what or who was once considered beloved if the resonance is not deepening.

I feel Her encouragement, now more than ever, to let go of any ‘false gods’ which include ‘false mothers’ and ‘mother-figures’… authorities that once felt trustworthy, birth parents that you have now outgrown in consciousness, friendships that serve your smallness and not your bigness.

All of this, as She is well aware, needs time and space to process and yet, there is a cost that can accumulate as you waver in your resolve while parts of you who are afraid to let go of what is known, continue to lead your life’s decisions and indecisions.

Mother has so much patience for it all, yet will also offer us a prickly nest as needed… to help us fly, at last. To help us truly see and take ownership of our own journeys, no matter what the hills and valleys are that we may face on the way.

Join Jelelle Awen and I this Sunday, May 2nd @5pm BST for a women’s group call focused on healing the false mother wound to let in Divine Mother. We have both had such deep journeys in our own processes around this and look forward to helping you activate, deepen, or reboot your own connection to Divine Mother in whatever face, form, or energy you need Her to show up with the most right now.

You can donate via our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

or PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Healing The Mother Wound To Let In Divine Mother | Women’s Group Call W/Jelelle & Kasha on May 2

SoulFullHeart Teachers/ Facilitators/Divine Feminine bridges Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana co-host this group call for women over Zoom to provide a transmission of Divine Feminine activation codes from their physical location in Glastonbury/Avalon (the heart and third eye chakra of Gaia) to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment. The focus of this group on Sunday, May 2, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be healing the False Mother wound to open up connection more to the Divine Mother.

Healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother was a popular women’s group call topic that I, Jelelle, offered in a previous call last year, so Kasha and I felt to revisit it again now. It feels so timely as well with the False Mother/Feminine matrix programming (what we call the ‘Ursula consciousness’) collapsing for so many women on the awakening and self-healing journey.The ache and longing for a nurturing, compassionate and responsive mothering energy in our lives often runs very deep within us and within parts of us such as our Inner Child and Inner Teenager.

The need for a template of healthy queen leadership, sacred union lover/mate, and powerful sorceress/priestess are also frequencies that parts of us are longing to express and be initiated into by a loving Divine Feminine energy.

The actual experience of the mothering and templating we received from female caregivers is often an invalidation, judgemental, disconnected, and toxic frequency. This can leave traumas and wounds within us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Mother/Feminine energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will talk about how so often what expresses as mothering is actually based on codependence and a deep wounding within the feminine caregiver that is not actually ‘feminine’ in an authentic way, yet wounded masculine frequencies. Healing our mother experience with our inner masculine and feminine parts allows for more receiving of the Divine Mother frequencies that support us to embody more of our own Divine Feminine essence. Also, opening up nurturing motherly bonds with feminine aspects of yourself and with Metasoul sisters (soul aspects from other lifetimes) creates an experience of increasingly fulfilling motherhood from within that then flows to the outside and helps to heal the matriarchal family line as well on a Quantum level.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call and with the Magdalenes, a sisterhood/motherhood 5D consciousness lineage with Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, and Divine Grandmother Anna to help heal the generational motherhood wound inside and outside. You will also connect with the part of you that has most experienced the motherhood wound (your inner daughter) and start to offer them love and light. We will also repeat “I am” mantras that recode the Mother experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 2nd women’s group and check that your email is current.

More info at soulfullheart.org/events

​Love,
Jelelle and Kasha

The Over-holding Of Others In Our Wombs

by Kasha Rokshana

Connection with our wombs on a daily basis is so important to our health and well-being on all levels as women, especially right now.

My womb, ‘Vesica’, showed me this morning how much she has been holding… and I know she is not the only womb holding much more than she needs to.

In her, I found and felt the cries of the world; the cries of those I love that are going through a challenging time; images of what’s moving in my soul and heart lately; desires that are peaking and perking up; needs that are going unmet at times; feelings of my depth and capacity to hold and offer love to myself and others.

My heart-shaped rose quartz crystal ended up laying on her without me consciously choosing to place it there.
“I need clearing”, Vesica said to me, “I’m holding too much. I’m not designed to hold as much as I have been. You’ll feel clearer if I’m cleared and you’ll feel calmer too. I’m not designed to hold any human being beyond gestation and so I cannot hold all of the people/souls that are in me right now”.

This struck me as a deep reminder of how much we need to be aware of what we’re holding and to move energy out of our wombs… from the collective of which we are a part yet not responsible for; from the beloveds in our lives whose soul-destinies we cannot ‘know’ or control for them; from any fears that parts of us hold about our well-being and our path in our life (or death); from the Matrices (3D and 4D) that still have a foothold on our wombs and what moves into and through them and decide how they’ll be ‘used’ too.


To connect with your womb deeply can take time and much clearing. There are parts of you that are protective of her, and rightfully so, depending on what you’ve been through in this lifetime and others too. To truly connect to the stillness and beauty that IS your womb space takes a dedication and deep desire for her to be free and to arise in her essence within you.

On Sunday April 4th at 5pm BST, Jelelle Awen and I will be offering our second womb-consciousness-based women’s group mediation call, this time focused on freeing the womb from the Matrix. There’s a darkness to this shadow exploration and a depth to it too, yet it’s truly amazing what our wombs can and DO transmute when given the proper care, attention, and love. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from my womb to yours!

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Unplugging From The “Ursula” False Feminine | Women’s Womb Healing Group Call April 4

By Jelelle Awen

Going into the womb space is to connect with the infinite roots and origins of our Divine Feminine essence. When we connect to our wombs with much care and love, in a personal and intimate way, we then receive access to the pools of wisdom, compassion, creation, and empowerment that she contains.

Yet, our wombs have so often been hijacked and ‘taken over’ by energies of false feminine control that are dominating, possessive, draining, and more. This is what I have come to call the “Ursula Consciousness”, as represented by the Evil Witch octopus character in the movie Little Mermaid. The Ursula energies present as feminine and yet are a distorted version of wounded masculine frequency that is hooked into the 3D/Lower 4D control Matrix programming.

This Ursula energy is seductive, manipulative, and wants to ‘own’ the innocence within us…jealousy and competition can be an element of it. And also she both hates/resists men and and wants to have codependence with them. This creates a resistance for the true feminine essence within us to arise and a deep protection of it and our womb from our inner masculine Protector. This can be a deep polarity within us and so confusing, especially if our feminine caretaker/mothers had this Ursula energy with us. We can also have an Inner Ursula who plays this role of evil queen/witch within us.

I have explored and been healing this dynamic within myself in experience with my birth mother (who had Ursula tendencies) and in many sessions with women over the years. I have supported, with assistance from the Divine Mother and Divine Self, the inner feminine essence (in all her different forms) to unplug and heal from this Ursula energy and also the wounded masculine frequencies in fathers/brothers/lovers etc as well that mimic this. We also connect with the inner masculine who has often been ‘crushed’ by the Ursula energy and he moves into trusting the feminine again, more empowerment, from overly protective guard to collaborative partner.

As sensitive empaths and star seeds, there is a tendency to take this Ursula energy within us and try to transmute it to love again. There is often a soul contract/agreement as well with family members that we will serve this role within the family line, bringing light to the darkness of the ancestral wounding. However, this unconscious taking in and ‘holding’ within our wombs of this toxic energy has a cost to us, creating cycles of physical chronic illnesses (including PMS and menopausal symptoms), codependency/abuse in relationships, suppressed sexuality/sexual desire, avoidance of relationships and ‘lone wolf’, disempowerment in expression of soul gifts/struggles with manifestation/alchemy, and more.

In our next women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday, April 4th at 5:00pm BST, Kasha and I will share more about this womb hijacking dynamic and how it may be showing up for you and healing around it. In our meditation, we will be connecting with our wombs to feel/see what the hookup may be within us to this Ursula/Matrix energy. We will then do a clearing of your womb and unplugging of this hookup at whatever levels are available to you at this time by our Divine Self and soul.

With the assistance of Grandmother Anna and Mary Magdalene and the cleansing Red Spring waters here in Avalon, we will pull in the resurrection/rebirth energies of Easter and connect to the Cosmic/Divine Mother womb available to us all. We will also ‘recode’ our wombs through saying empowering and healing affirmations. There will also be time for those who wish to share on the call to do so.

This will be a deep healing, yet also I have come to trust that it will meet you at whatever level you are most ready and open to. You can join us by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/715845532438759 and https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

I do feel it is SO timely to go into these areas of healing, for empowerment of the Divine Feminine within us that also serves to free those souls who have played the ‘role’ of Ursula in our lives to be freed as well. A great mercy and mutual forgiveness is available to us to embody and broadcast then to a world that is deeply in need of it.

Going into these womb spaces in women’s group calls has been an empowering and tender experience for me and I look forward to journeying there again!

Love from Avalon,
Jelelle Awen

Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.