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Welcoming In Your Sacred Inner Homecoming

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by Kasha Rokshana

Through being born into this Matrix, we are taught to be concerned, always, with the opinions that surround us. We end up scattered, shattered, divided inside. This division has created ‘parts’ that formed in response to this mandate to always look outside of us for answers, for the modeling of ‘best behaviours’, for learning how to be compliant or even how to rebel properly, and certainly for any sense of ‘home’, belonging, or reconnection with the Divine. 

It has been such a huge part of my personal process over this last decade to truly bring ALL of that back inward, to follow the threads of pain that have led to parts of me, and to then untangle those threads from other parts and find integration over time. These pain threads have been complex, not straight forward, and also have been co-created and maintained by outer relationships, jobs, etc. They have also been tugged on and at times entangled with the threads within others and their own parts, making the sorting out a process of what’s mine and what’s someone else’s quite messy in moments. 

The only way I’ve been able to deeply address and heal the pain and parts has been by bringing them back inward, to my own heart, to the home/nest I’ve been creating and cultivating there for so long, which now also overflows to others in 1:1 sessions as I hold space for other women’s own parts to come forward and their own inner ‘homes’ to be created.

There is always an invitation to create this inner heart and soul home inside of you and so much support being offered for that from the Divine within you, from your Metasoul aspects, from Star Family, even from all the beings in your inner world also known as ‘parts of you’ – though many of them may have a really hard time letting in that this home within is even possible at first, as they’ve had to have so much outer focus for so long. 

The codes of Homecoming that are steaming in these days are an opportunity to re-code what it means to truly take care of yourself, your body, your emotional and spiritual realities, and not only within you… they are also supporting you to draw to you those resonant relationships you’ve maybe only dreamed of, or only experienced virtually so far. If there’s a resistance or reluctance in your heart toward truly embracing your beloved online relationships in the physical, there are very likely some parts of you that feel afraid perhaps of the cost to your life as you’ve known it… for nothing ever changes us like letting love in, especially love for ourselves and especially, also, saying ‘yes’ to love’s flow as it moves between us and others in ways unpredictable. 

My beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading a group call this coming Sunday, Oct 16th, that will be focused on these Homecoming Codes – letting them in, feeling what they mean for you personally, and connecting to your inner ‘home’ in a deepening way. The call will be by donation as always, and held over Zoom. If you’d like more info, visit soulfullheart.org/events. 

So much love to you and with you as you feel into these Homecoming Codes and what they mean to you at this time!

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Safe Haven Within: Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series (Video)

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In an outer world that can feel so unsafe with all that’s shaking out in the Matrix, in personal relationships, and even in spiritual circles/communities, the place you have the opportunity to cultivate true safety is within your inner world. From that place inside, you can find the clarity and guidance necessary in order to make the choices for cultivating an outer reality and relationships that better match those frequencies.

In this video from the Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator/Teacher, Kasha Rokshana, leads you in a guided meditation to feel this inner ‘Safe Haven’ where you and your parts/aspects can find rest and recovery, but most importantly, a place of safety where they and you can feel held by the Divine and within your sacred womb. 

This video is a part of an ongoing series of guided meditations which you can do in any order you feel. Here is the full playlist.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Inner Son, Inner Father Guided Meditation: Video 26 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

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In this twenty-sixth video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening in this 3rd of four videos within Deepen 22 series

In this video, we shared about:
*How the Inner Son, expressing as either the Inner Child or The Inner Teeanager holds the key to our sensitivity and vulnerability.
*How their ‘arrested development’ as psychology calls it, is not something wrong or to be fixed, but rather a portal back to our spring loaded essence, without which, we are left compensating in all of life for that missing essence.
*How our birth Father can leave us with a template of a bully, an impotent/absent dad, or an idealized false God, ‘perfect dad’ leaves us with a template that we need to then sort through to cultivate a healthy relationship with Divine Father

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael lead you to reconnect with your Inner Son and Inner Father to begin a reconnection and healthy differentiation with you holding the space as your divine self.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Emerging Out Of Inward Focus: Personal UPdate

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By Jelelle Awen

I am emerging slowly out of an intense quiet….a time of deep immersion in nature, living in a tent within a river valley on the edge of vast wilderness in a camp with my beloveds. Inward focus overcame outward expressions, along with focus on the present NOW and real rather than the virtual. In these last few months of summer here in Northern Portugal, I felt a rest from sharing, serving and writing that allowed me to respond to deeper layers of digestion and integration that needed me. When I checked in with my guides/soul aspects/the Divine, I was guided over and over to “just rest and fill UP again with Divine love.”

For the last five years, I have been posting my teachings/channelings almost every day on social media and on my blog, working on a book of some sort, doing 1:1 healing sessions with women, co-hosting near weekly group calls, co-leading and being in our small SoulFullHeart community, etc. This outward service has felt so often like a JOY, inspired by a Divine flow rooted in my love for the Divine. So much passion expression came out of me in answer to what I feel strongly IS my purpose here.

Yet, also, it has been challenging to serve and share during this time of bifurcation, Matrix collapse, and False Light dominance over spirituality, especially in the last couple of years with the C narrative and V. grid. I could feel there were increasingly parts of me holding trauma from being WITH so much trauma in others over the years in session space and group calls, offering a heart and soul bridge to them as I was called to do and be, and also from receiving sometimes harsh projections and energetic kicks from others. Also, I would share with others as soon as I received love/guidance/light from the Divine….and this outward pouring needed to pause so that I could fill up again.

There was a soul pattern within me of sacrificial service to others as a False God piece that I am still working through, a long thread of it within my soul and many lifetimes as High Priestess, Oracle, Wise Woman, Nun, Rebellion Leader, etc. There was also some unworthiness and feeling of failure, of ‘not being right with God’, if I didn’t express outwardly in this way and draw others or when completions would happen with others too. These pieces feel like they are clearing up now with the time and space I have bridged to them. Receiving compassionate forgiveness from the Divine for myself and to then extend to others is allowing a NEW way to relate to service that doesn’t hold grudges, guilt, karmic compensation or other unworthiness based energies.

Gaia held the space for these inner reclamations…the steady sound of Her waters flowing over rocks filling my ear chakras for all these weeks, allowing for a deep cellular purging and cleansing. Her fresh air constantly penetrating my lungs, opening up my heart space as necessary mourning/grief/sadness moved through. Her tree canopies surrounded me with prana energy that gave life to the places that were tired, fragile, or needing it. She reminded me of the New Earth template that She holds ready for humanity when we emerge out of our Dark Night.We are moving on now from this natural nest that has held us and into a beautiful home together as a community in Central Portugal for the Fall/Winter.

As I let in this new timeline shift, I feel such gratitude for what I’ve received here, what I’ve let go of here, what has rebooted here, and for what may emerge out of my more cleared soil from within as I leave here. I feel the embers of sharing and service starting to ignite from within again. The forms they will take and the rate/pace and specific offerings are still unknown to me. Yet, I feel the Divine trust in my heart that is always there that the way will be guided, the words inspired, and the intentions pure. And I feel the steady support and goodness of the beloved souls who stayed around during this time of deconstruction when more was unknown than known.

I feel more than before the invitation to BE a lighthouse…a beacon of love and Divine trust to light and guide a way through these increasingly stormy times. I can only true BE that as I am in a place of rest, trust, and overflow from within. From a place of higher anchored light WITHIN the human body, there are possibilities to move out of suffering, out of the false light, and into the genuine and real lap of Divine love.

I look forward to what comes next for me, for you, for humanity, and for the next phases of our Ascension together! ❤

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about SoulFullHeart at soulfullheart.org.

Spring Equinox Energies: Invitation To Feel Peaking Inner Polarities

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by Kasha Rokshana

Equinox.

Equilibrium and balance.

There’s such a strong pull to polarities, especially this past year. This is necessary, though it’s been a dark passageway and we are still in it. The poultice of C-vid and every opinion/consciousness surrounding it has been backlighting our need to heal some very dark, very stark aspects of our humanity and spirituality. It’s been so challenging to see all of this coming up and out, purging out violently and aggressively in moments energetically and physically… And it’s even more challenging (and understandably so) to truly be willing to FEEL it all and feel the cries of the aching and awakening world within and without.

We all want change for the better, yet we are also all on a sacred mission to be on our own sovereign journeys around that. And, there can be no real ‘change for the better’ without feeling where there’s a push-pull toward being in the process of healing toward that. There’s much to heal, own, and acknowledge and it’s all rather sobering.

The tendency to pull away, turn our backs on each other, set boundaries without love leading, has been strongly coming up. If we are to find our way to another way of feeling through this necessary and uncomfortable phase of conflict, we need to show up for where this tendency lives inside of us, from part to part, from us to the Divine, and then we can better feel where and how it expresses between ourselves and others.

The invitation into equilibrium is about finding more unity, especially within, between light and dark, masculine and feminine. They don’t need to merge and become one energy, but they do get to offer each other gifts as you feel too where and how they’ve been at odds.

We also get to explore this finding of equilibrium without losing our individuality inside of pair-bond/sacred union/twin flame relationships, where each being has their own experiences of life and lifetimes to bring to the bond. Each being has its own polarities to reconcile between fear and love. I feel this coming into balance more within me and that then extends to Aurius and also my beloveds and the women I facilitate too, though the journey of reconciling the light and darkness within is ongoing and always unfolding.

We have so much to feel and heal, to face and confront and come to terms with, while holding it all with love and compassion, especially on the inside. This Equinox is certainly empowering all of us to take our next steps with that process!

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Way Of The Love Ambassador: Moving Beyond ‘Fighting’ And Pointing Fingers

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by Kasha Rokshana

It takes more strength to keep from fighting than it does to fight.

To fight back, to scream out our truths until they even seem heard, to poke and prod at those that parts of us don’t agree with or that we feel hard done by… Whenever ‘peace’ seems to come from these actions, it does not sustain. It does not truly land or teach or shift anything at the core/heart of what has been brought out to be seen.

We must find another way. Often that other way has NOT been taught. It is a middle ground that does not ‘roll over’, nor does it impose shame or blame on self or others.

It’s a middle ground that can only be discovered when you visit the shadowland battlegrounds within. Feeling what the soul is still fighting for or against. Feeling the parts that are still in conflict with mom or dad or authority. Feeling yourself so you can actually feel others and where they are coming from. Actually being able to bring empathy as a way to move through what’s present rather than shut down and shut out the other…

This is the stuff that the New Earth, the Golden Earth that wants to birth through and with us is made of. And… It comes from feeling. Making space for feeling. Feeling how parts of us don’t want to feel and why. Feeling our numbness, even, and why it’s been there, what it’s been protecting that is far more vulnerable.

We are being invited to see and feel through the eyes and heart of love. Love does not negate or diminish the darkness present, but liases with it, finds a way to make room for it to have it’s say, rather than fully become it in order to get a point across.

Such is the birth of the Love Ambassador within us all.

I feel all of this ongoingly moving through me, especially as a sacred feminine woman/healer/teacher, as I find my own way into my truth and into ways to share it that don’t point fingers but instead bravely bring love into every single situation, conflict, and moment of needing to look into sometimes a very challenging mirror.

I feel us all on our sacred journeys and finding our way through what has never really worked for us into what now can work WITH us… With love holding space for it all. ❤️🕊

Love,
Kasha 🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Pursuit Of The Divine, The Great Beloved

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by Kalayna Solais

So much energy and focus has been placed on drawing THE mate… THE soul purpose… THE, well, anything you can think of that you’ve longed for your whole life or at least since you began to awaken.
But the pursuit of the Divine itself has been at the heart of it all… or perhaps, better to say, the pursuit of letting IN the Divine in a deep and unending love affair that lives deep inside of you.


This has been true for me. And only in these last few days have I really come to deeper realizations about this.

Parts of me have sought out an experience of a bond with the Divine through so much focus on drawing my next Sacred Union experience as well as a much deeper validation, you could say, of my reason for being here, for living, for serving love. I’ve visited and hung out with these darker edges of searching on the outside for what has been needed from me to me and from the Divine to me and back again.


I’ve shrunk, or parts of me have, in order to fit in with different ideas and ideals, social and romantic bonds, forgetting in moments the Divinity within and the unseverable cord to the Divine, to the Great Beloved, to Love itself, that sees everything I AM even when parts of me aren’t quite ready to yet. And… to let in that I too can have this love affair in an ever-deepening way with myself.


It doesn’t matter what I ‘know’. It never matters if I’m ‘right’. It doesn’t matter if I gain or lose 20lbs or if my hair is straight or curly. It doesn’t matter if my yoga poses are in full power, if I’m a ‘perfect’ SoulFullHeart Facilitator or a perfect spiritual student. It doesn’t matter… but my soul and heart’s relationship to the Divine within does. And this is what permeates all other things that I do, that I am, and that I am becoming.


The Divine really feels like the greatest lover we could ever conjure up in our romantic fantasies… the infinite love that sees everything we simply ARE beyond any facades, any fears, any window-dressing of self-image, and loves every inch of our bodies, every thought in our minds. It brings to us bouquets of compassionate flowers, leaving them at our heart’s doorstep every day. It’s the energy of being pursued with so much grounded and deeply loving gusto, that wants and persists in this wanting and claiming and pursuit.


This is so often sought through the false gods of relationships with false teachers, mates who cannot see us for they cannot see themselves, and even some spiritual or religious practices. This is so often not templated to us as something that is our birthright to have inside of us, from us to ourselves and our parts and back again.


We forget devotional practices so often, it seems… or what is at the core of them. We forget that in these practices of prayer, dancing, singing, meditation, we are also being responded to. We are not only worshipping and offering gratitude, we are being worshipped back. We are being loved deeply, no matter what we do or say. We are being met with equal desire for connection and alchemy. We take in nature and it takes us in. We take in love and love opens its heart to us.


As I let in the Beloved more and feel this energy live and breathe within me, I feel such a deeper sense of my authentic worth. This makes all else, all false gods parts of me have created out of a need and desire to experience God in an even more intimate way nearly fall away as I begin to truly feel how this is enough. I am enough. I AM. The Divine IS. My union with the Divine IS and always will BE.


And so it is, for you as well, for your preciousness as a heart and soul… And all beings on this planet.

❤️🙏🏻
Much love… Namaste.
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

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“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❤

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Ripe Time For Awakenings, Deeper Connection With The Divine And Within

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by Kalayna Solais

Yesterday, I paused to feel the panic moving through the collective, how it could easily echo something that needs me inside of me, yet doesn’t seem to at this time…. At least not in the same way as it seems to be for others.

It rippled and ripped around where I stood. It told me, asked me, to keep being as still as I can, to keep holding space for it, to keep being a beacon of love and surrender during a dark time.

Having been through dark times in this life and many others, I know I can do this. I can be the lighthouse on the dark and stormy waters, whether the ships can see me or not.

My soul knows the solace, the solitude, the loneliness too, of being a ‘healer’ in the midst of chaos. My soul also knows the beauty of the beaconing, the beckoning towards brighter shores of possibility and deeper connection within and with the Divine during such times as these when the death knoll (literal and figurative) sounds and there is an added poignancy and consciousness/awareness in our daily interactions and activities that we couldn’t get to otherwise.

My heart knows that this is all leading us to deeper connections to each other and ourselves as well as our beloved Gaia, as what is rebooting completes its reset cycle, bringing the collective into many different strands and strata of awakening.

All lenses are valid, all viewpoints need acknowledging. None are ‘wrong’ and none are absolutely ’right’, for this world is not now nor could ever be black and white.

I think the deepest gift we can offer ourselves if we choose to isolate, to pull back and out from ‘work’ or from ‘social’ as a precaution is to go inward and feel. The world is on a sort of ‘pause until further notice’ which is extremely rare. This is an opportunity to see what’s been brewing and moving on the inside of each of us. Where is the stagnancy and stubbornness toward love and surrender? Where is there a poignant fear of death or loss or both? These are existential questions, I know. Not everyone will be able to ask themselves or parts of themselves these just yet, but the invitation is there as always. And, as always, the Divine is here holding us all in whatever explorations we’re having inside and out and in whatever it is we are discovering about ourselves and our worlds, both inner and outer.

We are being invited to see our capacity to create the life we actually DO want and how this all comes from inside of each of us… from these places of panic and worry that are rooted far deeper than simply just being what ‘is’ and therefore accepted as only what ‘is’. There is SO much that needs our LOVE in these places. There are so many parts feeling their beloved 3D world being shaken up and so many Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes feeling a recapitulation of what they’re going through as well. Indeed, there are MANY layers all happening at once, so the need to pull it all back inward and make space for feeling it all is very, very real.

In all of this… there is nothing to ‘vanquish’ but there is a lot to be with and love UP.

It’s from this inward place that it can all change for the better, starting with the chaotic INNER world, the one that tends to get brushed aside or buried far too often.

Much love to you all and everything inside of you that may be in deep reaction at this time….

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Reflections From Our Interconnections: A Poem

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by Kalayna Solais

Digging IN
my heart remembers
what it only can with you.
And what’s always true
is the plan of living
and the exquisite pain
of letting in
while also letting go.

Ecstatically
the heart opens and closes again
echoing thoughts and words within
the pulse of beating hearts
and timelines crossing timelines.

Instinctually
the forbidden mind
starts to mine
the experience of the heart
and integration of lined-up soul pieces
that flow and flee and double-back
into the next full circle
of healing miracles
within.

Reflections, ALL
move inside the current being
now seeing
what couldn’t be seen without them
moving into the heart space and out again
leaving me with more gain
than loss.

No matter the next
and next
and next
reflections and reactions and reactivations
the following places
pace in a dance
that races then recedes
in a way wild
uncontrolled
and absolutely
ALIVE.

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Art by Rassouli

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.