Beltane Energies: Transformation, Activation Of Sacred Inner/Outer Union & Passionate Divine Reunion

by Kasha Rokshana

Solar flares, Beltane fires, solar eclipse… so much activation magic, so much clearing, so much to digest! I sincerely hope that as these fires of sacred transformation from the inside out hold you today (and ongoingly) that you feel held, loved, appreciated… and above all, that you feel trust, even in those waves and moments when it feels like too much.♥️🔥

I feel dips and upturns of sacred union inside and out calling to us all today. I feel the awakenings and stirrings of the soul and heart both as they answer, react, and respond to this calling. My own sacred union wifh Gabriel has had its own challenges and deepening this whole month more or less, and it continues to open out into new territory today with passion and desire, and even fear coming up as we go.

Wherever you are with that process and with your own unfolding journey overall at this time, the Beltane fires welcome you into their embrace, whether you’re walking through them, lingering near them, or celebrating being on the other side of them. ♥️

Here is the Beltane poem I re-share every year since I wrote it a few years ago. I hope it stirs and calls on your desires for your inner and outer mateship possibilities, but also into a deep and passionate love affair with the Divine and with all of life as well. 🔥

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Beloved that you are,

When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring…

There I’ll be

Standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.

In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.

In Beltane’s new arrivals, love,
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer in all elements
of this life’s wanderings.

In myself I stay here for you, love,
finding more treasure long buried
to show you in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you
for you.

The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer to the edges
that keep US alive…

Together we will meet, my beloved,
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…

A counterpart.

Not to bind, but to bond.

Not to cling, but to sing.

Not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations
of each new movement
here…

Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love,
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on a new insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to long ago
and yet NOW too.

Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you,
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.

Love, when we do meet again
here…
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn.

On this Beltane celebration day,
as I ache for you,
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much

oh, so much…

With mine.

Love,
Kasha ♥️


🎨: Sylvan Myst

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Easter Passage Energies Of Death, Grief, & Rebirth

by Kasha Rokshana

‘Easter’ Energy Update: The anxiety, the uncertainty, the doubts that surface at this time are as sacred as the moments of clarity, of surefooted-ness, and of deepening trust in the flow of what’s happening inside and out. Rebirth is sometimes glorious to be in, sometimes messy, and oftentimes not what parts of us expect.

To trust the ‘death’ processes and everything they come with is just as sacred as trusting the ‘rebirth’ that comes on the other side. We know in our souls that it’s inevitable that we WILL emerge from the darkness and the unknown and land somewhere necessary and even desirable, yet that doesn’t always help all parts of us or soul aspects to feel their trust in that in their own ways. They’ve witnessed too much of what they feel is the opposite experience and even timelines/lifetimes of persecution, of being condemned, of being alone, of being in an all-time low that seems to last forever.

The darkness has its work to do in all of this, especially as the times we’re in truly support us to feel how unsupported parts/aspects of us feel toward the Divine. The Divine doesn’t expect us to transcend any of this and instead offers us a place to land it all… every last worry, hope, doubt, fear, and desire.

I would love to say that we will absolutely land in the New/Golden Earth reality we all dream of in the next few years at least, yet the truth is, we can’t attach to that outcome and anything miraculous suddenly placing us there. Not while there are still parts within us and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes struggling to let in the possibilities, struggling to let in even feeling their mistrust, fears, anxieties, and allowing it all to move and be answered. The Golden future we all desire is a resurrection that takes root within, that flowers in resonance shared in our inner and outer worlds. Only then does it really feel possible to experience it in deeper and deeper ways, while acknowledging and flowing with the birth pangs that come with that ongoing process.

What I feel from the Divine is support to not look for a magic, silver bullet solution, but instead to feel the grief of the ideals of what was once good in our lives to whatever degree it truly was good, and to let go into this Great Unknown as we move deeper into this phase of Great Death. The tears of this process water the seeds of what’s becoming possible, even though the death sometimes feel far more real.

The darkness around the world seems to be getting darker… yet I feel a trust that everything we endure is somehow necessary for all of our individual awakenings, let alone the global one that is also ongoing. Even in that trust, however, I have to make space for my own doubts to surface that we’ll ever be truly ready in my own lifetime to embrace what could be. When I feel this, I feel grief like a lump in my throat. I feel the need to keep letting go of any pictures of what’s possible and be with what IS… the death and pain needs a lot of space to be felt, with no agenda, with no pushing to move beyond it, and no need to be ahead of it, while also trusting desires for what could be like a beacon leading me homeward.

The answers are unknown as to how this all resolved itself, yet there is an answer in the path of crying with those who cry around us, feeling love for those who are also remembering how to love themselves and others, remembering that our souls have not chosen by accident to be here now. We all have a purpose, even if it’s just to feel these waves of grief and letting go, in order to surrender deeper to what is and let in what could be along the way.

As we head rapidly towards ‘Easter weekend’ now, it’s the perfect time to feel the Death and Rebirth of our selves, parts of us, and all of humanity. It’s a powerful time to feel the Divine with us, in the forms/faces that work for each of us individually, such as Yeshua and Magdalene, who I can feel in their union holding us all so deeply.

I feel them offering, as I conclude this writing today, “May your sense of personal and global arising feel as real as the death and grief you also feel.

May your alignment with your soul’s heart deepen in surrender to the Divine that holds it all.

May your desires ripen, your heart open, and your love expand and fill every cell of your being, only to overflow in concert and transaction with those around you who also care so much.

Feel how much you are loved, even when love feels scarce.

In all of this and your sacred doubts too, the Divine is with you, always.”

Love,
Kasha

P.S. I would so love to hold 1:1 space for you, if you’re a woman, in your inner explorations of what was once true for you, what’s true now, and what you desire to be true in the future. My beloveds hold space as well in 1:1 sessions, for women with Jelelle and for men and women with Raphael and Gabriel. For more info, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

“I love you”: Message Of Encouragement From The Divine

by Kasha Rokshana

(Art by Glenyss Bourne)

In all of life’s
infinite complications…

There’s always a voice
whispering,

“I love you”…

Even if
Part of you
Isn’t able to hear it
Or
Isn’t able to let in

The voice remains,
still whispering,

“I love you”.

Then…
you realize
this voice is yours
And the Divine’s
Rolled back into One.

Even when something
So deep inside you
thought everything was over,
That the complications have ‘won’,
that it’ll never know love again…

The voice remains
and still it whispers,

“I love you”,
And as a toddler
Makes its strides with watchful eyes,
your heart knows
And remembers steadily
That somehow
This voice,
These words,
Are its true home.

And when it’s ready,
With a steadiness in tow,
It begins to whisper back,

“I love you too…”

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred, Ever-Unfolding Process Of Healing The Separation Wound

by Kasha Rokshana

If you’ve been in or around a ‘spiritual circle’ or offering of any kind for a while, you’ve probably heard about how ‘separation is an illusion’ quite often, yet perhaps it hasn’t really felt relevant or comforting to parts of you to hear that… and, you may have also felt a subtle (or not so subtle) rumble in your belly in response, a sense of being ‘wrong’ for buying into the ‘illusion’ or somehow not quite getting how separation isn’t real.

Separation IS an illusion, yet for parts of us, it isn’t… and for certain soul aspects of ours in other lifetimes, it also isn’t. There’s the theory that separation isn’t real, but sometimes it FEELS like the realest thing there is, especially with how much MORE separation in the physical is happening now between yourself and others. The Great Awakening has a cost to it and that cost is that you may start to feel closer to the Divine again, yet your relationships are crumbling along with your job prospects, your means of ‘making ends meet’, and perhaps even your whole way of seeing and experiencing life in your home country.

In some ways, with human division ripening and dissonance sometimes feeling much more real than any possible resonance with one another, how could separation NOT feel like the realest thing there is?

In my own experience of healing the separation wound to the depth I have already (with more layers to go, of course), I feel like the greatest reason for any part/soul aspect to feel ‘separate’ from the Divine, always comes down to the deepest feelings of unworthiness… of having been ‘cast out’ of the Divine Garden, of having been pressed back into the density of a human body (again), of not experiencing ‘love’ in the same way our souls know we so easily CAN when in our soul’s home dimension.

To make up for this unworthiness, parts of us reach for anything that can bring them back into the arms of the love they feel they’re missing, even at the detriment of the physical body or the numbing/transcendence of the deeply feeling human heart. There’s a throbbing ache inside the gap between the consciousness you have, the lacklustre relationships you’ve said ‘yes’ to, and perhaps even the spiritual practices you continue to do even if they aren’t quite answering the pain.

I’ve experienced at times triumphant, celebratory (and often VERY tearful) waves of reunion with the Divine in different forms, faces, and energies… within meditation and in my inner world, yet also in intimate reunion experiences with soul family and Sacred Union in the physical that open the once bruised heart back up again. And still, even with all of this, there are moments, processes, deep-dive experiences within, where I find yet another layer of shame and pain that creates feelings of not always being Divine let alone always being WITH the Divine.

I feel the Divine offering that these states of feeling separate are not only understandable, but expected… so deep are the layers of separation that reciting affirmations may help parts of you, yet not quite do all of the ‘work’ for you. It’s the bittersweet remembering that inside of you is a well of complicated soul and this-life experiences to keep wading into and exploring which brings you much closer to the Divine than trying so hard to move into a reality where separation no longer feels real without even glancing at the map before you, let alone traversing the actual terrain of the process of reunion.

This coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will co-host a group meditation call on Zoom at 5pm GMT, focused on healing the separation wound. They have been such profound models for me personally of how to enter into this territory of feeling aspects of you like the Divine Orphan, for example, and letting in the gifts of experiencing even deeper reunion and oneness frequencies with the Divine and even other souls too. You can attend the call live and/or receive the recording by offering any donation that feels good to you. You can find more info on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Lots of love from my journey of reunion to yours,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Unplugging From The False Light Guided Meditation: Video 12 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this twelfth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the False God/False Light Matrix on the 4D level that hijacks the natural soul awakening that occurs in order to keep the incarnational trap going. We talk about how energies of self-empowerment, self sovereignty, self worth, forgiveness, are missing in False Light movements/teachers/relationships and instead replaced with energies of shame/blame, manipulation, deception and lies, dependency, and power dominance.

We emphasize how the false light has been necessary until now to allow us to fully immerse in the Matrix experience and yet we are now awakening beyond it to experience the true love and light of the Divine essence within us. Experiencing the False Light/God and healing allows for us to experience unworthiness, separation wounds, and disempowerment so that we can heal and complete these cycles.

In the meditation, you and your Gatekeeper are invited to connect to the pure frequencies of Divine Mother and Divine Father. You can then feel what may be blocking this connection from coming through as you journey to the “God Room” representing the False Light/False God setting for you this life or another lifetime. As you you connect to this God Room, you are given the opportunity to bridge Divine Love to this part/soul aspect/soul pattern in order to heal it.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Divine Transmission: Recognition Comes Before Reconciliation

Nothing you are could ever be ‘wrong’.

You’ve been all these versions of yourself
Out of needs and desires
To fit in
To thrive
And even more so,
To survive.

Nothing you’ve chosen could ever be ‘wrong’.

You choose from your seat of consciousness
From your sense of what’s ‘right’
In order to show love
In some way, shape, or form.

You can do harm to others and they can harm you.
You can also harm yourself through the actions of parts of you.

Yet the truth remains
That the heart is stronger than the mind
And someday you will see
As more layers come off
That it was always with your best effort
And the best efforts within you, for you
That you’ve navigated all you have
To arrive where you are
And to be searching, working,
Swimming to the next shoreline.

To truly reconcile all differences
And reconcile ourselves to our Divine/soul selves,
First comes the recognition of who you’ve been
What you’ve chosen
And how the Divine remains behind it all
Holding the candle of your most immaculate inner truth,
That no experience you’ve ever had has truly severed your divinity…
Or your oneness with all other Divine/soul selves.

You are pure
You are Divine
And all parts of you formed out of necessity
Also hold a piece of your soul puzzle
And codes for the reasons why you are here,
Why the world inside and out needs YOU,
And why you’ve need to do,
Choose,
Become
All you have until now.

Every moment is another one for awakening
So arise,
Awaken,
Recognize and reconcile.
You are big enough
You are strong enough
And you are always, with certainty,
Divine enough.

Love,
The Divine (with Kasha)

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

“Come As You Are” This Solstice/Holiday Season

by Kasha Rokshana

Deep beneath the Matrix-fuelled busyness, expenses, and stresses of the ‘holiday season’, lay the pure energies of this time of year; un-hijacked and sprouting up from underneath what feels like frozen ground at times. These energies can be difficult to access, as this ground is the rather hardened layer of social/familial obligations that no longer arise for you in joy, but arise instead in tension and frustration. 

It’s a confusing time of year in that way, isn’t it? So many inner buttons are being pressed, some of which you can track and others which you can’t because they have so long simply been ‘tolerated’ or buried. The parts of you that want to scream, others that want to cry, and still others who want to be numb, are all being pushed on and perhaps this year, with the intensity of our different realities and consciousnesses surfacing in ways that can’t be ignored or put aside any longer, it’s all feeling much, much worse. 

Yet, there’s also the purity of the inner child’s joy that feels the Christ/Magdalene frequencies of this time and wants to jump into that love pool more than anything. There’s the deep love of the Divine that lives in your soul, and the desire to align ever-deeper with that love, to truly live from it, that also can become inspired to surface this time of year, when the ‘permission’ to be more joyful can come through and reach you, however it can. 

My own inner child (who has a Christmas Elf side!) has had a mixed experience of Christmas and the holidays, even in her enthusiasm for them. This time of year has been more challenging for her and many other energies within me too as things keep ramping up in the outer world and it’s all just so sad and hard to feel. It’s also been challenging as this year my personal income has been tighter and thus I can’t shower my beloveds with many bought gifts. This has been surprisingly hard as gift-giving has been a deep love language for parts of me, yet it’s been of course a huge out-breath to remember that with my beloveds and my mate, Gabriel, physical gifts have only ever been one small way to show our love for each other and generosity towards each other too. 

So while the physical gifts have had to be let go of in some ways this year (though not totally), I actually feel the deeper gift of our shared resonance and love flow which have been so much more nourishing and fulfilling than any ‘bought gift’ could possibly be… also, I feel how much I’m letting in that the man I’ve had many rounds of relationship with and who I’m in love with yet again though now in an even deeper way, is at my side. If I could give this gift to everyone in the world… that would be more satisfying than buying anything at all.

Of all the many messages we can receive this Solstice and holiday season, perhaps the most consistent one is the invitation to ‘come as you are’ as you reach inside of you and move your heart and soul back into the room of your own innate Divine connection, for its never about adornments, baubles or tokens, but always about love flow and choosing love over anything else. This is what I think of when I hear the song ‘Little Drummer Boy’’, for he had no ‘gifts’ to bring, but he brought his song, played on his precious drum, and somehow that brought him closer in frequency to the Divine child before (and within) him. He expressed his love, honoured his resonance, and showed up in the only way he knew how. How precious this invitation is for us all!

Sending you lots of love this Solstice and holiday season. May Divine love surround and move through you, even in ways that surprise you!

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Love Is The Cause And The Cure

Love is a multi-faceted experience. We all have our own relationship to it. It can be felt as security, comfort, acceptance, pleasure, joy, and Oneness as well as pain, despair, anxiety, and separation. It plucks different strings of our emotional and spiritual bodies. 

What is happening in the world today can be seen as a reflection and a mirror to how we relate to Love Itself. It is an opportunity to see and feel ourselves in ways we wouldn’t or couldn’t have before things went ‘sideways’. Maybe things are righting themselves up like a snow globe and it just feels like shit is raining down on us. 

All of that shit can be turned to gold if we take the time to feel everything there is to feel in our relationship to it all. Love is all around us and that is hard to let in when we have parts of us that have a real and justified defense against it. 

I have worked so much inside of myself to let in all the Love that comes in from the Divine as well as my beloved Kasha and my soul family, yet I can still feel where there are blocks and obstacles letting even MORE in because it is in infinite supply.

Each day we are being initiated into the opportunity to receive and let in more and more Love. This is an ongoing and sacred process. It is a courageous hero’s and heroine’s journey. It is fraught with challenges and difficult feelings and choice points, each one leading us to deeper and deeper layers of surrender, forgiveness, and compassion, as well as action, passion, and purpose. 

We are being given a golden opportunity to see how much we feel we are really worth and how much we really believe in the power of Love to take us where we all know we can go both individually and collectively.

Love is the cause and the cure. It is the protagonist and the antagonist. The question and the answer. It is everything that you came here to experience about ourselves and still find our way back to wholeness. The path is laid before you by opening the heart and feeling it all.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Bliss-Mess You Came Here To Be

by Kasha Rokshana

You came here to be…

A mess.

Sometimes a mother, sister, father, or brother.

Sometimes a son or daughter.

Sometimes a Queen or King.

Sometimes feeling connected to the Divine, sometimes not.

Sometimes feeling whole, sometimes feeling fractured.

Sometimes feeling happy, sometimes feeling depressed.

You came here to experience your humanity as you embody your divinity.

You came here to be fully human and somehow, as you feel more worthy of it, fully divine too.

You came here to sometimes be the trigger and the triggered.

You came here to realize that even in all your lostness, you will always be found…

Even when parts of you would rather hide from the impact of life, love, and growth for the rest of their lives…

To embrace the ups, downs, and everything in-between

Is the ongoing journey of learning and discovering.

It’s the ongoing unplugging from the Matrix you’ve grown up in, happening in ways sometimes unknown.

For me,

The way has often been messy. The forest cannot always be seen for the trees surrounding me. Sometimes the hills have seemed much harder to climb than the experience of actually climbing them turns out to be. Sometimes I’ve felt crucified by others, but more so by soul aches and pains and inner punishment. I’ve felt with parts of me the desire to push away at love rather than let in and so many of the forms that’s taken. I’ve felt the pressure of an entire generation of healers and creatives, who feel they have to be, look, or seem one way when they are really in deep need of being held and felt.

The way of letting in Divine love is always unique,

Will always move YOU into the situations you most need in order to feel where to go next within you,

To make room for more of the Divinity waiting for your humbled embodiment.

It won’t look the way parts of you have imagined it would,

And it won’t be an easy path,

But it will be fraught with grace,

Laden with love,

And held by the Divinity of a world that is both dying and being reborn at the same time… within and without.

Lots of love,

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 8, 2021

It’s exciting for us to be back in your inboxes with our first Museletter release in a few months! As you’ll read in our writings, we’re all emerging from a time of camping for several months and immersing in the healing energies of Mother Gaia. We have all benefitted greatly from this time of letting go of many aspects of who were, to let in what’s real for each of us now and how we want to serve going forward… which is also still emerging for us.

On that note, featured in this issue of our Museletter is a writing from Raphael which transmits these energies of ‘unfathomable’ Divine love which we have been bathing in and returning to in deeper ways than ever before. We also share this piece as a bridge to the upcoming group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle this Sunday, Oct 10th. The call will be centred on Divine Love and the messages of this 10/10 portal. There is also a short video invitation from Raphael and Jelelle where they share about what this group call will focus on. More information on this upcoming event here: soulfullheart.org/events.

We welcome you to take in our sharings this week, which are about our personal processes as well as what we feel moving in the ongoing collective awakening journey.

If you would like to subscribe to our Museletter and other important announcements, you can do so by clicking the link at the bottom of our Museletter itself, or visit soulfullheart.org and enter your email there.

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With so much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community