by Kalayna Solais
We’ve entered a new phase now where embodiment and integration of everything we’ve been feeling and healing so far is the ongoing process, even while there’s still so much more to keep feeling and healing.
Astrology is not my forte this life, but when I feel the ‘Scorpio’ energy of this full moon, this is what I feel is the invitation. To me, ‘Scorpio’ or even the energy of a scorpion itself, is about embodiment and integration as well as healthy physical self-protection and care… learning to BE in the body, which includes feeling in touch with our sexuality in such a way that it is tenderly treasured and held close but not suppressed or, conversely, exploited. It also includes taking the steps that are necessary in order to feel the gift of our physicality, even though the human body has been extremely dense and often challenging to inhabit.
The challenges of our embodiment as human beings comes from outside influences of trauma and also the encouragement to bypass or transcend pain instead of feeling it and the parts of us who hold it.
What happens when you start to move WITH the body through your emotional and spiritual processes? For me, this has meant dance, yoga, hiking, sometimes even just walking… and when necessary, giving much space for tears to fall and layers to shed even in the middle of doing any of these things and sometimes even during lovemaking within a deep Sacred Union too.
So many of us know how to be psychically present. Yet, what about the process of becoming PHYSICALLY present? This to me is the deeper process for so many, as you feel the pain of the parts of you who have been traumatized, especially from abuse and neglect of so many kinds.
Feeling trauma is NOT easy… especially in a culture where it’s still encouraged (though this is shifting) to remain outside of ourselves or to transcend or bury it and sometimes this has been necessary too in the name of survival. In order to live inside of our bodies more, the passageway of the emotional body is very real and powerful, and one of the most challenging to be with without healthy modeling around that. This is why you have parts that have formed from the trauma, to try and find a way to self-preserve and even just plain survive the ordeals of life, unable to let in the ideals of a life that is more integrated and stable, starting from within.
What a process this is… and along with that comes so much processing around the body itself, whether through chronic illness, which always can be traced back to emotional wounding and sometimes wounding on a Metasoul level too… or through simply not caring much for the physical body or what it looks like, which usually has roots in deep trauma too and the Inner Punisher part of you will energize this until they are felt in their reasons for seeing your body in this way. Actually, every part of you has a different relationship to your physicality and can often play a role in perpetuating instead of healing chronic illness or trauma.
I feel the Scorpio energy offering to make your body a safe haven for yourself and all parts of you. To set healthy boundaries around who gets access to it in the name of deep self-love and honouring. To treat it like your home and temple and as a place where every emotional or spiritual process can safely happen and move.
This is such a powerful invitation when I feel it! It’s not something we can ever be taught but it IS something we can choose. The process around truly and deeply inhabiting and loving the body is so multi-layered and multidimensional with so many gifts of awakening to the whole of our Sacred Humanity waiting on the other side.
Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.