My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-starseed-network-podcast/id1585215487

Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Video: Caring For Yourself & The World (Teachings & Guided Meditation)

SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Union soulmates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, led this livestream on March 30, 2022 to talk about care for our inner and outer worlds and how there’s such a deep process around living into it. 

They share about their own experiences with the process of activating their own care from deep within themselves and how their different templates/models for what it means to care about yourself and the world around you has had to be deeply felt and moved through to find authentic care expression. 

They also offer some different ways in which to view this concept of being truly caring, the way it’s been hijacked by the Matrix through the ‘Woke’ agenda, and the difference between filling a role/expectation versus genuinely feeling empathy and compassion.

After the teaching and digestion, Gabriel and Kasha led a guided meditation to meet with your Love Ambassador self before entering the ‘care room’ inside of you, where there are different situations playing out and different parts of you feeling their attachments or reactions to these scenarios. 

Here is the link to a guided meditation led by Jelelle Awen where you’re invited to deeply enter a process of healing the cries of the inner and outer world: https://youtu.be/EsKv4XwV7ME

Kasha’s writing about the Great Passing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/01/23/the-great-passing-taking-place-during-this-time-of-the-great-awakening/

And the recording of it in her voice: https://youtu.be/TKtMzVlPKSg

Meet Your Gatekeeper guided meditation: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Sacred, Ever-Unfolding Process Of Healing The Separation Wound

by Kasha Rokshana

If you’ve been in or around a ‘spiritual circle’ or offering of any kind for a while, you’ve probably heard about how ‘separation is an illusion’ quite often, yet perhaps it hasn’t really felt relevant or comforting to parts of you to hear that… and, you may have also felt a subtle (or not so subtle) rumble in your belly in response, a sense of being ‘wrong’ for buying into the ‘illusion’ or somehow not quite getting how separation isn’t real.

Separation IS an illusion, yet for parts of us, it isn’t… and for certain soul aspects of ours in other lifetimes, it also isn’t. There’s the theory that separation isn’t real, but sometimes it FEELS like the realest thing there is, especially with how much MORE separation in the physical is happening now between yourself and others. The Great Awakening has a cost to it and that cost is that you may start to feel closer to the Divine again, yet your relationships are crumbling along with your job prospects, your means of ‘making ends meet’, and perhaps even your whole way of seeing and experiencing life in your home country.

In some ways, with human division ripening and dissonance sometimes feeling much more real than any possible resonance with one another, how could separation NOT feel like the realest thing there is?

In my own experience of healing the separation wound to the depth I have already (with more layers to go, of course), I feel like the greatest reason for any part/soul aspect to feel ‘separate’ from the Divine, always comes down to the deepest feelings of unworthiness… of having been ‘cast out’ of the Divine Garden, of having been pressed back into the density of a human body (again), of not experiencing ‘love’ in the same way our souls know we so easily CAN when in our soul’s home dimension.

To make up for this unworthiness, parts of us reach for anything that can bring them back into the arms of the love they feel they’re missing, even at the detriment of the physical body or the numbing/transcendence of the deeply feeling human heart. There’s a throbbing ache inside the gap between the consciousness you have, the lacklustre relationships you’ve said ‘yes’ to, and perhaps even the spiritual practices you continue to do even if they aren’t quite answering the pain.

I’ve experienced at times triumphant, celebratory (and often VERY tearful) waves of reunion with the Divine in different forms, faces, and energies… within meditation and in my inner world, yet also in intimate reunion experiences with soul family and Sacred Union in the physical that open the once bruised heart back up again. And still, even with all of this, there are moments, processes, deep-dive experiences within, where I find yet another layer of shame and pain that creates feelings of not always being Divine let alone always being WITH the Divine.

I feel the Divine offering that these states of feeling separate are not only understandable, but expected… so deep are the layers of separation that reciting affirmations may help parts of you, yet not quite do all of the ‘work’ for you. It’s the bittersweet remembering that inside of you is a well of complicated soul and this-life experiences to keep wading into and exploring which brings you much closer to the Divine than trying so hard to move into a reality where separation no longer feels real without even glancing at the map before you, let alone traversing the actual terrain of the process of reunion.

This coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will co-host a group meditation call on Zoom at 5pm GMT, focused on healing the separation wound. They have been such profound models for me personally of how to enter into this territory of feeling aspects of you like the Divine Orphan, for example, and letting in the gifts of experiencing even deeper reunion and oneness frequencies with the Divine and even other souls too. You can attend the call live and/or receive the recording by offering any donation that feels good to you. You can find more info on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Lots of love from my journey of reunion to yours,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Accessing Your Metasoul Lifetimes Guided Meditation: Video 13 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this thirteenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the Metasoul, the individuated source of your soul and all of the fragments that project from it into other lifetimes/timelines. We explain how the Metasoul is non-linear, beyond time, and accessible in the Quantum Now through a bridge created by your Gatekeeper. Connecting with your Metasoul aspects in an ongoing, intentional way allows for mutual karmic and trauma healing, gift exchange, and quantum upgrades.

We also talk about how the current Matrix narrative is triggering the separation wounds in our Metasoul and the collapse lifetime experiences (such as Atlantis and Lemuria) as well. Metasoul access in an increasingly conscious way allows for you to digest what is occurring with this narrative in a deeper way and navigate choice points with more clarity as well.

In the meditation, we are once again joined by the supportive frequencies of Divine Mother and Father as we meet up with your Gatekeeper in their Metasoul portal access ‘realm’ (usually represented by a cavern with many tunnels leading off of it.) With your Gatekeeper, you tune into and enter a lifetime that is most needing your attention. You connect with a Metasoul aspect, begin a dialogue, and start the process of quantum healing.

Here is a video for Metasoul Timeline/Lifetime Portal Access
From Jelelle’s Deepen 2019 video series: https://youtu.be/9jWgpQbXTZo

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Connecting W/Your Gatekeeper Guided Meditation: Video 7 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this seventh video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about an extremely important aspect of your soul called the Gatekeeper. The Gatekeeper is an aspect that Jelelle initially became aware of about ten years ago during a Dark Night of the Soul experience. Since then, she has connected with many of them and shares about their mission, woundings, gifts and the challenges of connecting with them.

The Gatekeeper is the keeper of the veil of amnesia and watches over all the timeline portals/lifetime incarnations of your Metasoul, which is the individuated expression of your soul that fragments out of your Soul Family Monad. Gatekeepers are often very lonely and isolated in this job/role and feel disconnected from Divine Source.

In this video, Divine Mother and Divine Father join you to go to the Gatekeeper Realm, which is in the lower fourth dimension. You visit the portal cavern where your Gatekeeper usually lives. You connect with your Gatekeeper, open up to receive any messages/images from them, discover their name, see how they ‘show up’, and get an overall sense of how they manage your Metasoul timelines. This is a beginning point to a deepening journey with them leading to collaboration, exploration of your Metasoul timelines, and lifting of your veil of amnesia.

Video to Meet Your Gatekeeper from Jelelle’s Deepen 2019 series: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Spring Message From A Bird’s Egg

The symbol of the ‘egg’ can be explored so deeply and it’s actually quite an important metaphor for our ongoing growth and awakening phases, individually and collectively.

We each come from an egg inside our birth mother. We are encased in the ‘egg’ of our bodies after we are born. Our souls, it can be said, are always leaving and entering their next ‘eggs’ where we bake and gestate before we awaken some more. We are in a perpetual state of death and rebirth in this way, or maybe ‘birth and rebirth’ is another way to say it, yet embracing that ‘death’ is a part of all of our journeys, in many different ways, is important.

After all, you have to ‘die’ in a way to being in one life phase before you can enter another. It’s part of the cycle of living, learning, and relearning.

Mary Magdalene, in my etheric connection to her as a Divine Feminine guide, has been showing me many synchronicities around the egg she is often pictured with. It’s a symbol of the rebirth of Spring, both in our inner and outer worlds. We go back inward to emerge outward in whatever ‘seasons’ of the heart and soul encompass us in any given phase of our lives.

The other day while at the Glastonbury Abbey, I was drawn to walk along a path where I don’t usually walk, and there amongst the light-hearted daffodils was part of a cracked-open, bird’s egg shell. It felt tiny and fragile as I picked it up, yet the strength of the little baby bird that emerged from it could be felt too. It can’t emerge in any timing but its own, for if that happens, it perishes.

The mama bird can’t make it come out of the shell and experience the big, big world any sooner. Instead, she has to surrender to the cycle of life and allow her baby to come through and out of the egg when it’s truly ready. Its survival and ability to thrive too depends on its own built-up strength, its nourishment received while in the egg, and its overall destiny too — none of which can actually be controlled, but all of which has to arise on its own.

Every phase of being back in an ‘egg’ for us as sacred human souls in near-constant rebirth (especially these days) is about building up our strength and resolve to emerge. The Divine can’t make this happen for us. We can receive guidance, yet our emergence is up to us.

This cracked-open eggshell I found reminded me that it’s our core innocence and healing purity of heart and soul, along with our untethered desire to emerge and awaken, that moves us onward and also upward as we ascend and grow. If we can hold this desire to keep moving through — busting through at times- eggshell after eggshell, while blessing the experience and feeling grateful for it ALL, we ARE going to not only ‘survive’, but also find our deepest destiny on our journey back to love and leading with love to help bring us all back home.

I was so touched to be holding this egg…I felt it on a deeply personal level as I move more into my inner Queen/High ‘Heart’ Priestess power in this and other lifetimes. I also felt like this tender holding of this eggshell, which I’ve now made a place for on my altar at home, is the same preciousness the Divine feels for all of us and our parts/Metasoul aspects now and always. Preciousness that doesn’t caretake or enable parts of us to keep going toward harmful patterns, yet holds us each accountable and invites us, always, to feel, hold, and really own our preciousness and the deep strength and profound power of it.

Much love, from my ever-emerging heart and soul to yours!

Kasha


Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘As Sure As Our Lord Was At Priddy’ – Exploring Metasoul Connections In Avalon and Beyond

by Raphael Awen

James Elphick and I took a trip to Priddy, Somerset, yesterday here in the UK, in Somerset county.
There is a saying in Priddy that the locals know, “As sure as our Lord was in Priddy.”

Raphael & James

After being here in Glastonbury these last months, I was quite interested to learn of the many ‘legends’ of Jesus visiting here often during his life and especially as a boy. I was interested in him being taken here on trips with his uncle Joseph of Arimathea, who was not only a wealthy trader in tin and other metals that were mined in Priddy and surrounding areas, but Joseph was also probably the equivalent of the Jewish government’s ‘Minister of Mining’.

Now, you won’t find much in the traditional Bible to directly support these claims, but you can cite plenty of Bible references to corroborate the claims, if you will. If you expand your lens out to the ancient scrolls discovered in 1945 at Nag Hammadi, you get a lot more of an interesting picture.

Central to this expanded picture is that Jesus, or Yeshua as he was known in his own language, was in love and married to Mary Magdalene and had children with her. That didn’t fit with the Christian canon of scripture that was compiled in the 4th century and it had to be screened out to fit a tailored narrative. A narrative that only controlling men seemed to need and undertake, but also consciousness itself seemed to need to go through this veiled phase of awareness. We are, like consciousness itself, in a phase now where we are lifting that veil.

I was especially opened up to this larger story through reading Anna, the Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong. I deeply recommend her book if you are wanting to open up to this expanded story of Yeshua’s life, his mother, his grandmother, his mother’s uncle Joseph of Arimathea, and what’s known as the ‘Magdalene way of the rose’ that Yeshua was immersed in and devoted to.

But, back to my day yesterday. After reading Anna, Grandmother Of Jesus and coming across the many places here in Glastonbury that are significant to Joseph, Yeshua and the Magdalenes at large, I wanted to venture to visit Priddy, just a few miles from here in Glastonbury. Now that we recently purchased a car, the opportunity arose. I needed a bit more driving coaching from James getting used to driving on the left side of the road and the right side of the car, like they do here in the UK.

When we arrived in Priddy and parked the car, we noticed a different feeling space immediately of rest and tranquility. We took a stroll on the main road through town and saw a sign pointing to the village church and school. We came upon a playground filled with children at break time and we were struck by how playful and alive they felt. It didn’t feel anything like a city playground. There was just grass, a few trees and a soccer ball, but these children in their school uniforms felt like they were from another dimension somehow. Both James and I commented on it to each other. Right then, as I was taking a picture, a young boy ran after the ball and mid stride, he rolled into a full somersault as he chased after the ball.

St Lawrence Church, Priddy

That may have been the highlight and lesson of the day. If you’re going to chase after something, be sure you are having fun while you are doing it.

We entered the church of St. Lawrence, built in 1352, and took in a sweet feminine energy in the pictures of children and especially an artist’s portrayal of Jesus as a boy that was really striking and touching.

Painting of Yeshua as a boy

This morning I felt deeper into my soul’s connection with Joseph Of Arimathea and experienced that it was quite easy to connect with him. As we ‘conversed’, I was able to see how in his high place and office and wealth, many people projected onto him a kind of having it all together that really wasn’t the case. Those people who make an etheric connection with him may want to gain access to his secrets of wealth and he said this was also exhausting to be seen through this lens of having it all.

He told me he actually longed many times to be a commoner like the many who came to him wishing to be relieved from their everyday lives. He told me about the hardships of being in the money and wealth grids. How that necessitated a kind of hard energy and control in the marketplace that just was the reality in that time and place. His redemption was being able to channel his wealth into supporting his larger family and he said that without this, he would have gone completely over the deep end.

Joseph also told me of his joys of having Yeshua as a boy as his travel companion, one like no other. He told me that the boy I watched on the playground yesterday take a somersault on his way chasing after the ball was totally what Yeshua was like. He made everything and everyone around him come alive in such a way that no one could figure out where he got all of his free and alive energies from.

I’m feeling a desire to continue to open out and explore this connection further with Joseph and Yeshua. There feels like a lot to go into there, especially within our Magdalene community here in Avalon/Glastonbury.

Sacred Sexuality Group Meditation Call

Do join us for tomorrow’s group call:
I do hope you can join us this Sunday, March 14th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/noon EST for our sacred sexuality group call with teachings and sharings from me and Jelelle (transparent and open ones too!), a guided meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene and group participant sharing as well. You can join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

We will be real about wherever we are in the moment around the process of sacred sexuality…not in some exalted, idealized, and bypassed state, yet in the raw and messy (and often blissy!) ground that exploring our sacred sexuality within and with others offers us!

Much love,
Raphael

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Raphael Awen is a Sacred Union & Sacred Masculine Bridge, co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Womb Is A Portal To The Experience Of Womanhood In All Lifetimes

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, all of our lifetimes of experience of being able to BE a woman or not, in every sense of the word, lives in our wombs. There’s a powerful portal within each of our wombs that connects us to these lifetimes where we may have experienced immense power, yet at a cost. This portal can also open us up to lifetimes of remembering what it was like to be a mother, mate, sister, and daughter, who was treasured and loved… or used and abused, victimized, and maybe even held captive for being female.

Such is the mix for the feminine in her depths of healing. So deep is the legacy we each carry within us of our need to heal and offer healing to others too from the depths of our femininity that has been hijacked sometimes and honoured/revered other times.

I often connect with this beautiful egg stone (in the featured photo), which my beloveds and I call the ‘Mother Stone’ at Glastonbury Abbey, ever since landing here in Avalon when we arrived 6 months ago, and I’ve been on a profound inner journey of awakening and healing (supported also by Her) that I couldn’t have done without the energies here. I feel in so many ways like a totally different woman and even a whole new sort of Priestess now than I could have felt like or truly claimed before. And, I feel how all of this journeying has come from my womb and returns back to my womb for integration.

Our wombs hold and house our truest soul and heart bigness. To clear her and activate her, means to meet with what has left her rather congested and full of frequencies she is no longer meant to hold. So vast and deep is the feminine pain heard and felt around the world for centuries, that these cries live in her too. To truly hear, feel, and transmute this pain on behalf of women everywhere is to dive into it from within, from the chalice of our own soul’s experience and need for this healing.

Join Jelelle Awen and I on Sunday March 7th at 5pm GMT for a sacred time of teaching and meditation and deep womb connection. Jelelle led a call like this recently for those of us who are deep in the SoulFullHeart process and community and we all felt this tender connection to and feeling of each other that I know is still going in… we both fully welcome you, dear soul sister, to this next sacred circle which you can donate any amount to be a part of.

You can donate to Jelelle’s PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or visit our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

More info on the event can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls ❤️🌹

Love!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Way Of The Love Ambassador: Moving Beyond ‘Fighting’ And Pointing Fingers

by Kasha Rokshana

It takes more strength to keep from fighting than it does to fight.

To fight back, to scream out our truths until they even seem heard, to poke and prod at those that parts of us don’t agree with or that we feel hard done by… Whenever ‘peace’ seems to come from these actions, it does not sustain. It does not truly land or teach or shift anything at the core/heart of what has been brought out to be seen.

We must find another way. Often that other way has NOT been taught. It is a middle ground that does not ‘roll over’, nor does it impose shame or blame on self or others.

It’s a middle ground that can only be discovered when you visit the shadowland battlegrounds within. Feeling what the soul is still fighting for or against. Feeling the parts that are still in conflict with mom or dad or authority. Feeling yourself so you can actually feel others and where they are coming from. Actually being able to bring empathy as a way to move through what’s present rather than shut down and shut out the other…

This is the stuff that the New Earth, the Golden Earth that wants to birth through and with us is made of. And… It comes from feeling. Making space for feeling. Feeling how parts of us don’t want to feel and why. Feeling our numbness, even, and why it’s been there, what it’s been protecting that is far more vulnerable.

We are being invited to see and feel through the eyes and heart of love. Love does not negate or diminish the darkness present, but liases with it, finds a way to make room for it to have it’s say, rather than fully become it in order to get a point across.

Such is the birth of the Love Ambassador within us all.

I feel all of this ongoingly moving through me, especially as a sacred feminine woman/healer/teacher, as I find my own way into my truth and into ways to share it that don’t point fingers but instead bravely bring love into every single situation, conflict, and moment of needing to look into sometimes a very challenging mirror.

I feel us all on our sacred journeys and finding our way through what has never really worked for us into what now can work WITH us… With love holding space for it all. ❤️🕊

Love,
Kasha 🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began. 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❤ 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.