Scorpio Moon Energies Invite Embodiment & Integration

by Kalayna Solais

We’ve entered a new phase now where embodiment and integration of everything we’ve been feeling and healing so far is the ongoing process, even while there’s still so much more to keep feeling and healing.

Astrology is not my forte this life, but when I feel the ‘Scorpio’ energy of this full moon, this is what I feel is the invitation. To me, ‘Scorpio’ or even the energy of a scorpion itself, is about embodiment and integration as well as healthy physical self-protection and care… learning to BE in the body, which includes feeling in touch with our sexuality in such a way that it is tenderly treasured and held close but not suppressed or, conversely, exploited. It also includes taking the steps that are necessary in order to feel the gift of our physicality, even though the human body has been extremely dense and often challenging to inhabit.

The challenges of our embodiment as human beings comes from outside influences of trauma and also the encouragement to bypass or transcend pain instead of feeling it and the parts of us who hold it.

What happens when you start to move WITH the body through your emotional and spiritual processes? For me, this has meant dance, yoga, hiking, sometimes even just walking… and when necessary, giving much space for tears to fall and layers to shed even in the middle of doing any of these things and sometimes even during lovemaking within a deep Sacred Union too.

So many of us know how to be psychically present. Yet, what about the process of becoming PHYSICALLY present? This to me is the deeper process for so many, as you feel the pain of the parts of you who have been traumatized, especially from abuse and neglect of so many kinds.

Feeling trauma is NOT easy… especially in a culture where it’s still encouraged (though this is shifting) to remain outside of ourselves or to transcend or bury it and sometimes this has been necessary too in the name of survival. In order to live inside of our bodies more, the passageway of the emotional body is very real and powerful, and one of the most challenging to be with without healthy modeling around that. This is why you have parts that have formed from the trauma, to try and find a way to self-preserve and even just plain survive the ordeals of life, unable to let in the ideals of a life that is more integrated and stable, starting from within.

What a process this is… and along with that comes so much processing around the body itself, whether through chronic illness, which always can be traced back to emotional wounding and sometimes wounding on a Metasoul level too… or through simply not caring much for the physical body or what it looks like, which usually has roots in deep trauma too and the Inner Punisher part of you will energize this until they are felt in their reasons for seeing your body in this way. Actually, every part of you has a different relationship to your physicality and can often play a role in perpetuating instead of healing chronic illness or trauma.

I feel the Scorpio energy offering to make your body a safe haven for yourself and all parts of you. To set healthy boundaries around who gets access to it in the name of deep self-love and honouring. To treat it like your home and temple and as a place where every emotional or spiritual process can safely happen and move.

This is such a powerful invitation when I feel it! It’s not something we can ever be taught but it IS something we can choose. The process around truly and deeply inhabiting and loving the body is so multi-layered and multidimensional with so many gifts of awakening to the whole of our Sacred Humanity waiting on the other side.

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Gift Of Feeling Pain &Trauma

By Deva Yasmin

There are so many ways I can see, of how parts of me can push beyond feeling pain in order to attain or achieve certain experiences. The spiritual search for a long time was a search for a place free of pain for me, the attainment of bliss states and higher consciousness feeling so much more superior and desirable, than acknowledging the pain and suffering parts of me were experiencing. I still see it playing out for parts of me, especially as we taste more of the bliss, joy and contentment that is arising, they desire to stay there, but as Embodied Divine Humans, that is not our purpose to remain there it feels like.

The thing is these states are actually arising, from me being willing to acknowledge, feel and listen to the pain and trauma my parts have experienced, not from any pushing away of, or striving towards, a particular state, this actually blocks bliss. It feels like the reason I can experience these more joyful feelings is because, as I deeply know the experience of the opposite, I can appreciate the true simplicity of what joy truly is. This is a constant circling between the both for me and my parts, there is no end place and yet there is a place of experiencing more and more goodness coming in, only as I am willing to let go of what is not loving or bringing feeling of goodness.

This is the cost it feels like, to experience the fullness of who we are, and what this life and universe has to offer us as Divine Humans. Through feeling the pain and trauma, I am liberating parts of me from the prisons and Matrices they have learnt to call home, but to leave the only home they have known is painful too. To leave behind what they felt was nurturing, loving and resonant for so long, to go towards the more that I feel is available, brings up so much for them to digest. To realize how much of what they felt was Love, has actually been toxic and kept them inside the prison walls, is painful, tender, vulnerable and raw.

There is a time, and a self loving paced, organic-ness to being ready to soberly look into the reality of the life that was known for so long. As parts are felt and validated in what they have experienced; first by others in sessions, which then templates how we can valid ourselves, more space opens inside of us. As I am deepen in this process, I experience how this space becomes available for higher dimensional aspects of myself, as well as Divine beings to come in and support my continued exploration with my parts.

The ones we have been longing for, the parts of us who have the higher wisdom we have been seeking for, and the Beings of Love who we have been calling for, for so long, forgetting how close they have always been, come in to us. It feels like our commitment to keep showing up for ourselves, is a beacon, as we become more attuned to feeling, we become more sensitive to the higher frequencies all around us. This for me is so much more embodied, which brings a visceral confirmation of what is real and the Love that is always here.

When I have pushed to attain a certain state, the higher frequencies can feel ‘floaty’ or ‘wishy-washy’, they cannot ground and actually be beneficial in my everyday life. My parts cannot let it deeply in, in the ways that is needed for them to feel, heal and integrate their past experiences. They cannot rest within me if they cannot FEEL, the stable presence of the safety these higher frequencies and Divine Beings are offering them, especially I feel Divine Mother. She feels so significant to my parts process right now, as I digest with parts of me who have never felt held or nurtured.

It feels like if we keep pushing beyond pain as it is arising, not being sensitive to the subtle contractions, we keep ourselves in the prison of feeling alone and in pain, we keep ourselves in the suffering loops. As I write this, I feel how I am learning to be really present to the subtleties of all this, this no longer has to be a process of digging and trying to unearth pain or trauma, the pain arises organically in response to just BEing in life, being available to the healing life is offering us in every moment. As there is more and more goodness arising, it can be quite the process as well to let that in, I feel many of us who have been on this journey for a while will resonate with the striving and pushing for healing, or the over focusing on what is wrong, it can feel quite addictive to parts who are so used to the frequencies of abuse and trauma, to want to stay there it feels like.

I feel I am entering into more of a space of flow with the process, and an availability for what is real in the moment, letting life and what is in my heart lead my process. This feels to me what it means to be embodied. Parts of me no longer want to get out of the body to find home, or out of feeling pain, because they are realizing more and more from experience, that their true home, their higher frequency origins and their Divine nature activates and arises from within, as they feel and clear the pain and trauma they have held onto for so long, because that is what has felt like home.

The empty space that is opening up within me and within my life, through my willingness to feel pain and no longer hold onto places, people & patterns in my life that cause more pain, can feel both completely full of potential and completely void. So many questions, and so much time to explore them, so much to digest, and so much clarity to be birthed in me too, A space of feeling, healing and becoming.

I find myself in the moment honoring a very tender process with my younger parts as they let go of relationships that have been abusive and toxic, non of this is easy, but it is real and honest, and that is what my Soul longs for. This is what my woman’s heart longs for, and as my parts learn to trust me, and they experience the beauty and goodness living life lead from a tender, vulnerable, open heart brings, feeling pain becomes SO worth it and SO valuable, as it becomes the Inner Compass guiding us home, always, to LOVE.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

Balancing Light Activations With Love For Ongoing Digestion And Integration

By Jelelle Awen

You may be seeking MORE light, more activations, more awakening and altering experiences from and with others. For moments, these activations feel GOOD. These activations remind you of your soul essence AS light. 

These experiences jolt and bolt. They vibrate and activate. Their energy is of the churning and burning kind. 

There can be a kind of ‘mode’ in this activation seeking. The mode looks like finding the next thing to join and belong to. The next thing to ‘take’ that will heighten and lift. The next thing that will spark the fire that will light up existence to feel more worthwhile. It is like the thrill seeker wanting ever greater heights to fling themselves off of. 

The afterglow of these profound activations can be temporary. They last as long as the retreat/seminary/workshop/session lasts. They are somehow ‘outside of your life’; they are also, somehow, outside of your body. And, usually, outside of your heart. 

So often there is cost to your well BEing afterwards. There can be intense symptoms felt in the body of this over saturation of activations. There can be undigested traumas that have been pushed up from the lifetimes where this light was called in and then used in an abusive way toward others or yourself. There can be acute frustration for parts of you about WHY the suffering and pain continues in your life even after intense activating experiences…….as if they are in the aftermath of these experiences, rather than being healed and transmuted by them. 

The NEW and NEXT invitation for our Ascension into our sacred humanity is for the focus to be on the digestion of all these activations, not just the seeking out for more of them. It is for us to be aware of how important the INtegration of these light codes IS to our ongoing sense of well being.

Integration happens as LOVE comes in. Love allows for the light to digest into every cell. Love allows for the light to integrate into daily life. Love makes the space for the feeling and healing of the traumas previously in the shadows that also get pushed up by so much light. 

Love comes from the heart and womb of the Feminine and the embracing energy of the Divine Mother. Love is provided by Her compassion, her forgiveness, her NURTURING, her acceptance of wherever you are in your awakening process and journey.

Embodiment (or ‘in-the-body-meant’ as I recently saw it wonderfully called) is about the balance of the light and of the feminine. The balance creates a fireplace so that there isn’t harm as the fire of light sparks up, yet provides place for it to bake into MORE revelations of love. This balance becomes possible as the Protector/Gatekeeper aspects of your soul can be negotiated with to allow more love to come into your BEing. 

Your Gatekeeper aspect may have learned to distrust love in favor of the light even as they resist the light too in some ways. The Gatekeeper may feel that love has been scarce, whereas light has been more bountiful. The feelings of this part of you can often connect very directly to the wound of your mother experience from this life and other lifetimes as well. They connect to the original pain of separation from the Divine during this life and other lifetime incarnations and, therefore, feelings of being ‘kicked out of’ and dispelled from the Divine Feminine womb space.

I wrote more here about healing from the original separation wound from the Divine to return to wholeness: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/06/27/healing-from-divine-separation-3d-experience-to-return-to-wholeness/

You may recognize and resonate with what I am offering here as an up/down indigestion experience that you are repeating for yourself in your awakening journey. To cultivate a space from within that can hold and digest and integrate the light WITH love is what we are being invited to BEcome. A balance of the Divine Feminine and Divine masculine aspects of your being that doesn’t sacrifice your well being for enlightenment (even and esp. to serve others).

The Divine wants us to experience this balance, where joy/magic/alchemy are sustaining in EVERY moment for us. And, we are experiencing the increasing sense that we ARE the light of love finding its way home inside every cell of our very human bodies.

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper aspect, who allows access to other lifetime/timelines and also seems to regulate flow of light/love into your BEing: 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Photo by Artem Kovalev on Unsplash

Are You Embodying The Codes Coming In?

By Jelelle Awen

Those 11:11:11 portal codes (STRONG ones at that) may be ‘waiting’ in your soul field. They have come flooding in from the Great Cosmic Sun, supported by SOULar winds and geostorms, for the last week now. Yet, these codes/downloads/activations may be ‘hanging out’ in your aura, waiting for the activation and conscious connection to your ascension chakras. These chakras allow for the simulation and integration of the 11:11:11 codes. They seem to be especially key when it comes to embodiment of these codes into your body.

Here is a guided meditation with me to connect with your ascension chakras allowing more sense of what is waiting for you to download: https://youtu.be/TPs95U0T5Mw

It becomes in this stage of ascension so much about embodiment. Embodiment is the bringing of these high vibrational frequencies of light that are continually flooding into our atmospheres and Gaia’s too INTO your body, INTO your every living cell. This leads to the activation of your light body ~ your fifth dimensionally (and higher) anchored vehicle of travel beyond 3D constraints and conditions.

When people mention embodiment of your light body, it can feel conceptual and theoretical more than tangible. It SOUNDS good, but what does it actually mean for and to you? Sometimes feeling what it feels like when deeper embodiment isn’t happening or is blocked can help. This blocking can lead to feeling floaty, dizzy, just ‘not here’….basically not feeling grounded enough to the physical on a daily basis. Responding to practical life (when it is needed) can become very challenging. Physical disease and illness is a sign of lack of deeper embodiment. Addictions and ‘deathstyles’ (as I call them) are a block to embodiment as well. Light body looks like a healthy, vital body or what you could call a ‘love body’.
Embodiment is also about a deeper grounding of these light codes into your emotional body. The emotional body can be overlooked when it actually is critical to embodiment and not connecting to it can lead to a big anchoring to 3D energies through undigested trauma frequencies. This can lead to acute anxiety, resistance, and fear related to the ascension process and just being in life. The more porous and current your emotional body is the more you can emotionally let in higher frequencies as they come in. The more you can emotionally digest them and any reactions that surface UP. Being current with your emotional body pivots on digestion of traumas….both from this-life and other timelines/lifetimes too.

Bypassing your emotional body and emotional trauma by using higher vibrational frequencies just doesn’t ‘work’ for long. The trauma always find a way to express itself….often through dysfunction relationships, abuse cycles, money issues, health issues, etc. Experiencing transcendent frequencies while being grounded in your heart AND body is the opportunity offered by this new phase of ascension.

Deeper embodiment of your light body and your emotional body and higher self in your body……comes from the openness to FEEL anything that blocks the letting in of love (which is ultimately what these codes ARE.) This letting in of love is so important to the arisement of your sacred humanity!

Jelelle Awen

Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We offer through our SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 sessions a way to digest traumas through connecting with the parts of you that hold them and are ‘stuck’ in them. We connect with parts from this-life (such as Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Punisher). We also open up a bridge for you to feel aspects from other timelines (commonly called ‘past lives’). More info above.

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Photo by Aarón Blanco Tejedor on Unsplash

Higher Self News Flash

reality

This Sunday morning news flash brought to you by your Higher Self.

You are Sovereign. You just don’t possess Free Will you ARE Free Will. Nothing has ever nor can ever have control over you that we haven’t chosen together. In fact you and I are the same, we just have needed to separate ourselves in order to walk out a whole lot of experience that we agreed to before you forgot…on purpose. This holds true between you and the parts of you that were formed in order to be in this dimension of forgetfulness in order to experience some really intense and beautiful moments, no matter how hard they were. That is a tough one to let in. I can only say that when you get to the other side of that healing you will understand why. We created being a victim in order to spark the impassioned remembrance we were always more than that.  You needed to fight for freedom until you realized you were already free.

You are Divine. This moment to moment choosing born of your sovereignty is your Divine birthright. Your ability to choose IS your creative power that is connected to The All That Is. You are Essence and Experience both. You are the bright light of God that cannot nor ever has been separate. The illusion is a construction by our choosing to go into the depth of experience and what it is that Love is truly made of. The Divine is out seeking Itself through you, with you, as you. The separation is what creates the energy of Love to be felt, shared, and expanded. It is experienced as Hell to parts of you until you arise out of the ashes and into awakening to hold and connect to the Heaven within. This is where you and I come together.

You are Human. This beautiful expression of your divine essence. You are the passion, the hope, the fear, the ecstasy, the pain. This form that is a chalice of your light and love awaiting its flight. The container of all your parts that have been through much. The parts that await your conscious presence into their still-framed world playing through the wounded moments that exist in this Now. The parts that beckon your courage and readiness to go into the pages of your storied lives. The healing and integration of all that experience that gets to feel itself anew and redeemed.

You are Unity. The clearing of all the pain and trauma of what kept parts of you feeling alone. Abandoned. Rejected.  The reclaiming and remembering all the aspects of yourself that span time and space. Your Kings, Queens, Priests, Priestesses, Soldiers, and Warriors. Your myriad galactic Star Being and angelic expressions of higher dimensional frequency.  They are all a part of your inner council as you heal the veil between you held by your Gatekeeper, the most precious of them all.  This is a never-ending process that only stops when you want it to. Your growth and experience are as infinite to the degree that you desire them to be.

Now feel your way through the chambers of your human heart, my love and we shall find a glorious road ahead that has no limitation to what we want to create and experience in your sacred humanity.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Supermoon Codes Offer Inner Illuminations, Timeline Activations, Sacred Union

by Kalayna Colibri

moon_water.453740767

As I felt and ‘saw’ the light codes coming in the early morning from the Supermoon today, they seemed to softly fall like snow or fairy dust upon my beloved and I, as we lay in bed. They looked like sparkling gold and though we weren’t outside, I could feel them come in through the windows and walls, finding their way to us. I hadn’t thought much about light codes coming from the moon and what they could mean or offer. In some ways, the moon hasn’t even been on my radar all that much, though of course, how could a Supermoon go unnoticed?!

They seem to be a sprinkling of something magical, that is also natural to arise now in this stage of Ascension. There is always an alchemical magic, though also a profound and often quite emotional process in letting go and letting in, which is something I’ve written about for the last few days as I have been walking out and feeling deeply my own process of doing just this very thing. So many others seem to be experiencing this too right now, as this IS the process of letting in higher timeline desires and possibilities too… the imminence and immediacy of claiming what we truly want yet also what and HOW our soul wants to serve LOVE, is something we are all invited to feel, feel, feel. It lights us up like a bright torch or beacon, calling us back to us, back to our sacred union within, and into deeper territory with a sacred union outside of us too, for those who have drawn that and for those who are likely about to draw that! It is the goodness of life and of love itself that we can feel now, even and sometimes especially through the painful moments of realizations and dawning truths. The pulsing, purging and pain lead to relief, revitalization, and release and a letting in, lighting up, loving OUT experience of ourselves and of life too.

Residual wounding, core wounding too, can all be held now by you, with the help of guides and this Supermoon fairy dust energy of light code sprinkles. Asking for the help, love and support you need is an invitation for all as the Ascension energies continue to move in and ramp up, amping up the anchors and moving parts of us into the spotlight held by Love. There is no end to the inner love flow that is available to be dipped into as you continue on your journey of healing inside, being with parts of you and soul Aspects too, bringing in and breathing in the energies that want to support not suppress and hold you through the next states and stages necessary for your inhabitation of new and next growth edges and places.

If you wish to discover more about parts of you that may be in resistance to this dance with the Love and Ascension energies coming in, there is much this process of SoulFullHeart can offer you, if you feel desirous and ready for deep transformation and change from the heart UP. http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Also, if you’d like to experience a tip-toe into one-on-one SoulFullHeart energies, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be hosting a group call next Saturday, December 9th @ 11:11 am CST (Mexico City). You can join us there for an $11 usd minimum donation and keep the recording of the call afterwards. During the sharing portion of the call, you can share about your experience with anything that has been moving through you, ask questions, and/or just BE. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524  ❤

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

by Kalayna Colibri

love-heart-light-in-hand

 

So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

 

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.