Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Bridging Our Humanity With Our Divinity

After holding space for a beautiful multidimensional soul yesterday, I was reminded how much our spirituality and our humanity can be in different rooms at times. Sometimes they are in the same room trying to understand each other and learning to relate to each other. Sometimes it is blissful, other times not so much. We are invited to embody more of our 5D/Divine Self. Yet, this is not always as simple as parts of us (our Gatekeepers especially) would like it to be.

There may be this intense need to just ‘get over’ the healing already and get to the urgent task at hand of healing the planet. A deep desire to get out of the ‘hell’ of 3D and into the heaven of 5D. The urgency and the judgments can be portals into something more real for us however. Underneath this, there is a relationship that is going on between our spiritual self and our human self. One may be judged as ‘good’ or ‘better’, the other as ‘bad’ or ‘worse’. There may be for a part of you that this polarity is energetically strong. A tug-of-war between the two. Or at times, one is completely denied for the sake of the other.

The work we do in SoulFullHeart is to bridge the gap between these two worlds, or the parts and aspects that live in these two worlds. How do they see and feel each other? DO they see and feel each other? Is there a reasonable resistance and protection of going into the human pain body or the spiritual wounds? We are such a cacophony of experience and reality. I feel we are more than just multidimensional, we are pan-dimensional. We cover ALL dimensions from the lightest to the darkest. From the transparent to the hidden.

You may get a visceral sense of this when you feel the waves of bliss and joy come in, then may be followed by a thud back-down-to-earth kind of feeling that takes you down and out. This push and pull can be evidence of something that has not been fully felt, bridged to, and integrated from human to soul, or vice versa. It is hard to embody our divinity if we are denying our humanity or our spirituality, and by that I mean some of the uncomfortable and not fully processed feelings that are held by parts in the emotional body or soul aspects in the Metasoul.

There is a You that is being called forward to be a bridge between these two worlds. One that feels the gifts of both the human heart and the Divine soul. A You that embraces the human and embodies the spirit. This is not a mastery course but a lived-in, lived-out, and felt through one that requires curiosity, compassion, and courage. Courage to face and feel all of the things that still keep us from truly being a Divine Human Being.

That is what wants to come through me today to those that it is meant to land in, including myself. It is a reminder that we are all on a journey and that there is no real destination other than feeling all there is to feel and learning about ourselves in the process. From there we might just touch the true meaning of being human.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional And Relational Maturation Over Mastery

All intimate relationships are sacred. They are meant to offer us something about ourselves that we would not see or feel otherwise. For me it has been the ongoing challenge of being real, transparent, and staying in the room when a part of me may want to defend, hide, or in the past, just give up. Intimacy is not an easy spiritual path, yet it is the most illuminating, growthful, and rewarding in my experience.

As a man, I find this generally true for many other men as well. The last frontier of our spiritual maturation is our emotional maturation. Notice I did not say, mastery. I feel any attempt to ‘master’ our emotions comes from a part of us that is looking to control or avoid something real and messy. I can admit this has been true for me. But messy does not mean chaotic, like a part of me may feel at times when things get real and on the edge or precipice of the unknown. It just means we are sorting out a ton of wounding that has been held in so many hidden pockets of our heart and soul.

As a teenager, I grew up with two different models for a man’s relationship to his emotional body. It was either dismissive stoicism or defensive rage. Nothing fully vulnerable in between. So I learned both of those as strategies and yet I could also feel how I needed and wanted to be something different. Yet, to be this ‘different’ I would need to have the ‘same’ confronted and challenged. Enter relationships to very dynamic and emotionally aware women.

If I really wanted to shift this masculine lineage of emotional immaturity, I drew the very thing that would put the defensive, angery, hurt, and shadowy parts of me into the Light of emotional reality. That is not an easy path! There is this-life wounding and conditioning, other-life karmic binds, and collective and archetypal patternings that can be like trying to turn the Titanic. In any given rumble there can be multiple layers that are at play at one time and this does make it challenging.

From my trailing, wounded, and defensive part it can be a lot to hold. From my leading edge and higher self it is just an opportunity to become more fluent with what is really happening without analyzing or without getting so spun out that the ground collapses between us. This is the challenge in any intimate and sacred union.

It has been a stand-by to try to manage and preserve or just plain let go. What happens in the space between? What is possible that has felt impossible? What can we learn about ourselves as a man and woman as well as each other in a union?

This has felt like an unknown in my soul history. Maybe we just forgot our ancient past, and are picking up the pieces on our way back to Wholeness and Oneness through our Two-ness. Hiding the pain and fear of feeling separate and alone. The covering up of feeling rejected, abandoned, or harmful. This we cannot avoid when we are choosing to embody our Divinity. Oneness is not just a bliss state of transcendence, it is the grinding, twisty, gristy road back to transparent intimacy. Not a mastery of it, but a real felt experience of it in its truest form we call Love.

It is through this healing process and paradigm called SoulFullHeart, that my beloved Kasha and I can surf these waves and explore these territories with trust and realness. We have inner guidance as well as outer support through community, and that is a blessing. It is why I am being transparent about my journey so that others can get a sense of what the process is like and where we are able to go within ourselves and with each other. May it be a beacon and a service to you wherever you are on your journey of self-love, self-discovery, and relational healing and maturation.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Good Friday Message From Yeshua

“You were born into the glory of the Divine
Into the care of the Mother and Father
You were born free
Yet being convinced otherwise
You have sacrificed and crucified yourself
Out of fear of your own bigness
Out of fear of real Love

The crosses you bear
Are the portals back to your divinity
Back to your death and your resurrection
Lay them at the altar of forgiveness
And set them free
For they are of little value anymore
They served until they served no more

Climb up from the valley floor
And witness all that you have borne
To be born again
Born into new skin
With new eyes
And a new heart

One that does not judge, yet discerns
One that does not forget, yet forgives
One that does not fight, yet remains steadfast

You are that which stands between your Light and your Dark, between your slavery and your freedom. You are that which chooses and that which has chosen
You are what was and what will Be.

This is a journey and not a sentence. Be courageous to feel it all, heal it all, and BE it all.”

~Transmission from Yeshua

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Ongoing Journey Of Healing Our Worthiness, Collectively & Individually

by Kasha Rokshana

In your conscious worthiness, desires and needs are answered, and the journey is embraced. ~

What a journey finding and feeling our truest sense of self-worth is!

I’ve never managed to find anywhere outside of myself, in any outward validation or through mastering the exercises in any self-help book. The only place I’ve continually found a way to answer each layer of unworthiness that is revealed inside of me is by feeling. Not through force, but by feeling. Not through a silver bullet, but through an ongoing process. This process at times is very sober yet all the time it’s alive and moving through me with so much messiness and grace, both.

Our collective worthiness has so much feeling and healing to do too… our worthiness as all of humanity, as a Sacred Human family, and as powerfully big individual souls.

It’s the unworthiness of healing our deep existential fears and separation pain from the Divine, showing up so strongly now with the power of these times we’re in with peaking and eventually collapsing Matrix-based narratives.

We are worthy of the tears and fears of all parts and soul aspects of us being heard and felt.

We are worthy of opening our hearts to the Divine and to others and feeling their hearts open too.

We are worthy of the challenges along the way of letting in this love that is always available to us. It’s the challenges, after all, that remind us that it IS the journey that hold us in all of the letting go so we can let in what we truly desire and need from the Divine and others…

…with our worthiness continually healing and growing.

The process pays off in dividends… the love received lands deeply and transforms so much from within which it couldn’t touch before. We are worthy of this and of trusting this process.

We are worthy of letting in that we are loved through it all.

It’s up to each of us how we choose to embody this process, live into this ongoing journey, and embrace that it truly IS a journey which we are all on together… one humble step inward at a time.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Courage To Be Love During The Great Transition

There are so many Great’s we are hearing about. The Great Reset. The Great Awakening. The Great Passing (as labeled by my beloved, Kasha). We can also term it The Great Transition. They all represent the same thing…a movement from one conscious landscape to another. Energy is always in constant transition from one state to another. We are never truly static or in stasis, no matter how much it may feel we are at times. The bigger question is, what are we each choosing to transition to?

We can look at any source of information and choose to see many possible timelines, from dystopian to utopian. The combinations and permutations are infinite. We know that this great blue sphere we live on is hurtling through space into photonic fields that are creating mass upgrades. These upgrades and codes are shaking up a by-gone era of manipulation and indoctrination that are coming to a close sooner rather than later. As this happens things will appear to get worse before they seem to get better.

The key word there is ‘appear’. It is hard to see what is happening on this planet as a false reality. A holographic consensus of what appears ‘real’. Yes, it very much is, as we each choose to attend our consciousness and energy into that reality. People are dying and suffering everywhere. We all need to wake up to the systems that we participate in that fuel this reality. We are not separate from what happens in any part of the world. We are a microcosm of the macro.

The Great Transition calls each of us to unplug from this insane system of manipulation and culture of violence. This starts with each of us assessing our own relationship to what we consume and how we get trapped in the clutches of self-righteousness, guilt, fear, and hate. This system has become so very efficient at steering our consciousness away from our own sovereign ability to say No to its snake-charming ways. It has taken us away from our sacred humanity and replaced it with a false one.

To unwind this, there is a phase of inner reflection and Divine communion that cleans the glass of our consciousness and brings us to the precipice of our Higher Heart and Higher Self that is separate from but in relation to the false reality at large. It is not from a Warrior stance that we shift our reality, but from an Ambassador’s courage to stay the course of Love. This must be secure and devout on the inside before it can have a hope in Heaven to surf the changes on the outside.

This inside out process is hard to start with so much being thrown at us from all directions. It takes a lot of courage, soul clarity, and trust to begin or continue the journey. Trust is the vehicle we must hitch a ride with as we move from the dying into the rebirthing. It also takes a lot of compassion and forgiveness of self and other along the way. With each choice, either a yes or a no, we find our way back to the Heart and Soul of what we truly are. A human being full of potential, possibility, and passion. A being that is no longer seduced by that which divides, but drawn to that which unifies.

Each day we are being given the opportunity to choose a different path other than the one that is being laid before us by forces that are no bigger than your own power of choice and self-worth. Don’t just choose wisely, choose courageously and vulnerably.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Are You Willing To Live, Be, Trust?: Transmission Of Support From The Magdalenes/Soul Family

by Kasha Rokshana

For all your brilliance,
Are you willing to also live it out?

For all your wittiness,
Are you willing to be in the unknown?

For all your fire,
Are you willing to soak in still waters?

For all your empathy,
Are you willing to also have compassion?

For all your mistrust,
Are you willing to feel what trust may offer?

For all your compliance,
Are you willing to dig deeper and ask ‘why’?

For all your belonging,
Are you willing to risk standing alone?

…these questions we ask without judgement
To serve and bolster your deeper awakenings,
Your Divine Self’s deeper embodiment,
And the discovery of who you are,
Who you always were,
Yet chose to forget.

Here to serve your upliftment, we are.
As we also hold you in your downtrodden states.

Here to love you, always, we are.
Even in those questioning moments
Where it feels like love cannot possibly exist.

You are embraced
Held
Loved beyond measure of fame, fortune or wisdom.

Loved even in your compliance to the structures that lay dying,

Loved even in the foggy times of unknown choices,

Loved as much in your dying times as your alive times.

With so much of your truest essence in our hearts…
Love,

Your Soul Family/The Magdalenes

(W/ Kasha Rokshana)

I feel this landing in my own heart as a way to remember compassion for myself and all souls at all times. We’re walking out what we came to walk out, and it’s truly up to all of us to choose what we are ready to embody next… with no judgement from those who came before us and support us through it all.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sowing Seeds During The Great Transition

There is a Great Transition happening in our planetary and collective consciousness. There is a Great Death and Rebirth underway. This process is not pretty by any means. All that has been sequestered, hidden, repressed, and manipulated is coming up to be seen and dealt with in our own way. Governments are no longer our saviors, we are.

This is not going to be easy. It hasn’t been for some time. Yet all that is occurring is illuminating all that is no longer in service to the Will of the People. The Dark Wizards and Sorceresses are running out of time and this is when things get chaotic. In the chaos, however, we are give an opportunity to choose what comes next or really what comes Now, for it all exists in the Present. This New Earth seed actually lives within ready to be found and activated.

Unfortunately, we are being overwhelmed by energies that keep us from activating this powerful inheritance. Right now, many may see just a dying tree. That is all that may exist in their consciousness and it is nearly impossible to see the golden ray of New Earth in the distance. Others may choose to only see the Love and the Light. Yet, the reality is that there is both in the same space.

How we each respond to our current circumstances sets the stage for the next. Do we choose to go deep within and navigate the Well of Wounding within, or do we choose to stay trapped in the conveyor belt of the War Machine? Then if we choose to go within how do we do that? These are all self-reflective questions we are all being invited to feel into in each moment.

In this Great Transition, we are being called into deeper layers of Trust. Trust that if we keep healing, keep feeling, and keep aligning to our Divine nature that there will be a time of peace and abundance. There is no guarantee that this will happen in our lifetime globally, but we could plant the seeds with our own personal energy and the way we respond to any circimstance that comes our way in the months and years to come.

It didn’t get this way overnight and it won’t change overnight. We all have a purpose at this time and the biggest one is how we live from the inside out. It is the activation of this New Earth seed that lives within. We are each the Stewards of this Great Transition.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Cure Is In The Care

Last week I was teaching an online English class with other adults from around the world. A woman from the Ukraine came in first and I asked her how she was doing. She said she was still in a state of disbelief, confusion, and fear. I could see it in her eyes and feel it from her energetically. My heart sank in that moment for all of my human brothers and sisters. It felt odd to continue a lesson that seemed so far removed from what was going on, but she was there to get away from it all, to have an hour where she could be among others holding care for her and sending her love via the Heart and having a ‘normal’ conversation even as if nothing was normal around her. 

After the class I sank into a sacred sadness for all of humanity, not just on one side of a geopolitical/cabalistic conflict. In that moment I could feel the depth to which our planet of humans has been infiltrated by a dark force. A machine and a spell. It is also a veil to what lies deep inside each one of us that can change the course of the world forever…Care. 

In the not so distant past, I would feel this collective pain and want to help solve it or assuage it with information. Something to alleviate the guilt and pain that was swirling around. Be some kind of beacon of Hope for others to lean into as well as my inner world. However, this never dropped me fully into the state of Care, for that requires to fully feel the pain that lies underneath it. This pain is thick and global. If we have our own pain that resonates inside it becomes too much to bear and needs understandable relief. That is actually self-care. 

Yet over the years I have been healing my own inner pain, suffering, and guilt to feel a genuine and authentic Care that takes me to this feeling place without being swallowed up by it. I am Jonah in the Whale emanating Love from within. 

I found myself searching news and taking in others’ posts about it. Many trying to offer historical context, corruption analysis, enemy patterning, as well as a “hell, no!” to fear-mongering and information manipulation. I then dropped it all and let myself just feel. Feel the anger, feel the rage, feel the fear, the sadness, the grief, the helplessness, and the hopelessness of everything that this world is being asked to contend with beyond just the Ukraine. 

This is where my human heart opens and just IS. No strategy, no fixing, no mentalizing. Just feeling Care. In this place I feel closer to humanity. I feel a service beyond action, beyond words. It is etheric, psychic, emotive, and quantum. Does it solve the issue at hand this very moment? No. The bombs still fly, the injections still occur, the lives still lost. There is still work to be done, but not in the way we have been programmed it should. 

We must grow out of our politics and out of our information gathering and go into our hearts and souls. This is where we find true Care to be the Cure. Care for ourselves, care for our intimates, and care for our human brothers and sisters. This is not easy for many to do. What may seem like care may just be a layer of diversion from fully feeling whatever that feeling is, even if it leads you back to yourself. Maybe that is where you are meant to go. 

I am realizing how much Care is a spiritual initiation, not just some four-letter word that makes us feel better about ourselves. It is the tie that binds us all together in Holy Humanity. It is that which brings us to new levels of growth and change inside and out. It is our way back to reclaiming and remembering our greatest gift to each other. 

The gift of Love.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Inner Journey Back To The Sovereign

Since my early 20s, when I began to awaken to the vastness and possibility beyond the five-sense, wounded, and constructed consciousness I used to call ‘home’, I have sought an inner and outer ‘truth’. A truth that a part of me could use as a marker of being truly free, righteous, and ‘at peace’. 

I read and listened to many different views and perspectives. I went down roads that seemed to resonate somewhere inside of me. Now I realize I was trying to see myself, trying to feel the truth of who I was beyond the suffering and the yearning. My masculine was looking for the Holy Grail outside not realizing it was inside all along. 

Claiming and seeing my own bigness and gifts has been an ongoing process. I thought if I was knowledgeable enough or eloquent enough I could be seen as this wise and influential person. It is not that knowledge and communication aren’t important, it is more about where does the transmission come from. What is my motivation and purpose? What is it that I truly want? 

This is where my wounded masculine has had his own sorting out around self-worth and power. This is where my soul’s Gatekeeper has needed to come into the light and out of the shadows of the fear of persecution and judgement. This is where the rubber has needed to meet the road and find traction inside of my being. No longer feeling less-than or needing to feel more-than to satiate this woundedness. That doesn’t serve what I want to serve nor needs service.

I want to serve the voice inside another that says, “enough is enough”. The part of you that can no longer do life the way it is and has been for far too long. I want to serve the expanding soul and the vulnerable heart. The desire for sacred romance and soul kin. I want to serve the latent courage that one has to make profound changes and life-altering choices that lead to the Sea of Unknown Aliveness. I want to support your journey to your own Divine alignment that already exists inside of you and offer you the tools to be in relationship to the energies inside of you that don’t feel that alignment. 

I have been given the gift of that way of seeing and feeling that continues to serve me in ways that I longed for and didn’t realize I had inside of me, at least in my past veiled awareness. It has brought me to ever-unfolding edges of my Being that inform new layers of my wounding that inform new layers of my bigness of heart and soul. It is a never-ending story. The only stories that end are the ones that no longer serve. 

We are endowed with the gift of creation. That gift has been hijacked by a force that distorts our true nature to that of a subject. A subject to the tyranny of our smallness, to our fear, and to our suffering. In the first act of defiance and self-love, you can choose to relate to that subject as a part of you. You can choose to relate to the smallness, the fear, and the suffering. In the act of choosing a relationship rather than a fusion, you have created opportunity, hope, and movement. 

This separation, or differentiation, is not meant to sequester or ignore the ‘negative’ energy. It is meant to shine Light on it for understanding and offer Love for compassion and healing. It is meant to transmute, transform, and integrate back into a bigger, brighter, and more sovereign you. This is the Alchemist’s Gold in my opinion. 

But this process is work to be sure. The process of subjugation did not happen overnight and is not freed from overnight. It is an ongoing melting of all the chains that have kept us in our place as subjects in the heart, mind, body, and soul. We are each the Neo, the Buddha, the Christ, and the Sovereign of this manipulated and constructed reality that we have been a part of most of our whole lives, until the wheels have started falling off the proverbial cart.

It is time to begin a New Earth from the inside out. It is seeing its shining light from within as well as feeling the grief of all that has been and may come into being as we move through this reclamation process called Ascension. It is not for those who just want to get back to ‘normal’ or go back to the way things were. It is for those that see that it was the old normal that created our subjugation.

What that New Earth looks and feels like is part of the mystery. Part of the unfolding as each of us wake up, heal from, and choose differently from a state of Love for ourselves as well as others. The details emerge from this place. A place where the Mind is married to the Heart, the Masculine is in union and in flow with the Feminine. A place where we are free to love, to be loved, and to be in love. 

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.