The Challenges Of Sacred Intimacy

Last night I helped a beautiful heart and soul sort out some deep reactions to a soulmate of theirs. When you are on the outside of it and not taking ‘sides’, you can really get to the root of an issue pretty quickly with compassion, curiosity, and a little bit of loving challenge.

But when you are the one in it, well, that is a different story. It is hard to see all the ‘blind spots’ or what we would call a ‘fusion’. I know these all too well in my years in and out of sacred romance. We get caught in our woundedness and things take on a whole new meaning to the part(s) of us fused to that wounding.

We see, feel, and hear things differently. We don’t feel ourselves and we don’t see the Other as themselves. It is a fusion/projection soup that distorts our reality and keeps us from the deeper vulnerability of what lies underneath. I have been at the mercy of this situation many times.

It is so hard to turn the corner on it by yourself. Not impossible but very challenging. Many times we need that outside reflection, query, and loving challenge to see what is happening in a larger context. It does need to be held by one that you trust to be heartfully honest as well as insightful. Now, we may not be ‘right’ all the time, but the deeper trust is that if something is off, there is enough integrity to own it and be responsible to it.

It is one thing to do it as a third-party, but quite another to do it in real time relationship. This is where the rubber meets the road when it comes to our deeper growth and healing. I still have a lot to learn and meet within myself when it comes to sacred intimacy. I am humbled and amazed by those that are in the thick of it, or covet it as their spiritual and healing path.

Between my own experiences and those I have been honored with providing space for, I get to see and feel where I too have been hiding my own vulnerability as well as my truth. We may be so good at reading out that the vulnerability takes a back seat. It is no small task to turn that one around where the tender heart leads and the intuitions follow. That is where we meet our humanity and our sanity.

I learned a lot from this exchange and my personal experience. I learned that women are amazing and brave at working through their emotions and finding their way to the heart. It is hard-wired in them somehow. For us men, it is more like a software program that we are still trying to suss out the deeper code and integrate it into our internal ‘Mother’ board. I believe we are doing the best we can with what we have even if it seems we are not trying at all.

I have also learned that we are just scratching the surface of what it means to be authentically and relationally human. I am getting how spirituality is our container and context, while our relational humanity is our teacher and playground. We are but kindergartners on this path we call ‘ascension’. This somehow makes me feel a humbled compassion for all that we have been through and all we have yet to learn and arise into.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Sacred Spiral Of Healing

The path of healing in my experience has been a spiral. It is what I have witnessed with my beloveds as well as those I have held and hold space for. Trying to set a linear path is a need of a part of us to ‘get to the good stuff already’, to get on with our ‘mission’, or maybe to reach an attainment. In that way, there is so much that can get left behind and remain in shadow.

I consider myself a human being first. Everything else comes after. I believe we all have human pains that have been stored up and held onto for good reason. They needed to be sequestered to survive and maybe even thrive, even if in not the most ideal of circumstances. Yet, when it seems like all is safe and held to a large degree, these hidden pockets of energy, feeling, vibration come to the surface needing, desiring love and reconciliation that they couldn’t get when it wasn’t safe.

This is why you may ask yourself a big WTF? when all seems to be going along great and then….WHAM! Something comes out of what seems like ‘left field’ and you are bulled over with grief, depression, anxiety, fear, etc. It doesn’t make sense with what the external situation is! This may be the case. The external has become safe enough for these repressed parts to bubble up in the most unusual of times. It may be exacerbated and supported by the ‘energies’ of the moment, but they are not a product or result of. They are still a part of your humanity in need of healing.

There are some who know that have things that have been in the closet. Tucked away boxes and suitcases that they are consciously aware of yet have needed the ‘time’ to feel right to go back in. This is very intentional rather than being side-swiped. Neither is better or worse. Just how it has all presented itself to you in the way and time it has needed. The main point is that you meet it. Feel it. Walk the spiral path with it for it is your sacred healing journey and no one else’s.

I don’t feel to convince anyone they still have healing to do. That needs to come from each soul. For me, I know I do. On so many levels even if I am doing ‘well’ right now. Which I am. I may not have the deep pain I once did before I started (thank the Divine!), yet I know that there are deeper layers of my emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical bodies that have pockets yet unrevealed. Whether it is another round with my inner child, a Metasoul aspect, or existential separation wounding, I know that I want to meet it with the depth of heart and soul I have cultivated in this process. I feel I am meant to serve those that sense the same for themselves.

The Sacred Spiral has been around for eons. It represents so much of our own humanity as well as our Divinity. I honor this path something to be present to not just get over, through, or around. I honor all of those that continue to walk this winding road back to wholeness without leaving anything behind in the rush to heal or attain, but to just live and be in every moment whether it is bliss or a mess. Love is holding us in each and every turn.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Let’s Try Being A Hu-Man First

When will we men stop trying to be ‘men’ and just start being more human? This does not mean to me to be more feminine (although a deep connection to the feminine is needed), but to just be a human being with aches and pains, passions and visions. Yes, we have different ways of being in the world that are in contrast to women. We have different expectations placed upon us by society in general. We have different modes of operation. We do have different experiences, clearly.

Yet, at the core we all have something that we crave and need, but somehow men have been convinced or conditioned we don’t or shouldn’t need them. Deep down I believe all men, as human beings, want and need to be seen. We want to be felt and heard if we are brave and vulnerable enough to get to the core of what we really feel.

Most of my life was spent in a tumble-dry around what it means to be a man. Then it was about being divinely or sacredly masculine. All of which led to comparison, judgment, and feelings of inadequacy. NONE of that felt good. It’s crap! Sacred crap, but still crap. I feel for men who, like me, just want to embody our own authentic sense of self in the world. We may want ‘more’ of what we categorize as masculine, but in reality we are just wanting what feels like our truest nature shorn of all the comparative bullshit.

So, we are really not lacking anything we don’t already possess in our Essence. We are all the masculine we can possibly be. We have just been wounded. Been through trauma. Been told how to be in the world. We have hidden the gold in the shit pile of cultural conditioning and shaming. It has been hammered into us to not be vulnerable. To not feel our feelings. To not express anything other than a warrior’s call to arms, or exude the goo of a spiritualized porn star.

Who is it that lies under all of that stuff? Who IS our human man? What pain does he still hold? What grief has gone untouched? What truth and passion has been cordoned off and set to the side in the name of trying to be something we’re not? Trying to just ‘get by’ and survive?

I continue to unearth that man every single day. Not usually in epic movements or illuminations, but in day-to-day feeling and expressing as well as reflections from my beloved mate, Kasha, and soul community. This is where my sacred huMANity comes to play, learn, and witness itself. I have been going back to some very painful times of my life that are serving as a springboard and a catalyst for a different me in the world rather than the ‘me’ that I feel I had been trying to be with mixed results.

These times are rooted in the teenage years and I feel they offer many of us a gateway to not just our inner health, but also our deeper relationship to magic, real spirituality, and the sacredness of our expression in the world. I will go into that deeper in future writings and videos.

For now, I just felt like connecting my man’s heart to yours, whoever you are, wherever you are. I sense there is an army of men out there who feel the same and who just want to feel and be the man that is uniquely them in all the flavors from the Shadow to the Light. I would love to connect with and serve any man who feels the call to fall into his own grace and heart-centered power.

I love you, Man.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Bridging Our Humanity & Our Spirituality | Ep.2 – The SoulFullHeart Podcast

In this episode, we share a bit about our feelings and perspectives on the gap that exists between our humanity and our spirituality and how the SoulFullHeart process can assist and support in bridging that gap by connecting to aspects such as what we call the Gatekeeper, a soul protector and guardian, as well as our wounded 3D parts that have their own trauma that keeps us anchored and looping in those frequencies. It is through our Divine Self that we can bridge and unite the chasm between the two.

Please follow us on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Google Podcasts, Audible, and Anchor.fm to help us get our transmission out to others! 🙂

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SoulFullHeart is a healing process, a contextual paradigm, a very powerful and empowering way of life, and a sacred community all in one. You can find out more on our website: http://www.soulfullheart.org. We’ll also be bridging everything SoulFullHeart through our own unique embodiment and experience of it to add more perspective and understanding as to where we come from and how the topics are held and felt in our hearts and souls.

We offer one-on-one and couple’s facilitation as the guidance and need arises. The SoulFullHeart Current Podcast is a way to serve and also be transparent with who we are and what we feel to embody and create outside the dystopian world that is being widely peddled today. We offer compassion, illumination, direction, feeling, and grounded action that is rooted in the individual self first, that then can spread to others through your own transformation and advocacy. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

We appreciate any ideas for future podcasts for us to delve into as they arise for you. You can leave a comment or email those to us, along with any other comments to soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

You can find our online community, the SoulFullHeart Portal, on Mighty Networks at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co. We highly recommend joining our online community where for only $22/month, you’ll have access to what could be the deepest and most meaningful soul family connections you’ve yet to experience, exclusive videos/guided meditations from us as well as Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and more personal pieces being shared from each of us in our intimate community.

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Thank you for being in The Current with us. It is where we strive to let go, let in, feel, heal, see, be seen, and seek resonant community!

With Love and Currency,
Gabriel & Kasha

Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Bridging Our Humanity With Our Divinity

After holding space for a beautiful multidimensional soul yesterday, I was reminded how much our spirituality and our humanity can be in different rooms at times. Sometimes they are in the same room trying to understand each other and learning to relate to each other. Sometimes it is blissful, other times not so much. We are invited to embody more of our 5D/Divine Self. Yet, this is not always as simple as parts of us (our Gatekeepers especially) would like it to be.

There may be this intense need to just ‘get over’ the healing already and get to the urgent task at hand of healing the planet. A deep desire to get out of the ‘hell’ of 3D and into the heaven of 5D. The urgency and the judgments can be portals into something more real for us however. Underneath this, there is a relationship that is going on between our spiritual self and our human self. One may be judged as ‘good’ or ‘better’, the other as ‘bad’ or ‘worse’. There may be for a part of you that this polarity is energetically strong. A tug-of-war between the two. Or at times, one is completely denied for the sake of the other.

The work we do in SoulFullHeart is to bridge the gap between these two worlds, or the parts and aspects that live in these two worlds. How do they see and feel each other? DO they see and feel each other? Is there a reasonable resistance and protection of going into the human pain body or the spiritual wounds? We are such a cacophony of experience and reality. I feel we are more than just multidimensional, we are pan-dimensional. We cover ALL dimensions from the lightest to the darkest. From the transparent to the hidden.

You may get a visceral sense of this when you feel the waves of bliss and joy come in, then may be followed by a thud back-down-to-earth kind of feeling that takes you down and out. This push and pull can be evidence of something that has not been fully felt, bridged to, and integrated from human to soul, or vice versa. It is hard to embody our divinity if we are denying our humanity or our spirituality, and by that I mean some of the uncomfortable and not fully processed feelings that are held by parts in the emotional body or soul aspects in the Metasoul.

There is a You that is being called forward to be a bridge between these two worlds. One that feels the gifts of both the human heart and the Divine soul. A You that embraces the human and embodies the spirit. This is not a mastery course but a lived-in, lived-out, and felt through one that requires curiosity, compassion, and courage. Courage to face and feel all of the things that still keep us from truly being a Divine Human Being.

That is what wants to come through me today to those that it is meant to land in, including myself. It is a reminder that we are all on a journey and that there is no real destination other than feeling all there is to feel and learning about ourselves in the process. From there we might just touch the true meaning of being human.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional And Relational Maturation Over Mastery

All intimate relationships are sacred. They are meant to offer us something about ourselves that we would not see or feel otherwise. For me it has been the ongoing challenge of being real, transparent, and staying in the room when a part of me may want to defend, hide, or in the past, just give up. Intimacy is not an easy spiritual path, yet it is the most illuminating, growthful, and rewarding in my experience.

As a man, I find this generally true for many other men as well. The last frontier of our spiritual maturation is our emotional maturation. Notice I did not say, mastery. I feel any attempt to ‘master’ our emotions comes from a part of us that is looking to control or avoid something real and messy. I can admit this has been true for me. But messy does not mean chaotic, like a part of me may feel at times when things get real and on the edge or precipice of the unknown. It just means we are sorting out a ton of wounding that has been held in so many hidden pockets of our heart and soul.

As a teenager, I grew up with two different models for a man’s relationship to his emotional body. It was either dismissive stoicism or defensive rage. Nothing fully vulnerable in between. So I learned both of those as strategies and yet I could also feel how I needed and wanted to be something different. Yet, to be this ‘different’ I would need to have the ‘same’ confronted and challenged. Enter relationships to very dynamic and emotionally aware women.

If I really wanted to shift this masculine lineage of emotional immaturity, I drew the very thing that would put the defensive, angery, hurt, and shadowy parts of me into the Light of emotional reality. That is not an easy path! There is this-life wounding and conditioning, other-life karmic binds, and collective and archetypal patternings that can be like trying to turn the Titanic. In any given rumble there can be multiple layers that are at play at one time and this does make it challenging.

From my trailing, wounded, and defensive part it can be a lot to hold. From my leading edge and higher self it is just an opportunity to become more fluent with what is really happening without analyzing or without getting so spun out that the ground collapses between us. This is the challenge in any intimate and sacred union.

It has been a stand-by to try to manage and preserve or just plain let go. What happens in the space between? What is possible that has felt impossible? What can we learn about ourselves as a man and woman as well as each other in a union?

This has felt like an unknown in my soul history. Maybe we just forgot our ancient past, and are picking up the pieces on our way back to Wholeness and Oneness through our Two-ness. Hiding the pain and fear of feeling separate and alone. The covering up of feeling rejected, abandoned, or harmful. This we cannot avoid when we are choosing to embody our Divinity. Oneness is not just a bliss state of transcendence, it is the grinding, twisty, gristy road back to transparent intimacy. Not a mastery of it, but a real felt experience of it in its truest form we call Love.

It is through this healing process and paradigm called SoulFullHeart, that my beloved Kasha and I can surf these waves and explore these territories with trust and realness. We have inner guidance as well as outer support through community, and that is a blessing. It is why I am being transparent about my journey so that others can get a sense of what the process is like and where we are able to go within ourselves and with each other. May it be a beacon and a service to you wherever you are on your journey of self-love, self-discovery, and relational healing and maturation.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Good Friday Message From Yeshua

“You were born into the glory of the Divine
Into the care of the Mother and Father
You were born free
Yet being convinced otherwise
You have sacrificed and crucified yourself
Out of fear of your own bigness
Out of fear of real Love

The crosses you bear
Are the portals back to your divinity
Back to your death and your resurrection
Lay them at the altar of forgiveness
And set them free
For they are of little value anymore
They served until they served no more

Climb up from the valley floor
And witness all that you have borne
To be born again
Born into new skin
With new eyes
And a new heart

One that does not judge, yet discerns
One that does not forget, yet forgives
One that does not fight, yet remains steadfast

You are that which stands between your Light and your Dark, between your slavery and your freedom. You are that which chooses and that which has chosen
You are what was and what will Be.

This is a journey and not a sentence. Be courageous to feel it all, heal it all, and BE it all.”

~Transmission from Yeshua

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Ongoing Journey Of Healing Our Worthiness, Collectively & Individually

by Kasha Rokshana

In your conscious worthiness, desires and needs are answered, and the journey is embraced. ~

What a journey finding and feeling our truest sense of self-worth is!

I’ve never managed to find anywhere outside of myself, in any outward validation or through mastering the exercises in any self-help book. The only place I’ve continually found a way to answer each layer of unworthiness that is revealed inside of me is by feeling. Not through force, but by feeling. Not through a silver bullet, but through an ongoing process. This process at times is very sober yet all the time it’s alive and moving through me with so much messiness and grace, both.

Our collective worthiness has so much feeling and healing to do too… our worthiness as all of humanity, as a Sacred Human family, and as powerfully big individual souls.

It’s the unworthiness of healing our deep existential fears and separation pain from the Divine, showing up so strongly now with the power of these times we’re in with peaking and eventually collapsing Matrix-based narratives.

We are worthy of the tears and fears of all parts and soul aspects of us being heard and felt.

We are worthy of opening our hearts to the Divine and to others and feeling their hearts open too.

We are worthy of the challenges along the way of letting in this love that is always available to us. It’s the challenges, after all, that remind us that it IS the journey that hold us in all of the letting go so we can let in what we truly desire and need from the Divine and others…

…with our worthiness continually healing and growing.

The process pays off in dividends… the love received lands deeply and transforms so much from within which it couldn’t touch before. We are worthy of this and of trusting this process.

We are worthy of letting in that we are loved through it all.

It’s up to each of us how we choose to embody this process, live into this ongoing journey, and embrace that it truly IS a journey which we are all on together… one humble step inward at a time.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Courage To Be Love During The Great Transition

There are so many Great’s we are hearing about. The Great Reset. The Great Awakening. The Great Passing (as labeled by my beloved, Kasha). We can also term it The Great Transition. They all represent the same thing…a movement from one conscious landscape to another. Energy is always in constant transition from one state to another. We are never truly static or in stasis, no matter how much it may feel we are at times. The bigger question is, what are we each choosing to transition to?

We can look at any source of information and choose to see many possible timelines, from dystopian to utopian. The combinations and permutations are infinite. We know that this great blue sphere we live on is hurtling through space into photonic fields that are creating mass upgrades. These upgrades and codes are shaking up a by-gone era of manipulation and indoctrination that are coming to a close sooner rather than later. As this happens things will appear to get worse before they seem to get better.

The key word there is ‘appear’. It is hard to see what is happening on this planet as a false reality. A holographic consensus of what appears ‘real’. Yes, it very much is, as we each choose to attend our consciousness and energy into that reality. People are dying and suffering everywhere. We all need to wake up to the systems that we participate in that fuel this reality. We are not separate from what happens in any part of the world. We are a microcosm of the macro.

The Great Transition calls each of us to unplug from this insane system of manipulation and culture of violence. This starts with each of us assessing our own relationship to what we consume and how we get trapped in the clutches of self-righteousness, guilt, fear, and hate. This system has become so very efficient at steering our consciousness away from our own sovereign ability to say No to its snake-charming ways. It has taken us away from our sacred humanity and replaced it with a false one.

To unwind this, there is a phase of inner reflection and Divine communion that cleans the glass of our consciousness and brings us to the precipice of our Higher Heart and Higher Self that is separate from but in relation to the false reality at large. It is not from a Warrior stance that we shift our reality, but from an Ambassador’s courage to stay the course of Love. This must be secure and devout on the inside before it can have a hope in Heaven to surf the changes on the outside.

This inside out process is hard to start with so much being thrown at us from all directions. It takes a lot of courage, soul clarity, and trust to begin or continue the journey. Trust is the vehicle we must hitch a ride with as we move from the dying into the rebirthing. It also takes a lot of compassion and forgiveness of self and other along the way. With each choice, either a yes or a no, we find our way back to the Heart and Soul of what we truly are. A human being full of potential, possibility, and passion. A being that is no longer seduced by that which divides, but drawn to that which unifies.

Each day we are being given the opportunity to choose a different path other than the one that is being laid before us by forces that are no bigger than your own power of choice and self-worth. Don’t just choose wisely, choose courageously and vulnerably.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.