Today I Choose To Rise

Today

Today I choose differently

I choose to give back all that I have held

In the name of my unworth

I choose to give in to all that I am being invited to feel

In the name of my freedom from the Darkness

I choose to serve the Dark but not Be it

In the name of my arising leadership and purpose

I choose to no longer fear real love

But to open my heart to the One that is meant to spark its fire

Today I rise

I rise to the possibilities and the destinies

The clarities and vulnerabilities

Today I rise knowing that there is always more on its way

But this time I will be ready

To face it all with Love and the need to say No More

To the things that no longer serve me

Today I choose to rise

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Reflections From Our Interconnections: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Digging IN
my heart remembers
what it only can with you.
And what’s always true
is the plan of living
and the exquisite pain
of letting in
while also letting go.

Ecstatically
the heart opens and closes again
echoing thoughts and words within
the pulse of beating hearts
and timelines crossing timelines.

Instinctually
the forbidden mind
starts to mine
the experience of the heart
and integration of lined-up soul pieces
that flow and flee and double-back
into the next full circle
of healing miracles
within.

Reflections, ALL
move inside the current being
now seeing
what couldn’t be seen without them
moving into the heart space and out again
leaving me with more gain
than loss.

No matter the next
and next
and next
reflections and reactions and reactivations
the following places
pace in a dance
that races then recedes
in a way wild
uncontrolled
and absolutely
ALIVE.

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Art by Rassouli

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Becoming The Author Of Your Own Story

By Raphael Awen

When you are no longer controlled by outside forces, you are the author, possessing the author-ity for what your life is about.

Becoming the Sovereign of your own life in this way is a scary proposition as it leaves us completely responsible for own lives, leaving us the challenge of owning all of our lives – all that’s in our lives, and all of our lifetimes.

There’s no one to blame. There’s no circumstance to point the finger at; no lot in life, that doesn’t originate in you.

The idea of having whatever you want is only novel and exciting until you realize that’s what actually been going on this whole time. The challenge is coming to terms with your authorship, deciding the story that you actually want; deciding and negotiating between the parts of you that want different things.

You are not your circumstances. You are not your relationships. You are not your job. You are not your bank balance. You are not even your health. You created all of that, but you are not that.

You are the creator.

Maybe like me, you set your sights on healing your anxiety or your depression. You did that, only to realize this was much to small a goal for the Sovereign you actually are. No longer being in the depths of anxiety or depression is nice, but that alone can’t fill the expansive sails of your being.

You are called to experience yourself in continual curiosity and childlike wonder and learning. You are ever called to more.

What does your more look like? What is wanting to mature and manifest in your life, in your world, in your magical story?

What have parts of you been afraid of, in order to enact the changes that you know are ripening in your story?

How can you lovingly reconcile and negotiate these inner differences?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Door To Our Inner Garden

By Raphael Awen

And for how long we longed after some door external to us to find our magic, our light, our sparkle, when the door was in our own inner garden all along. 

If this is true, then what seems to predispose us all to look outward or to an other?

We have been convinced that the self is ‘selfish,’ an inherently bad word and a very bad thing, when in truth until you become truly and deeply selfish, youcan in no wise inherit the kingdom of God, for this kingdom and queendom is inside you.

To be fully selfish is to do and be what brings you the fullest and deepest pleasure. How could that not be to the fullest and deepest pleasure of all of life and every living thing around you.

Shortchanging yourself is shortchanging the world and everyone around you. 

Your problem isn’t that you are self centred, it is that you are not centred in yourself enough to the true degree and depths of that which you really are and with what you really want. 

Give up the pretence that you have no self-interest for when in fact, as a self, that is all you have.

Show me your most noble self-less act, and then show me how you are not deriving a personal return from it. 

Until we reconcile this inside of ourselves, the door to our own inner garden of our magic remains sealed.

How could it be any different?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Evolution Through INvolution

By Gabriel Heartman

“Emerging from the cocoon, you are a new creature and everything is different. There are no laws. There are just fossilized habits. And the whole journey is crossing these habits – locating them and realizing the barrier to your development is also the lever. Medicine and biology have their codified barriers, which are all levers of sorts. If there is a wall, there is also the other side of the wall. To find the wall, to know it is a wall, is to be able to cross it.”

-Henri Monfort from Pranic Nourishment: Another Path To A Spiritual Life

While this quote is specific to our biology and its preconceived limitations in regards to living a life of pranic nourishment, I can also replace ‘medicine and biology’ with almost any 3D structure. Politics, government, education, economics, society, etc. and come to an awareness that our evolution comes through our own personal INvolution.

That inner evolution comes when we come to and cross these ‘Rubicons’ of growth and consciousness. Parts stare at the edge of an abyss or the perceived infinite height or depth of a wall, and come to choice point. Do I keep this structure in place or do I choose to connect with my soul at a higher and deeper level to guide me with Grace across, and through, these ‘barriers’?

When choosing Soul, the levers open up and we are invited to cross over.

This is a death and a rebirth. This glorified and rarified moment we chose to embody Life at a level once imperceptible to our awareness. It becomes the New Now. The Norm. The ground we now walk upon that offers more than physical death and taxes.

You are freeing yourself from one world, and entering a new one.

The ‘rules’ have shifted and now life/consciousness takes on a whole different trajectory than the one it used to be beholden to. This does not come without a price of feeling the pain of that. But with each felt step and integration, we walk the road back to our essence as Love, Light, and Magic.

Weightless, fearless, and free.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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The Aliveness And Love In Feeling It ALL

by Kalayna Solais

As I look out at the horizon, the abundance of natural gifts around me, I feel the vastness of my own future and the potential for all in this human family.

I feel the realness of our struggles. The ways in which we try to bypass but not feel. The feelings that we’d rather not have to experience or relive in order to grow. The past which we would rather forget about than realize parts of us are still living in.

Our true sense of presence is not from obscuring or falsifying our memories of life experiences from this or any lifetime, but from feeling the parts of us and Metasoul aspects still resonating and literally living in these timelines and stories, that still feel the pain we thought we’d healed by now, that still bring all of these feelings of living in these situations into where and who we are now.

As I breathe in and out, feeling my body fill up with prana and light energies, feeling my parts and Metasouls who are vibrating in this and any moment, I feel how alive FEELING makes me. How distinctive this love for myself that grows with each process is from any ‘love’ I’ve been taught or talked at about. I feel this love expanding into the horizon I take in and breathe in. Echoed back by nature, shared with my beloveds, offered to anyone who is ready to take it in and let it support their own journeys.

The love of this world far outweighs the severity of the turmoil… Holds space for it… And IS bringing it into something new, with all of the permission we can give it to do so starting from deep within each of us.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Your Great Awakening And Disclosure Are At Hand

The recent suicide by Jeffery Epstein is rumbling throughout the collective and is casting a huge spotlight on nature of this case and the ‘powers that be’. For many, this is not a huge surprise considering the magnitude of what he represented. It is right there for all of us to see.

No, there is no particular evidence to suggest otherwise, though I am sure there are some making their way. As we learned from the JFK assassination, 9/11, and numerous other events, this will be muddied before it will be made clear. That can be guaranteed.

However, the collective can ‘feel’ it. They can sense it. It has ‘no duh’ written all over it. We are being messaged from the ruling class that they still have control, even as they are losing it. So now there will be a show. An extravaganza with all the makings of a daytime drama we will not be able to peel ourselves from. Huge stores of time, money, and energy will be expended from all sides. The crowd will gather at the coliseum with torches, pitchforks, and cellphones in hand.

While we are gathered, the game continues. The divide widens. Yet, it can be different. We can take this as a sign of the times. Something is rumbling. It is coming down. As the pieces fall there is going to be damage. There will be a chaotic feeling in the air as the shadow plays itself out in full form.

To move through it, we must move with it. It is through coming into our own shadow and feeling where the disclosure within still lies. What you can see, feel, and relate to within you with Love and Compassion will be the tools you apply in the Great Awakening. The time when what the collective has been asleep to and unconsciously complacent in comes to the forefront.

We all have a part to play in this. Some came to do the work of exposing the details. Others are here to be exposed, and many are here to be the balm after the bomb. If you are one of those, your mission, if you choose to take it, is to feel and know the real you. Not just the good, but the not-so-good. The wounded, the abuser, the controller, the ugly, the evil. They live in us as it lives ‘out there’.

Watch the events from a distance, but stay on course. Hold the Light into the Dark. As it shines brighter it causes the rumbles to happen faster but it is what you came here to do. To move out of the 4D paintrix and into the New 5D embodied God and Goddess you have always been. Let the reactions lead you within and then into this Divine frequency.

Your own Disclosure is at hand.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Message From Leo On The Lion’s Gate

On this day of August 8, I felt to tap into the message of the Lion. He is inviting us to lead ourselves into a new relationship with our experience of life and Gaia as we have known it. He is about finding our courage and strength and feeling all that we need to feel during this highly transformative time.

What wounds and pains, both this and other lives, are looking to be heard and felt at this time?

What resistance is showing up inside of us that keeps us from fully inhabiting the largess and love sponges we are?

This is not an easy choice to make going INto the pain, not to suffer, but to heal. To reveal. To discover. It leads us into our jungle and arises as the king and queen of our truest dreams and inner knowing.

You may be invited to make some difficult choices along the way. We can not have things stay the same and expect them to be different. Leading your way into your next emotional and spiritual growth terrain is what Leo is offering and guiding us toward. Healing your way to passion, purpose, and the remembrance of magic.

From denser energy to a higher vibration.

From care-taking to self-actualization.

From being alone to being in community and sacred passionate romance!

At some point today, take some time to tap into your wildest dreams, the savannah of your imagination. Drink the water of your open and plentiful heart and let it fill you with the ‘roar for more’ even as they show up in tears. This is your time to have it All when you are ready to feel it All.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. 

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Lion’s Gate Energy To Activate And Empower The Inner Masculine

This upcoming Lion’s Gate feels like a very activating and empowering portal. We are being offered the support to go in and access where we are still recapitulating dynamics and patterns in our emotional body and Metasoul. These cycles are looking to complete with love and compassion and reemerge into new cycles of higher manifestations and empowered, self-loving choices.

The inner masculine provides the ‘juice’ for this transition transmission. It creates the container by which the healing and emerging can deepen. If you feel like there a block to manifesting or moving into your next phase of growth, there is a part of you that has a resistance to that.

It can be a Protector/Gatekeeper that knows what is possible if that container is created. It means you have the ways and means to get even more intimate with yourself and your shadow. It also means that you have more to ‘lose’ if you are successful at the manifestation of what it is you truly want.

With each portal we are being shown what it is we need to go into to further this ascension process. Subconsciously we have some clue and THAT is what scares us. Going in it is what brings us to the other side, but do we have just enough worth to bring the unworth with us and see what happens?

This is a great time to feel what it is you really want out of life. Put in your Christmas list now as the Universe, and our Sirian aspects, want to give it to us! It is all right here for each of us to grab. Santa’s bag is an Infinite well of goodies! This is where it can feel too good to be true for many parts and aspects of you anchored in the unworth and scarcity.

Tapping into your Sirian guides, your inner masculine/feminine, inner child/teenager, and Protector/Gatekeeper can help bring clarity to what has kept you from fully inhabiting and claiming what it is you really want and believe you can be.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Getting Sirius About Unworthiness With Love & Compassion

It is genuinely feeling our worth that leads us beyond what we have currently set up for ourselves in our experience, both externally and internally.

It is easy for our unworth to accept the environment that we have settled for, as attempting to go beyond that means we would have to feel like we deserved it to harness the power to change it. So many excuses to living a truly magical life are ways in which our unworth is telling us that it is afraid to feel the depth of this wound.

The power to manifest lies in our worth. It is the what opens the door to turning our dreams into reality. Mundane into the Sacred. It what pulls us out of the dark and into the light. But the act of letting in our worth is found in feeling the part of us that holds our unworth.

To be able to just separate that out means you have enough worth to take another step. To feel another possibility. Making the next choice while your worth holds your unworth through the doorway and into the next layer of your power and self-love. Each time you hold this unworthiness through its cycles, it surrenders more and more and you get bigger and bigger.

The experiences can be very difficult. The unworthiness, expressed in so many different ways, can win out at times. It does have an immense power, but since it was ultimately created by us in the first place means we must have the power to be hold it and love it.

This core wound will arise in times when you find yourself on your way to accessing your greatest gifts and your deepest love. It is ironically a sacred road sign that was planted by you before you even realized it. So antithetical to a rational mind bent on avoiding pain. It is easy to find ourselves being in stasis in order to not go into it. But when you are ready, when your soul and guides and soul family are there to back you up when needed, it will come to you.

It says, “I trust you and I need you.” Your unworth is your sacred treasure to the magic you have always been.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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